#if she doesnt i'll have just waited for nothing

[weirdraccoon]

MC *pulling Sebastian to her room*: Did you bring protection?

Sebastian *turning nervous*: Why? What's in there?

[sovonight]

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[claitea]

a little personal project i'm slowly chipping away at, thought it would be fun to make it into a chart that i add a doodle to every time i finish a new character so i can track how i'm going with it!

by project i just mean i want an oc of each type. i'm not making a game or anything the positions listed are purely for fun HDJBFJFKE

[chucklechampion]

ah heem heem......

[biteyoubiteme]

blind date

Jeongin x fem!reader

synopsis: your friend invites you on a double date only your date doesnt talk to you all night.

warnings: 🔞!!! slight angst, mentions of drinking, protected sex, prob forgot some sorry

wc: 2.8k

an: this was a request! hope I did it justice but I don't think im too good at writing angst and this isn't too fluffy lol sorry anon :p feedback is appreciated! not proofread sorry [m.list]

“he's so cute I promise you won't regret it,” your friend is trying so hard to put on a convincing argument, begging you to go out with her tonight on her date, “I'll pull up his instagram! Please I'm so nervous I can’t go alone,” she pulls out her phone typing away before passing it to you. 

“oh his is cute,” you whisper not wanting to admit you were leaning toward going. but as you scroll through his page you knew you wouldn't pass up a date with him even if it was awkward to be going with your friend and you didn’t know him at all. but one photo showing his sweet smile and little dimple was enough for you to agree because only the world's strongest and heartless individuals could withstand the power of dimples on anyone. 

A few hours later you’re seated at a table, tucked into the back of the bar, picking at your nails. As happy as your friend is with her date, giggling and sharing light touches, you’re sitting in silence with Jeongin. 

the two of you had shared a soft hello, ordered at the bar together, and then fell off talking without even really starting. The booth was shaped in a way that you and Jeongin were just watching your friends fall in love.  

“So are you from here?” you try, your straw in between your fingers and stirring your drink. 

“Not really,” he says, watching his hand on the table, thumb rubbing over a drop of water that slid from the side of his glass. 

you wait for him to elaborate but get nothing in return, you contemplate kicking your friend under the table to ask to cut this all short. She is not nervous anymore and you know the two of them will be going on another date without question. It's when you sip from your empty glass that Chan turns away from your friend and notices the two of you sitting in silence. 

“Do you want a refill?” he asks, hiking his thumb over his shoulder, he looks back to your friend with a dimple-graced smile, “We’ll go get another round yeah?” 

“Okay,” she nods as Chan and Jeongin slip out of the booth and head to the bar. 

“you’re the worst he won't even fucking talk to me!” 

“I'm sorry last time when I met him he seemed so sweet and just your type, I don’t know what happened,” 

“he's looking everywhere but my face, hell I'm sure he hasn't even glanced at my hand,” 

“I'm sorry but just a little longer please, Chan invited us back to his apartment to hang and I don’t want to go alone,” 

“I'm not third-wheeling your hook-up,” 

“No his roommates will be there and some of his other friends and any of their girlfriends, please,” she folds her hands in front of her pouting her lips. “I need you,” 

“you do not, he's all over you, I need you,” she bats her lashes and you know you’ll give in. Even a bad date wouldn't keep you from helping your friend, “you owe me,” 

It was only an hour later when you were in the back of an uber squished between jeongin and your best friend that you were truly regretting saying yes to a blind date in the first place. Jeongin was trying to keep every part of him from touching you, thighs pulled in close to the door, arm slung across his stomach. it was making you angry. both of you had been invited to your friend's date and both of you should have turned it down. if he didn’t want to be here with you he could pretend or try to hold a conversation at the very least. instant silence was worse than faking it, or at least for your ego.

even sitting in their living room with all their friends joking and laughing you couldn't put it aside. jeongin sitting across from you, nodding along with whatever was said to him, avoiding your gaze. 

everyone is playing cards or joking around and you’re trying to join in on the conversation, sipping from a drink your friend brought over to you when you notice jeongin excuse himself from the group. without much thought, you throw the rest of your drink back for encouragement before leaning past your friend to ask Chan where the bathroom is. He points you down the hall Jeongin went and you’re quick to follow. 

The music fades as you move down the hall still leaving room for you to hear the sink faucet on as you lean against the wall opposite the bathroom. crossing your arms to listen to the sound of the water turning off and the lock clicking. 

jeongin is surprised to see you waiting for him, little angry scowl making him avert his eyes from yours. He lowers his head trying to move past you but you shoot your arm out to block him. 

“Is there something wrong with me?” the words spill out before you can stop yourself. jeongin jolts back at the question, finally meeting your gaze. 

“What?”

“Are you hung up on someone else or am I just not pretty enough? fuckable enough?” 

jeongin is stammering trying to blink away his confusion. “I never- I don’t-“ 

“I mean why else would you ignore me all night? and yeah going out with someone you don’t know can be awkward but damn I got dressed up so cute only to be ignored?” 

you place your hands on your hips and jeongin follows the line of your body with his eyes. “I’ve never really um- I’ve just been-“ 

you feel kinda bad as you watch him try to make a sentence, his cheeks turning pink as he fails, “I was worried about this exactly,” he gets out waving around at himself. “and I mean I’ve talked to girls I’ve had a girlfriend before it’s just- it’s been a while and chan was being so nice inviting me along to try and help me but I just-“ he meets your eyes again, “you’re pretty, one of the prettiest girls I’ve ever seen, gorgeous really and I was already so nervous and then I saw you and if I hadn’t been invited I would have never stood a chance and I didn’t want to embarrass myself,” he huffed a laugh, “but I already did that now,” he’s rushing with his words trying to get everything out so that he says his peace. 

he wants to put this to bed and wallow in his embarrassment in private now. he didn’t want to get his hopes up to see you leave here and never think about him again. he could imagine you giggling with your friend on the car ride home and he didn’t want that so he just didn’t talk. Now he’s opening the door for all of his fears and he won’t even shut up. “and there’s nothing wrong with you I swear. if I could make love to you I would I just didn’t want to be embarrassing,” 

and although you feel a little bit like an ass seeing him so shy it doesn’t stop your giggle at his last statement. “I didn’t ask if you wanted to make love to me, I asked if I was fuckable, there’s kinda a difference,” if jeongins blush could spread any farther it would. “to make love you kinda have to talk to someone; get to know them,” 

“Sorry,” he breathes and it’s then he’s realizing just how close the two of you are standing to each other. “I-I do find you…” jeongins eyes flicker down to your lips watching the way you tuck them between your teeth. 

“fuckable? you can say it but only if you mean it,” 

you watch his throat bob as he swallows, watch as his eyes dip down over your body before he looks back to you, “I do find you fuckable,” the words at the end of a whisper. both of you watching each other waiting for the other to move, to do something. but you realize he probably wouldn’t make the first move, not after everything already. 

lifting a hand you place it over his stomach sliding your hand up his chest as his breathing increases; he doesn’t stop you. jeongin is leaning closer, dipping his head down until his lips are just about to meet yours. “prove it,” you whisper and it’s what sends him over the edge pressing his mouth to yours. 

he leaves the softest kiss before pulling away looking at you for the smallest second before his hand slides behind your neck pulling you back to his lips. 

He kisses you like this is the only time he will have his mouth on you like he wants to consume you. 

your fingers tangle in his shirt and in the hair at the back of his neck not knowing what's come over you. the two of you barely break away for air long enough to think past the feeling of each other. stumbling he presses you into the wall, your back flush against the surface as he wedges himself closer to you, knee between your legs and his hand heavy on your waist you don’t care if only a few minutes ago he was ignoring you like you had the plague, not when he's kissing you like this. 

when he starts to kiss down your neck is when you decide you don’t care how far it goes tonight as long as he keeps touching you. “Take me to your room,” you're whispering into his ear, and he's nodding against you not even stepping away from you as he guides you backward towards his door. you have little time to take in the space when he shuts the door. his space tidy and inviting the only light coming from his desk lamp. His bed is half made with the comforter showing someone had rolled out this morning. in a moment jeongin pulls you with him to the edge of the bed, “we don’t have to do anything,” he mutters as you climb into his lap, his hands attached to your hips. 

you brush his hair back from his face, “Do you wanna stop?” and you find it cute that even just from kissing he's hard pressed against your inner thigh trying to stop himself from guiding your hips against him for friction. 

“no don’t stop,” hands sliding down the curve of your ass pulling you down harder on his erection. “I'm sorry I was so awkward and ignored you,” he kisses down your throat as you grind on him, ”I want to get to know you I-,” he cuts himself off with a moan when you slip your hand between you two to palm him over his jeans. 

“you can ask me out for real after we both get off okay?” 

“you'll say yes?” his breathy question sounds like a plea as you fumble with the button of his jeans. “I didn’t think you would like me,” 

“Well, you would have never known if I did or not unless you looked at me first,” your hand slips into the waistband of his underwear and he buries his head into your neck as he moans against your skin. The warmth of his precum helps slide your hand over his veiny shaft, thumb circling his tip as his hands dig into the fabric of your skirt. “Look at me,” your free hand fisting his hair to tug his head back. “if you make me cum it's a guaranteed yes,” 

His smile is suddenly sinful, an irrefutable dimple on display as he wraps his arm around your waist flipping the two of you over so that you’re on your back against the comforter. He pushes up your skirt, eyes drawn to the outline of your cunt in your lace panties. you sit up on your elbows as he presses his thumb to your clit, your head rolling back at the feeling of his rubbing circles, your knees spreading wider. He hooks his fingers into your panties pulling them to the side, free hand reaching out to gather your wetness. 

jeongin doesn't want to waste any time, reaching over and past you to pull out a condom from the nightstand next to you. you hadn't seen having sex in the cards tonight but watching him slide on the condom all the slick he got from you used to help roll it down was enough to make you ache for him. his pants aren't even fully down as he climbs into bed pressing himself into the cradle of your hips. you reach down to help guide him to your entrance, notching the head of his cock right where you wanted him. 

your head rolls back as jeongin pushes in, the stretch making both of you moan. He pauses only halfway before pulling back out, rubbing along your folds and against your clit before pushing all the way in. Your arms wrap around his neck as he kisses down your jaw. He's thrusting so slowly that you arch your hips trying to meet him halfway. “faster I don’t want it slow,” 

he nods, pulling away enough so that he can hook your legs into the crook of his elbows, folding you in half your skirt completely bunched up at your waist as you tug your panties more to the side. laying himself on top of you he slides in deeper than you thought possible feeling him pressed against your cervix. He gives you one last soft kiss before he starts pounding into you without remorse. his eyes trained on your every facial expression, your gummy walls squeezing around him as he bit back curses at the feeling. you know that everyone is just down the hall but it's hard to keep quiet when he's angling his hips just right to hit your gspot, your hand sneaking down to rub at your clit. “Look at how pretty you are taking my cock, now that I have my eyes on you I can’t look away,” you try to bite back your whine, hips sinking as he slams into you. “Now who's not talking?” 

you can feel your orgasm building in your stomach, your toes curling as you roll your head back. “no no look at me when you cum I wanna know I got my second date the moment it happens,”  and the feeling hits you like a truck, jeongins hand coming up to cover your mouth to keep your noises down but his arm moving sends your leg higher and you feel him press further into you. you’re trembling as he lets you ride out your high his slow strokes a mixture of his soon climax and the absolute pleasure of feeling you squeeze around him. The warmth of him filling the condom has you pressing your hand to his mouth to silence him, his arms buckling as he tries to keep himself upright.

when the both of you catch your breath you realize neither of you has removed your hands from the other's mouth, both of your giggles muffled from the realization. both of you move your hands and Jeongin kisses your nose before pulling out of you, your hiss at the sensation has him rubbing his thumb through your folds the slight overstimulation making your knees jerk. “I'm sorry next time i'll try to go a bit slower, maybe i'll have talked enough to have moved past fuckable,” he pulls your panties back into place before you sit up. 

“we will need at least five dates before you get to lovemaking status,” you reach over to pull him back to your lips, “for the meantime fast and hard is perfect,” you can feel his smile as you kiss. 

When both of you pull apart you stand fixing your skirt as he tosses the condom in the trash. “I need to go clean up in the bathroom,” you say, brushing your hair back with your fingers. 

jeongin nods, finding his phone to hand over to you, “first your number,” you’re quick to input it before making your way out into the hallway. both of you smiling like idiots as he closes the door to his room, both of you nearly jumping out of your skin when your friend clears her throat. 

“I was just coming to check to see if you were ready to go,” her grin tells you she knows exactly what happened. 

“I'm just going to the restroom then we can go,” she's standing right in front of the bathroom door as you make your way over. 

“Who's third wheeling who's hook up now?” she whispers as you pass her. 

 your blush is all the way down your neck, you look back over your shoulder, “Make sure to call me okay?” and Jeongins looks at you like you've already got him wrapped around your finger.

[deepwoundsandfadedscars]

Sat down to have a chat with my cousin before he flies home tomorrow to his wife, just cause I was anxious that she would try to twist it against me if she talked to him first, I explained my side of what the interaction was and the blatant lies she claimed, and he's not at all surprised and in fact is already planning on getting a paralegal when he gets home to start getting her the fuck out of his life

Me last night: hmm maybe I want another tattoo, I'm going to start talking to this artist *sends message*

My cousins wife: *sends an incredibly hostile message about how I've been ignoring her and she's gone above and beyond for me trying to be supportive of me, when in reality she hasn't texted me first since November and when I text her, she's very short with me and makes no effort to continue a conversation with me*

"Yeah hi, artist? Make that three tattoos"

[thewertsearch]

UU: now consider that A1 begets A2. UU: A2 begets B1. UU: and B1 begets B2. UU: and the participants of B2 are the ones who will make an effort to exit all this tUrbUlence and falderal.

Again with this exiting. If I didn't know any better, I'd suspect that Lord English wanted these dangerous Players out of his neck of the woods as soon as humanly possible.

UU: yoU are one of them! :U UU: and yoUr yoUng ancestor is another, thoUgh she is "presently" stationed in B1.

Wait, is Umbra saying that Jade qualifies as a post-Scratch Player? She is travelling to this session as we speak, but I didn't expect her to join the game on an official basis.

Are pre-Scratch Players really allowed to just... slot themselves into the new session, if they're able to find it? That doesn't sound right - according to Scratch, the typical fate of a Scratched Player is absolute oblivion. There's something very weird going on, here.

GT: So you are still in contention that i will meet our elders as youths? UU: oh yes! ^u^ GT: Ah ha! Then i WILL be traveling through time. I knew it. GT: Or… they will be. Whichever it is. GT: Which is it, btw? UU: caUsal spoilers, sir english!

Hm.

UU is clearly omitting a lot - but for now, I'll give her the benefit of the doubt. After all, giving Jake too much information would risk dooming the timeline, a dilemma that Rose struggled with before.

GT: I never got to know my grandma very well and it always seemed like she led an amazing and adventurous life. GT: Then this seemed to be proven true in my correspondence with her. So im really looking forward to it. UU: so trUe. id pay a hefty ransom to get to know my forebears. GT: I remember you mentioned your race doesnt really jive with ours familially speaking? UU: correct. i never knew those who one woUld identify as my parental eqUivalents. U_U UU: it is in the way my race propagates. oUr ancestors precede Us by millenia.

Alright, so Umbra lives in a world where trolls still reproduce via the Mother Grub. That doesn't really narrow down where she comes from, but every little helps.

GT: Miss alien i think we are like birds of a feather you and i. GT: When do i get to learn your name by the way? UU: hm trUthfUlly? UU: it may be for the best that yoU never know it. UU: it coUld stir Up some things best left in their present eqUilibriUm.

This, however, has completely stumped me.

What could possibly make Umbra's name so dangerous to know? The only theory I have is that it's an intimidating name we're already familiar with, such as Doc Scratch or Lord English - but neither of them really fit.

If nothing else, Umbra is a girl, and something tells me Lord English isn't genderfluid. (Not that I wouldn't be thrilled to be wrong.)

GT: What are we even trying to accomplish here? What is even the rootin tootin POINT of this game? […] UU: yoUr objective today is to pave the way for the arrival of gods.

It's starting to sound like all the pre-Scratch Players will be slotted into the new session. I'm not sure why that would be required, though - the troll session certainly didn't integrate the Ancestors as Players.

Jade does have all the pre-Scratch Lands, though, as well as the Battlefield.

Are we going to be shoving both sessions together, or something? That feels like something that would glitch the hell out of the game - so, in other words, it's something I really want to see.

[maplesyrupsainz]

˖⁺｡˚⋆˙summer lovin | PG10˖⁺｡˚⋆˙

pairing: pierre gasly x actress!reader y/n (she/her)

genre: social media au, established relationship

warnings: mentions of sex & sexual jokes but no smut

summary: in which you and your boyfriend run rampage on social media causing chaos during the break in the f1 season

a/n: FINALLYYYY PIERRE REQUEST!!!! this was sm fun hehe i may have alr started another pierre fic without a request..... 👀

request!!!: pierre gasly x singer/actress reader, so we all know about Tripod and 🐶 Emoji, and I had this idea about pierre dating someone as equally unhinged as him like Renée Rap

fc: ruby lyn

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THE END 🩷

[darkbluekies]

Shit happens! We understand and are grateful to even get to read your stuff FOR FREEEEE. So we can wait a little while longer, dw.

I hope you and your friends have a blast. Be sure to give us an update and let us know!!

I'm dogsitting and then going camping with my dad for a month (I have a rather... strained... relationship with him), so my anxiety has been through the roof. If you want, you could just give us a little blurb (just a few sentences or smth) on how they would handle Darlings anxiety! That way, you don't feel like you've done nothing or whatever :P

OMG, DARLING CUDDLING WITH OTTO TO HELP HER ANXIETY AAAAA I LOVE DOGS SM

Ah thank you, I hope so too! I'm making Caprese and garlic bread since my friends take care of the entrecote and the potato salad and the cake and alcohol. I do not drink alcohol so I've got a bottle of sparkling alcohol-free wine allllll to myselffffff while they have their stuff. I'll let you know tomorrow how things go<3

I'm sorry to hear that, I hope everything will be fine! (Theyre a bit humorus below because me as a writer have a hard time comforting people sorry but I hope it makes you smile?) I can reassure you that:

Silas, Hedwig & Edmund are the physical kinds that will hug and calm down with the help of physical touch. A few sweet words thrown in together. These are the clingy/lovesick ones that WILL squeeze you until you feel better. Or pass out. And yes, Silas would definetly use Otto.

Dr Kry is clinical and has probably been taught on how to calm people down, so if I were you I'd choose him for help if you ever need it. He does not disregard your feelings at all. He will sit with you until you feel better and will then make you some tea and watch a movie together to get you on other thoughts.

Jerry lets you listen to her heart and scratches your scalp, headmassage/scalp massage, while telling you "how dumb it is to feel anxious when you can feel happy instead". Very helpful, I know, but she means well, she just doesnt know how to articulate it.

[cesussy]

For the request can you do a Zhu Yuan x Reader? Zhu is tired of her parents asking when she will bring someone. Let’s say she asks the reader, a fellow NEPS Officer to pretend to be their S/O the two weeks they’ll be at their house.

By the end of it genuine feelings start developing between the two. They ultimately decide to test the waters and start dating.

𐙚𓏲fake dating with zhu yuan (except it turns out to not be so fake)⋆ ִֶָ ๋𓂃 ⋆ᡣ𐭩

content. – your co-worker comes to you one day and asks you to pretend to be her partner for two weeks.. wait, partner?!

warnings. – nothing but fluff here! reader is gn<3 i hope she's not too ooc also.. 🙂‍↕️

a/n. AGHH my first request IM SO HAPPY🥹 and with my baby zhu yuan as well🙁💞 its also my first ff but i think ive done quite well! i hope it doesnt feel too rushed or too short, i just got excited to write, so.. 🙂‍↕️

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everythings starts down bellow<3

It was just your normal day at the office. Writing some reports, looking over some cases, just the usual.

..or so that's what you thought.

"Can you pretend to be my partner..! It's just for two weeks, I swear!" Zhu Yuan stood in front of your desk flustered.

Officer Zhu Yuan.. She's an amazing co-worker anyone can ask for. She's sincere, reliable, responsible and faithful to her job.. Truly the perfect cop New Eridu can rely on.

"..Huh?" You blink, your head tilting a but on the side. "Partner? But isn't Officer Qinqyi your partner already, Officer Zhu?" You say confused on her request.

"No, no..! I mean, yes, she is but..! That's not what I meant!" says Zhu Yuan, clearly embarrassed from the situation she's in. "Partner like.. in a.. relationship.." a sigh escapes her lips, finally calming down. "So… my parents keep pestering me about relationships, and I really don’t have time for one right now.. You know, work’s demanding and.. I just can’t afford distractions, so I don't really need a relationship right now. But they won’t stop worrying! And I just— I want to put their minds at ease, at least for a little while.” She hesitates, then clears her throat. "I was wondering.. Let me get straight to it. Would you be willing to pretend to be my partner? Just for two weeks. That’s all. I promise I'll repay you in every way I can as a thank you."

You were taken a bit back by her sudden request. You two weren't close at all, just changing formal greetings at work from time to time. You didn't have any mission together and barely talked to each other, but you didn't question too much as of why she picked you. She must've had her reasons to do so.

"Alright" you say, getting up from your desk "Well, count me in!" you flash her a smile, letting her know you got her back.

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The days pass by, and now you're in front of her parent's house. These past few days you got to meet her a little better, you got to learn about her preferences, her favorite movies, books, her favorite foods, what she likes and dislikes, and overall to finally meet her. Not the mighty Officer Zhu but just Zhu Yuan. And to your surprise, you aren't so different like you thought.

"Ok.. Let's go." She murmurs, holding her hand to you so you two can enter the house. As you take off your shoes, you get to admire the house. It has a cozy vibe to it, and smells like.. 'home'. Somehow, it also gives you a sense of nostalgia.

As you walk in the hallway of her home, you notice some pictures from the past with her and her parents. There's one with her as a baby being held close by her mother, one with her coloring on a children's book and some others, but the one that stands to you the most is the picture where she holds a plastic gun, posing like a true policeman. The scene looks so cute and sweet, and while you tried to quietly observe, you couldn't contain your giggle. Zhu Yuan notices you looking at the frames, and with rosy cheeks and ears from embarrassment, she points to the kitchen where you'll meet her parents.

You weren't quite sure what to expect from them. You got a little anxious even these past few days from the thoughts; What if they don't like you? Or what if they think you aren't good enough? And worst of all, what if they catch on the fact that everything is just an act?

But these thoughts vanish quite fast the moment her parents greet you with a warm smile. You shake hands, sit at the table and begin chatting around, the atmosphere being, to your surprise, very welcoming and warm.

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The past two weeks come to an end faster than you expected. You spent the days almost like any vacation, mostly relaxing around, but the fact that you got to spend time with Zhu Yuan added a nice touch to it. You got to meet her past through photo books and old videos which her parents showed you(making her really embarrassed and flustered), you got to meet some old friends of hers, and overall to see her in a new light, one you never thought too much about until these past few weeks. And in a way, it made you sad that everything had to end so fast.

As you two pack your baggage, Zhu Yuan softly breaks the silence. "You know.." she says, her back still at you "I really liked these days with you and I was wondering.. If you'd like to meet.. for real this time." You panick a little, not from her request, but from the fact that you we're quite close to her parents bedroom. She notices your reaction and giggles. "It's alright, they found out quite fast. Turns out we're not that good at pretending" she says, her eyes averting from yours, but her smile remains on her face. "At first I thought about asking Seth, Qinqyi or Miyabi but it would've been more embarrassing to do this with close friends" she says as she finally looks at you. "So I thought, if I pick someone else which I do not really know it would be easier, you know, since there wouldn't be any feelings involved." You nod; It made sense, and if you were in her shoes you'd probably do the same. "But.." she pauses for a short second as she flashed you a soft smile "My plan didn't work as much as I thought.. Turns out, I really got to like you, [name]. And I was really wondering if you'd like to.. you know, get to know each other on a more personal level, rather than some fake relationship." she finishes her sentence, looking at you with a determined look on her face. "That's it, if, uh, you're alright with that, of course!.." she murmurs as her cheeks get rosy, realizing her words.

You are glad she feels the same way as you, so you give her a happy nod, letting her know your feelings as well. But before you get to say anything, from behind the door of the room, you two begin hear some giggles, and Zhu Yuan's face quickly becomes red as she realizes her parents heard her confession all along.

"Mom, dad!" she shouts embarrassed opening the door, scolding her parents while they send mischievous giggles to each other.

And as you watch them quietly with a soft smile on your face, you realize, maybe her offer doesn't sound too bad after all.

[gold-rhine]

like its literally insane how beat for beat this lantern rite goes into the same notes as natlan final act, but just does it well. the contrast is crazy-making. SPOILERS 2025 LANTERN RITE i guess

like. oh its a story about pyro girlie who had to lose her family very early and tragically, and then she came under huge amount of dire responsibility, but she didn't let it break her and she stayed positive and bright. she is now confronted with a critical situation where she has to do hard decision and be ready to die to save her country. she says goodbyes to her friends, trying to not let them know she's going to sacrifice herself, but they realise it and do everything to save her. in the end, she realizes her life isn't over, its too early for her to go, has heartfelt reunion with ghosts of her family and is saved by unified efforts of her friends, showing how much she's loved and wanted in the world of the living. (im joking, last part didnt happen to mavuika lol, i'll get to it)

but like you can actually see how liyue kids are ACTUALLY friends and how they like each other, they have palpable chemistry that is shown, instead of just like. flatly declared in natlan. hu tao pestering embarrassed yun jin into performing her silly cringe hilichurl song in operatic style has more character than mavuika had in all acts of natlan and her story quest COMBINED. and hu tao visiting friends to give them goodbye gifts under the guise of holiday tradition with half-jokey heartfelt well wishings is what i think natlan tried to do with ancient name thing, where characters like say why they like traveler. except in lantern rite it works because its personal and meaningful, and in natlan its just flashy anime poses and random cliches. "i love being traveler's friend!", "surely she comes from a good home!" like??? its fucking nothings that coworkers awkwardly say at the birthday party because they don't know you.

and suddenly in liyue they know that characters can have differences and STILL be respectful and well-intended, with hu tao and baizhu exchanging jabs about being archenemies, instead of entire cast being blandly okay yay all the time in natlan. hu tao's conversation with zhongli exploring her mental state before going into danger, bittersweet, but finally honest, just straight up doesnt have a parallel in natlan because they never give mavuika any fucking way to express herself. not to mention that hu tao has more conflict and complicated feelings about her lost family and grief than mavuika ever has with her sister where they talk about fucking nothing and just like politely nod at each other.

and the theme of unity actually works in liyue because it does have all other characters uniting to share hu tao's burden and save her, instead of capitano ex machina just showing up and solo taking her place bc he's here to hijack the narrative and make it about khaenriah instead of natlan. so natlan's theme about unity just never goes anywhere except of characters standing in the circle and yelling "for natlan!!", there is no tangible effort for this unity, nothing they have to overcome together. they just wait for everyone to awaken their ancient names, stand in a circle to power up mavuika, and then she solo finishes everything with carpet bombing. and then she solo beats up abyss boss. and then capitano makes it all about himself. like. much unity.

and even traveler being a descender isn't really used in natlan despite making a big deal out of it, her ability to challenge fate or whatever literally never actually comes up. meanwhile in liyue it is used within established lore reasons - not being connected to irminsul, BUT, very importantly, just being special descender would not be enough to save hu tao, its the fact that they are friends, they share a bond and care about each other, i.e. only by using the plum's branch traveler is able to connect and find hu tao.

[pwnyta]

Ya know I was trying to figure out how the dream thing worked... cuz like Book never mentions Quynh and i was like... 'Wait is THAT why Riko comes for Booker when she does. Cuz he would have HAD to have dreamed of her when he turned so he wouldve known she was still alive...' and then I was like 'WAIT. Did Nile in the comics dream of Riko...' and NO she didnt. She learns about Riko when Riko surprises everyone which is definitely why I was confused.

Im now realizing that the movie changed how the dreams work and in doing so made things a little messy.

And also might make Booker an even bigger piece of shit NGL LMAO Like he never met Quynh so he should also still be dreaming of her?

Why wouldnt he tell the rest? I mean at first maybe he just thought itd be a dream but surely they wouldve explained how the dreams work to him and he would have needed to bring it up or not I guess?

How many flashes of the same woman drowning does a bitch need to realize she's also an immortal like the others? IDK but also what reason would Book have to keep that too himself?

Maybe its the opposite. Maybe hes like 'theres nothing we can do about it... theres no way to track this person down. Its just OCEAN everywhere... so lets spare my family this gruesome situation.' He doesnt know Quynh so fuck her I guess.

Could be why QUYNH takes out frustrations on Booker... maybe when she fights Andy and shes yelling at Andy for leaving her to drown and Andy will be like.. 'We thought you were dead... Booker never dreamed of you so that was the confirmation.' and Quynh being like... 'Ooh French boy gonna get it even worse when I get a hold of him again.'

But messier even still now with AT LEAST Umas character (Maybe Tuah)... cuz why didnt Nile dream of HER along with Quynh? She does say she saw flashes of Quynh when she dreamed of the rest of them... so maybe theres some wiggle room to work with that. But why aint the rest also dreaming of her?

Actually one the other side of things, thinking of it... Im guessing the implication of Uma knowing everything about them is because shes been dreaming of them the entire time along with maybe doing what Copley did piecing their lives together through history...

Its actually kinda funny to think about Uma just... for millennia dreaming about Andy fuckin her way through the ages, watching her les-out with Quynh for a couple thousand years, watched Quynh get dunked and left her there for hundreds of years (for the reprieve from them (speculation)...), having to watch Nicky and Joe goin at for centuries, .... and then being like: 'FUCK IT Im so fucking sick of these [expletive]s.'

Thats so fucking funny to think about. LMAO

Bitch so old she invented homophobia. Not for a moral reason just millennia of these queers in her head fuckin & fighting. If I had old Tumblr in my head for 1000s of years I might wanna kill all yall bitches too.

LMAO But I digress. I think the movie writers fucked up giving Nile the Quynh dream and then adding Umas character.

I AINT CALLIN HER DISCORD! Theres only one Discord to me and hes married to Fluttershy (or w/e)! So Uma you either fuck Fluttershy or you fuck off. I'll accept Eris maybe...

[siriusly-yoongi]

She wants to be saved chapter 16

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Pairing: alpha BTS × omega reader

Chapter Warnings: I don't really know what to put for warnings, bad writing, mute reader, POV changes, mentions of self-harm, separation anxiety,

Word count: 3111

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YOU

Yoongi comes back with Namjoon and you suddenly regret asking to talk to him. You crawl into your nest and pull a few blankets over top of you. Hiding.

Yoongi grabs you and pulls you out, ignoring your squirming. "He isn't gonna force you to get stitches unless its truly necessary, he promises, kitten."

He sets you down on the edge of the bed and Namjoon closes the door.

"I'm sorry for forcing you to get stitches last time, I want you to trust me enough to come to me and I realize I wasn't doing a very good job of respecting your wants. I'm sorry." Namjoon crouches down in front of you. You nod.

"Alright, let me see babygirl.

You hesitate for a minute, looking up at them. Neither of them push you, they just wait.

You whine softly and pull your pants down to your knees. Both of them gasp.

"Oh, babygirl..." Namjoon gently runs his finger along one of the cuts. "These are infected my love."

You nod. You already knew that. Its happened before.

I just need Epsom salt. The infection isn't that bad yet.

"Kitten..." Yoongi looks over at Namjoon, who sighs softly.

"I'll let you try that, but you need to let me check it every day. And if it doesnt start getting better you're gonna have to go in. Does that sound fair?"

You nod.

"Alright, goodnight you two." He stands back up, kissing Yoongi quickly before heading back to the den.

You pull your pants back up and crawl into your nest, Yoongi climbs in after you and wraps his arms around you, pulling you into his chest.

You purr softly, rubbing your cheek over his shoulders. He smiles and tilts your head to the side, dragging his tongue over the glands on your neck. It pulls out your scent and layers his on top of it. You purr louder, cookie dough, dark chocolate, and whiskey. Smells like a nice cozy night in. If you had Jimin's campfire it would be even more cozy. Or Namjoon's rain would make it that much more comforting.

You've never thought about the boys like this before. Thinking about who's scents would go well together. Jungkook's cinnamon would mix well with Yoongi's whiskey. You like cinnamon whiskey. Or Jin's roses, it would be like a romantic night in.

You think all your scents together would smell like a cozy night in a log cabin while its raining. Fire in the fire place, sweets and cookies on the table with glasses of cinnamon whiskey and a vase if fresh roses in the center. It sounds nice.

You're broken out of your thoughts by Yoongi laughing. You look up at him, head tilted slightly.

"I'm going to smell like you for days." He chuckles, smiling. You notice his neck is all red from you scenting him so aggressively, a slight shine on his skin from your saliva.

Your cheeks heat up, you didn't even realize you were still scenting him.

Your purr stops, replaced by embarrassment.

"No, it was cute, jagi." He's smiling at you. You whine, not believing him.

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When you wake up the next morning Yoongi isn't there next to you. You immediately feel that anxiety bubble up in your chest.

You check the time and see that its already almost 1 pm. You're shocked they let you sleep this long.

You climb out of bed and look around for Yoongi but you don't find him. You don't find anyone. They must all be at work.

You feel empty and hallow without Yoongi next to you. You don't know how to function.

You find yourself checking your phone every 5 minutes. Nothing.

You last about an hour before the tears start. Then is fades into panic.

Yoongi isn't here and you're not okay with that. At all.

You're pacing, tugging at your hair because its bothering you. You don't even notice when the door opens or when someone calls your name.

Hands are on your wrists, pulling you hands away from your hair.

"No pup, don't do that. You're gonna pull out your pretty hair." Jungkook speaks softly, letting go of your wrists. You let your hands fall back down to your sides.

You're still crying, mewling softly to yourself as you go back to pacing.

"What's wrong, puppy? Why are you so distressed?" He's concerned, you can see it on his face

You're too embarrassed to tell him. You don't know how to explain that you can't function without one of his pack members in your line of sight at all times. Its pathetic.

You whine, the panicked feeling wont subside, if anything its only building.

"Hey, look at me pup." He lifts your chin with his fingers. "What's going on, huh?"

A broken sob falls from your lips and you can see Jungkook panic a little bit. He doesn't know what to do, you don't know what to do. No one knows what to do

"Do you need a hug?" He starts guessing

Not from you, you think. A Yoongi hug sound amazing right now though. You shake your head.

"Your blanket? Did water get on your face? Um, um, OH YOONGI! I'LL ASK HIM!" He's yelling by the end

He pulls out his phone and calls Yoongi.

"She's freaking out Yoongi! What do i do?" He's stressed, you feel bad for stressing him out, which makes you even more upset.

"No she wont tell me what's wrong I already tried asking! I'm not stupid babe!" He grumbles into the phone.

"Yeah, yeah, okay" he mumbles, turning to you. "Go call Yoongi for me, okay?"

You sniffle and nod, heading into Yoongi's room and crawling into your nest. You pull out one of his hoodies from the wall of your nest and pull it over your head, one of the strings going in your mouth.

You[3:17]: outgoing video call

"Hey kitten." Yoongi appears on the screen and you instantly relax a little.

You notice yourself in the little box in the corner and you look rough. Your hair is a mess from pulling at it and your eyes are red and puffy. Tear tracks stain your cheeks and under your eyes look and feel raw from rubbing at them so much.

You keen at him, you don't mean to, the sound just kinds slips out.

His face immediately softens and he looks at you with a mixture of guilt and pity. You don't like it.

"Its because I'm gone. Isn't it?"

Your lip trembles as you fight back another wave of tears. You feel selfish. You know Yoongi is busy and here you are taking up his time and wanting more of it.

You slowly nod, avoiding look at him as you don't want to see his reaction.

"Jagi, how long has this been going on? Is this the first time you've felt like this when I'm not around?" You can tell he feels even more guilty and you feel horrible for making him feel that way. You didn't mean to.

You shake your head. He sighs.

"I'll be home soon, okay? I promise. Why don't you snuggle with your bunny? It smells like me, and maybe that will help."

After the call ends you curl up with your bunny and it helps a little bit, but not much. You've ended up exhausting yourself though with your panic and you fall asleep.

You wake up pressed against someone, it doesn't take long to realize its Yoongi by his scent. You wrap your arms around his neck and snuggle closer.

The panic and anxiety that had been eating you alive all day fades away, and you're okay again. However you do notice a dull ache in your stomach and a little bit of nausea bubbling there too. You figure it's just the lingering anxiety so you don't mention it.

You stay snuggled up with Yoongi, occasionally falling asleep and waking back up periodically throughout the next few hours.

Namjoon is the last person to get home, and head brings you a bag of epsom salt. You take it upstairs while Jin makes dinner and head into the bathroom.

You dissolve some of the salt into a bowl of hot water then soak a washcloth in it. You pull your pants down and sit on the floor, laying the cloth over the infected wounds. After a few minutes it starts to itch and sting and you whine. You've never liked doing this.

You let it sit for a while, redipping it in the water when it cools down a couple times before switching to the other leg and doing the same thing. You pat the wounds dry and pull your pants back up, dumping out the remaining water. You take your things back to your room and set them aside for later.

When you're called down for dinner, the smell alone makes you feel even more sick. You have no appetite.

You're given mango and pineapple, but you can't bring yourself to eat it. You feel sluggish and just sick, worse than earlier.

You rub your eyes with and catch your scent from your wrists. It still smells like cookie dough but there's a sourness to it that isn't usually there. Its subtle, you wont be able to tell unless you're right up close. Maybe its not just the lingering anxiety making you feel this way.

"Y/n? Are you feeling okay, babydoll? Your face is all flushed and your eyes are half closed, honey. What's wrong?" Jimin gets up and walks over to you, drawing everyone's attention to you.

You make a soft humming noise in response, only half registering what he's saying. Jimin brushes your hair away from your face and feels your forehead, frowning. "You have a fever doll. Why didn't you tell us you aren't feeling good?"

You slump forward into Jimin's chest, catching him off guard. "Okay you really must not feel good if you're letting me be this close."

You don't really care who holds you, you'd even let Hoseok hold you right now. You just want someone to hold you.

You're lifted up by Namjoon and pulled onto his lap sideways, your shoulder against his chest.

You tuck your face into his neck, his rain scent surrounding you as you let your eyes close.

You listen to the conversations around the table, Hoseok still isn't allowed at the table with everyone.

You someone pulls your head out from Namjoon's neck and you whine loudly, voicing your displeasure with a soft grumble.

"Shh lovey, I just wanna take your temperature." Jin speaks softly to you as he slips a thermometer into your mouth.

You keep your eyes closed the whole time, tucking your face back in Namjoon's neck as soon as Jin takes the thermometer back.

"Yeah, its pretty high. We need to lower her temperature before it starts doing actual damage" You hear Namjoon say.

You're pulled from his neck again and this time you hiss. You want to be left alone.

"No, none of that." Namjoon scolds you gently. His tone is soft, not properly scolding you, more just telling you no. "We're trying to help you. We need to get your fever to go down, its bordering on dangerous right now."

You don't really hear what he's saying as your eyes snap open. You cant smell Yoongi anymore. He's not in here.

You frantically pull away from Namjoon, a little too quickly and you fall backward off the chair and hit your head on the chair next to his.

You barely feel it, quickly getting to your feet and looking around in a panic, your breathing erratic.

"Baby? What wrong?" Namjoon tries to talk to you but you ignore him. You run to Yoongi's room and he's not there. You run back through the house until you eventually find him as he's walking out of the bathroom.

You collide with his chest, tears rolling down your cheeks. He quickly lifts you up and holds you close to him. You wrap your legs around him.

"What kitten? What happened, hm? I'm right here, I just went to the bathroom. It's okay." He gently rubs your back, carrying you back into the dining room.

You cling to him. "Baby, crying is only gonna make your temperature rise. You need to calm down. What happened?" Namjoon looks concerned.

"I'm willing to bet she's got some pretty bad separation anxiety... she did this earlier too, only Jungkook found her and she was ripping out her hair while pacing in circles." Yoongi kisses your head.

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NAMJOON

Her temperature continued to rise even as we had her drinking cold water. We convinced her to eat a popsicle and that barely did anything.

We ended up putting her in a cold bath and we ended up with one unhappy omega. She would not stop crying and reaching for Yoongi. Yoongi felt so bad that he couldn't just hold her.

It took nearly an hour to get her fever down to a safe temperature. Yoongi lifts her out of the water and wraps her in the towel. She's still crying, glaring at me the whole time. Omegas hate the cold, they hate being cold, touching cold things, omegas and cold don't mix. I cant blame her for being mad, I just made her sit in cold water for an hour and kept telling her to stop shivering the entire time. Poor girl was absolutely miserable.

Yoongi takes her to her room and gets her dressed, bringing her downstairs afterward.

Yoongi hands her to me and I sit in the back of the car with her while Yoongi drives us to the hospital. I'm pretty sure she's sick from the infected cuts and of that's the case then we need to get her on some antibiotics as soon as possible.

I carry her into the hospital, she's asleep on my shoulder and we sit in the waiting room for a while. When its time to bring her back into a room she's still asleep so I once again carry her. I sit down on the bed with her and let her sleep for now, leaving her in my lap. Yoongi seems to feel left out because he climbs onto the bed as well and lays under my other arm so I'm in the middle.

I wish it was like this all the time. I need all my pups comfortable with me. I cant stand knowing my omega is still uncomfortable around me, even if she is getting better. My instincts have quieted for the first time in weeks and I can finally relax a little. Not much though as one of my pups are sick and that makes me worry.

The doctor comes in and takes her temperature and asks about her symptoms. I have to wake her up and she is less than thrilled. Grumbling and hissing at me. If it was any other member of the pack id be royally pissed, however at this point I'm just happy she feels comfortable enough to hiss at me. I remember the first time she did it she got up and ran, she was so scared of how id react.

I hand her her phone so she can talk and she completely ignores it, letting it fall into her lap as she snuggles back into my chest. My heart melts but unfortunately I cant let her sleep right now.

After a few minutes of trying to get her to answer the doctor I give up and tell them what I know and that I think its because of her infected wounds.

Honestly I think she might be slipping into omegaspace, which would explain why she's fighting me so hard and not responding very much.

I carefully pull her pants down enough for the doctor to see her wounds and I sigh, they look way worse.

The doctor and I talk for a few minutes then she comes over and removes all the dead tissue from her wounds. There's only a little bit but it still has to be taken off

"I highly recommend stitches" the doctor looks at me and I sigh.

I look down at her, I know if I tell her to do it right she'll say yes. But she cant consent to anything while in omegaspace and I know if she wasn't in this headspace then shed say no. I shake my head.

"I understand, however she doesn't want stitches" I smile sadly

The doctor gives me a weird look. "She needs stitches. You're her alpha, you need to make her."

My eyes narrow. "I don't need to make her do anything."

"Well if you were a good pack alpha you'd be looking after your pack, even if that means going against their wishes."

"Get the fuck out" I growl.

"What?" she looks at me like I'm the one who just insulted her.

"I said get the hell out, i want a different doctor. Or I can write some antibiotics for her myself if I have to. But you need to get out!"

"Joon c-" Yoongi tries but I interrupt him

"Don't."

He shuts up.

We get the doctor thing figured out and head back home. I carry her inside and take her to Yoongi's room. I try to lay her down in her nest but she wont let go of me. She whines and wraps her arms around my neck.

I don't want to get into her nest with her because again, she cant give proper consent and I know how special it is to be invited into an omegas nest.

"We're sleeping in the den it looks like" I smile at Yoongi and he nods, following me as I carry her into the den.

The rest of the pack is already sleeping. Jimin is laying on top of Taehyung, their arms wrapped around each other, like usual. Jungkook curled up against Jin's chest, and Hoseok isn't in here.

Yoongi lays down and i lay next to him, sandwiching her between the two of us. She squirms and whines for a few minutes before settling chest to chest with Yoongi, her back against my chest.

After a few seconds she starts to purr and my eyes widen. Her purr is raspy and choppy, broken. She must not have had a very happy childhood.

I frown, looking over at Yoongi.

"I know babe. I know." Yoongi squeezes my shoulder.

Her purring wakes up Jin since he's right next to us and he turns over, molding himself around Yoongi's back and going back to sleep.

[joenotexotic99]

Can I do a band of brothers request if you still right for them. The one that I had in mind was were the reader and winters are in a secret relationship with each other and it the end of the war. The reader wants to tell the everyone that they are together and winters says they have to keep it a secret for the time being. She feels like he is ashamed of her and embarrassed of her. It causes an argument she hurts and she is upset over it and she tells him it's over and for the next few days she avoids him. Nixon talks sense into winters and winters realises how much he has hurt her and he doesn't want to lose her. So he comes up with the idea and he asks her to marry him infront of everyone and he apologises to her for everything and says he loves her and he doesnt want to lose her and he had never meant to hurt her. She says yes and everyone cheers for them and is happy for them. Don't forget george luz making a joke out of it I can just imagine that would be the sort of thing he would do

Yes, anon, YES.

Marry me

Richard Winters x F!Reader

Word count: 2.9k

Warnings: ANGST, but with a happy ending, of course. No use of y/n. Slight language. Probably to many italics

A/n: I wrote something! Can you believe it??

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The war was over. It was fucking over.

Days after days of war, I've almost forgotten what peace felt like. It felt awkward, I had no clue on what to even do with myself, I've spent so long in a consistent state of panic and overall misery, that the words ‘Victory in Europe’ felt like a hoax. A prank. We could be shipped out, however. The Pacific I hear is still going strong, but I can hardly think of that as I lie on a dock, sun beating down, water rippling around me.

“We should tell them,” I speak with my eyes closed. Looking up at the sun. I'm propped up on my hands as I soak in the warmth.

“Tell them what?” Winters responds from somewhere behind me, presumably drying off his hair and body after his morning swim. Which is something I still can't believe we can do.

“We're dating dummie, it's time” I stay where I am not looking back. However, when I don't get a reply, I open my eyes and turn to look at him. He’s got his towel wrapped around his neck, and I can vividly see his body. Every line, hard and soft, scars, freckles. Each thing I've surely traced in the dead of night. Nothing else matters but the centimeters between our limbs.

He can't meet my eyes as he continues to dress himself. Finally, he speaks once his pants and belt are on. “I don’t think that's a good idea right now.”

I sit up straight and fully turn to him “what do you mean ‘not a good idea’ Dick?”

Winters doesn't look back at me. He continues dressing, pulling his shirt over his head. He rolls his shoulders like he's trying to shake this conversation off, which already is an answer to me.

He finally finds his words, “I just think that we should keep it…for ourselves. For now”

For now. For now, for now, for now. Same thing from Carentan down to here.

I scoff and push myself to my feet “And when is that Dick? When is now going to be ok for you? Because for months it's always been not now.”

He stops his movements and sighs through his nose before turning and looking at me. “It's not that simple” he replies before going back to fiddling with his belt.

I laugh, although there truly is no humor. “But it is. The wars over Dick. We promised each other when things got better, we'd tell them. Simple”

He doesn't respond; he presses his lips into a line and doesn't utter a word. The silence is loud enough to answer all my questions. And I can't deny that it doesn't really fucking hurt.

I nod, jaw tightening, “got it”

I begin to walk away, the waves around me feeling more suffocating than relaxing.

“Wait, please.” Winters grabbed my arm and spun me around to look back at him.

I shake my head and step back. Away from him, away from the heat of his body. Because I know I'll fold. He has that effect, always bringing me back to him. “No, Richard, I have waited. Normandy, Holland, Fucking Bastogne. I told myself that we had far greater responsibilities. And when the war was done, things would be different. We could finally not only be something, but show it. But I suppose you don't want that, do you?”

“That's not true, and you know it” he says quietly, almost desperately.

I walk up to him and put my hand on his face, rubbing up and down his cheekbone. “Then prove me wrong,” I whisper. Praying, hoping, he changes his mind. “Tell me you want this, want us, want me”

He looks down at me, like he's holding himself back. A second stretches. His throat bobs. But the words I so deserve never come.

Numbness washes over me, and nauseating anger settles in my stomach like a foreign virus.

I remove my hand from his face and take a step back, putting space between us that feels so far and too close and not close enough. And I hate it.

I look back at him as I take two more steps back, somewhere in the back of my head, hoping he will change. But alas. He simply looks back with guilty eyes.

“Damn you Winters”

My lip quivers, and I can feel tears prickle in my eyes as I make the decision to turn around and head back to the hotel. I walk as fast as I can before he can see how much he has broken me before he can see my shaking hands.

Before I change my mind

I put in a request to change my room, needing my own space. I need time to think. To breathe.

Walking back into our shared room to gather my stuff; which wasn't much, was painful.

It’s just the removal of my belongings but of hope too.

—

I was supposed to relax. Let go, have fun. Everyone else doesn't seem to have an issue with this. Why shouldn't they? We all have every reason to. I should celebrate being alive, honor those who we've lost. At the bar, with the rest of Easy Company, with him.

But instead of enjoying my freedom, tangled up with him, his arm around me with everyone else, without any more worries, im alone, sad, and fucking pissed.

To say staying away from him was hard is an understatement. I feel like I see him more than when we were together. I round the corner and almost collide with the person whom I still call my other half, and the bags under his eyes are not helping.

I want to talk to him, hug him, kiss him, play pretend a little longer just so I can feel the warmth of his hands curve around my waist, just. One. more. Time. But I know the consequences of that, and I know how much it will hurt in the end. So I'm avoiding him. And it hurts. A lot.

—-

Winters

He didn’t sleep that night.

Nor the night after that.

He barely slept the rest of the week.

The fight played like a film over and over, rewound, and played again and again, each time the pit in his stomach grew larger and larger. Her words consumed his thoughts. Tell me you want this, want us, want me.

Yet he’s never wanted anything more.

And he couldn't say it. A coward is what he thought.

Not that it wasn't true, god knows how true he wanted to say it. So true, in fact, that his chest constricted painfully at the thought of those sitting words. They choked him like smoke. He's never been good at expressing his emotions, always kept them inside, he hid behind his carefully guarded privacy. It was easier this way. The world got too messy when everything was exposed. It was simplistic, unproblematic. Until it wasn’t. Before, he had it all. He got to lead his men, serve his country, and behind closed doors, he got to hold the love of his life. He had her. He had her safe. And in one cowardly decision, or lack thereof, he lost her.

The lake was supposed to clear his mind. Yet, he couldn't tear his eyes from where she laid just days prior, happy, content, skin glowing under the sun's basking heat. Instead, a lump formed in his throat. It was an unwelcome feeling. A familiar clomp of footsteps came closer before halting next to him. Nixon took off his shoes and socks, rolled up his pants, and took a seat next to him, setting his feet into the water.

Nixon sighed a heavy sigh, kicking and swaying his feet in the cool water, creating small splashes and ripples. “It's a beautiful day, you know that Dick?”

Winters hummed, eyes locked on the horizon.

“So then why the hell are you sulking?” Nixon nudged Winter's shoulder with his own “Hm?”

“I messed up”

“This about your girl?” he asked.

Winter's head shot up and turned to Lewis, who was looking out at the water. “What.. How did?-”

“I see the way you look at her Dick” he responds flatly, glancing sideways to Winters. “You’re not fooling anyone.”

“Pardon?” Winters asked, dumbfounded

“There's been a running bet since Holland,” He added toneless, almost amusingly.

Winters, flabbergasted, stared.

“So you're going to talk to me or not?” Lewis straightens up and turns towards him, a waiting look on his face.

He gives up and takes a deep breath. Low and heavy, trying to calm his racing thoughts before letting his hands rub his face. He almost wants to laugh at how pathetic he looks right now. If only Sobel could get a look at him now. “We fought.”

Lewis doesn't respond, waiting for him to continue

Sighing, he goes on “I broke her heart. She wanted to tell the boys, about us. And I-” He choked on his own words, unable to get them out. Like he couldn't keep himself composed if he did.

“And you didn't.” Lewis does it for him. He wasn't judgmental and wasn't accusatory. Hell, he sounded almost empathetic.

“I screwed up Lew” Winters looked back out to the water. His fingers are picking at the poor skin around his nails. “She has every right to be angry.”

“Do you love her?”

It was a simple question, really. Yes, or no. Yet it felt so much more. Because it was. Of course he loves her. He loved every inch of her. Her mind, her soul, her body. The way she was able to see past every wall that he built and crawl straight to his heart and make it home. It came as easy as breathing. Yet, all he could think of was what it would mean. To stand in front of everyone, especially his me, and declare something so important, so fragile out for the world to hear. Something that could be torn down, broken, gone. He couldn’t protect it if it got out, he couldn't protect her. Not out there. Not in the open.

He didn't give his heart to many, yet within the time of this war, she kept it safe, beating. The ring he snagged one day in Thalem, Germany, sat tucked away in his small bag of things. He never had a marriage plan, a time nor date. All he knew was that he never wanted to lose her.

“With every fiber of my being”

“So what's stopping you from telling her that?” And with that, he knew. Nothing but himself was stopping him. He knew that whatever fear he had, whatever was holding him back, was such an irrelevant issue to him. It didn't matter what others' opinions of him might shift to. Because it's not just about love, sometimes it’s about what you’re willing to risk. And he was so scared of losing her that he pushed her away to keep her safe. As if hiding her could protect her.

But she didn’t need protection.

She needed truth.

He stood abruptly, picking up his jacket and walking down the dock to the hotel to pick something very important up.

“Where might you be going?’ Asked Lewis

“To do something I should have done a lot sooner”

—-

It was supposed to be a quiet, stay indoors kind of night. Alone in my room, maybe a book too read so I could get lost in anybody elses problems but my own. But Easy Company has been pestering me all day to go out tonight, ‘get you out of your funk’ as they said. And finally I caved.

Maybe it’s for the best. I hadn’t wanted to cave, but the quiet was starting to suffocate me. As if the walls of my room were watching me grieve something no one even knew I’d lost. So I agreed.

However, as I sit here, nursing a watered down drink, I try to get my eyes to stop their constant search for him. Luz is next to me, going on about some chicken in Germany or something, his hands in a wild craze as he over exagerates his story, almost knocking Babes drink over, twice. Everyone around me was having fun, laughing. I tried to focus, really I did, but that hollowed out felling in my chest brought me back. It hasn’t eased since the dock. And no matter how many times I tell myself to let him go, some stubborn part of me still listens for his voice in every passing laugh.

I hardly notice when the sounds in the bar quiet down, too deep in my own sinking thoughts. But when I do, I look up to see faces looking twords the door. Turning and facing that way, standing in the doorway, eyes scanning the room, there he stands. Just as handsome as ever. My heart skips a beat and its almost cruel how badly I want to run up to him and wrap my arms around his body.

Then his eyes found mine, and my heart stopped for a beat, and the world fell away from around me. I can’t tear my eyes off him as he makes his way towards me. Im half prepared to argue, half prepared to kiss and make up. Either way, I can't seem to find my words. Even luz has gone silent, which is saying something. I can feel at least a dozen eyes on me. None of them seem to matter in this moment as he stops in front of me.

“I love you”

The words are breathless as he says them. And they damn near kill me as my heart skips all the beats, my breathing stops, my head spins. I wanted to ask him a million questions, but before I could speak, he lowered down in front of me. On one knee. In front of everyone.

Gasps ripple though the bar, and I think I hear Liebgotts ‘holy fuck’ somewhere behind me. I swallow hard. Tears dance at the corner of my eyes. He reaches into his back pocket and takes out a small, black box, and opens it to a silver ring, a dimond on top. I feel like my heart is beating out of my chest as I take in the man in front of me.

He looks up with one of the softest eyes, ones I've only seen in the dead of night while the rest of the company sleeps, and it was just him and I. But instead of holding me, he holds a ring, an engagement ring. The silver band glints softly in the dim light of the bar, and perched atop is a diamond, not big, nothing flashy, yet it might as well be the moon the way it sparkles from his trembling hands.

“I love you,” he says again, more grounded this time as if he need me to hear it. He looked right at me, focused “And I’m sorry it took me so damn long to do this the right way.”

My lip trembles as I let him continue.

“I thought keeping us a secret would keep you safe, us safe. But I was wrong”

He glaces down at the ring, like he was afraid it would vanish before his eyes.

“I love you, and the idea of not being yours for another second hurts too much. I want to walk through this life with you. Till death do us part.”

He takes a moment, steadying himself, “I want this, want us, want you.” he repaeats my previous words back.

He looks up again, and this time, there’s fire in his eyes.

“Will you marry me?”

And the world stills.

However, my body reacts before my mind can catch up, and I feel myself beginning to smile. Nodding as I speak.

“Yes, yes, god yes, I'll marry you” Tears are now free falling down my cheeks as I hold out my hand so he can place the ring on.

Like a weight has been lifted off his chest, he cracks one of the biggest smiles I have ever seen as he takes my hand into his and slides the ring onto its right full place. He stands right as I do and takes me by the waist, bringing me to him, leaning down to capture my lips with his own. The bar erupts with cheers and hollars someone claps, and someone definitely whistles as my world clicks right back into place. And then, loud enough to cut through the noise, Luz’s voice rings out.

“Thank God! Pay up, boys! I told you he’d grow a pair eventually!”

And that does it.

Like a grenade, laughter explodes throughout the bar, including Winters as Bull throws a handful of peanuts at Luz’s head while he collects his money from a number of pouting men, a shit eating grin on his face.

He looks back at me, love swimming in his eyes.

“You could have warned me” I joke

“And what, miss all this?” he laughs and leans down to give me another peck on the lips. His hand slips into mine. “Never”

I feel the weight of his hand in mine and the solid grounding truth of his love in front of everyone, and for the first time in what feels like forever… I can breathe.

[danaduchy]

all texts from Kerry

Found Henry Holy shit, Henry's on board. Way to go! Check outta rehab of his own free will… thru the window, hehe. Some nurse tried to stop us - at first I thought she wanted an autograph, but she didnt even recognize me. Tell you the rest later How's it going with Nancy? S'all under control That's what I like to hear

Samurai's back together What about Johnny? He amped for this gig or meh? * As amped as he's ever been. Must be important to him cuz otherwise I wouldnt be forced to take this stupid pseudoendotrizine * Hard to say. You know how he is Well I'm amped as fuck, if anyone's wonderin. It'll be fuckin shimra - just gotta remember not to get too wasted before. Old habits die hard, haha

Waiting for you Kerry? Where are you? On the way. Chill. Gotta change

What's up, V? Too bad you split so quick after the concert - we didn't even get a chance to chat I barely know anything about you, except you've got a shit-ton goin on inside You're the one who left early That so? Hm, maybe. Anyway, it was fuckin nova, wasn't it? Shoulda recorded it for you cause you didn't catch anything thru Johnny

Hey! Heey. So I cant stop thinkin about our little adventure. FUCKIN AWESOME. Thats how you live life. ON THE EDGE :> * Who doesnt like explosions and races right? :) Lemme know if the rest of your plan worked out Sure, I'll text or call ;) If I can't convince you to blow up anythin else, then at least we can go for a drink. Take care! * Egh, day just like any other. Hope it helped you tho Pff, sound more nonchalant than a karaoke star from kabuki ;) I'll be in touch

Coffee at Caliente Know what? I'm glad we got a chance to talk over coffee. You're a straight shooter, V. Nothing like the ass-kissers I'm usually surrounded by. It's good we did what we did, right? Blowing that van to bits? Cuz I been thinking… * To be honest, got no clue if anything good will come of it. I agreed cuz you paid me. Honest as ever, huh? Means I was right about you. Appreciate that, V. I really do. Don't ever change. * It was the right thing to do. And you've got nitro running through your veins. Don't you ever let yourself think otherwise! Nitro in my veins? Yeah, and a fuse sticking out of my ass. Least that's what I felt back then. Was worth it, though - slept like a fucking baby for the first time in ages. Talk to you later. Thanks again!

Reward Hey, forgot to send the eddies before, but should hit your account any sec. PREEM WORK :>

Where are you? Well, where are you? At this rate I'm gonna be a fuckin skeleton by the time you get here.. Move your ass or forget about this whole thing Dunno where you are or what you're up to, but I'm a busy fuckin man. Forget about it - don't have time for this shit Srsly, V? Ditched me with the badges and split? Shitty move. We're fuckin THROUGH Where the fuck are you? Grrr doesnt matter. I'm checkin out, goin home. Call ya if somethin comes up

answer yr phone!!! Hey, V. Got a job for you. Corner of Grey and Mallagra. Be there first thing in the morning, we'll talk it over. I'm fucking livid, V! Those Us Cracks bitches clearly didn't get the hint. Instead of cancelling after we blew up their truck, they just moved their show to another date! Meet me at Riot ASAP. We'll deal with them differently this time. The Us Skanks still wanna fuck me over and record the cover, V! On top of that, their lawyers won't stop yappin'. We really need to talk. I'm at Dark Matter right now. Come 'round the back, the bouncers will let you in. It's easier to reach my dead grandma than you, V! Anyway, Us Cracks are done, for real this time. We should celebrate! Stop by Dark Matter. Use the back entrance.

What's up? Hey, hows it going? Ownin the streets of NC? * More like tryna survive. Let's just say the city and I are even Sweet. What's that? What's up with me? Nice of you to ask. Hammerin out some sick tunes. Ok, more like trying to hammer out. Keep your fingers crossed * Hey hey, you could say that. Lotta stuffs been happenin - even without you! :O Yeah yeah, whatever! I'm stringin together some fresh tunes… OK, more like thinking about some fresh tunes. Keep your fingers crossed

Missed holocall! V! Whatever you're doing right now - drop it and come see me at the Marina. Pier four.

Scratch that! Spoke too soon Slight change of plans - waitin on an important delivery and the fuckin gonk's late. Be at the marina at 7pm!

Kova-chek this out :D Kovachek went ballistic when he found out the yacht went up in smoke! Even went back on those pills that turn him into you know, whatever the opposite of a cyberpsycho is. More goo than a man haha this is greaaaaat! * Ouch. Musta sunk a lotta eddies into that float! :P Speakin of dickheads tho - turns out he stashed a ton of drugs on board! Like, two yachts' worth. And we sent aaaall of that to the bottom of the sea :D Bay's full of fish high off their fins now! * Literally zero living organisms in that bay, Ker. Yeah duh they they took their happy fishy asses down to the spaceport and went to la la land. Anyway tellin ya whenever I'm down, I think about our seaventure and it's like insta good feels :* * Wow. What now? Feel like blowing more of his shit up. Think he's got a luxury crib somewhere in the Rockies… Something to think about… :P FUCK NO! I GOT IT! We make a Kovachek voodoo doll! Can't wait to stab that prick right in the dick :D * I really don't care about that dick, Kerry. Fine OK. As long as you care about MY dick, that is :P

Hey :* Heeey, how's it hanging? Everything all right? I'll just come right out and say it - I miss you. Just a little bit though ;) You coming by anytime soon? * Miss you too, if you can believe that. See? We're tuned to the same frequency. I'll try to swing by sometime. Preem. I'll be waiting! * Hey! Well well, look who's suddenly spilling their guts out :P Dunno when I can drop by though :/ Sad face :( But fine - I know the world doesn't revolve around me. It sucks, but that's the way it is. Take care! * Been thinking about you… Thinking about you too. You're like some chorus to this incredible song that's been stuck in my head lately. On loop :) * What's new? Still conquering the world with music? Planning to! :) don't really know if there's anything left to conquer though. You're already mine, right? (I know, I knooooow, it's cringe. But I couldn't hold myself back!) Latest song I wrote - read it and weep. Wrote it while thinking of you: "Where you whisper, open up your heart / Reveal the place where I once had a heart" Whaddaya think? * I like it. It's gentle, but still has a bite. And knowing you, probably has multiple meanings ;) Exactly! I knew you'd get it :*** * Hmm, you were thinking about me when you wrote that? Dunno if that's good or bad :< it's up to you - that's the whole point! :* * Got a bunch of things on my plate right now. Times are tough. Oh, OK, cool. Do what you gotta do. We'll talk later, no prob.

Serious business Check it out, V. Got this email from a lifelong fan. It's serious. Gotta write her back. Dear Mr. Eurodyne, the day we both have been waiting for is finally upon us! I got rid of my husband, my house and all the other remnants of my former life. Now, I'm truly ready to give you my heart and all my other organs, should you desire them. You are the Sun and I am the Moon - I live to bask in your radiant brilliance. I love you, Mr. Eurodyne, and eagerly anticipate the time we'll finally be together. We will meet soon - I'm sure you know exactly where." She also sent me a gift card to a junk shop in Providence, wherever the fuck that is. It's clear she's nuts, just not sure if it's the murder-suicide variety. She writes me same day every year, like clockwork. What if she dissolved her man in a vat of acid, burned down her house and now she's sharpening her sickle cuz I'm next!? What are we gonna do, V??? * You really worried about her? More importantly: Kerry Eurodyne actually reads fan mail? Adorable. Yeah, yeah, Kovachek usually deals with all that shit. Even signs photos and sends them to the fans. But the fucker always forwards stuff from this crazy broad. Gets his rocks off fuckin with my blood pressure. Anyway, thought you might get a kick out if it. Seriously though, I should probably do something. Don't want her to knock on my bedroom door a year from now. * What, your first psycho groupie? Unbelievable :D Don't worry about it. We'll deal with her. Fuckin preem. What should I do, V? Ideas?? * Call the Providence PD. Let them scare her off? Or better yet, put her in a straitjacket? Boooring! 'Sides, cops mean lawyers and I hate dealing with them even more than I hate Kovachek's guts. No worries, I'll think of something else.You're in charge here. * Why not have a bit of fun? Write her back, give her Kovachek's address and say you'll be waiting for her there exactly one year from now :P Hahahaha you beautiful fucking GENIUS! Think I'll do exactly that. He'll shit himself when he sees her! We'll set up a camera and film it, too. Can't wait!Not worth your time. * She probably thinks she's pregnant with Lizzy Wizzy's love child, too. Check if the store has a netpage, see if they ship to NC and get yourself something nice! Smart! I'll see if they have anything worth my while. Get myself a studded choker. Or one of them Russian stacky doll-in-a-doll-in-a-doll things. Thanks, V! Later

Truth or Dare! I'm boooooooored, V. Let's play Truth or Dare! :D * Really don't have time for this, Ker. Cmon, don't be like that. TRUTH or DARE??? * Fuck it. Dare. OK, here it goes. Hope I got your full attention! OKOK here's your dare: "Survive one year with a rockstar" :D * Cheeky ;) Guess I can give it a try ;) * Don't know if I have time for that, Kerry. * Truth! Got nothing to hide. Here it goes: "After a little good morning sex, what I really want is…" * Coffee and cigarettes. Glass of whiskey if I need a little hair of the dog…

* Scrambled eggs. Clearly.

Puzzle by yrs truly V! Made one of them picture riddles for you, V! Wanna see it? :D Fuck yeah you do! Heeeere goes! …69 <3 * Not right now, Kerry. Got some other things on my mind… No worries. Listen, we all have days like this. Thinking of you here with my little puzzle, hope that helps :* * Really, Ker? Doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure that one out. Yeah, yeah, just warming up! Okay, get ready for round two! |$| >< #o.O# ;( * Kerry slapped the shit out of Kovachek! * Rockstars are the best spankers! Sorry, all you get is a kiss :* * My man is shit at puzzles :* You got it, you shrewd beast :D Congrats! Your reward - a Kerry Eurodyne sextape! Now all that's left is to shoot it :P I'll send you something sweet <3

Personality test You're not gonna believe this, V. I took one of those personality tests and apparently, I'm a NARCISSIST! Can you believe that shit?? * You, a narcissist? That can't be right. I know, right? Good thing you're smart about these things. You're so sweet, babe :* * Might be some truth to it if I'm REAL honest :) You do… tend to be an arrogant snob. Not to mention your ego's the size of a small planet :* Haha took the test again and now it says I'm a sociopath! Told you it's all bullshit! Told you I'm not a narcissist! Honestly you should listen to me, I'm smarter than whatever "scientist" came up with this shit!

Ah V fuuuck worlds biggest hangover, shakes and willies. Need a kind soul to tell me I'll come out the other side OK :-/ my age be damned ;-| * Textin ya from Dtown, 'hood's the very embodiment of shakes and willies * Got a gig, mebbe not worlds biggest but mondo anyway. This is me needin assurance I'll come out the other end in 1 piece Ever in the thick of shit, eh? It's where your&Johnny's minds meet, both uber vibe on it. JS better be fuckin happy - is he? * Need better candy to pop at raves, physio venting helps, mutes nerves, you'll stride strong, won't bother us workin peeps! Srsly V - soundin like you need time off, ad hoc vacay. U know, throw the monkey off your back, dunno, air your skull sponge. * Could be, just not now Handlin ginormous gig in Dogtown. Elbow deep in it, serious as a heart attack. * That an invite….? ;> Dunno, maybe…? My door's wiiiiiiide open, always ;> * Got this biz I gotta tend to first, one way or another… Oh ok mystery man - you do you. gotta say, findin this diss kinda titillating. Is it the masochist in me? tension's… ooooh, got my mouth watering. * Right, I know. One of these days - surprise! You'll see, be at your front door. Only if I'm home, obvi. You're textin a raucous, go-get-'em busy man… * OOO-K. So get lost, find a release. * Hmm, you're temptin me to call. Will do, given time. Do do do, plz. I'll be waitin <3

OK then I'll play support - we're all gonna all right, better'n all right - golden Which is DEF NOT me now - after a fuckin weird-ass 48 hrs, and this is me talkin…! just straaange… like unbelievably so Ahem, got stories to tell, solid gold * well, yeah, might find it a lil hard to believe… welp, hope you're whole and fine and happy. If you are, suck it. Dissin somebody like this - not nova, choom, supra unpreem * OK spill So dig this - meet-up w the enemy, competing publishing bitchez. Top dogz, bubbly flowin, rails vanishing up noses - all in back of a stretch cuz they out to impress my ass with their asses. Kinda sad, really. Gotta give 'em an e for effort, tho - they say: choom, got a mountain o' eddies for ya. N I say, really - where from? N they say, our mountain's a volcano, it'll spew scratch like lava… Hm i say, how's that? N they say, Zetatech product placement - next tour, choom so I says let's go - Zetatech now! they practically jizz. Zetatech HQ I get out, drop my pants and moon eveybody lookin out the windows of the building while I give the bitchez in the limo the finger at the same time. N i called Delamain.\nDel and me, we rollin, talkin anti-iperialism - any sense in it given the state of the world? Know what? we actually come to a conclusion - that nuthin makes sense anymore. So we go on rollin, and go on talkin and drinnk myself into grief. 18 hours later Del dropped me by my crib. He wished me GOOD LUCK IN THIS WORLD. choom was deep depressed, so much so he gave me a discount * Could've happened to Kerry and Kerry alone, that Plain to see, admit it, I just might be the king of NC's nightlife * vive le roi! and may the consort bask in his light ;> xoxo * hm, yeah, no titles more important than that… BETTER FUCKIN BELIEVE IT. * Oooh could go for a convo about life's futility. But DT takes no prisoners forgives no mistakes - need to focus. salty! somebody's in a m0000d * well, just don't see your parties and hangovers as overly important to me just now, if ever * yeah, sorry, just this gig, shitstorm, tense, lots to handle OK I get it, all crystal. Need a lil cheerin up or just leave you the fuck alone? * may be better off just leavin me alone, I'll ping you later, OK? say no more, luv ya and dreamin daily about your sweet tush <3 Eurodyne out * cheerin up, plz :) OK catch: How ya get a bass player to have that gleam in his eye? Shine a flashlight in his ear. That help any? * yup, did wonders :D thx raise you on the holo later, 'kay? * hm, not great, but I won't hold it against you. cute of you to try ok, so here's somethin to keep you warm at night in the meantime, you sweet precious thing <3

You doing anything? Yo, why haven't you shot me a message or nothin? I'm sitting over here like a dumbass waitin for my phone to start buzzin… * Sorry, Ker! You know how it is, life and shit… I know I know, didn't mean to be a total prick * I was just about to text you! Uh huh… suuuure… * You coulda shot me one too, y'know :P The fuck do you think I'm doin right now?!? So listen, how busy are ya? Gotta admit, I'm gettin the itch real bad. Like, a good itch, to see you I mean. * Sounds great! My megabuilding pad maybe? A megabuilding, huh? I mean, sure, guess that'll work… * Then I'll be waitin for ya at my Northside apartment :) Preem. Then I'll get there when I get there. * Let's meet up in Japantown. Just a hop and a skip for you ;) Perfect! * Can you drive over to the Glen? Love to see you too <3 I can do whatever the fuck I want. * Whaddaya say to a little date downtown? My Corpo Plaza place? Ohhh baby, my ass is already out the door! * I'm free! Wanna swing by Dogtown? You outta your mind? No fucking way! Either we meet in NC proper or I ain't goin out. Don't forget to tidy up a bit, yeah? ;)

Goooood morning, Night City! And you, V! Listen, I'm bored outta my mind. Wanna be bored together at least? You asleep? :P Oh, what's that? You want me to come over? Sure! You're one hot piece of ass, you know that right? You were in my dream last night. A good one. Don't worry, I ain't mad at dream V or nothin - in fact I wanna meet up! I hit a creative block, need some inspiration. I need you. I'm coming over. * Sounds good :) Megabuilding apartment then. Hope you remember which one's mine! On my way! * Genius idea from a genius himself. I'll be waitin for ya in Northside <3 Guess this means I have to change outta my bathrobe. The sacrifices we make! * Japantown. Now. :P Preem! Callin a Delamain right now! * Missed you too. Come to the Glen :) * Sounds like it's time for a trip downtown. My Corpo Plaza pad to be exact * Swing by Dogtown, I'll show you my fixer-upper :P Over my cold, dead, bullet-riddled body! The fuck you even doing there?! Get back to civilization, V! * haha XD so, right now's not good, but don't worry - I'll be thinkin of ya ;) Oh so that's how you wanna play this… nah, just messin, V. wink, wink. I'll catch ya another time!

I like you, V. Thought I owed you a little reminder of that. And hey, not to impose or nothin, but if you wanna spend some more time together, don't be such a coward about it, y'know? Hit me up!! * I like you too, Kerry. I'll let ya know :) Ain't we an adorable fuckin pair of sweethearts! Ha! * No imposing. I'd love to see you again soon too ;) Careful with those boundaries now, V. Let em down too far and I might just move right in! * Course! Soon as I find some time, you'll be the first to know! You honor me, sir! Hang tough out there, V. And remember - don't do anything I wouldn't do!

Hey, Ker! Life's been feelin a lil empty without ya… wanna meet up? So, wanna see me again? Fuck yeah! Your place ok? Heeey! I do, I do! Just… can't right now. Schedule's crammed. But I'll be in touch real soon!

I fucking love surprises! Yo, V, this is a nice ride! Seems like whenever you're on my mind all I can think about is rides ;) * Yeah I know ;) * I love surprising you :) As crazy as my life is, without you it'd be boring as hell <3 Thanks for the flowers! Thank christ they're artificial cuz I'm allergic to pollen. Sneezing, goopy eyes, the whole fuckin thing. Also… "Feedback"? What? Did we hook up at one of my concerts? Honestly I can't remember. * Totally. Speaker feedback fused our audio systems somehow. Made the sex interesting at least. Whaaa, well whatever, I don't need the whole sciency mumbo jumbo :D * You kiddin? How could you forget! Man, what the fuck was I on that night…

Won't see me for a while Gonna need to vanish for a while maybe a month or so. Hope you didn't have any romantic escapades planned and all set up :P Nooo :( Who'm I gonna take to the N54 rave then? :((( * Shiiiit mean to say I'm gonna miss an N54 party? Wanted to surprise you… Real fucking shame :/ I know ;( We'll crash multiple raves when I'm back in town tho :) Promise! * Take someone else feel free but just this once. Long as you promise - no hand holdin' no indecent stuff no INTIMACY mental neither :P Oh please faithful's my middle name :* Fuck really wish you could make it Make it up to you 100%

Long time no see :] There's this merc I know and haven't seen for a while… oh yeah it's you! :D C'mon pick up gotta tell you how wasted me and Slavoy McAllister got at this N54 rave xD Think we might've burnt down half the studio… by accident ofc XDD Hey, V? Pick up, choom Still can't top you 'n' me as a wrecking crew ;) Fuck, you ok? Pick up dammit not funny V 13 missed calls from: Kerry Eurodyne

You ghosting me? Fuck, pick up! Really?! Can't even bother to send ONE word?! Just gonna pretend like nothin happened, huh? COWARD

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PART 2 OF WAFFLES YAPS ABOUT TIME BUDDIES BECAUSE NO ONE WILL STOP THEM

if you want context for this here's THIS post. it is very long. this one probably will be as well.

ahem ahem. where did we leave off... ah, yes. The Realization.

(once again under the cut bc oh dear the bird is squawking someone stop her) (the bird is me. i am the bird)

🦜!

to put it simply, their dynamic is: gabbro fell first, but elbaite fell harder. gabbro's liked elbaite for a few years now, actually. they just haven't really thought about it.

so. gabbro is just along for the ride. whatever comes with their discoveries is just another blob of knowledge on their pile to them.

after the loops, when they're the closest to ellie they've ever been, they realize they're waaaay out of their area of expertise. they're not a very romantic person. they've never really tried to flirt (on purpose), nor have they really been flirted with all that much. (one could even say.... they got that L rizz.... *dies*) honestly they don't really mind it. they could live without romance, their facade is thick enough that they can act normal around someone the like (or love). their love is a quiet one, quiet enough they haven't really noticed it until recently.

like, ellie will be holding them in the hammock. and they'll feel all happy smiley and fluttery and warm. and they're thinking, "ah, so that's why i feel like this. good to know." and then they go about their day.

elbaite! oh boy, ellie. they're so preoccupied with trying to solve the mystery that they only realize their feelings after gabbro forces them to take a break loop and they watch gabbro play the flute. they're watching their lips. ...their lips... i wonder if they're a good kisser...

and then it's, wait, what? why would i think that? ew! but, oh. oh no. i'm not grossed out, not at all. i like the idea of kissing them, oh, oh stars, uhhm. ...oh. well shit.

and then they do absolutely nothing about those feelings because they're trying their hardest to put together the pieces of this insane puzzle that spans their entire solar system. they don'y have time to figure out the puzzle that is their feelings, thank you very much.

they don't do much about their feelings other than intense mutual pining and the occasional flirty joke that turns them both purple. then they start to become the "act like they're madly in love but theyre not even dating" trope. they care about each other, that's all that really matters at the time.

until, of course, they find solanum. this is where the au idea begins to take shape. basically due to funky eye of the universe business solanum can remember all the times ellie and gabby have visited her, and they realize there's a way to free her. so they do, and the three become the time buddies trio. ellie and gabby start to learn nomaian (they already knew some before just because ellie taught themself and then taught gabbro) and solanum starts to realize "oh wait, the way they're acting doesnt seem to be normal for hearthians! i must get to the bottom of this."

so then solanum goes sneaky mode and begins asking the two (separately, because she wants them to figure it out on their own... solanum gets the best wingwoman ever award lol) about why they're Like That around each other. Like That, meaning: flirting, cuddling, bonking heads, smiling like little kids at each other,

yknow what just. here's an example of an average interaction between the three. came up witht his on the spot but it's perfectly accurate to

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"hey," elbaite says. they're teetering over the edge of a hole in brittle hollow's wide-open crust, peering down with an edge of mischief to their words. "wanna see who can get to white hole station the fastest?"

gabbro chuckles. "you know i'll beat you, buddy. you just want me to catch you when you inevitably come hurtling towards the gravity panels."

"aha yea, you got me. those big, strong arms are just irresistible, y'know." elbaite gently taps their helmet against gabbro's, and without warning jumps off of the crust of the hollow and into its belly.

gabbro follows, shouting something inaudible as they come out of signal range. solanum flicks her radio to long-range, takes a seat at the edge of the crust, and listens. not a sound slips from her lips. she quite enjoys eavesdropping on these two.

elbaite is laughing. "gabbs, seriously, there's a- there's a huge chunk of the crust behind you, we gotta move, lemme go-"

"nah, not until you let me admire your voluptuous arm muscles--" a loud thunk noise comes through the radio, "--OW! hey!"

"eugh. if you ever say voluptuous again i'm leaving you stranded on your island."

"but it's, like, objectively true. you're pretty strong." gabbro's voice seems to be losing its punch. "or, just strong. or just pretty. ah, both of those things together, and both separate. any of those combinations work out pretty okay. y'know. words. ...anyway."

solanum just recently became familiar with this uniquely hearthian word. there's no perfectly accurate nomaian counterpart. the word is positive, referring to anything nice to look at. it is the more casual version of beautiful, which does have a direct translation.

pretty. gabbro uses it quite often when referring to elbaite.

"...i win." a soft thump, solanum assumes from elbaite reaching the station.

"cool, cool." silence, for a moment. "catch me?"

"wh- no, i- HOUGH--"

solanum stares into the belly of the hollow. she is entirely unequipped to speak on the social behaviors of hearthians, but she knows for a fact that no pair of creatures can speak in this manner and not be utterly infatuated. (with her having studied and practiced hearthian language enough to pick up on background conversation, she's become keenly aware of how intensely romantic her companion's' interactions are. it amuses her to no end.)

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ahem ahem. once again these dynamics will be fleshed out in a fic, someday, maybe. but for now if you want more yaps or would like to ask questions let me know and i'll keep yapping until the cows come home. or rather, until the universe ends. which is in about seven hours if the ship's timer calculated it correctly... *ahem.* to be continued, probably!

next up on waffles yaps about time buddies because no one is there to stop him: they're dating now! yaaay! next yap will be about when theyre dating! or at the very least how they start dating. tell me yoyr thoughts about this if you want i love talking to people about The Blorbos