#im fuctioning. definitely

[morganpdf]

The horrible cycle of feeling like shit (physical) -> cant clean bc in pain -> mental health gets worse -> cant clean bc depressed -> get more depressed bc its dirty in here -> depression makes getting out of bed harder so my physical health gets worse -> cant clean bc im in pain ad infinitum

[soulfullionbunny]

A sign of depression

i had several sign of depression, not quiet serious just a surface level of some non-fuctioning behavior. noticed this when i read past messages of me and my ex. in my old chat with her i was witty (more than now at least), i had more humour in my conversationm and generally a cool vibe to be with. but as i read it, i noticed my conversation patterns are too different compare to recent years for it to be a malicious act to my ex. so i read my friends old chat, i reviewed all my previous interactions in whatsapp, facebook, instagra, even discord. i saw it. i changed. i used to be fun, chill and generally open to conversations. but after 2021-2022, i noticed a lack of motivation in my conversations. i dont joke around anymore, which is odd bcs i know my character IS a joker (funny clown not gotham edgelord). the change also observable in my Instagram captions. as the time goes by, they were... bland and lack characters. yea this may can be considered as part of growing old and becoming more "mature" but i felt something is wrong. even if this is growing old, i dont want to age like this. being boring pakcik is not part of my plan in life. so this i would say a change in behaviour. letak tepi dulu.

Then no 2, social withdrawal. this paling senang nampak la bcs even if im an introvert, i seriously do not have any interest to meet new people. this is definitely NOT normal. getting to know strnagers aside, i also distancing myself from my circles. not sure because I tried to fulfill my ex request of me to not contact my (mostly girl) friends or not. probably yes probably not, hard to know bcs it also may stem from my independence towards my already established circles. and it very noticable the day aku menggila. i legit want to cut off everyone. like legit2 nak left group, block and delete no phone, openly cakap "aku x nak kawan dgn korang dah", stuff like that. but i didnt cross that line. and honestly im glad. aku x rash dlm bertindak bcs the loss i received would be immense compared to instant gratification i would get. x pe, dont take it personally bcs kadang its not even intentionall.

theres also emotionaly absent but idk rasanya mmng dari dulu kot. it starts when my stepmom passed away. anddd bersambung

[cobaltfluff]

SK8 AU week - YouTube AU !!

I do not know what the story is here except they have YouTube channels LOL

I had only planned to do some doodles but it ended up being really fun and I got super carried away haha

(I have no idea if these viewership numbers make sense I just smashed some keys hshgdfhs)

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edit: I didnt realise there’s a limit of number of tags you can use so the rest of mine got nuked and I dont remember what I wrote lmaoooo

[wingedhumanoid-remade]

@wings-united because you’ve blocked me and I can’t reply to your messages. which is hilarious.

Oh i reallllllllllllllyyyyy am loving this. Are you actually reading um, anything im saying? Lets start with celocanths becuase you apparently didn't do any fucking research. Celocanths. dont. have. more. than. four. limbs.  Neither do any other devonian fish. I said it really slow so you'd understand. The "limbs" you are referring to is called a "limb-like appendage," heres some photos so you can grasp this concept.

See how that worked? The other fins do not even vaugly fuction as limbs, cause theyre not.  

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Limb_(anatomy) "Limbs are jointed." "one of the projecting paired appendages (such as wings) of an animal body used especially for movement and grasping but sometimes modified into sensory organs." You dont look at fish, see their fins and go "HEY the've got more than four limbs!!!!" Come on. Ok, so now that that god awful excuse of a "rebuttal" is out of the way. My earlier statement still stands (hint because its a law of evolution) How did we evolve another fully functional limb. N other species on earth at the complexity above like, an amoeba, has EVER EVOLVED A NEW LIMB. Tell me, Kah.  So why do you think avians would grow new limbs? ell me exactly how the limb developed. "Evolution doesn't get to make whole new mechanisms out of whole cloth. Note that both bats and birds had to sacrifice their hands to make wings. Evolution didn't just tack on wings. Their arms and hands gradually changed into wings. They re-used the basic existing structures and pectoral muscles. It's a hack. Evolution is always a hack." "The only mammal to successfully gain true flight are bats, and they have been diverged from the rest of the mammalian tree for 100 million years. We just have not been evolving for long enough, and more importantly we have been evolving to fill a completely different evolutionary niche than the one filled by flying animals. It is basically impossible for evolution to change trajectories so drastically on such short notice." Why would the avian ancestors  "need" wings? What sort of circumstances could occur that would drive us to need wings that are not already resolved by us having exceptional creativity and cooperation between our kind? Evolution just doesn't work the way you're looking at it - "it would be nice if we had wings, so let's evolve some".  Even if wings were needed for the survival of the species, extinction is a MUCH more likely outcome.  (hy didn't the dinosaurs ALL just become tiny, so they could survive?  It doesn't work that way.  The ones that HAD become tiny - the ones that eventually became birds - DID survive.  That's how evolution works - you don't evolve what you need, you survive IF you've evolved what you need.)

Avian ancestors did not go from "lump on back" to "wings." Cause for that to happen you need a reason to have the lumps form in the first place, and then STAY there. What purpous would having extra stuff on your back to carry around have? How would that be an evolutionary advantage? "Regeneration is literally the growth, or regrowth of limbs, and it acts on stem cells. Wing growing is a form of regeneration, but it is creating new limbs. How did the gene for those limbs evolve, thats what I'm asking.  I know what regeneration is and it only works if theres a genetic code for those limbs to appear.

"You’re right, evolution edits what’s already there. Like cells, which create and grow things" No organism has ever had evolution start randomly mutating some cells on its back to grow a new limb, or anything even close to that. "My friend. We are not birds, therefore it would be impossible for us to get a pointed face, specialized heart" HOLy shit lmao. You really don't have a grasp on evolution. Theres no. reason??? avians wouldn't  have gotten a more pointed and streamined face shape. I'm not saying avians would just fucking. grow a beak? Im saying they would have become you know, shaped like they were ment to fly?

“To think that Homo Avians (IS, not could be, IS) a thing that would  be possible is simply stupid.” I’m,, holy shit.   You’re essentially telling me that avians aren’t possible and that  i don’t exist. "

HOLY SHIT ARE YOU. Serious?

Oh my god. I'm just stating the fucking facts my dude. Taxonomy is a real thing, and one rule is that organisms with a different amount of LIMBS do not get grouped in the same genus. Sorry? Again, get it through your thick skull. Just cause I say the classification of "Homo Avian"  wouln't make sense, doesn't mean I think growing wings is imposible. How many times am I going to have to write that before you fucking understand?

Hominids are in the superclass Tetrapoda contains the "FOUR-limbed vertebrates known as tetrapods"

https://biology.stackexchange.com/questions/21772/why-dont-mammals-have-more-than-4-limbs https://www.quora.com/Why-arent-there-any-species-of-mammal-with-six-legs https://www.quora.com/Why-dont-any-mammals-have-more-than-4-limbs-Why-didnt-they-evolve-to-have-multiple-legs-or-arms-like-insects http://www.ucmp.berkeley.edu/vertebrates/tetrapods/tetraintro.html

"Adding a limb, on the other hand (no pun intended), is pretty expensive. You're not just adding a single extra part, but a whole network of additional blood vessels, bone structures, tissues, and what-have-you. These all need additional nutrients and a good set of genes to ensure they work together properly. On top of this, you also need the limb to not be a disadvantage. It needs to be in a useful place anatomically and immediately offer an advantage as soon as the extra limb mutation comes into play. These mutations can occur, but it's vastly more likely that they're a disadvantage. Take frogs, for example. It's not altogether uncommon for frogs to develop extra legs. What usually happens, though, is you end up with a frog that's clumsier and slower and packing more meat. Predators tend to like that sort of thing, so the mutated frogs don't live long enough to produce offspring so that the extra limb(s) could eventually become useful."

= OH boy. Have I been WAITING to roast Project Icarus. 1. "The group is elitist, claiming a special, exalted status for itself, its leader(s) and members" "Project Icarus is THE ONLY GROUP THAT CANG GROW WINGS, and anyone else who doesn't have the special"gene" i just made up IS TRASH AND HOPELESS"  

2. "The group has a polarized us-versus-them mentality" Do I..... even have to say it? "US vs. "The stupid dreamers." Did you see how fast your group turned against us? Immeditly going from "friends" to "I HATE YOU RETARD NONE OF YOU HAVE POTENTIAL AND CANT GROW WINGS" etc...etc...etc... I could go on.

3. “Wouldn’t it be exciting to really know the secrets of being an avian?” HOLY SHIT. THATS LITERALLY HOW PROJECT ICARUS WORKS. "We, PI, are the ONLY group who knows the SUPER SPECIAL METHOD and the real SCIENCE of growing wings. All the other group are fucking stupid." My group is exhibiting NONE of those behaviors you’ve just “quoted”.

4. "I’m 100% positive that if someone joined your group and decided that Sahde’s was more logical, you’d threaten them, hackle them, be utmost bitches. " Ooh my god... the IRONY. You mean, hackle them and be utmost bitches like.... when sahde removed me as an admin when I didn't agree with her? When she told me to leave and make my own group cause I wans't going along with your cultlike beliefs? Actually, in my group I'm encouraging you know, actually free thought? As in "we all have differing opinions on how wings are grown, and thats ok." So yeah, good try bud but we aren't going to be like PI was.

5. "You’re making everyone in the group feel guilty and terrible." WHERE LMAO. Me? Me as in IM the one going around calling my members retards and stupid cult members like a child? oh right, thats you :/. Oh and crow, whom you persuaded to go into my group, lie, and then leave after calling us all "a cult full of dreamers." yeah. ok. and then the blocking of course. i've been blocked by almost everyone, expecially you becuase you didn't want to hear what I was saying anymore. I understand blocking oliver, and I do not condone their behavior and I definitely have asked them to stop sending you and the others edgy messages. I have not sent any one of my members to go yell at anyone from PI cause I have some common decency. You can talk to them if they hurt your feewings.

As if you and Ro are some holy angelic saints who are never mean uwuwuwuwuwu. if you're felling guilt, maybe theres a reason.

6. "invites random people to attempt to grow wings who will never grow them" You mean like.......................................................... you? sahde? ro? whom have never grown wings yet and not even proven their own ""theory?""" yeah......... thats smart. remember when sahde lied abut having wings?that was fun. remember? not cult-like at all.

We don’t let in random ppl, we haven't let anyone in. All my group is made up of ex-pi members who were tired of the bullshit. I gave them the option to leave and didn't force any of them to stay.

7. "The group displays excessively zealous and unquestioning commitment to its leader" GOD this is really funny. sahde can explain this one to you, shes already gone on a rant about it before.

8. " Questioning, doubt, and dissent are discouraged or even punished." ajhsbasjdhgjaskdashkjahfjhfldsjfh

http://www.csj.org/infoserv_cult101/checklis.htm

tdlr. i could do this all day. i know you’re never going to admit “hey maybe im wrong, my theory doesn’t make sense in terms of evolution” because you think you’re so smart and are again, full of yourself.

Please. Actually acknowledge the science instead of spouting bullshit.

[avirams]

i've probably have only half ofmy brain fuctioning so i always rush in whenever it comes to mobs, much like usual- then i get frustarted at myself when i die dhsdb

exactly the reason why i started playing omori!! it seemed like a game that would start off as sweet and cute, but would get progressively darker as we played through it. i for one would love to know how you got into danganronpa!! only if you felt comfortable with it, of course.

it's frustrating for me bc like,, i start watching an anime or playing a game, but after awhile i just stop and loose interest?? i have dozens of unfinished animes that i have no idea how to get through dbhsc

aha, it sounds like a fun game!! i've actually started watching a walkthrough of it yesterday- i was expecting it to be a visual novel only type of game, but the graphics sure are nice.

i was actually so surprised when i got him?? i was not expecting him this soon- i'm actually planning on accumulating fates (maybe about 100 or so) so i can spend them all at once- i'm bound to get a character i want sooner or later dbchd

— faerie

xmskkf sorry for the late response, ive been rather busy recently. and thats exactly my experience- i never seem to have enough food when it actually counts,,

as for danganronpa,,, im not entirely sure how well ill explain this but. basically, i was a discord noob, and somehow winded up joining this demon rp server. i had no idea what i was doing, clicked another link, and found myself in yet another roleplay server!! the promo ad had sounded interesting, speaking of a murder mystery with 16 teenagers,,, woah, huh. no idea how they came up with that weird name but sounds fun!!

soo i was just minding my own business, filling out the oc form, but there was one part i did not get. "ultimate". not wanting to seem ignorant or dumb, i frantically googled the term, but to no avail. i just couldnt figure it out. shamefully, i went to the #ask-a-mod channel and asked them.

needless to say, they were,, very, very surprised to say the least when i showed up so confused. "no offense but uhh how did you even get here if you dont know danganronpa???" im unfortunately a very stubborn and prideful person, so i was pretty mortified. back to google i went, this time terribly misspelling daragonpa, which eventually to me spite binging the entire. series. so i wouldnt seem stupid in a discord server which i ended up leaving the next day

n yeah,, im always getting recs of really cool series but sometimes it feels like i genuinely dont have enough time or patience to finish them all cmdkkf. and yeah, worlds end club is fun!! i like a lot of the characters, more than i expected. the,, sudden shifts in gameplay is cool too.

and yea!! im answering this super late but i am definitely going for kazuha, and then probably albedo. im terrible at saving up but its worth it for him. hes coming near my birthday too so thats my gift to myself :}