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[thruthelookingglass]

Stranger in the mirror

You ever look at yourself in the mirror and not recognize the person looking back? What does one do to resolve this? How do you find the person you once were?

Did I ever know who I was?

I had someone close to me say, “You always find yourself in a situation.” My response? “I’m really good at that.” I do find myself in some deep shit, and not your typical everyday shit. I mess up. I mess up a lot. I have to think fast and find a way to fix the issue that I’ve gotten myself into. Is it an easy fix? No. Never is. I am a major fuck up.

I always know what I have to do and when I need to it. The problem is that I allow my head to talk me into doing, or not doing the resolution. That is what gets me in trouble. I listen to that little voice and miss a payment here or there, buy things I don’t need just because I find it cute, or leave work a little early each day because I’m peopled-out. I’m really good at fucking things up… too bad that’s not a wanted skill because I’d be THE BEST.

With all this going on I look at myself in the mirror and I have no idea who I am. I have no idea why I do the things I do. When I was a teen, I had a small idea of who I wanted to be, but I allowed obstacles to get in my way. That’s a nasty habit I still clutch to this day.

I want to be who I thought I’d be. I want to look in the mirror and like the person I see. I want to kick that voice in the ass and get my priorities straight. I want to be happy.

Too often I get sucked right back down the rabbit hole and find everything spiraling out of control. It’s starting to give me vertigo.

[logan-esquivel96]

Happy 2th anniversary 

Octubre 4, 2016

[zhanron]

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