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blackknight-kai · 8 months ago

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This is gonna sound insane but HEAR ME OUT—

Have you ever heard of the term of a 'womb tattoo' (WT) ? It's basically like a tattoo/sigil that is placed over where the womb would be (on the skin itself) and it would have like, different spell properties depending on the type of tattoo/sigil that was inked

What if, WHAT IF— Sun Wukong knows the basic of WT magic and have been secretly planning to place one on his beloved? (With consent, of course)

I'd honestly think he'd enjoyed seeing how his beloved would look so flushed - sweat dribbling down their skin, their breaths short and quick and just how often they would palm at their lower abdomen; the tattoo/sigil from THE Sun Wukong himself is thrumming with want, with need for any speck of attention the simian demon would throw their way.

I'm so insane actually. Perhaps this year was a good year for monkeys all around

(I’m really tired and wrote this before sleep so I hope this came out okaaaaay)

You have an awesome idea here! Wukong wanting to share something like this with his beloved? Absolutely! This COULD go into yandere territory but I wont go there since it can ALSO go into consenting territory especially if reader is okay with it. Sun Wukong wouldn’t MAKE them get it but them being willing? Awesome.

N.S.F.W Under the cut - 2 parter in here :)

Wukong brings it up one night, at first it’s kinda playful but definitely devolves into a slightly serious conversation. I mean he doesnt wanna force you or make you uncomfortable. PLUS it’s not like it has to happen NOW. But he wants to make sure you know what youre getting into. Because this could be A LOT. Especially for someone attached to HIM.

When you do agree to it he’s going to be sooooo stoked and excited. Will definitely prepare what he can for it and then maybe set a day specifically for getting it on you. No matter how long the actual spell takes most likely he just wants to have some fun and make it a nice playful comfy thing, maybe he takes you apart bit by bit and then puts you back together before putting it on you while youre nice and relaxed. Or maybe in the middle of your orgasm he casts the spell?

Either way, you’re in for a ride after. See, the spell doesnt work for just ANYONE. Most womb spells seem to showcase that “any man” will do. Not for Wukong. Nope. He’s gonna make sure that the only way this thing reacts is because of HIM. Thing is, Wukong is pretty damn strong right? Powerful. So it’s only fair that his mark is as well. You’re going to be a MESS so often it’s not even funny. You KNEW he was attracted to you, duh you sleep together all the time, but to THIS extent?

Having HIS attention is NOT for the weak or someone who doesnt want to put up with his shit. Because as a King he has WANTS and he has DEMANDS. I’ve said it many times at this point, Sun Wukong DEMANDS your pleasure. It is HIS. His right, his privilege. He WILL get it.

It’s going to get to a point where you could be doing mundane things and then all of a sudden the mark is going off and youre practically bowled over by the sudden sensation. He’s off doing King stuff? Doesn’t matter. Good luck getting anything done that day because god forbid he’s bored at a celestial court meeting or something, he is going to fantasize about you through the entire thing making your mark go fucking nuts. You’re going to be dripping and trembling, sweating and struggling to stand for hours. Trying to touch yourself? Good luck, unless you pass out this isn’t gonna stop.

He’s watching you from across the room full of people? His eyes traveling up and down your body and taking in those curves and features he so loves? Your pussy is going to be woke the fuck up and when he smells your slick not only is he going to feel prideful about it, he’s going to make it so much worse. Thinking about all the filthy things he could do to you right there and now.

Wukong brushes his tail across your ass? It’s like little fireworks of pleasure are set off on your skin where it touched you, I hope you learn how to stop yourself from moaning on a dime because he was definitely thinking about something naughty when he did it and now your clenching around NOTHING but needing to be filled with him.

ALSO NEW THOUGHT (Lucky you LOL two thoughts for 1). Actually…..I hope you dont mind if I go that direction instead of an established relationship one….Cuz thats where this is taking me now.

General Properties

- [ ] Only reacts to Sun Wukong and NO other.

- [ ] Normally you’d have to be within a certain distance of the person for the tattoo to react to their dirty thoughts about you, but Wukong? AHAHAHA yeah. Dude could be off doing fuck knows what however far away and your tattoo will react to him thinking nasty things about you.

- [ ] Him looking at you with lustful eyes? Or maybe he brushes by you in a certain way? This is gonna set off the tattoo too.

- [ ] The tattoo can react in various levels depending on what HE has going on. Generally he likes you to simmer. Sweat a little. Edge you all day. Likes to remind you of him as you go about your day.

- [ ] The reaction is basically as if a low level vibrator is inside you, getting turned on higher and higher depending on what he’s doing/thinking and for how long. It’s gonna feel like a gentle massage of your clit along with it, not enough USUALLY to make you come but you are going to be FEELING it.

- [ ] Another fun thing, if he touches himself in a sexual way - Example strokes his cock, your pussy reacts as though hes fucking it. Hope you’re ready for THAT in the middle of a random Tuesday.

- [ ] A later addition to the mark will be where you cant orgasm without tasting or taking in his seed through your pussy. He’s gone for a few days and wants you to be panting and so damn needy for him when he comes home, as though youre heat.

While was writing this as an established relationship, I also had the thought of Reader being his bride to be - and consenting to get the mark. But they haven’t consummated the relationship since they aren’t married yet, and the effects and stuff I list out above would be AMAZING.

When you found out that you were going to be marrying someone you HADNT expected it to be THE Monkey King, Great Sage Equal To Heaven and Earth himself, Sun Wukong. You’d met him several times, each time was a pleasant experience. He was oddly charming, cheeky, and mischievous of course. You laughed at his little pranks and trickery, listened to his captivating stories. It seemed like when you guys were in the same space he would eventually seek you out, enjoying your company for a little while before one of his pranks caught up to him and he had to make a quick exit.

You found him VERY attractive in a lot of ways. Be it his handsome face and that roguish smirk he does or how intelligent he clearly is underneath all that arrogance. His strength and power is also something that captures your attention both physical and mental. While his temper could use some work at times you find him endearing. The fact that he takes his time to come over and say hi to you, make you laugh, and spend time with you, even asking about you makes you feel as though he see’s you. Since he doesnt generally bother with things like that too much from what you can tell.

You weren’t 100% certain but you thought he was flirting with you a lot of the time. Your cheeks turning red and his smile growing a little wider as though he’s pleased with himself at your reaction. Tension, or at least you HOPED it’s mutual, brews between you two every time youre in the same space. Sometimes, before he makes his way over to you, you can feel his eyes on you from across the way. Upon looking, there he is. Wukong will give you a little wave with either his hand or even his cheeky tail before returning to whatever conversation or thing he was doing, but those eyes of his will wander back periodically.

When the offer of marriage came well….you were a little shocked to say the least. The thing was, it wasn’t an immediate marriage but rather, he was to court you for a time with the intention of marriage at the end of it. You would essentially be his bride to be but with a brief period of time, about a year, where he would spend time with you and the two of you get to know each other more. Honestly, you thought it was something he would NEVER do. Between the stories about him or his wild nature. You figured either he would never ‘settle’ down or he’d marry right away, not wanting to go through the hassle when he would be marrying them anyway.

Accepting the offer was easy. Honestly, you were intrigued by him and definitely had a huge fat crush on him. After spending a few outings with him you come to realize you could absolutely fall in love with him too. A few months into the courtship the tension between the two of you is HIGH. There have been kisses, but Wukong always stops them before they get too heated. Light lingering touches but always in respectable places. It’s maddening. But from what he explained to you, he wanted to make sure the two of you matched well. That YOU know and understand him before fully committing to him, because as he’s said, once you’re his there wont be any going back. He hadnt said it in a menacing way or anything, but you can tell that he was serious. About you and this relationship, that for him, this is IT.

By your third month of courtship though Wukong springs something on you. He assures you that he can remove it if it’s something that becomes an issue or you decide not to move forward with the relationship.

A womb tattoo.

He allows you a little time to think about it, after covering all the specifics. You’re nervous at first, as you haven’t really had a sexual encounter with him as of yet. Not that you didn’t WANT to, but again he has been keeping things clean between the two of you aside from a few sexually charged flirtatious remarks sprinkled here or there. But regardless of wherever you are his eyes always tell you how much he wants you too. A lot of the time when you separate for the day you’re left wanting….fantasizing about what could he possibly be thinking about.

Eventually, you agree. Mainly because he doesnt pressure you about it. It’s almost like he never asked or brought it up. The way his eyes light up and he takes a moment to process your acceptance though tells you how genuinely excited he is about the idea. His tail swishes and flicks almost erratically behind him as he double checks with you before he sets a day for you two to begin the process for the tattoo.

You’d both decided to start easy, something simple. The tattoo itself, as he had explained, isnt ink and it wont show up unless he messes with the spell itself. But the spell will attach itself to your core and will ONLY react to HIM. This way, no other would accidentally activate it. Not wanting to overwhelm you at first, he sets the spell to only react when he’s looking at you with a lust full gaze. You’re nervous as he has you lie down, your clothes on but you do have to adjust them just enough to reveal your hips and the space your uterus sits under your skin. He hadnt wanted you to undress fully, this way he can enjoy you on your wedding night.

Wukong applies the spell and its a strange sensation, it doesnt hurt but its intense. When hes done he soothes you and tells you that you’ve done well. He tells you that the spell will activate by the time you see him next, this way your body has time to adjust to it.

You thought you were prepared. You were not.

The next time you see him you two aren’t alone but as his familiar eyes land on you, the hair on the back your neck stands up and then your body goes ridged as a tingling sensation starts up inside you body. It’s gentle, but it causes you to gasp and flush a little as your pelvic muscles contract at the sudden soft vibrating that is pulsing in your pussy. You KNOW nothing is in you, this must be the spells doing. You watch Wukong, having to lean over and support yourself with the back of a chair as his eyes roam up and down your body slowly. Once his eyes lock on to yours and he see’s your face he smirks wide and slow. His eye brow raises slowly though, a look of ‘Still okay?’ Comes across his expression and you nod a little shyly. Feeling embarrassed but also…excited. The tattoo isn’t overwhelming, more like a light gentle touch keeping you awake but not enough to make you desperate. At least at first.

This continues for a few weeks, the strange but pleasant buzzing sensation inside you whenever he’s around. It’s tantalizing and you find yourself desperate to return home and bring yourself to orgasm every time you end up spending hours with him. It’s almost constant in a way you weren’t prepared for but definitely dont mind. Especially when he knowingly teases you or leans in and whispers in your ear telling you how pretty your red cheeks are. Or asking you why youre squirming so much with a knowing grin on his face.

When he asks if he can adjust the spell, letting you know what additions he’d like to make, you agree. The little secret between the two of you is thrilling and you truly want to discover more with him. This time the additions will include if he’s thinking about you and if he touches you with intention. What he only hinted at though was how the intensity was going to increase. He also told you that he was leaving something up for a surprise.

After he adjusts the spell, that night when it finally settles, you gasp awake. Your body is sweaty and you’ve slicked up enough that your underwear is damp. The once soft tingling sensation is now an intense direct feeling. It’s not truly enough to make you orgasm but it’s enough to make you sweat and squirm. Your clit is swollen and your entrance pulses with need and you genuinely cannot stop yourself from immediately reaching down to bring yourself to ecstasy. From the feeling, this had been going on for some time before you woke. Meaning Wukong has been thinking about you. The thought makes you shiver with excitement and flattery. Happy that his thoughts are currently consumed with you.

From here it’s a little more difficult to remain passive. Sometimes you can be spending time with your friends or completing a chore for the day when the buzzing starts up. It makes you weak in the knees and you have to do your best not to react too much. When he’s around and watching you it’s even harder. You know he sees how warm you are, the sweat starting to bead on your skin, and the slight tremor you have every so often. Your speech is breathier too.

Wukong clearly enjoys seeing you like this. His tail always swishing and his face while usually showing a smirk sometimes remains stoic. But his eyes. His eyes watch you with such intense desire and pride that it makes you almost want to beg him to touch you. He seems to relish in the fact that he can make you so needy that you have to press on your abdomen or cross your legs tightly as you sit down. His kisses now are always a little more on the heated side, but he still never lets them get TOO heated. You can see in his expression as he pulls back that he is testing his own patience. He whispers to you how delicious you smell, that he can smell you from across the way and he cant wait to finally drink from its source after youre married.

One night, not too long after the new addition was added to the spell youre lying in bed, getting ready to sleep when that now familiar tingling starts up inside you. Since youre alone you relax back and allow yourself to sigh at the pleasant buzz. That is, until it feels like something thick and blunt is making its way inside you.

Your eyes widen and you gasp, arching your back and spreading your legs unconsciously as the invisible object slowly starts to thrust in and out of you. A little panicked you reach down and under your clothes, a moan forcing its way out of your throat at the continued stimulation. Your hole is empty and definitely NOT being stretched open by anything but your fingers. The ghost sensation of something inside you is so visceral, so real though, and your body jerks and thrums as the object moves faster, hitting inside you just a little rougher too. Your whole body comes alive and it feels like not just your clit and pussy are are pulsing with need, but so are your nipples and all the little pleasure spots on your body.

You cant catch your breath and involuntarily our hips move, chasing the ghost sensation as you touch yourself. You’re so wet that the slick sound of your fingers dipping inside you makes you shudder and you quickly realize that THIS was the surprise Wukong had added. How he’s making you feel this way you dont know, but you DO know he’s thinking about you, heavily. Your orgasm comes so suddenly that you cry out and clamp down on your own fingers. The blunt object doesnt stop moving though, fucking you through your orgasm until youre shaking and near tears. It seems to move faster and faster, losing its own rhythm until finally it slams in and then stills.

You lie there panting, body sweaty and your legs still trembling as you finally are allowed to come down from your high. The tingling slowly dissipates to a low gentle feeling until it’s gone. Leaving you oddly satisfied and definitely curious.

When you pluck up the courage to ask him about it, Wukong gives you the biggest shit eating grin you’ve ever seen, his fangs on display. He first asks you if you liked it, which you nod with a little hesitation, mainly due to it being such a new thing. Your Monkey King then tells you that what you experienced was him fucking his fist while thinking about you. That as he touched himself your body was reacting accordingly, as though his cock was deep inside you instead of his hand.

The knowledge sets your body on fire and it sets his mind wondering too. You let out a little whimper as the tingling sensation comes back in full force, immediately ramping up your lust and desire. He reacts to your sounds and panting breath accordingly too, which doesnt help your situation. The kiss he gives you that day is the filthiest one you’ve received so far, and when you orgasm on nothing, not even a touch, Wukong looks at you like you’ve given him the stars & moon as a gift.

Your wedding day to him cant come any faster. Because while you enjoy this little secret game the two of you have been playing, enjoy feeling the ghost of his cock fuck into periodically when he cant contain himself and has to fuck his own fist….It’s not enough. You want to feel his warmth. Feel his claws digging into your skin as he pounds into you. His fangs marking you and his release filling you until he has nothing left.

- [ ] Once you guys get married this gets even worse (better). Especially with your permission of course, but he is going to fuck his fist when he KNOW’s youre doing things JUST so you have to try to fight to stay on your feet and not react.

- [ ] He’s going to be a major tease 24/7 since he doesnt ever stop thinking about you. Never stops wanting you.

- [ ] When he adds the addition about ‘can only come when you taste or receive his seed’??? Yeah good luck. Because he is going to edge the HELL out of you.

- [ ] He wont do it all the time dont worry, he does want to be inside you and fuck you just as much as he wants to watch you squirm for him.

- [ ] The cum thing though, let’s say hes been edging you for AGES. You’re in public and you NEED to orgasm. BADLY. You’re dripping and so fucking desperate for it. If he’s feeling nice (and you beg him so pretty for it), he will pull you to the side and maybe let you suckle his cock to taste his precum so you can orgasm finally. Or he will shove his hand down his pants and get it for you that way, sticking his wet fingers in your mouth since you’d gotten him so worked up. OR he will let you suck him off fully or will cum in your mouth, just the head of his dick past your lips while he strokes himself to you touching yourself.

- [ ] He may add or remove some stuff depending on what is too much or maybe you need a break - he’s good to you!

- [ ] If you’d like to experience a heat when he goes into a rut? Spell can take care of that.

- [ ] Extra fertility? He’s got you with the spell.

- [ ] Extra stamina or extra sensitivity? He can make that happen too.

- [ ] You being so turned on for him while he watches you squirm, waiting for you to reach your breaking point or begging point is something he will NEVER get tired of.

- [ ] You do have a safe word/phrase. This way, if you’re in public and he’s activating the spell around people, which he usually does because watching you and smelling you get so needy for him in secret is thrilling as fuck and turns him on, he doesn’t accidentally push you too far.

- [ ] That said, would he love watching you try to stifle an orgasm? Yeah. But only when he’s next to you so he can pull you into him and you can moan against him - your sounds muffled because those are FOR HIM.

- [ ] You boost his ego astronomically because of this spell, not only with your trust in him but because you WANT him just as much genuinely and not just because of the spell.

#black myth wukong #sun wukong x reader #black myth wukong x reader #bk kai writes #This ran away from me LOL #Good idea anon

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aguineapigcouldntdothis · 11 months ago

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I didnt really have the words for this yesterday on tisha b'av and maybe I still don't now. I was thinking about the expulsion of jews from spain in 1492 a lot, about 532 years ago. I thought about how goyim have told myself and others that it was so long ago, and that we have no reason to mourn it anymore. after all, how can something that happened hundreds of years ago affect your life that much? I thought a lot about why it hurts to think about even though I was never there in person. I considered ideas such as the famously long jewish memory, the strong connection sephardim have to the iberian peninsula despite our expulsion, etc.

none of them felt like the right answer until I realized that my family's entire lives onward were determined by that moment. I am lucky enough that I was able to have my culture passed down to me, a privilege that so many jews dont get. it also made me realize that that expulsion prevented my family from metaphorically moving forwards. when they escaped to turkey, they had essentially nothing besides their knowledge of how to make jewelry. so, they spend hundreds of years making jewelry for people who were rich enough to have alleviated their burdens in 2 seconds. I can only assume that the reason they were stuck there for so long is because they were jewish and people hated them just for that.

i imagine what they could have done if only they didn't have to leave in 1492. if only jews were not forced to flee, convert, or die. of course, ill never know, but I have to live with the knowledge that that moment in 1492 has affected the lives of myself and everyone in my family since. maybe that's why it doesnt feel that long ago

#jewish #jumblr

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moonsaver · 9 months ago

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any thoughts on jiaoqiu? maybe yan!jiaoqiu as well?

Ive already written about 2 or so works on yan!jiaoqiu but having more doesn't hurt.

To be fair, all of my thoughts should be taken with a grain of salt - that salt being the fact i have no knowledge whatsoever of the actual canon events that are going on right now. The entire Xianshou loufu or whatever gameplay i watched on youtube was in a fever haze and i ought to maintain that streak.

As for yan!jiaoqiu,

I feel like he's definitely a bit vindictive, and very manipulative. He'll rarely use physical strength.

Hes the kind that guilt trips, love bombs, then gaslights only to pull away and ghost you once both of you are deep into a relationship. If you two have an argument, most likely it's because Jiaoqiu provokes it, and then leaves "sulking", acting like you touched a very sensitive spot. He'll be sure to wring it out, acting like he "doesnt want to talk about it" to anyone close that asks. He disappears and leaves the others to question and bombard you, instead.

He probably acts "helpless" towards you, so it seems like you're in perfect control because.. well, how could you not be? Your lover is quite lucky to meet someone like you who hasn't taken advantage of him or his kind nature. Surely you don't think it's possible for him to make you stay in the relationship?

His love is quite smothering, though. Constantly leaves fur from his tail on you somewhere, and if you get annoyed, he'll act like he's in low spirits about it. He'll love feeding you, and actually acts somewhat better when it comes to your diet - including all necessary food items you need to eat,and doesn't shy away from indulging you from time to time. If you eat anything without his permission though.. he gets very huffy about it, almost stupidly so.

He has a habit of "biting" you, as a form of affection. Sometimes, he bites you a little harder than normal, saying it's just cuteness aggression, but it's most likely his own stress from the fear of you leaving him. It's like the kind of "pride" someone has when they finally let go of things, but only after there's claw marks on it.

Speaking of, yan!Jiaoqiu actually is very insecure of you leaving him, even for a few days. He constantly has to know where you are, and might even involve Moze into the mix - using his own inability to keep an eye on you as a sort of "leash" over him. He wears a loving and easy smile around you, but whenever you aren't present, he looks like he's about to suck the entire nailbed off of his fingers. He gets so extremely worried about what you're thinking or how close you are to leaving him (especially even without a word, or a simple text), that it acts as a the main root of why exactly he provokes you.

Usually after arguments settle down, he spoils you, and again, lovebombs you. He really is terrified, but he'd rather have you think it's an act than actually know he is. That way he always has some "upper hand" even without your knowledge. In the meantime, he takes the best care of you he can – makes lovely meals for you, takes care of you if you're sick (without any spiking), praises you often and generally acts like a normal, healthy lover with you. All that until.. his insecurity spikes up again and he has to start an argument.

If you do leave - he won't give you an emotional reaction, or rather he believes he is rightfully refusing you the privilege of it. He'll stay quiet for a long, long, time. In the middle of it, he disappears again, but doesn't come back from simple reasoning. He doesn't just want you back, he wants you begging for him, for his affections, for him to just return. His circle of friends might even influence you strongly to return to him and persuade him before he does anything foolish, especially for someone who has already been through so much. Why do you act so harshly towards a poor man like that? All of the pressure cracks down on you and leaves you begging him.

Anyways, depending on how "compliant" you are towards him, he's actually a healthy lover the more you can deal with him. You may even have a chance to "reform" him – if you can deal with the massive amounts of insecurity and self-sabotage. Just try not to spiral down with him in the process.

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seandiazworms · 2 years ago

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dating sean diaz hcs pt 2

- before esteban fixed up a car for sean, u guys would always take the public bus around seattle

- his favorite dates r the ones where u guys go into random small stores and thrift shops

- both of u guys cackle REALLY LOUD at tacky shirts with stupid sayings and get looks from people 😭

- ur fav thing is to go “i found something ud like” and watch sean look up from the racks in excitement to see an overly patriotic shirt that says “don’t touch my truck”

- his face drops into a frown and he picks out something 10x uglier and say it looks like something ud wear

- sean secretly buys what u say is cute but u cant afford bc thrifting is so expensive for no reason these days

- “guess what i got” and he slithers it out of his bag with an evil smile 😭 suddenly him dissing u for an hour straight doesnt even matter anymore

- once esteban texts sean for dinner u guys hop on the bus back home. he never asks sean to come home for dinner alone though! common courtesy to invite the gf

- sharing wired earbuds on the bus ride home always. sean plays little love songs bc he only listens to music that he relates to in that specific moment 😭 corny but cute. he def has songs in his head that he thinks are ur guys’ songs and plays them every chance he gets

- when u first started eating with the diaz family it was so painfully awkward

- though he kind of likes it now, he did not want his girlfriend to get to know esteban or daniel too well LMAO he didnt want to be embarrassed by anything they possibly could say

- still, even when he tried so hard to avoid it, daniel and esteban still found their ways

- estebans the kind of dad to bring up embarrassing stories about sean when he was a kid bc he KNOWS how much his son would hate it

- “y’know (y/n), im surprised seanie boy over here even managed to get a girlfriend in the first place”

- “why is that, mr. diaz?”

- “i remember he thought girls couldn’t poop until he was in middle school! i had to break the news for him—he was in denial for weeks. his voice was shaking when i told him and everything!” u can see sean pause mid-chew in the corner of his eye 😭 “and please, call me esteban”

- you just awkwardly nodded and tried to not bust out laughing. sean notices and kicks u under the table which makes u ACTUALLY bust out laughing

- esteban and daniel knew from there u were one to be trusted

- “i bet (y/n) doesn’t poop” daniel randomly said when u left that night. seans immediately swiveled his head around 😭

- just like with lyla, daniel seemed to have a crush on u as well. the only difference is that sean tries to shut it down REALLY quick.

- “she shits all the time. sometimes i wipe her ass for her bc she shits so much”

- daniel’s “eww…” is like music to his ears

- u always playfully punch him when he does this in front of u and ask why he makes u look bad in front of him

- sean never admits its bc hes jealous of a little kid 😭 he just changes the subject and kisses u bc he thinks hes sneaky

- over the summer he randomly got a buzz and didnt say anything to anybody

- he just opened his front door standing there bald as if nothing happened and ur eyes wld just kind of widen

- u wld eventually tell him it looks good tho bc it DOES he pulls it off so well

- that summer u wld always randomly start feeling his head because the texture is so interesting

- it got to the point where hed just sit on the floor in front of wherever u were so ud get to feel his freshly mowed head

- he always ends up dozing off bc its so comforting and u wld feel his head pressed on ur inner leg.

- u also get the privilege of cutting/buzzing his hair 😋

- sean doesnt trust himself so u guys sit for 40 mins watching a brad mondo video before u start going ape on his hair

- he gets kind of nervous when u get close to his face and does that thing where u switch between a persons right eye and left eye while smiling awkwardly 😭

- surprisingly it turns out good!

- i feel like ud be super nit-picky on ur work, thinking its total ass. he wld just say its perfect over and over again

- he always stares at any reflective surface and smiles like a dork in front of it. even if u did do a shit job, he probably wouldnt notice or care all that much bc he loves blindly ❤️

im on winter break so i get to be cringe and free for endless hours thank u to like the 3 other people who also like sean diaz. u r all real ones

#life is strange 2 #sean diaz x reader #sean diaz #daniel diaz #sean diaz hcs

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charrfie · 12 days ago

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as a tenna enjoyer I need to hear your thoughts on him… and obviously what you think his deal with spamton is

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Oh worm anon.. I have some dreadful news for you if you are a tenna enjoyer.... buckle in. I drafted this overview up (in regards to the first half of your question) for one of my friends a few days ago and am copying it down here for you pretty much word for word since I believe it answers your question coherently enough. Good luck its long

I have.. some conflicting feelings about tenna. I can't say I'm as much of a fan as a lot of people are right now. Not to say he's not narratively interesting; I did enjoy the role that he plays in the story (although I wish we had gotten more insight on his relationship with kris and any aftershocks from the divorce since that's what compels me most about him). And I enjoy the comedy about him! But he kind of pisses me off as a character, haha. He's just not very... original? And doesnt strike up very much empathy in me? It's difficult not to compare him to spamton since they're intentionally very alike so forgive me if I'm a bit heavy on that in this explanation; their comparison properly contextualizes my main issues. But it bothers me that he's essentially a copy of someone else who then relentlessly disparages the person he copied, even putting my bias aside. Neither is he very genuine, which summarizes a lot of my problem with him. While spam is kind of a loser, he's still PAINFULLY genuine in how he presents himself, who he is, and who he's stolen elements of his appearance from (e.g. swatch's glasses) while the same can't be said about tenna. In fact, when you remove every element they share, who tenna is becomes... a mystery. There IS interesting commentary in that in and of itself because you know I love a good character with no sense of self, but it's also kind of. Disappointing? To me? Because I don't feel it was elaborated on far enough to warrant credit (keep in mind all of my critiques are rather tentative until the story is completely finished because you never know where a plotline will end up). But that may be the point, considering the better end tenna got in comparison to spam (see: my difficulty garnering empathy for him that I mentioned above). While spamton came from nothing and has never been taking seriously in any point of his lifetime, tenna has had lots of success and affection from his conception... only to *just now* be grappling with the idea that he may not be at the height of popularity forever (and this is completely ignoring the fact others in the world do still want him). So, while he and spam during his big shot era may behave similarly (disparaging old friends, being verbally abusive towards employees, etc), these behaviors stem from largely different catalysts, one being much more privileged than the other. Which, again, leads me to believe that difficulty sympathizing with or liking tenna much Was The Point

As for your other question concerning what tenna's deal with spamton is...... well okay let me just get this out of the way preemptively. If it's not evident enough from previous posts, I do not like spamtenna pretty much at all. In fact I do not like pretty much Any spamton ship because I feel its counterintuitive to spamton's personal narrative. I have written paragraphs about this singular point (not just in regards to spamtenna) to my friends before so to spare you the details, I'll sum it up by saying that a huuuuuge huge part of spamtons character relates to the handling of his relationships (platonic/romantic). He is not someone with a good track record by any means in this regard and bases his self worth solely off of this!!!! In fact, his entire plotline in chapter 2 revolves around him forming healthy connections and learning to live for himself/his friends. So as someone that is not a fan of shipping culture in general, I really wish folks would explore him learning to live for himself (and for his friends) before pursuing anything further. I have other issues with it but this is my largest by a long shot. THAT BEING SAID (SORRY FOR LAIKA COMPLAINING ABOUT SPAMTENNA HOUR I NEED TO VENT MY FRUSTRATIONS) I think while it's very likely for them to have had some level of history, it is nooooot something that holds any real weight in their present states. In fact, if you take shipping out of the equation as a whole, their present situation is way more fascinating!!!!!!!!! All throughout chapter 2 we see references of the hatred spamton harbors against tenna, only to have spam open his arms to him at the smallest sign that tenna may not find him entirely repugnant. I have a lot of feelings about how forgiving and earnest spam is, but that's a whole other topic I could divulge in for hours. My point here is, I really truly wish I could see more art of an imbalanced relationship between the two in present times.... with tenna still holding a grudge and spam looking past that. It's such a key factor in my understanding of their interactions in chapter 3. I hope to get some art out soon that explores this concept, it's just taking me a while since I've not had a ton of artistic drive lately ^^;; Also, a minor note, but I've been seen a lot of apparent confusion about "who stole the other's identity" and...... it perplexes me? I feel it is very obvious by tenna's adamant insistence on being the original/the only that he largely took from spamton.. but even still, if you, the reader, are close with ANYONE...... is it not true that both parties in the relationship will exchange behaviors and habits and fragments of identity from the other? It is most definitely a mutual exchange in some degree in any case. Just something strange that I've noticed and wanted to comment on

Thanks for asking! I kind of ran out of steam by the end there but hopefully it's still interesting to read. I promise spamton related plot wasn't my main takeaway from chapters 3 and 4 (<– THEY ARE THE BIGGEST LIAR TO EVER LIVE)

#some controversial takes here but i have to be honest with you all #i would loooove to engage in more talk on this topic (<- wants to talk about spamton)#shoutout to my boyfriend for being utterly obsessed with this guy despite me being a hater btw #is it really possible for a spamton girl (gender neutral) a tenna boy (gender neutral) to be in a relationship? /ref #ask #diary #<- yeah this is long enough to go there ig #deltarune spoilers #🪱

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malacandrax · 2 months ago

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sorry if this has been asked but how did you learn anatomy down to a T like you have??? I’m trying to teach myself and I’m feeling very stuck, but your art is a huge inspiration for me

Honestly I still struggle sometimes! But thank you for saying so! I think I am quite privileged that when I do studies they stick quite fast, I tend to remember things well when they’re visual. I think this is true more so now than in the beginning, because now it feels more like filling in a missing jigsaw piece, than…the whole jigsaw. Like oh that's how the wrist bone looks at that angle, I could add a little line to suggest that vs. oh my god what are arms how do they work.

I also just enjoy doing studies, which I think is maybe unusual! My sketchbooks are maybe a third studies from life or photos. I have done thousands! I see a pose I like and I want to draw it. Again, there’s a hump even with studies at the beginning that’s really hard to get over! It’s hard to stick with it when it’s not coming out how it’s supposed to, but the only way to get over it is to keep going tbh.

I learn most from doing smaller gesture drawings from movies/other in motion things, but I have done my fair share of nudes especially at the beginning. I used to vary between kind of boring nudes and like, dance videos, copying animations, movies etc. Drawing a few frames of a motion is fun and you learn how the body moves.

I also think it's helpful to identify areas that need the most work, and that’s something I still do. For example I keep drawing arms and I know that I’m just making up the muscle at the top, so I will at some point either sit and study, or find photos while I am drawing said arm in picture and do it Right this time. I think using refs is a very good way to improve, like you don’t need to use them every time, but sometimes it’s good to try and make something look correct instead of making it up, and next time hopefully some of that knowledge is retained.

I answered a kind of similar ask here

Here's a kind of old study dump!

And some newer stuff- some of these are from films etc, and some are from life! I do kind of just study stuff a lot for fun.

obligatory promo to my patreon sfw tier where it all goes and it usually doesnt see the light of day

#sketchbook

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tallymali · 20 days ago

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I've been reading your recent posts with interest as I've noticed a prevailing trend in certain areas of the manosphere I mistakenly stumble into when I should really be going outside and being human...

There's a trend to hector men into rejecting porn (amongst other degenerate activities) and to join 'men's groups', often referred to as 'wolfpacks', to put their energies into fitness, strength, working on their testerone levels, wearing uniforms, marching together, unifying and ideally getting into fights with anyone they- or rather their 'betters'- deem as lesser (you can figure out who, I'm sure)... oh, and winning those fights, that's always talked about as if it's inevitable

They seem to prey on young men feeling messy/shameful about their porn use and then turning them into malleable proud little fascists... sorry, wolves... who enjoy finding excuses to physically manhandle and abuse non-conformists and outliers (of whatever gender)... not that this is sexual, you understand, it's about imposing order and reinforcing 'our values' through hands on force

Might is right, perceived weakness needs crushing out of existence... in part, it seems, because recreational images of dicks and cunts and arseholes and pro-creative consensual sex are deemed obscene, weakening, unmasculine and wrong

seeing men getting into stuff like this in worryingly large numbers is one of the things that honestly makes it very clear to me that women have an established movement that is critical of society’s gender norms, while men dont. im not saying misogyny is over or that women have some huge privilege here. its just very clear that a larger proportion of women..have some degree of critical thought about what we should value outside of how society perceives us. we have tangibly changed a lot for ourselves over the last 100 years. we know the standard is not fixed. its not perfect, many women are still falling down fascist pipelines, and there are strains of feminism that i think are VERY regressive. but we are at least familiar with the fact that our roles have changed.

but the men..oof a lot of them really do not know how to separate their self worth from how others perceive their masculinity. i dont think they even really know that those are two different things. and ive posted about it before but “masculinity” is a deliberately hazy and moving target. nobody can really define it. but they are THRASHING in desperation to achieve it. ultimately i dont think men as a group have ever really been well equipped to deal with insecurity, we are just now in an era of panopticon level social media use and self obsession. none of us should be thinking about ourselves this much honestly.

something that fascinates me as an outsider is how much this standard of masculinity seems like..not really linked to adulthood? none of these dudes want to be well adjusted adults with any degree of emotional maturity or tangible self sufficiency. they dont want to stop being little boys. they want to just uh. not be women, i guess. they consider it manly to never have to do general adult life maintenance stuff like cooking and cleaning. peak masculinity is when you dont know how to work a washing machine so a woman does it for you. remarkably infantilising of themselves actually. and when all this results in no improvement in self esteem AND women are repulsed by the way they’re acting like children..they double down? they really seem to believe in some sort of nobility of suffering. as if once they’ve hit rock bottom of insecurity and loneliness they’ll loop back around and finally be rewarded. and when that inevitably doesnt happen then its obviously the fault of whatever scapegoat minority they’ve latched onto hating.

#asky ask #long post

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I saw the anti ghostflower and anti gwen stacy tag and I was kind of confused. I’d never heard of anyone actively disliking her or ghostflower. I went through the tags to understand the reasoning behind it (I find when someone says they’re anti a character it’s more likely they have some reasoning behind it which I like to see and understand) and saw your post on why gwen stacy has been really awful. It was actually very interesting :)! I totally get why you and others don’t like it now! I still love her, I’m banking on btsv to wrap everything up.

Sorry, I’m not looking for a debate or anything!!! I’m just genuinely trying to say this was an interesting perspective to see that I appreciate now knowing about. I understand hating super popular characters with fans who would defend their awful actions with their lives, so I totally get it yeah.

I think I’m too attached to her to really dislike her but I am ALSO more attached to Miles, so it’s really not hard for me to understand where you’re coming from. So much of the cast is AWFUL to Miles and it gets ignored for the narrative... I understand why, but I am still Upset about it. Thank god for Hobie though

I think I may rewatch itsv and atsv when I can with this perspective in mind,, interested in seeing how different things feel. Hope you have a lovely, lovely day!!!! :)

(Also you’re so right about caitvi ‼️‼️)

I AM GOING TO CRY AND EXPLODE I CANT REMEMBER THE LAST TIME I GOT SUCH A SWEET ASK OMG TY💕💕💖

The term anti-gwen stacy has honestly felt a little weird to me more recently after being in the TRENCHES of the arcane fandom and seeing “wow,, the spiderverse fandom isnt quite so bad actually”. Especially because what got me interested in joining the arcane fandom was the caitvi drama and caitlyn also being a proclaimed “complex female character that nobody could handle”. Like it’s very similar to Gwen but also not at all-

Both definitely at least somewhat to me suffer from misogynistic writing, with Gwen being shoved into the love interest box despite spider-woman being made to literally subvert that trope, and Caitlyn being on the opposite end of the spectrum with the “girls are so perfect and can literally commit crimes and should be able to get away with it cause we’re just queer girly girls and when we hurt people it doesnt matter!!” type of writing.

Also Caitlyn I just like full on hate. I haven’t watched the entire show properly and don’t plan on it because it’s too upsetting for me + i dont wanna support the show, and I went into it knowing all the caitvi drama, but I just really can’t see how anybody likes her at all 😭 privileged and naive and annoying and literally doesnt even do her own detective work!

But for Gwen, I don’t hate her entirely herself, I hate what the writers did with her and how the fandom treats her. I love what she could have been, I love what she almost is. And since BTSV still hasn’t released, she still has a chance to be saved. But I feel very pessimistic about that :((

Thanks again so much for this lovely ask though! It totally made my day! I hope your day is lovely lovely too!

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Speaking of the sentimonster felix created and then murdered in representation, I feel like the folks that are either downplaying the fact that this moment made him a major hypocrite, or are trying to excuse and justify him doing this are forgetting the key important fact that he didn't NEED to create Once Upon a Time in the first place.

Not only do projectors exist, Felix is rich enough that he could have bought a warehouse full of them! Hell, he could have just grabbed one from the school(aka the building, he and kagami led Marinette into) itself as we've known since Heroes Day that very school is equipped with them!

Yeah that argument doesnt work for them either. Ive tried saying that, and it only generates a whole new round of incoherent explanations to excuse felix.

"Oh he HADDD to create the senti projector, Marinette couldn't know it was him or she wouldn't listen!"

So we're throwing Marinettes character under the bus for this loser now too, too bad its an excuse not based in reality though! Marinette prioritizes peaceful resolutions before violence, and she has attempted to reach out even to Hawk Moth and Lila before.

Ive also tried the "he could have used an actual projector" argument, that one usually gets ignored or brushed over with "no i think ur wrong and stupid" yet they can't tell me why im wrong lmao!!

All of this is totally irrelevant though because a projector was not needed to tell Marinette anything. If anything all it seemed to do was get his message lost in translation, but to that they wanna argue "IT WAS FOR DRAMATIC EFFECT!!!" Yeah that was absolutely the only, the SINGLE method that could have been used to achieve drama... um ok sure thing yeah.

And god FORBID u bring up the poster for the in-universe ladybug movie and the fact that its given an appearance right after Felix's play, god forbid if u try to imply that that means there's holes in Felix's story even though in S3 the show goes out of its way to tell/show us that even movies based on real life are full of filler bullshit that doesn't reflect reality.

"Im a superhero tiki not a star" hey maybe felix should consider this the next time he decides to communicate important time sensitive information via shitty play that cost a senti being its life!!! Hahahahaha

This fandom EATS up the small details and all their possible meanings...until they dont like the details. Then its "you're just being delusional and this is here for no big reason stop being stupid" lmao.

It doesnt matter how much logic u use they find a way to smack it down and make u seem illiterate for not buying into this privileged freaks redemption.

#miraculous ladybug #anti felix fathom #marinette dupain cheng

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treezxu · 4 months ago

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Yes Diamond Hijikata is privileged and didn't want to lose that but she's also been trying to upend corruption the way she knows how and part of that is she believes she can make a difference in the world and that in a galaxy so huge she's nothing unless she makes herself something and she believes her privilege gives her that chance shes afraid to fade into obscurity. she loves people and wants to help them but doesnt think she can unless she can get her education so she believes that one day the good she does will make up for the things shes overlooked and thats the only reason she was willing to side with her mother. not only that but her constant repetition of "you dont know that" is done to nullify the guilt she feels because technically they dont know. she tells juno the details are too grisly so she doesnt have to think about it and then denies that the man is dead. she never says he isnt but thats clearly how shes framing it. she also denies that her mother is surely guilty despite knowing full well she is and thats likely also so she doesnt have to think too hard about it. and shes a lot like sasha and ramses. like sasha she's willing to let lots of people get hurt by a bigger power meant to keep them safe but unlike sasha shes not willing to face the hard truth about that. where sasha is willing to kill people herself, diamond doesnt want to even think about the people dying. which ties her to ramses in a way. where they both believed that they could do good and therefore anything wrong they did was okay theyd make up for it but both ramses and diamond didnt have the stomach for what that truly meant. htey both believed that they just could do good even though neither of them knew for sure the consequences of their actions both good and bad and when facedwith the hard choices they used other people to do it but unlike ramses diamond knows this is very very wrong and again wants to turn a blind eye instead of taking charge. diamond is a lot deeper than her privilege but in the end it comes down to her own self-preservation. she doesnt want to let go of her future even though her means go against her morals but shes willing to cling to it because she believes it will be justified by her ends but she doesnt want to think about the people who get hurt and she doesnt want to think about a future where she doesnt make up for this. in the end shes someone whos used to having this big future in her head and the idea of threatening that is scary and unfortunately juno was a very disposable part of that future compared to her mother even if she loved him dearly. and it still hurt her to leave him behind but she was put off by his strong moral compass and afraid. so the real reason she sided with captain h isnt just the privilege that she provided but what that privilege could do for her later on and how that privilege played into her future. because if she doesnt have that future and she can't make things right, what is she doing? its all she has, especially now that junos gone.

tldr diamond hijikata doesnt want to be rich just to be rich and theres a lot of depth to her character that isnt explored. shes wrong in the end, yes, but dumbing her down to a single trope is lame and i think shes a lot more interesting than that

#tzu rambles #diamond hijikata #tpp #the penumbra podcast #juno steel #junoverse #juno steel and the embrace of ice #sasha wire #ramses o'flaherty

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drdemonprince · 10 months ago

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to the anon who sent me the message that took them 4 hours to draft.

I think your experience both with organizing and disability has probably provoked you to rethink the entire concept of "success" as our culture has defined it, even if you feel yourself still longing for some of the comfort and ease that capitalistic success can seemingly provide (or that we are conditioned to believe it can provide). im not sure what to say that can match the effort your put into your message, in fact i am galled by the fact that i know that i can't match that effort. i don't know how to make sense of the fact that a person who is finding it incredibly difficult to remain connected and engaged during this time, due to disability, has decided that i was worth that level of effort when they don't have the energy to message people they know. i don't think i am worth that effort. but i also respect that mired in all that you're mired in, it's a meaningful gesture toward engagement and connection to even bother writing such a message. i just think in a lot of ways i am a misplaced target for it, because i am a ridiculously privileged and publicly exposed individual who receives dozens of heartfelt messages that he doesnt find the time to respond to every single day. i think if anything that i've written rubs you the wrong way you'd be right to approach it with cynicism. because what the fuck do i know, banging around on my laptop every day and getting paid for it. how dare i lecture anybody about not unlearning capitalism adequately enough. i am one of capitalisms little milking cows. a massive publishing company makes a weekly profit off of me, off the byproduct of the worst years of my life and my worst traumas, as well as the meaning i've made from the scholarship of others.

i'm so enraged for you that you got a debilitating case of COVID (after several other cases) on an encampment, and that now the community you foster at that encampment is not there for you. i am disgusted at how more seasoned activists and organizations have regarded student protestors as disposable this entire year, selling them out to the cops, cutting bad deals with campus administration, and sending them to yellow and red risk level actions without adequate communication and getting them kettled and beat, or else nullifying their efforts with mealy-mouthed talk about keeping things peaceful. i see so many toothless, neoliberal protests happening here, ones that serve only as fundraisers for massive nonprofit orgs, and i also see literal teenagers being dragged right into paddy wagons by the likes of the PSL or the RCP while the Dems deride them and dance to Brat tracks, not even pretending to care the way they unconvincingly did in say 2020.

It's all making me terribly cynical, wondering where we are headed and whether i can or should encourage people who are younger, stronger, more energetic, more pliable, and more vulnerable to me to give up all that they've got for a cause when it's likely gonna be chewed up and spit out and not met in effort by anyone else. i am mournful of the fact that even i can't match that effort. every time i get a message from a friend or acquaintance who is going through some new awful traumatizing event i want to just curl up and disappear, because i can't even keep up with sending compassionate messages to all of them, let alone actually showing the fuck up and doing anything for them. and so sometimes i slip into the disaffected, blunted feeling that once led me as a younger man into libertarianism, thinking that all i can or should do is look after my own wellbeing, and fuck everybody else. and obviously that is a horrible path that is not by any means moral and certainly didn't help me anyway. it felt like we were on the brink of a great paradigm shift of some kind, a collapse of these evil systems, and now it feels like all of that is as far away as it's ever been, and that there aren't enough people with class consciousness and care for one another to make it happen.

i don't know. i think we all have to abandon our dreams of success, of comfort, of saving the world, the fantasies of everything being fine. i think we need to look to our immediate surroundings and our communities. i think we need to ask for help a whole hell of a lot more than any of us are doing, and to recognize that that is a form of helping. i think we need to get small. and remember we are weak animals. and stop thinking there is anything special or chosen about us. and to remember that nature can often be very cruel and that there is nothing we are owed. disabled people already know this of course, we know life isn't fair. we try to do what we can and yet we wake up feeling even less capable the next day, and it knows no logic and the universe remains indifferent to it. but there are people around us who can care, when we ask them to. and ways that we can just be there alongside one another in the muck of it all. not even necessarily making things better. certainly not being a savior and making the pain go away. maybe just sitting in the muck together.

all of which is to say, i am feeling stuck and overwhelmed and useless myself, anon, and i dont have any more answers than you. but thanks for messaging. im sorry people have taking advantage of you. including in my opinion lots of other activists. looking after yourself and not letting people guilt you doesn't mean turning into a conservative. the kind of anarchy that i am embracing right now is one that goes beyond linear change, beyond making meaning, beyond any idealistic visions of the future, beyond even fighting for some kind of symbolic survival. it's just being. none of it has to mean anything, none of it has to be headed anywhere. it just is. there is plenty for you to be bitter about.

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