#it makes sam feel better

[liketolaugh-writes]

The episode transcripts on the Danny Phantom wiki are a blessing, but they also force me to routinely face realizations like-

Kindred Spirits, probably one of the absolute worst episodes for Danny - where he gets kidnapped and finds out that Vlad has been cloning him for months and also gets literally tortured - is... also about how he isn't considerate enough of his friends for some reason

And I can't help but think of that flight home where maybe Danny doesn't explain to them about the cloning thing yet and maybe doesn't mention being tortured or that Vlad's been spying on him or that he watched himself melt and maybe makes no attempt to seek comfort whatsoever because, you know, they're mad at him, what business does he have asking for anything when they just rescued him and he's been so ungrateful lately?

And I just think that maybe lecturing Danny about being a bad friend could have waited for a different episode

[shallowseeker]

#People would just think he was doing it as a bit#or to raise money/awareness for some charity via @destielrotsmybrain

Okay but what if pentathlon (for horny Dean reasons) via @melody-nelson333

#he wins easily and sam wants to kill him via @scoobydoodean

YISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

Cas is a mysterious, minor celebrity now, and is especially known for competing in full coat... even during the swimming portions. He's also gone viral for his dry commentary on the course itself and his pinpoint-accurate predictions of his own time and performance. (It usually comes off as rude, which has somehow only won over more hearts, minds, and earned him the online nickname SugarCoat.)

All of this somehow manages to make Sam’s life worse—especially on his morning runs, where everyone seems to stare more now, often with looks of pity. It’s not a competition. Sam's not training for a triathlon; he's been running here for years. Haven’t they noticed him before now?

Sam’s not bitter.

It just makes zero sense that he, the tall, friendly guy who actually talks to people, has never been particularly well-liked—while Cas, trench coat cryptid and noted social etiquette disaster, is now Lebanon's sweetheart.

Cas, who once told a bake sale organizer her scones were "structurally unsound."

When Sam sees SugarCoat painted happily on the window of his favorite small-town café as its new signature drink, he just keeps running right past it.

cas should enter a triathlon

initially just to get on sam’s nerves

[sofiaruelle]

Just a couple of besties with matching missing 2 front teef~

[danwhobrowses]

Sometimes love is planning on having a cosy cottage when the dust has settled, sometimes love is kissing the person you want to be with before a big battle and seeing where things go from there, and sometimes love is swiping a bag of shrooms from a cow man and letting the other know that you'd do any and every crazy thing they want with them

and all of them are valid

[shanastoryteller]

i know spn hates good writing and also sam, but the dumpster fire of s4 really could have been salvaged if they'd just played ruby and castiel straight

by which i mean

ruby should have been one of the good guys (honestly it feels like the writers changed their minds last second regarding her anyway)

castiel should have been the villain (which, let's be clear, he totally was)

the point of this is that it would force dean to confront his own bullshit and maybe figure himself out, which not only would have been good television but would have been satisfying to me, personally

sam's problem is that he wants there to be a good equal to every evil. that he believes goodness exists even where it doesn't, that he always wants to give things a chance, that he always has hope. they sound like good traits, up until they're used against him. they reach the station of angels are bad eventually, but it should have been more immediate and visceral, that there is no greater good here. sam should have had this knocked out of him, which would have shattered him in way, to lose this thing he's depended on his whole life, but it really would have hammered home that it's choices that really do matter, not circumstances

dean's problem is always that he sees monsters as monsters with no grey area, that sam always has to play his moral center the second anything becomes complicated. then he goes to hell, breaks, tortures innocents, and an angel yanks him out and tells him that he's a righteous man

dean desperately desperately wants this to be true

because it's sam who they had to look out for, sam who was destined to go darkside, sam with the demon blood

dean doesn't have that excuse

he's just a human man with a hunger for violence who never learned to curb his appetite. who was instead pushed to gorging himself on it, who is left broken and desperate and angry by what he did to save himself. his whole life, his whole self perception for thirty years, was about protecting innocents. then he betrays that in hell. do you think he kept count? how many innocents he destroyed against how many he saved? the day it equaled out, do you think he wished he could weep?

dean is so unbelievably messed up by hell. not the torture he endured, that's barely a blip, but the torture he inflicted is what haunts him

so he needs for sam to be the bad guy

he's using his powers, he's hanging out with demons, he's drinking demon blood. he's the monster. he's inhuman

(he's using his powers and hanging out with demons and drinking demon blood and still he's doing less harm than dean, still he's trying to save people. dean can't accept this, because he can't be the rotten one. he'll forgive sam anything, but never himself, so it has to be sam. because he can fix sam, he'll always love his brother, so if he's evil there's stil a path forward there. but if it's dean? if he's the one going evil? sam's left him before. why would he stay now? if dean is the one going darkside then he loses everything. himself. his brother. it has to be sam)

dean is projecting all his own shit onto sam because he can't deal with any of it, which is why he treats sam like shit, why he treats him in a way that he's never treated him before. it's how he treats himself. and sam has no idea what to do with this, is left reeling and hurt and broken himself by dean doing this to him. sam never thought dean would leave him to die in the panic room, because dean wouldn't, not the dean he's known his whole life, not the dean that loves him. not alone.

but dean would do that to himself. and since sam is his proxy for himself, it's what he does to sam, but sam doesn't know that so all he feels is the weight of betrayal and grief and rage

isn't it funny, almost? the demons brought sam back just as he was, exactly the same. the angels bring back dean but he's not the same. dean comes back wrong, comes back different. but no one wants to say that. to deal with it

having ruby be evil and castiel venerated justifies all of dean's spiraling, all of his punishment. he was right all along, sam was the problem, don't you see?

boring

ruby stays loyal to sam, a demon who chooses something different, who chooses the boy with the demon blood because there's something compelling about sam winchester, as tempting as the apple before eve, and ruby didn't get where she is by knowing better

(remember when sam pulled all the psychic kids together, acted as leader, and resisted azazel? there is a leader in sam, a compassion in him, that azazel had to cheat in order to beat. and if ruby can show him how to win against demons then-)

castiel let sam out of the panic room. he's following orders, because that's his job, and damn the consequences. this should have been seen as the act of betrayal and evil that it was, castiel proving he was never really on their side at all, never on the side of preventing harm. it also would have made his redemption arc mean something, it would have given castiel a lot more to work with if they'd had to really bring him back over

ruby realizes too late what killing lilith means. tries to stop sam, but now that she's here it's too late, kill or be killed. sam accepts that, is willing to die rather than start the apocalypse. but then dean is there, and he can't watch his brother die again, he just can't. so he kills lilith to save dean, when he would have been willing to die himself

ruby gets them out of there. they discover what castiel did, that he pushed forward the apocalypse rather than prevented it

this breaks dean. he finally snaps, but it's good, because everything he'd used to shore himself up before had been terrible and rotted and corrosive

a righteous man is not a good man. dean is forced to confront everything he's done in hell, and after he'd gotten back, everything he put sam through, how he left him in that panic room and almost killed him, how he's treated him for the past year. how it was a demon who tried to help in the end and an angel that damned them

and how sam saved him anyway, damn the consequences

we should have returned to what the show had been building up to from the beginning - that sam loves his brother enough to do terrible things and dean has no idea how to deal with that

so we've got sam and dean on the run with ruby, castiel's slower and much juicier redemption arc, and dean having to pick up the pieces of himself while sam tries to figure out how he gets them out this mess. and sam's guilt is justified here, his aching sense of responsibility, because this time he kills lilith knowing it'll free lucifer. he makes that choice, for dean. and he's determined to fix it

just. demon blood tainted sam and turncoat ruby trying to save the world. the angels trying to end it. all while dean finally accepts the crushing guilt of what he's done and starts to work through it, starts to work on becoming the brother sam lost, on once more being the steady thing sam can hold onto no matter what it takes, because sam choosing him reminds him of something he'd told himself he forgot

he doesn't want to be a righteous man, a torturer, a demon, a victim, a martyr

he just wants to be sam's brother. the one he looks up to, depends on, loves

he wants what he's always wanted

to feel worthy of his little brother's affection

[applebees4prez]

snl wishes they could be this funny prepared, let alone off the cuff. nobody has perfected the art of comedic timing like zac oyama has but also, nobody could work with other comedians well as these guys do.

[ima-super-natural]

Castiel telling Dean "it's not really him in there" while Sam is screaming for help in the panic room after drinking demon blood again in my bloody valentine is crazy cause like yes it is.

[definitely-jax]

[ihavenoconsistentinterests]

im afraid that i may be a bit of a hater :(

[gigisriley]

testing out some new brushes hee hee

(plus max from my fic!)

[shallowseeker]

Episode idea: Samwena VS Destiel

While undercover for a case, Sam and Rowena are getting a little too into suburbia.

They’re methodically checklisting every item in the "likable couple" category: community herb garden, a library exchange mailbox, weekly book club meetings… and Sam is pretty sure that with their perfectly trimmed hedges and expertly placed solar fairy lights, they're on their way to a city beautification award. But by the end of the month, everyone in the neighborhood is flocking to Dean and Cas’s fixer-upper instead—with its peeling paint, mismatched lawn chairs, half-dug fire pit, and duct-taped strings of half-working Christmas lights.

And—

And Sam just doesn't get it, okay? Dean and Cas aren't even a believable couple, not to mention they've been nothing but off-putting, foot-in-mouth weirdos since the day they moved in.

Yet, somehow, their impromptu backyard hangouts (cheap beer, store-bought BBQ, and a staticky radio) are a bigger draw than Rowena's elegant garden soirees (decent wine, catered hors d'oeuvres, and an outdoor stereo system).

Jack—undercover as the neighborhood pool-slash-garden boy—watches it all unfold. It's starting to seem like Sam and Rowena have forgotten there's an actual case to solve...

[breezysuffers]

okay so most vampires don’t have scars, due to the super fast healing and shit, whatever injuries they might’ve had healed before they could scar. all except for the mark where they were bitten to turn.

it’s usually just your casual two circles, and normally they’re pretty neat, and intentional looking. Most vamps embrace/don’t try to hide it etc.

but Sam’s is messy and looks incredibly violent, because when he was fighting her she had to bite down multiple times to get a good grip. The bite where she eventually got deep enough to drink is a lot wider usual.

he covers it up the best he can.

[ultrainfinitepit]

Questioning Angel (WIP)

[boopboop800-blog]

I made some more whumpy gifs from the Railway Man to avoid real life

This film is very pretty visually

Sam Reid as Finlay

[shadystranger]

the way dean looks heart-wrenched for sam like he wants nothing but to comfort him but he doesn't know how

[calibrationneeded]

Sometimes I’m normal and other times I remember Dean’s canon daughter and how Sam never got hounded for killing her by the fanbase but Dean is still treated like mayor of cunt city for mistreating Jack. Obviously two wrongs don’t make a right and Dean was very much in the wrong for how he treated Jack, but the fact Sam is seen as better than him for it despite doing arguably the same thing rubs me the wrong way. And this isn’t so much a dig at Sam as a character but rather a commentary on how the fanbase kind of puts him on this weird pedestal.

He killed Emma. Sam made up his mind about Jack in the same amount of time he made up his mind about Emma, but chose to kill her and empathize with Jack. Dean didn’t have an obligation to Jack, he didn’t know him when they first met, but Sam had an obligation to both Dean and Emma as a brother and an uncle.

I know he acted to save Dean, however- as a sibling, I know that if I were to kill my hypothetical niece or nephew to save my sibling that they would hate me forever, and that is a fact that would alter my idea on how to approach the situation.

Often Dean is viewed as this huge piece of shit for his behavior towards Jack in the beginning, because “how dare he assume the antichrist and son of the guy who killed Cas would be not great” but meanwhile Sam gets off with not so much as a mention to the fact he killed a young girl because she was a monster.

Where are the lines drawn? What makes a monster a monster? Are they less of one when you see yourself in them? Or was Dean in the wrong because Jack became a more important character. Hell, maybe it all ties back to the fact that Supernatural seems to hate women, who knows.