#it’s fun to draw in don’t get me wrong i just dislike the way it looks

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okay yeah this is literally just me playing around again

(translation: i just wanted to draw my girl </3)

also alternate version because why not :3

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Why do you dislike ToTK if I may ask? :0

Lights a cigarette and stares off into the distance .. well well well

I think Tears of the Kingdom is a lazy story, especially in comparison to any other main franchise Zelda game, and the story is a poor mess that tries to do what Breath of the Wild did and fails at that miserably. You would think copying one of the best games I've ever played (botw) would give them the opportunity to do at least just as good again but all they did was improve the gameplay and add some neat small stuff that you can enjoy while writing a joke of a story. The moment I finished the second temple and found out the ancient sages (or whatever they're called | can't recall) cutscenes were verbatim the same l realized what kind of game this was. Totk had lost its potential right after the first ever teaser trailer, removing that damn rat dying meant they had to kill the games story instead apparently. I loved playing totk and I loved drawing fanart and I loved landing on the light dragon and leaving a silent princess for her, but 2 years later I can't even think about the game without getting annoyed. I get annoyed by people that say it's their favorite zelda game and that feels way too pessimistic but I can't help it the game is that upsetting to me. I don’t dislike people for liking it and I try not to judge I promise, I don't want people to stop leaving excited tags under my totk posts but I simply can’t share that love for a game that I’ve waited for for years only to leave me utterly frustrated. It's an amazing game but that's where it stops because it can't do anything right but the game aspect I feel. I feel like this would've been a genuinely good DLC to botw because it wouldn't have needed a completely new story for that, they obviously just wanted to make all their good ideas come together and had to glue them together with a shit story that does not stick with you except for the light dragon aspect. Rauru from Oot had a bigger impact on me than totk Rauru damn it.

The story doesn't achieve the same emotional impact on me the way botw did at all. I do not think fondly of the Zonai I do not care at all for the ancient sages I did not get emotional watching Sonia die because the Tears were handled extremely poorly from a gameplay mechanic viewpoint, leaving the one of her death to be my third, barely knowing her at that point. She wasn't someone I felt sorrow towards after seeing her die, I at most felt sad that Zelda was sad because she was already an established character I deeply cared for from botw. The Temples, imo, had really cool concepts but every boss except colgera was mediocre at best. The depths had a genuinely great introduction, the way you fly down and that music hits, and the yiga down there are a cool idea, but you get bored down there so fast it's impressive. It can't really offer much I feel. It might've been better to put the split effort from the depths and the sky islands and maybe combine them to create a more creative version of either?

To me the best parts of the game are everything right up to link waking up and everything after Ganondorf transforming into a dragon with some fun stuff sprinkled inbetween. A good game and that's it because there is no story to think about to me...!

There’s a lot more stuff I could get into but I think this paints a decent picture of my opinion

There is a lot of stuff I like ofc don’t get me wrong, I think there's genuine great gameplay improvement from botw (which is just extra annoying bc I hate playing botw and thinking totk did it better LOL), I think the character design is great, I think a lot of the sets are stunning and zelda looks so cute with the short hair they did they great justice looks wise in this game, the dragons are SO COOL! It's a genuine joy to play. But that’s not enough to save it for me.

Whatever . Walks away into the fog

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Falsettos unpopular opinions because two people asked for this and honestly I don’t give a fuck anymore. I want to state this isn’t in response to anyone in particular, though, and if you get offended by any of these think about why. For a good reason? Please tell me and I’d love to debate it, truly. For a petty reason? You’re simply part of the problem.

1. They are Jewish. End of story. If I see anything related to Christianity or Christmas or whatever the fuck with them… shut up. Yes Whizzer is half-Jewish, yes in the revival Cordelia isn’t Jewish (WHICH BRINGS ME TO ANOTHER POINT ILL GET INTO LATER), yes they are most likely secular as evidenced by Mendel’s “religions just a trap” and ‘Days Like This’, no this does not give you the right to ignore their ETHNICITY AND CULTURE.

2. It’s okay to like the revival more. It’s not okay to ignore the original just because you get blinded by conventionally attractive men. Going to my Cordelia point, she’s Jewish in the original, her line ‘Shiksa caterer’ is ‘Kosher caterer’. Again it’s fine if your headcanons and fanfics and fanarts are based on the revival, I love it too, but stop acting like it’s the only version.

3. Whizzer’s entire personality does not revolve around being gay. He’s not a sassy twink. He’s a full grown man with issues that need to be addressed. Again, I reiterate, he is not a twink. Stop. Drawing. Him. Skinny. And. Hairless. I don’t care if ‘ oh but but that’s just my art style!’ Shut up.

4. Correlated to the above point, here are things Whizzer is not: a prostitute, a drug addict, relying on Marvin for everything, a twink (saying that again to get it through peoples fucking skulls), innocent. I’m 100% positive if the people who had these headcanons watched the OBC version of the show they’d never continue to advocate for them… once more I’m begging you guys to look past Andy Randy’s beautiful face and actually use critical thinking skills when it comes to Whizzer.

5. Short but (not) sweet: don’t claim to understand Marvin if you haven’t watched In Trousers. Just don’t.

6. If you flat out hate any character in the show, you’re wrong. Yes I’m still mad about the Mendel thing; if you think any one character is worse than the rest and isn’t just a fully human person with flaws and nuance, you don’t understand the musical as well as you claim.

7. It’s not the ‘gay’ musical. If you like falsettos for Whizzvin and nothing else, please, just… I don’t even know. There’s so much more to it than ‘ooo boys kissing.’ Please grow up, this leads into a whole other point but fetishisation is never okay, no matter who does it.

8. So many people treat Trina as either a perfect angel or just the side character in the way of the gay people. She’s an entire person, an entire character with flaws and hardship and terrible actions done by her and to her. Treat my homophobic queen with the respect she deserves, and acknowledge her faults too. It’s more misogynistic to treat her as perfect when she has issues too than just saying ‘she’s never done anything wrong’.

9. Stop making AIDS jokes.

10. This next one is probably the most iffy on the list. I will never be one to police fandom and creation, you can engage with material in any fucking way you like it literally doesn’t matter to me… but I dislike AUs. Now, I’ll always enjoy a little fun, adding in a twist like lesbian Whizzvin, or enjoying a feel good college AU. But. Especially for Falsettos the canon events are so fucking important and cannot be disregarded as casually as some do. AIDS is an extremely important part of the story, as well as the fact that both Marvin and Whizzer are men. I’m trans myself, but I dislike making them so simply because everything about their characters, all the characters, are so highly specific and important to take these aspects away is to disrespect the message of the musical.

11. It’s very important Mendel is straight. I see some people headcanon him as bisexual or trans or so on, and this just feels so wrong to me. Trina and Mendel are straight and that’s why their acceptance and love for the others in the Tight Knit Family is so important, especially Trina struggles with moving away from the idea that these ‘homosexual tendencies’ are wrong. They are straight but they love Whizzvin and the lesbians just as much as anyone else.

12. This one is so petty and I accept that, but… HIS NAME IS NOT MARVIN GARDENS. GARDEN IS A JOKE CHRISTIAN BORLE MADE BASED ON MONOPOLY. Jesus guys please just stop it it’s so stupid, William Finn didn’t have a last name for Marvin on purpose, and though I can’t do more than theorise what that purpose was, Gardens is so stupid. It’s not even funny. Same goes for Cohen, which just is odd. The only name I could begin to accept is Falsetto, and even then… just work around the last name in your fics.

12 1/2. SIDE TANGENT Jason would never take Weisenbachfeld as his last name. As a child of divorce… no. He’ll never view Mendel as a true father over his own dad, especially after Falsettoland, and he wouldn’t take that name. Hell, I’d known my ex step-father since I was two and I’d never have taken his last name. So, please, I never want to see Jason Weisenbachfeld again. That’s just not how it works.

At the end of the day this is just me alone in my room bitching… I just hope these points resonate with others.

[mercillery]

I know almost NO ONE in the OP fandom cares about Akainu or the marines at that, but gosh, I’ve been so hyper-fixated on the admirals for way too long I HAVE to talk about them. I know absolutely no one who loves these justice freaks as much as I do, and I’m going to die in 5 seconds and make it the world’s problem if I don’t speak up about my love for them.

This post is going to talk about Akainu because currently he’s my number one. I don’t really know where I’m going with this, but for now I mostly just want to rant about him and the actor he was based off of—call it fun facts about Akainu or whatever. Frankly, I could see why so many people hate him—for killing a beloved character, right? I think that’s why almost everyone just utterly dislikes him, and that’s completely understandable. But I wish more people could talk about him because he’s a really interesting character to me. 

Warning there is no grammar in this because I’m currently writing this on a whim.

The actor Akainu is based on is Bunta Sugawara—which probably most people aren’t familiar with. The only reason I even found out about his existence was because of this.

And Oda was right to say that those still in school likely don’t know who the hell these actors are—because they were from a long time ago. Well, kind of. Not really—I don’t know. Yusaku Matsuda was born on September 21st 1949–Kunie Tanaka on November 23rd 1932—and Bunga Sugawara on August 16th 1933–what I’m trying to say here is that they were all somewhat born in close range years—if that make sense.

And yes, Bunta actually voiced Kamari from Spirited Away—there’s actually a video on YouTube showing Bunta doing his voice lines with Hayao Miyazaki and a few other people sitting in the back as Bunta does his thing. I unfortunately can’t find that video anymore but it was cute because when Bunta does a lot of hand gestures while reading his lines—it was amusing to watch.

Did you also know that Akainu’s real name, Sakazuki, is actually the name of a film Bunta played in? I have yet to watch the movie, but it’s about a young yakuza soldier (that soldier being Bunta) torn between staying in his current life or leaving his family when his boss refuses to follow their ancient code of ethics. I can say, though, that I have watched like two or three movies that Bunta played in (in fact I’m currently watching The Viper Brothers!!!). I’ve also watched a bunch of other trailers of films he plays in—and you know what I notice every single time?

Bunta always plays this short-tempered, stern, and violent character. Like, I mean ALWAYS. And you know what else? He’s always starring in Yakuza films—like almost all his movies have something to do with the Yakuza—which is ironic considering Oda made Akainu very dogmatic about justice, and obviously anything yakuza-related is far from justice. When you compare the characters Bunta plays as and Akainu, you can literally see how perfectly Oda blended the two. Like most of the characters Bunta plays, Akainu is also firm, stern, stoic, serious, dogmatic, short-tempered, and aggressive. The only drastic difference is how Akainu is all about justice—while the characters Bunta plays mostly have to do with just getting to power and the usual yakuza stuff, you know? If you look up Bunta Sugawara, you’ll get a bunch of trailers of all the different films he plays in, and you’ll see exactly what I mean.

Did you ALSO know that Bunta was aware that Akainu was based off of him? I’m not even joking. I did the biggest 😮 of my life when I found out.

When Bunta retired, he became a farmer. His farm sold chilli pepper and the brand logo for that was literally THIS:

Oda himself drew his hot pepper brand logo—no joke. It’s amazing because now I can’t stop thinking about another universe where One Piece just takes place in a modern AU and Sakazuki is just a guy selling chili pepper. Oda said the order to draw the chili pepper logo was actually made by Bunta’s wife. And if I’m not wrong, I believe Bunta even commented as a joke that he’ll use the logo as long as One Piece is popular. It’s even better when you realize it’s confirmed that Akainu’s favorite goods are white rice and HOT PEPPER.

Ugh, just imagine Akainu selling chili pepper instead of being such a single-minded justice freak of a man…

Anyway, thank you for coming to my ted talk. If you sent in a request, I’m working on it—TRUST. 😋

[stillness-in-green]

Dabi also is my least favorite of the league, as a matter of fact. I dont like how he is written very much. But what makes him your least favorite?

(Sent in re: a post from earlier this year where I talked about Shouto's arc. Footnotes are at the end today; they're fairly long but there are only two of them and the post itself is pretty short, so readers shouldn't have to scroll too far to find them.)

I’d say it’s part Dabi’s characterization running afoul of a trope I strongly dislike, part mismatch between what draws me most to the League versus what I like most about Dabi, and part reaction to the way he’s long been treated in fanon/by certain of his more hyper-defensive fans.

To the first, I realized several years ago that I have got no taste and less time for relationship dynamics – particularly romantic ones, but not limited to them! – in which Party A is plain-spoken and genuine about their feelings and Party B is a jackass who makes fun of Party A for having those feelings.  Regardless of whether Party B has feelings for Party A that they’re denying and why, and regardless of whether Party A is actually bothered by it or not, it almost universally comes off to me as one-sided verbal abuse masquerading as funny, romantic or touching.

Now, I’m not saying that a dynamic like that Is Definitely Abusive, nor that it’s an insurmountable hurdle or an unforgivable offense, nor that people who do like the dynamic are problematic or wrong in some way.  But for me personally, I just find it deeply unpleasant and unappealing.  So, asking me to get invested in Dabi’s deep and genuine (sic) feelings about the League when I’ve spent most of the series watching him insult and dismiss them?  Sorry, fam, I’m just a lost cause there, and I was from the start.

To the second, there are things I like about Dabi, but the things I like about him (his role in the family drama, his dynamic with Endeavor, in particular his interplay with Skeptic) just don’t have much overlap with the things I like about the League.

Basically, I like the League for being scrappy underdogs with sympathetic backstories finding refuge in each other from a world that fiercely, unceasingly rejects them, who get radicalized even harder than they already were for their own sakes because of their growing care for one another.  Dabi just doesn’t play into that aspect of the narrative, at least not with any kind of consistency.  He's absent from a big chunk of important, emotional League scenes,[1] and even when he is there, he’s usually acting like an asshole to someone (see again the first point).

So if I’m fairly sanguine about Dabi as a League character, it’s only because I think Dabi in the canon is, too, that while I believe he has a sense of camaraderie and fellow-feeling towards the League,[2] I also believe those emotions are far overshadowed by the roaring furnace that is his derangement, hatred and obsession towards Endeavor, to the extent that, for the greater part of the series, I don’t know if Dabi himself is aware that those warm feelings for the League exist within his heart.  Since what I like the most about the League is the sense of camaraderie and fellow-feeling among them, and I actively dislike being told that I should be interested in relationships where one party is consistently derogatory towards a party that’s consistently sincere, then yeah, of course Dabi is the one of them I like least.

As to the fandom…  Well, that’s a whole-ass rant that would be much more negative towards specific, identifiable (albeit mostly blocked) parties than I really want to be in this space.  Let me simply say that, back when I was first getting into the BNHA fandom, I realized pretty early on that I profoundly disliked Fanon Dabi and the spillover effects he tended to have on fanwork/meta containing him; I therefore found his wild overrepresentation in the villain side of the fandom deeply wearying.

Also too, while Fanon Dabi himself was annoying, I care even less for the people who were so staunchly married to their belief in Dabi’s absolute incapacity to harm a single character who might not deserve it that they were willing to not only trot out repackaged discriminatory rhetoric and bog-standard victim blaming to redirect criticism onto otherwise blameless characters, but also to send hate mail and harassment to real life people who were less than deferent in the face of defenses of Dabi’s obvious snow-driven innocence.  The behavior of his fans is, of course, not Canon Dabi’s fault, but it’s not like I even liked the in-series version of the guy much to begin with!

With all those factors working together, I trust it’s not hard to see how Dabi wound up at the bottom of my personal LOV Faves List.  For what it’s worth, though, that’s only true for the core MVA-era League!  If only for reasons of greater exploration and exposure, he (probably) wouldn’t be at the bottom of a more expansive list that included e.g. everyone from the training camp attack + AFO and his cabal.

In any case, on the occasions when my own fanwork/meta touches on him, I try to be as fair and balanced towards him and his clear importance to the story as can reasonably be expected, but I don’t feel an obligation to go beyond that.  Lord knows there’s no shortage of Plus Ultra Dabi fans out there to take up all of my share of attention and more.

Thanks for the ask!

1: In fairness to Dabi, I suspect many of his absences are due to the fact Horikoshi just never got a good handle on incorporating his quirk into the story.  Dabi’s nominally really dangerous, so his presence creates complications in a battle if he isn’t distracted or taken out of commission early on; see e.g. his absence from the scuffle with the CRC, how he spends the entire Kamino fight unconscious, how the version of him that actually confronts Aizawa at the training camp is a clone, and how, when Horikoshi finally stops being able to sequester him away from open combat, those ludicrously Not Safe For Life flames of his suddenly become about as meaningfully dangerous as an accident with the kitchen range.  That said, as with the "asshole who belittles others for caring about things" issue, the reasoning behind the reality doesn’t change the reality itself, in this case that Dabi's participation/effectiveness in fight scenes is frequently disjointed and arbitrary compared to the rest of the League having much more clearly defined, consistent capabilities in combat, and that has an unavoidable impact on my view of him as a member of the League.

2: My citations for Dabi actually caring about the League as anything other than a stepping stone towards his goals would consist of the following: his manic reaction to Twice’s death, my belief in Toga as a reasonably reliable judge of character when she calls Dabi “kind” for burning down her family home, and Dabi’s inclusion of other Villains/the League specifically in his rhetoric about the limitations of super-powered society when he fights Shouto in Hosu.  Note how the latter incidents come only after he’s revealed the truth about Todoroki Enji’s abuse and Todoroki Touya’s survival.

[musicianofzero]

Mini “Wish” analysis and rant:

Don’t get me wrong, I think that both of Asha’s designs are beautiful. The thing is… when I look at her canon design in “Wish,” my mind just immediately goes to Isabella Madrigal. Now, I am not an expect in character and costume design. However, what I do know is that designs should be unique—to be able to stand out and only be recognizable to that specific character. Think Cinderella’s glass slippers, Mulan with her military armor, and Tiana with her lily pad dress.

And that’s only design wise… each princess has a specific set of values and traits that make them unique (or at least they did). Belle sees the good that lies beneath a person’s exterior, Ariel is curious about the world around her, Jasmine is confident and will stand up for herself. These only name a FEW and barely begin to scratch the surface.

But here’s where we find a problem… To put it bluntly, Asha is not memorable. Nothing about the movie really is expect for the fact that everyone agrees it could have been way better. Asha’s personality does not make sense, being a mix of the “adorkable” at the beginning then calm and collected after she meets Magnifico. A character can obviously have growth in their personality (e.g. a character that was shy and timid growing to become a confident leader). Asha’s character, however, just throws you off. Sure, she can be fun and joke around, but that is different from the forced trope her character became. This can further be seen by her character design.

Purple was used as the main color palette for Rapunzel and Isabella. However, both are done different. While Isabella’s palette is a softer lavender with floral embellishments, Rapunzel’s is vibrant with puffed sleeves and ties. The outfits represent the characters personality. Asha’s is kind of a mixture of the two… but more simplified. And when I say simplified… it’s bland. Practically no details that draw your eye.

Asha deserves uniqueness with a design of her own. She should stand out in the lineup of princesses… really all I can say is that, well, she has a goat. (AND BOY DO I DISLIKE THAT TALKING MENACE! GIVE ME BIBBLE ANY DAY!) I will say that I really love the idea of having a contract between Asha’s darker “night” colors and Star’s brightness. Asha gives me calm, regal vibes while Star exudes bouncing, curious joy. But I still think this could be better achieved through a different design. Perhaps, sticking with the theme, a dark shade of blue to play off the night sky? I do adore both the braids she has in canon as well as the frizzy, free hair she had in her concept art. But just look at the colors of the original art! Completely set apart and pull together beautiful variety… just like the sunset!

[sunnysidesevenup]

(In reference to the dating Sim post)

I've been thinking about this, and honestly it kinda depends? Knowing what I know now about all your ocs, I feel like it's obvious the answer is Arlo or Tilly, for good reason! They're very silly little guys, but also have personalities and backstories that I can see making for some pretty gut wrenching angst potential in their routes. But if we're assuming that I know absolutely nothing about any of your ocs and it's my first time seeing all of them? Then honestly... Probably Eilo or Ali.

I dont really know how to explain it much besides. Whimsy and enchanting people with magical minds is absolutely my style. Ali's way of speech is actually really fun to me and would immediately draw me in, I would love to try to understand cryptic messages from the cloud with her. She's got little fairies in her head and so do I, share your strange somewhat unsettling thoughts with me 🤝 As with Eilo, he's just. A guy. A silly guy who I can hold in my hands gently. Unfortunately with his power I can also imagine there being gut wrenching angst in his route BUT I WOULDN'T KNOW THAT so I would fall into the trap of the happy guy who's full of magical thoughts ready to run into the forest with me because the woods are calling

Arlo would probably make me mad if I didn't know anything about him I would become an Arlo hater until I was compulsively reading his wiki page at 3am, in which case I would speedrun his route in a day

I feel like a nerd for typing all that out

DON’T FEEL LIKE A NERD AHAHFDBSH I COULD LITERALLY KISS YOU RN /J

Dudeeeee yeah I could totally see people absolutely HATING Arlo before playing his route. Some people might assume he’s a tsundere or something at first but then rapidly realize, wait no. Where are the tsundere qualities. Where is his “it’s not like I like you or anything!” moment, why is he JUST MEAN??? I can imagine his route is like the SLOWEST of slowburns possible, and you’ve gotta unravel all his trust issues, at which point he rapidly becomes like, the sweetest route in the game. I can easily imagine his overly romantic gestures lmao 😭

Elio’s route is definitely the “omg look at the sunshine child!!” and friendship to lover’s route, and then you get hit with like. devastating grief. congrats. Also you are like, required to help with his brother’s trauma during the route lmao, if you don’t then you will not progress at all.

Ali my beloved. The most whimsical of routes. I can easily imagine players having to decipher what the hell she’s even saying in order to answer any questions. Honestly probably the route that gets the most tutorials written on it outside of Tilly’s.

You know those games that have like, most of the bad endings being just not ending up with the person you wanted and/or they dislike you, but then one route has the most INSANE bad endings possible? Yeah, that’s Tilly’s. His route is incredibly fun, but also the easiest to mess up I imagine. Like oops sorry you did ONE thing wrong and now you’re locked in to the most insane choices and none of it is going the way you want. You gotta keep both yourself alive AND HIM. And the rest of the game is just like a normal setting or something 😭

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haaaaaai elysia ໒꒰ྀི ^ ⸝⸝ ^ ꒱ྀིა hope ur day / night has been lovely 2 u <3 🌼 , 🌸 & 🪷 for the ask game !!

hi hiii !! ty for the ask（＾∇＾）my day has been pretty good so far, i think my sickness is finally starting to go away so thats a huge win for me lolol. hope your days been great too !!（＾_＾）

will be answering for my jjk dr and whichever s/o comes to mind (๑>◡<๑) (spoiler alert, i did all three for all three…) this unexpectedly got super long so sorry it took a while to respond. this was super fun i loved the opportunity to ramble about my favourite idiots ♡

OKAY FIRST OF ALL here’s a quick relationship chart so you know whos dating who. its not super necessary but i feel like the visual reminder might help some of my tangents make sense. i rarely draw them so i havent perfected translating how they look yet but its good enough i think

ANYWAY onto the questions <3

🌼 : BEAUTIFUL BLOSSOM . . . what do you find most beautiful about your significant other(s)? what about that aspect of them is so beautiful to you? and in turn what do they believe the most beautiful thing about you is? why do they think that way?

head in hands trying to think about how to answer this without sounding ridiculously sappy and down bad (im going to fail) im also going to have to kill the part of me that cringes and the evil voice inside my head saying it’s egotistical to acknowledge my partners are equally down bad. anyway here we go

first of all the thing about suguru is that hes the loverboy ever i think if he was asked to only name one thing he found beautiful about me he would explode and die from indecisiveness. he’s mentally waxing poetics about me whenever he sees me and thinking about me every time he can vaguely assign whatever song he’s listening to me. i’m not sure what he’d find the most beautiful about me. the first thing he noticed would’ve probably been my eyes, they might be my most striking feature actually, but i think it wasn’t just the colours of them that stood out to him but how expressive they were. if i didn’t feel like i needed to hide my feelings and put on a mask then i wouldnt and the authenticity and the way i wore my heart on my sleeve, especially when we first met, was definitely a huge factor in what initially charmed him.

though now i think about it… he thinks i’m most beautiful when i’m passionate about something. when there’s a spark in my eyes and i’m clearly excited as i ramble about anything and everything that’s caught my interest, if it’s a new manga i like or something to do with my endless hobbies. he’s just woefully endeared and part of him thinks that he could listen to me talk for an eternity and wouldn’t have any real complaints. realistically after hours of me talking at him he’d end up kissing me to shut me up, but he’s also a romantic at heart and thinks “would let me talk his ear off until the sun explodes” sounds more romantic so he’ll mentally stick with that initial response

as for what i think is most beautiful about him… i’m going to have to be corny for a second and say his smile, but specifically his genuine one. don’t get me wrong, all of his expressions are beautiful and even when he’s trying to win the ‘best at masking’ competition he’s pretty, but i love when he’s genuinely happy and showing off one of his real smiles instead of the one he slaps on just to be polite. i also love his laugh, and i think he’s realised a long time ago that i’ve made it my personal mission to get as many genuine smiles and laughs out of him as humanly possible. he’s just so prettyyy i can’t help it i love seeing him happy

i also love his hair, but specifically when it’s down. it’s not that i dislike it when it’s tied up, but i have a certain fondness for it when he doesn’t bother with that and it’s made obvious how long it is and how he takes such good care of it

for satoru… i hate to go on a tangent about how pretty he is but he is so pretty. like annoyingly pretty and he knows it and the confidence makes it so much more annoyingly attractive i HATE him (<- i say, like a liar) anyway the most obvious answer would probably be his eyes, they’re absolutely gorgeous in a way i can’t quite describe and it’s almost like they’re kaleidoscopes of blue but more than his eyes i think the stupid cocky and amused expression whenever he notices me staring is prettier. it shouldnt be i should find it annoying but i love that cocky grin of his and even more than that i love the smaller and softer pleased smile he gets when hes caught off guard by whatever sappy shit came out of my own mouth. truthfully i think he’s most beautiful in the softer moments, when he has his head in my lap and i can’t help but be reminded of a cat when he gets such a pleased expression on his face while i play with his ridiculously soft hair. he’s pretty all the time, but i think he’s most beautiful during the domestic moments where he gets to ignore the weight of being gojo for a little while and just be satoru.

as for when he finds me most beautiful, it’s honestly probably in the midst of battle. there’s something about the way i almost lose myself in the thrill of a fight that he just finds captivating. if asked, he’d probably just shrug and say it’s hot, even if it leads to an annoyed scolding and pinch on the cheek, but truthfully he finds the display of strength oddly comforting. sometimes it feels like he clings onto me and suguru being his equals like a lifeline, and i think he likes the reminder that being the strongest doesn’t mean being lonely, and there’s still people who can keep up with him.

i think another thing he loves is my kindness. soft smiles and words of reassurance, the way people are just drawn to me. he himself is a kind person and i’ll argue that he is until the day i die but there’s a sense of clumsiness to it, the way his words aren’t sugarcoated and come across a bit too harsh and blunt. early on he came across as rude more often than not, because even if he was well-meaning there wasn’t always enough care to fully display it, and even when the care was there he didn’t exactly know the best way to show it, having never needed to filter his words before, and having never really wanted to either. overtime he’s definitely softened around the edges, and truthfully i’ve always admired the way he doesn’t beat around the bush, but in the same way i admire his blunt attitude he’s always admired the ease of which i can comfort others with my presence and the way kind words with soft tones just comes naturally to me.

shoko shoko shoko… where do i even start with her ? her eyes remind me of honey when the sun hits them just right, and i can’t count how many times i’ve been in awe of the fact that i’m the model between the two of us. she’s witty, and she never fails to make me laugh with her dry sense of humour and sarcastic comments. whenever satoru and suguru get a bit too caught up in their own little world she’s a steady presence by my side who’s always willing to make playful jabs at them, uncaring if satoru acts all dramatic and scandalised when he overhears. i love her laugh and how pleased she looks whenever she (quite easily) gets a laugh out of me and i love the glint in her eyes she gets when she goes mad doctor mode while elbow deep in the guts of whatever curse i brought back for her to pick apart and dissect.

she’s confident and has this air of self assuredness that comes from nonchalance rather than ego and i find it stupidly attractive.

as for what she finds most beautiful… shes the type who is trying to hard to be a Chill Girl and win the idgaf war but she fails miserably when it comes to me she is just woefully endeared. from what ive noticed she likes me most when im doing anything she deems cute. she loves when im clingy and visit her in the infirmary whenever i get a chance, and how yaga’s made a habit of giving me and the guys spontaneous training sessions whenever she has to be whisked away to give some reckless sorcerer emergency healing because otherwise ill ignore the equations on the board to complain about how much i miss her and giving me an opportunity to beat something up and get beaten up in return is always the best distraction.

her nonchalant demeanour broke with the flustered expression she got when she heard about that for the first time, and it still makes her heart warm whenever she’s reminded of it and how happy i looked when she came back and mentioned how she was looking for us (or more specifically me, she’d joked it was nice to get away from satoru and suguru for a while and it almost diverged into bickering if it wasn’t for me distracting them by pointing out that i wasn’t included in the list of people she wants to get away from, a fact i was very proud of and a fact satoru and suguru had endless fun teasing her about). she loves how physically affectionate i am and how pleased i always look whenever she indulges and throws an arm around me in return

and ive noticed the habit of mine that always made her heart skip a beat was during her smoker era (because she does eventually quit) and how despite knowing she could always heal herself afterwards, and how really between the two of us im more reckless with my health considering how quick i am to throw myself in front of a curse, i’d always scold her telling her to look after herself more and give her a teasing grin as i’d swap her cigarette out for a lollipop. she just loved the little prideful smile i’d have on my face when she’d cave in and put the cigarette away and while she doesn’t have much of a sweet tooth, and she would go as far as to say i’m the only sweet thing she even likes, she’s too enamoured by my efforts to find the perfect flavour for her to not at least try as they get progressively more obscure every time.

prideful little grins and how pleased with myself i look when i get my way, and how my face lights up whenever i see her are probably her favourites out of the expressions i have, and part of her thinks she’d indulge my stupid whims for the rest of our lives if only so i could keep smiling at her like that

🌸 : COMPASSIONATE CHERRY BLOSSOM . . . has your significant other(s) gotten you anything that has become really meaningful to you? have you gotten them something that has become really meaningful to them? when was the gift(s) given? what is the story behind them? have you scripted it as an object you have in your current reality so you feel more connected to them?

hmmm gift giving isn’t really our main love language so there isn’t much that particularly sticks out but ill try mention the first that come to mind. suguru gave me some of his pokemon cards when we were little, and when we were a bit older he won me some cute plushies at an arcade so those were cute and have always had a special place in my heart even before i realised why i was so attached. im not sure if anything ive given him sticks out but back to the pokemon cards i did give him some of mine in exchange and i know he still holds onto those. most of the gifts given between us are sweets and desserts he gets on his way back from missions so its hard to think of actual items

as for satoru, the first meaningful gift that comes to mind is the digimon card packs i got for him the first birthday he had since meeting me. he’d gotten really into digimon before i met him and i noticed him eyeing my pokemon card collection but i also knew he was a HATER bc we always bicker over which series is better (suguru’s the go-to middleman bc he likes the whole monster collecting genre in general. he sides with me more though so i think he has a favourite and i dont mean me) anyway as much as it pained me on principle i decided to buy him a couple of card packs and a binder so he could start a collection, and used a lottt of luck to make sure he’d be happy with the ones he got lol.

truthfully i hadn’t even put all that much thought into that specific gift, i’d been angsting over what to get him and ended up buying them on a whim because i was reminded of him eyeing my card collection when i came across a few packs in a store and when it was time to actually give it to him i was lowkey (highkey) nervous he’d think it was lame or smth idk or like it wouldnt be meaningful enough, which is funny because he liked it a lot and was quick to be a major nerd about it. despite collecting for different series it started a tradition of us buying cards together which is fun, he came to really enjoy the process of hoping for whatever card he wanted, and eventually going online to buy the stubborn rare ones he had an eye on

for gifts he gave me, technically there’s a lot because once we got into a committed relationship he started to insist on me using his card when i go shopping, but as for meaningful there’s a couple rings he had custom made for me that are so so pretty. like absolutely gorgeous and so thoughtful ?? like you can just tell how much thought went into them and how he made sure it fits with the kind i like to wear and personally like.

aaand finally shoko !! i know shes gifted me some cute stuff over the years but i can’t think of any right now </3 other than snacks i like whenever she goes shopping… as for what ive given her, i love love love to bring various trinkets and knickknacks back for her whenever i go on missions, esp longer ones. idk i like to remind her that im thinking about her while shes stuck in the morgue. she treasures all of them buuut i think the gift she finds the most meaningful was a custom hand-made knife i made for her. she’s not a combatant and there’s theoretically no need for her to have a weapon but i wanted to make sure that if it came to it she had something to defend herself with. usually its on display, bc not to toot my own horn but its gorgeous, but she’s pretty skilled at using it if she needs to and likes to have it on her

i haven’t really bothered to script in anything from my cr like that. it’s definitely a super cute idea and i love when people do that but i’ve never really felt compelled to personally do it. i can’t really think of anything i own that i’d actively want them to give me and i don’t really need any more connection enough to go out of my way to find something

🪷 : LOVELY LOTUS . . . do you and your significant other(s) do any "cheesy" stuff? like having matching pajamas, matching halloween costumes, and picnic dates? or building the flower legos, cooking together, baking together?

do we… i wouldn’t call it tradition per say, but we’re always down for matching halloween costumes when the perfect idea comes to mind, whether its a duo costume between two of us or a full group costume between all four. matching trinkets are another one, we have phone charms, keychains, bracelets etc, some bought and some won at arcades. we don’t always display these, some are tucked away along with other miscellaneous memorable items, but the knowledge that it’s there and treasured is enough

for other cheesy things… i’ve definitely persuaded them into matching profile pictures on our social media accounts at some point and they’ve always been indulgent of my silly whims like that, even if they will half heartedly complain and tease me over it. we don’t go out of our way to get matching pjs, maybe if satoru finds a pair thats funny he’ll nag me or suguru into matching with him but i wouldnt really call it a tradition, instead i’ve stolen half their wardrobes and will shamelessly wear their shirts to bed because its COMFY dammit

me and suguru cook together on occasion, but it’s usually left as a solo job, and while i suppose satoru begging to be a taste tester whenever im in the mood to bake could count if you squint a bit, ‘baking together’ is actually more of a friendship thing i share with nanami, we found it’s a useful way of keeping the early-life crisis away

another thing is that satoru loves games, video games unsurprisingly but also board games, and i grew up in a family that had board games as our number one family reunion activity and with a mother who needed some way of keeping me entertained during long road trips so the two of us were very quick to drag suguru and shoko (and sometimes our extended friend group, but oftentimes its just a way of spending time as the four of us) into game nights. sometimes it’s pulling out the wii and getting stupidly competitive over mario kart or wii sports, and sometimes it’s playing board games where we argue over the rules because satoru only knows the rules that are written down, suguru’s family has modified theirs a bit, my own family has changed and modified the rules in such an elaborate way over the generations that the game i grew up playing is drastically different from the one that comes out the box, and shoko thinks its funny if she can get away with cheating

OH and im not sure if this counts as cheesy but i’m including it anyway. during shoko’s smoker era suguru would sometimes accompany her to smoke and me and satoru don’t smoke ever bc we just don’t really enjoy it but what we hate more than cigarette smoke is being left out so it became a habit for me to carry around a box of pocky so we could tag along and snack on something while we wait for them. another thing is after realising we both have a sweet tooth, unlike suguru and shoko bc they’re LAME, me and satoru made it a tradition to check out various desserts places and sweet shops. originally it was just because nobody else was interested in going but it became a habit to make a day out of it and gossip, we are always the first to know each other’s family drama because of it

okay that got ridiculously long but whatever ive needed an excuse to ramble about them lol. thank u to whoevers decided to sit through my lovesick rambling ur a real one and here’s a link to the original ask game

[aliothbuzzsawshark]

Alright it’s tomorrow I watched the first 2 go rush dub episodes and here’s what my thoughts are - from a huge sevens fan who only has seen a few clips, tumblr posts, and the cat episode before watching

I also watched this with my sister, who greatly dislikes Yu-Gi-Oh! Bridge content. It was a joy having to also explain to her Yes You Can Draw Multiple Cards And All Of This Is Legal Play. A joy to watch from that alone

Episode 1 and I actually really like Yudias? I thought I’d get annoyed since he’s an alien and not an ohdo but he’s been the best part of this show so far. I love how dramatic both he and the voice actor are when doing literally anything ever. He’s insane in the way which reminds me of the drama in Yu-Gi-Ohs past. Also he’s just funny. I laughed at him a lot more than I expected, especially with him and the Velgears. Solid 8/10 character, would belong in any other Yugioh perfectly and his dub voice actor actually kills it at being Yudias (10/10 on va-ing)

Now I was weary of Yuhi. Before knowing anything about Go Rush I told myself I’d be a Yuhi stan. But no he’s kinda annoying? Like idk if it’s a translation thing but he just so fucking annoying whenever he talks. I think the dubbing plays a part of that too though; I’ve played stuff with his va (ntwewy) and though he sounded way to monotone but this feels like he’s exaggerating every sentence in the worst way possible. I like his design and his weird alien hair but unfortunately that’s about it? Like 4/10 probably better in sub I hate hearing him

Yuamu is almost good. I almost like her. Her dub voice feels way too high pitch but that’s not even my main problem and I don’t know what is. I liked her before watching (especially her hair, love the gradient and bangs) but she just feels…boring? Like she’s just here to explain how to play and has one part in the second episode which I find annoying but I’ll get to that later. Overall 6/10 nothing too wrong with her and her voice only annoys me a little (her voice actress would do a great Yuna though tbh)

I don’t really have any notes about the plot. I think it’s funny how the Ohdos say there’s a the smartest people alive for the sake of their livelihood, I like the velgears, the bit with Yudias just having booster packs was funny, I really like Yudias. Nothing wrong with it. Overall like 7/10 episode. Sevens had a better starting episode but I didn’t expect anything else

(also theme “song” was just as boring as sevens BUT THEY SAY THE NAME OF THE SHOW! Actually blew my mind the first time I have low standards)

Episode 2 is actually pretty fun. I like Yudias reminiscing about the war through a card, I like the secrecy (wait it’s called the MIK originally? Honestly I can’t be mad at the change two 3 letter organization is a bit confusing), and Manabu and Nyandestar are a pretty fun duo!

Manabu is a silly guy. I already liked him out of pity before but he’s just cool. I like his design and voice and him as a character overall. I thought him just saying no to dueling at first was really funny (paused the episode around that point and pointed out to my sister how the question “what if I just say no to duel” finally got answered) and I think it’s a really cute detail how his disguise it just Gakuto. 7/10 character would be higher but MADDOX SOGETSU? Bad name me and my sister just started calling him Matthew because that’s a better name. (Alternate better names include Mason, Morgan, Matt, Mark, any M name)

Nyandestar is fun! Meowdestar is a fine change to her name, it makes sense but I will never fucking call her that. She’s just fun, that’s about it! Her and Manabu are like team rocket but she’s both James and meowth. No complaints 9/10 I like cats.

Idk what isn’t a translation change, but the conversation with a disguised Manabu and Yuamu made me feel…mad? Annoyed? Idk but saying a man is faking a pet snake because snake aren’t slimy and are actually reptiles is such a nickpicking thing I would hate to be in her presence. ALSO THE OHDO’S INHERITED UTS??? NEPO BABIES. Another point against the Ohdo twins.

However, Yudias is a bright light in this dub, his va is doing amazing still and I love his vocal delivery in Yudias’s flashback of leaving his home planet. And from the 10 seconds I saw I like Zwijou enough (I’m not checking the spelling) and his voice actor. Really giving the dead wife trope and I’m curious on how I’ll inevitably hate him later.

Fine episode, 6/10. I’ll probably continue watching just out of principle but probably wouldn’t if I didn’t care for Sevens. Better than I expected tbh would recommend to yugioh watchers as long as they’re used to Yugioh dubs.

also peak logo, might be my favorite and that’s high praise lol anyways goodnight woohoo

[kiivg]

idk if u need or want to hear this but i LIVE to see ur art and would b real sad to see u go </3

.Like I appreciate this I really do, though I know it’s a response to me saying I’m going to blow up an delete everything which I AM very tempted to do (again) and disappear (again) and come back anonymously until I start drawing scrungly old men and someone is like “Hey aren’t you….?” (AGAIN).

.And YES I know my text post was a knee jerk response to the sheer dislike of my recent art because somehow it’s nowhere near as good as my finished pieces (makes sense 30hr vs 3hr pictures) and yet still better than my sketches from some months ago. But that’s no consolidation even though it should be, I AM somewhat minimally improving I’m just not doing it in the way I want to which is quite frankly really fucking annoying.

.The crux of the issue I think is I’m seeing dozens of much better artists getting credits they quite frankly deserve and I’m disheartened that I’m not that good, I don’t think I’ll ever be that good, yet I’m still thrilled they’re doing so bloody well. But I can’t level with someone who’s climbing faster than I am. And then I’m seeing artists who post art riddled with issues get far more interaction than I ever do, and I’m happy for them too because they’re beating the odds and undoubtedly having a blast with their popularity.

.So WHY am I struggling if I’m literally in the same situation as these people. My art is both better than others’ and worse than others’ and somehow I feel like I’m stuck at the bottom of the ladder with absolute shite art. Which means (naturally this is no shock) the issue is ME, but I can’t figure out WHAT the exact issue is, and that is what is driving me to want to just scrap everything and start over because whatever the hell I’m doing now isn’t working, it’s not fun. I make a little picture, I enjoy making it, I feel my love turn into exhaustion and despair, I post and I hate it within the hour.

.I spend 30 hours on a piece that barely scrapes 100 interactions, I spend 3 hours on something that gets over 2000 interactions. I’m playing art roulette and I still don’t know what the bloody rules are. I get little tags saying “wow OP ur style” and I’m thrilled, overjoyed, I cannot describe the elation in proper prose, but my supposed style (lazy, sloppy, no pen pressure or texture, my colouring is the select and fill paint bucket) isn’t good enough, clearly it’s not good enough.

.I know I KNOW it’s true you’ll see a thousand things wrong with your own art, it’s the way things go, and I’ve been purposefully trying not to be too hard on myself, letting some things slip because whatever others have done worse, but by god is it the most draining thing. To see others do better, do worse, and feel joy for them and nothing but loathing for my own creations.

.And I know undoubtedly someone will want to tell me “oh this guy also struggles with their art” or “this girlie also has the same issues as you” but that won’t make me feel any better! Why would it! Why would another artist’s misery make me feel better! I want them to be happy that their art is good, that I sit there for a few moments taking in all their details, the lineart the brushstrokes the colours the feeling, that for a moment in the world a stranger loves them for their work but by God why can’t I put that on MYSELF.

.Anyway I cannot put into words what I feel and perform it true to what I think, because it’s complicated and most likely utterly ridiculous whining and someone will read this and think “wow king shut up get over urself” as undoubtedly they always will.

.In better news though, yesterday I found a bumble bee in my freshly washed bed sheets, he must have been accidentally caught when I brought it all back in, I got him in a glass and felt the vibrations of his little wingbeats through paper thin card as I took him back outside, and all my ailments were cured if but only for a moment.

[slasherparty]

Hey, could I maybe get a matchup?

I'm a Chubby German girl with brown hair that are little bit above the shoulder, I have blue/gray eyes and I'm 5'5.

I’m pansexuel.

I suffer from a social anxiety disorder and because if that I'm always afraid that I being judged in the public by strangers for something and i'm generally afraid speaking to people I don't know well.

Or when an embarrassing situation for me happens it could be that I get a panick attack.

I also have a hard time speaking English, because my native language is German, and I mostly learned english through reading and that's why I don't really now how to pronounce words right.

I like to play videogames, anime, horror movies/games, draw and I love musicals.

I dislike being bullied, my body and face mostly. My body because of my overweight and face just because I think I'm not attractive.

One of my main hobbies is shooting Air rifle. I'm and few friends are also in a club where we go every week and shot. I'm pretty good with my aim.

of course!! i think i have the perfect guy for you... Jason Voorhees!

why it works...💭

jason, like you, has faced harsh judgment and bullying throughout his life. his childhood experiences, especially with being ostracized for his physical differences, mean he deeply understands the pain of being ridiculed for things beyond your control. you both share a fear of judgment, making him someone who would not only empathize with your struggles but fiercely protect you from anyone who dares to make you feel lesser.

jason’s quiet, protective nature ensures that he never judges you for your anxieties, appearance, or struggles with social situations. in fact, he would likely admire your courage in facing a world that can be so cruel.

jason is famously silent and nonverbal, which could actually work well with your social anxiety. there’s no pressure to carry conversations or worry about how you’re pronouncing words — jason doesn’t rely on words to express himself. instead, he communicates through actions, and his body language would speak volumes.

your love of horror movies and games aligns perfectly with jason’s slasher origins, creating a shared interest that could make for fun (albeit unconventional) bonding experiences. beyond that, your talent for air rifle shooting and precision would resonate with jason’s expertise in throwing weapons and strategic thinking.

imagine him from afar, silently watching you practice at your shooting club, perhaps even learning a few tricks from you. your accuracy and focus would likely impress him, and you could bond over a shared skill that showcases your strength and determination.

both of you seem to thrive in environments that don’t demand constant social interaction. jason, being an introvert who lives in the solitude of the woods, would provide you with the kind of peaceful companionship that feels safe and unpressured. you could draw, play video games, or watch anime while jason quietly stays nearby, ensuring your comfort and safety.

jason’s entire backstory revolves around avenging those who are wronged, especially by bullies. if anyone were to mock you for your appearance, your accent, or your anxiety, jason would immediately step in to defend you. his protective instincts are unparalleled, and he would never let anyone make you feel unsafe or insecure.

while his methods are extreme, his unwavering loyalty to those he cares about would mean you’d never have to face the cruelty of others alone. his presence would be a constant reminder that you’re valued and worthy of love.

jason is someone who has never judged others based on societal norms. for better or worse, his tragic experiences have made him someone who sees past physical appearances and anxieties to the person underneath. he would adore you for your hobbies, talents, and the kindness you show despite your struggles.

jason would, in his own nonverbal way, reassure you that your body and face are not something to be disliked —they’re uniquely yours, and he values you for exactly who you are. his lack of words wouldn’t diminish his ability to make you feel loved and accepted.

thanks for participating in a matchup!! 💌

you can find more of my writing here on ao3!

[midwestcannibal]

there’s a conversation to be had in think where ppl will make fun of or even reprimand others on here for not enjoying (and even to an extent, being triggered by) All of the horror transgressions. there’s ofc some merit to it, like why are you ok with incest, cannibalism, and abuse but draw the line at necrophilia, and what makes that transgression more irl evil to you than the others. but at the same time, why is it immediately something to belittle someone for for not getting on every horror horse they come upon?

whether it be just a plain “not that interesting to me” or (a more worrying thing to get upset with someone over), “this is something i find upsetting in a way that makes it unenjoyable for me”. which ofc, back to the “why” of it all, but sometimes ill see ppl make posts abt someone asking for a theme to be tagged or whatever, and everyone has the right to say no to that, it’s the internet and your blog, do what u want, but the response seems so extreme in nature that it’s like ok. well now we need to talk about why you feel like everyone should be able to consume the Upsetting Media Genre in the same way as you, Guy Who Can Handle It All

two things are true at once with “analyze why your response to this societal transgression is so specifically negative and figure out the nuance behind it being something you outright refuse to interact with in media” and “i have a specific relationship to this transgression that makes it unenjoyable to me, whether it be a truly triggering theme that i cannot handle or i still consider this transgression as upsetting in a way i don’t enjoy despite this being the horror genre”.

it almost feels like those who make these posts about “lol can’t handle incest huh” or whatever think that everyone who doesn’t want to consume it the same way as them inherently think they’re a bad person for enjoying/consuming media with that theme. not to say some people don’t, ofc they do, ppl on the internet will always go to extremes in a stupid as shit way with no grace for anyone but themselves

all of this to say i know myself and i know i have two semi specific things in horror that i typically just straight up cannot handle and upset me in a way that i don’t enjoy, even with the horror genre being entirely dedicated To Upsetting The Audience. and ive seen a fair share of posts that seem to take out any and all nuance for a horror audience, doing the exact same thing to the other “side” that they’re having done to them: completely ignoring that sometimes, people enjoy/dislike stuff that others dislike/enjoy, and this does not make either person an immediately wrong/bad person

[themsource]

Frans, Shipping, and Me

A bit of context before we start.

For those that don’t know: I don’t like shipping myself. 

While a majority of my stuff has been and is for the insert enjoyers, I personally don’t like self shipping. It hits on that same nerve that makes me squeak at RPF (real person fiction), it just crosses a line for me. Because those are people with real feelings, and I can’t bring myself to objectify myself or others just for an imagined storyline or scenario. Even when reading it I don't truly insert myself into it.

Don’t get me wrong, I love and have a major crush on a ton of characters, especially Sans and I can ramble all day about what I would do or say in a relationship with him. But actually putting myself in the situation?

No, I can’t do it.

I managed to get one insert art made that I actually paid for myself and… while it did do things for me on both a good and bad level, and felt amazing to have, I wouldn’t do it again. 

It felt very personal, like I had been cracked opened and exposed on a level I didn’t want others seeing just for their entertainment or just because there were parts of myself that I wanted to keep just for me. 

I had received insert art and writing in the past from very close friends at the time, and while I loved them and they touched me very deeply, there was always a bit of uncomfortableness that came with it. Which is why I only willing accepted insert art with my OC Oreo from people I knew and trusted. But even that was and still is a bit much sometimes, because I’ve had Oreo since I was young, very young, so she’s as close to me as you can get without inserting me directly.

When I write insert, “y/n”, is a character. It makes it easier to write as I have a detachment and can enjoy what happens like watching a tv show or play, I’m just along for the ride with my fingers on the gas pedal. If people connected on a level with “y/n” and were able to see themselves in what I wrote, then that was amazing! That’s what I wanted… to be able to affect people and help them feel or experience things that they couldn’t or wouldn’t want to otherwise in a safe environment: so they could expand their perceptions or thoughts on certain subjects or view a topic in a different light.

My insert writing has always been about helping others explore, and even exploring myself.

I’ve learned so much about myself and how the world works with the stuff I’ve written and drawn, the good, bad, and the ugly. There were things I never dared to try and explore for personal reasons… until I started insert writing, because then it was like bringing a friend along, a friend who couldn’t actually get hurt by going on a journey with me. 

A journey that could help both me as a writer and those as a reader to think and reflect, to learn empathy and grow by maybe learning something about yourself you didn’t like or did like, and embracing yourself as a flawed human being just like each one of us are so you can be at peace and live your best life or even to work on yourself if that’s what you were inspired to do.

My insert writing is about learning, and having fun while doing so.

And this all leads into why I love character shipping more.

Characters aren’t real, no matter how many of us might wish that they were. Characters can be objectified, characters can be harmed or loved without committing a wrong against those that really matter, people. There is also yet another distinctive wall of division between a person and a character than there is an insert that makes me more comfortable.

And characters have a solid personality that can be worked with and challenge you as a writer to make work or have fun experimenting to see how they’d react in a certain scene even if it’s in a way you end up disliking.

They’re more limited but so much more versatile.

So when I fall in love with something I fall in love with the characters not the possibility of what I could do in the world.

Characters are what draw me in.

Well, one day I… discovered some interesting fanart of Sans, featuring him and his “light saber”.

And that sparked a curiosity for context.

When I first played Undertale, I had no interest in shipping “the human” with anyone, in fact I had no interest in shipping at all or what have you. Like I said it was like watching a tv show, just something for entertainment. 

The message of undertale did touch me deeply though so I did go looking at fanart and stuff as I was at a point in my life where grief was all I felt and Undertale had managed to make me feel something else other than that, but I was also more into Moana at the time. It’s honestly difficult for me to get motivated to create fanworks for something, to just create. I never made anything for Moana, and never made anything for Persona, which I was ADDICTED to at the time.

I had tried making fanfic in my youth but yeah… 14-19 year old me was awful.

And then the pacifist ending happened.

The absolute SHOCK I felt at seeing everyone call the human “Frisk” rather than what I had named them and learning the name we gave was actually Chara’s…. It made me watch replays, made me spend hours looking at everything I could have missed.

And that’s when I started falling for the characters, when I started falling for Sans and then Frisk.

Frisk, this character who had been possessed by “us” in a word, and “us” that was actually another character we just happened to give an identity to in yet another but milder form of possession, all fitted together like Matryoshka dolls. 

Do you realize how tragic that is?

Frisk was a puppet… of a puppet… for US.

My heart was stolen as soon as that realization was made. I have a weakness for broken and damaged characters, characters that have gone through hell or have been hurt in ways that people normally don’t come back from… because I love more than anything seeing them bounce back.

Combine that love and sympathy I found in Frisk, with the humor and comfort I found in Sans…

And there you have it: My love of Frans and why it’s my OTP.

That love has only gotten stronger as the years went by. 

Another truth I have to share, is I started initially doing insert because I didn’t feel confident enough to portray Frisk right, and character shipping and insert shipping have since drastically evolved into two different things for me with different meanings and reasons for why I do them. 

I really gained confidence in my Frans writing once my dear friend Shay introduced me to several broken down and researched articles by nochocolate that showed me exactly what Frisk and Chara’s personalities were like and how they were separated from “the player”.

And I’ve been on a nonstop Frans high ever since, and will be until the day I die. They are my OTP and I will ship them more than any other pairing, even Insert.

I am very much a “ship and let ship” person, and I have and will support people shipping whatever they please, in fact I tend to ship everyone because these characters are just so great you can’t help but find dynamics where they just work no matter the previously established bonds or relationships, and the same goes with good AU derivatives.

But Frisk and Sans were the ones who drew me in and kept me here.

I’ve made jokes and called other ships OTP in a show of support of fellow writers, however frans is it for me. If I was asked what ship’s hill I’d die on in a war, it’s them.

For me, Frans will always come first.

So now we get to what exactly my dynamics are for Frans.

I like portraying Frisk as female, because I am female. I find it easier to write emotions from that perspective than others, and I want people to love Frisk and feel what Frisk is feeling. I have written Frisk as nonbinary and male before, but I feel those pieces weren’t as good as my writing when I had Frisk as female, simply because I’m not actually of those genders. I will take genuine characterization over a subpar attempt at accuracy that undermines the experience the writing is supposed to give you.

I also like writing Sans as strictly male. Can he change his equipment if he pleases? Yes, he’s made of magic after all, but I don’t see him preferring or actively wanting to do that, he’s male and identifies as a man, pure and simple. You’d have to be pretty fucking special for him to honor an equipment swap request.

A bit of a TMI personal note for this too though in why I like this interpretation with Sans the most… is the fact I don’t like vaginas. 

I have one, and all I care about is the fact it can make me feel good. It’s not pretty or “looks like a flower”, it’s a hole that’s a direct opening into the body… gross. And no, before anyone starts, I would not feel better with a penis or think I’m trangender in any capacity. I’m a woman and I feel like a woman one hundred percent, I just don’t like that one part of my anatomy.

So while I’m willing to write about one vagina for smut, I’m not comfortable writing about two and creating the image that… two working together would make. Can I write two vaginas in a smut scene sure… if there’s a penis involved. I could even write lesbian sex if I wanted if there’s a dildo, vibrator, hands, or whatever. Just no vagina on vagina action. It’s my preference and for my comfort. I’ve read plenty of fics that include that but I happily ignore it in favor of the plot and interactions.

Anyways…

For me Sans and Frisk…

They are soulmates, they are always meant for each other. 

No matter the time, place, ages, personalities, or circumstances, they are always supposed to be together. I may write or make pieces where they’re not soulmates, but they still very much are in my head if that makes sense. This is why I love to indulge in any and all content involving them.

Now do they actually end up together? 

That’s a different story. Not all endings are happy ones. But what matters isn’t the ending but the journey. What matters is the time they have together and how they affect one another. What matters is the fact that they met.

Sans could be a complete asshole to Frisk, a deranged psychopath, and Frisk could be as equally messed up with them both going at each other’s throats, or one of them could be a complete sweetheart that suffers in the name of love and hopelessness, or they could even be in a perfect balance where they’re in a healthy relationship filled with compassion and consideration, but in someway, somehow, they will still just work. 

Even if it’s not in the way others would hope for.

I personally can write pure healthy fluff, I have before, but what I really like writing about is them struggling to overcome something. I generally like writing like that in the first place. 

But with Sans and Frisk…

I always write about change.

What I like most is a Sans who struggles with his emotions, whether that be displaying them or feeling them while hiding behind a calm and collected mask. I like it when he’s carrying that mysterious air about him that makes you question what he’s really thinking or if he really understands what’s been told to him. I like him leaving someone in doubt and constantly on the tips of their toes, before making them laugh with a joke.

And I like Frisk being able to crack that mask, to read through his charade.

She changes him by bringing more of him out from behind the curtain, making him more in tune with his SOUL and even his humanity and all the complications that come with it.

If that’s a good thing or not, depends on the situation and context, but yes always this.

For Frisk, I like her shy and innocent. Someone who’s learning the world at the same time that she’s learning herself, and is forever merciful and forgiving towards those that wrong or hurt her sometimes to her own detriment because she’s just that kind hearted and hopeful for that kindness in others. But as much as she forgives, she certainly doesn’t forget. Frisk remembers and counts the scars she carries.

I enjoy when Sans manages to push her into becoming stronger, to not let herself continue to be silently walked on, and to fight back.

That’s the basis for my work with them.

Sometimes, Sans makes her stronger by pushing her to an edge with abuse until she finally reaches a breaking point and fights with all her strength, and in her rebellion Sans slowly begins to see where he’s gone wrong to have changed her so and gradually becomes kinder, more open as he seeks forgiveness.

Other Times, Frisk sees Sans as nothing more than an empty shell just costing by in life with a false grin on his face and slowly starts overcoming her shyness and reluctance in other to try and help a friend facing down depression, and this slow build of strength and show of kindness is enough to cause Sans to start reacting more honestly to jokes or statements, to dare smile for real even though it hurts to do so.

Then there can be times of bloody revenge - where one becomes stronger to take out the other while the opponent seeks to manipulate their perception on what they knew was right or wrong, and both end up more broken than from when they started, but still irrevocably changed in a positive way that was negative between them.  

Times of tragic love not meant to be.

These are just a few scenarios, but with the same theme: change.

And I apply it differently each time depending on the scenario or idea, depending on who is in the wrong or not. The theme can be subtle to the point you have to read between the lines and really think on what’s happening to see it, or it can be really obvious right from the start and is fed to you with every action and word.

Every time I look at Sans and Frisk together no matter who’s portraying them, I see change.

The potential for it.

And that’s what I love most.

So that is how my Frans works, and incidentally, why I love the ship so much. 

I will continue to love that ship til the day I die and I will continue to write for frans no matter what, even if I lose interest in all other ships including insert you can bet I will continue to write about the funny skeleton man and the sweet hearted human.

They’re my ultimate power couple.

And if hearing this at all upsets anyone, more so my insert readers who I’ve heard the majority of backlash from since I first came out about my love for frans… (Seriously the DMs and anon hate was unreal - especially the... material I got sent and had to report at one point) Well, let’s just say that If you can’t handle me in my character shipping moods, then you don’t deserve me in my insert shipping moods, sorry.

Like I’ve said before, I love my readers and friends regardless if you agree or disagree with me, including on the ship or ship(s) I make stuff for, you’re allowed that right as people. And no I still won’t love you any less for your thoughts. Because again that’s how we’re supposed to be as people, mature enough to let bygones be.

I’m just saying, frans is life for me, and explaining why that is and always will be.

[rodolfoparras]

Okay I gotta complain for a moment

Dorian, the company that bought The Arcana (?? Or brought it onto their team, Dorian doesn't make games themselves but helps others), made a modern story dating sim version of The Arcana and I am NOT the biggest fan 😭

I never played it but the way they dressed and characterized them just from their cards. I edited the cards to be side by side for reference for their casual outfits and info

LUCIO IN AXE BODY SPRAY???? NUH UH. He'd have a very expensive, fancy cologne that's like 3k for a few ounces bro. And something bugs me about his clothes, and I think it's the jacket.

Yes, Portia has a cat, but she would NOT wear the cat thigh highs in that fit?? She looks like she's about to do yard work??? Get her a sun hat, gloves and clippers bruh, maybe some knee pads instead to keep her knees safe. I cannot see her wearing that fit very casually either

Muriel would be a chronic sweater wearer, soft and comfy, but not that.... Especially the jacket tied in his waist. (Hell on earth that Muriel can't even escape the violence in the modern age)

In my head, I think Julian would be a LITTLE flashier. All the drip that boys got is a WATCH?? He's probably wear a necklace or something.. and probably piercings, at least his ears

Idk about Nadia... Something about her fit is... Wrong to me.

Asra looks good, me thinks. I almost see him wearing flowy skirts tho... Almost hippie-ish but not quite...

Learning to draw solely to fix these designs up

I've heard a few people say that they don't even know the characters any anymore and a lot of them are fandomized which is devastating. And with the way they present the characters with the extra Arcana game stuff makes me wanna agree

Anyways, sorry 😭😭 I just couldn't stop thinking about it, they irk me so bad, hoping the other anons get it

-🐧

I tried Dorian today!!! I played the modern story of arcana just see what the fuss was about since I keep getting ads for it and I decided I didn’t like it! I don’t like how the game is set up. For example if you want to charm Lucio you have to pick really obnoxious dialogue choices. I understand he’s self centered and what not but I don’t understand why I have to be that as well to charm him. If anything I’d love to have dialogue choices that do not reflect his personality because there’s no reason for me as a private investigator (that you are in the game) to come to a party to investigate a crime and say “woooooo partying all week sounds like so much fun”??

And although I don’t know the characters super well I too dislike the jacket 😭it feels like they did try to stay true to the characters but still keep it modern but it doesn’t look right with Lucio and it certainly doesn’t look right with Portia. I do have to say I liked Muriel’s suit but the casual outfit is certainly something Julian kind of reminds me of an eboy and it certainly doesn’t match his original style 😭

[mephinomaly]

[TL] BIOHAZARD/Chapter 5

[ This post uses Ois~su ♪ ]

Time: That night

Location: In living quarters of the AIIE experiment grounds

Rei: Uwaa, we’re having a sleepover with all of UNDEAD~♪

Fufu. The SS preliminaries was the perfect opportunity for one, but Kaoru-kun was thrown into a desert and separated from us.

I’m happy that the four of us can have a sleepover together peacefully– gah!?

Koga: ...

Rei: Koga? Don’t throw an omanjuu at me? Is this your way of telling me you want to play?

Koga: Stop bein’ so happy-go-lucky, vampire bastard. The hell you mean, pajama party.

Rei: Oya, how nostalgic. Could this be that you want me to call you ‘wanko’ for the first time in a while?

Koga: I ain’t callin’ you that for nostalgia purposes, I’m insultin' you.

Rei: How troubling. Please don’t take your frustrations out on me.

We’ve all given our consent to take part in this experiment.

We can’t complain now, can we?

Koga: We was basically forced to? If it hadn’t been us, it woulda been like, Ra*bits who haven’t done nothin’ wrong.

Then we’d hafta live with the knowledge that them lot are now the victims whilst we watch from the sidelines.

It’s better for our own mental health to just do it for real, right?

‘Cos I don’t like this at all. Don’t forget that.

Kaoru: Ahaha. It’s definitely a little off putting and shady sounding, but it makes for an interesting story, right?

AI idols and stuff– no, technology and science in general has come a long way. Really, it’s like an old sci-fi movie.

If this was just a movie, or even just someone else’s problem, I think it could have been a lot of fun.

Adonis: I also don’t feel great about this but I am interested in terms of the development of science and technology.

This is the future we thought of when we learnt about Voc*loid and drawing AIs, and it’s becoming a reality right in front of our eyes.

We’re now living in a near sci-fi world that people from the past could only imagine.

It’s like a dream, whether that’s a good or a bad thing.

I’m excited.

Kaoru: Ahaha. That totally has the vibe of a boyish heroic novel.

I don’t particularly like that sort of thing either. At the end of the day, I’m still the son of an academic who reached for the sea in search of romance and mystery.

Adonis: I also dislike jumping into areas I don’t know about.

Rei: If we think realistically, if we had refused to take part, there was the likelihood of RhythmLink turning their backs on us.

I suspect they would be rather unpleasant in the matter.

This is a necessary step so we are not thrown to the side. The compensation is rather impressive, and, in simple terms, profitable for us.

Well, we made quite the sum of money during the SS, so we have some to spare.

If an experiment such as ‘AI idols’ is successful, implemented, and announced to the world, won’t they look to us as we were the test subjects? Doesn’t that make this all worth it?

Koga: But this doesn’t solve the problem we’re havin’. They’re just killin’ time, it literally has nothin’ t’do with our situation.

This better not turn into a goose chase, wastin’ time runnin’ ‘round lookin’ stupid.

Rei: Umu. We should all brainstorm some ideas in order to solve the root of the problem, as Koga said. Fortunately, we have been blessed with plenty of time to do so.

Kaoru: Mmm… I was kinda on guard when they said experiment, but if they’re just asking us to stay the night here?

Rei: Umu. We will be given medicine, which will cause us to sleep for about half a day. In that time, via the devices connected to our heads, data will be collected and compiled.

During the time we are not asleep, we will exercise to prevent our bodies from weakening, and eat to keep up our energy levels. Let’s all get on, the four of us.

The testing period will last approximately one week. During this time, any other forms of work are banned, as the extra stimulus may skew the results.

Our phones will be confiscated, and we will be separated from the outside world.

Kaoru: Kinda feels like being a prisoner or a hospital patient… Welp, this’ll be easy money if all we’ve got to do is laze around.

Rei: Umu. I suppose we can take it easy. We will be paid regardless as to whether the experiment produces useful results or not, so it’s not a complete waste of time.

Fortunately, this location is better than a hospital or a prison.

Look, there are some cards and board games we can use to kill time. Let’s play until it’s time for us to sleep.

Koga: Ain’t you bein’ too relaxed ‘bout this whole thing?

Rei: That’s a good thing, is it not? I’ve been acting unusually mature since my youth, so I do not have many experiences like this. Such as having a sleepover with friends of the same age—

That’s why. I can’t be sure of the future, but I know I am very happy right now ♪

[ ☆ ]

Chapter 4

Chapter 6

[courtofmatchups]

Could I get a matchup for Tokyo Debunker please? I found the game a little while ago and I fell in love with it!

Appearance: I’m 5’3, I wear kind of round glasses, blue eyes, blonde hair (but I recently dyed it pink and it’s faded so now I guess more strawberry blonde?), I have freckles, I love wearing Victorian fashion! Like dresses and corsets, petticoats and all of that! I don’t wear jewelry a lot but I do wear ear cuffs because they’re fun.

MBTI: INFJ

Zodiac: Capricorn

Sexuality: Pansexual

Personality: Calm, introverted, usually kind of the mom-friend. I’m always carrying bandaids, water, eye drops, Advil, etc. I’m usually optimistic about things and a little naive sometimes. I’ve been referred to as a sunshine by my family and friends. Most people describe me as nice and friendly.

Hobbies: Writing, reading, listening to music, making music, cello, drawing, and sometimes baking.

Likes: Pink! Fluffy things, anything shiny, marbles, KPOP, classical music, otome games, and musicals (Especially ride the cyclone and phantom of the opera). Oh and any cute animals! Like bunnies, cats, puppies, snakes, ferrets, etc.

Dislikes: Loud noises, people who don’t fact check, ignorant people, putting others down, crass jokes, and laughing at others getting injured. General wrongness and just being an ass is also not okay.

What qualities do you look for in a partner?: Someone educated, caring, supportive, generally a good person, has hobbies and passion for their interests, not violent, and cares about me. I usually like someone that I’ll have been friends with for a while.

Love Language: Physical touch and words of affirmation!

How do you want to receive affection?: Same as my love language, but I will try to do things that my partner has as a love language. It’s give and take, not just take.

Little Fun Fact: I have pretty high anxiety, so I don’t like intense situations very much.

Thank you so much and I hope all of this helps! Cheers!

It seems to me, you've captured the heart of...

Lucas Errant!

Hear me out: as well put-together as he seems, he is a little bit scatterbrained, so he greatly appreciates your being the mom friend of your squad. Optimism is a strength, and honestly, he also would admire how you can stay strong in trying times.

That aside, I saw your preferences in partners and KNEW Luca would be the best match for you. I hope you'll support him in his mission to find his missing brother. Sure he's determined, but knowing you'd be by his side all the way would make it easier on his own mental health.

He'd find your interests really endearing, and since he is curious to know more about you, please invite him to do some of your favourite hobbies with you. He'd like seeing your artworks, and will enjoy listening to you play the cello. In the event you get an R&R permit, please invite him to a petting zoo or an animal cafe (an ethical one ofc). Boy needs a break, and cuddling with cute animals would be great for his health (I would know. I cuddle with cats after coming home from work and I feel great).

His kind nature complements your personality amazingly, and your relationship would go swimmingly