#ive also been writing about them which has been great fun!!

[arthernity]

thank god for those small anti-sun booths in the park

[seventh-district]

another Sunday, another evening spent unable to decide what to do with my free time

[britneyshakespeare]

yeah change of plans. we are now listening to historical romance audiobooks rented through the library

now all summer we read books about science and art and nature and we redress our dolls and we pay no mind to anyone

[tevaselmundogiraalreves]

BUDDIE FIC RECS PART 2

Okay heres more fics cause ive been reading so so much lately, i cannot and will not be stopped. Heres the first list. I will most prob keep on making lists cause i honestly cannot stop reading. Once again, in no particular order:

Songbird by @colonoscopys - Goes first cause i just finished reading this one. FREAK EDDIE IS MY PASION. I said it already but at one point eddie eats bucks hair. Its awesome! FreakxFreak DumbxDumb

a bleeding sun on a silver screen by @hoediaz EVERYONE ALREADY READ THIS ONE RIGHT? IF NOT WTF ARE YOU EVEN DOING GO! ACTORS AU YOU WILL NE FAMOUS FOREVER.

chess inside my chest by @buick118 - HELLOOOO THIS ONE FIXED SOMETHING INSIDE MY CHEST "heart clipped in the backseat with his headphones already secured over his ears." I NEED AN EXPLANATION FOR THIS WRITING ❤️‍🩹

Two, Three Times in a Row by leslie_knope i honestly have no words for how much i love this fic, i reread it all the time, like ive reread it so much its embarrasing. Some of the best smut ive read.

wanna do a bad thing twice by @coldbam BUCK IS SUCH A FREAK GOD HE IS SUCH A FREAK

(You know what actually there are 2 more fics were buck is the freakiest hes ever been so ill put them right below ⬇️)

slow motion, double vision in rose blush by @saryasy Eddie Diaz. His friend. His Eddie. Has kissed a man. Which is strange because Buck is sure as hell he'd remember kissing Eddie.

Me at Buck: FREAAAAAAAAK

Also special mention to that flashback WOW!

i can tell just what you want (you don't want to be alone) by @tallsinspace Buck loses it every single time this is so awesome, it was so FUN reading INFIDELEDDIE this hiatus 🫶🏽

songs and poems and promises by @lesbianrobin buck summer of disatisfaction turns around thanks to eddie god they are so in love! Also special mention to chim well and maddie lets fucking goooooo

we keep this love in a photograph by @burnthatbridge its just so so freaking beautiful. Buck chooses eddies pics for his dating app after he comes out...

the tortured poets department by @colonoscopys once again the kind of fic that you wanna reread again and again.

"The first time Buck touched him, Eddie blew an ambulance up."

still sitting in a corner i haunt by @cal-daisies-and-briars i just love this one so much, should reread it, trust me its worth it.

we're not in love (but the sex is good) by elless. Idk i loved this one. Buddie are not even friends they just want the benefits as soon as they meet. The transition from that to them actually getting to know each other so naturally and start caring about each other is so beautiful.

in the passenger seat by @livingincolorsagain Evan Buckley was put on God’s green earth to drive Eddie Diaz around.

Just BEAUTIFUL.

tying you to me by @hoediaz ONCE AGAIN PERFECT TYPE OF WRITING. Buddie meet each other after 5x11. SO ORIGINAL GOD.

the soft animal of your body by @hattalove . This is a coda to another fic but can be read on its own. Just beautiful beautiful love making. I think i commented that i felt like they were making love with the words they were saying to each other just sitting on the kitchen table talking.

we could follow the sparks, i’ll drive by @markofalover bucks kink should be people calling him mr. diaz and thinking hes eddies husband.

Wait for me there by @kitkatpancakestack Childhood friends reunite after 8 years. I just really really loved this one. Those flashbacks to the past are so beautiful.

wanna be your endgame by literalmetaphor gotta be honest dont see this happening in canon at all cause the second eddie confesses buck would go down on his knees lets be honest. BUT this was so great! I loved it.

Pivot Tables by rainbowninja167 Does it show that i love reading buddie being so freaky and so kinky. Ill just say this: educational sex. Buck brings on the clipboard. Obsessed with this one.

I Broke What You Gave Me, But You Kept Giving More by rcdwings. memory loss buck cant remember his husband. Listen im not always a fun of memory loss fics but i loved this one i loved the twist.

there's a word for it, I'm sure by @ithilien-writes i have to reread this one asap cause i loved it so so much they are just so in love with each other but cant admit it so they just start having sex about it. And god they love esch other.

i could give you fifty reasons by @marviless buck FLIRTS with eddie cause he just want ti help. God this one was so much fun. I remember laughing out loud. I gotta reread.

beating the horse by @doitbuckley Eddie is moving to Texas. Buck finally figures out what he wants. Perfect read to the end of 8a.

In the Back Seat, Windows Up by @semperama SEX IN THE BACKSIT OF THE TRUCK LETSFUCKINGGOOOOOO

Play Me For Keeps by @semperama this one made me feel so MANY things in less than 1k words I WAS WONDERSTRUCK HONESTLY SMILING FROM EAR TO EAR

would you lie with me and just forget the world by @colonoscopys reread this one recently GODDDDD if you havent just go read it right now!!! Childhood friends to lovers for the win always.

your beauty (not just a mask) by @aashiqeddiediaz these next two fics GOD well i have a thing for mirrors and sex in front of mirrors apparently so... this i top tier for me. This one is the shorter one in front of the bathroom mirror 100/10 no notes.

my mirror (staring back at me) by @aashiqeddiediaz this one is longer. Mirror in the bedroom......... Eddie notices bucks insecurities and well he does smth about it ❤️‍🔥 such a fave of mine. It has everything!!!

Dreaming of a White Christmas by rosebuddiekin . Oh boy!!!... just gonna leave the blurb here cause no words could ever be enough: "Buck accepts a challenge to be edged in his and Eddie's own version of the 12 Days of Christmas and loses his mind a little more with each one." (Btw if someone knows the author please lmk. They put a link to their tumblr on ao3 but it doesnt work for me.)

[sexy-monster-fucker]

omgggg your writing is so good!!! Would you do Jesse Gemstone again? I'm dying for more of him x reader lol the visual of the season 4 mustache down THERE is doing something to ME

AHHHHHHH IVE BEEN WAITING FOR ANOTHER JESSE REQUEST!!— I need Danny McBride to stop getting hotter (also did anyone else notice the terrible spray tans everyone got this season??)

mustache!Jesse Gemstone x Reader

CW: infidelity, secret relationship, sorta forbidden love trope, oral f!receiving, soft degradation, p in v, creampie

a/n: technically spoilers for the newest episode??? this season has been so fun, does everyone agree Megan Mullally is gonna be the villain this time? just me? Okay.

~~~

You brushed through Kelvin Gemstone’s hair. Slick with gel to obtain the perfect fauhawk look. The room loud with Judy and Jesse’s southern twang screaming back and forth. Choosing to ignore the two pompous Gemstones to make sure you did not mess up Kelvin’s look. He was just nominated for 'Top Christ-Following Man of the Year' after all. His strange lover squatted by the side of the chair discussing something you halfway zoned out. Fixated on the hair atop his head.

“Jesus Christ, Jesse! You literally stole that look from Beej! He was rocking the stache then you swooped in and tried to grow your own little pube-stache!” Judy’s voice sounded like she was on the verge of crying. The argument continuing over from a few days prior. Tensions high now that their father’s newfound relationship had been revealed to them.

“Shut the fuck up, Judy! BJ wishes I was copying him. He’s just a punk-ass Gemstone wannabe,” Jesse snapped his fingers to end his sentence.

“How did you end up so… not like them?” you leaned down to whisper to Kelvin, smiling in the mirror at him.

“I’m the baby. So Mamma and Daddy got to screw up twice before hitting the lottery,” his eyebrows bounced as he joked with you, thumbs wiggling as they pointed towards himself. Hiding your shared giggles as to not interject into the argument roaring behind you.

You had known Kelvin since your childhood. Being a member of their church for as long as you can remember. Your father being one of the Deacons, allowing you to get closer to the Gemstones. Being closer in age to Kelvin than either of his older siblings. It helped you bond.

“BJ looks like a sad, washed-up seventies porn star! One of those ones that had to hand out his VHS’s to get anyone to watch ‘em,” Jesse exaggerated with his hands.

“Bitch, please— You’re talking about a possibly permanently disabled man! This isn’t some stupid joke, Jesse! There are more important things happening than your dumbass mid-life-crisis mustache!” Judy stomped her foot, hands balled up at her sides. Teeth gritted together as she sneered at her brother. Tears welling as she stormed out of the dressing room.

“Get your shit together before Sunday service,” Jesse shouted after his sister. Flattening out his collar in the mirror. Fluffing out his sideburns and mustache. Deep eyes looking at the reflection of your ass across the room. Pretending you did not notice as to save face.

It was scandalous. And completely wrong. But you and Jesse had been hooking up for years. Making sure to keep things as secretive as possible. The Gemstones could not afford another scandal.

And you made sure no one knew. Cringing at how Judy and Kelvin would react learning that you, someone they had grown up with, was fucking their older brother. Married, older brother. Which is why you kept your interactions limited. For the sake of your friendship, but also Jesse’s marriage. It’s not like you ever expected him to leave Amber. She would kill both of you before he even got the chance.

"Alright, Kelv. Is this to your liking?"

"It looks great as always, Brother Kelvin," Keefe smiled brightly admiring his boyfriend.

"Perfect, per usue, Y/N," Kelvin smiled up at you, placing his large framed glasses on his face. Standing and thanking you again. Walking out with his partner following him closely. Stopping to give Jesse a dirty look, "Have Y/N fix your hair, you look like someone just shook you up."

Jesse arched his lip and stuck his tongue out at Kelvin. Brother returning the gesture with an annoyed snort. You remained where you stood. Cleaning up the countertop ridden with stray hairs and product. Pretending the silence was not deafening. Trying your hardest to keep your eyes off him. Always awaiting his signal. He loved thinking he was in charge.

The click of the lock on the door made you smile. Stomach flipping at the sound of his fancy shoes clicking on the linoleum floor. Ring clad hands splaying across your stomach pulling your attention up. Smiling at the older Gemstone in the mirror. His face tucked against your shoulder. Newly grown mustache tickling the bit of skin exposed by the off-shoulder dress.

"You just gonna act like I ain't even here?" Jesse grinned, voice lower and sultry. Kissing gently along your neck, trying his hardest to get a reaction out of you. Biting your lip in an attempt to hide the smile that began to beam across your cheeks. One of your hands reaching into his curly locks behind you.

"Is it the 'stache?" Jesse joked, poking a finger in your side. Causing you to jump and your facade to falter. Giggling quietly as his hands turned you around to face him. His tongue glazing across his teeth as his eyebrows bounced. Cheeks pink as his eyes met yours. Fingers digging into your waist, holding you against his chest. Lips finding their place on yours. Familiar rhythm of your mouths, knowing how the other would kiss. Teeth clinking together causing a laugh to bubble up between you.

"It's definitely... different," you flattened a hand against his open collar, "Better than when you were dying your sideburns." You teased him as always. Causing a chiding laugh to come from him. Lips attaching themselves to your throat. Facial hair brushing your jugular. Sloppily kissing along your pulse, canines grazing your skin for a moment. A soft moan fell from you when one of his hands gripped your ass. Feeling Jesse smile at the sound.

"I could give you a mustache ride," Jesse's tone was laced with tease. So you laughed. Noticing how his brows furrowed at your response. Stopping when you realized, "Oh! You were serious."

"Duh," Jesse rolled his eyes.

You smacked his arm, "Don't get snippy with me, boy."

Jesse growled with a smile, lips back on yours as he pushed your body against the counter. Hands roaming every inch, desperately cupping and pinching every flab and mound. Almost like he was trying to see if anything had changed with you in the few weeks it had been since the two of you had been alone. Kissing into you harder than he normally did. Tongue parting your lips. Your hands cupped the sides of his face, manicured nails scratching his scalp.

Large hands helped you onto the counter. Spreading your legs so that he could stand between them. Your dress inching up your thighs. Cold marble helping cool the sensation at your core. Hungry lips ventured down your neck, kissing along your collar as he kneeled before you. Knees pressed into the shag rug on the hard floor. Tucking his face under your dress and gawking at your soaked panties.

“Fucking slut, aren’t you? I’ve barely even had my hands on you,” Jesse reprimanded, his way of dirty talking. You nodded, chills decorating your limbs when his hot breath fanned against your core. Thick digits spread fondly across your bare thighs. Massaging the meat, pushing your dress up so that he could look at you. Eyes dark with lust fluttered up at you.

Tenderly, he peeled your panties from your core. Exposing the place you needed him most. Jesse chuckled in satisfaction, pressing himself into you. Mustache tickling your throbbing clit as his tongue swiped along your slit. Your head fell back against the mirror, moaning his name.

“Goddammit, you always taste so good,” Jesse grunted feeling his cock harden under his dress pants. One of his thick fingers curled into your hole, causing your hips to rut forward. Whining as you laced your fingers in his curly locks. You would definitely have to fix his hair now.

Jesse’s finger prodded at the soft spot that had you closing in on a quick orgasm. With how his mouth sucked on your clit, and the overstimulation of his new lip broom you were sweating. Never realizing it could make such a difference in your experience. In love with the way it rubbed you perfectly.

Your hips rocked against his face. Chasing your orgasm at a rapid rate. He perfectly curled and pumped his finger inside you. Cold metal of his rings sending goose bumps down your skin. You cursed under your breath each time his tongue would circle your nub. Lapping into you, knowing your body. Knowing how close you were to gushing along his face. From the sound of the air tightening in your throat and how you had your head thrown back. Swallowing hard with forced shut eyes.

You looked so beautiful like this. Jesse always thought you did. Unable to pry his eyes off you anytime he would make you finish. Whether he be above or below you. Loving how soft you got, compared to your usual combative nature with him. Always making sure to seem like you were childhood ‘friends’ instead of fuck buddies. If you could even call yourself friends. Just being one of his younger brother’s stupid friends who always seemed to hang around. If he had known you were this good of a fuck, things would have been different. Not allowing you to slip through his fingers. Not having to settle for just this. As good as it was, he wanted you.

Those thoughts only angered him. Which was why he talked down to you during sex. Unable to stand the way his chest fluttered when you would smile at him. Or when your big eyes would doe up at him. How softly his name rolled off your tongue.

Like it did right now. Even while you were cumming on his tongue, his name was like heaven from you. Repeating it like a prayer over and over. Nails scratching his skin as you held onto him for support. Waves of ecstasy had you shivering. Thighs spasming as he continued sucking and fucking your hole. Ignoring the way his cock throbbed almost painfully.

Standing and smashing his lips into yours. Taste of yourself strong along his lip. Mustache glistening with each bit of arousal he had collected. Trying so hard to catch your breath with his mouth on yours. Chest thumping heavily as you gasped. Thin line of sweat forming along your brow.

“Pretty girl,” he complimented. Hands quickly freeing his throbbing member from its confines. Smacking upward, pubic hairs dancing along the base. Tip leaking and swollen, needing you. Feeling yourself drooling at the sight. Inviting him back between your legs. Sheathing himself into your welcoming entry.

Moaning in tandem. Pressing your mouths back together to hide any louder sounds escaping. Jesse allowed you to adjust before finding a fast rhythm. Hips snapping up into you. Pussy still sensitive from your previous orgasm. Voice cracking as you tried to say his name.

Skin smacking deliciously together filled the room. You gripped his girth perfectly. Jesse only having one other to compare you to, having a personal preference for you. Liking how you clinged to and praised him. No matter how far back he pulled, you were always happy to bring him back. A pleasant reminder of your relationship.

Jesse tucked his face into your neck, one hand firmly on your hip the other wrapped around your waist. Gutturally moaning into your skin as he approached his finish. Kissing your clavicle as he repeated your name. “I’m gonna cum, Y/N. Can you take it, baby? Let me fill you up real good,” Jesse breathlessly begged.

You nodded profusely. Arms draped over his neck as he repositioned to be pressing foreheads together. Noses resting on the others tip. Eyes awkwardly staring from this angle.

“Gonna be sitting through church with a reminder. Won’t let you forget how good I fuck you. My fucking cock sleeve,” Jesse heaved with his words.

“Yes, Jesse— please—“ you begged, feeling yourself approaching a secondary release. Knot tightly wound up. Overwhelmed with how full of him you were. Cock stretching the walls inside you so pleasurably. Convulsing along his member.

Coaxing him to his own finish. Thrusted and holding himself flush against you. Jerking with his rope of cum that shot inside you. Savoring the way your cunt milked each drop of his seed. Panting as you both rode out your finishes together. Your chin resting against his shoulder with your weight slumped into him. Heartbeat pulsing along your skin as you rested your eyes for a moment. Loving the musky smell of sex. Mixing perfectly with his expensive cologne.

Silently, you held each other. Nothing but heavy breathing being exchanged. Jesse’s hands spread along your back, looking at himself in the mirror. How perfectly your body fit against his chest. Analyzing the zipper on the back of your dress. Loving this color on you. Pulling back to kiss your lips again.

“Let me fix your hair,” you giggled. Hopping off the countertop. Instructing him to sit. Rummaging through one of the drawers finding his curling brush. Making sure his halfway pompadour would keep every bit of volume it had. Running it through his disheveled hair. All your doing.

Jesse pressed himself forward, planting a tender kiss on your hand. Trying his hardest to get a smile from you as you attempted to hide what had happened. Fluffing his locks with blushed cheeks. Jesse’s hand rested on your hip, absentmindedly thumbing circles into the flesh. Eyes admiring your face as you concentrated on his hair.

“I’ll have to clean off your,” you put a finger across your top lip, “little friend too.”

Jesse smiled. Cheeks bulbing at your joke. Having a million things he wanted to say, opting for silence. Watching you walk over to the sink and wet a towel. Coming back to dab the soapy cloth along his lip. Stretching his mouth down so you did not accidentally get any in his mouth. Lovingly, you combed through the hairs on his upper lip. Restoring him to his former glory.

“Voila!” you held your arms up at your sides, “All ready for the big screen now, stud.” Earning yourself a smile from him. Quick to stand and press his lips to yours again, hands cupping the sides of your face. Your own hand joining one of his, leaning into his touch with a smile. Enjoying the moment of intimacy. Knowing it was fleeting.

“Are you coming to service?”

“Do I have a choice?”

“Fuck no!”

“Then it’s settled,” you shrugged. Laughing at his dramatic and over the top nature. Watching him check himself out in the mirror one more time. Blowing himself a kiss, just in the hopes of hearing your switch laughter once more. One of his favorite parts of you.

“There’s a trip coming up. And I’ll need my personal stylist with me,” Jesse said off-handed trying his hardest to not sound desperate.

“Of course, Mr. Gemstone,” you teased, swiping off his shoulders. Looking at his eyes in the mirror. His hand coming up to hold yours against his shoulder. Imagining a life where he did not have to hide you. One where you could have been the mother to all three of his boys. Where you shared a bed every night. One where he did not have to cheat on his wife…

But that’s not how things worked out.

And he was happy to have you anyway he could.

~~~

[END]

// Thank you so much for reading! I still cannot believe this is going to be the final season of the Righteous Gemstones, I’m so heartbroken. I am so happy to still be receiving requests for Jesse, seems like the girlies are in his court this time around. As always, Comments and Reblogs are appreciated. If you want to be tagged, or have a request feel free to message me! I love hearing from you guys <3 //

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[luveline]

hiii!! i saw that you wanted some roan & eddie & reader requests sooo,, becuase barbie is trending so muchh i was wondering if you could write reader watching roan play with her barbies and instantly taken back to her childhood and getting very emotional ??

i mean its whats happening to me being reminded how much ive grown and how much effect those dolls had on me soo yeah 😭

tysm ♡ eddie and roan

A long, creaking squeal sounds from Roan when you come home. Eddie plugs his ears, knowing exactly what it is you have in the huge plastic bag at your waist —Roan's special treats, as previously discussed, for being such a lovely girl lately. 

It might be a silly thing to treat her for, but she deserves toys before any amazing behaviour, and you have the extra money to buy them. Why shouldn't she get them? You and Eddie chatted some while you were at work that morning, trying to choose what toys to get. 

"I haven't bought her toys by myself since we first met, what if I pick something crappy?" you'd worried. 

Eddie gave it a little bit of thought, hand twined in the curling wire of the telephone, slouched as he usually does against the back wall of the shop. "Hey, she hasn't had any new dolls since Christmas. They'd go over nicely. Or she always likes a new dress. I'm sure you'll find something when you're there. You can get me something fun at the same time if you want." 

You'd laughed at his joke and, if the light in your eyes now is anything to go off of, managed to find some presents you're happy with.

"Naddy's Toy Emporium!?" Roan shouts, rocketing off of the couch where she'd been standing waiting for you. 

You've a nightly routine, hugging her when you come home like your life depends on it, but clearly Roan has decided the hug can wait. For once, Eddie's finished dinner before you're return, so he has a good seat on the couch to watch everything unfold. 

You let her grab the bag's sides but lift it a touch when she tries to take it. "Hey, they're for you, I promise, but let's come inside and put them on the table!" 

Roan squeals and knocks into Eddie's knees. He sits up and grabs her gently by the waist, hoisting her onto his lap. You sit on the couch cushion trampled flat by Roan's feet, pulling the play table where she likes to eat her snacks closer. 

"Are you doing the speech?" you ask Eddie, putting down the bag. 

He grins. "Ro," he begins, turning skewiff, her back to the couch to allow you both a great view of her face, "you've been a really good girl, lately. Do you know that? You've been eating all your dinner, no tantrums before school, and now you're even starting to help clean up around the house. So me and Y/N just want you to know how proud we are and how awesome we think you are." 

"And we think all this awesome deserves some presents because we love you," you say. "Do you want the smallest or the biggest one first?" 

There's lots of nice presents. You've stayed within the confines of the agreed budget, which is a feat for you (as you love to spoil her). There's five new barbies, one of which comes with a car, and the other a puppy dog. They have clothes, accessories, and an abundance of plastic he needs to cut away with scissors. His hand is welted red by the time he's through. 

You also bought her a glittery lip gloss to replace the one she lost a few weeks ago. The proof of it sparkles on your cheek and Eddie's, twin thank yous. 

You go quiet as Roan retreats to her satin princess tent, driving the pink corvette back and forth as she makes the barbies talk to one another. 

"You okay?" he asks. You'd been wearing this huge smile for the last twenty minutes and now it's gone, he hates it. "I've been thinking maybe you deserve something nice, too." 

You smile weakly. Okay, so you're not wanting anything. 

"Dinner should be ready soon." 

"Thanks, Eddie." 

He gives up. He's about as subtle as a feather boa and you love him that way, drifting down toward your arm, his face smashing into your shoulder. "What's wrong?" 

You put your head atop his. "Well, I'm just thinking." 

"I may not look like it, but I think too, occasionally. Share with me." 

You push his arm until he sits up and sinks down into his side instead. Eddie supposes you're allowed, even if usually he'd call it sexist or selfish. "I had a lot of fun picking those out today, and I kept thinking about the look on her face…"

Eddie hums to show he's listening. Kisses the top of your head 'cos he can. "Yeah?" 

"I just remembered being her age. Do you remember wanting something really badly? There was something so nice about getting to grab a kart and– and to just stand there debating which ones to get." 

Eddie toys with your pinky finger. "That's not everything, is it?" 

Your smile presses against his arm, a deep emotion in your voice that's hard to pin. "Watching her makes me remember. Being a kid, playing make believe. I'll never be that young ever again, and there's no way to go back. But I," —you take in a steadying breath— "don't mind. I love seeing her so happy." 

He intertwines your fingers between his, shorter and a little bit softer than his. He soaks in your presence for a moment, the smell of you, your tiny sounds, the secret you've shared with him. You're a mixture of sad and happy. He's not sure which one overpowers which, only that they're hitting you hard. 

"There's lots of cool shit that comes with being a parent. You know the best one?" he asks you, raising his eyebrows at you with a fondness lining his lips. 

"No?" 

"You can play games without anyone judging you. I know it's not the same as being a kid again, but it's close." 

"Yeah?" you ask, sitting up. "You'll come play too, right?" 

Eddie casts his gaze to his daughter where she chit chats on the floor. "Hey, Roanie? Can we come play with you?" 

Roan is almost as pleased as when she first laid eyes on her treasure trove of dolls. 

[luvo27]

there are three kinds of redwoods and *checks list* a whole bunch of robins, which robins go to which trees?

anon, if you wanted my hand in marriage, you should have just said so. Let's assign each main continuity robin a redwood species based on vibes and life history traits!!!!

Dick Grayson: Giant Sequoia (Sequoiadendron giganteum)

giant sequoia has serotinous cones! serotiny being the term for cones that require fire in order to release their seeds, giant sequoia produce cones containing around a couple hundred seeds per cone and over A THOUSAND cones per tree!!! these cones can remain green and closed for up to 20 years without fire to dry them out, allowing them to release their seeds!! Fire serves another purpose, namely getting rid of competing species. Giant Sequoia is extremely shade intolerant, so if there are a lot of other trees providing shade, they're not going to do great. However, while fire has its benefits, too strong wildfires can spread into the tree crowns and incinerate both foliage and cones, killing the tree and preventing restoration.

Dick reads as giant sequoia for its shade intolerance and his tendency towards performance!! he doesn't know what to do with himself when he's not in a spotlight. Additionally, his tendency towards risk is found in the giant sequoia relationship with fire: the benefits of fire are more significant to the giant sequoia than its negatives, and it has several adaptations such as thick bark near its base and a tendency for foliage to grow far, far off the ground that make it fire resistant!! Lack of fire actually tends to be more harmful for giant sequoia than not. that being said, a risk is still a risk, and while Dick thrives in vigilantism, it has definitely had its drawbacks.

Jason Todd: Dawn Redwood (Metasequoia glyptostroboides)

this is where i confess that most of my research has been into giant sequoia so far, and a little bit into coast redwoods, and ive really only glanced over stuff about dawn sequoia because there's enough information to write a 180 page paper solely on giant sequoia reproductive ecology and. well! like. so all this research is purely for hobby purposes so.

so i chose Dawn Redwood for Jason because of its history: dawn redwood is fun because it's a fossil species, like the coelacanth!! It was first discovered through fossils before living specimens in china were identified as those same trees, around world war 2. dawn redwood is classified as an endangered species, but is grown in a lot of places, especially as a decoration!!!

I'm sure you can see where I'm going with this one. Jason, who spent a significant amount of time haunting the narrative before being discovered to be alive and the dawn redwood who occurred in fossil records before being identified alive? I like it :DDD

Tim Drake: Giant Sequoia (Sequoiadendron giganteum)

first, he's giant sequoia because that's what dick grayson is and he wants to be like dick grayson.

second, let's talk more about giant sequoia seed production because that's what i know about and so that's what i'm basing a lot of this on, okay? So, giant sequoia trees produce over a thousand (~1500 average) cones per tree, with ~200 seeds each, so a mature sequoia will produce ~300,000 seeds, and those 300,000 seed will be released when heat from a fire at the base of a tree dries that cone and allows it to open. Most of those seeds will die within the first two years. ~98.6% of them, actually.

This is about Tim's relationship with Robin to me!! First, he becomes Robin as the result of tragedy, with the deaths of Jason and then his mother, as the 300,000 seeds are released after a fire. 300,000 seeds released with the hope for germination, growth, and possibly becoming one of those great and wonderful trees, Tim is initially hopeful for what he will be able to do, so many people around him die, over and over and over again

oh and this is also another point for giant sequoia as the dick grayson species as well!!

Stephanie Brown: Coast Redwood (Sequoia sempervirens)

ok s the fic in question that im doing all this research for is a stephanie brown centric fic and so i have actually been thinking about all of these trees in relation to her already and she is all of them because she is my special girl. HOWEVER she is coast redwood!!!

so, coast redwood, while being fire resistant is not serotinous like the giant sequoia!! it typically grows taller than giant sequoia do as well: the tallest known tree in the world is a coast redwood named Hyperion!!! Coast Redwoods are prized for their lumber: it's spectacularly decay resistant!! also unlike the giant sequoia, coast redwood are very shade tolerant. Additionally, while they do produce seed bearing cones, coast redwoods can reproduce through sprouting, sending shoots up from cut and/or felled stumps. Disruption that kills shoots often ends up with more shoots being sent up than before.

Coast Redwood I chose for Stephanie because of their shared resilience. Stephanie is disrespected and overshadowed, she endures hardship, but she endures, thrives, grows tall, becomes Batgirl, and makes the mantle her own. Like the heartwood of this species, stephanie's heart too is decay resistant

Damian Wayne: Dawn Redwood (Metasequoia glyptostroboides)

For similar reasons as Jason: took a while longer than the others before it was discovered, BUT let's get a little more into the history! I mentioned that it's considered an endangered species but is grown in a wide variety of places for decoration. When live specimens were identified, seeds were collected and sent internationally to the US and Europe where they were able to be grown and studied. For Damian, I chose the Dawn Redwood because he too, was transplanted across countries. Also, it's significantly shorter than the other redwoods (giant sequoia and coast redwood can get ~300-400 feet tall, while dawn redwood grows to around 150 feet) and he's the youngest!!!

Duke Thomas: Coast Redwood (Sequoia sempervirens)

Like Stephanie, coast redwood has been chosen for Duke because of shared resilience!!! Additionally. And this I found out as I was double checking something as I was making this post. So, one feature of coast redwoods is that sometimes they form basal cavities. There's a pretty famous redwood attraction known as Shrine Tree, which you might already know: it's the one that you can drive your car through. That hole is what's known as a basal cavity, where when a coast redwood is damaged (usually from lightning/fire) the wood can rot through. While there are other redwood tree attractions you can drive a car through, shrine tree is the only one naturally formed. The thing about basal cavities. is that. they make a great home for bats. yeah. so. i know what im going to be looking into later. But I bring this up because!! since these coast redwoods are able to provide a home for bats as a result of hardship, it speaks to duke's community building tendencies for me!! his parents were jokerized, he has to endure hardship, he endures and thrives and builds and directs his community as a direct effect of that hardship!!! Like the shelter the basal cavity provides after disaster, Duke finds friendship and community through his struggles.

[rontra]

your failteacher comic is so cool…. i can’t stop thinking about how masterfully textured your characterizations are, and while i had no context for the games (aside from, well, the Adult Women In Persona Curse lmao) being an ffxiv player made those gags really fun to read too ^_^

the best part of everything is that i genuinely want to try making comics about my own yuri rarepairs now… i was wondering if you’d ever be open to talking about your process when tackling these comics wrt the writing process and layout? you have such a strong understanding of panel composition that ive found myself admiring even small technical things things like your text and panel spacing. thank you so much for sharing your work!!

AUUYFDH THAJNK YOU .... this is so sweet 😭 i'm really glad you're enjoying it so much!!

if you're insane like me (been in pain like me) i totally recommend trying to make your own comics . its a very fun medium to work in!! comics have their own toolkit and language that i think is really strong and fun to play with. if you have specific questions for me about it i don't mind, but i will say that i'm kind of like ... yknow

FTyuri is drawn really loosely. i make a lot of "mistakes" (or at the very least, sub-optimal choices) in my paneling/layouts because i don't really have a plan for each page (LOL). i'm "self-taught" in the sense of "guy who reads a lot of comics and has internalized a lot of things as a result", so sometimes i do things based on intuition and vibe more than anything (and sometimes that does not work out super well!)

i guess what i'm saying is i'm a hobbyist who just kinda does whatever feels good, so my advice won't be particularly Scholarly AHJBHF but i love comics (reading AND making) a lot, so i don't mind if you're wondering about specific things i've done or how i approach them

i think... most importantly, you know, a comic is kind of a huge undertaking. it's A Lot of drawing. but it's also very fun. so pace yourself and choose a project with a length you think is manageable, but do try it! 😤😤

the second thing is... a comic is not just a collection of pictures, right? it's important to guide the reader through each page in the correct order, while also controlling the pace and flow of the story. you place speech bubbles or eyecatching elements where you want the reader's eye to go, and use things like the size and placement of panels and the gutters between them to slow down or speed up time. i have done some FUCKED UP text box placements in FTyuri that are totally wrong and it makes me crazy whenever i see them in hindsight but THATS OKAYYYY

'cause the third thing is you're always learning new things. even if you make a not-so-great layout or even if you never actually finish the comic, you're still learning stuff that will go into your next comic. and so on...

now, here's the "maybe don't actually do what i do" part AJHREDHB

i actually don't really plan anything at all. sometimes i have a specific idea for a page layout and have it in my mind beforehand, but most of the time i just pull up a canvas and start adding panels to it willy-nilly. i also don't write anything down in advance. at most i have a loose "i want to someday draw a scene where X happens" in my mind, but all the layout and dialogue happens when i get there

YOU SHOULD PROBABLY WRITE DOWN AT LEAST A ROUGH SCRIPT/OUTLINE. AND DO SOME THUMBNAILS FOR YUOUR PAGES. ESPECIALLY IF YOURE JUST STARTING OUT

edit: check the replies for a cool link about planning out a comic!!!

planning out the scope of your project is important! i'm just not that kind of girl 😭 and that does result in a lot of mistakes! but the alternative is that i never get around to actually making anythign at all, which is worse to me

for me, that stuff slows me down and drains all my energy before i even start. but this approach uh. does not work for everyone and its probably best to start with a more planned-out approach 😂 though, if you do try to pre-plan and find it makes your brain explode like mine does, you can try just drawing it and seeing what happens. bc like. hey. it works for me . i dunno

but yeah like i said if you have a specific topic/question i don't mind answering that more specifically!!! comics is a very broad subject so it's hard to know what to say about it just like Generally hahaha. thank you so much <3

[sineala]

Are there ANY stony/Star Trek AUs?

Okay. Um. I'm just going to assume this is a legitimate question and not actually a way to express frustration about my progress on the sequel I am writing (I stared at this ask for a while), so I will just conclude that you must have missed the Steve/Tony Star Trek AU I wrote, um, back in 2016:

Straight on till Morning (109848 words) by Sineala Chapters: 6/6 Fandom: Marvel (Comics), Marvel 616, Avengers (Comics) Rating: Explicit  Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply  Relationships: Steve Rogers/Tony Stark  Characters: Steve Rogers, Tony Stark, Carol Danvers, Janet Van Dyne, Hank Pym, Wanda Maximoff, Pietro Maximoff, James "Rhodey" Rhodes, Clint Barton, Donald Blake (Marvel), Jocasta (Marvel)  Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Star Trek Fusion, Action/Adventure, Romance, Hurt/Comfort, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Pining, Angst, Secret Identity, Identity Porn, Sex Pollen, Fuck Or Die, Caves, Sex In A Cave, Technobabble, Happy Ending, Cap_Ironman Big Bang 2016, Community: cap_ironman, Podfic Available  Summary: 

Tony Stark resigned his commission in Starfleet five years ago, after a disastrous away mission, and he swore he'd never go back. He just wants to be left alone to build warp engines in peace. But the universe has more in store for him than that, as he discovers when Admiral Fury comes to him with an offer he could never have expected and cannot possibly refuse: first officer and chief engineer aboard the all-new USS Avenger, a starship of Tony's own design. What's more, the Avenger's captain is Steve Rogers, hero of the Earth-Romulan War. Believed dead for over a century, Steve is miraculously alive... and very, very attractive. 

But nothing is ever easy for Tony. As he wrestles with his secret desire for his new captain and his not-so-dormant fears, another mission starts to go wrong, and Tony becomes aware that Steve has secrets of his own -- and the truth could change everything.

So, yeah, if you actually haven't read that one, that'll keep you busy for a while. It's a Trek fusion with comics Steve/Tony, set in the era of the later TOS movies. (This is important so that you can picture the correct uniforms, and also because it actually matters that the events of Star Trek II, III, and IV have happened.) It was a Big Bang fic, so it's got some great art by Ran and Phoenix -- embedded in the story -- and also M_Samro made a really amazing podfic of it, if you like podfics.

For a charity auction in 2017, I promised I would write a sequel, and I plotted the whole thing out and started writing this extremely epic sequel, which was unfortunately, about a plague threatening the galaxy, and I got about 120,000 words in and then 2020 happened and I decided I needed to not be writing it right now. So it went on an extended hiatus.

But the good news is that I've actually gotten back to it! I picked it up again last month and I've put 40,000 more words in it since then and at this exact moment I am currently working on the last scene of Chapter 4 (out of six total)! I swear it is happening! I've been putting in about a thousand words a day for the past month! It is really happening this time! The sequel is coming! I promise! I know it has been years but it's happening!

See? It's happening! (I would include a screencap of the part that is happening, but all of Chapter 4 is pretty spoilery.)

So that will exist! Someday! I mean that!

And if you're asking about Steve/Tony Star Trek AUs by people other than me, there are some! If you filter the AU - Star Trek Fusion tag by Steve/Tony, there are 25 matches. Several of them are related to my fic (remixes, art) but there is some stuff that isn't my fault! I haven't read a lot of them because I was trying not to read things that seemed like they might be similar to mine while I was plotting my series here, and also I have never finished watching DS9, so I skipped the DS9 ones.

Under Stars by vulcanscully: A fun fusion that I thought was interesting because Steve is an ensign and that's not how this usually goes.

Discovery of the Century by DepressingGreenie: More 616 in flavor than a lot of the Trek AUs, this is basically Finding Steve In The Ice but Make It Star Trek. As far as I am concerned, Finding Steve In The Ice is great every time.

and so we rebuild by raeldaza: I'm probably biased because this one was inspired by my fic, but I also really enjoyed this one for not being how these things usually go. A lot of Trek AUs in many fandoms are written through a TOS/AOS kind of lens and will often do a Kirk/Spock thing and make one of them a Vulcan or half-Vulcan. In this one that's Tony, but also he's a terrible Vulcan! He's found a new way to disappoint his father!

Stellar Love Affairs by AvengersNewB: I honestly had never imagined a Star Trek fusion that was also A/B/O but I think it really works here! It's like bringing pon farr full circle.

Xenophilia by Captain_Panda: Captain_Panda has several Trek AUs but I am reccing this one because it's the longest. And also the whumpiest. Everyone loves some good away-mission whump!

So there you go! Live long and prosper! I promise I am still writing this Star Trek AU sequel!

[ar1mas]

- a rant

no because ive watched this stupid show 5 years ago, and i only noticed this now?? how???

ok. some context first. this is about fox' gotham, a prequel series to batman. or at least a potential one with slight changes. one of those changes is the relationship between oswald cobblepot and edward nygma (spelled with a 'y' for mayhap legal reasons? idfk its silly). whats their relationship like in the show? well...

theyre gay af. idk what to tell you.

okay so oswalds gay as fuck. edwards... ambiguous. totally ambiguous. he had a girlfriend or 2 and a half (kristen kringle, the-woman-who-shall-not-be-named (aka kristen but... blonde? this show is weird), and lee. not comfy counting lee, but technically shes one, hence the 'and a half')! very straight, much hetero (on another side note how tf is oswald the gay one, like i know he wears make-up and shit but eddies all about theatrics and showmanship and flair and hOW IS OSWALD THE GAY ONE NEXT TO HIM?? ok anyway).

so oswald was (is. be real.) canonically in love with ed, ed was.........., and 'penguin in love' is a piece of music composed by david russo for season three in which the whole "im in love with my best friend" thing took place.

that song has been used all over season three, as far as i can tell not once in season four, and once in season five.

.....or so i thought.

because yesterday, while in another obsession phase (of which i get one a few times a year. ive only ever watched the show once, in 2019, when it ended. still dream about nygmobblepot though. i dont dream about media, like ever, but with them, its different), i saw 5x8 to satiate my never satisfied craving of nygmob scenes, obviously skipping the main story bc i dont care about that straight shit. i got to the scene where oswald kills mr. scarface and frees arthur penn from said mr. scarface, after which ed shoots him in the head because thats what one does in such a situation, thought "aw how cute", again, as one does, and then realised.

what was that background music just now? rewinds.... oh. oh haha, its 'penguin in love'. how fun.

WHAT.

WHY IS THAT IN THERE. WHY DID THEY INCLUDE IT.

correction. it wouldve made sense to have it here. they used it in 5x5 for the speech about not backstabbing each other (wedding vows for murderers fr fr), so using it again after their relationship has solidified wouldve made sense.

note how im saying 'would have'.

because it would have made sense, if they used it when ed said "i accept you for the person that you are, just as you accept me for the cold logician that i am. thats why this friendship is great." they didnt, though. they used another equally heartfelt song for that. dunno what its called, it sounds a bit like 'penguin in love' but isnt, not sure if that one has a specific meaning like 'penguin in love' does.

so when was the song used? at 36:08 – 36:17. barely ten seconds, right before eds lines, right before ed kills penn.

...right when penn was sitting in oswalds lap because theyd been fighting for the gun and os fell on the ground.

now. the most obvious answer to "why in the fucking hell" would be because ooh this dudes on his lap so sexy, but no. no. 'penguin in love' is about one specific thing: love. the pure kind. the kind that makes you giddy with butterflies in your stomach, kicking your legs, while youre on your bed, writing in your diary about this guy you have a crush on. and oswald and penn do have history, oswald was more or less fond of penn, but not in love (i mean where would he have found the room in his heart if it was already filled with EDWARD EDWARD EDWARD martin my sweet boy EDWARD EDWARD EDWA-). im also definitely not thinking that penn was so happy about being free from mr. scarfaces influence and not having to kill oswald (oh yeah, the horror. who would wanna kill oswald, the guy with the big ego, who never does anything for anyone without some kind of endgoal- well, unless your name is edward of course) that he instantly fell in love with the guy. i can deal with the homicidal kind of crazy, but that? no. thats where i draw the line.

the next most obvious answer is that it was about oswalds love for ed. more believable, since its what the song was made for, but more believable doesnt mean believable. or likely. because even if i 100% believe that hes been loving this dude for so long its not something he has to think about anymore for it to be true, im pretty sure that itd be very random to suddenly focus on that when oswald was just about to die. so no, even if its what the song is intrinsically about.

so next most obvious answer is- wait. thats it. huh? theres no obvious answer anymore? everything else is brainrot? oh. oh well. its been five years, im sure its too late to worry about it now. what the hell.

im sure you know where im going with this. or maybe not. honestly idk what the fuck im talking about-

youre smart. you know what im about to say. if it wasnt about what oswald was feeling because he was otherwise preoccupied, and it wasnt about penn because that makes no fucking sense, then who was this song used for? who else was in the room?

...oh.

YOU.

YOU FUCKING IMBECILE. YOU STUPID DENSE PIECE OF-

inhale, exhale. no. don’ get mad, you know he cant help it. you know hes totally helpless when it comes to emotions. just breathe. ok.

i hate him. i hate him so much.

if the song wasnt for oswalds sake, it was for his. because i know hes in love with oswald, but does ed? does the producers??

'penguin in love' is about oswalds love. its about his love for edward. its about their love, their relationship. its about edward just as much as it is about oswald.

a-fucking-PPARANTLY, I DIDNT KNOW THAT!! I JUST THOUGHT OH YEAH OZZY BE THE GAY ONE HAHA FUNNY, I DIDNT KNOW IT COULD BE ABOUT ED DIRECTLY!!!

(why am i like this? what is my life? i will never be normal.)

ed has always been the obsessive one. first kristen (and the woman who shall not be named is just an extention of that ofc), then oswald, then lee. and as weve seen with kristen, when hes obsessed with someone, he can become possessive. absolutely not on the scale oswald is on, but still. theres a wee bit of jelly there. oh you have a boyfriend? better get rid of him! oh you wanna run away from me bc i murdered your boyfriend? better keep you right in place and- oh shit did i kill you? ono D:

this is a huge oversimplification, but you get the point. its there. or at least it has to be there because why else do you get so angy that someone is sitting in the lap of your just friend because they were fighting and they ended up in that position totally accidentally? like thats not normal behaviour, for anyone, unless you have possessive tendencies.

i mean its not like penn was a threat in any way. "he wasnt the threat, the dummy was the-" like i understand ed told penn about the submarine which was supposed to be a secret, but come on, like they couldnt make sure penn wouldnt say anything. so why would ed shoot him? its not even like penn was a random dude where that type of thing would be very inconsequential, oswald knew him. hed worked for oswald, and like i said, oswald was more or less fond of the guy. penns just a poor little meow meow, y u kil him eddie? 🥺

unless this fondness was part of the problem. unless ed saw how happy oswald was to see him, got annoyed but let it slide, then used penn attacking os and knowing about the sub as an excuse to kill him. and why would oswald being happy to see penn be a problem to ed? it wouldnt be. it wouldnt be, unless ed thinks oswald is his.

which makes sense. i know im calling him names and calling him out, but like. oswald told him he loved him like 5 times 2 years prior, i dont blame him for believing that maybe theres something to it (especially since that was the point of 3x14, oswald really being in love with him and surprising himself with it). but i thought ed didnt feel the same way? because hes very hetero? because he had a full-on girlfriend before, twice, technically? because-

"the truth is oswald, you would sacrifice anyone to save your own neck. even me."

"like i said! you will always fail, because youll never change."

hm. i know this is a bit off topic, but i just got a war-flashback and... why did ed sound so hurt when he said that? "youll never change." "you would sacrifice anyone. even me." why does he care? they were friends, best friends, yes, but why does he sound like a heartbroken wife who just found out her husband cheated on her again? why does-

"honestly you deserve this. you are opportunistic, your loyalty is.. shaking, at best, and you will hurt anyone, anyone, to get what you want."

"and yes, i was not a good friend. to you or anyone. its why im alone. but i saw you for what you are and i valued that!"

...why would edward nygma, the man who literally said "i dont love you" to oswald, be jealous of even the idea that maybe penn could have something going on with oswald? and why would he act on it if hes usually so careful to not reveal his feelings (unless its about kristen. the original obsession, the american dream, the just be normal, show them you are normal, and people will accept you)? he wouldnt.

unless oswald just told him that he knows he messed up. that hes sorry for it.

and unless that made him think that maybe theres a chance.

"love is about sacrifice. its about putting someone elses needs and happiness before your own."

"you gave up your revenge for me?"

a chance... for what?

"life begins anew."

"shall we get to work?"

and if theres a chance, hes not about to risk losing it. not this time.

so maybe 'penguin in love' is about more than just oswalds feelings. maybe they were trying to tell us that, yes, we see you traumatised gay kid, were sorry this is all we can give you, but here you go, eds in love with him too, but don’t tell the channel. subtlely. just for barely ten seconds. and maybe it can be enough.

nope, it wont be. im gonna sit here crying about the injustice of not having them kiss on screen in the finale as was originally intended for the rest of my life. seriously though, what is this, nbc's hannibal, where im noticing something new details every single time i watch the show, causing me to spiral? no, i was already spiralling. the spiralling was the reason i rewatched the scene. the scene simply made it worse.

so yeah, im done freaking out about a mediocre show that was cancelled 5 years ago and is honestly not worth anyones time (like, its ok. it might even be better than i remember since its been so long. i doubt it. but its ok).

tl;dr: ive only now realised that a specific gay song plays in a specific episode of a show i watched 5 years ago and the only reason theyd include it in the episode is if the dude that was not canonically in love with the other dude was in fact gay, they just werent allowed to make it canon, so they added the gay song to subtlely tell us about it.

have a wonderful day, hellsite. dont do what i did and go crazy about fictional gay people. i know you will though, that’s why im here too. i hate gay people. these two make me homophobic so bad, i wanna gauge my eyes out and skin myself-

[broadacre]

Almost done with our Machete-order rewatch of Star Wars (Andor, Rogue One, IV, V, I, II, III, VI). This time, my sister and I watched the prequel trilogy.

Now, I'm not gonna say they are suddenly great movies (I concede they have great and fun moments, and sometimes the cinematography is really good), but they are better now, and watching them as a whole, they tell an interesting story, basically, of how a dictatorship came to be legally.

I don't know if it's because I'm an adult now, or because of Andor's excellent writing, but this time I could finally understand the political side of these movies. And it's all so stupid, "trivial" as Qui-Gon said just in the first minutes of Episode I. Now it seems very obvious how every character is a pawn in Palpatine's plan, and the worse thing is he's ready for any outcome. Like the final battle in Naboo, it's meaningless because, while the good guys are fighting, Palpatine is being made the Supreme Cancellor of the Republic, the most (politically) powerful person in the galaxy.

Then, Episode II shows him managing the conflict from all sides. He leads the Separatists, (apparently, though Dooku) he commissions a clone army for the Jedi, he sets up Anakin and Padmé's lovely holiday, and he openly says someone should tell the Senate to grant him "emergency powers" in order start a war, which he gets thanks to Jar Jar Binks, of all people.

And finally, Episode III is the culmination of his plan. He has (or he is) the Senate, has his own army, and every system in the galaxy is under his rule. His last obstacle is the Jedi Order, that, although they work as space cops for the Republic, in the end, they are also space monks, so they represent an ideal of goodness. But fortunately for Sheev, he met Anakin and has been grooming him since two movies ago to become his next Sith apprentice. Although, I think Anakin was a gamble for Palpatine, his last resort. The arrest of Palpatine could have gone differently, with Mace Windu killing Sidious, or Anakin helping Windu, or Sidious escaping but revealing his true self. Anakin had the choice in a pivotal moment in the story, he was the 'chosen' one after all.

As a teen, I couldn't understand how Anakin turned to the dark side, I thought it happened very easily. Now, I noticed Palpatine's intervention from the beginning, tapping into Anakin's traumas and frustration, but I also noticed that it wouldn't have been possible without the Republic's neglect of planets like Tatooine. It's a not-subtle parallel with any government that forgets about a distant region of its country (too many irl examples), turning a blind eye for it to be run by mobsters, like the Hutts in Tatooine. Or the global north not giving a shit about us in the southern hemisphere. Like Andor's homeworld, Kenari (space Amazon forest) being ravaged in a mining disaster, not under the Galactic Empire, but by the Republic. Yeah, Andor was too real.

Anyway, one movie to go.

[kozykricket]

okay. i know i said that my only real critiques or low points of deltarune ch3+ch4 was castle town lacking, and. yeah i think thats true. but i will also say. lukewarm take: ch3 was awkwardly paced. but i wanna chat about parts of it that i feel like arent brought up. so. critique time i guess? rambling?

okay, ive said this a lot to friends, but i really thought "oh my god darkners are actually NOT REAL theyre OBJECTS" was gonna be a much bigger point. and. yknow what? i do actually really like that instead of susie having another "right. no one would really wanna be my friend anyway. its just fake people, its just in a dream world" ... we saw her react with more confidence, take on a strong role and say "alright, but who cares? you're still real to me and i have fun with you all. who cares about the specifics" I LIKE THAT BUT ...i think it couldve maybe cooked a bit longer instead of being immediate in the chapter! another thing that i liked in ch3 regarding that, was it combining with tenna... with like "No one is gonna get thrown away, alright? Fuck what they all say. and we'll find somewhere you can feel you belong better, fulfilling your role." like. that was a genuinely really heartwarming moment and a FANTASTIC way to tie susies sad backstory to ... relating to darkners who feel worthless! BUT ...heres my big confusion with ch3: why did tenna feel so worthless? why did susie and ralsei and even all the darkners dislike tennas shows? literally the last chapter everyone was going on about how great the adventures in dark worlds are, and how... its just like, really fun. and tennas games, sure they got repetitive, but it was only 2 boards (i wish they kept the third board, then it'd actually get repetitive and there'd be reason to be like okay tenna this is actually getting boring. then he'd overreact like FUCK im so BAD at this ENTERTAINMENT i have SO LITTLE VARIETY no one LIKES WHAT I HAVE) which also now that i think of it kinda ties in nicely with his... mission from the knight to distract the lightners. hes like DAMN im TV and i cant even distract them?? what happened to me..

but idk. it just. it felt weird when the party was going "can we stop playing? can we just go seal the fountain already?" that being the main motivation to get to the end of tv world was weird to me. maybe if saving toriel had been brought up more, i'd have liked it, but like. then you've gotta quickly paint tenna as very much Evil and hes not i find it hard to exactly put into words, but i just. if you told me that the segment where everyones leaving tenna and the atmosphere gets all cold and broken... was as early into the chapter as it is, i'd be kinda shocked. like. wtf happens to make all that fallout happen. again i say, as much as susie has grown ... i'd expect her to EITHER have some resistance to the idea of darkners being "not real" or have resistance to the idea of "we have to stop playing games and go seal the fountain" but if you *got rid* of her whole "okay tenna can you fucking stop we've had enough of these games. you're old news. we dont wanna play with you anymore" then you'd also reduce the impact of her "i get it, i was thrown out a lot, too. i say fuck em."

ultimately i say like. the conclusion of ch3 really tidies everything up and i love how it all works out, how susie, tenna, ralsei, the knight, all come together. and toriel/sealing the fountain so like, its a good starting point for ch4 to hop off of. i think i'd want things to end up the same even if i could "redo" ch3. but its just the journey there that makes little sense to me. maybe the realest take is "ch3 had some weird pacing and some odd writing, as a sacrifice for ch4 to be even better. it ended on a really solid platform for ch4 to start from" that and it being a good transition from wacky stuff to serious shit but more than that, its just . yeah i really like the state of everything at the end of ch3 and start of ch4, but the way we get to there from the end of ch2 is all a bit odd to me ah, now thats out of my system and i can get back to gushing over the parts i fucking love about ch3&4 (oops, all susie interactions!)

[lexithwrites]

what bkdk fics have you read and really liked? what other mha ships do you read?

OKAY! Imma do a lil fic rec list rn because I’ve been reading BakuDeku like crazy and have some good bookmarks. Now, I still have a LOT of bookmarked stories to get through, so I'll be sure to update this if people would like me too, but here are my fav bakudeku fics/short stories I've read so far:

From The Sidelines by suffocatingspring

You know this had to be on here, its just,,,,i know people have mixed opinions (mostly the outfit choices which i do agree with are,,,,choices) but this story was beautiful. I loved katsuki's chapters so fucking much, being able to see inside his mind and how he thinks and views izuku was amazing and its just a really fun, angsty, romance filled story. its quite smutty, although i think people freak out about that a little too much on tiktok but thats coming from someone that writes petplay regularly lmao, but i really love this. its so long, its addicting, and my god its CINEMATIC. this was the first bakudeku fic i ever read too, so it really got me into the anime again as well as the ship PLUS IT HAS SO MUCH GOOD 80s MUSIC THAT IVE SAVED AND LISTEN TO DAILY NOW PLS DOWNLOAD THE PLAYLIST FOR THE FULL EXPERIANCE MY GOD

It's Okay Because its You by suffocatingspring

this is the authors only other story and it was another joy! ive never read hanahaki stories before but it was gut wrenching, ilterally, how beautiful and horrifying the fictional disease is. we see a pining, desperatley in love katsuki with such a sweet izuku. they're both silly for not admitting their feelings but we had to have the angst somewhere, it was just another joy to read!

Drop Dead, Gorgeous by thewunderkind

THIS. FIC. its got rpg, its got angst, its got miscommunication, its got childhood friends to lovers, its got the bakusquad being so into this relationship, its got BOTTOM BAKUGO, and its got police officer deku in uniform good lord guys. its so fucking funny and sweet and fluffy and just very lovely, i havent fully finished it yet but im so into the world they've created, i fucking love video games and romance bro UGHHHHHH and katsuki is a DESPERATE man in this one, also the video game lore??? its great

Save Your Tears by starless_skies

this fic has kept me up at night. its not completed yet, the author hasn't updated since june, and im truly praying to a god i dont believe in that they update one day. im so into this story, its got bumbass yo shindo in it (i love him in canon but hes a bitch here) and izuku just doing his best and THEN ONCE AGAIN YEARNING PINING BAKUGO WHOSE ALWAYS LOVED HIM BUT LET HIM GO TO WORK ON HIMSELF PLEASE i love this bakugo guys seriously, and their relationship is so beautiful and they know each other like clockwork, HOWEVER i will say there are a couple TW in this one for what id say is emotional abuse in the marriage, just a lot of mistrust and lying and MAJOR gaslighting so just bare that in mind going into it, Yo is a twat

if anyone has any fic recs for other mha ships pls send them my way! i love kiribaku, tododeku, kirirmina, momojiro, todomomo, kamijiro, and ive been eyeing up todobaku,,,,,i'll read a lot haha

[crazylittlejester]

Just read your new WarSid mini fic!!

1. Love your writing and started kicking my feet when I saw the notif you posted lmao

2. I also have family and a parent with celiac disease to the point of no cross contamination and I wanted to say thank you for the representation; read your note at the end and it’s really cool you incorporated your own experience with it

3. Serious allergies suck, I’m sorry :( I’ve got them too and it’s a whole ass game that you never got to sign up for but they throw you the ball anyways and push you on the court. At least it makes accurate rep in fics tho 😂

And 4. Thought you’d like to know my cat is currently suffocating me and pinning me to my bed (she’s actually not suffocating me she just has anxiety and I’m her therapy animal and I love her to pieces) (also this wasn’t really important or with the topic she’s just really and literally in my face right now)

Anyways thank you!!! Sorry for the long ask but had a few things I wanted to let you know!

1. hehehe im so glad you liked it :3

2. representation has always been something super important to me. my childhood best friend has celiac and for years ive just made sure i don’t eat gluten around her and usually we either cook at her place or go to the store and buy snacks together when we hang out, which is fun however the overlap in things people with celiac and people with severe nut allergies can both eat doesn’t include a whole lot of things alskdkkd. we get each other, like we understand the food anxiety, but she cant get her favorite snacks around me and so we share a little raspberry container lmao (tho we both discovered a really good protein bar that i am fuckin obsessed with so lately we’ve been getting those lmao). this mini fic was based on a thing that happened with my sister tho, who is just gluten free for other reasons. she gives me shit to taste test frequently

3. they definitely do, but i have a little allergy card now and lemme tell you its been SO great. i got it because i went out of the country and my ability to speak the native language here is. um. not phenomenal. i can have a small conversation and shit but i speak very slowly and they talk too fast for me to keep up- but the card has my allergies on it and explains it and includes examples of what im allergic to so i dont have to worry about them not understanding me. and it has a side in english too for when my stupid ass is having trouble speaking and getting the words out back home. it’s been really nice to have

4. AWWWWW SWEET BABIE

never apologize for sending long asks, i dont mind :)

[venturesofficialgf]

Hey babes I saw your post! I would love to see Carlos oliveira x transmasc reader :3 if you’re not comfortable doing that then fluff is great!! Don’t forget to drink water and take breaks!!

A/n heyheyhey!!! Yess i dont mind at all! I hope i wrote reader well! Ive never written for a trans man character so if im hoping its as accurate as I can be! It was super fun to write carlos for sure! (Carlos is so fine and sweet) I love that man hes so pretty! AnywaysI hope you enjoy! (Also tyty your so sweet!)

(I really hope this id what you meant 😭)

Warnings: transman!reader x loverboy Carlos! PinV! Cute romantic sex! Reader is on T and had top surgery!

The long game~

You and Carlos had been together for quite a few months now, everything was great! He was sweet, dotting, and loved you eternally but you felt bad. Really really bad. Why?

You hadn't had sex yet.

Most people in Carlos' position would be upset for not "getting some" but he wasnt like that. At all.

Its not like you didnt want to either, of course you did! Those slow and heavy makeouts, leaving your mouth hot and between your legs even hotter... he took his time too...his hands circling your back while calling you his "sweet boy" you couldn't get enough.

The dilemma was, you felt a little insecure of your bottom half.

Your voice was deep and the stubble that grew on your face was there, hell the 2 scars on your chest were doted on the most by Carlos!

But you still have a vagina.

Which Carlos was always saying how he didnt care, always reassuring that you were still very much a man no matter what's packing between your legs, and you loved him for that.

Which is why you were sitting on the couch, feet planted on the floor as your fingers fidgeted with each other, your hair covering your eyes, you made a mental note to trim it a bit, putting the thought on a back burner as you hear keys jingling

You straightened up, the tv on low. Your breath holding in your throat in anticipation as carlos' head popped through, a warm smile spreading on his features almost immediately as he closed the door behind him, locking it in one motion.

He looked a bit rough, hes been at the office this week so his stubble has grown into that of a light beard, sexy. Always so sexy on him..

His boots hit the floor as he slipped out of them, his eyes already on you, that look of pure devotion.

Yeah. You were beyond ready for him.

You patted the spot next to you on the sofa, the soft cushion being crushed under his weight as he did so obediently...huh almost like he was a dog...

He adjusted a bit, turning to you with a slight concern on his face "something the matter?" Your name rolled off his tongue, sending a shiver down your spine.

You nodded before clearing your throat of any voice cracks, that'd be embarrassing.

"You uh you know how we've been getting more..intimate lately?" Carlos nodded, softly putting his hand on yours reassuringly.

"Well I've been thinking...a lot.. like seriously a lot." You fully turn your body torwards him now, face serious as he gives a soft smile.

"Im ready."

The words slipped out fast, embarrassingly rushed as carlos took your words (and your face if hes being honest) in, his hand squeezed yours lovingly. "And your sure? I only want to do this if your absolutely positive."

You nodded almost immediately and he couldn't help the short laugh that left him. Your free hand roamed up his chest to his shoulders, resting there as your leaned your head against his, your voice softer

"yes. Carlos im sure, I've been thinking about it lately and I really want to take this next step with you"

That was all he needed to know! Next thing that happened was him picking you up like you weighed next to nothing as he carried you to your shared bedroom, softly popping you down on the mattress as you both let out a soft laugh.

He turned the side lamp on, illuminating the space with a soft lighting before his hand cupped your face.

He leaned down, his breath hot over your lips as your hands soaked their way around his neck. You both stared for a moment before you couldn't take it anymore, a sharp inhale was all that was heard before your lips were on his.

His hand roamed, his touch soft and lingering as it made its way up your shirt, feeling you up.

A soft noise left both of your mouths at the feeling of his hand on you, carlos breaking the kiss just to get yours and his shirts off before delving right back in, taking the lead.

His tongue slipped between your lips, hot saliva mixing with yours as he roamed every inch of your mouth, claiming it as if it were his and you loved it.

His hands traced the scars under your nipples, the touch was barely noticeable but you loved it anyways, his hands on your ribs as his thumbs traced the light pink of the skin there.

He leaned back to admire you, your face was flushed and hair sticking wildly against the pillow, and he couldn't help the smirk playing on his lips. Fuck was that hot

Your hands trickled up his stomach, the prominent muscles firm under your fingers as you reached his nipples, your thumbs rubbing soft circles on the buds as he gave a soft relaxed sound, he loved when you touched his chest, feeling him up like he was yours to play with.

He unbuckled his belt swiftly, the bulge in his pants obvious as your face flushed, suddenly too aware of your own arousal as he pulled your bottoms off, a small shocked noise leaving your throat at the sudden bareness of your legs.

He chuckled at your reaction before snapping the hem of your boxers, the fabric slapping your front as you made a strangled sound at the sting, your voice was low as you spoke "dont tease.."

He laughed lowly, God how he loved messing with you, his lips trailed down your jaw to your neck, kissing your pulse point before sucking around it, licking over the purple marks he began to leave

You sighed under him, the sensations nice as your fingers clenched the hem of his pants, an unspoken plea to get them off

His voice was shaky as he spoke "needy already pretty boy?" You blushed at his words, turning your head "just- just get them off Carlos"

He did, swift and casual, like he had all the time in the world, and to him? He did, he wanted to take his time and treat you perfectly.

Once his pants were off though? Your mouth feel slightly agape, you knew he was pretty big but damn he was thick

You swallowed as he teased you once more, messing with the hem of his own boxers, letting you get a small peak before chuckling at your scoff, eventually slipping the thin material down his legs.

You swallowed as you took in his nude body, your breath quickening as he got closer, his cock dangling between you both. He slipped his fingers into the hem of your own underwear once more, curling his gorgeous fingers and slipping them down, the fabric moving with it as you adjusted your hips for carlos, letting him take your boxers off fully.

You were both on full display for each other, his muscles turning soft at his belly, a dark and curly happy trail, not well kept, making its way to show off his curved cock. That playful and oh so loving smirk playing his face

He watched you, his eyes gazing over your body with the utmost devotion, his fingers softly caressing every muscle, every hair. His mouth coming close to your own, a breathless laugh leaving him as he gave you the softest kiss.

"Im going to put a finger in now okay?"

You nodded, fingers clenching around his tanned forearm. His thumb teased your clit before his middle finger smoothly glided through your folds, entering slowly.

His knuckles reached your entrance as you gave a content sigh, his eyes never leaving your face

He waits for you to get used to the feeling of his fingers before adding another one, the thick digits stretching you with the smallest sting. You wrap your hands around his neck while he peppers sweet kisses along your jaw, his beard tickling your own growing stuble.

You let a short laugh at the feeling before hes scissoring his fingers inside you, another gasp leaves you, this time sharper, as his digits stretch you open.

The feeling was mesmerizing as he worked you open, his fingers alone making you feel so good, but as soon as he curled them? The most obscene moan left you, your voice cracking on the note as your face flushes.

"Oho that the spot pretty boy?" Carlos voice was teasing and dripping in that tone you'd never been able to resist.

You gave a half hearted protest, and he couldn't help but chuckle before doing the motion again, this time memorizing where it is and hitting it spot on.

Your moans slowly filled the room, the display of you on that bed was enough to make any man melt, and carlos was doing just that. He tried to ignore his flaming hard on, but in the end he was just a man, and this man was desperate.

He pulled his fingers out, the lewdest whine leaving your as he shuddered at the sound, his tongue poking out to taste the glistening juices from your hole, sucking the two fingers clean with a whiney moan

"Fuck you taste better than I thought" he reached over into the nightstand drawer at the side of the bed, rummaging through it for a minute before taking out a box and bottle.

You watched impatiently as he unwrapped one of the packaged condoms, his eyebrows furrowed in concentration before rolling the latex over his swollen cock head.

After he rolled the condom on he grabbed the bottle of lube, squeezing a lavish amount on his hand before circling the base of his cock up to the tip with the liquid

You couldn't help but think how the hell could this man make putting a condom on look hot. A small scoff leaving you at the thought as carlos finished

He grabbed your hand gently, entertwining your fingers as he lined himself up with your entrance, your breath catching. "Your sure you want this?" His voice spoke, your brow furrowed as his tip brushed between your folds, a quick needy nod coming from you "yes, carlos im sure please"

And with that? his hips slowly moved forward, his tip stretching your hole out with a long groan coming from the both of you

He kissed you long and deep after he bottomed out, his hips snug between your legs as you made out.

He couldn't help the heavy breath that left him, his lips ghosting over your skin.

You squirmed a little, the girth of him inside you was a lot to accommodate but you were beginning to get impatient

"You can- you can move now carlos" your voice rang out, deep and raspy against his neck, kissing the skin

Carlos shuddered as he nodded, pulling his hips back, starting a slow pace

"Fuck you feel so good for me like this sweet boy" His voice was rough as his pace quickened, his hips hitting against you rhythmically.

Your voice was hoarse as you moaned out his name, causing him to let out a breathy whine against your throat

"Yeaaah say my name, fuck my name sounds so good coming from your pretty boy" you gasped against his neck as he pressed into you, his hips moving in tandem.

His hand squeezed yours own as he fucked you senseless, your chest heaving as you gasped and moaned under him, a creamy mix stringing itself on his cock as he pulled out, only to push right back in

He babbled on about how amazing you felt, how amazing you are, and all you could do was clenched around him, writhing under his weight as he continued leaving wet kisses along your chest, licking the scars under your nipple with a deep moan.

His free hand slipped between you, his thumb gently circling your bundle of nerves to match his thrusts, your stomach began turning as a coil began to tighten within you, and carlos? He was holding your hand tightly.

"Fuckkk im close baby, I can feel you around me and I cant stop" His thrusts began to pick up again, faster this time and you snapped, your hole clenching down on him deliciously as you moaned loudly right into his ear, the heat and pleasure flooding around him caused him to bite into your shoulder with a deep whimper as he came, filling the latex wrapped around him.

His thrusting slowed down as you both sighed against each other, blissed out in each other's arms before he begrudgingly leant back. He slowly pulled out, his fingers taking the condom off as carefully as they could before tying it off and tossing it into the small garbage can in the room

He kissed your forehead with a sweet "i love you im going to grab a wet cloth so wait here" before leaving to do just that.

Your mind cleared as you stared at the dimly lit ceiling.

Holy shit that was amazing

You smiled as Carlos came back in with a warm wash cloth, a loving smile on his face as you let him clean you up.

Once he got the two of you into clean boxers the two of you were cuddled up together, arms wrapped around each other as you both just layed there, content and in love

"I love you"

TY FOR THE REQUEST I love getting them and this was nice to write!!! I hope you enjoyed it (if not thats okay too!)

[saltcxrcle]

IM BACK BITCHES !

⟡ so as you can tell from this post, im officially back from my hiatus!

i honestly could have come back sooner but i just wanted to ride out the month of october so i didn't feel overwhelmed if i came back when i thought i felt better and not at 100%.

but yes a month long break was necessary for me and my mental health since i had been on tumblr consistently for a good 3 years at this point without one, so it was a long time coming.

but now im feeling a lot better and ive been slowly just easing myself into using the site again and exposing myself to my activity tab (r.e my hiatus announcement) and now i don't feel any kind of anxiety when seeing it so its progress! (i have yet check it thought but as soon as this is posted, i will be sorting through it)

with not being on the app/site, ive had some spare time open up for me and i've been utilizing it and i got back into journaling which was something i had been trying to do for the longest time but i treated this place as my digital one but clearly it didn't work out the way I wanted.

anyways moving on, I also was able to write quite a bit while on my break and i feel good about them because i didn't have the pressure of posting them right away.

but since i did write some fics! im so excited to share them with you guys so i made schedule of what/when im posting them and that'll be posted later today!

speaking of fics i made a poll before i went on hiatus about making a tag list for my fics and the majority of votes wanted me to make a tag list so i made a separate post for the tag list and how you can be added! [taglist has been posted]

with the housekeeping out of the way. yayy im back!! life has been great this past october and as sad as i was that i couldn't give you guys live updates, ill post them some of them here :P

i've made some more friends in my classes and I went to my first concert ever! it was a conan gray concert and ill make a separate post about my fit and the experience since it was so fun! other than that it was a relaxing month and my brother was in town and visited for a week and a half so having to share my room with my sister wasn't the best time but nonetheless we survived nonetheless LOL

anyways enough rambling! i have to say that i can't wait to binge everyone's kinktober and just the fics i've missed on here in general! im so happy to be back and im just so excited to share the things i have planned with you guys! (i'm so back guys ahhh!)

ive missed you all so much and i hope that everyone was doing well when i was gone <3

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tagging some of my moots to let them know im back: @sammyluvr / @ohsc / @s4wdvator / @sylvia-plaths-fig-pie / @arjwrites /

@heliads / @percyluvr