#jacob eric stand UP

[oneofthosecrazycatladies]

Okay a couple weeks ago I started this post trying to keep track of all the stuff going on in order to help remind us of everything that’s happened when the next election comes around. Well, because there’s just so much going on, I’ve realized trying to cram it all into one post isn’t going to work. So I’m going to do a new post every month and include links to the previous ones.

So here goes…

January 2025

February 2025

Donald Trump has enforced his tariffs on Mexico, Canada, and China. [x]

Donald Trump has put Mexico tariffs on hold for one month. [x]

Donald Trump allowed Elon Musk to begin dismantling USAID. [x]

Congress is voluntarily giving up its power and allowing Trump to make unilateral decisions. [x]

Darren Beattie has been made Under Secretary of State. [x]

Everything that Donald Trump has done so far lines up with Project 2025 [x]

The White House is drafting an executive order to eliminate the Department of Education [x]

Elon Musk, who nobody voted for or elected, has, essentially, hacked the government. [x]

El Salvador has agreed to take US deportees of any nationality. [x]

US Representative Andy Biggs is proposing a bill to abolish OSHA. [x]

Pam Bondi has been confirmed as Attorney General [x]

Donald Trump doesn’t think Palestinians should return to Gaza. [x]

Donald Trump says he’ll use US troops to “take over” the Gaza Strip. [x]

A federal judge has blocked Donald Trump’s executive order to end birthright citizenship. [x]

Donald Trump has banned trans women from women’s sports [x]

Donald Trump sanctions the International Criminsl Court. [x]

A judge has paused the federal “buyouts” [x]

DOGE: Member of DOGE resigns [x]

DOGE has been given access to the Department of Energy. [x]

Miscellaneous news about Elon Musk [x]

DOGE is using AI to infiltrate the Department of Education [x]

Russell Vought, author of Project 2025, has been confirmed as Director of OMB [x]

Democrats in Congress have introduced the Taxpayer Data Protection Act [x]

Donald Trump has flagged the words “women” “diverse” and “historically” from studies done by the National Science Foundation. [x]

New Mexico Representative Melanie Stansbury has introduced the Nobody Elected Elon Musk Act [x]

Democratic Congressional leaders have introduced the Stop the Steal Act [x]

Donald Trump has called for a review of funding for the United Nations [x]

Federal agencies are barred from celebrating Black History Month [x]

Donald Trump has frozen aid to South Africa and accused the South African government of racism against white South Africans [x]

Donald Trump wants to use Leavenworth Prison as a migrant detention facility and have it run by a for-profit company known for its numerous human rights violations. [x] [x]

Trump has told the Treasury to stop making pennies. [x]

Representative Mark Pocan (D-WI) proposes the E.L.O.N. M.U.S.K. Act (which stands for Eliminate Looting of Our Nation by Mitigating Unethical State Kleptocracy) [x]

Employees of the Consumer Financial Protection Bureau were told to stop all work and are now being told to stay home. [x]

Trump will impose 25% tariffs on steel and aluminum. [x]

Trump says Palestinians won’t be allowed back in Gaza if the US takes it over [x]

Tulsi Gabbard has been confirmed as director of national intelligence. [x]

Representative Buddy Carter (R-GA) has proposed a bill to change the name of Greenland to Red, White & Blue Land [x]

The DOJ has dropped the corruption charges against New York City mayor Eric Adams. [x]

An AP News reporter has been banned from the White House for using Gulf of Mexico instead of Gulf of America in its reporting. [x][x]

Senators Deb Fischer (R-NE) and Angus King (I-ME) are pushing for a tax credit that would encourage businesses to offer paid family leave. [x]

Representative Sara Jacobs (D-CA) has introduced the Protect US National Security Act [x]

The State Department (taxpayers) is paying Elon Musk $400 million for cybertrucks. [x]

Robert F. Kennedy Jr. has been confirmed as HHS Secretary. [x]

Trump is conducting a mass firing of the federal workforce. [x]

Senator Ted Cruz (R-TX) is creating a list of all the ‘woke’ science he wants to get rid of. [x]

References to transgender have been removed from the Stonewall National Monument. [x]

A 71 year old refugee living in Thailand has died because of the USAID freeze. [x][x]

Trump’s proposed tax cuts will add trillions to US debt. [x]

Trump is defying the court order to reopen USAID. [x]

Trump has stopped the CDC’s flu vaccine campaign. [x]

Trump is suing Brazil’s Supreme Court because of Brazil’s battles with Elon Musk over Twitter/X. [x]

Kash Patel has been confirmed as FBI director. [x]

Trump orders FEMA to stop their work with making homes better at withstanding natural disasters. [x]

Kash Patel will be named chief of the ATF [x]

Trump has tried to make independent agencies no longer independent [x]

$200 million of taxpayer money was used on a pro-Trump anti-migrant ad [x]

The House of Representstives passed a bill that gives more than $4 trillion in tax cuts for the wealthy and cuts the budget for Medicaid by 80% [x]

Here’s a summary of Trump’s executive orders so far [x]

The Trump administration has issued travel bans for trans athletes [x]

Trump administration is telling federal agencies to prepare for more mass layoffs [x]

Elon Musk joined Trump’s first cabinet meeting. [x]

Trump is offering “gold cards” to wealthy foreigners [x]

Kash Patel names Dan Bongino as Deputy Director of the FBI. [x]

Senator Mike Lee (R-UT) has proposed legislation for the US to leave the United Nations [x]

Judge rules mass firings of federal workers is unlawful [x]

The Pentagon orders all transgender people to be removed from the military [x]

Representative Victoria Spartz (R-IN) was going to vote against the budget bill that would cut nearly $1 trillion from Medicaid; then she got a phone call from Trump who apparently screamed at and threatened her; she then voted yes on the bill [x]

Trump administration has cancelled boot camps for women training to become Wildland firefighters [x]

Here’s a link to the Project 2025 Policy Agenda that Donald Trump claimed he didn’t know anything about.*

*He only claimed he didn’t know anything about it after it proved to be deeply unpopular with the general public.

I’m also including directories for both the House of Representatives and the Senate. That way, if you’re so inclined, you can also track the individual actions of every Senator and Representative.

Miscellaneous News

Representative Nancy Mace (R-SC) repeatedly uses a transphobic slur on the Congressional floor. [x]

Clarence Thomas is…being Clarence Thomas *sigh* [x]

Donald Trump fired the Chair of the Kennedy Center and named himself as the new Chair [x]

Trump said that no group of people in the history of America has been treated worse than the way the January 6th insurrectionists have been treated. [x]

Some people are impersonating ICE agents and harassing & assaulting people of color [x][x]

Trump’s mass deportation is hitting a wall [x]

The Trump administration’s incompetence is coming back to bite them. [x]

Target has been facing backlash for rolling back its DEI initiatives. [x]

Donald Trump Has Already Spent $10.7 Million Of Taxpayer Money Playing Golf [x]

The Kennedy Center cancelled a performance of the Gay Men’s Chorus of Washington DC [x]

21 DOGE employees have resigned [x]

Musk’s new conflict of interest [x]

Trump posted an AI-created video about his plans for Gaza [x]

Here’s a Washington Post story about the migrants sent to Guantanamo Bay and the conditions they’re facing [x]

Trump supporters are calling for “processing camps” and private militias to go after migrants. [x]

Representative Cory Mills (R-FL) has been accused of assault and the Department of Justice is refusing to investigate [x]

A child has died in the measles outbreak in Texas [x]

China and Russia are trying to recruit disgruntled federal employees [x]

Elon Musk is trying to force the FAA to get rid of their contract with Verizon in favor of a contract with his company, Starlink [x]

Elon Musk makes $38 billion in government contracts [x]

Trump thinks that Andrew Tate is a totally okay guy [x]

The director of the Defense Health Agency abruptly retired [x]

March-June 2025

Once again, please feel free to let me know about anything I’ve missed. With this era of constant news we live in, it can be easy to forget so let’s give our future selves a little help!

[prettypinkporkchop]

Can I request one where the reader overhears her boyfriend Paul calling the reader clingy so she went from being by his side to always having plans barley seeing him and he finally gets her and she just breaks down saying she didn’t wanna be clingy anymore

You smile to yourself as you walk around Billy Black's house toward the back, where you know Paul is.

"Yes! Same, dude! Is y/n the sam way as Nessie?" You hear Jacob ask. "She's just clingy!" You can hear Paul say. Your heart jumps and then falls onto the ground, shattering. You feel sick to your stomach. You don't even want to hear the rest. You turn your feet and walk right back to your car. You start the engine and go.

On the drive back home, you're crying. But, things are going to change if you want to keep Paul.

You stop at a gas station and pull out your phone. You call your coworker who you get along with.

"Hey Angela." You say. "Hey! What's up? Oh, if it's to cover for your shift Thursday, I would, but I can't. Ask for any other day, though!" She pipes up. "No, no. I was actually wondering if you wanted to hang out." You say. She pauses but then starts talking again, "Yes! When? Where?" She giggles. "Are you busy now?" You smile. "Nope."

You drive to Angela's house. You know where she lives, considering you've had to scoop her up for work a couple of times. Her car hates to start on freezing mornings. You walk up the steps and knock on her door. Eric opens it. Typical Eric, in his nice suit from work. "Hello?" He asks. "Hey! I'm Angela's coworker, y/n. I'm just coming to hang out." You say. "Oh!" He smiles and then points at you, "Yeah, yeah! She just mentioned that! Come in." He lets you inside.

You get home, and you go to bed. Your phone starts ringing. You pick it up. "Y/n, where have you been?" He asks kind of angrily. "I've been with Angela." You reply. "Your coworker?" He asks. "Yes." You say dryly. "Oh.. uh, you didn't tell me?" He said. "Sorry, babe." You sigh. "You're acting off." He said. You had to think quickly. "I just forgot to tell you. I'm sorry, babes. Needed some girl time." You giggle. "Oh, I see. Well, tomorrow I'm not doing anything at all! My day off of being a wolf." He laughs. Your heart is pounding. Oh god, do you want to be next to him. "Want to come over?" He asks. "Uh, no, I have plans." You say. You put him on speaker phone and go through your contacts. "With who?" He asks, surprised. You see the texts between you and Leah. She asked you a couple of days ago to decorate her house since you're good at that. "Leah wants me to decorate her house." You text her saying you'll be there tomorrow. "How about after?" He asks. "I'll visit for a little bit." You sigh.

-------- 2 weeks later -----

You wake up to pounding on your door. You jump up out of bed and open the door. There stands a disheveled, hurt, and angry Paul. "Paul?" You ask. He pushes past you and walks inside, going straight to your room. You follow him, and he bear hugs you. Squeezing you and sighing of relief. "Jesus christ. You know it hurts to stay away from you. Why the fuck have you been avoiding me?" He pulls away and looks at you. Seeing him in this state and completely missing him just brings tears to your eyes. You can't hold it anymore. You sit on your bed and start sobbing. "What is going on, baby?" He leans down and holds your face, looking into your red eyes. He wipes your tears away, and you blink a few times. "Paul, I heard what you said to Jacob at Billy's house." You said. He raises an eyebrow. "I'm too clingy." You said dryly. "If that's what I am to you and you're unhappy, you should've just told me. I'm scared to lose you." You cry. "Babygirl." He pulls you into him. "No, I didn't mean it like that at all. I love that you're clingy. It's my favorite thing ever." He cooes. You shake your head and try to push him off. "No. You meant it bad, I could tell." You sniffle. He holds tighter, so you can't get out of his grip. "We were talking about you and Renesmee. We were saying things that we like that most guys hate. Babygirl, we are soulmates. Nobody understands what it's like to truly love someone." He strokes your hair. You look up at him, and now you feel stupid. "I promise you. I can't lie to you, you know that. And look at me!" He chuckles. "I actually feel like death.'' He says. "I'm so sorry." You sigh and wrap your arms around his neck. He kisses you deeply, it feel like the first time kissing him. It feels like it's been forever. He pulls away from your lips very slowly. "I'm staying the night." He says, demanding. You laugh and nod your head.

[soleilwoo]

the boyz’s favorite types of kisses

[☀︎] — sangyeon. thigh kisses. to him, your thigh is something intimate. it’s a body part people can see and not touch, and it’s one of his favorites. not always sexually-but trust, that would be mind blowing-sometimes when you’re cuddling and he’s laying his head on your legs, he’d roll over and just place a kiss on your thigh. inner thigh kisses are important to him, as well. he loves the way you squirm and whimper as he trails kisses further and further up, between your thighs.

[☀︎] — jacob. hand kisses. he would kiss the back of your hand, specially during long car rides. or he’d kiss the inside of your palm when you’re caressing his face. his favorite form of simple affection. he loves it when you give kisses to the back of his hand, too. placing a kiss upon each of his knuckle while trying to catch his eyes. this would lead to a peck on his lips.

[☀︎] — younghoon. forehead kisses. they’re always so intimate and full of emotion. it’s his way of making you feel protected. he gives you forehead kisses when he can tell that you’re feeling overwhelmed or when something is bugging you. forehead kisses are his favorite form of pda.

[☀︎] — hyunjae. lip kisses. pecks or open mouthed types. he would often trap you against a wall or counter with both arms on either side of you, kissing you deeply and slowly. he’s seen enough dramas and he’s a good actor so it comes naturally to him. he sucks and bites your bottom lip as he pulls away.

[☀︎] — juyeon. breathy kisses. juyeon likes everything intense and wants to feel everything so kisses with him are never short. he has to pull you close and has to feel your halted breath- sighing and deep moaning into your mouth as your fingers comb through his hair.

[☀︎] — kevin. rib/stomach kisses. really, there’s a variety. there’s not a place where kevin wouldn’t kiss you. but his favorite is peppering your ribs with kisses and trailing it down your stomach. his hands would either be holding yours or tightly gripping your hips.

[☀︎] — new (chanhee). collarbone kisses. chanhee prefers you to do the kissing and color his collar. he feels like you’re standing on the verge of biting his neck or kissing his chest. it’s exciting not knowing which way you’re going to go. he uses moans of affirmation.

[☀︎] — q (changmin). neck kisses. changmin just wants to mark you up. they’re not often sensual. he’ll just come out of nowhere and attack your neck, nipping and biting at your sensitive skin until there’s bruises. it’s no different when he’s in the mood, anyways. he likes to hold you down and leave marks all the way up your jaw and nips at your earlobe.

[☀︎] — juhaknyeon. cheek kiss. he reserves those for when he wants to annoy you or wants your attention. they’re always sloppy and obnoxious. but sometimes he would randomly give you a sweet kiss on the cheek when you’re doing something that he finds adorable. haknyeon thinks these are the best kisses because they can show every emotion.

[☀︎] — sunwoo. teasing and challenging kisses. it’s his favorite thing to see you get frustrated when you want to kiss him. he will purposely do or say things that make you wonder if you should or not. like he’ll slowly lean towards you like he’s going to kiss you but instead misses your lips and whispers something in your ear to get you riled up. there’s just a perfect blend of playfulness and intensity. and when you do finally kiss, he dares you to take charge and lead yet effortlessly taking the control from you when you do.

[☀︎] — eric. messy kisses. oh god, your energy boy is just too excited. his favorite kisses are just kissing you in general. heaven knows he’s not going to be neat about it. he’s just everywhere at once. you’d wish he’d pay attention to your lips more but once he leaves from there, he’s mapping the rest of your body out, leaving no place left untouched.

[fanfictiongirlie]

Twilight: The Human and the Wolf Chapter Four

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Parings: Paul Lahote x OC (First person, no use of Y/N)

Description: Bella Swan's twin moved to Forks with her sister. Whilst Bella falls for a vampire, her twin falls for a wolf. The story runs parallel to Bella's story in Twilight. But following her twin and her life with the wolves.

Rating: Eventually explicit.

Warnings: Nothing in this chapter.

Chapter Four - La Push Baby

The next day it was Friday and I couldn't be more excited for the weekend. Bella and I walked to the cafeteria after our one shared class and made our way to our little group.  

"La Push baby, you in?" Eric asks.

"Should I know what that means?" Bella asks confused. 

"La Push, it's where Jacob lives" I answer quickly. 

Eric explains the plan for whale watching and surfing tomorrow. 

"Oh definitely, I'll be there" I answer grinning, Bella didn't look convinced though. 

"Oh come on Bells, it'll be fun!" I say trying to convince her. 

"It's La Push baby, La Push" Eric says, making us all laugh. 

"Okay I'll go if you stop saying that" Bella grins, finally agreeing to come. I take a sit at the table whilst she walks off to the salad cart. I take my sandwich from my bag and start eating, I listen to the conversations around me, and let my eyes wander. I look over to Bella, and frown seeing that Edward was standing by her. They were chatting, it looked intense, it worried me. 

The others noticed too, all finding it weird, I was glad they didn't trust Edward either. 

After chatting to Edward for a short while Bella came back to us, she sat by me, I cocked my head slightly, silently questioning what that was about.

"I invited him to La Push, but he said no" She explained. 

"I'm glad he said no, Cullens are weird" I answer, feeling a little mean, but it was the truth. Bella rolls her eyes at me. I smiled sweetly and went back to my sandwich, overwhelmingly happy Edward Cullen wouldn't be joining us at La Push beach. 

•☽────✧˖°˖☆˖°˖✧────☾•

Finally it was the weekend, and we were all at La Push beach, I sat alone on the rocks whilst I watched Bella walk off with Jacob and the others surfed or sat in the cars whale watching too cold to leave the cars. I decided to come sit at the rocks closer to the trees of the forest and enjoy the view. The waves were strong as they crashed, the air was crisp and cold and the sky grey. I was never one to dislike weather like this. I enjoyed the tranquility of the moment. 

But then a voice broke me from my deep thoughts. I looked up to see who had said hello to me. Seeing Paul stand behind me, his hair was tied in a loose ponytail, his clothes looked warm and baggy. He looked, rugged, and I was enjoying the view. 

"Long time no see" I smile sweetly. 

He stepped a little closer to me, he looked like he had been running through the forest maybe. 

"Long time no see indeed, enjoying the beach today?" He asked. 

"Yep! It's nice down here, join me" I say patting the rock next to me. He seemed pleasantly surprised by my invitation, he sits down next to me on the rock, shifting so he faced me. 

"It's been a while since we talking, huh?" He asks. 

"Yeah.." I muse, thinking over the five minute conversation we had months ago. "Five minutes of talking and that was its"

"Yeah I guess we're practically old friends now, huh? Five minutes of talking under our belts and all that" He grins, his light-hearted banter making me giggle softly. 

"That's all it takes to be old friends...what happens if we have a ten minute conversation?" I ask, continuing his banter. His grin widens. 

"A ten minute conversation? Woah, now that's serious. If we hit that level, we might as well start planning our wedding" He answers, his eyes on mine and his smile wide. It made me feel dizzy honestly. 

"Well we're already at the beach...beach wedding!" He laughs at my joke, clearly enjoying the banter. 

"Absolutely. We've got the location, the mood, the vibes. Now all we need it the fancy clothes and the vows" He adds, laughing slightly. 

"You're funny Paul...You know that" I say, a soft smile on my lips as I let my eyes trail over his facial features. He looked very pleased with my compliment. 

"Thanks, I try my best" He says giving me a lopsided smile, a hint of flirting in his tone. 

"Do you wanna go to my prom with me?" I ask suddenly, the bluntness even surprising myself. He looked a bit taken aback by the sudden change of topic, but recovers quickly, a smile on his face. 

"Prom? You're asking me to prom?" He laughs a little as he asks. 

"Yeah, you're funny. I like funny" I smile "It's okay if you don't want too"

"Whoa hold on a second" He says a small smirk on his lips "Who said I didn't want to go? I just didn't expect such a direct invitation, that's all. But sure, why not? I'd love to go to prom with you"

"Cool" I say quietly, my cheeks flushing slightly, luckily the cold made my cheeks already, so I had hoped he hadn't noticed. 

"Looking a bit flushed there, are you blushing?" He asks. 

"Oh shut up, I'm just a girl" I answer, giggling a little as I looked at him. "So Paul, tell me about you"

And with that we spent the afternoon talking, it had been hours and we hadn't stopped, it felt so easy talking to him. We had made plans to spend more time together before prom too. 

After many hours, Bella called me over saying it was time to head home, I cursed slightly, I hadn't brought my car today I was relying on a lift from others. Before leaving Paul I gave him my home number, so he could call me. 

"Call me okay?" I asked again, hoping I didn't sound too desperate.

"Oh I'll definitely call you" He grins. And I leave him heading back to the cars with Bella. I sat in the back of Angela's car with Jess on one side of me and Bella the other. I turned to Bella and whispered. 

"Guess what"

She looked at me expectantly. 

"I asked Paul to prom" I said quietly not wanting the others to hear, but they probably did. 

"Oh that's good, I'm happy for you" Bella answers. 

"Me too, he's so cute!" I say a little wistfully. 

"Is it love already?" She asks teasingly. I shake my head and laugh a little. 

"Don't be ridiculous Bells"

"Hey, you're the one who's got a grin plastered on your face and is talking about how cute he is. Sounds pretty love-struck to me" 

"You and your romance books Bella, they're making you think love happens in three seconds" I tease. 

Once we got home Bella went straight upstairs saying she had homework to do, I found it a little strange because I knew for a fact she finished her homework last night. I brushed it off and sat on the couch near my dad, but also near the phone. 

"Expecting a call kiddo?" He asks. 

"I am, actually!"

My dad raised an eye slightly. 

"Let me guess? A boy has you waiting looking all love struck?"

"Yes, his name is Paul, I'm actually going to prom with him" I explained. 

Charlie and I chatted for a little while longer, I told him all about Paul, and our conversations from today. The phone hadn't rung yet and I was starting to get worried he wouldn't call. 

"You know, the phone's not gonna ring any faster if you keep staring at it like that" Charlie says. 

"I can hope" I reply quietly. 

Finally a few hours later the phone rang, I grabbed it and rushed to the kitchen wanting a little privacy and I answered it. 

"Hey Paul" I say into the phone, hoping it was actually him. 

Paul's voice comes through the phone, his cheerful tone instantly recognisable. 

"Hey! I'm glad you answered"

"I'm glad you called" I answered playfully. Paul laughs a little down the phone, clearly amused. 

"Well, I couldn't leave you waiting forever, now could I? Besides, I promised I'd call, so here I am" 

We spent a few hours chatting until Charlie tells me it was 1am and I needed to go to bed. I chuckled softly on the phone. 

"Goodnight Paul"

"Sweet dreams" He responded, and we put the phone down. I walked up to my room, grinning like an idiot, falling asleep with that same grin. 

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[mymegrokosmos]

the boyz as boyfriends drabble. i was left alone watching their content too long today so here you go. if you like this one i'll add the other members these are just my headcanons based on their body language/behaviour observed lately.

jacob is the kind of bf to constantly have one arm slung around you shoulder as he leans into your side or against your back. he makes it look effortless with his other hand casually slipped into one pants pocket. It's second nature to him, like breathing. If you reach up and hold his hand, he won't show it but he's melting just a little inside. he slings one arm around each of your shoulders when walking or standing between you and a friend, male or female (so long as you're both comfortable with that).

kevin is the type of bf to not mind you constantly hanging off of him. in fact, he likes that it shows how much you like him and how safe and comfortable you feel with him. he likes that you let down your walls if you're not usually a particularly touchy person and let yourself be vulnerable with him. that you trust him not to disrespect or overstep your boundaries and just feel like you can be yourself around him.

changmin is the type of bf to always be backhugging you or slipping his hands in your hoodie pockets and burying his face in your back or the crook of your neck. when you call him on it he claims that he's cold but that's always his excuse and if you try to pull away you can bet that he'll whine until you sigh and give in to his cuddling. he will absolutely 100% insist on holding your back to his chest, arms around your waist as he shuffles you both into the kitchen or wherever you were headed before he interrupted.

hyunjae also likes to have an arm around you but he moves around and fidgets, always coming back to you eventually but not usually staying still for very long. he plays with yout hoodie strings or necklaces, or your fingers whenever you reach up to stop his fidgeting or hold his hand in yours. when he laughs he pulls your whole body along with him in whatever direction he flops bc you know that man is collapsing like a rag doll while he loses it.

juyeon likes to rest a hand on your shoulder, or his chin. the type of bf to hook an arm loosely around your neck and hover from behind you staring down anyone you're talking to unblinkingly like a cat while he sizes them up and completely tunes out the conversation around you both until you tap his arm or tilt your head back to look up at him. lace your fingers through his, play with his rings or hold his wrist to have him melting and peering closer to catch whatever you have to say, you now have his full attention. he will stare at you like you've just hung the moon bc he's so endeared by everything you do.

eric is the type of bf to keep an arm around your waist or shoulder not just to keep you close but to let other people know you're taken. he's always hovering close when you're at parties or gatherings. will squeeze your hand or hips to make sure you're still there or when he feels like you aren't paying enough attention to him. he's protective and also likes to know you're safe in crowded places. 100% the type to insist on pouring your drinks for you but doing it one handed bc the man refuses to let go of his hold on you for even a minute he loves affection pls give it to him.

[heliza24]

Thoughts about Domesticity, Carework, and the American Dream in episode 2.5 of Interview with the Vampire

I’ve been mulling over episode 2.5 a lot. There was so much to love in the episode (the incredible writing, the kitchen sink off Broadway play of it all, the chemistry between Luke, Jacob and Assad, the vulnerability in Eric’s performance). But my mind keeps circling a couple of themes, trying to piece them together. So as usual I’m here on tumblr to try to work it out. 

I keep coming back to the way that Armand was gendered in this episode. His big complaint to Louis was that he was “home picking lint off the sofa”. He arrives with “mop and misery” to clean up the mess. Louis insults him by calling him “the good nurse”. All those things are feminized. They’re also extremely of the era; these are Feminine Mystique, mid-century housewife type complaints. The wife’s job is to make the husband’s life smooth and never worry about her own happiness. Obviously in the 1970s we’re seeing this begin to change thanks to second wave feminism. We’re in the process of trying to ratify the ERA, Ms. magazine has just been founded, and things are shifting. The kind of cheery domestic American dream of the 1950s is definitely shifting, and we see this in the episode as well. Betty Hutton selling sewing machines competes with Spiro Agnew resigning on TV. The watergate scandal signified a loss of faith in American authority, a kind of parallel destruction of the country’s father figure (brought down by journalists, no less). The comfortable lie of domesticity, the “prison of empathy” that Armand has created around Louis is crumbling. Armand is boring but he’s also bored, like a housewife taking valium to get by. The whole episode is set in an apartment that reeks of divorce, according to Daniel, and we’re seeing it play out in real time. When Armand lashes out to hurt Louis, he does it not through direct violence, like Lestat, but by holding his failure as a father over him, telling him that Claudia  never loved him. That jab, in combination with the way he’s edited Louis’s memories (gaslighting, another time honored form of domestic abuse) is enough to get Louis to hurt himself. LIke a wife who is always outwardly obedient to her husband but spends her time exacting petty revenge against him for the way he takes her for granted, Armand’s methods are never violent. They are soft and subtle and targeted.

I have to thank @bluedalahorse for first alerting me to the way the crumbling domestic American dream is threaded through this episode. And after she mentioned it I saw it *everywhere*. 

Obviously there is a level of complexity here in the Loumand relationship that this metaphor cannot fully capture. For one thing, Armand is a man. He was turned in a time before modern understanding of gender and sexuality really solidified, so in some way it makes sense that he would be the most gender fluid of our main characters, but his position would be a lot different if he were a woman, even a woman vampire. And Armand is very powerful. His insecurities and crippling fear of being alone keep him from exercising this power and walking away in a way that would perhaps be healthier for both him and Louis. But he is not trapped economically or socially in the way a wife would have been in this era. (That being said, I get the sense that *something* about the way the fire happened in Paris has made Louis and Armand go to ground. Maybe there is an element of being “trapped together because of fear of exposure”. But even then, I think my point still stands.)

To drill down and become more specific, there’s an extra added layer to the way Armand is feminized in this episode. I’ve written a lot about disability in this show and also the way it approaches eugenics, and those things were very on my mind as I rewatched this episode. (To be fair, they are always on my mind when I watch anything. Being disabled will do that to you.) Anyway, the specific way that Armand casts himself in this episode is as a caregiver. He is a beleaguered, bitter caregiver to those weaker to him. I think you hear this especially when he describes to Louis what happened: “you said the worst things you ever said to me, and then you walked into the sun. And now you are a convalescent.” The absolute sneer on the word convalescent.  The absolute disdain for being put in this position again. The way he denies Louis the blood and keeps him out of his coffin for so long. The “final act of service” in calling Lestat. And then the tenderness laced with fear. Will he “be on suicide watch for the next 1000 years?”. 

Armand is fascinating to me because of the way he seems to instinctively reject people who remind him of his own past weaknesses. Those weaknesses are buried down deep in his characterization, but they’re there and they’re important. He was sick and wasting away when he was turned. And before that he was an abused sex worker. You can see the way he dismisses people in similar situations in the way he treats Daniel in this episode. He calls Daniel a “broken boy” when he’s talking to Louis. He casually rejects the idea that there might be any sort of truth captured in Daniel’s tapes. The interviews on those tapes are with a sex worker and gay veteran and his disabled refugee husband. All of these people are so close to Armand in so many ways. I even think this is why Armand comes down so hard on Claudia, and why he cannot abide the true empathy and love Louis has for her. Claudia was turned when her body was weak. Weaker and more disabled, so to speak, than Armand. But they are not dissimilar. But Louis loves Claudia anyway, and respects her strengths. No one ever shown the love Louis shows to Claudia to Armand. No one ever granted him true empathy. The only way he has been able to hold on to any love at all is to grovel, to manage, to care give. The only way he experiences care is to give it. Of course he’s broken, of course he’s bitter.

So now we come to Daniel. The broken boy who has suicidal ideation and a drug problem, things that make him imminently dismissable in Armand’s mind. But Daniel also has a drive, a passion for life, and a love for the people who slip through the cracks. Louis and Daniel definitely share this great affection for humanity, and it’s what allows them to connect in San Francisco and again in Dubai. And it’s what makes him inscrutable, and captivating, to Armand. Because there really is no greater act of service than telling somebody’s story. Daniel describes himself as a therapist ironically in Dubai, but what he’s doing is carework. It’s real empathy. And Armand doesn’t understand that. Armand doesn’t understand what someone is doing recording the stories of people who were just like him. A whole universe of possibilities opens in the moment when Armand almost starts telling Daniel his story. Out of all the ways Daniel tries to save himself, that little life line of empathy is what almost snags Armand. But then Armand clamps back down, realizes he’s staring into a “black hole”. He’s trying to insult Daniel when he says that, but to me it just sounds like he’s describing himself.

When Armand is lulling Daniel into death, the thing he chooses to describe to him is the American domestic fantasy. He describes it as a fate worse than death. He describes it as a boring trap. And he specifically casts Daniel in the masculine, straight role in that fantasy, with a wife “vacuuming on valium” who “counts down his thrusts”. In some ways Armand is painting his own relationship to Louis as the worst possible fate that Daniel could suffer. (And it makes me wonder– did Armand ever wonder if he would amount to anything? Does he think his life has any meaning at all, if you subtract the vampiric powers? Armand has never stopped to introspect like this, but I wonder what would happen if you forced him to.)

But Daniel is stubborn, and his desire to tell stories and empathize with people resists death. I love that he still defends himself, still claims that he’s “a bright young reporter with a point of view” and that that is worth something. Because it is.

When Louis asks Armand to save Daniel, Daniel unwittingly becomes a symbol of Louis and Armand’s continued marriage. He’s a wedding ring, a vows renewal. He’s emblematic of the continuation of failing vampiric domesticity. And when Louis tries to repair the damage Armand has wrought, he isn’t able to offer Daniel soothing words about his ability to find a spouse or raise children or understand love. Louis doesn’t understand those things, so how could he teach Daniel about them? But Louis has always understood stories and humanity, so he is able to gift Daniel his writing and his reporting back. 

I think you can interpret Daniel’s failed marriages and difficult relationship with his children in a lot of ways. We could say that he was always going to fail at these things, regardless of whether or not he met the vampires, because of the discontent that Armand sensed in him. Maybe the trauma that this aborted gay hookup with Louis created was enough to re-closet him, and send him down a dark road of unfulfilled straight relationships. Or maybe Armand’s words really did echo around in his head and pull him down as much as Louis’s lingered and sustained him over the years. Maybe we’ll get more answers about this as the show goes on, or maybe it will live in the ambiguous world of memory and manipulation the show so often plays in.

Regardless, I think this episode was a masterpiece, and the way it firmly established these themes about the failure of domesticity and the burden and joys of carework are going to really matter, I think, as we hit the brutal conclusion of the season. When emotions are at a breaking point, especially between Armand and Louis, they are going to resonate because they were grounded in this little claustrophobic wonder of an episode.

As a little postscript, I’m not quite sure where we’re going with Devil’s Minion after this episode, or if we’re even going there at all. If a DM timeline happened in the past, it would require additional editing of Daniel’s memory, and I’m not quite sure if that reveal would work structurally. (I would love to be proven wrong about this though, because I would love for young Daniel and Armand to have interacted more, for Assad and Luke’s chemistry if nothing else. They were so wonderful together.)  If it were to happen in Dubai, or to happen again Dubai, however… well that’s interesting. Because older Daniel is disabled. He’s even more firmly in this category of people that Armand is apt to dismiss. And if they were to get together, there would probably be some aspect of caregiving on Armand’s part. And there would also be some caregiving on Daniel’s part, in his ability to listen to Armand. So that has the potential to be really fascinating, and maybe mutually beneficial to both characters. But I think we have to cover a lot of ground before we would be able to get there.

[lilyflowerstories]

These Violent Delights | 2

Pairings: Jacob Black x Reader, Edward Culled x Reader

Summary: Y/N Swan is just like every other girl and she likes it that way. Normal is fantastic. Normal creates a functioning member of society. Normal is the reason she moved to a small town to live with her police officer father... only to find out that she gets the farthest thing from what she wanted. // Twilight Re-Write.

Warnings for the series: light violence, light angst, light smut

Word Count: 3.4k

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The entirety of the lunch period, you couldn’t find the stomach to eat much. Your bowl of tomato soup only had a few spoonfuls taken out of it. But all the saltine crackers were gone. You had gone over and over in your head what you would say to Edward. Now that he was here, you couldn’t remember anything. You had never been in a real confrontation anymore. You took a glance at his table again. 

He looked different than before. Not terribly different, but enough that you noticed. His skin looked less pale and less stretched over his skeleton. The dark circles underneath his eyes aren’t there anymore either. Now, you could see why people said he looked perfect. 

The bell rang and you silently cursed. You couldn’t have been given more time? Reluctantly, you went with Eric and Mike to your biology class. Eric and you looked over when Mike started frantically digging in his backpack. 

“Ah, shit. Hey, tell Mr. Donoghue that I left my textbook in my car and I’m going to get it.” 

“Okay.” 

Mike ran as fast as possible while the two of you continued going to class. Eric sighed before turning to face you as you stood right in front of the doorway to bio class. 

“Hey, so, about prom, I’m the one in charge of communicating with the dj. I’ve lived my whole life here so I know my music choice sucks so I’m gonna need your playlist.” 

“Okay, when?” you asked as you pulled out your phone to jot down that note. 

“As long as it’s before the month ends, that’s cool. And then dates…  I was wondering do you think Ang—” 

“How you liking the rain, Arizona?” Mike shook out his baseball cap that got soaked in the rain from the run to his car. 

“Guys! Class is about to start. Please take your seats,” Mr. Donoghue cut off whatever Eric was trying to say. If it was important, he’d get back to you later. 

Unfortunately, his lab partner and your lab partner were back so you had to sit with Edward Cullen. There was a slight smile on his face as you walked towards your lab bench. Before you got a chance to say the prepared speech, he spoke. 

“Hello. I’m sorry I didn’t get a chance to introduce myself the other day. I’m Edward Cullen.” His voice was smooth like coffee and somewhat low in its sound. “You’re Y/F/N Swan, right?”  

“Y/N.” 

You didn’t give him a chance to say anything else, turning your head to listen to Mr. Donoghue’s lesson. He must have been in cahoots with the universe because his assignment was partner work. The prize? A golden onion that has no value until he comes up with what it stands for. At least only one person could look through the microscope at a time. Edward pushed the device towards you. 

“Ladies, first.” 

“Why were you gone?” You looked in the microscope. “And it better be a good answer too… It’s prophase.” 

“Mind if I check?...Yeah, I was out of town for a couple days. It’s prophase.” 

“Like I said and the empty chair next to me told me that much.” 

“Personal reasons.” 

“Do personal reasons involve rude interactions?” 

“Uh, no. I’m sorry about that. It wasn’t the best day for me before you showed up to class.”  

“Apology accepted, I guess.” 

“So are you enjoying the rain?... What?”

You tried to stop laughing. “You’re asking me about the weather?” 

“Yeah, I guess I am.” 

“Well, no, not really. I’m not really a fan of any cold or wet place.” 

Edward chuckled as he checked another slide. 

“What?” 

“Nothing.” He shook his head. “It’s anaphase.” 

“Mind if I check… Anaphase.” 

“Like I said,” he joked. “If you don’t like the rain then why did you move to the wettest place in the continental United States?” 

“Baseball.” 

“Baseball? It’s also anaphase. Do you want to check it?” 

“No, I believe you.” 

Edward listened intently as you retold your story to yet another person about why you were in Forks, asking questions when necessary. You guys continued to do your work and talk. He carried the golden onion prize as he escorted you to your locker. 

“Why didn’t you move with your mother and Phil?” 

“Moving once means moving again. Phil could get a second contract next year and we’d be in California or Maine or some stupid place like Delaware.” 

“But now you’re unhappy staying here?” 

“It’s complicated.” 

Edward paused. “I’m sorry, I’m asking too much. I’m just trying to figure you out. You’re very difficult for me to read.” 

“Well, asking questions like a normal human bei— hey, did you get contacts?” 

“No.” 

“I swear your eyes were black last time I saw you, now it’s like a golden brown color.” 

“Uh, no. It’s the fluorescents.” 

He walked away before you could say anything else. You didn’t see Edward until school ended and you went to your truck. He and his siblings seemed to be looking directly at you but you thought you were just being paranoid. You turned back around to dig through your bag for your keys. The screeching of tires caught your attention but it was too late. Tyler’s van was barrelling towards you and your feet couldn’t seem to move. 

Now was not the time to find out that your flight or fight response was the dreaded third option of freeze. You could see Edward, four cars away, staring at you in horror. His mouth dropped open. The same as all the other faces that were about to witness your death. Almost everything moved in slow motion.

The hunk of blue metal slid towards you, you felt something grab your waist, you were pulled down to the ground, and a pale hand was on the van that wasn’t hitting you. You stared at the dent in the metal caused by the hand before turning your head to make eye contact with Edward. 

He stared at you for a moment before letting go of you and running away. You were suddenly surrounded by people asking if you were alright. None of them seemed to have noticed Edward wasn’t there. The next thing you knew, you blacked out. 

The lights of the hospital were blinding when you finally came to your senses. The door opened with a vengeance and in strolled your very anxious father. He wouldn’t calm down no matter how much you tried to speak with him, threatening Tyler’s license and everything. It’s not like it was his fault his tires skidded on ice. You mouthed an apology before shutting the small curtain that divided the two hospital beds. 

“Dad, Dad I’m fine. Okay? I was lucky that Edward was there, no injuries.” 

“Edward?” Charlie turns to Dr. Cullen. “Your boy?” 

You cut in before the doctor could even get the chance to say anything. It seemed like he was going to lie. 

“Yeah, he got to me so quickly.” 

Dr. Cullen gave you a tight smile. “It sounds like you were very lucky. You just need to sign some paperwork, Charlie, and then you are good to go.” 

After Charlie signed the paperwork, he went to warm up the car before you had to drive to the school to get your truck and then drive home. You turned the corner to one of the vending machines when you stopped after seeing Carlisle, Edward, and Rosalie talking with each other. It didn’t seem like a friendly conversation either. They were definitely arguing. As if they could hear you just breather, the three of them turned towards you. 

“Can I talk to you for a minute?” you asked. 

Edward looked reluctant as he made his way towards you. “What?” 

“How did you get over to me so quickly?” 

“Y/N, what are you talking about? I was standing right next to you.” 

“No, you weren’t. Don’t try to lie through this either. You were across the parking lot. I know what I saw.” 

“And what was that?” 

“You stopped the van with your hand.” 

Edward’s somewhat amused face turned cold. “Well no one is going to believe you anyway. Can’t you just thank me and we just drop it?” 

“Thank you.” 

“You aren’t going to let this go, are you?” 

“Not at all,” you tell him, determined. 

“Well, I hope you enjoy disappointment.” 

You went home that night with more questions than answers and the oddly sneaking suspicion that someone was watching you. You went to the bathroom and took your shower while thinking about how Edward stopped the van. So far, you had no concrete answers. You went to bed without any answers as well. Although you did wake up in the middle of night after having a strange dream about Edward. 

You tried to not think about that as you went to school the next day. The buses were already up front when you parked, ready for the field trip that you were positive wasn’t going to be very fun. Edward and his siblings, Alice and Jasper, walked past you. Mike popped up in front of you. 

“Hey, you’re alive, Arizona!” 

“You need more than a van to take me down.” 

The two of you laugh as you hi-fived. 

“So I was wondering, are you going to prom?” 

“Um, I don’t know yet. Charlie said I get two free no questions asked days if I go but me and dancing… it’s not pretty.” 

“Well, do you know if Jess is going?” 

“Mike!” you gasped. “Are you trying to ask Jessica out?” 

“Lower your voice, please. Okay, I may have had a small crush on her since we were seven and I am choosing to ask out my very good friend to prom.” 

“She’s going. I’m going dress shopping with her and Ang next weekend.” 

“Okay. Okay, cool.” Mike walked off before coming right back. “Do you think she likes me?” 

“Most definitely.” 

“Sweet. Thanks, Y/N/N. You’re the best.” 

He got on one of the buses while you got on the other. Tyler sat next to you, plugging your headphones into the jack on his phone. You nodded along to Blue October’s “Hate Me” as it played. The two of you didn’t talk at all but stared out the window like you were in a music video and listened to music until you reached your destination. 

The greenhouse was… interesting. That was the nicest way you could put it. Maybe it would have been nicer if you all weren’t cramped in the small walkway between the plants. Mr. Molina and Mr. Donoghue were trying their hardest to get people to water the plants or give them soil. 

“Now, I’m gonna make a steaming cup of compost tea.” 

He handed it to Eric. You laughed as you heard a very panicked yell. 

“No! Don’t drink it! It’s for the plants.” 

“What’s a no questions asked day?” a deep voice behind you asked. 

You nearly jumped out of your skin. Turning around, you saw the classic peacoat and never out of place hair of Edward Cullen. When had he even come up behind you? 

“You know you’re not helping your case. How’d you even hear that?” 

“You didn’t answer my question.” 

“Dude, you never answer any of mine. You don’t even say hi.”

“Hi.” 

“Please try to act less like a human. Are you gonna tell me anything? Preferably about the other day.”  

“Yeah. I had an adrenaline rush,” he said clinically. “It’s very common. You can Google it.” 

You paused and looked at him. “You’re a terrible liar. And a no question day is when I tell Charlie I need to do something or go somewhere and he asks no questions. It’s a mutual trust betwe—” 

You tripped but felt air and two cold hands grab you instead of feeling your face kiss pavement. 

“Careful,” Edward said as he set you upright again. 

“Thanks. So are you going to answer any of my other questions?” 

“Um. Ma—” 

“Y/N/N!” Jess stepped in between you two. “Guess who just asked me to prom?” 

Edward took the opportunity to slip away. 

“Who?” you feigned ignorance. 

“Mike! I’ve been hoping since forever but like he actually asked me.” 

You and Jess talked the entire way out of the greenhouse and onto the buses, forgetting about Edward and wanting to ask him more questions until it was too late. You weren’t going to think about him for the rest of the day. You had a father-daughter/mother-son date with Charlie, Jacob’s mom, and Jacob. Which meant going to a restaurant because both Charlie and Sarah worked long hours and weren’t going to cook. And Billy was doing his physical therapy for walking so there was no way anyone would force him to cook. 

You went to pick up Jacob at his school while his mom picked up Charlie from the station. He was still inside when you reached the school. It felt stupid signing the visitors clipboard when the school day was already over but you did it anyway just in case. When you made it to a hangout area for students you spotted Jake with his friends. 

You’d like to say they were your friends too but you never got very close with them over the summer. Embry usually went somewhere with his mom, Quil’s grandfather kept inside most of the time, and Seth had sports.

And their acquaintances you knew even less. Paul and Jared were always one grade level above you all and hung out with themselves. Sam didn’t seem to like any of you despite being only a couple years older than you and having even a smaller age gap with Paul. And Leah didn’t come around because either her loser younger brother was there or Sam was there which sucked because you wanted another girl around. 

“Hey, Y/N,” Embry said as you turned the corner. 

“Hi, guys. Jake, you ready?”  

“Yeah. See you guys later.” 

He nodded at his friends before getting up to stand next to you. Your fingers twitched as he intertwined them with his own. He rolled his eyes at the wolf whistles from his friends, laughing when you threw up a middle finger while the two of you walked away. 

“So where are we going?” you asked. 

“Who picked last summer?” 

“Charlie.” 

“Oh, nice, so it’s my turn.” Jacob looked something up on his phone. “Smuggler’s Bar and Grill, sound good? It’s in Port Angeles though.” 

You shrugged. “Eh, I’ve already finished all my homework and Charlie doesn’t go back to work until the graveyard shift. Go ahead and text them our choice.” 

Your truck pulled out of the school parking lot and headed towards the highway. Jacob fiddled with the radio for at least one decent station while you drove the hour it took just to get to Port Angeles. Honestly, you didn’t mind the time. The drive, surrounded by trees, was comforting. Especially with your best friend. 

If you and Jake weren’t singing to songs, you were gossiping about school. There was no need to catch up on anything else. Jake was one of the few people you texted nearly everyday despite being so far away most of the year — including the fact that he had a secret girlfriend for three years. Whenever he wanted to get her a present, he would text you what it was and would pretend he was sending it to you so Billy and Sarah wouldn’t get suspicious. It worked. They didn’t find out even after the two broke up. 

You guys pulled into the restaurant and waited for your parents to show up. Like you predicted, Sarah already analyzed the entire menu and knew what she wanted to order. Jake held up his phone. 

“They said they’re twenty minutes away and the food takes that long to prepare so order for them.” 

“I’m surprised she got Charlie to pick something ahead of time.” 

The two of you went in and got a table like they said. The host smiled a bit too sweetly as they called over a waiter. You and Jacob looked at each other and came to the same conclusion at the same time, silently gagging. There was no way they thought that you guys were on a date. Absolutely not. Was it because you were holding hands? The two of you pulled apart but the damage was already done. 

The waiter sat you down at what you could tell was the restaurant’s nicest booth by the best window that would let you look out onto the water. He handed you the menus and left to give you alone time to think. 

“Just gross, no offense,” you said. 

Jacob shrugged. “None taken. I would never date you, you’re, like, my friend.” 

“Same. Too weird… Do you think they’ll give us free dessert if we are though?” 

“Do you want to play it up?” 

“Absolutely.” 

Jacob gave you a smile you had never seen before but assumed he must have given to his girlfriend. He laid his hand across the table for you to grab. You took it with no problem — Jake’s hands were always warm and still a bit soft since he wore gloves when he worked on cars and bikes. His thumb stroked the back of your hand and he set the menu down to look at you. Almost like magic, or like they’ve been secretly watching, the wait staff came over. 

“Are you two ready to order?” he asked as he set down two glasses of water. 

“Ladies first,” Jake let go of your hand, ready to scoop up your menu when you finished speaking. 

“Um, does the shrimp scampi have a smell?” you asked in fake concern, hoping the waiter would catch on to teen angst of potential bad breath before a first kiss. 

“Oh, no, I got you, honey.” He had a noticeable southern accent. “What do you want to drink?” 

“Iced Tea, please. Oh, and a Caesar salad with ranch dressing.” 

“Got it. And for the young sir?”

“I’ll take the Not Your Mother’s Mac and Cheese along with a lemonade. Oh, and our parents are chaperoning but they’re a little late. Can we get them one clam chowder and one Hawaiian chicken sandwich both with Ruby tonics? What is a ruby tonic?” 

“Oh, I’m so glad you kids are too young to know what it is. Your food will be ready in a minute.” 

He took the menus and walked away. You could hear him gossip to the rest of the staff about chaperones. Jacob grabbed your hand again, giving it a peck. 

“You know he’s totally gonna bring you breath mints. Did you really ask if the shrimp would smell?” 

“Hey, I had to sell it. What brand do you think it’ll be?” 

Jake kissed your hand again. “Lifesavers. They scream not obvious for teenagers asking.” 

“You say this from experience?” 

“Ehh with Elle a couple of times.” 

“Really? I can’t believe you had your first kiss and girlfriend and I couldn’t even get a date for homecoming. You’re still a virgin right?” 

“Yes. I am still a loser virgin.” 

“Hey, I’m a virgin.” 

“Well then in that case virginity rocks.” 

You and Jacob cheered and clinked glasses before laughing when you were unable to hold it anymore. He moved over to your side since the two of you would have to be sitting together anyway once Charlie and Sarah showed up. He took the opportunity to sling his arm around you while you snuggled up to him. The two of you could clearly hear awes. 

“If we actually get free dessert,” Jacob whispered. “We need to do this more often.”  

Your parents came in exactly when the food came out. They looked at the two of you weirdly as you awkwardly broke apart. You shook your head before Charlie could say anything. They went with it like you had asked.  Your parents could do absolutely nothing but shake their heads and smile as the waiter brought out free cinnamon rolls in to-go boxes for not just you and Jacob but for the “chaperones” as well. 

You guys left a generous tip, cleaned up the table, and left the restaurant. You and Jacob clinked the to-go boxes together. 

“Here’s to fake boyfriends.” 

“Here’s to fake girlfriends.”

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[kimsohn]

where the boyz would let you tie a coquette bow 🎀

🎀 sangyeon... definitely his bicep. and he'd flex his bicep and it would break like this video bc he's crazy like that

🎀 jacob... hear me out. his hair. like this video kinda. he'd see it as u dolling him up or smth like that and his fluffy hair is the perfect place for some cute bows

🎀 younghoon... around his hand like this. nice and simple. you tell him he can take it off but he keeps it on cause it's cute. stares down at it while he drives and it reminds him of you 💘

🎀 hyunjae... i might be called crazy for this but i have a vision okay. covering his mouth like this. he prob saw that video and wanted to try it out 😭 he'd try not to laugh and talk but he secretly loves it.

🎀 juyeon... just a big ribbon around his hands and waist like this video. i feel like he wouldn't even understand the trend but he'd stand there all goofy-smiled bc he loves you

🎀 kevin... around his neck like a bow tie (this). he'd wear it out proudly too i think he ends up liking the trend more than you do

🎀 chanhee... he tells you to put it on his middle finger and you don't understand why until he pulls out this 😞

🎀 changmin... ON HIS GLASSES LIKE THIS. this video is so changmin coded too he'd be leaning into you and laughing like it's funny for him

🎀 haknyeon... also on his head but like. circling it. like this. idk his head shape combined with the fact that he is 🍊 personified would make a bow around his head look so cute. he'd feel cute too.

🎀 sunwoo... ok first of all this man would come to YOU to do the trend. also he'd let you tie him up fully i am not even joking like this video!!

🎀 eric... this man is cheesy so he'd ask you to tie it on his ring finger. and you'd be like ?? and he'd say it's a placeholder for a future ring or smth corny 😭 i don't have video evidence but just trust me

[inky-writing]

Carlisle Cullen x Reader

Inky-writing masterlist Mirage masterlist

Warnings: none

Word count: 1,769

Chapter 4: Waves

End of October - Beginning of November

Another week passed in the quiet town of Forks, and Y/N found herself falling into a routine. Mike Newton had officially asked her to be his girlfriend, a fact that seemed to simultaneously thrill and annoy her friends. Jessica, in particular, had been acting a bit strange, she was still friendly but constantly on edge, and Y/N couldn’t quite put her finger on what was bothering her. Was it jealousy? Y/N hoped not, but the thought lingered.

Despite this, Y/N found herself in weekly outings with Angela and Jessica. Their girls dates were a much needed escape from school. That friday, they had gone to the coffee shop in town, where Jessica’s teasing about Mike had felt lighter than usual.

“So, how’s it going with Mike?” Jessica asked, stirring her drink absentmindedly.

“Everything’s… good, I guess?” Y/N replied, though her hesitation was noticeable.

Angela noticed her discomfort, “You don’t seem so sure. Is there something bothering you?”.

"I don’t know… Mike is nice, he just is overbearing sometimes, he doesn’t leave me space". 

Jessica rolled her eyes at that, but didn’t comment further, and the conversation shifted to lighter topics. Still, Y/N couldn’t shake the feeling that something unsaid hung between them.

Monday morning brought another change. Alice Cullen, who had previously been content to watch Y/N from a distance, suddenly began acting on it by sitting next to her in history class.

“Hi” Alice said brightly, sliding into the seat beside her.

“Uh, hi” Y/N replied, caught off guard.

Alice’s presence was disarming, her amber eyes were sharp yet kind. She didn’t offer an explanation for her newfound proximity, simply flashing Y/N a smile before focusing on the lecture. Y/N tried to ignore her, but it was difficult. Alice’s energy was magnetic, and her sudden interest felt extremely strange.

By the end of class, Y/N couldn’t help but ask, “So, what’s with the new seating arrangement?”.

Alice’s smile widened, “I thought it’d be nice to get to know you better. Besides, I’m great at history. If you ever need help, know I’ll be glad to”. 

Y/N blinked, unsure how to respond. Alice’s attention felt odd, but for now, she decided to let it go.

The weekend brought an unexpected adventure: a trip to La Push. Tyler had suggested it during lunch. By Saturday morning, the group—Tyler, Eric, Mike, Angela, Jessica, and Y/N—had piled into Tyler's van and made their way to the beach, surfboards strapped to the roof.

La Push was breathtaking, the rugged coastline lending it an untamed beauty. Y/N felt a pang of nostalgia as they arrived; she had been here before, years ago, when her parents had brought her to visit her dad’s brother, Charlie. The sight of it stirred memories she wasn’t entirely ready to confront.

As the group unloaded their gear, a familiar voice called out, “Y/N?”.

She turned to see Jacob Black approaching, his broad smile lighting up his face.

“Jake!” Y/N exclaimed, rushing to hug him.

Jacob laughed, wrapping her in a warm embrace. “It’s been forever! I didn’t know you were back in Forks”.

“Yeah, it’s been a couple of weeks now”, she said, stepping back. “How’ve you been?”.

“Good” Jacob replied, glancing at the group behind her, “Are these your friends?”.

“Yes! Let me introduce them to you” Y/N said with a small smile. “This is Mike, Angela, Jessica, Tyler, and Eric. Guys, this is Jacob Black, a childhood friend, we used to do mud cakes together with Bella”. 

Jacob nodded in greeting, his easygoing demeanor immediately putting everyone at ease. His friends, who had been standing nearby, joined the conversation, and soon the two groups had merged into one.

The rest of the day passed in a blur of activity. They surfed, played beachvolley, and shared snacks around a makeshift fire when night fell. Y/N couldn’t remember the last time she had laughed this much.

Mike stayed close to her, his protectiveness evident, but Jacob’s presence was a reminder of simpler times. He teased her about wiping out on the waves, and she retaliated by splashing him with the cold water.

Jessica, meanwhile, seemed to linger on the edges, her mood made of annoyance. She joined in the fun but often glanced toward Y/N and Mike, her expression filled with sadness and envy. Y/N made a mental note to talk to her later, hoping to clear the air.

As the moon hung high above them, casting the beach in shades of silver light, Y/N sat by the fire, listening to Jacob’s friends tell horror stories. The tales of wolves and spirits were captivating, and she found herself drawn to the passion in Jacob’s voice as he recounted them.

Mike leaned closer, draping an arm around her shoulders. She smiled at him, grateful for his warmth, but her mind kept wandering. There was something about this place, about the stories, that resonated with her in some kind of way.

As the evening wore on, Y/N realized that, for the first time in months, she felt a sense of belonging. Whether it was the camaraderie of her friends, the familiarity of Jacob, or the timeless pull of the ocean, she wasn’t sure. But in that moment, she allowed herself to simply be.

Thanksgiving

(Y/N listen to this: https://open.spotify.com/intl-fr/track/2kXK4q7xTS7Bn3HqXWShoN?si=f2552777eb1e4fff)

Thanksgiving in Forks was quiet for Y/N and Charlie. Neither of them celebrated the holiday, their shared discomfort with its origins made it easier to bypass the usual traditions. Instead, they spent the day in comfort. Charlie watched a football game on TV, and Y/N curled up on her bed in her room with a book and some music, grateful for the peace.

But it was elusive. Over the past week, she had learned something that refused to leave her mind: Jessica had been in love with Mike since primary school. It had slipped out during one of their girls date, and Y/N couldn’t think about anything else. Jessica hadn’t meant to say it, but it slipped, and her expression after the admission told Y/N everything she needed to know.

The realization made Y/N’s relationship with Mike feel even more strained. She’d already been having doubts, his constant need to be around her, his childish refusal to give her space, but now, it felt wrong on an entirely different level. She didn’t love him, not in the way he deserved to be loved. And the truth was, she hadn’t entered the relationship for the right reasons. She’d been lonely, grieving, and desperate for a distraction. Mike had been there, eager and comforting, but he wasn’t what she needed.

That evening, as she sat in her room staring at the ceiling, Y/N knew she couldn’t keep pretending. She would have to end things with Mike, no matter how awkward it made their friend group. Jessica deserved the chance to be with him, and Y/N needed to focus on herself.

The next day, Y/N had her weekly appointment with Dr. Cullen. Sitting across from him in his office, she felt a strange, at the same time comfored and nervous. Carlisle’s presence was always calming, but it also made her confront emotions she’d rather avoid.

“You seem distracted today” he said, his voice gentle.

Y/N hesitated, unsure how much to share. “It’s just… relationship stuff. Nothing major”.

Carlisle nodded, his eyes thoughtful. “Relationships can be complicated, especially when you’re still figuring out what you want. It’s okay to take a step back and evaluate what’s best for you”.

His words struck a chord, and Y/N found herself opening up more than she intended. “I think I got into it for the wrong reasons. Mike’s great, but… I don’t think I’m being fair to him. Or to myself”.

Carlisle offered her a small, understanding smile. “Honesty is important, both with yourself and others. It’s not easy, but it’s necessary for growth”.

Y/N nodded, feeling a weight lift from her chest. She wasn’t sure if she was ready to have the conversation with Mike, but she knew it was the right thing to do.

Meanwhile, her friendship with Alice Cullen continued to grow. The two had started sitting together regularly in history class, and Alice’s vibrant personality was quickly becoming a bright spot in Y/N’s days. Alice had a way of making her feel seen, as if she understood things about Y/N that even Y/N didn’t fully grasp yet.

One afternoon, as they walked out of class together, Alice turned to her with a grin. “Do you ever feel like history repeats itself? Like, not just in the world, but in your own life?”.

Y/N raised an eyebrow, caught off guard by the question. “I guess so. Why?”

Alice shrugged, her expression full of mystery. “Just a thought. You’re a fascinating person, Y/N. I think you’re going to do amazing things”.

The comment left Y/N puzzled. Alice’s words often were weird and mysterious, but Y/N wasn’t sure if she was ready to dig into it.

That weekend, Y/N finally decided to have the conversation with Mike. They met at the diner in town, where he greeted her with his usual enthusiasm. But as they sat down, Y/N’s nerves began to take over. 

“Mike, there’s something I need to talk to you about” she began, her voice trembling slightly.

He watched her fidgeting with her fingers, his smile faltering “What is it?”.

She took a deep breath “I think we rushed into this. You’re a great guy, but I… I don’t think I’m in the right place for a relationship right now. And it’s not fair to you”.

Mike looked stunned, his blue eyes wide with hurt, “Is this about Jessica? Did she say something?”

Y/N shook her head. “No! No, it’s not about her. This is about me. I need time to figure things out, and I can’t do that while I’m trying to be someone I’m not”.

For a moment, he didn’t say anything. Then he nodded, though his expression remained sad “Okay. If that’s what you need”.

Y/N felt a pang of guilt but knew she had made the right decision. As they parted ways, she felt a strange mix of relief and sadness. But, for the first time in months, she felt like she was starting to take control of her own life.

Chapter 5 >>>

[xxgothchatonxx]

"There's this extraordinary close-up of Assad where he's looking at Lestat and Nicki, and he kind of has this, like- like, wild, fiery kind of expression, and they did this amazing, like, zoom-in in his face. And I was standing behind the monitor watching it with Levan, and I was like, 'oh my God! That's, like, literally the character out of the book'. (...) That's just wild to see, like, that is Armand. That's amazing!"

Sam Reid talking about/praising Assad Zaman's performance as Armand. (A wonderful video where he also praises Jacob, Delainey and Eric)

(I'm assuming he means this look? I agree with Levan, he gives good face, lol)

[horsedylan]

Re: Who Came up With NBK

One of my mutuals reblogged and pointed out a common problem with those defences of Eric posts, and mentioned that they often demonize and then completely throw Dylan under the bus in the same way Cullen did to Eric “eric not to blame, both boys were responsible…but heres all the dumb ways im gonna demonize dylan and blame him for everything” type of shit. (I lowkey see more people doing this than people demonizing Eric these days, despite the fact that you have someone in your ear every 5 minutes reminding you of how bullshit Cullen’s theory is)

And honestly? Yeah. I’m lowkey fucking sick of seeing that shit and i’ve had this sitting in my drafts for awhile so;

First off. And short and sweet. It doesn’t matter who came up with it. It only matters if you point the finger and place blame on one boys shoulders, and suggest that there is something indicative in that. You can absolve Eric of leadership and coming up with the damn thing without demonizing Dylan for christ sake.

Long winded:

I do think people inadvertently place blame and subsequent resentment onto Dylan’s shoulders for Cullen’s mischaracterization of Eric, causing them to demonize Dylan in the same ways as a punishment. Intentional or no.

Its not Dylan’s fault. Its Cullens, but its also Eric’s. He wanted to be seen in this stupid way and he succeeded. Dylan wanted to be seen this way too but didn’t seem to realize people would see his “journal” (and had the benefit of living in one community the entire time so more people saw the real him, not what he became in his anguish)

And also Harrises parents for not coming forward about him to humanize him (even though you brain dead dorks whine about that while simultaneously whining about how Sue she should’ve shut the fuck up lol. Talk about retarded. Make up your fucking mind)

Thats not to say I think they’re evil mind you. In fact I think they get too much shit in this community. Its funny to joke but I couldn’t imagine doing that myself in their predicament. They were heartbroken and traumatized. Anyway…

You need not sling the whole responsibility onto Dylan to emphasize Eric’s humanity.

It is highly probable after the van arrest and after the tampon incident (which indeed was in January of 1998), they were commiserating in rage, and they came up with it at the same time. Neither boy was seriously plotting a massacre by themselves.(as a fantasy? Sure but seriously nah)

All those meetings they carpooled too? What do you think they talked about.

We don’t know who brought it up first. Many will say “oh dylan mentioned it first in his journal therefore HES THE EVIL MASTERMIND) but that means absolutely nothing.

Dylan just so happened to start his journal wayyyy before Harris. Eric only starts writing after they started planning. This does not mean Dylan came up with it, or was the leader.

I think you’d have to be pretty naive to believe eric (who had a very long standing anger problem) didn’t entertain the idea in private before. He was getting picked on way before 1997-98. Again. He had anger issues. If he wrote a journal back then I guarantee he would have wrote extensively about how he wanted to hurt the people that hurt him.

Not to mention the shit he mentioned to Sasha Jacobs about setting a bridge on fire in Plattsburg (?) or if we believe ex girlfriend Valerie Lage’s accounts..yeesh.

Again. Ultimately it doesn’t matter. It only matters when people try to point the finger and use it as a way to demonize. Which is why I’m responding to it. Otherwise again, i wouldn’t even be bringing it up. it wouldn’t matter.

Both boys at the end of the day agreed to shoot the place up.

And as far as the whole claim dylan was the leader..reallyyy? Disorganized apathetic dylan? That makes more sense to you? More than a collaborative project? Sure. Both boys wanted to impress each other. Both boys wanted to punish a world they felt rejected them.

I could just as easily be nitpicky and point the finger at Harris for a variety of things that would push blame on to him and suggest he wanted it more.

For supplying 70% or more of the funds for NBK (Dylan wasn’t working for a good while until December of 1998 when he got rehired at blackjacks, and had to pay car insurance/gas with the little he had, he was also paid less.)

and the place to build the bombs as it seems they were over at his place 90% of the time.

Or, and someone pointed this out to me today, the fact that Dylan if you look through their journals, he was still looking for a reason to stay up until January of 1999. (You could make the claim that he wanted to find a girl to do it with but i doubt he’d ever bring it up if he got a girlfriend unless she too had open anger issues and was toxic. Noo. Far too risky. What if she tells mom holy shit!)

Or that we have statements from the people who knew them that said Eric would yell at Dylan and Dylan would just take it and listen, etc.

Or this indicating hesitant resentment towards the idea of accepting that yes, this is how it has to be (yes im aware people interpret it differently) interesting how they always cut off that bottom part huh.

Or this possibly indicating dylan planned to off himself way before nbk could happen

But i’m not going to. Don’t take this as an actual serious argument for why Eric was to blame because he wasn’t and it means nothing. It serves no other purpose other than to cement my point, because again it’d be fucking stupid and nitpicky.

Both boys were perfectly capable of making decisions on their own.

I know we joke about Eric being retarded but he wasn’t he was very smart. I think had he gotten the opportunity to stay in one location to grow up he would have been designated as gifted too (maybe.)

—-Even in the basement tapes, Eric says this regarding the shootings:

“Do not think we’re trying to copy anyone. We had the idea before the first one ever happened. Our plan is better, not like those fucks in Kentucky with camouflage and .22s. Those kids were only trying to be accepted by others.”

We have far more reason to believe they were airing their frustrations and venting their rage regarding their arrest and realized they had a homicidal tendency in common with one another.

As for dylan hooting and hollaring more then eric..does it fucking matter again? Harris also taunted people. They both killed.

I think both boys respected two different forms of violence to some extent. Eric with the cold calculated professionalism of a solider, Dylan some confident crazy loud and in charge asshole. A complete opposite of who he had been his entire life.

Idk. We are so permissive of Eric’s little rape fantasies but not Dylan’s romanticism clearly inspired by NBK (the movie). Yes one actually happened but I don’t think it matters. To me even actual NBK was a fantasy for both until it happened. And often times the line between fantasy and reality is very..very thin imo.

Eric was not some angel. neither was Dylan. Ppft far from it. Big shocker I know. Both wanted to hurt people that day. Both killed people. Both wanted to blow up that fucking school and were okay with their friends dying in the process.

Well..maybe not okay but they didn’t want to dwell on it. (I dont think they actively spent too much time thinking about that part)

You think we’d know better than to demonize one boy over the other by now but no apparently not.

Even if Dylan came up with it it wouldn’t change anything or make them less equal in responsibility or cruelty. They both had to PLAN for it after the initial “hey lets do this”

The same goes for Eric.

Is it strange to think that the line between complete normalcy and what they did is also thin? Most boys i’ve befriended have admitted to fantasizing about murder in some capacity, either in a heroic way, a suicidal way, or in a villainous way. The only difference is that they don’t have the means or boldness to actually act on it.

Eric and Dylan found each other and that made them obtain both of those two things that tipped the scale.

I understand the goal is to recognize that Dylan had homicidal tendencies alongside Eric, but we’ve gone past that and completely turned Dylan into the evil mastermind behind everything.

We can like.. examine each boy compassionately instead of being brain dead and subverting an incorrect narrative. It doesn’t automatically correct itself just because you pulled the whole uno reverse thing.

C’monnnnnnuh.

Thank you for coming to my horse Ted Talk. No i will not be taking questions, argue amongst yourselves I just wanted this out there blahhh.

[riizewrtr]

can you describe tbz members with sex positions and where they usually do it?

oOooO i like this hehe i won't link any positions or pictures so you'll have to look them up yourself, lol sorry! maybe i will later when i'm not too busy!

Sangyeon likes doggystyle, he loves being able to grab your hair while he's thrusting into you and loves the way your ass jiggles, and mostly only enjoys sex at home in the safety of his bed

Jacob sorry but i see him as a normal missionary guy, he loves how intimate it is, being able to see the way your face scrunches in pleasure, being able to give you full on love and kisses while making love. like sangyeon he isn't too risky and would rather do it at home

younghoon likes the grasshopper, being able to still hold you but by the leg/thigh. he finds it sexy and it helps when he's a bit tired but still wanting to fuck you. likes it at home, if it's a quicky he can do it in a closet or bathroom max. nothing too crazy

hyunjae likes the lotus <3 it's very intimate and loving. he loves holding you and hugging you while he's making love to you. you would mostly do this position on a couch, he also likes to only fuck at home.

juyeon likes the cowgirl, he LOVES being rode!!! but he can still take over by thrusting his hips into you. i can see juyeon if he's REALLY needy he would do it in a closet or a bathroom, but likes to do many positions so would rather do it in a bed.

kevin i can see him liking 69 mostly during foreplay! but while fucking he likes the bodyguard, so standing while fucking! he can also carry you and fuck you standing since he likes showing how much he's been working out hehe so he can fuck anywhere especially if he's needy

chanhee is also like Jacob, he likes something intimate as missionary or maybe spooning, where it's really close and an intimate setting where you can just feel each other to the fullest. i can see chanhee only wanting to make love and not FUCK where he would go hardcore!! only fucks at home

changmin would like the butterfly, so he likes fucking you flat on your back while your legs are on his shoulders on a flat surface. so he can fuck in the kitchen or in the dining room on the table. he loves kissing and squeezing your thighs so your legs on his shoulders is heaven for him

haknyeon likes the flatiron position, he loves forcing you down on the bed. not face down ass up JUST FLAT!! he likes taking control and having that control over you. he likes how hard or soft he can go in that position and it makes your pussy a little bit tighter than usual since your legs aren't as fully spread so he enjoys it he can do a quicky bending you over in a closet max no where too crazy

sunwoo would love the joyride, it's similar to cowgirl except your feet/legs are by his head!! the way you grind against him is absolute heaven for him. he just loves the feeling of his cock grinding and moving around in your tight cunt. also likes it at home

eric also likes doggystyle but he can do it on the stairs at home, so bending you over the stairs and fucking the shit out of you there, where he can also hold you around the waist to give you sweet little kisses while groaning sweet nothings against your lips while fucking up into you <3

[kaleidoscope-vol2]

The 10 Best TV Episodes of 2024 - TV Guide

1. "I Could Not Prevent It," Interview with the Vampire

It's a testament to Interview with the Vampire's exceptional second season that just about any episode could be singled out for this list, but nothing brought the house down quite like its penultimate hour, "I Could Not Prevent It." The episode takes one of the most memorable, if underutilized, sequences from Anne Rice's first novel — the vampiric trial — and turns it into an elaborate night of theater, where Louis (Jacob Anderson), Claudia (Delainey Hayles), and Madeleine (Roxane Duran) are used as props in front of a rowdy, unsuspecting audience as they're tried for Louis and Claudia's near-murder of Lestat (Sam Reid) in Season 1. Director Emma Freeman and writers Kevin Hanna and Rolin Jones play up the macabre spectacle of the evening (that stage, those costumes, those hand-drawn animations!), all while maintaining the show's signature attention to detail, from the bloody slashes on the backs of Louis', Claudia's, and Madeleine's heels that prevent them from standing to the choice to outfit Lestat — back from the dead and acting as the would-be prosecution's star witness — in pinstripes that evoke prison bars.

The trial is as nightmarish as it is mesmerizing, answering one of the show's most longstanding questions — what became of Claudia? — while raising new ones — was Armand (Assad Zaman) really as helpless during those proceedings as he claimed? Interview with the Vampire has always leaned into the thorny unreliability of memory, but that theme reaches its absolute climax during the trial, which Lestat uses as an opportunity to retell two important scenes from Season 1 from his perspective, both of which show Louis behaving differently than he originally recalled. "That's not how it happened," a disoriented Louis shouts, before a cut to present-day Dubai, where Louis mournfully admits to Daniel (Eric Bogosian), "That is how it happened."

But, in the end, "I Could Not Prevent It" belongs to Claudia. Until now, her tragic fate has been a mystery, but, as Lestat warned in that first flashback, there was never a future for her — an adult in a child's body — in this world. While Louis' life is spared (through trickery that becomes the crux of the finale), Claudia and Madeleine are sentenced to death. In a beam of sunlight, the women cling to each other, their love story cut short as they're burned alive, with Claudia using her last breaths to sing one final rendition of "I Don't Like Windows When They're Closed," the song that the coven had taunted and infantilized her with. She turns her head toward Lestat as her body blows away: a child looking to her father in a moment of need. All that's left of her is her yellow dress, which is swept up by Santiago (Ben Daniels) as the episode fades to black in silence, a rare moment when this lyrical series knows no words could suffice. -Allison Picurro

[xetlynn]

Chapter Ten, Steam

(Alice x Reader x Jasper)

[Nine] [Ten] [Eleven]

I sat with Mike, Angela, Jessica and Eric like usual. Listening to them rant about the illness going around.

I then look up to see Bella carrying her tray of food to her normal table but then looks at us. I smile, encouraging her to do it. She takes a deep breath and joins us. I watch as the others take note but continue talking.

"I'll kill Tyler if he gave me his flu." Jessica threatens. "It's going around. My sister was so sick she couldn't come on our hike this weekend... so she didn't see it." Angela frowns, they were talking about a large animal. "Ang, maybe you should keep that to yourself." He whispers to her.

"We saw something Eric." Angela argues with him. "I believe you." He assures her. "No he doesn't. He's just trying to get lucky." Jessica calls him out.

"Is that an option?" Eric asks in a hopeful tone. "It was jet black and huge; on all fours it was still taller than a person. A bear maybe." She explains what it is and I stiffen up.

That's definitely one of the Quileute boys...

"Or Big Foot." Jessica interjects. "Or an alien. Lucky you didn't get probed." Mike jokes. "We saw it." Angela whispers and my face softens, I believe her but I can't be the one to speak up. "You're not the only one." Bella says, everyone then stares at her, shocked that she actually spoke up. "My dad's been getting reports at the sheriff's station. A couple hikers went missing. People are scared." She explains, everyone's now sitting a little straighter due to what she said. "I did hear some guy talking about it at the store." Mike admits. "Last time you clowns doubt my girlfriend." Eric puts his arm around Angela, now they all continue to another conversation.

Angela moths a thanks to Bella. Sharing a smile before they both join in. Bella rejoining the group again.

"You look scared." Jacob tells Bella, I stand there with my arms crossed. "I'm not." She's lying, she's now on one of their completed motorcycles, Jacob stands next to her, holding the bike up.

Now on the La Push forest clearing, a dirt road, Jacob runs through the instructions. "Brake?" She taps it. "Clutch?" She squeezes it. "Right. Gas?" She then grips it, he smiles up at her. "You ready?" She nods, he then grins, kick starting the bike. "Slowly release the clutch."

She does as told, the bike moves forward an inch. Jacob nervously steps back and she moves another inch forward. I notice her turning to find something. Her hand slipping off the clutch and the bike bucks and falls on top of her. Jacob and I quickly lift it off of her. "You okay? Bruises, breaks?" He questions her and I stare down at her. "I'm going again."�� She tells us. "I'm not sure that's a good-" She's already up and hopping back on the bike. "Guess we're going again. Now what are you going to do with the clutch?" He asks her.

"Release it. Slowly." He nods, kick-starting the bike again. She releases the clutch and moves forward. Slowly at first.

Now she keeps going, a tiny bit faster. I notice as she is looking around and then the curve up ahead gets closer to her. "I don't- How do I turn!?" She yells to us. I drop my arms and I want to run to her but it would give myself away to Jacob. "Bank it! Bank- hit the brake!" He shouts. "Hit the break, Bella!" I scream. Both of us running to her. I try to match my pace with his, She reaches the turn, not banking and goes straight.

Flying right into a wall of trees. As she lies on the ground dazed, we hurry to her. "What are you training for the X-games?" He questions her. My nostril flares as I can already smell her blood. "I want to go again." She says. "Forget it. I'm revoking your motorcycle privileges. Man, look at your head." He tells her, I back away from the sight. Holding my nose. Normally blood doesn't affect me, but it's been a while since I've been hunting.

"God, I'm sorry." Bella shrinks as Jacob pulls his shirt off to wipe the blood. "You're apologizing for bleeding?" He questions her. "It uh bothers name." She points to me as I then pretend to gag at the sight.

Knowing it's really just making my mouth water like feigning animal. "[Name] you alright?" He asks me and I just put my thumb up. "I uh, I'm gonna go over there." I look away from them , hurrying away.

I go into the woods, far away from them. I can hear them talking but I know that they won't be able to hear me.

Shit, why haven't I gone hunting in so long. I feel the pain of smelling her blood. My nose stinging as my mouth waters tensely. I cover my mouth to muffle the sound of my groans.

I then see a deer walking, my body starting to shake as I try to control myself. I squeeze my eyes. Looking back to the entry of the forest. They can't see me. I'm going to have to not be messy with this. I then surprise attack the deer.

Wiping the blood off of my face, I cover the deer with leaves, cleaning myself off as well.

"[Name]!?" Jacob calls after me. I curse mentally. Checking myself one more time and I walk over to him.

"I'm right here." I laugh. "Sorry, blood really freaks me out. I had to throw up." I lie to him, walking up to him. His facial expression shows confusion. "You never had that problem when we were kids. You were the one who practically played doctor when one of us got hurt." He remembers and I bite my bottom lip thinking of what to say.

"Yeah, then in Arizona a kid broke his leg, bone out and all. I've gotten sick at the sight of blood ever since." I pick up a quick lie, he seems suspicious but shrugs it off, both of us leaving the area.

Charlie and I are watching a game, well more Charlie than I am. I'm more focused on Bella doing homework, she's on edge. Jacob hasn't respond to texts or calls after they went out to the movies together with Mike. She wanted me to go too since it was going to be awkward for her, knowing both boys like her. I refused though, not wanting to be caught up in that mess. She told me Jake wasn't feeling good at the end of the night, feeling extremely warm.

She's been trying to call him, she had the flu too so she wanted to make sure he's alright too.

As the next few days passed I heard her try to call him over and over again. Now we're in the kitchen, she left yet another message. Charlie comes into the room.

"Harry and I will be back by three." His sentence stops when he sees her, putting a hand on her shoulder. "It's mono, Bells." He softly reminds her. "He's too sick to even call?" She exclaims. "You just gotta wait it out. You know, I don't have to go fishing..." He says, even though he desperately wants to go. "No, go. I have [Name]. I'll just call Jessica or something." She forces a smile. "Good but you two stay here or at Jess's. No hikes or anything. We're issuing a warning about those bears." Charlie sternly tells us.

But of course Bella and I don't listen, After we watched Charlie and Harry leave we went to the woods. Bella tries to navigate her way to the meadow with a map and a compass. "You know I could just get the top of a tree and probably find it easily right?" I remind her, she just hums in response. I just let out a sigh, continuing to follow behind her. I know it's a wolf that everyone's seeing but I want Bella to feel a little safer so I can along.

After a while I see Bella notice the clearing ahead, hurrying towards it. Once she goes into the opening she seems hopeful. Like something... someone will be there waiting for her. She told me about the sun that would be out but instead it's cold, gloomy and cloudy. Bella sinks to her knees, I frown at the sight.

Before she can even cry, we hear a rustling noise. We turn towards it, I move my body to cover hers. Another noise coming from a different area of the woods. Then we turn to another noise and Laurent is a few yards away. My body stays in front of Bella.

"Laurent?" She questions.

"Bella. [Name]." He acknowledges my existence as well. "I must admit, I didn't expect to find you two here." He admits to us. "We live here. But you- I thought you were in Alaska with Carlisle's friend." She brings up.

"Tanya, I was. It was kind of him to arrange, given my association with James and Victoria. The enemy." He smiles to himself. "You tried to help us." Bella disagrees with the last part. Laurent begins to stroll in a slow arc around us. Bella grips onto the sleeve of my jacket. Every movement he makes I follow. "I went to visit the Cullen, but their house is empty. I'm surprised they left you two behind. As you were some sort of pet and you... you turned." He grins. "Congratulations." I roll my eyes in response. I begin to feel Bella's fear. "Um... something like that." She tells him.

"Do the Cullen visit often." He looks between the both of us. "Absolutely. All the time." Bella lies. Good call. "I'll tell them you stopped by." She's trying to soothe her body. I begin to focus on my energy while also on him. Any step closer and I'll tear his head off. "Will they be able to reach you in Alaska?" She questions.

"I don't think so. Tanya's vegetarian family was pleasant enough. But the dietary restrictions were difficult- living on nothing but animals." He then looks at me, smirking.

"Something you've been finding difficult lately, hm?" He whispers, only audible to me. I give him a look. I haven't tried human at all. What is he talking about?

"Tell me Bella. Do you ever fell compelled to cheat?" She tries to step back while also holding me but I keep my stance. "But that's not why I left. I came back here as a favor to Victoria." She

"You're still friends."

"More or less. She asked me to get the lay of the land with the Cullen. Because, well... I'm afraid Victoria is quite put out with you." He informs her. "That's too back." She responds. My eyes glare him down, he's not focused on me. He doesn't know my ability. "Yes. She feels it's only fair to kill Edward's mate, given he killed hers. Eye for an eye, mate for mate." He tells her, Bella's heart quickens each word he speaks.

"Edward will know who did it. He'll come after both of you." She knows to not bring up my ability. "I don't think he will. After all, how much could you mean to him if he left you here unprotected?" He then glances at me again, he thinks I'm not a threat. "Victoria sent me here for information. She won't be happy about my killing you." He hums. "No, Laurent..."

"No, no, no. Don't be upset. I'm doing you a kindness. Victoria plans on killing you both slowly. Painfully, whereas I'll make it very quick." I'm apart of it now too?

"And you smell so mouth watering." Laurent inhales my sisters scent which grosses me out. He then shoves me out of the way, taking Bella into his arms.

Shit.

I hear her whisper something. I stand up, then look over to see a black wolf. It's Sam. He skulks out of the darkness of the woods. Letting out a disturbingly deep growl, his sharp teeth gleaming. I smile at the sight of the others coming out. I go over to Sam. Laurent goes to bolt across the meadow. I use my ability to slow him down, weaken him.

"What is-" He stares back at me, noticing it's my doing. The wolves then spring out, seemingly towards Bella but then leap above her. It's impossible for Laurent to fight back as my ability weakened him into an almost human state.

"Run, Bella." I push her towards the way we came in. "What about you?" She panics. "They're good. It's okay." I tell her. She then runs like she was told.

Once she's out of sight I run to the mess they've made of Laurent. His limbs all over the place. Sam and who I think is Jacob come up to me. I smile.

"Good timing." I pet who I think is Jacob. "I'm sorry you turned." I sadly look at him. He whines a bit, backing away from my hand. Sam makes a low grumbling noise.

"I'll make the fire and then meet you guys at the rez." I tell the five wolves. Sam huffs. Paul comes up, purposely bumping into me, whipping me with his tail. "Hey, get going now." I order them.

Sam does a quiet howl, they make their way away from the scene and I pick up Laurents limbs, putting them in a pile.

After putting out the fire I rush back to my house. Charlie is already angrily storming out the door. "I'm going to the station, you want to come?" He asks. "No thanks, I'm gonna go to the Rez." I tell him, he comes over and gives me a quick side hug and kiss on the forehead before getting in his car. Bella comes out.

"Can you come with me to get Jacob?" She asks, storming towards her truck. "Uh-" "I'm going either way." She opens the truck door. I let out a groan, she's already taking off so I look around and then jump onto the back of the truck bed. She looks in the back and I irritably wave, she tries to hide her smile as she continues to drive. I stay sat in the back.

Feeling rain droplets start to fall on me. Lifting my hands I feel the rain. Then notice my hands steam, I begin to panic. Going to yell to Bella but then it stops and I close my mouth. What is happening? I feel my chest begin to pound and the steam emits once again off my body.

Stop stop stop stop.

Bella's truck goes to a halt and I stand up from the truck bed. The steam stops again. The rain only getting harsher.

Bella and I head to the door, she knocks. No one answers. Then a second time and finally Billy is at the door. "Hi, Billy. I know Jacob's sick but-" "He's out with friends." He cuts her off. She seems taken aback. "Oh." "I'll let him know you came by." He begins to close the door but Bella stops him. "Wait- he's got mono, right? That's what you told my dad." She interrogates him. "You should go home, Bella." Then he finally closes the door.

Bella storms down the stairs, getting into her truck and slamming the door behind her, obviously pissed. She begins to start the truck but then stops, tossing the keys aside. I slowly walk down myself, instead of going towards the truck I go to where I can hear five boys rough housing in the woods.

I speed off to where I hear them, peeking out from a tree as they don't even notice me.

"You know for wolves. It was pretty easy for me to sneak up on you." I fold my arms in front of my chest, they all jolt, getting into an attack position but once they realize it's me they calm down.

"Jake you're hurting my sister." I point a finger in his face. "I don't have a-" "Ah," I cut him off. "I didn't ask for excuses. We all have choices." I then look over to Sam who doesn't look me in the eye. "He really doesn't have a choice." Paul speaks up and I laugh. "He does, everyone does. You guys just choose the dumb ones!" I throw my hands up in the air.

"Well here's a choice you have, you're a bloodsucker who has the choice to be something better." Jacob throws in my face and my eyes widen. "Excuse me?" I step closer to him, Sam places a hand on his chest, pushing him back. "Jacob that's not-" "You told him!?" I glare at Sam.

"I can't control it, wolves read each others minds. I don't get to hide anything." Sam defends himself, I close my eyes tightly, now angered. "Jacob apologize to my sister or so help me." I spit in his face, shoving him against a tree before I walk away. I hear Sam jog after me, the boys looking after Jacob.

"[Name], I swear I didn't mean for anyone to know." He tells me and I just ignore him. "[Name], I'm sorry." He's practically pleading and a part of me wanted to stop to listen to him. That child in me who had the biggest crush on Sam Uley wanted to stop. But the other part, the person I am today, refuses to even look him in the eye after the betrayal he committed for his own selfish reasons.

I then see Jacob at Bella's truck, her climbing out. "You cut your hair." She announces. "Go away." Jacob turns away and bite the inside of my mouth. She grabs onto his arm. "What happened to you?" She asks him and he turns back as the others wait for him, out of earshot.

"I can help." She lowers her voice. His face is stern, shaking his head. "Sam got to you. What did he do?" Bella questions, obviously concerned for her friend. "Sam's trying to help me, don't blame him." He retracts. "Then who?"

"How about those filthy, reeking bloodsuckers you love? The Cullens... your sister." He says, he obviously didn't realize I was there, if my heart was working it would be broken by the fact that he just said that. "I... don't know what you're-" "You know exactly what I'm talking about." His body was shaking with anger.

"The Cullens are long gone. How are they to blame? And [Name] is still her how could you say that..." Her face falls. "They started all this by existing. Goddamn leeches-" "Jacob." Sam gives him and look and Jacob takes a breath, then he finally notices I'm there, rolling his eyes before going back to talking to Bella.

"I can't be friends with you anymore." He tells her. "Jake, I know I hurt you, I should have been more up-front but I needed you, I still do. I don't know what that means yet, but if you give me time-" "Stop. Don't it's not you." His humanity is still there, Sam is making him do this.

"It's not you it's me? God." Bella shakes her head. "It's true. I'm not good." He tries to find the right words. "You're wrong-" "It's doesn't matter. This is over." He tells her.

'"I can't take losing my best friend too." Bella's voice breaks.

"You already have-" "don't say that- you promised!" She tries to remind him, it was an effortless fight though.

"Go home, Bella. Don't come back." He runs away, joining the group to leave Bella standing in the rain.

I helped Bella into her truck and it felt like that day all over again. Only this time I was filled with a rage I've never felt before.

And when we got home I knew there was something wrong with me as Bella said the only words I never wanted to hear again. "[Name], you're really hot. Like burning." She mutters to me, backing away from my body. "I think you're hallucinating." I wave it off, lying to her is my best option right now. Charlie comes out and helps her inside. I sit in the truck, nervous about the steam with the rain again, it would prove that I'm heating up instead of being cold.

I can't turn. I can't.

I curl up in the truck seat, wanting to cry.

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Oh I love these:

Jacob Anderson

On Sam Reid's performance as dream Lestat: "I noticed after we did a few scenes together with that dynamic, I would just notice Sam copying me. I would have to be like, 'OK, he's studying the way that I stand or the way that I say things. It's the story. It's what's supposed to be happening.' But occasionally I was like, 'I don't do that!' Now I've seen the season, and I'm like, 'It's genius.' I'm looking forward to seeing what Sam says about playing Louis, essentially. It's Lestat as Louis remembers him, filtered through the things that Louis doesn't want to say, and can't say. And maybe the things that Louis is embarrassed or ashamed about, Lestat just says it."

Sam Reid

On Lestat and Armand's relationship: "They have a very, very, very messy relationship. I think a big part of why Lestat didn't want to go back to France, in Season 1, when they were in New Orleans, is because he doesn't want to run into Armand. He doesn't want to see Armand. He's got a very, very complex relationship with him. It's not like he's like, "Ugh, Armand!" [Disgusted noise] It's like, "Ugh." [Exasperated noise] He's not twisty, turny, thinking about Armand every single day or whatever. He's like, "Ugh, I just would rather… Yeah, I don't want him around." But when he does the flick of his wrist when he thinks about Armand, he's also flicking a huge chunk of his life away."

Delainey Hayles

On Louis and Claudia's relationship: "The book became like my Bible in a way, where I was able to look back and look at how Anne Rice describes Claudia. And I was taking into consideration that it's been her and Louis for a very long time. As a child, you absorb your surroundings. Claudia has spent a lot of time with Louis over the past couple of years. So I think, in a way, his empathy kind of rubs off on her."

Assad Zaman

On the show's memory theme: "I personally think often we equate — if the memory's a little bit inaccurate, then the feeling isn't real. [But] if you think back to our childhood, we elaborate on the stories in our heads so much, and often the tiniest things, moments that meant a lot to us become bigger as we remember them. Time slows down or speeds up, and people become larger or smaller in our heads depending on how they made us feel in that time. I think [there's] a lot of that this season — when we go into Paris, I think that's where the performative nature comes into it. We get to really embrace those emotions. The love between Louis and Armand, the romance, is one of the most beautiful parts of it, the way it starts."

Eric Bogosian

On his experience working on the show: "To be working on such complex material and be asked to do things that I haven't done before, and to be working with such amazing creative team — I mean... I've been around. I'm not speaking from, like, this is my second show or my third show. This is like, my 35th show, or 60th, or something. So when I say that Rolin [Jones] is amazing, Hannah [Moscovitch] is amazing — that's our writing team — and that Jacob and Assad are amazing — these guys are very generous. And I think a lot about [how] when you go into deep work as an actor, you have to feel safe. I have definitely not been safe [in the past], especially with men. Men can be real jerks on set, and the audience can't see it, because we have to do our job. But if you're with a bully star, it's hard to go to where you need to go to. And Jacob, who's mainly who I'm working with, he's a very loving guy. Maybe people don't want to know this about him. Maybe I'm only supposed to say things like, 'In real life he's actually a vampire,' but in real life, he's actually a real, very sweet man. Very human."

Ben Daniels

On Santiago's approach to the theater: "It's like people trolling on Twitter. It's like, they're hidden behind the screen, but his screen is the fact that he's pretending to be a human. And he sort of is getting those mortals by the scruff of the neck and saying, 'Look at yourselves. Look how ridiculous and pathetic you are.' But they lap it up because they think it's a show."

THERE'S MORE!

[scrapyardboyfriends]

Judging by your recaps of storylines, it sounds like SA, teen pregnancy and cancer are very popular plots they’ve explored lately?

It really is getting ridiculous.

I mean they did stop the sexual assault stories for a while, probably due to Covid. So we got a little break. But...

Sexual Assault Stories - Lydia - raped by her childhood friend and I think the father of her baby that died, Craig - was resolved with him ending up dead and a Dingle focused whodunnit but then he was actually killed by Kim's horse. It was ridiculous.

- Ruby - raped and abused by her father, Anthony. Steph was born of that incest. - resolved with another whodunnit where Aaron beat him up and thought he killed him and John disposed of the body and then it turned out that Ruby killed him - still on going with Ruby, Caleb, Cain, Moira, Chas, Aaron, John, Steph and Joe in on the cover up.

Obviously before Ryan left there was Alicia, Aaron, Rhona, Charity, Jacob and Vic.

Teen Pregnancy Stories - Gabby - had a little fling/one night stand with Jamie Tate and ended up pregnant. Of course kept the baby because she'd just had a loneliness story that went nowhere. Jamie ditched her so she's been a single mom for a while now. Aged her too fast.

- Amelia - had a one night stand with Samson who had a crush on her even though she had a crush on Noah but he wouldn't sleep with her. Of course she decided to keep the baby cause she's a good christian girl. Samson and Noah swapped personalities and Samson was kind of horrible to everyone and didn't want to be a dad (fair) but then Noah who was awful suddenly became good and stepped up to try and be a dad to Esther until Amelia eventually ended things with him. Amelia eventually moved away.

- Chloe - I think she was 19/20, not totally sure. Had a one night stand with Mack after he and Charity sort of broke up/had a fight about her not wanting to try for another baby after she had just had a miscarriage. So of course Chloe got pregnant. It was their version of the Hell Plot. Eventually resulted in her leaving with baby Rueben and now Mack doesn't see his kid. Sound familiar?

- April - barely on screen forever but was apparently out partying and had a one night stand off screen and then ran away from home to live on the streets where she gave birth to a stillborn baby. They showed it all in special flashback episode.

Cancer Stories - Vanessa - had bowel cancer I believe while Michelle left for her first maternity leave and Vanity broke up.

- Faith - had terminal breast cancer

- Chas - got breast cancer and had a double mastectomy and is apparently fine now

- Aaron - found out he has the BRCA 2 cancer gene

- Sarah - cervical cancer

- Evan - Dawn and Billy's mostly off screen baby who has leukemia

- Moira - had a brain tumor to give us the whole Nate exit plot nonsense with John killing him.

Not to mention Eric has Parkinson's and then whatever this boring Bear story is, plus Joe's kidney failure and subsequent kidney theft.

It's just...a lot.