#jw writes stuff

[wisteria-grows-here]

I have a lil personal announcement that I'm super excited about!

On Wednesday, the literary magazine I submitted my first published piece to will be launched!

I've been studying writing in college for several years now, something I never thought possible while growing up as a JW. I was fully expecting to never continue my education after high school and settle into the ministry. Instead, I've been working on myself and studying the humanities.

My piece is called Eating My Daily Bread in Hell and is creative nonfiction prose. On Wednesday, I'll be posting it here. 😊🫶

[ashleyfanfic]

Chapters: 2/5 Fandom: Game of Thrones (TV), A Song of Ice and Fire - George R. R. Martin Rating: Explicit Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Gendry/Arya Stark, Robb Stark/Margaery Tyrell, Sansa Stark/Dickon Tarly Characters: Gendry (A Song of Ice and Fire), Arya Stark, Jon Snow, Robb Stark, Sansa Stark, Dickon Tarly, Sandor Clegane, Rickon Stark Additional Tags: prequel to Legend's of Winter's Peak, Strangers to Friends to Lovers, POV Arya Stark, POV Gendry (A Song of Ice and Fire), First Crush, First Kiss, First Time, elopment, Period Typical Attitudes, set in the early 1920s, Mourning, Sadness, Death, arya is legal, lying, Bootleggers, Moonshine, Alcohol Series: Part 3 of Legends of Winter's Peak Summary:

As the Starks struggle to hold their lives together, for Arya, hope comes walking up the mountain.

[mistfallengw2]

Really hoping the new release will kick me out of this slump. Too many things are making me struggle IRL (rough decisions and waiting for things outside of my control) and I need this exp to be a refreshing mental vacation, one that can give me plenty of positive inspiration to zap my creativity back to life and a bounty of ripe carrots to chase on bad days.

[shuenkio]

Hide And Seek | Yjw. ❤️‍🔥 [From request]

Paring: Jungwon x male!reader

Genre: Smut 18+ [don't like don't press]

Cw: pure explicit, mentioned of dicks, protect sex, first time jw & reader, cum, rough sex etc.

Summary: Whoever loses, will pay the price.

Non proof read / wc: 1.1k

Eng is not my 1st lang.

A/N: Still working on how to write SMAU and again, I wrote this at night rn so mistake could appear, sorry at advance.

You lose a bet to your not-so-innocent boyfriend, Jungwon. which you promise to do anything as he told you since most of the time you're always winning and you make him do silly kinds of stuff, such as meowing, wearing cat ears and aegyo. Jungwon said he no longer likes doing cute stuff anymore, he wants to be more mature however he's willing to do those just for you when you win the game back then but for now he's changed just like he said, mature.

Instead of giving you a hard time doing as he demands, Jungwon just told you to play hide and seek with him, and those who lose this time will pay the consequences, a very good one. You chuckle, after hearing those. Overconfident that you'd win against him once again as you're so good at hiding but all that joy died down once he unannounced the last words.

"If I catch you, I'm going to fuck you m/n," Jungwon said, slightly rise his lip as in a dark expression. Giving you another reason that he's not joking this time, he's being serious and he might do just like he said, fuck you.

You swallow hard, low-key scared at your Boyfriend's sudden black aura however you still want to challenge him, to make the game fair.

"Cool, I'll let you have me for the very first time after dating for years, I'm challenging my love~"

"Oh hoo- very brave of you m/n I already had my plan I'll find you my gummies"

That was the last word you heard from him. You're now hiding in the most obvious place ever, a closet but you know you did a very good job, of blending in with all those clothes and you also know, Jungwon rarely opens the closet... In the storage room.

The apple didn't fall far from its apple tree, suddenly Jungwon opened the closet with his extended into two as his playful smile yet satisfied appeared on his face.

"Catch ya~ m/n!"

The next thing you know, both of you two are exposed to each other. Jungwon's cock is standing in all glory despite how small he is you had seen his figure when he has his clothes on. Clothes manipulation it's real. You thought your boyfriend's size wouldn't be that big, but no. You're wrong. Jungwon's manhood is much more than you expected. Just like they say, the skinny guy always has the best package and so does he.

He was fat in both girth and size, not gonna lie he was long. Long enough to make you cry in an ecstasy mess.

Jungwon wasted no time before taking hold of both of your limp, spreading apart as he lean down, captures your sweet ass with his tongue and began to give you a nice licking.

It feels so weird yet so good since this is your very first time doing so, even though you had pleasures yourself in the bathroom all the time but having your love giving you a tongue under you instead? You let out your gasp from a shockwave.

"J-jungwon too good feel too good let's do it i-am ready" you utter, with your breathless and non-stop heaving chest. Begging him to claim you as his own which as a result, he responds with a moan, still enjoying giving you a head, continues to lick wet at your entrance while you hold onto his head.

"Don't be so impatient gummies, for now, brace yourself— would you like it insanely raw or protection gummies?" Jungwon ensures, as much as he wants to do it with you with no condom on that he's still respecting your decision. You almost shed a tear at his words but you chose to keep it safe and said to come along with a condom.

Jungwon nodded before he grabbed a condom, and pulls it overall in, wrapped around his long slimy leaking cock. The texture of the condom, gave him a chill and a sensation at the tip of his cock as he dropped his jaw open, and let out a small gasp.

"I'm going in m/n, I'm going to make us closer than ever!" Jungwon informs as he lines himself at your entrance before sliding in the tip Inside.

The new sensitivity from his tip, almost driving you nuts. Making you cry loudly echoes all over the bedroom. Jungwon was uncut however, his size did him justice to make you feel so right, just one tip already send you jolts.

Jungwon's too were inhales Sharpy, feeling your wall clenching his glan tight. The most sweet spot out of all parts of the cock.

"Can I go in m/n? I want to make your first time unforgettable! Should I go rough or gently hm?"

"Pl-please go, rough love, I wanna feel all of you" you reply desperately, sweat begins to drip down from all the hotness. Jungwon nods and lowers himself slowly until he's all in.

You squeak in a high pitch note, as you quickly cover your mouth with your palm. Jungwon seems to be worried about you, nevertheless, you assure him that it's fine, you're very sensitive that's all.

To make you feel right, He began to grind you from a gentle pace to his balls making skin-slapping sounds between your legs.

Jungwon didn't hide the fact he was too, trembling and shaking from this fuck session, the tip of his cock already found your button at its first attempt. This fuels him more into the world of ecstasy, throwing his head facing up at the white blank ceiling, shoving his hip against you unstoppable.

As expected, you started to feel your orgasm buildings inside his cock, buried and pounding in a rough motion.

"I'm too close jungwon, this is gonna be my biggest explosion ever"

"Fuck holy shit nrgg--m/n I do to hmm I'm gonna c-cum I'm sorry"

Once you reached your climax, white sticky liquids explode from your hand-free dick as it leaks on your belly.

Meanwhile, Jungwon, feeling the same way as you before pulling his cock out of your arse, takes off his condom away and shoots all the hot loads all over your body, including your face too.

"Shibal... Very sensitive arg" [shibal= fuck]

Finally, the first round ended with both of you reached the most thrilling climax ever. Jungwon was still standing, catching his breath, as his leg shaking from the stimulation despite his's also the first time.

How about you? You were almost passed out, chest heaving, as you tried to grab some air from his hard-core fuck. The fact he said he would fuck you, he meant it. Jungwon ate you up and left you no crumbs.

"Sorry m/n if I'm too hard on you, I'll take care of everything"

"*Huff* I see you're being mature now love, but your heart still not mature enough hehe"

🗣️ Please mind my English! ><

🗣️Reblog and like is much appreciated ♥🗣️crd to all the owners dividers

[iwillneverforgiveyousunghanbin]

french press

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wc: 1.2k reader: femme/gender neutral (gender warnings: reader is wearing lingerie, reader "pushes t*ts together" -- you've been warned) warnings: smut 18+; MINORS DNI!!! -- specific warnings under the cut -- also some angst and some funny stuff summary: jiwoong has a biiit of a jealousy problem. he's so jealous rn that he won't even touch you :( with his permission, you take matters into your own hands (and onto his thigh). *ੈ✩‧₊˚ oh helloooo. long time no see. decided to write something for the hell of it. maybe i'll write some more soon...

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warnings: 18+ explicit smut, thigh-riding, penetrative sex (reader receiving), descriptions of cum (reader's and jw's), unprotected sex, cumming inside, jealousy/toxicity, swearing, pet names (baby, angel)

also the title is VERY clever. french press: french masseusse pierre and... mating press. i'll leave now.

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“baby,” you whine, pushing your arms together a bit to accentuate your tits. “don’t you wanna touch? you love touching my tits.”

the sheer, black lingerie set you were saving for a special occasion is hugging every curve of your body perfectly as you straddle your boyfriend. a garter belt squeezing around your right thigh, you know you’re irresistible to anyone with a pulse.

but apparently your boyfriend has passed away since he sat down on the couch with a huff twenty minutes ago. he’s still warm though and that’s permission enough for you to let him have it.

“oh my god,” you groan; smacking your hand on the leather armrest like a frustrated child. “woongie! want you to touch me so bad.”

“well, you should’ve thought of that before you let another man put his hands all over you,” jiwoong answers-- head turning to the side in the ultimate display of pettiness. 

you sigh exasperatedly. “it was a massage, woongie. a professional one that you paid for!”

“so?” he asks with a pout. “are you suggesting i’m a cuckold by my own doing?”

“you are the only one suggesting that actually,” you reply, running your hands down his clothed chest. “the only thing i’m suggesting is that you fuck me. and i’m strongly suggesting it.”

“oh yeah?” jiwoong responds, one eyebrow raised in interest. “are you sure those words aren’t actually meant for pierre: the unnecessarily handsome french masseuse?”

“you literally gave me a gift certificate for my birthday!” you exclaim, hitting his chest lightly in frustration. “baby, i tried to request an ugly massage therapist. the woman at the desk looked at me like i was being rude. and i was! for you.”

jiwoong’s eyes go straight to your barely-covered core and you think for a second he’s finally about to give in. “you asked for an ugly masseuse and she gave you a former louis vuitton runway model? i should’ve just given you tickets to magic mike live!”

“kim jiwoong-ah, if you don’t fck me right now, i swear to god,” you threaten emptily, sinking down on one of his grey sweatpant-adorned thighs. “i’m just gonna use you however i want.”

jiwoong folds his arms across his chest in a final act of defiance, attention returning to the tv screen. “knock yourself out.”

it takes everything in you not to whine like a little spoiled brat, but you manage to suppress it. instead, you grind a little harder down onto jiwoong’s thigh. his legs are lazily spread apart in the most enticing way. you could reach right down his pants and grab him in your hands (a tried and true method that jiwoong loves), but you have something to prove too.

so you repeat the grinding motion, your heat connecting again with the toned flesh of your boyfriend’s perfect thighs. at first it’s just for show-- you need his attention and you’ll do anything you have to to get it back.

but after a few moments, a soft moan escapes your throat. jiwoong’s breath audibly hitches; his body stiffening a bit at the sound of your pleasure. despite this, his eyes stay fixed on the screen.

as a familiar knot grows just below your stomach, you almost start to forget about your goal. maybe it’s desperation speaking, but riding your boyfriend’s thigh is actually a lot more stimulating than you thought it’d be. 

“fuck,” you whine, increasing your pace involuntarily. your hands are gripping the back of the couch, eyes closing as you rapidly approach your high.

suddenly, jiwoong’s thigh grows harder-- a sturdier surface for you to grind on. he’s flexing his muscles for you, helping you reach your climax like the perfect boyfriend he is.

“gonna cum all over my thigh, baby?” jiwoong asks, voice already noticeably fucked out. it’s not a mystery who won this game. “gonna make a mess all over my pants like a fucking angel?”

“i--... oh my god, i--...” you cry, strong hands finding your hips and guiding them down for you onto his thigh. you place your hand gently at the base of jiwoong’s neck, pulling at the collar of his shirt and toying with his collarbone. “i--... ‘m cumming...”

pleasure taking over, you reach your high as jiwoong continues to guide your hips for you. “woongie, love you. love you so much.”

your eyes flutter open to see jiwoong’s cheeks flushed, his eyes locked on your core. you look down to find that you have made a pretty little mess, honey dripping from you and soaking his grey sweatpants. he lifts you ever so slightly up and back down, watching as your juices seep through your sheer panties and onto him.

jiwoong meets your gaze for less than a second before you’re wrestled off the couch and onto your back on the carpeted floor below. carpet aside, it’s not a painless fall and as your boyfriend is hungrily ripping his pants off and burying his cock inside you, you decide it’s a good time to start playing again.

“oh my god, woongie,” you complain, knowing that your back’s gonna hurt even worse in the morning. “are you trying to make me need another massage?”

“no. more. massages,” jiwoong growls, punctuating each word with a deep thrust. “unless i’m the one giving them.”

“fuck,” you whine, pulling him even deeper inside you as you wrap your legs around him. trapping him. holding him hostage exactly where his possessive ass wants to be. “surely you don’t think you’re as skilled as a professional masseuse?”

“i’ll get certified,” he manages to grunt, grabbing hold of your thighs and pushing them up to your chest in a mating press. “or would you prefer pierre’s cock inside you instead?”

“that’s not fair,” you reply, absolutely relishing in your reinstated role of bratty sub. “how can i choose if i’ve never seen both options?”

“you’re trying to kill me, aren’t you?” jiwoong asks, kneading your thighs mercilessly-- striking his palm across the side with a gorgeous smack. “you’re gonna kill me so you can fuck pierre and then kill him too.”

“i’ll let you live a little longer if you cum inside me,” you promise, running your hand through his hair as he stares at you helplessly. “please, woongie. need you to fill me up.”

you can see it in his eyes: he’ll give you anything you want. he’d even let you fuck pierre if you really wanted to. but you don’t. not even a little bit. you just want jiwoong.

“fuck, i love you so much, baby,” he pants as his thrusts grow shallower and more sporadic. “gonna fill up this perfect... little...”

his hips finally spasm; a sweet moan swallowed down as you feel him spill into you. you sigh contentedly at the warmth inside of you, your boyfriend laying his head on your chest-- letting go of your legs from where he’d been pinning them and collapsing on top of you in exhaustion.

you wrap your thighs around jiwoong’s waist, making sure he can’t escape (he doesn’t want to).

jiwoong’s jealousy issues weren’t really harmful. he knew you’d never actually leave him for another man; what he always seemed to forget is that you’d never even dream of it. and besides, whatever misunderstanding arose always ended in fiery, passionate sex like this. 

so could anyone really blame you for making up sexy french massage therapists just to make your boyfriend jealous from time to time? not to worry... you’ll give jiwoong a couple months to recover from pierre before you drop your next fabrication on him: dante, the sensual italian chef.

[oldbutchdanielcraig]

what is UP with Eugene Allerton ????

i think it would be very easy and it would sum things up decently to say "it's the repression" but i can elaborate and in fact i will

because it's really fun and awesome and messed up how and why he is repressed.

some things about allerton from the book are that he's "too lazy to hold a job" and "simply careless and lazy to the point of appearing, at times, only half awake," "disliked commitments, and had never been in love or had a close friend," and has "a talent for ignoring people."

when lee sort of first invades his defenses and talks to him in a way that makes allerton consider him friendly, this is what lee writes: "Allerton shrugged irritably and began arranging the chess pieces on the board. He looked like a sullen child unable to locate the source of his ill temper. After a few minutes of play his customary serenity returned, and he began humming."

he sleeps all the time and he doesn't like working and he just kind of floats through life as he pleases, with few meaningful connections. drew starkey says he views allerton's relationship with lee as a "game" allerton is playing, but he's left it open-ended whether or not he's aware he's playing a game.

one clear thing to say is that he's depressed, which explains a lot, but i don't really like to do psychoanalysis as an end all be all for character motivations. so that's just one teensy piece of it to me.

i have been thinking a lot in the past few days about this quote about allerton from jw anderson: "I think, in a way, it would be easier for Allerton to accept what was happening between them if the experience were less intense, if it were less complete, if the telepathy were less successful…"

i think that allerton expects (and hopes) he'll get to live the rest of his life as he has been. no connections, no attachments, no duty to anyone else. (he's kind of like bobby from company this way. BUT I DIGRESS.) lee just completely shakes this up for him. he has demands of allerton's time and attention — but more than that allerton wants to fill them, in some secret and hidden part of himself, and this terrifies him. when lee gets junk sick, allerton doesn't take care of him because he's kindhearted. because he is not kindhearted. he just loves lee and feels for the first time the duty of love.

i don't think allerton is so repressed in the way that he's searching for a wife and kids to hide his true self or that he's determined to have a proper life. i think he views his life as an indifferent, third party (I'M NOT QUEER I'M DISEMBODIED ANYONE?) where the events of it unfold like a standard timeline or a storybook. he's young, so he has his fun, and at some point he'll get married, and he'll have kids, and he might even get a steady job. because that's what people do. so for him to fall head over heels in love with lee (read: not even just a man, but someone who's older than him and acts like lee acts and is unashamedly in love) he hypothetically would have had this same final reaction if he'd fallen head over heels in love with a woman, but that's where repression really rears its head because there's this extra layer of homophobia and societal expectations and the expectations of family and religion and all of that good stuff. so it's like. of course he runs. this is the great shakeup of his life.

the last thing i'll say is: it's really fun (to me anyway) how little information there is about allerton and therefore it becomes kind of necessary to make him inseparable from his rl counterpart lewis marker. who also has hardly any information about him available to the public. so a lot of it is based on the little tidbits i know about him tbh. but like ....... i also love allerton interpretations that are different too!

[elysianholly]

I recently finished watching Buffy and have been debating whether or not to start the comics. Should I just find solace in that Buffy and Spike kiss several times in them? I've heard that the writing is all over the place and I'd rather not sit through that. You seem to have read at least some of the comics and you're also a Spuffy expert. I'd much rather read fic that continues/expands upon the story if the comics are as bad as claimed.

I also just needed to say that I love your posts and although I've only read two of them so far, your fics too.

I haven't read all the comics -- I know what happens in them, and Season 8 in particular is one I would avoid just based on what I've heard storywise and about the writers -- but my personal opinion is they are a fanfic continuation that happens to be licensed. There's some good stuff in there, but there's also a lot of crap.

Seasons 9-11 are Spuffy friendly, and it ends on a Spuffy note (though there's an off-screen breakup that literally makes no sense and exists, IMO, solely because JW is a fence sitter who wants to appeal to both ship camps and believes strength is solitude, which is bullshit). We get some amazing healthy Spuffy in Seasons 10-11.

I much, much, much prefer the unlicensed fanfic continuations. They're written out of love and, again IMO, by people who are much more deeply immersed in the world and characters than many of the comic writers. I just think fan creators are (by in large) more diligent about lore accuracy, consistency, and characterization.

So my recommendation would be fic over comics. But then I am hella biased.

Also, thank you for the compliment! I am going to be riding that high all day.

[ilwonuu]

saw ur posts and i really hope you're feeling okay now! if you feel like writing i wanna ask for some reqs where in the established relationship reader realized just how much jungwoo loves her bcs she's on her periode week and jw is taking care of her nicely without hesitating even adjusting his works and providing his help to accomplish reader's workload. thank you so much i really hope you're doing good and having a happy days ahead <3

thank you so much same for you:( i love this idea bc im always soft for jungwoo<3 thank you for requesting i hope you enjoy hehe,,,

honey

*๑♡՞ kim jungwoo

ᖗ pairing- established relationship, idolbf!jungwoo x fem!reader

ᖗ warnings- fluffy fluff , mentions of period pain/cramps, reader is not feeling great thru most of this, jungwoo is a sweetheart <3, he loves reader sm bye,,,,lmk if i missed something

ᖗ a/n- hi mls!!! i missed posting and i haven’t written for jungwoo in a while and i think he might be one of my biases,,,anyways i hope u guys enjoy<3 not proofread 😪

you have been rotting in your bed for hours. you asked your boyfriend to bring you some extra feminine products just incase. he was quick to respond to your text. he sent you a text saying he would be home soon with everything you need. you sighed in relief feeling so thankful for him. you cuddle up into your blankets as you wait for your boyfriend.

you watch whatever dumb dating show you had on earlier. your pain on the first day differs but this time is was painful as hell. you took some ibuprofen but it hasn’t started working yet leaving you to suffer. you hear the front door open making you smile to yourself. you see your boyfriend with a bag from the store.

“i asked you for a couple things- baby you didn’t have to get all this.” you sit up to face him as he brings the bag over to your side of the bed. “i know you did. i wanted to get your favorite snacks and some more stuff just to make sure you have it. i’m sorry you don’t feel good sweetheart.” he sits on the bed next to you. he pulls you into a gentle hug as he rubs your back.

“how was your day other than that? did you rest mostly?” he massages your back looking at you for your response. “it was good. i was missing you all day. i was just watching tv and cleaning a little but i gave up on the cleaning very fast.” you smile at him as he smiles back. “yea? i was missing you too. don’t worry about the cleaning i will take care of it all.” he rubs your cheek softly as you lay against his chest.

“how did you come home so early? i thought you had long schedules today?” the two of you move to lay down under the covers together. he pulls you close as he faces you. “yea i had meetings mostly but we got done like right before you texted me so i was quick to get you things.” his hand is resting against your hip as he gently massages your side. “you’re gonna put me to sleep baby.” you laugh as you close your eyes.

“come here.” he says pulling you to kiss him. you kiss him back quickly melting into the kiss. he holds your side gently as he kisses you softly. “i really missed you.” you pout looking at him. “i really missed you too, honey. you were all i was thinking about during my meetings.” he smiled at you again. he leans down to plant a kiss on your forehead.

“i love you.” you sigh at the cramps you feel. “rest honey. see if you can nap? i love you more.” he looks at you with a soft expression as he helps you get comfortable. he rubs your back softly until you fall asleep next to him. he just smiles as he watches you sleep peacefully.

jungwoo woke up early that next morning to make sure you had enough food. he made you your favorite breakfast when he saw that you were slowly stirring awake. you watched him bring in your breakfast as you fully wake up. your cramps already kicking you in the ass in the first few seconds of you being awake. you sigh at the feeling but smile at your boyfriend.

“you ok sweetheart?” he sets the food down on the side table as he climbs back into bed. you kiss his lips quickly as you climb out of bed to go to the bathroom. “i’m fine! don’t you worry.” you smile back at him as you quickly use the bathroom. you come to your bedroom feeling a little bit better as you crawl next to your boyfriend. “you didn’t have to make this for me. thank you- wait what time is it don’t you have dance practice today?” you ask as you start eating the breakfast he prepared for you.

“oh yea! i do i just told them i had my girl to spend time with. we pushed it to this afternoon so i can stay with you a little longer. then i can bring home dinner for us!” he smiles at you softly. “how are you feeling though? need medicine, water, anything you need i will get it.” he smiles to himself as he feels the need to help you without thinking about it for a second.

“i’m feeling okay today- my cramps are killing already but i think i just need to finish eating this and it’ll help. thank you baby.” you smile back at him as you continue to eat. “ok. let me know if that changes. as for now i’m here to give you love.” he kisses your head as rubs your thigh softly. you finish your breakfast after a bit with a smile. you look over at your boyfriend to see him already looking at you. you start to tear up as your thoughts start to clutter your head.

“baby? what’s wrong?” his expression is a more serious one as he pulls you closer to him. “n-nothing- i just- you’re being so nice to me. i feel so shitty and here you are making me feel so much better- cooking me breakfast? jungwoo you are too much.” you start to cry as he holds you in his arms. “sweetheart i will do absolutely everything for you. you are my main priority. i don’t need anything else but you. i will always be here when you don’t feel good.” he kisses your cheek as more tears fall from your eyes.

“honey- i love you so much okay? come here.” he pulls you closer to him as he kisses your lips. you kiss him back as you feel him pull away. he kisses your tears and gently wipes them away. “my pretty girl. i love you more than you know.” he smiles at you sweetly as he rubs your hair back. “i-i love you jungwoo.” you sigh into his arms as you stop yourself from letting more tears fall. “you are the best boyfriend i could ask for.” he shakes his head.

“you’re the best girlfriend i could ask for. you deserve the best only you know that. i will never give you less than you deserve. now let’s cuddle until i have to go to practice, i don’t want to leave your side until i have to go.” you laugh at him shaking your head. “what about my online classes? i haven’t done any assignments for this week.” you groan thinking about your work. “don’t worry about it until i leave! when i come back ill help you he smiles kissing your head as you two stay tangled in each others arms for the next hours to come.

[weibun-art]

Hi! Jw what inspired u to start writing fanfic? And what's ur writing process (if u have one)? I'm loving ur story so far :3

It's very silly but I read a fanfiction that I didn't like the ending (still enjoyed the fic) so I decided to write a totally unrelated story with a totally unrelated ending. I yelled "HE WOULDNT SAY THAT" and decided to create a whole situation where he didn't say that... basically.

Be advised: I'm definitely not the right person to ask about process because I extremely dont know what im doing. I didn't know where to start so I just started to fill up a doc with random thoughts and facts. Eventually it got too overwhelming so I put all those random thoughts in a new doc tab and started sorting it into sections in the main tab. I like organizing more than real writing... I made two (unrelated) spreadsheets for fun yesterday (⁠ ⁠；⁠∀⁠；⁠)

Anyways so then i take the bullet points from the outline here, put them in a new doc and try to think out what actually happens and make them into full sentences and stuff. I'm practicing how to 'daydream' to come up with what to write which is... comically difficult since ive never done this either. So the chapter starts out with REALLY bad sentences. Then once the rough version is done I go over everything again and try to make it sound nice. So I end up rewriting everything like minimum 3 times... lol.

Hope u enjoy my hell process, I've only done it once so it may change. (but I know how i am so it probably wont).

also the short answer to your first question is this:

[at-wicks-end]

burnout ; jw

john wick / reader 672 words ; angst other tags: mutual pining, right person wrong time, john and reader are in their 30s <3 pls do not repost!!

It shouldn’t be like this, John thinks to himself, feeling sick to the stomach. Still, he keeps his expression pleasant. He is your friend. He should be happy. He should be supportive. You look radiant.

“He proposed last Friday,” you grin, holding your hand out to show him the ring. It’s not ugly, but John would’ve chosen something different. It just doesn’t capture your personality, but he keeps his thoughts to himself. “I wanted to tell you sooner, but I didn’t want to do it over the phone since it’s pretty big news.”

You stare at the ring with a small smile in your face, but John can tell that you’re lost in thought. The unreadable look in your eyes is the only thing that pushes him to ask. “Are you happy?” He says carefully. You blink in surprise, the strange look in your eyes giving way to confusion. 

“Are you happy?” John repeats, and the smile in your face falters.

“What do you mean?” You laugh lightly, but he doesn’t buy it. “I’ve just gotten engaged, John. Of course I am.”

The noise from the rest of the coffee shop seems to disappear as he looks into your eyes, searching. You look put-together, like you always are, but there is a weariness in your posture. You alternate between fidgeting with your mug and your ring, and your smile doesn’t reach your eyes. Suddenly, that look in your eyes isn’t as unreadable as he thought.

“You look unsure,” he says softly. 

“I look tired,” you correct. “I couldn’t sleep last night. I was working through some stuff.”

Another lie. John decides to let it slide this once. “So when’s the wedding?” He changes the topic, and your posture relaxes marginally. 

“Matt wants it to be a summer wedding, somewhere with a beach, maybe?” You say brightly, and John already knows you’re overcompensating. “I wanted it to be in either spring or—”

“Fall,” John finishes, taking a sip of his coffee. “I thought you hated the idea of a summer wedding, much less one at a beach. What changed?”

“Well, Matt really likes the idea, so I guess it’s not that bad?” You shrug, and John can feel his free hand clench underneath the table. 

“You don’t seem that excited,” he points out, and you grimace. It tells him what he needs to know.

He wants to grab your shoulders and shake you so you can come to your senses. He wants to tell you that it should be him instead. He wants. 

Instead, John reminds himself of his reality: he is an assassin and you are a civilian. Being with him is a death sentence, and this is the best possible situation he could ask for. You are safe and away from him, with someone to care for you. John can keep tabs on you from afar, and everyone is happy.

That is the lie John must tell himself.

“For what it’s worth, congratulations,” he says sincerely. “I wish you two the best.”

For a moment, nothing is said. The two of you lock eyes, and his heart lurches at the way his own yearning is mirrored in your eyes. He toys with the idea of being the one to marry you instead—to be standing by the altar with you by his side, to exchange rings and vows with you, to spend the rest of his life with you. He considers confessing now, considers telling you how much he loves you so he can whisk you away from that idiot who can’t be bothered to learn what you like. 

The moment passes.

“Thank you, John.” Your voice is warm but resolute. He knows—you know—that this is the end. 

It should have been me, John thinks to himself. It could have been me.

The sunlight catches on your ring, and John rips out the seedling of hope you had planted in his heart. When the two of you part ways, he leaves his dreams of a quiet life with you.

hello!!! first jw fic here hehe hope you guys enjoy!! this is actually the alternate ending of a much larger fic i'm currently writing, so if you liked this, maybe keep an eye out for that one <3 i'll be crossposting this on ao3 as well.

[quesadillawizard]

Deuteronomy Lore Dump 2!!!!!!!

compiled from a bluesky thread, stuff about deut's origins and whatnot!

So Deuteronomy started her life as my self insert and nameaske, Wolfy. This was on AIM where we all played like *runs around and falls in a hole* and I mostly played with a friend from a sailor moon forum. I never cared about sailor moon but that's where I learned about RP.

I talked about it a little in another thread, but "me" and my friend's self insert would have RPs where we annoyed all our favorite blorbos. Eventually I learned what a fursona was and started calling her a fursona.

Many years later, when I started getting serious about my writing and looking at the realities of publishing, I was like "I can't be called Wolfy and then have a character called Wolfy in my novel people will think I'm full of myself" so I made the split.

I'm not sure when exactly it happened or how I floated the name deuteronomy to my RP friends and tiny deviantart audience, but nobody seemed to question it. I started drawing bigger and bigger differences between Wolfy, my fursona, and Deuteronomy the OC.

I primarily drew Wolfy as an anthro and Deut is always quad. During the course of the elaborate RP verse my friend Kit and I developed, Deut lost an eye and had it replaced with a marble.

Idk if that will make it into canon or not. It's kind of a special RP thing that I treasure. Also Wolfy the fursona had these purple glowly scars on her nose from IRL shit I was going through. I've always reflected my life in my art.

in 2013 when Crownless came about, i was moving into a new part of my identity and shit was going on in my life and i needed something to express what I was going through (my sister dying in our house) that Wolfy couldn't express. I drew them interacting one time.

ANWYAY back to Wolfy, a big part of the RPverse was that JW and Deuteronomy used to live in Halloween Town from TNBC and I'd make up places and people and things that would be in the town and one of the things Deut was involved in was an underground gladiator style ring.

One of the creatures she'd fight was a sandworm because I had connected all the tim burton verses. i remember spending HOURS on this picture I was so proud of it.

I did find a way to work a SIMILAR theme into her canon. She still ended up in a gambling pit where she fought monsters and was manipulated by the ringrunner so you can look forward to reading all about that in Hawksaw! J

W doesn't find out about this until he ends up in the same town she was in with the ring and getting thrown into the pit to fight her JUST LIKE IN TWO BROTHERS!!!!!

I dont care how corny it is they get separated on an adventure and when they see each again in the pit as a surprise theyre so happy and the crowd is like BOOOO and then they make a daring escape!!! hahaha.

we find out about deuteronomy's whole gambling thing in book 3 of hawksaw where she shows up injured after spending a night wiht 'the boys'. 'the boys' are not part of the fighting ring, they're just backwood spirits that she wound up meeting. I haven't fully designed them yet.

[ballpitbee]

I usually getta lotta questions asking if I'm gonna do anything with JW and gang. Like make a comic or cartoon aaaand biiiig no.

I don't really like having an 'audience'- I'm just here to make fun things and do what I like with my dollys.

The stress and loss of control over my own fellas sounds just far too dire and it would upset me so greatly if people started yoinking my guys for themselves. People are *already* uncomfortable about them (nsfw, headcanoning ect) and I'm just posting them for fun!

So though it's like a personal fun project- I don't intend to make anything from it at all 🙏

I'm just gonna be drawing fun art and scenes, maybe writing bits here and there. Musing about relationships and dynamics, etc etc.

All that fun stuff~

(And sharing most the deets with my closest friends)

[houseofglass]

Hi! You don't know me and I never saw your blog before. But I just saw your new post about Thanksgiving episode and wanted to say that yes, I agree with you. And yes, it will be absolutely unpopular opinion, you rarely see smth like this since it's a Buffy's show and people idolize her character. But you managed to capture the key points. They indeed write her this way. And the more I see their scenes (and I watch it not for the first time) the more such things irritate me. I think many like her because they feel sorry for her since it's always a lot of drama and because she is a girl in that forever drama.

And I think people should understand that it's not about "offending" a character so they need to "protect her", it's about the weird choice that the writers made. Because almost every time when you look at main characters they want you to love even there's always something questionable under the surface. Which they don't notice. Like they don't really understand what a really likeable person should look like (without people feeling sorry for them). They can write romanticism (a story) but then people will like IT but it's not about personalities. And look at Spike, they didn't particularly like him but he managed to be loved by many people. Despite all the intentional dirt. So it's more like they force people to like or hate smth using plot for that. To feel pity or disgust. Rather than wanting to learn what people love. And looking at their main author aka JW and knowing what kind of person he is if he doesn't know what it means to be a likeable and nice person how can he properly write such then?

Well put!

To clarify a little bit: the main character doesn't necessarily have to be likeable, but they do need to be compelling. After all, this is the character through which we are to view the world. In essence, they hold our hand as we navigate their world.

I wonder if people preferred Spike because he's a better rounded character. Buffy is Super Strong, One in a Generation, The Special One, while also being pretty, super smart (she scored high on SATs iirc, but plays a ditz by pretending she doesn't understand stuff), and popular. It's really hard to feel sorry for her when things go wrong for her.

To top that off: she doesn't seem to learn from her (few) failures. As an example, she dates unavailable men and is surprised when they aren't available to her every whim. So far she's done this twice, maybe she learns from it as the seasons progress. I'll keep watching to find out.

Spike, on the other hand, is an outright abusive asshole when we first meet him. He takes what he wants and manipulates people to get what he wants. He likely enjoyed Drusilla and Harmony because he could control them.

In the season 4 Thanksgiving episode, we see a different side of Spike. He can't cause harm, he can't eat, and this problem is initially framed sexually (this show is very sexual), by showing his impotence. What does he do? He tries to go to Harmony but she's kicked him out (rightfully so) so he goes to his enemy for help.

This trope, going to your enemy because they are the only one that can understand your situation, is compelling for a reason. This is ultimate vulnerability. To visit your enemy for help means you accept you may not survive the initial encounter, or that you may be giving your enemy ammunition for the future.

Spike has to learn how to adapt to his situation. While doing so, his character should change as well and give him dimension.

So far, Buffy hasn't had to adapt to any situations other than not being successful in keeping a man/boyfriend. Well, and adapting to college, I guess.

Sidebar: her virginity broke Angel? WTF? My partner explained it by saying Angel felt content or happy, truly and absolutely, and therefore the curse was enacted (or somesuch). But, HELLO, there's more to contentment than sex. And a virgin making you feel that powerfully content only reinforces the idea that you aren't very good at what you do. After all, the virgin (presumably) doesn't have much experience so they have nothing to compare the sex to, therefore, you are the greatest lover ever to walk the earth.

Anyway.

I realize the show is old now, almost 30 years old, and representative of another time, so I'm ragging on something that's out-of-date and has an established fandom. I could go on for a while about Stargate: Atlantis and how truly awful John Sheppard was as a character and how much I hated Rodney, but admit that by the end of the series, Rodney was the best character of all of them. Ronin (Jason Momoa) arrived and saved the show, similar to how this new Spike is saving Buffy.

[wrinkly-fucking-qtip]

SHAMELESS OPINIONS: S7 (cause Mickey's write off hurt and after s5, I watched again from s1 and forced myself to keep watching + no one around me likes Shameless so I need a place to vent)

overall: i actually loved it, had me pretty hooked all throughout

ok, i kind of like s7 Trevor, he's charming, got this lil sassy banter going off, he's cute and nice y'know. I just *HATE* that they so obviously tried to recreate some dynamics he had with Mickey straight away without letting us warmup to him, how can you deepthroat aspects built from 5 seasons into half of one??? No. Sorry. Him settling so quickly into the Gallagher house as if he's spent a decade there, idk. And the patient scene with Ian? foh man, no. 1x09 was special for a reason, and this would've played differently if Ian actually came to Mick if he was still around. They play out so much better as friends or fw/b ig but that deepthroat can't help me see a relationship between them. Not liking s8 Trevor so far, my god. Also his nonchalant attitude towards Monica threw me off. I get it, he's new and doesn't know much, Ian never mentioned her before apparently, but like "she's a lil crazy i can like her" eek, idk. Like almost downplaying his situation with her.

Caleb can suck my ass along with JW and his hate for bisexuals. My bi ass cannot approve. Cheater McCheater my ass. I can almost walk through Ian's ignorance cause for all he knew, Caleb was just gay, and I feel he said the bisexual thing out of frustration and betrayal towards his actions than actual disdain for the orientation, but yes. He was ignorant in his convo with Lip, and so was him anyway. I guess they just didn't know it is a thing. But thing is, I BET YOU ASSES that Caleb is the type of douche to STILL justify his actions even if JW didn't display his hate towards bisexuality in his writing, he just is *that* douchy. At least he motivated Ian to get his job, I'll give him that.

OH MY GOD THE THROUPLE... AND ITS SLOW BURN. it's hard cause you can understand both sides of the situation and it was just a clear issue of misunderstandings and miscommunication... I just wish they could've handled things better because I was really rooting for them. They fucking worked so well, with their little schedules and organization. I have such a fat crush on Isidora it's actually embarrassing. Anyway... I miss their dynamic. They deserved better.

Lip was a dick to Fiona about the Laundromat, but Fiona also just jumps the gut to these impulsive decisions, and I get that if she does ask for opinions, they probably won't agree with her, and it's not like I can blame lip, I mean look at the Club situation, yeah she made profit, but didn't break even, and that where his worry comes from. But at least, if she still approached him, and did it anyway against his say, he can't rub it in her face that this entails a family meeting and she can't just make those decisions without consultation. Overall, Lip was so arrogant and dickish with her, and for what... he couldn't even bring the money he so desperately wanted her to believe he could.

I love Sue. I just love EMT Ian stuff with all my life, idc what it is, I kick my feet cause he's so happy.

I fucking loved Carl and Mr. Luthers dynamic. Such an epic lil duo tbh.

I loved Frank's storyline here fsr 💀💀 it's so silly and he gets his way like always, but idk, I loved seeing his adventures at the shelter, he still remains a POS that's for sure.

I fucking LOVED seeing Debbie this season, I was a little disappointed last season cause there is so much lost potential on her pregnancy journey last time with where she was staying, but I fucking loved her here and putting her scamming skills to the test. Don't love how she ends up treating Neil in s8 cause... Well, I just feel bad for him, but also, if she really wanted to stay true to her convenience relationship, she probably should've stuck it out more so it lasted more, idk. But enough of that, I loved her setting a goal for herself at the end of the season, and I honestly commend Monica for helping her get Franny out of the house, I understand Derek's family's concern but they were so cunty in how they handled things.

Monica's death hit me like a truck... Idk why, there are so many mixed emotions here, she couldn't dare to tell the kids the real reason she was there, and all she wanted was to be there one last time. My heart goes out to her tbh.

Gallavich. Oh dear God. FERAL, FERAL EVERY TIME. it's like receiving crumbs and eating them up like a vacuum, nothing I can say that hasn't already been said... I just... Wow. Fuck. And to know that, after needing Noel for ratings, that this was gonna be the end for them? No, I could throw up. I couldn't imagine watching shameless as it aired with that knowledge in mind. FUCK ME THOSE TWO EPISODES I ATE THEM UUUP. anyway, I'm normal about Gallavich.

Lord bless Etta... my dear soul. 7x11 was vicious for that, my heart crumbled fr. I can see this was all in Fiona's best interest for Etta and stuff... It was just so sad to see.

Lip and Sierra, I don't really know what people's opinions are about Sierra but I kind of liked her? She was sweet, and had traces of boundaries with Lip even if the fucker attempted to break them every now and then. But she was sweet.

Lips second spiral was even harder than the first one to see. Him crashing at Helene's apartment, and she still doesn't seem to grasp that she essentially groomed him, and he's just so devastated still. Fuck.

That ending montage was truly a piece of cinema I tell you. It was beautiful.

I probably have more to say I don't remember but I really liked s7, not on the priority of a constant rewatch, but it was really good...and truly served as the finale it was meant to be. EXCEPT FOR GALLAVICH, holy fuck that would've pained the whole audience.

[sillyxaly]

hi hello talk to me about junmei :3

i prefer post-canon stuff but i will gladly take anything!! also. do you perchance know of any jun wu redemption fics because i could only find one on ao3 ;;

yes he’s a villain but. it’s fanfic! he comes with a complimentary sad backstory! he’s stuck under a mountain to think about his actions! he’s stuck there forever, he has plenty of time to reflect on his behavior

First up @witch-is-writing do you know?

I only remember ones that vaguely count as redemption really but in my defense I woke up a minute ago, saw "Junmei" and scurried to write this text. Also do tell me which fic you found so I can check if I read that pls :3

Jun Wu is just the personification of 'hurt people hurt people' for me and if you wish I may write an essay about that thazs vaguely structuered and more of a ramble. I do however very much consider mei nianqing to be important to his healing. I dont even call it a redemption arc but oh boy that man needs some Healing. Mnq does too and they really should do that together because their issues are so intertwined. I have so many loose thoughts about this right now oh ma god.

The path to Jun Wus redemption or healing will always lead through the vassal that stayed longer and the vassal that left in the end. The one man he couldn't kill in two thousand years. The one man who knew him before he put on one mask after the other.

And truly they have all the time in the world for that post-canon. Let nianqing (...nian...nyan....nya... Yeah i didnt sleep enough.) visit him in the mountain. Return day after day to make it stick a little. That hes there now. Bring tea, bring books to read, whatever really. They are both so incredibly hurt it makes me sick (positive) and it would be a journey. One thats hard and rocky. One where JW still falls back to lash out and bite because its what saved him for hundreds of years but MNQ stays now no matter how he growls.

Yes JW is just a rescue dog to me and I will never get that thought out of my head ever again but I have one and the similiarities of it are striking. Funnily enough that also means most people should just ignore him (for now). Let one person get closer for now, more than that would be too much and if he starts to feel cornered he will growl and then he will bite. Its an intricate play ot trial and error to figure out when to actually step back and give more space and when to take him by the scruff even if he tries to bite. So MNQ got a lot of work and figuring that out ahead because thats his rescue now (has always been really) and JW will always remain a little more at ease with him than the rest of the world.

At last those who caused the pain have died and after that, by all means, it was all a grasp for control because for as long as he has control he can never be hurt. I believe we all try to hold control over at least something in our lives and its natural to do so. We are all scared to be hurt. But nobody can control everything (much less forever) and he needs to learn to live with that fear and uninternalize the mask of anger that hides it.

No matter what he needs to feel safe first. Not ultimatly safe but at least safe to show that hes afraid. Safe enough to stop wearing a mask of stirkes to hide the vulnerabilty. He needs to be scared and he needs to be vulberable and it need to be safe and okay for once.

And who better to grant that safety than that started the whole tale of his demise and his crimes by telling our main character to the face that this man shone so much brighter than he ever did. A fact i will never get over. The contents of what MNQ tells XL and us is like: War crimes, attempted murder on me, wiping out the heavenly capital, bringing ruin to Multiple kingdoms and how does one start such a tale best? Logically by refering to the man in question as the sun. But thats not enough. He wasnt just any source of light. He outshone you and all of us and all the other gods which are now dead because he murdered them.

MNQ is crazy for that and I absolutly adore that and that is literally all it will ever take for me to ship this. You can not tell me that is not a subtle love confession?? JW attempted to murder him multiple times i don't think people normally talk about such a guy like that??

Uhhhhhhhhhh anyhow

*subtly slides discord link*

I also made this where witch is also inside and so far nobody else but uh yes in case you want that because I dont know how to tell people.

[megaraptormenace]

Prompts by @/cincinnatisix in the Alterhuman Community. It’s very much about to be crossposted but I figure there’s not enough hearthome stuff out there to only post it in one place.

1) What is your hearthome? Is it a fictional world, a biome, a country, a town, a concept, or something else?

It’s Isla Nublar. Both the overgrown, abandoned park, and a version of the park that opened (though I can’t say I pine for the treatment of the animals in both Jurassic Park and World).

2) How did you come to realize you had a hearthome?

Around the same time I realised I’m a dinosaur, and discovered more of the alterhuman community, but I have always had an affinity for places that humans made and nature took over. Places like that give me the same sort of bittersweet feeling that looking at fossils inspires.

3) Is your hearthome tied to any other alterhuman identities you have? If so, did one identity lead to another?

As above, my dinosaurness and my hearthome are inextricably linked. Things that give me vibes for one usually give me vibes for the other.

4) Is your hearthome possible to physically visit? If so, have you been, or are you planning to go? If not, do you have any alternative methods of visiting?

Sort of? Not really. As far as I know, the Universal theme parks still have JW themed rides and areas, but going there isn’t really in my price range, and I’m not a big fan of rollercoasters so even if it was I’m not sure it’d be worth it.

There’s a few Jurassic Park themed video games that scratch the itch for me, though I’d rather be the dinosaur in those scenarios. The Isle has the right vibes, though I don’t enjoy the gameplay all that much.

There’s a map in Secondlife that’s themed after Jurassic Park, and I do enjoy roaming there as a dinosaur. Unfortunately, it is usually just me, since I don’t live in the right timezone to see many other people.

The tl;dr here is there’s lots of imperfect ways for me to spend time in and around my hearthome. Perhaps one day someone’ll come up with a way that’s perfect for me, but for now, I’m grateful to have ways to visit at all.

5) Write at least one paragraph describing what it’s like to be at your hearthome.

The smell of green in your lungs. The tang of rust in the water. Every so often there’s a break in untouched jungle. Something so artificial the plants couldn’t consume it entirely. This is where memories live.

The roar of the crowd. A world small enough to know every part of it intimately. The static hum of electricity always in your ears. Others beyond the fence, heard but never seen.

6) Do you feel ties to other living things from your hearthome, such as plants and animals?

Sort of. Ferns and moss and climbers most people keep as pot plants make dino brain happy. I’m not sure how much of that is hearthome and how much is just liking those sorts of plants, though. A bit of both, perhaps.

7) How do you cope with feeling homesick?

I’m lucky in that I don’t feel that too often. When I do, I find the best way is to take myself for a walk. Doesn’t always work, but I find quite often that going out and looking at some green stuff makes my brain unlatch from whatever unhelpful/hurtful thing it’s got a hold of.

8) Say one thing you like about the place you live right now.

It’s very prehistoric feeling, all mosses and ferns and pines and things. I imagine it’s probably why I enjoy walking around here.