#kim namwoon

[miilkcandies]

the story i managed to create with all of you [3/4] [1] [2]

[walmart-miku]

Sometimes family is you, your coworker, 3 kids you grabbed from the side of the road, a bartender, an ex soldier, a plagiarist, a guy that wants you dead, his sister, ex girlfriend, and two stupid teens that follow him around, your landlord, your ex boss and his daughter, a fujoshi angel, a monkey, a dragon, a coorporate slave, and your daughter.

[localapparently]

/ cw death , suicidal thoughts

unnamed regression (read left to right)

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Extra note:

These two panels were arranged to look like "■■" because I thought maybe her ■■ would be tied to yjh saving her and her bringing it to a close. Despite this, there is a text box awkwardly separating it, it's not so much of a satisfying ■■ for her.

[yuudamari]

"Kim Namwoon, you can't be saved"

[melanchoise]

first parent teacher meeting

[hehearse]

sillies again

[vethiah]

all I can think about is how the first thing Kim dokja did when the apocalypse was kill "himself"

not in the literal sense, of course

but in ensuring Kim namwoons death, he killed the one character he saw himself in

because as much as he wanted to be like yoo joonghyuk, he wasn't. he was the kid who stuck by his side and admired him for all those regressions.

[theofficialuriel]

orvies when they remember that the reason Dokja hated Kim Namwoon sm was because he was the character Dokja could see the most of himself in and he couldn’t understand why Jonghyuk kept taking Namwoon in in every regression

[umbrvx]

kim namwoon

[rusquared]

[Story "One Who Is Loved By All" is continuing its storytelling.]

[dreadark]

see i can never get over 999knw because why does orv establish right after he's introduced that:

he believes his mistake is what killed the 999th turn's yoo joonghyuk

he thinks maybe he should've died before they even met

and now he's aware of the current turn, where these two things are true:

yoo joonghyuk is alive

kim namwoon is dead

imagine believing you're at fault for everything that went wrong and thinking maybe you’d be better off dead

and then ending up in another timeline that essentially confirms it. you were right! you should have died back then. don't you think so too, captain?

[miilkcandies]

999th regression family - school play

[keistance]

ik im always saying that the orv fandom should stop going so hard for 1minute but im not doing myself any favours thinking too much about how kdj's first kill was kim namwoon (someone he identified with very strongly; someone he saw himself in; someone he couldn't bear to leave inside the story) and his last murder attempt was quite literally himself TWICE (through his fading away as the oldest dream and also literally trying to strike a younger version of himself). his first and last acts of violence are all against himself, and not even sacrificing himself so his companions might live but going above and beyond that. why is his self loathing so great adn his complete and utter disregard for his own life so immeasurable that he must do this every single time. ofc kdjc's came back for a silver of hope this man could be alright. bitch i would too

[its-your-mind]

thinkin bout how orv starts with kim dokja actively working to ensure that kim namwoon dies during the first scenario

thinkin bout how kim namwoon was a teenager at the start of the scenarios, dealing with the apocalypse using the mental paths that came easiest, jumping into the new world with both feet

thinkin bout kim dokja as a teenager. tired. hurt. alone. his internal and external struggles ignored by the adults around him. choosing to throw himself off a rooftop because there wasn’t anything in his life worth living for

thinkin bout how kim dokja woke up again, even though he had planned not to

thinkin bout a teenage boy. lost, alone, broken, scared, angry, in need of someone to come and show him how to keep moving forward

thinkin bout a protagonist in a webnovel who is an example to you of how to survive against all odds. a mantra to repeat when living life as yourself is too hard

thinkin bout a hardened and powerful hero who knows exactly how this world works, who holds out a hand offers you a place with him

thinkin bout teenage kim namwoon, looking to yoo joonghyuk as captain, teacher, and protector

thinkin bout teenage kim dokja, looking to yoo joonghyuk as role-model, hero, and refuge

thinkin bout teenage kim dokja, who saw himself more as kim namwoon than any of yoo joonghyuk’s other companions

thinkin bout adult kim dokja, reclusive and unsocial, hiding his phone from his coworker so she doesn’t see what he’s reading. convinced that yoo joonghyuk would look down on him if he learns who he “really” is. ashamed of any details kimcom learns about his past

thinkin bout what happens to a life when the person living it has never seen in it any redeeming qualities or objects of value. how someone feels about life when they tried and failed to give up that life a decade ago, and every day since has felt almost accidental

thinkin bout the lesser fire dragon. the disaster of floods. the strongest in seoul dome. the devourer of dreams. the 73rd demon king. the industrial complex. the war between good and evil. the wager with secretive plotter.

thinkin bout the most ancient dream. an empty station. a cold and hard bench. bandages and a notebook and a too-loose uniform. smaller than he should be for his age and more broken than any child should ever become. alone.

thinkin bout an unbreakable faith, shattered. a family frantically throwing themselves at their heart to save him from himself. desperate hands prying a blade out of shaking ones, moments before the jagged edge pierced deep into vulnerable flesh

thinkin bout how the younger kim dokja, recently released from the hospital, does not watch. instead, he instinctively curls up to protect the parts of himself already hurting the most. he begins to repeat his mantra

thinkin bout how kim namwoon kicked and fought and screamed and stabbed. and then, when he realized there wasn’t anything he could do, he got down on his knees and begged kim dokja for his life

thinkin bout how kim dokja just stood over him, held him in place, and looked at him in silence as the clock ran out

thinkin bout kim dokja at the beginning of his story and at the end of his story. in a subway. looking down at a teenage boy.

making a choice. the same choice, both times.

the first time: an explosion, a blood splatter on his reflection, and a confused and wary protagonist who has lost one asset and gained another

the last time: arms holding him back, a family hugging him tight, and another protagonist who steps in front of him. holds the child close. forgives him everything. offers up anything more he could need. and kim dokja watches as the person with the strongest claim to vengeance upon this younger facsimile of himself instead gently gathers up the most ancient dream, tucks him close against his chest, and walks away with him safe and sound in his arms.

[yuudamari]

Everybody needs a bit of praise

[ID: An Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint comic of Kim Namwoon and Yoo Joonghyuk. Kim Namwoon smirks and says something to Lee Jihye, who scowls and pokes him in the forehead before storming off. Kim Namwoon sighs, and Yoo Joonghyuk looks at him in the background. Kim Namwoon frowns, then locks shocked when Yoo Joonghyuk plops a hand on his head. He whirls around angrily, but Yoo Joonghyuk is already walking away expressionlessly. The final shot shows Kim Namwoon rubbing his own head, looking contemplative. End ID]

[melanchoise]

i think they deserve this happy life