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[liamzigmichael4ever]

Ahem. I fucking love how I come to Tumblr to follow choices blog. yk every thing to do with choices. Blogs...artists...writers....post!!! But what I get is...1%choices 99%EVERYTHING ELSE. LIKE....COME ON TUMBLR. if im in the following section. Why is it I see everything I'm NOT following. THE FUCK!!!?!?!?!

[schwarzweissmaler]

[mskinkyafro]

I’m married now. Shouldn’t my Mc name be Queen Justice Rys?

[rainbowsinthestorm]

Another update

Hi everyone! Apologies that I’ve been absent lately and haven’t updated At The Beginning in a while. I also didn’t realise it had been nine months since my last update. Real life has just been a little bit hectic recently with work and other things.

I’ve slowly been getting back into writing for a TV show that I’ve been watching recently but some of my free time has been taken up by attending my husband’s American Football games so that has taken up a lot of my free time on a weekend. My mental health is loads better. I also have a little announcement to make. After six years of trying, my husband and I are expecting our first child in September (on my wedding anniversary). I found out in early January so have spent most of my spare time now preparing for the arrival of our baby girl.

As it’s been so long and as I’m probably not going to have loads of time to write come September, I’m updating my tag lists. If anyone wants to be removed, because I‘ve not been posting a lot, just let me know (I won’t be offended). I’m also thinking about posting on AO3 as well as I don’t know how active the fandom is on here anymore. If anyone wants to follow me on there, my username is rainbowsinthestorm 

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[riseandshinelittleblossom]

This is my submission to the Quote me on This Challenge that I'm hosting. It's my first time posting a fic in a VERY long time so please excuse any errors.

I want to send special thanks to @fullbeaumonty / @chatonne-rousse , @leelee10898 , and @zaffrenotes for pre-reading this! And to @sfb123 for assigning my prompt, which will be bolted below.

Disclaimer: there are smatters of actual book dialogue that own to pixelberry, along with Drake Walker.

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The night had been close to magical. The time spent with all of her friends at the beer garden had been exactly what Josie needed after everything she'd been through these past few weeks. She almost couldn't believe she wasn't dreaming, but there she was ambling back to the palace, her steps falling close to Drake's as he hummed happily. He stumbled only a little.

"Drake, are you drunk?" She giggled.

"Novak, I don't get drunk. Maybe you're drunk."

"Uh huh,"

"I'm just… happy. We're home. Savannah's coming home…..you like me for some reason…"

"Okay you've definitely had more to drink than I thought." Josie laughed, linking her arm with Drake's. He paused just before the door and they watched their friends disappear inside. He turned to her.

"Hey, how about a palace tour tonight? Just you, me, and portraits of stuffy old guys."

"We're all staying in the palace, Drake. I've seen it."

"Nah, Novak. You've seen the palace the way the royal family wants you to see it." He dropped his voice to a slightly slurred whisper, "I can show you the palace… like you've never seen it before."

There was a glimmer in his eye that Josie had never seen before and she wasn't ready to see it go away.

"I'm in. Where does this tour start?"

Drake proudly showed Josie special spots in both the ballroom and one of the many hallways. His gleeful demeanor was maybe the most adorable thing she had ever seen and she was hopeful that although he stood before her now looking very confused that he would have more stops on his little tour. Finally his eyebrows disappeared into his hairline as he looked at her, more enthusiasm oozing from him.

"Let me take you to our final stop,"

He grabbed her hand and dragged her along an unknown route to a part of the palace she'd never seen before. Stopping in front of a heavy wooden door he looked at her over his shoulder and wiggled his eyebrows before pushing it open to reveal an empty library.

"Did you bring me here to read to me?" She asked, taking in the splendor of the room.

He didn't answer. Instead he released her hand and started feeling along the spines of old books on one of the shelves, muttering to himself. His shoulder bounced off of a pillar as something began to rumble. A panel in the wall swung open and he grinned back at her proudly.

"I found it! C'mon Novak!" He dragged her through the panel whirling around to grin at her triumphantly.

"Welcome…. To my secret passage."

Josie looked around the stone passageway. It was cold and dimly lit and it had a faint odor of mildew.

"Where does it go?"

"A dead end. That part's no fun. The cool part is just…this passage. Even Liam doesn't know about this place."

He told her all about how he used to hide away from the court in the passage when he was growing up. Taking a seat on a stone step he peered up at her.

"But…now I do. Why bring me here?"

He told her about how he thought she'd like a secret place to hide and that they could share this one. Josie sat beside him in companionable silence for a few beats.

Finally, she spoke, "Thanks for showing me this place, Drake."

"Thank yooouuu for going on my tour."

"I'd give it five stars. "

"Then my job here is done, " he replied, his face breaking into a goofy grin.

Again they fell into a quiet, Drake staring at his feet as he dragged them across the stone and Josie staring at Drake.

"This passageway reminds me of you." She told him.

"Because I'm cold and stony?"

She threw her head back laughing.

"No, I don't think that at all."

"You might be the only one. "

She laid her hand on his knee and Drake's expression sobered. His eyes settled on it briefly before flicking up to look into Josie's.

"It's a safe haven. Because you make me feel safe."

He swallowed hard.

"I'd never let anything happen to you, Novak."

"I believe you. Even if you haven't always been my biggest fan."

"I never said that!"

She grinned, "You never had to, I could tell you were always trying to keep me at arm's length, Drake."

He stared into her eyes for a long time before he offered, "I…if I didn't keep you close I could ignore what I was feeling. It would be easier when you and Liam…"

"Drake, I was never in love with Liam. I care about him in the same way that you do. "

"But he would move the sun and the moon for you! I just…I don't understand why you would choose me. Liam can give you everything and-"

Josie reached up and placed her forefinger over his lips.

"Life with Liam will always be a whirlwind. Tours and balls and meetings and hidden moments in the hedge maze. Drake, my whole life has been…well a series of unfortunate events. Nowhere has ever felt like home. Everyone has always felt temporary. Coming to Cordonia made that worse. I've been in the center of a maelstrom, especially since the coronation and I…I don't blame Liam, I don't. But, he hasn't been here by my side; and yet…in the middle of my chaos, there was you. Every single time I needed someone, you were there. After everything…I never cared about Liam's wealth. So it doesn't bother me to turn it down for the most valuable things life can offer: love, steadfastness, loyalty. You offer me all of those things, Drake Walker. And in my mind you're worth a thousand Liams."

In a flash Drake's lips were upon hers, his hands coming up to tenderly cup her face on each side. Josie's eyes squeezed shut as she gripped the denim at his waist returning his sentiment. When finally they parted Drake rested his forehead on hers with more clarity in his eyes than she'd seen from his all night.

"I don't know what I ever did to deserve you, Novak…Josie, but I swear I'll never stop trying to be worthy of you." He whispered reverently. She grazed her hand down his cheek, a shiver going down his spine at her touch.

"You couldn't get rid of me now if you tried."

[i-choose-liam]

And did you notice Eleanor addressed the letter to "the one my son chooses". It means she was dope as hell, not assuming that her son would marry a woman. Today we mourn Queen Eleanor, mighty ally from Cordonia. 🏳️‍🌈

Liam’s mom letter to Queen MC:

[eadanga]

My Lost Love Epilogue

Summary: Liam a prince fell in love with Gracelyn a palace maid who disappeared from his life years ago. Now king Liam is determined to find his lost love who is harboring a secret

Author Note: This series is for @texaskitten30​ one of the winners of my 400 followers giveaway. Hope you enjoy this

Gracelyn got out the limo and helping her mom out “You ok mom?”

“I’m fine dear thank you”

“Hope I’m not being to fussy I was so worried about you”

Evelyn laughs “It’s fine sweetie I know it was scary but I’m fine and stronger than ever”

Gracelyn laughs “Yes you are mom” She leads her into the estate where Lorelai waits

She jumps up and down “Grandma!” She runs into her arms

Evelyn holds her tightly “Oh I’m so glad to see you baby are you ok?”

“Fine grandma I missed you”

“I missed you too sweetie”

Liam comes down the stairs and smiles “Good to see you Evelyn how are you?”

“Just fine Liam I hope you were taking care of my daughter”

Liam chuckles “I kept her safe for you”

“Good now I’m gonna go rest up” She heads up the stairs

Liam turns to Gracelyn “So glad to see your mom”

“Me too and I’m glad it’s all over”

“Yes it is”

3 years later…

Gracelyn sat on the balcony drinking teas rubbing her pregnant stomach “How are you doing in there baby? Moving around in there?” Gracelyn giggles “I can’t wait to meet you”

“Love” Gracelyn turns and sees Liam walking towards her

“Hi Liam”

“Hello my love” He kisses her softly “What are you doing out here?”

“Just relaxing getting fresh air”

Liam smiles “It is a nice day I’ll join you” He sits next to her “Where’s Lorelai?”

“Drake took her to the park she wanted to learn to ride her bike without training wheels she was asking me to show her but” Gracelyn giggles “I don’t know how to ride a bike myself”

Liam laughs “Well glad she has Drake to show her and Sierra love?”

“Taking a nap we have time to ourselves before she wakes up”

“I’m glad sweetie”

It’s been 3 years since Madeline and Regina arrested. Liam sent them to a maximum security prison. Liam made sure Madeline’s son went to a loving family. Liam didn’t allow Madeline to have any contact with him because Madeline was not a fit mother to anyone but he send her a picture of her son. Liam sold the estate where Madeline and Regina held his daughters captive he didn’t want them to go through that trauma again. He wanted to focus on his family and on the arrival of his son.

“Love you wanna take a walk?”

“That sounds nice”

Liam helped her stand up and they walk out to the palace courtyard.

“This is so beautiful Liam”

“Not as beautiful as you” He kisses her cheek “Our baby boy doing well”

“Yeah he’s moving around in there kicked a lot earlier”

Liam chuckles and kneels down and kisses her belly “Be nice to your mother my prince”

They continue walking till Gracelyn stops and smiles “Liam can you believe all we’ve been through just to be together”

“Yeah and it was all worth it in the end” Liam takes her hands in his and smiles “I’ve now got the family I’ve always wanted and I’m in a happy marriage with the woman I love what more can a king ask for?”

Gracelyn grins “How about 3 more children?”

Liam laughs “Let’s let this one come and take care of the ones we have now before we talk about more” Liam cups her face “I love you so much Gracelyn”

“I love you too Liam always and forever”

They kiss deeply under the sun

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[bbrandy2002]

A Beautiful Ending

Prologue

Pairing: Liam x MC

Book: The Royal Romance

A/N and Trigger Warning: I’ve had this one stored away in my mind for a nearly 2 years, the idea itself being based on something I’d watched a long time ago. It will only be a few chapters long. **There will be a character death in this, and it does involve a child. **  I can say though, what you think is going to happen isn’t exactly what happens, not that that makes it any better. 

Word count: 1105

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Billowing vapors of heat and humidity rose like seas of sweltering fractals across the tarmac. The slosh of softening tar and cement could be heard as a small caravan, led by the Royal Guard in SUVs and motorcycles, drove boldly through the gates that led to the private 757 jetliner owned by the Crown.

The limo came to a complete stop with a squeal of its brakes and dulling engine, just steps away from the plane. Bastien causally departed the front passenger's side, adjusting the brim of his black woolen suit jacket, the bright yellow sun reflecting in the shaded frames of his glasses. Within only a few seconds, beads of warm sweat had already pooled at his temple and slowly crept along his hairline.

A Cordonian summer could be cruel and intense.

Pausing for just a split-second, he winced at the stiffness and throb in his knee as he took his first step -- a constant reminder of what he gave for the crown six years ago at the Costume Ball.

A constant reminder of what was always at stake.

He stepped away with an unremarkable limp to the rear of the limo and placed a firm grip on the door latch; he glanced to his left, then to his right, ensuring his men and women were in their designated positions. Confidence and precision were essential here; everyone knew their part. One wrong move, an error in judgment, or a slight mishap, could make the difference between life and an unthinkable tragedy. Nothing should ever be taken for granted.

For what they are securing inside that vehicle wasn't just royalty -- a young King and Queen of Cordonia -- but a little family, precious cargo, timeless treasures of love and devotion to one another.

A beautiful beginning.

In all of his 25 years of service, Bastien Lykel understood all too well what the King had lost: a childhood marred of its innocence, the untimely death of a beloved mother, the horrific death of an implacable father, and the plans he had prepared for his life as the spare. It was all terribly sad, really, but in the here and now, His Majesty carried on happily with the help of one woman and the two children they lovingly brought into the world. To Bastien, he would be damned if he allowed another deadly incident to take all that away from Liam.

But sometimes, those unforeseen occurrences caught up with a person — destiny and fate bowed to no one.

Nodding to the driver who stood on the opposite side of the limo from him, they simultaneously opened the doors.

Almost instantly, a powerful gust of wind swept through the vehicle, causing Riley's lustrous textured hair to become artfully messy as it hurtled wildly across her radiantly smiling face.

With knees pressed together and her grinning one-year-old son -- whose wispy blonde locks resembled the most yellowish of marigolds -- wrapped in her secure arms, the beaming Queen stepped out into the noisy haze. Her floral print sundress twisted and clashed like a dauntless flag against her thighs, and she had the presence of mind to bunch up the lower part to keep her backside from making its way onto the front pages of newspapers again.

Shifting her son higher on her hip, the Queen whirled around to see if the other half of her heart was behind her.

Across from them, the driver stepped back and lowered his head to the towering figure of the King as he made his way out of the limo. Offering a courteous wave and smile to several dozen royal watchers, all pressing themselves against a chain-length fence several yards away, calling out his name, Liam reached back inside the limo where a tiny hand clamped onto his and scooted her way across the leather seats to join him at his side. A smaller version of her mother, the five-year-old princess shot a curious glance at the boisterous crowd; she could never quite figure out why people were so interested in what her family was doing.

While staff worked diligently on loading luggage onto the plane, the family of four joined Bastien, who would follow closely behind them as they headed toward the rolling steps of the jet.

The enthusiastic crowd roared louder when they got the first glimpses of the monarchs with their small children together. Liam and Riley enjoyed a popularity that seemingly was unparallel to anything the country had ever experienced. None of which would be possible without their generosity and charismatic personalities; the press and the people clung to their comings and goings like magnets.

Liam gently tugged on his daughter's balmy hand while she sluggishly trudged alongside him. He shook his head with an amused grin, taking in her dainty curls, bouncing and bobbing with each change in the wind's direction. There's nothing quite like admiring your very own piece of artwork, whose hearty giggles or cries had the ability to break him into a withering shell of himself.

Placing his other hand on the small of Riley's back as she took the first step onto the stairs, Liam's stoic gaze turned back to acknowledge his citizens one last time with a quick wave before ascending the steps behind his wife. Thoughts of a long, exhausting work week were put behind him, and he looked forward to landing in Greece within the hour. It had been months since the family last got away together and even longer since he'd visited his brother, Leo.

As Liam's foot hit the fourth step, a thunderous commotion of sorts broke out over the blare of the jet's whirling engines. There was no time to turn and see what had caused the crowd to erupt. No time to even process whether their gasps were something nonsensical or cause for concern. It was the gentle hand that had earlier clutched his so tightly, in only the way a daughter who trusted her father's loving protection would, slipping away, that gained his attention.

He couldn't catch her -- a fact that would torment him later. It wouldn't have made much difference, but his long-held beliefs were that a daddy was supposed to be the one to catch his child, not the guard.

But this wasn't a fall or a slip.

Liam's eyes widened, a noticeable expression of worry and panic etched on his face. His Princess laid limply, motionless, outwardly void of life, in Bastien's arms. "El?" he muttered, with a shudder in his voice, before tearing her away from the clutches of his head guard and cleaving her to his breathless chest.

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[little-diable]

Sharing is caring - Damon x reader x Stefan (smut)

So I’ve gotten quite a few requests like those two, so I’ll just put them into one imagine: 

Request by anon: Could you write a Damon x reader x Stefan threesome? Maybe they’re in a poly relationship or smth like that? Really any plot or no plot is fine, just make it rough please ;)

Request by @liamxs-world​: threesome between damon reader and stefan 😂or some fluff where she is in relation with both and both brother's are okay sharing her

Hope you guys like it. Enjoy my loves. xxx

Being in a relationship with both Salvatore brothers, was definitely something (y/n) still had to get used to, the boys would bicker with each other nonstop, trying to get (y/n) to themselves for a few good hours, without having to share her. (Y/n) equally loved the boys with all her heart, hence why they were trying out the whole “poly” relationship situation. 

Stefan would mostly take her out on romantic dinners, escort her to his favorite places, while Damon would take her on a trip down the memory lane, tell her all about their past, try and make her understand, why life side by side with the Salvatore brothers wasn’t a piece of cake. 

Sharing a girlfriend also meant sharing her in more than just one way, the brothers were slowly getting used to sharing her in the bedroom, both were focused on pleasuring (y/n), it didn’t matter, that more than just one pair of hands was working on her and (y/n) certainly wouldn’t complain. (Y/n) loved to tease them, she’d would walk around the house in nothing but a pair of her newest lingerie or just a towel, their eyes would be focused on her frame, sinful thoughts would cloud the brothers minds. 

Today had been one of those days, (y/n) was dressed in a pair of dark red lingerie, sitting on the kitchen countertop, snacking on a piece of bread, eyes focused on the brothers. She couldn’t stop the smile from spreading, they were clearly struggling, trying to keep calm, knowing that they’d meet up with their friends in less than an hour. “Fuck it.”, Damon whispered, he stalked towards her, grasped her middle and carried her upstairs, to her room, Stefan hot on his heels. 

“Little minx.”, Stefan began to kiss up her thighs, biting a few marks into the soft skin, the little whimpers that left her mouth were music to his ears. (Y/n)s hands were working on Damons trousers, he was straddling her chest, hands teasing her neck, dark eyes danced across her features, smirking down on her. She pulled Damons member out of his boxers, giving it a few pumps, all while Stefan ripped her panties aside, tongue dipping into her wetness, making her moan out. 

Damons length was buried deep inside of her mouth, (y/n) was gagging around him, the vibrations would send shivers up his spine, the way Stefan was teasing her core, would make her see stars, she was a moaning mess by now, desperately trying to focus on Damon. “I can’t wait any longer.”, Stefan breathed out, he undressed himself, grasped his length and slowly parted her folds with his tip, giving her a few seconds to adjust to his length. “Oh Stefan.”, (y/n) momentarily tilted her head backwards, hands working on Damons member, eyes closed. 

“Such a good girl.”, Damon grasped her chin, dipped his head down and sucked on her lower lip, he loved to hear her moans, loved to see her struggle, while he and Stefan would work on her. The older Salvatore brother brought one hand to her clit, circling the bundle of nerves, while Stefan began to roll his hips, length getting deeper and deeper. “Don’t stop, please.”, (y/n) grasped Damons thigh, he kept on adding pressure to her nub, eyes focused on hers, Stefan picked up his speed, hands grasping her hips, groans fell from his lips. 

Her legs were trembling by now, she tried to keep her focus on Damon, hands  pumping his length, feeling the slight twitch of his member, he was close, she sucked on his tip once again, moaning as he relieved himself into her mouth, cum dripping down the back of her throat. “I love you.”, Damon whispered as he kissed her swollen lips, eyes full of adoration as he watched her. Stefan felt his own orgasm fast approaching, as soon as Damon placed himself next to her, hands still rubbing her clit, Stefan leaned forward and sucked on her boobs. 

With a deep groan he came into her core, eyes squeezed shut, the grip he had on her got tighter, it was only a matter of time, till her own orgasm would crash upon her. Stefan and Damon switched places, Damon was now hovering above her, Stefan was seated next to her, “are you ready, darling?”, Damon sucked on her neck, teasing the spot that would make her toes curl, she nodded her head “yes”, a high pitch moan rumbled through her as he pounded into her heat, groaning as she clenched around his length. 

Damon was set on a ferocious pace, skin snapping against each other, balls slapping against her, (y/n) grasped Stefans hand, squeezing him as Damon drew her closer and closer to the edge. “You’re doing so well, baby.”, Stefan kept on praising her, (y/n) bit down on her lip, the pressure was getting too much, her nails were digging into the back of Stefans hand, Damon could feel her release nearing. His pace wouldn’t falter, Damon was keen on making her cum, desperate to feel her walls flutter around his length, her muscles were clenched, the tension was growing. 

It only took him a few more thrusts, before (y/n)s orgasm crashed upon her, warmth began to spread through her, moans fell from her lips, her back was arched, eyes closed as the heavenly sensation overcame her. The sight was enough to make Damon cum, he kept on riding the both of them through their high, (y/n) felt too good around him, he could stay like this forever, buried deep inside of her. 

(Y/n) was laying in between both brothers, still trying to catch her breath, whispering a small “I love you” as she closed her eyes. They gave her a few seconds to cool off, before they carried her towards the shower, massaging her skin underneath the hot water, relieving some of the tension, her head was placed on Damons chest, hands holding onto Stefan. (Y/n) adored the boys, her heart was filled with love, knowing that she’d either die, than let one of them go. 

[twinkleallnight]

The Visitor

This is my submission for Creepy Campfire Tales!

This is my first attempt in writing something creepy.

Thank you so much @speedyoperarascalparty for helping me out through this. I needed that approval!

Pairing: Liam x Riley, Drake.

Word count: 1046

Rating: Mature

Warning: hospitalisation, accident.

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Liam stormed into the hospital with Bastein.

“The situation is under control, your majesty. The queen has escaped with some minor injuries.” Dr Ramirez updated him as they strode to the room where Riley was been taken care of.

Dr Ramirez scurried ahead to maintain her pace with the anxious steps of the king. She finally slowed down in front of a door with a sign 'Restricted Entry.’

“We have given her some painkillers so that she feels relieved. She may be sleeping now.” She said as she opened the door for Liam. There, lying peacefully was his love, her skin looked pale against her lustrous brown curls.

Liam looked with pleading eyes at the doctor. His stoic demeanour had parted from him, the moment he had received the news. The doctor could see, not a king, but just a husband waiting to hear about the well-being of his beloved wife.

“Your majesty, she is stable. She should be back on her toes, soon” She reassured him.

“Can I wait beside her?” Liam asked with concern.

“ Yes, you may. We will keep her under observation for 48 hours.”

Liam nodded in agreement. He tiptoed and sunk into the chair next to her bed while the doctor gave them some privacy.

He gently slipped his fingers into Riley’s and held her hand. Her eyes fluttered open at his touch. “Li…”

“Love, I am so sorry. I should have been with you.”

“Please don’t say that. It wasn’t your fault. I should have listened to Mara. I thought, what harm a single ride can be without you. I was stubborn.”

Riley went for a horseback ride alone when Liam did not show up for their planned evening. Mara tried to follow but the horse Riley chose was too fast and soon it was out of control. It went beyond the estate lands, into an area Riley didn’t know well.

There was a knock on the door. Drake came in with a sullen face. “Brooks!”

“Drake, please don’t make that face.” Riley said with a sad smile.

“Either the training I gave you was insufficient or training that damn horse was a waste.” Anger surged through his veins.

Riley couldn’t control her laugh, even in pain. “ Are you going to punish the horse or me?”

Drake walked to the other side of the bed and bent down, “Never! How are you feeling?”

“I am good. Thanks to the timely help by that gentleman.”

“ Who?” Liam and Drake asked in unison.

“I fell at a place where there was some old trail. I thought this is it. No one will be able to find me here for ages. But then I heard the heavy engine of an old motorbike. And there he was. A middle-aged man, he helped me, he called the paramedics.”

“ Oh, we should express our gratitude for his timely help, then. Let me check where he is.” Liam got up to find out about the man who saved the love of his life but returned without any clue.

“We will find him out later. You need to rest now.” He placed a kiss on her forehead and she relaxed.

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After two weeks when Riley was in a healthier state, she insisted on revisiting the site of her accident. They still had no information about the stranger who helped the queen. Drake came along. As Riley had explained, it was a lonely trail and there was no one around.

“Are you sure this is the place?” Drake asked her.

“Yes, I remember that oak tree very well. It is unique here, you see?” Riley pointed to a red oak tree.

Liam knew well that his country mostly had white kermes oak trees. This was a much taller oak tree with red and orange leaves of autumn compared to the regular ones that were native to his land and were evergreen.

“Where do you think that gentleman come from?” Drake was getting restless as he questioned. Riley showed the old trail going around the red oak and vanishing in the woods. “We are getting nowhere with this!” Drake threw his hands up in the air.

Liam was much patient and knew Riley's strong wish to thank the person who saved her. “Do you remember anything else about him, dear?” He asked her.

“Yes, his motorbike, it was old style. It was… it had…” she peered into a zero, stressing her mind to recollect something. “ It had the symbol of king’s guard on it.”

Drake interrupted her. “That’s not possible. Such a vehicle won’t be...” She gave him an irritated look and he thought it better to shut his mouth.

She was again ruminating and suddenly blurted, “VAL 6374. That was the number! Yes, I am sure Liam. We can find him through the vehicle registration!” She was excited now and held on Liam’s arms, almost jumping.

She missed out the shocked look on Drake’s face. Drake was staring at Liam, his mouth agape while Liam was bracing for the bolt from the blue.

“Love, are you sure about the number?”

“Yes, I was flat on the ground. All I could see was the front tyre of his bike and the number plate before he got down to help me.”

Drake showed interest for the first time quizzing her. “What did he look like, Brooks?”

“Shabby dark brown hair, rugged look with a beard. He said he can’t fail the queen of Cordonia when he lifted me.” She was talking fast in enthusiasm.

Drake was not sure if he was doing the right thing but he couldn’t stop himself thinking about the probabilities. His hand moved to the rear pocket of his denim to remove his old leather wallet. He flipped through it to retrieve an old photograph and held it out for Riley. “Was this whom you met?” He could feel his heart palpitating.

“Yes! That’s him. You know him!” Riley was thrilled.

Liam calmed her down by resting his hands on her shoulders. “Riley…”

Riley took a pause and looked at her husband and her best friend puzzled. They were both serious and sharing a knowing look.

“What is it?” She was perplexed.

“Brooks, you are saying you were saved by my dead father Jackson Walker.”

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[riseandshinelittleblossom]

So I am going to attempt to dip my toes into writing again after a couple of years. The Fandom has changed so much and I'm not sure who is still here or who is even interested so I'm posting my last taglist to see who wants to remain on it before I begin posting again. If you would like to be added or removed please let me know. No hard feelings either way, just a clean up.

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[cordonian-literature]

Lythikosian Nightmare

This is my submission for the Creepy Campfire Tales :) I had this idea and couldn’t really get it out of my head, so I hope it's creepy enough & I hope you all enjoy it!!

*Takes place in between chapters 11 & 12 of book 3

Summary: Liam has a nightmare

Word Count: (+/-) 920

Warnings: blood, mention of character death

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The icy temperature that slipped into the rooms of the Nevrakis Chateau kept Liam from sleep. Any warmth he collects under the blanket dissolves once he shifts a mere centimeter. He wanted to get up, maybe grab another blanket from the closet, but purposefully losing any drops of heat felt foolish.

There was no moon in the sky nor light through the window. Liam thinks he saw something flicker under his door, but decides it must have been nothing. He’s tired and stressed, perhaps having slight hallucinations. Though his eyes burn when he closes them, Liam still tries to force himself towards slumber.

He wakes at intervals, the room’s darkness intensifying whenever he opened his eyes. Momentarily he can’t remember where he is, but as the hours go by and night suggests day, the silhouette of the curtains remind him of his location.

Reluctantly, Liam peels his eyes open as the morning light blares down at him. Dust floats in the air, tickling his nose and causing him to blink rapidly. The walls are no longer the purple ones of the Nevrakis Chateau, but are more neutral. He’s no longer in a bed, but looks at one.

A quick glance confirms to Liam that he isn’t in Lythikos, but back at the palace and in the Queen’s Chambers. He lies on a couch on the side of the room and sees that there is someone under the covers of the bed.

He stands, trying to remember when he left Lythikos. His bare feet freeze against the cold floor. Liam gets closer to the body and sees that the person has the sheets drawn over their face. He thinks it’s Riley, so he grabs the edge of the sheet and lifts it away to see her features. But it’s not Riley.

Mother.

Her thin hair is tied back from her blue and pale face. Her lips were cracked, swollen. They were white and a faded shade of pink. When she had died he hadn’t been allowed to see her body before it was laid to rest. As a child, the fact saddened him. Now he understood why this sight was restricted.

He feels lightheaded. Why was her body here? Who had placed it here? Anton? There is no way for him to save her. He lifts the sheet again, pulling it off the bed completely, and notices that it wasn’t a bed after all. The “bed” is a row of three coffins. The one closest to him held his mother. The one in the middle held his father, spots of dried blood on his chin and creeping up from his suit. But the third one, the one farthest from him, is empty.

Liam rushes to the other side. He leans over the edge of the wooden coffin. Who is it for? Carved into the bottom is his own name.

He looks back at his mother, then his father. Both once epitomes of strong leaders. Both their bodies lifeless.

His bare arms are freezing. Liam reaches for the sheet that was once over his dead parents’ bodies and wraps it around himself. He tries to turn back toward the bodies, but he slips on the edge of the sheet and falls back.

Liam lands with a thud, the back of his head sore. He blinks. He’s in the coffin.

What have I done wrong? Which of my actions disappointed my people?

“Liam?” a voice calls. It’s Riley. “Liam, what are you doing in there?” Her face comes into view, glowing. She holds out her hand. But before he can take it, the coffin snaps shut.

Darkness spreads around him again. Liam looks around rapidly. Something scratches against his chest. Riley’s hand. Dripping blood. She punches the coffin. He can hear her screaming. Crying out in pain. 

He pushes and punches along with her to no avail. Riley’s hand goes limp. He hears her weak whimpers slow to nothing. There is no way for him to save her.

Sweat lingers over his brow and drips into his eyes as he punches. He takes a moment, puts his arms to his sides and breathes deeply.

But his heart is jittery. He can't make himself stay still for long. Liam draws his arm back, and when he punches, it lifts him out of bed and onto the floor. He looks around frantically. Purple wallpaper. Blue carpet. Snow outside. A bed. A real one. He’s in Lythikos again. Thank God.

Riley.

Liam tumbles over his own feet as he throws the door open. He sprints down the halls until he knows her room is near. Mara comes into view, standing guard outside Riley’s door.

“Your Majesty,” she begins to say, but Liam doesn’t let her finish. He pulls the door open. Riley lay in bed, peacefully snoring away.

“She’s alright,” Mara states. “She’s been asleep this whole time.”

He wanted to go closer to her. Make sure his eyes weren’t playing tricks on him. Make sure that Mara had done her job correctly. But he remembers that he’s in his underwear. He nods his head towards Mara, then walks back to his rooms.

Liam is still sweating. His ears are ringing. His hands feel hot. His breathing is loud, as if there isn’t enough oxygen around him. The sun had barely risen, and the shadows along every corner did nothing to ease Liam’s dread. He rushes to put his clothes on, checking every drawer and small space to make sure that his imagination isn’t still playing tricks on him.

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[eadanga]

My Lost Love Part 13

Summary: Liam a prince fell in love with Gracelyn a palace maid who disappeared from his life years ago. Now king Liam is determined to find his lost love who is harboring a secret

Author Note: This series is for @texaskitten30​ one of the winners of my 400 followers giveaway. Hope you enjoy this

Gracelyn stat by her mom’s hospital bed as she cried “I’m so sorry this happened to you mom” She clenched her fist “I know Madeline did this I hate her she is such a bitch hurting my mom and taking my children over Liam what’s wrong with her?!” She sighs “I know Liam will find them soon he always keeps his promises I just hope they’re ok”

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Lorelai sat in a room with a single bed. She looked down at the floor Mommy and daddy will find me I know they will daddy wouldn’t want me to be scared he tell me to be strong. Those mean ladies don’t scare me.

The door opened and Regina came in with some food She placed the tray in front of her “Time to eat”

Lorelai looked at the food and pinched her nose “That’s smelly!”

“Too bad you eat it or you get nothing at all” Lorelai grabbed the only non-smelly thing on the tray which was bread and pushed the rest away “Good listen to grandma”

“You’re not my grandma grandmas are supposed to be nice you’re not nice”

“I can be nice if you listen to what I say or I can be downright mean if you don’t. Now shut up and eat you little brat I’ll be back later” Regina walks out the room and locks the door

“I hate her she’s so mean”

****

Liam stood pacing in his office he turned as the door opened “Bastien tell me you have something”

“We’re still trying to find the man in the video your highness though we think that Queen mother Regina may been in on it”

“Regina? What do you mean Bastien?”

“She’s disappeared your majesty”

Liam clenches his fist “She was always close with Madeline and always trying to push her on me should have known she would have something to do with this. You gotta find her Bastien I’m sure wherever you find Regina you’ll find Madeline. Look at all the safe houses and estates she has she could be hiding in one of them”

“Right away your majesty” Bastien bows and walks out the door

Liam pulls out his phone and dials Drake’s number

“Liam hey what’s up”

“Listen there’s no doubt in my mind that Regina and Madeline are behind all of this. They know all the safe houses so I can’t have Gracelyn there. Do you have a place that she can stay at?”

“I think my sister has an old apartment that she used to stay at”

“That would be fine bring Gracelyn there and don’t leave her side I can’t leave the palace right now but I’ll be there as soon as I can”

“You got it Liam”

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After crying and holding her mom’s hand tightly Gracelyn fell asleep beside her. She felt a gentle shaking and mumbled “5 more minutes”

“Hey sleeping beauty wake up”

Gracelyn slowly opened her eyes and saw Drake standing over her “What are you doing here Drake? Where’s Liam?”

“He can’t leave the palace so he told me to take you somewhere safe” Gracelyn looked from Drake to her mom “He also said that this room will be guarded no one is allowed in here without his permission”

Gracelyn nods and stands up she kisses her mom on the forehead and follows Drake out the room. They drive down to an apartment building and walk up to the top floor.

Gracelyn looks around “Didn’t know you had an apartment”

“It’s my sister’s actually she used to live here and she gave it to me it’s nice to stay here and get away from all the drama at court. Don’t worry no one knows about this place I just told Liam about it today we’ll be safe here”

“I’m glad” She sinks down onto the couch I’m so worried about my kids I hope they’re ok”

“They’ll be fine Liam will find them”

“I know he will Drake but who knows what Madeline is doing to them”

“Madeline can’t be that crazy to harm a baby and a kid”

“Crazy is literally her middle name I swear if I find anything wrong with them I’m killing her myself”

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Liam walked through the halls of the palace and he headed to see how finding the princesses were going. He stopped at the corner when he heard voices “…Yeah the king is still searching I’ll try to get rid of any evidence I can they won’t be able to trace it back to you”

Liam felt the anger arise in him as he ran out from his hiding spot and tackled the man to the ground. Bastien can running in “Your majesty!”

“Arrest this man!” Liam gets up and grabs the man by his collar “Who were you just talking to?!” The man remains quiet as Liam grabs the phone “Who’s this?!”

“My dear Liam it’s been a while hasn’t it?”

Liam narrows his eyes “Madeline where’s my daughters?”

“Your baby and your bastard? Why I don’t know where you put human filth”

Liam clenched jaw as his nostrils flare “Don’t you speak about my children like that”

“They could have been our children if you loved me Liam”

“I would never love a bitch like you”

“My such language did your whore teach you that? I knew she was no good for you come and take me back Liam I’ll treat you the right way I mean Jessie is ok but I know your even better”

“Stop playing games with me and tell me where my daughters are”

“What does it matter you’ll never see your precious girls again”

After the phone goes click Liam clenches his fist “That bitch Bastien find her quickly”

“I will your majesty”

Liam sighs as he looks up at the ceiling Be strong little ones Daddy will find you

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Tag List Update

It’s that time again - it’s been almost a year since I updated my lists, and seeing as I’m wrapping up one series (Kairos), prepping for RODAW, picking up old series, and deciding what new thing I want to work on next, I want you to be able to read the things you want to 💙

Comments and/or reblogs are good (and I appreciate every single one of them!), but I've made up a form that will hopefully make things easier. Listing perma/book tags below the cut; to avoid repeating names by listing every series, I'm mentioning everyone that's been tagged for at least one book/series to opt in on what you want.

If you're seeing this post but you weren't tagged and you want to be on a taglist, hello! and click the link below 😊

If you've been tagged but you're no longer into my writing, ignore this post and the form; I'll remove you from tags once I close submissions. There won't be any hard feelings - I know tastes change over time, and I don't want to annoy you with a story you no longer wish to read

You can always hop on or off a list later, this is just my attempt to stay organized

Form will stay open until Sunday, 25 July, 11:59 EDT. After that time, I'll update lists accordingly.

These are included on the form, but here are 50 words or less "snapshots" of my WIPs and upcoming series:

Non-Choices

(last updated November 2020) The Exchange: Daniel Henney x Reader thing where you meet Daniel Henney at an informal gathering

(last updated June 2021) To Ruined Friendships: Logan Delos x Reader potential miniseries where you set aside years of friendship with Logan to see the side of himself he rarely shows the world

Ride or Die

(last updated July 2019) Mixtapes & Milkshakes, Side A: through a series of flashbacks via mixtape, Jin recounts her time with the Mercy Park Crew and the two boys she fell for (Logan x MC, Colt x MC)

(TBD) Mixtapes & Milkshakes, Side B: AU where Logan recounts his summer with MC (Lana) while he listens to an album

(last updated February 2020) Mixtapes Hidden Track: open series of one shots between Logan and Jin as they repair their relationship

(last updated July 2019) Prologue to Breathe Hope Love Live: 3-part introduction to an AU where Ellie tries to start a new life on the East Coast, but she’s still in love with Logan and Colt

(TBD, August 2021) RODAW 3.0: fic, edits, crafts, and other submissions for ROD Appreciation Week

(TBD, August 2021) Untitled AU: series adjacent to Mixtapes (Hidden Track) where Logan learns how to love & be loved as he and Jin rebuild their relationship and start a family

The Royal Romance/Royal Heir

(last updated November 2018) Crimson Snow: gangster AU where Liam is part of the Yakuza. IDK when this series will actually begin

(last updated February 2020) Deja Brew: prologue posted; coffeeshop-esque AU that will incorporate Friends quotes/prompts that will loosely follow events from TRR Book 1, if everything had taken place in New York

(last updated August 2020) Elpida: TRH AU set 20+ years in the future, where Eleanor “Teddy” Rys returns to Cordonia to be crowned Queen. Technically complete but I've been asked to write more

(last updated July 2021) Kairos: nearly completed Wacky Drabbles series/AU where Riley asked Liam about the one that got away. Liam recalls his time with a woman named Elia, and their time together one summer

(last updated July 2021) Love is Patient: possible Wacky Drabble AU/miniseries where Liam and Trina had a chance meeting as kids and pretended to get married. 20 years later, Trina’s summoned to Cordonia because Liam can’t be crowned king without a wife. Can two relative strangers fall in love and prove their love is real in time?

(last updated October 2020) Morpheus Dreams: snippet posted; soulmate AU set in a post-apocalyptic world where dreams only occur when you fall asleep in the arms of your soulmate. burnsoslow’s Alyssa Devereaux from Remember Two Things will be on loan

(last updated October 2019) Morsels: miscellaneous one shots following You Are the Reason series, where Liam and Trina navigate married life in between ruling as monarchs, raising kids, and finding moments of time for themselves

(last updated September 2019) Serendipity: college AU where TRR characters exist, but Cordonia doesn’t and they don’t have noble titles. Liam shares a kiss with Trina within minutes of meeting her, and spends the rest of the semester getting to know her

(last updated December 2020) Sojourn: AU comprised of one shots after TRR Book 2 events, where Trina accepted Liam’s proposal on the condition that she goes to law school before they marry. Drake becomes her roommate/extension of the Kings Guard for protection while he also finishes his degree. Chaos sometimes ensues; precursor to You Are the Reason

(last updated April 2019) You Are the Reason: series occurs after Sojourn, where recent graduates Trina and Drake officially return to Cordonia. However, unknown forces try to keep Trina from marrying Liam. Some parts of TRR Book 3 will be included

(TBD 2021) Untitled Summer Love/Wacky Drabbles series: AU where Cordonia doesn’t exist/no one has noble titles. Liam and Drake take a long overdue summer vacation, where they meet an interesting pair of ladies, under odd circumstances. Will there be more than one summertime spark?

FYI I don't post anything on a schedule 🙈also tags max out in a post so I'll reblog in a minute. Thanks for reading this mess, and reading in general 💙

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You've been visited by the random OC question fairy! :D ~☆

What is true about your character's current life that would make their child self cry? What about their life has surprised them, for good or for bad? 

Oooooooh this is so good! Thanks for the question @random-oc-questions-fairy feel free to drop some more I love talking about my OC’s!

So my first thought was Hope from Crimson Rain. Sorry Percy lovers.

What is true about your character’s current life that would make their child self cry?

Hope finally has a place where she feels like she can belong. Her entire life she felt like she was in limbo. She had her mother, but it was more like a shell of a woman who she would never truly know. Doctor Linda tried, but she was no replacement for Hope’s mom.

After nineteen years of being raised more or less in a nursing home by her mother’s doctor she finally has found her family. She has her father who never looked for her simply because he didn’t know she existed, she has two sister’s- older who is adopted, though is this family titles or blood don’t mean anything, and a younger sister (half). She has a step mother who would burn the earth to the ground for her.

All of these would cause her child self to cry happy tears. All those years of feeling out of place no longer matter, but it’s not all rainbows and unicorns. Her younger self would sob knowing that her mother died without ever regaining her memory. She would also shed a few tears at the knowledge that she also has an older brother who won’t speak to her and blames her for losing their mother.

What about their life has surprised them, for good or bad?

She’s basically mob royalty, that was a shock but she kinda fits in with her hacking ability.

Surprise siblings! Hello, in one day she found her older brother, her father, and learned she had a sister. That’s not including finding out how her mother lost her memory or the reasons behind her family being lost for nineteen years.

Liza. Just Liza. Linda was a decent mom, but she was more doctor than loving parent, her own mother didn’t always recognize her and couldn’t be there for her like a mother should so when Liza went into mama bear mode for her she was genuinely shocked because she never had anyone show her that much love before, let alone someone she had just recently met.

Liam and Olivia were both shocking in their own ways. Liam was unwilling to let her in and at the same time she physically invaded Olivia’s space when Bastien and Liza moved her in for her safety and yet Olivia was welcoming and understanding.

Sage was a surprise for everyone but Hope was super excited to become a big sister.

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[rainbowsinthestorm]

Update

Hi everyone! Apologies that I’ve been absent lately and haven’t updated At The Beginning in a while. Lately, I’ve been struggling. 

I know it’s been a while since I updated my series but if I’m being totally honest, my mental health has been really bad lately and I just haven’t been in the right head space to even think about writing. I’d usually write on Sundays when my husband goes out to American Football training but I’ve been getting no time to myself and I just can’t find the motivation.

It feels like I’m letting everyone down waiting for the next chapter but then when I’m writing it, I’ll constantly be thinking ‘what if no one reads it or they read it and they don’t like it?’. I then stress myself out and lose all motivation but then I’ll be in a never ending loop of feeling like my work isn’t good and that I’m letting people down by not posting anything, alternating between the two constantly. I’m just so exhausted from pretending I’m ok and everything’s alright.

Hubby and I are still both working from home, in the same room, for ten hours a day which is taking its toll on me, not having any ‘me time’ away from him. It sounds awful, I know, but I’m ready for him to go back to the office, just so we aren’t together 24/7 which isn’t healthy.

I’ve also had some issues in my personal life lately and I ended up in a really bad place. The issues are not something I’m proud of at all but I’m slowly working through them to get better.

For a long time, I didn’t talk to anybody about how I was feeling and the thoughts I had spiralled out of control and my thoughts got so low and I felt so unhappy that I couldn’t see a way out, thinking it would be so easy to just do something to not be here. I just feel like I’m letting everyone down. My hubby mainly, for various reasons.

But also you guys as well because I’ve not been updating my fics on a regular basis but that’s something else I’ve been struggling with. I don’t have high self esteem at all and have thoughts that my fics are not very good and I worry that people will then lose interest if I’m not updating regularly.

I also haven’t been playing choices as much as the books just aren’t holding my interest and at one point I was just playing them to get the diamonds. I signed up for VIP for a few months to play ‘My Two First Loves’ but other than that I haven’t really played a book since I finished that one. Maybe I’ll go back and replay some of the older books to see if I can get back the love for the game.

I’m not loads better, but I’m slowly getting there. I’ve started going to the gym every day, just to get out of the house and I’ve been reading my books a lot lately (I currently have over 500 to read but can’t help buying more 😂) which has helped.

I’m hoping to be able to get back into writing shortly, maybe doing some one shots until I can get my head into the right space in order to continue my series. Anyway, sorry for rambling on. I’ve probably bored you all to tears 😂.

As it’s been so long, I’m updating my tag lists. If anyone wants to be removed, because I‘ve not been posting a lot, just let me know. I’m also thinking about posting on AO3 as well as I don’t know how active the fandom is on here anymore. If anyone wants to follow me on there, my username is rainbowsinthestorm 

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