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moe-broey · 5 months ago

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Sometimes I worry I get too self-indulgent w how I portray Alfonse w Sharena, ESP keeping that one FEH comic in mind (which shows Alfonse and Sharena's differing boundaries, and how Alfonse in general "isn't much of a hugger") BUT. In my heart............. I like to imagine....... there are moments where he'll happily allow it. But the Problem Here, is if he gives Sharena an inch, she's taking a mile. She's going to completely smother him. She's dangling off his shoulders and squishing herself against him in ways previously thought impossible. Which may or may not be a contributing factor as to why he's a little apprehensive by default. And it's a feedback loop. Him being standoffish, her trying sooooo hard to respect that when she's STARVING for that physical affection, him allowing it, her squeezing him so hard that if he wasn't in armor he might break a rib. Endless loop. Unique hell. But they do love each other, completely.

#i also like to play w the idea that like. maybe their boundaries aren't so good. actually.#i also think A Lot. about the way alfonse locks up during rosado's fbs. when sharena expresses her feelings to him #IT ALWAYS FUCKING. REALLY ALWAYS FUCKING STUCK OUT TO ME. NAGGED AT ME.#when i say playing w boundaries i mean what if there was an over reliance on one another?#that really should have and would have been avoided if they weren't raised in seclusion presumably even from each other #LIKE. at times??? i have to imagine there were Times. or at v least the way each of them were raised differently #created this sense of absence/distance from each other. also not even gonna get INTO sharena's whole ordeal.#but i'm getting rambly. we really do not have the details. but what i'm getting at is the idea that #bruno was the first person each had like. a normal relationship with. and i think a lot of self-correcting took place over the course of it #'a normal relationship' like. mileage may vary. but. i think he did set an example in a way.#like. something something emotional enmeshment/entanglement and this sort of hot/cold #distance vs being too close/relying too much on each other exclusively. which would have been remedied #if they had like. any stable/heathy bonds w anyone but each other. espppp growing up.#and currently they just kinda do this back and forth. correcting and falling back and TRYING. to strike Some sort of balance.#but ALSO in a very sweep it under the rug way. we don't talk about it way. which. may only make things Worse #but sharena was raised like 'everything is Fine 😊' and alfonse was raised like Burden Of The Entire World. Yours Alone. Forever.#idk idk just. i heart familial drama. ect.#fe alfonse #sharena

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