#lke I expected it but... I hate it

[aquarian-queen]

[francy-sketches]

I'm gonna have to work on my final project non stop for like a month straight bc I procrastinated on it too much fuck my stupid baka life

[capriszn]

i think all my personal problems would vanish if the alternative to every systematic issue wasnt rooted in whiteness

[oliviamillss]

some cities + my astrocartography placements alongside it

*in my experience, astrocartography shows me how i interact with a city and how i experience it overall. i find it extremely helpful to look at these before i travel to know what to expect!*

london: has my venus and uranus DC! london is my favourite city in the world (so far). i see so much beauty in it that other people just don't. i am always wondering around in awe, which i think is probably unusual for a local lol. i love every aspect of it. i also love going round art museums here

paris: has my venus and uranus DC again! i haven't spent much time in paris, but whenever i go it is very pretty. i was so in awe of the eiffel tower, which i was shocked by as photos kinda undersell it? but it is gorg. also a huge fan of art museums here too.

olden, norway: not a city but it has my moon IC! i found here to be so beautiful, that it was almost emotional. there was such good connection between people, and i got on really well with some strangers. i also spent a lot of time with my mother here, and it was one of her favourite places.

sydney: had my chiron ac. i enjoyed sydney, to some extent, but there was never an 'awe' factor. i was dealing with a looootttt of facing trauma from my past and learning to not assume everyone hates me, learning to be at peace and not keep searching for 'better', learning to not need validation etc etc.

airlie beach, australia: had my sun ic! not a city again but here felt like the first time i met my sort of people for a month of going without, and i felt seen and understood! this placement isn't overly strong though, like 3 degrees off?

new york city: has my venus and uranus mc! i haven't had the chance to go yet (although i am going in 2027, as long as nothing gets worse politically), but in the least cringiest way possible, it just calls me. i see myself studying here, or living here. i cannot wait to visit.

nassau, bahamas: has my venus and uranus mc RIGHT through it!! once again, haven't gone yet but will in the future and i truly cannot wait. it seems so beautiful, and lke my other venus and uranus cities, i assume i am just going to be in awe the whole time.

[stellas-starry-sillies13]

I'm sorry you had an anon be mean to you about this but that's what you can expect your life to be like if you don't learn to respect others. No "respecting but not supporting", no "I'm a Christian so I can't support", no "I have a DNI for a reason". You're not talking about some dumb internet discourse like proshippers and antishippers, these are real life people who have lost their lives to hate and ignorance. They were like you, they are like you, with hobbies and loved ones and dreams, and they lost their lives. Take that in.

This could be a friend of yours that is terrified to tell you, or your most beloved family member, or the people who have supported the (really nice!) art you create. They are everywhere and they are afraid, because someone decided to lie and put words into God's mouth that He never said.

I know it's hard to unlearn the things you've been incorrectly taught, and whoever taught them to you is probably not some evil homophobe but simply someone who was misguided just like you. But God never said anything about homosexuals, much less about transgender people. He said to love thy neighbor, and that a man should never sleep with a boy. That's right, not a man with another man, just a man with a boy. God is against child abuse, and that's a great teaching.

The Bible was originally written in Hebrew, so it makes sense that over thousands of years, getting translated back and forth into so many different languages, a mistake like this could occur. But you need to know this and realize God's message beyond the books, that He loves every one of His children and you should love them too, because you are appreciating God's creation, and God made them the way they are.

In the times we live in, the hate towards these people has gone down, and that's a great thing! But it's definitely not eradicated. They are still being bullied, beat up, and yes, murdered because of who God made them. And you may think that it has nothing to do with you or your beliefs, because you don't hate them, you simply don't support them. But think about it like this:

Everyone in your class likes either the color blue or the color pink. You can all agree on this. You like pink so you can't imagine why anyone would like anything else, when it's not only the color you've been taught to like, but also a really nice color for you personally. If people were allowed to like other colors, you'd still love pink, and you think everyone would like blue or pink still.

So you have a new classmate, and he likes green. Everyone is confused, it makes no sense. How hard can it be to just like blue or pink? You don't get it, nobody does. And they start bullying him, calling him horrible names and being violent towards him. And it makes you sad, because you don't think he deserves that, he just needs to be left unsupported so he can realize he actually likes blue.

Months go on like this, until he changes schools due to the bullying. He's severely depressed. His parents are mad at the bullies, and disappointed in you. Because you could've stood up for him, despite not understanding him, despite being worlds apart from each other, but you didn't. Because your silence fed into other people's hate. Because hate is bred by ignorance.

We're all humans and we're not gonna live forever. Can we make the world a nice place for each other to be in? Can we stop putting false words into God's mouth and killing humans, with families and with hopes and dreams, over it?

Hi. If i dont like arianna grande, does that mean I hate her? No. I just may not be into her music, what she does, or her in general. If i dont support lgbtqia does that mean i hate it and everyone thats in it? Absolutely not. I have friends in that community who know i dont support it and are fine with it. Am i saying everyone is lke that? No. Some people are very sensitive and think that because i dont support it, that means i hate them and im a terrible person. But thats not what it means. Just because I dont like it, doesnt mean i hate it or those in it. Its like if you love playing this game and you recommend me to play that game. But im not really into so i dont really wanna play it. Then you get mad at me for not playing the game and say that I hate it, when in reality, i dont. Its just not my thing, or maybe i believe the game has like a bad influence or idk something that i dont like is it. And yes, i know yall are real people. I never said you werent, never said i didnt love you guys. So stop trying to paint me as this villain who because i don’t support that means that i hate everyone who is in it. Chill out.

Moving on, lets talk about what God has to say about homosexuals or more specifically, the verse that was “mistranslated”

I found a reddit that sums it up perfectly. If you truly and genuinely have sent me this ask because you genuinely believe im blind or something, you want me to see the “truth”, or because you belive ive been misguided, please read through this whole thing, and look at the facts before making conclusions, instead of making excuses about the bible so it can look like what you want it to look like.

And even if what you said about that verse was actually true and it was mistranslated or God was actually talking about sleeping with a boy, there are lots of other scriptures that talk about homosexuality, here are a few:

1st Corinthians 6:9 says, Do you not know that the unrighteous will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived. Neither fornicators, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor homosexuals, nor sodomites, nor thieves, nor covetous, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor extortioners will inherit the kingdom of God.

Leviticus 20:13, If a man lies with a male as he lies with a woman, both of them have committed an abomination. They shall surely be put to death. Their blood shall be upon them.

Romans 1:26, For this reason God gave them up to vile passions. For even their women exchanged the natural use for what is against nature. Likewise also the men, leaving the natural use of the woman, burned in their lust for one another, men with men committing what is shameful, and receiving in themselves the penalty of their error which was due

In the beginning, go made Adam and Eve, not Adam and Steve, not Adam and Eve who goes by they them. If they them and all those other custom pronouns were actually natural, God wouldve said so. He wouldnt just forget to mention it. He specifically made adam and eve, a man and a woman for marriage. And can I say I hate when people say, “im just a girl in a boys body” or vice versa. No youre not. Because saying that hints that God made some kind if mistake when creating you. God doesnt make mistakes. Hes perfect.

Nowadays in this world, people tend to flow with their feelings rather than logic and common sense. Oh, I feel like a boy, so that must mean i am one. Yknow, ten years ago, people would laugh at the fact that people genuinely think they could become their opposite gender. Its not because we were stuck up or narrow minded. Its because we used logic and common sense. But now people completely disregard that concept. They think they can change their gender, just because they want to.

Also i don’t appreciate you saying ive been misguided and mistaught. No offense, but you clearly dont read the bible enough to decide what is right and wrong. If you are a christian, the bible tells you that what God says is right is right, and wrong, wrong, therefore you should be basing what you believe is truth from the bible. If you arent a Christian, then we have totally different beliefs and you also are not in position to say ive been misguided because you are basing the truth either from how you feel or from the people around you, meaning we both believe totally different things.

And again, i do love my neighbors. But im not going to encourage them or support them doing something that i believe is wrong. That is the opposite of love.

Moving on again, your example of pink, blue, and green is completely inaccurate because you are presuming my personality and my character from one fact: i dont support lgbtqia.

I will always be against bullying and if I was in that position, i wouldnt simply stand there and do nothing, so you have no right to say that that would happen if I was in that position. Even if i dont support everything he believes, that doesnt mean i think its okay for him to get bullied, and please stop trying to guilt trip me. If you get offended simply because I dont support what you like, thats on you for being too sensitive. Maybe if i was your friend or family that would be a different story.

In reference to your last paragraph, i agree. Can we make this world a nice place? Can we stop lying to each other and trying to add or subtract words from the bible to make it look like whatwe want it to?

Anyway thanks for being honest with me, anon

[vitanithepure]

You need to stop treating fictional charcters like real people. Because at the end of the day Gale is not real and no harm comes to him, no matter who says what about him.

I am very well aware of this fact, thank you. I might be crazy, but not that looney.

With this out of the way:

You do realize though, that fictional characters don't exist in a vacuum, right? They are not based on a real person but have real person characteristics. Why do you think people cling this much to fictional characters? Mostly because they see something of themselves in them, because they share some of those experiences with them.

It's funny in a tragic way Gale suffers from what most real people do in real life - he makes goofy things, he smiles, cracks jokes and thus people don't care to look any deeper to see a person that is willing to let himself go and just die at the first opportunity given.

And ulimately, each person that felt close to his character because of this angle was just told "yeah, him sacraficing himself is the best option for him to give back to the world". Fuck that.

Also all the "weird" real life people who talk to much, know too much, cannot find a way to act in a conventional way sometimes? Yeah, screw their experiences as well, they "annoy the fuck out of everyone, haha".

Even a meaningles mechanic of giving him magic trash you find all over the place was turned into a joke. I got bullied to the point of deleting my post criticizing just that all those months ago, so I'm unwilling to discuss this again. I dealt with it by blocking all the obnoxious boot jokes.

You don't see the same disdain thrown at other fictional characters in this game. Nobody makes light of Astarion's or Karlach's trauma, nobody disputes if Shadowheart is suffering.

And you sure as hell don't see the developers that MADE the characters throw one of them constantly under the bus like Gale. It's mind boggling that some of them genuinely seem to hate their own creation this much. It's like they have no idea what that character even stands for.

I didn't expect to hear that from the owner and a fucking lead writer in a company, they should know better than to act as any random person on the internet lke this.

[strawberry-daiquiris]

AO3 Wrapped!

nobody tagged me in this hahahah i just wanted to keep a record like i did last year so this is a mash up of a couple of different versions (not figg as i first posted lol)

Works Published: 26 (including 1 anon fic)

Comment Threads: 791

Word Count: 222,139 (took jump right in out of the total because most of it was written/half was published in 2023 but ao3 includes it in the latest updated year for stats)

Top 3 Kudosed Fics:

(again... ignoring jump right in... sort of)

🏆 hard on the brakes

🥈 lay your open hand

🥉 something dumb to do

Top Word Count:

🏆 lay your open hand (51k)

🥈 still reserved for me (35k)

🥉 girls just wanna f1 tumblr fics (15k)

Top Ships:

🏆 landoscar

🥈 🥉 a tie between piastrell and piastrella, as it should be <3

and then some additional questions, cutting this for dash length purposes...

What work are you most proud of (regardless of kudos/hits)?  this one is so hard... last year i had a stand out because jump right in was (and still is) such a huge accomplishment. i guess i'm proud of still reserved for me because it's a continuation of a world i feel so happy in, and even though the readers have dropped off a lot i feel like i'm writing for a group of people who really Get and Love the two of them. it makes me proud to have managed to build something like that!!!

i'm also just proud of the sheer word count... insane... stupid... get a grip.

What work of yours got more feedback than you expected? oh 100% the piastrells... really didn't think anyone else apart from about 4 certified fellow freaks were going to be into them as a pairing, but i've had some lovely, insightful feedback about them and their relationship that makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside!!!!

What work was the quickest to write? just like last year i've got a few fics that were one session wonders. sun down and i'm feeling lifted aka help i think i fancy some driver's sisters, this (maybe not so now) anon when i was hit by the Future of F1, the tarkov nortrell and all of the andrea/oscar fics that were basically me working through my sport emotions, lol.

What work took you the longest to write?  i started the gdoc of what became lay your open hand in april and posted it december, but i was only properly working on it from some point in september. still reserved for me took the best part of two months as well. next year i have 3 wips i'd lke to actually finish that could steal the title tbh.

What’s your most common “Additional Tags” tag? rule 63 babyyyyyy!!!! closely followed by age difference and magical realism, which tracks.

Your favourite character to write this year? toss up between oscar and max fewtrell, which explains nicely why the brittle fics are my highlights of 2024.

The character that gave you the most trouble writing this year? lando still stressing me out to this day... i think i am nearly there with the voice (although frightened of over using in case i fall into it sounding forced) but the rapidly changing state of mind on that man... i think i love him so much it's hard to feel like i ever capture him properly, the wriggly little wormy thing.

What’s one pairing you want to explore next year? i think there's a jendo in me bubbling below the surface.

Favourite work you wrote this year? oh i think i have already answered this by going on and on about it, but brittle it shakes, closely followed by something to sink your teeth into and a podium finish for float away like vapour.

ok sorry if you read this because it was LONG... i'm also going to make a few new years resolutions...

i'm going to get better at replying to comments and not feel shame if i go back and respond to ones from a while ago

stop being hard on yourself, stop deciding a fic is rubbish and then hate it/want to delete it, stop holding yourself to DEADLINES... it's not that deep, it's not a job, it's supposed to be FUN

i'm going to read more - i will stop saving fics for 'the best time for them' and start reading them when they come out so that i don't miss my chance.

[helluvahusker]

First chapter of the next installment of Sex Shop AU and Everyone is Poly bc I Said So is up! Click here or read below the cut

Blitzø: Hey u fre 2nite?

Stolas: Always free for you, darling.

Blitzø’s face burned. It was unfair how much he liked it when Stolas called him that. Not that it was special. Demons with posh accents tended to unironically call everyone “darling” and “dear” about as much as Blitzø condescendingly called everyone “bitch” and “sweetheart.” And he liked how enthusiastic Stolas always was about seeing him, even though it was mildly concerning that the bird was rarely busy in the evenings. Fuck, Blitzø really hoped that Stolas liked him for more than just being the only person to give him attention. 

Blitzø: Cn I cum ovar?

Stolas: Absolutely! What time should I expect you?

What time should he expect him? Well the store closed at 6 and Fizz was getting picked up by Oz at 7, Blitzø still had to shower, and Stolas lived on the nice side of town so Blitzø should probably give himself some extra time to get there…

Blitzø: Lke 7:30? Prbly gona help Fizz frist hes got a date

Stolas: Oooh, how exciting! I’ll see you at 7:30 then :)

Blitzø thumb up reacted the last message and closed his phone case, stowing it away in his pocket like it was supposed to be during work hours. He let out a long sigh. Tonight couldn’t come soon enough, even though he was dreading it. Like Fizz had said, one way or another, after tonight things would be different. Blitzø fucking hated change, but he’d long accepted that in most cases the only way out was through, and for some reason he would just never stop going through it. 

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As expected, Fizz invited Blitzø home with him after work to get ready for his date with Ozzie. It gave him a nice springboard to bounce his anxiety and outfit ideas off of. Freshly showered and digging desperately through his closet while clad only in a pair of briefs, he emerged victoriously with the two articles he’d been considering.

“Definitely the pink and green jester cap,” Blitzø said, scrutinizing the options Fizz was holding out for him. “It really brings out your eyes. And it’ll match the ropes Ozzie bought to use on you, ya know, if you guys take it that far tonight.” 

Fizz’s eyes went wide and dreamy at the thought. Then he shook his head, to clear it. “Hey, you don’t know he bought those for me. He was probably just expanding his collection.”

Blitzø shrugged. “Two things can be true. But I’m soooo sure him buying ropes you’d look fire in and the ballgag you said was your favorite at the same time he tried asking you out was a coincidence.” 

“Whatever,” Fizzie huffed. He tossed a set of shirts and pants onto the bed next to Blitzø. “Which of these?” 

Privately, Blitzø thought this was stupid. He was not the person to be asking about what colors went with what, especially if there was print or pattern involved. He kept his own wardrobe simple, mostly black red and white, with the occasional dress thrown in for when he felt like it. Those could be any color, since they didn’t really need to be matched to any other pieces.  Still, he helped Fizz as best he could, even though he thought his fellow imp looked gorgeous in everything, and especially in nothing. He was sure Ozzie would agree.  

Blitzø leaned back against the headboard of Fizz’s bed, which was big enough for an imp plus any other demon (or two) that he might care to invite into it. “Wanna have a quickie before you go?” 

Fizz shot him a very unimpressed look. “And show up to my date with your jizz leaking out of me?” 

“Wouldn’t be the first time,” Blitzø said, a lazy satisfied grin flashing across his face as he briefly relived several satisfying memories. 

“As delightful as that sounds,” Fizz drawled, “Those were very different times. Besides, I think we’re both saving up our energy for other people tonight, aren’t we?” He gave Blitzø a pointed look. “You text Stolas yet?”

Blitzø scowled. “Yes mom, I’ve got it all figured out. I’m going over to his place. That way he’ll be comfortable and I can leave if I have to.” 

Fizz raised an eyebrow. “You didn’t want to meet at a neutral location for this?” 

“If I did that he’d immediately know something was up and then he’d probably doom spiral. I’m trying not to scare him off, remember?” 

Fizz grinned crookedly. “I was more worried about him thinking it’s just a regular booty call, but it sounds like you put some thought into this. Pretty sweet of you to know what kind of things make him freak out.” 

“It’s not like we just jump straight into fucking!” Blitzø said defensively. “We always talk first. Usually. And after. I’ll just… bring it up before we start going at it and it’ll be fine. Tell me it’s going to be fine.” 

“Blitz.” Fizz finished pulling up his pants and leapt into the bed, still shirtless, so he could pull his partner into a hug. “It’s gonna be fine. Just make sure you’re clear about what you want, and try not to assume the worst like you always do.” 

Blitzø groaned, burying his face in Fizz’s neck. “Feelings fucking suck.” 

“Yeah yeah.” Fizzarolli patted his back soothingly. “I know big guy, you’re a strong scary imp but give you some emotions and you crumble like a house built in the greed ring.”

“Fuck you,” Blitzø said halfheartedly, biting at Fizz’s bare shoulder in a weak attempt at retaliation. 

Fizz chuckled, shoving him away. “Hey, I don’t need any marks from you tonight, Ozzie’s gonna get the wrong idea.”

Blitzø widened his eyes and made his mouth a comical O. “Oh shit, you mean we’re not fucking?” 

“Idiot.” Fizz rolled his eyes good naturedly and slid off the bed so he could finally put his shirt on. Blitzø liked watching him do up his buttons nearly as much as he liked watching them be undone. Nearly. “He might think you’re a possessive bastard who’s trying to send a message. Or that we’re playing a game.”

“Wellll I don’t hate that idea,” Blitzø mused, “Like we could do that as a bit or a scene sometime. Not to be a cuck but marking you up and sending you off to someone else to get fucked could be kinda hot.” 

Fizz laughed. “Sounds like something a cuck would say.”

Blitzø stuck his tongue out at him. 

“But I want this date to be about me and Ozzie, you know?” Fizz adjusted his collar, glancing at Blitzø in the mirror. “I don’t want him to get it in his head that he’s just a part of our kink. He can be a part of it later, if he wants but I really fucking like him, and I want him to know that. Okay, Blitz?”

“You got it, Fizzie-pop.” Blitzø gave him a two-fingered salute. “You woo that fucking demon, woo him good.” 

Fizz straightened his back like he was standing at attention. His smile was devious. “Oh I fucking plan to.” 

[thirdmagic]

ngl im a big aquakane shipper but i could see the writing on the wall and it was clear to me aquakana is where oshi no ko was heading and i just kinda accepted that even though its one of the few parts of the manga i actually dont really like*, but even then i was quite happy and swept up with the big romantic moment in the recent chapters. t was just really satisfying i guess? like as a culmination of everything it felt really natural and nice and also kana deserves to be happy and im happy for her character development

*i dont hate it and this isnt like a shipping rivalry thing because oshi no ko isnt really that kinda story to me. like i never really expected or wanted aquakane to be 'endgame' or the main romantic plotline in a traditional sense, thats not the point or what makes them appealing to me, i'm a shipper because it's just a compelling, interesting relationship dynamic and it feels like an extension of, and something that ties into, the broader themes and plot. while in contrast the slow burn of aqua and kana's romance always felt very disconnected and unrelated to the themes and tone and stuck out to me and i just generally dont find it very engaging to watch. it just feels like a very typical romance writing that you can find in any other series. which would fit in those series, but doesnt really match the tone here.**

**mostly in the way its this slow burn and they dance around it which is just not as fun to me as the way aquakane goes straight to them (fake-)dating and then the bulk of their story and what we see of them is what they are like once they're in that relationship and how its kinda fake and kinda real and how they play off each other, and that's the part that's interesting to me. like you know we get the aquakana confession after 150+ chapters but the bulk of their relationship is them dancing around it, and i assume the culminative moment is going to be them getting together at some point and lke a big epic kiss, which, fine, whatever, i'm going to roll with that, but i can find that anywhere else, and what i found refreshing is the straightforwardness and un-drama of aquakane getting together where all the really good, meaty stuff came after and the relationship happening was super practical and pragmatic, that felt more true and more fitting for the tone to me.

***anyway that was a big tangent to say that even if it the plotline i dont enjoy as much i still did get swept up emotionally in the big sweeping epic romantic culminative moment so you got me again aka lol.

[coqvttes]

BABES I FULLY AGREE WITH YOU, like sure sometimes some things patrick did were hot but like most of him gave me soooo much ick. i will admit tho, im a throuple truther because i love that the characters work if they’re together. the director explained the churro scene and it is AMAZING!!! i hope this means that maybe art will start becoming part of ur catalog because im on my knees for him!!!!!!!!

i haven’t seen deadpool yet! i went for twisters and maxxxine, the first one was really good and soo much fun i bet you’ll love it and the second one was okay, kinda boring compared to pearl and x. what i did see for the first time is to kill a mockingbird, the movie is amazing but GIRL, gregory peck as atticus?? if you don’t know him I BEG OF YOU TO GO ON PINTEREST AND SEARCH HIM UP. hes the definition of A MAN. i could talk about him all day, hes my latest obsession 🤭

- ilysm, sofi nonnie ᡣ𐭩

REALLLL!! like i know that i would hate patrick irl but i really lke him as a character and i love the whole point of challengers and the ending! the soundtrack was so good too its so unique but i loved it. i really liked this movie its not at all what i expected! YEAH I SAW MAXXXINE! it was a huge disappointment because ive seen pearl and x already those two were really good movies but maxxxine just didnt feel like it belonged in this triology istg it was not up to my expectations but it was fun i love mia goth! and i HAVE SEEN TKAMB i watched it for my english class last year and BRO I KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN!!! gregory is so fine, like im ready to be his housewife!! i dont even care girl I am sat! ive also been obsessing over nikolaj coster waldau, u might know him from game of thrones if u've seen it but hes so majestic i just wanna stare at him all day. x

[oflgtfol]

i literally fucking hate register this man shows up to do a return hes lke i dont have my receipt but we can do the return on my card i paid with right and im like ya definitely but then i look and the things hes returning literally dont even have the barcode on them its like how the fuck do you expect me to be able to return these without a receipt or a barcode. if i had the barcode i could just scan it as normal and its fine or if i had the receipt i could even just enter the number in manually but its like my good dude how the everloving fuck do you expect to return this ???

[chrisbangs]

emailed all my profs abt spraining my wrist and all of them so far have been so sweet abt it except the one who was like "oh no :( hope u get better soon! actually some of my colleagues have used sprained wrists as an excuse to become proficient with their other hands.. you should look into it 😎 get better soon!"

[chompmon]

MY BLORBOS ARE FIGHTING AND I AM SAD......... im left ona cliffhanger cuz i dont have points for the next chapter 🗡😤

[outislovesgoobers]

ACK I FORGOT TO ADD THIS TOO THERE WAS A LOT TO SAY-

My only complaint so far, is that it is very VERY easy to accidentally discover Hector's appearance just by poking around w/ alt routes. I was checking out his rejection route yesterday morning, and got fuckin' JUMPSCARED by his True Form 😭😭😭 I literally squealed and covered my eyes and panic shut-off my computer, I was not expecting to get it so early! Esp before the game's even released!

I still love him so dearly - but I was just kinda sad it wasn't harder! I assumed you'd need to do some fetch-quests or look around, or smth, or maybe talk to other characters to get clues and lore, or SOMETHING! DAMN!

With all the hype the game was building up around the Mystery Of His Appearance, I did NOT think he would show himself so easily for the 'Hate' route 😭 esp since he's just been rejected, I felt lke that would make him LESS likely to show his face, etc, etc - disappointed, but oh well!

(I DO however think it's super funny that after his 'Hate' route you will see all the vents starting to blast cold air bc he's pissed off at you. ABSOLUTELY cracks me up, I love this man)

PLEASEEEEEEEE MAKE THAT POST ABOUT GUSHING/TALKING ABOUT HECTOR I NEED IT REAL BAD. I HAVENT PLAYED THE DEMO YET WHAT DO YOU MEAN YB THE POSITION OF THE VENTS. OTIS. YOU CANT SAY THAT THEN NTO ELABORATE /lh

OH THANK GOD SOMEBODY'S FINALLY GIVEN ME AN EXCUSE OKAY-

AHEM you get another thesis. Smiles evilly. Spoilers ahead for the demo, obviously <3 ALSO NSFW, because... well it's kinda unavoidable w/ Hector, he's a bit of a freak KSJADKJ

EHEHEHEEEE OKAY I'M GONNA START W/ THE VENTS FIRST BC I FEEL LIKE THATS REALLY FUN, AND THEN SOME EXTRA RAMBLES AT THE END.

*pulls out a comedically long ruler* I have so far identified seven vents in the entire house, not limited to :

Across from your desk, where he can blink sweetly at you while you work,

Dining room - surprisingly none in the kitchen! Perhaps one of the few Big Rooms (tm) where there is not a vent,

Living room, where he cannot watch TV bc of the angle, but he CAN watch YOU watch TV AKSDFJAKSF,

Downstairs bathroom,

UPSTAIRS bathroom,

Home gym, placed sort-of-opposite the treadmill,

And of course, the bedroom, in a simply precarious position KJASDKASJDA

I will let you digest and process this as you will 🫡 godspeed soldier(s), this absolutely fucked me up when I first realized it. This little freak is almost inescapable, except for the kitchen and smaller rooms (closets, laundry room).

OKIE NOW I GET TO YELL SOME MORE ABOUT SOME OTHER STUFFS >:) EHEHE.

oughhhwobuoubuogurgurb <- dying. he feels so bad about accidentally making you feel bad w/ his weirdo reaction

This moment is just so sweet to me. He keeps going after, too, talking about how he will "Make up for that, (...) I will do so much for you, as I always have" EEEEEE <3333 he's a freak but he's a SWEET freak and that's my favourite flavour of freak

ALSO! Note his vent's temperature changing depending on his mood! Ice-y for angry or upset, and steam (the love hearts!!) for when he's happy/in-love! AAAAAA!!!

I need to hit him with a car. What do you mean when you say those words you say. He truly goes on like this for a Hot Minute, about how he wants you to control him AND wants you to understand how much that means to him. Wh.

It's just really fun bc I feel like usually this Genre (tm) of character is more dom-leaning, it's so cute + funny to have one who's a massive sub!

It's also crazy that this conversation happens on the SECOND DAY!!!!! HE'S GOING WHOLE-HOG 2 DAYS IN!!!!

So funny to think about him during the evening of day one, pacing (crawling???) through the vents, being like 'okay. okay. alright. Hector, you're gonna be So Normal with them tomorrow' only to pull out THIS!!!! AAASKDJFSKAFJDKSJFSD

this isn't directly about Hector, HOWEVER I also love Fantina and this line has be going crazy.

what did she say

what did she mean

What did she huh when she wuh

Fan club... FAN club... do we think Fantina and Hector just hang out and talk about you??? 😭😭😭 is it just the two of them, or are there more??? I love these two sm. Squeezing them so tight.

I also love the pun! Like if we think about it, an HVAC is just a bigger fan!

I am not immune to silly jokes. Thank u to the devs, this cracks me up.

anyways he it LITERALLY baby and I cannot wait to meet him properly in a few weeks. Getting up on a step-stool to bite his hands.

[atsumuahh]

“ SECRET LOVER ” dreamwastaken

characters !

dreamwastaken, wilbur’s twin!reader, technoblade, philza, tommyinnit, wilbur soot, karl, sapnap, georgenotfound, drista, tubbo.

summary !

when reader chooses the dsmp high everything seems to be great, but things gets complicated when her brand new crush turns out to be her oldest brother’s rival. it gets even more complicated when he asks her out.

warnings !

swear words, usage of dream’s real name

notes !

dream as a football team captain rent free in my head... and i’m also sorry that it took me so long to write… its almost 3k words and not proofread!

taglist !

@wilczachannn

it was easy to assume that you had been in your brothers’ shadows. techno, wilbur and tommy were talented, football players with great, great achievements. the only thing you wanted was a big change in your life, so when you graduated from the middle school and it came up to making a big decision on choosing high school, you chose the dsmp high – school located an hour away from your house.

you remember your first day at school. the day started awfully. tommy woke you up with a loud yell at – as you rightly guessed – wilbur, who stole his phone and texted to his crush. it turned out that you had twenty minutes left to get ready and leave for bus and not be late. well... you were late on the bus, but thankfully your dad promised he’ll drop you off at school.

phil couldn’t be more proud of you. for real, he knew how hard it was for you to choose different school from techno, wilbur and tommy (everyone know he’ll go after his brothers). you were miserable through your whole middle school, because no one ever noticed you as your own person, only as wilbur’s twin sister, techno’s younger sibling or the only sister of tommy. it cause you to slowly losing yourself and becoming a female version of your brothers. so when you spoke to him about the idea of the dsmp high, he couldn’t get happier.

fortunately, dad dropped you off fifteen minutes before your first period started. wandering around the new school, looking for people you had classes with. you looked at your phone and accidentally bumped into a tall, dirty blonde guy with painted nails and purple sweater.

“oh no- i’m so sorry!” he spoke kind of afraid he might hurt you. “you alright?” a worried ask left his mouth as he put a hand on your shoulder.

it turned out that his name is karl and you took same classes as him. well in fact the boy seemed to be pretty nice, chill and funny. you two were on your way to the biology class and jokes were in the air. you felt so delightful that you messaged wilbur and techno a small text saying you just made your first friend. as no one responded you hid your phone.

“don’t worry, bestie.” he beamed at you. “i’ll meet you with my other friends, if that’s okay. they’ll love you and you won’t have to worry about making ones!” karl whispered into your ear and you couldn’t hide a soft smile that formed on your face.

as he said, he did. it was your lunch pause so he led you to the cafeteria. the idea of sitting at the table with people you didn’t know was.. terrifying but at the same time, so exiting. you felt like your heart skipped a beat when a guy called dream showed up with his best friends george and sapnp.

he was so handsome that you couldn’t take your eyes off him. looking at him was just so pleasing that you were kinda mad that he was karl’s friend so you couldn’t really sigh over him. surprisingly, he turned out to be a nice guy as well. you expected dream to be a completely jerk and an arsehole, but well you started to feel like you’d fall for him.

well… you were right. you fell for clay so deeply that just being around him was… stressing you out. he always cared about you, through your whole freshman year he was so cute and it was hard not to fall.

sophomore year started in a very… unexpected way. you hadn’t seen your friends in weeks, because you have lived so far away, but it didn’t make your brand new friends group to fall apart. you wouldn’t be so surprised if they organized a meet after classes but… well it was a meet, but only with clay. in a shortcut – he took you on a date.

“i missed you so much, y/n/n” he smiled as he shyly took your hand and intertwined your fingers with his. a small, timid smile formed on your blushed face. “fuck… i like you, i have a huge ass crush on you, okay? i-i just don’t wanna mess up our friendship… so please tell me if you don’t feel same” clay spoke with shaking voice, not giving you a sight.

maybe it was the adrenaline that boosted you up, or your inner self just wanted to do it, but as his confession ended, your lips gentlt pressed his. clay was… well shocked is a good word, clay was shocked, but he pulled you in even closer and that’s how you ended up making out in the park.

you were thrilled to the gills and you almost told your brothers about clay. almost, because you heard techno’s talking about a match against the dsmp high. well it wouldn’t be such a big thing if you hadn’t heard dream, and well oh well. words weren’t too nice.

“hi… are you free?” you said softly, sitting on your bed. you were frightened – what if they don’t like each other? what if… wilbur and tommy also don’t like him? “you know techno, right? technoblade minecraft?” a quiet ask left your mouth as you sat under the tree in your yard.

“yes, unfortunately.” his response made you thought that you had annoyed him. “wait, why you’re asking? did he hurt you or something?” dream didn’t let you answer as he added i’m gon’ kill him under his breathe.

“noo, don’t worry” you clutched your head and sighed. “he’s… my brother, older brother, actually”. silence between you two were clearly killing you, but you couldn’t be one to break it. he had to say something.

“oh my fuck” you heard his shocked voice and chuckled in response. “it doesn’t matter. you’re the one i fell in love with, not he. i know you’re worried, but everything will be alright.”.

“i hope so” his laughter calmed you. “i’ll call you later so we can fall asleep on call okay? dinner’s ready”.

”it’s kinda forbidden love, isn’t it?” george laughed as he wrapped his arm around you with a cute smile. brown haired boy was waiting along with you at your whole friends’ group. “y’know… techno is your brother and also a rival of your boyfriend… it’s exciting”.

you almost gasped at his words. it felt so silly and people would probably find it meaningless, but you couldn’t hide a smile that appeared on your face. he didn’t say techno’s sister like everyone from the middle school would say, george said that he’s your brother.

“as long as i love her, nothing else really matters to me” clay’s voice was so sweet that you almost melted under it. he was right, there’s no reason to overthink – you love him and it’s the only thing that matters.

“yeah, you should definitely tell him that at the match on saturday.” oh my fucking god, a match. the elimination match between the dsmp high and the lmanburg high. you were completely between a rock and a hard place.

“fuck, i forgot about it.” wrapping his arms around your body, dream felt how stressed you began to get. he also felt when your body unwittingly started to shake. “he’ll hate me, so will wilbur and tommy.”

“aren’t they already hating you? like- you barely talk to them at home, so… what’s the problem?” sapnap asked shrugging. well, he was right – techno lost his interest in talking to you and unfortunately wilbur and tommy took their cue from him, and the only person you had talked to was your dad.

“you’re coming to our match, right?” karl asked with a nervous smile forming on his face. it was his first match ever on the team – you couldn’t not be there. “it doesn’t who will you cheer for, just be there, okay?”

“karl, of course i will be there” you smiled at him, trying to hide your increasing stress that almost made you pass out. “please win this, okay? it’d be too hard to look at your miserable faces.”

tommy had always been your favorite of them all. as a child he wouldn’t let you go and sometimes it was obviously burdensome, but you loved it. you loved how he cared and now you missed it. he wanted, but he couldn’t talk to you, techno and wilbur would be pissed if he did.

he wondered about telling you how well he made friends in high school along with tubbo. about all of the funny jokes he made. he just wanted to be a teenager that shares cool memories with his older sister, but for now his brothers were too proud to apologize.

“wil, are you sure we should do that?” he asked, uneasiness appearing on his pale face. he genuinely missed his big sister that always helped him with his homework, with choosing cool outfits to impress girls, helped him, when he argued with tubbo. “she looks so miserable. even dad is worried!”

“we have nothing to do with her miserableness. she left us first. now, she can go and fuck herself” wilbur had never acted lke that before, so surprised tommy just frowned at him and shook his head in hopelessness. something was off and he would like to know what. to repair it.

his stomach rambled and it was time for a snack. tommy was about to came in, but he heard a bit of a conversation between philza and his only daughter.

“yeah, they do kinda hate me” she shrugged, not letting her tears fall. “uhm… clay proposed that i could stay at his. you know, dad. until… they start talking to me again.” long sigh left her mouth as she clutched her head in hands, right before he noticed tears. tommy couldn’t do more, so he got back to his room not letting anyone in later that evening.

it’d be a lie if someone said that tommy wasn’t stressed out. his first game was in a few minutes and his sister was nowhere to be found. “she has better things to do, i disappointed her - i shouldn’t be so shocked.”

when he saw her, he felt relieved. she was there to support him in his first game in high school ever, but as he watched her, slowly drifting away, looking for someone different in the crowd of people, he was hurt.

“i can’t believe you really choose to avoid the affection from dream for today, because your brothers are here. you should fuck them three” sapnap laughed, looking over your shoulder at tommy. “two. he looks hurt as well as you.” you know he was, but he didn’t do anything because the pressure techno and wilbur put on him, was killing him inside.

“y/n you came!” karl cried out, running towards you and sapnap. he hugged you tight and smiled softly, giggling noiselessly. “did y/n’s brothers saw it? i was literally her ride.”

“excuse me, you did that on purpose?” george laughed, shaking his head in disbelief. you joined him, but you stopped when you saw tommy’s upset, frightened face. it wasn’t only karl’s first game – it was tommy’s as well.

“i gotta talk to him” you sighed exhausted of the whole drama around you and your brothers. or just around you, wilbur and techno. your little brother had nothing to do with it. “tommy, hi” you started a bit nervous, feeling the tension betweet you two. and firstly, you thought he will just go away, but you gasped as he hugged you tight.

“i missed you so much” he whispered so anyone could hear but you. soft smile showed up on his face, making it way more brighter. “thanks for coming here, i know it’s rought between you and wil. he’s kinda mad but everything will be fine, i know that.” you wrapped arms around his torso and smiled widely.

“you’ve got this, okay tommy?” you brushed his hair. in response you got a growl and loud laugh after. “if you win or if you lose, it doesn’t matter, because i will still love you, but i’ve gotta go back to my friends.” you beamed and left tommy as soon as you saw wilbur storming towards you.

me: can’t wait to see you on the field :)

you felt like melting, when dream looked at you with his happy, excited face. you were so proud of him – he was the captain of the school football team and it was known that he has a sport scholarship. despite your brothers’ presence, you planned to show clay some support and you painted a medium #21 on your black, denim jacket.

clay: can’t wait to see you on my bed, right next to the trophy i’ll get as a captain.

he hadn’t lie. you sat on his messy bed, in his messy bedroom, talking to his younger sister drista. she was adorably bewitching. she was a bit younger than tommy, but thankfully she wasn’t as loud as him. you laughed after hearing her awful joke.

“so… you’re living here by now?” she asked curiously, frowning. her eyes scanning your, now, blushed face, waiting on the answer. “please, i cannot stand his my-girlfriend-lives-so-far-and-i-can’t-sneak-into-her-room-and-kiss.” she rolled her eyes, but smile widely.

“oh, yeah.” you blushed even harder as she laughed at your already blushed face. “i’m just worried if he’s okay with us hiding, you know? i mean– he could be with someone else, someone… someone better.”

drista didn’t know what to say and you knew she didn’t have to. you were scared – because of your situation that had place in middle school – he will just leave your for someone better, someone prettier, smarter, cuter.

unfortunately for you, clay had heard your every single word. he coughed, letting drista know that she should go. girl smiled at you before leaving you two alone. him, standing in front of you with only his sweatpants on. “y/n” he started as he got closer.

“i- i- can not tell i know how you feel or how you should feel. and-and i genuinely do not care about anyone else but you. i love you, okay dumbass?” he sat as close as possible and beamed softly.

“you won’t replace me?” the whole thing between you and clay was terrifying you so much. is he lying about his feelings? is he really in love with you? or maybe you’re just a bet? you almost shook your head as the thoughts began to overwhelm you.

he wouldn’t do that. and if he would, some of his friends (yours as well) would kill him. you couldn’t be more happier at the moment. your boyfriend had just told you that he loves you for the very first time, you made amazing friends that would kill for you and vice versa, but there was one thing you had to fix. the relationship with techno and wilbur.

“i could never replace you, love”.

“you sure you wanna do it?” clay asked, gently rubbing your thigh with his thumb, sitting in the front seat of his car. you were about to tell your whole family that clay dream is your boyfriend. the guy your older brother claimed to hate. lots of fun, right?

you nodded unsure, getting out of the car. it was your first time seeing your brothers in over a month and – boy, oh boy – you were terrified. did they miss you? did they even notice you were gone? you wished they did. you weren’t even able to ring the doorbell, because tommy opened the door with a huge grin.

“i’ve been waiting for you.” he confessed, closing you in a tight hug. he let you off as soon as he noticed smiled dream standing right behind you. “and who are you, mister?” suspicious question left tommy’s mouth.

“i’m y/n’s boyfriend, clay” dream beamed at tommy as he let you in. shock finding their way onto his face was… quite hilarious. he mumbled something under his breathe, but you couldn’t catch it.

as soon as you got onto the dining room, you saw wilbur, techno and dad setting the table. tommy coughed, couldn’t hide his happiness. his sister is back and he can’t let her go ever again.

“hi…” you started, your voice getting shaky. “i wanted to explain some things and it’d be a pleasure if you would accept my new boyfriend, especially technoblade.” dream took your sweaty with nervousness hand to calm you. he knew it was tough for you, knowing that him and techno are rivals. “this is clay and i know you know him, and you’re not on the good terms, but please just… finally talk to me, because i miss both of you and i’d love to have either my brothers and boyfriend close as possible.” you finished glancing at techno and wilbur.

“y/n, i’m just sad you didn’t want to go to same school with me. you had never told me why, we were inseparable and everything changed within days.” wilbur was first to answer you. his dejected voice made you crying. you missed him, his voice, his advices, his presence around you. “everytime i woke up, you were already running on the bus and we didn’t have a chance to talk.”

“i- you- you’re right. i should’ve told you why did i choose the dsmp high. i did, because i began to lose myself, everyone saw me only as your sister and i started to think that i do not matter anymore. i had to change it and i had to show everyone that i’m not just yours and techno’s sister, but i’m my own persona.” wil stood up and got closer to you. your tears convinced him that you weren’t lying and he felt bad that he didn’t realize it sooner. “i’m so sorry”.

“no- no, i’m also sorry. i’m the one that should apologizing. you were just choosing your own path and i was mad at you, because of that. ‘m sorry y/n/n.” you smiled through tears and hugged him as tight as you only could.

“there’s no much drama between us” techno chuckled quietly, watching you and wilbur cuddling. “i already knew what’s going on between you two at the match. i just took wil’s side.” he shrugged and you laughed, shaking your head in disbelief. “well, it doesn’t mean i like you” he claimed glaring at your boyfriend. “i can tolerate you as long as you’ll treat y/n the best you can, otherwise i’ll kill you”.

“i agree and so does tommy” your twin added, looking dream dead in the eyes.

“maybe we’ll stop the death threats here and start eating?” your dad proposed with a cheerful smile. his kids were finally getting along again, he couldn’t be more proud or happier than at the moment.

“it went so well” you whispered delighted. you were snuggling with dream on your bed, some time after the dinner ended. phil suggested that he could stay for the night, so they can get to know him better.

tommy was thrilled to the bones about the fact that now, he has a new friend, older than him, and also a captain of the football team, so he could teach him how to play better. wil was… well wil. he made sure that dream didn’t have any wrong intentions and techno just couldn’t care less if you were happy with him. he even suggested that they should bury the hatchet and move on.

“i haven’t said that to anyone yet, but i love you” you said, almost skipping a bit when he held your head and gently kissed you.

“well, you already know that i’m head over heels in love with you. and it won’t ever change” he said and kissed you one more time.

[videostak]

literally so out of touch with video games T-T had no idea there was even gonna be a nintendo thing today.. that new 2d mario looks p good i love what theyre doing with the art style like capturing the characters at angles u would expect from a 2d game and actually giving it some animation. that sonic game also loooks cool sucks that they are only making 2d sonics as lke lil games and not their big next sonic game buuut im honestly a huge sonic head so like i think it looks adorable and will probably want to get it. the smrpg remake also looks neat sorta well i think it also kinda looks strange the way they adapted the artstyle as being half inbetween the original and half being modern mario like everything being bright makes it looks sorta strange lol. but it looks good i think and since ive never played smrpg i might get that too. def gonna try to get the new 2d mario at the least well idk i may get none of them since games are so annoyingly expensive nowadays like there were so many games i said i was gonnaget that i didnt like klonoa n kirbys return to dreamland lol. still wanna pick those up someday tbh but idk ill see def not anytime soon tho i hate how expensive modern games are and honestly theres just too many old games id rather get