#lockdownthoughts

[complaining-in-abyss]

I want to wear your oversized shirt     and sit on your kitchen counter smoking feeling the most attractive I have in a while   and want to talk about anything important just drink water from each others mouths   and take a swig of whisky straight from the bottle lean in for a hungry kiss a bite of shoulder    and embrace the hedonistic side of love- no not love lust? or maybe it’s just a momentary remedy for loneliness a touch of humanity

LS

[s-mearedink]

my thoughts are dark murky water i need help i am screaming out for help can no one hear me can no one see me drowning i am swallowing water by the second my lungs are filling up they are going to overflow my chest is going to collapse in on itself people are nearby yet they are not close enough to hear my voice

[newromantic22]

My first thoughts this morning were ‘I wonder if @taylorswift holds her eyeliner the way she holds her pens’ and ‘mmm I have croissants’ 😊

[manaskaul]

Posted @withregram • @manavkaul (इस कोरोना-काल में) एक यात्री से यात्रा के जूते छिन गए हैं। इसलिए दिमाग़ पहाड़ हुआ पड़ा है। और पैर, टूटी बद्दी की चप्पल में, घर में ही घूमना सीख रहे हैं। . . . #coronatime #lockdown #lockdownthoughts #whattodo #timeisnotflying #iamlovingit . #coronavirus #missingtravel #traveling #traveler #covid19 (Original pic clicked my @isugandha) https://www.instagram.com/p/CCg7YxEJ2pO/?igshid=1sago3o67lfbz

[heyitsnalyn]

Kelan nga ba ako napamahal sa pag babasa?

Sa tuwing naaalala ko kung kelan ko natutunan at nahiligan mag basa, unang pumapasok sa utak ko si Mama. Tandang tanda ko pa nu’n, sa tuwing mag kakaroon sya ng sahod dadaan kaming palengke ng marikina. Sa tapat ng Sta Elena High School nun may maliit school supplies store na nagtitinda ng mga pocket books. Sa halagang 12, 15, 20 pesos nakakabili si mama ng 2 o 3 romance pocket book plus soduko, wordhunting o crossword puzzle at pocket book pangbata para naman sakin. Dalawa lang kami mama ko nu’n sa buhay. Wala akong kapatid kaya madali sakin nun ang mabored kapag wala na akong kalaro (it’s either kasi nag sesiesta yung mga kababata ko, or hapon na ang laro namin sa kalsada kapag wala nang araw). Kaya kapag nag sawa naman ako mag laro mag isa sasagutan ko yung binili ni tulag ng wordhunting o kaya babasahin yung pocket book na binili nya. 

Naalala ko tuloy, yung mga pocket book na binibili nya sakin nun kung ikokompara ko sa mga book ngayon, yung mga kwento at plot ay tulad ng mga ginagawa nina Rick Riordan at JK Rowling. Maiksi nga lang mga mga kwento. So nuon pa lang talaga mahilig na ako sa mga fantasy at fiction genre ng  storyline.  Tas kukulitin ko nu’n si mama na mamalengke ulit kami para makadaan dun sa store at ibili uli ako ng pocket book.

Naalala ko din nu’n bago ako matulog may maliit ako na bible. Bata pa ako nung nahiligan kong mag basa ng bible. 9 or 10yr old ata ako nuon. New testament na ng bible yung binabasa ko nun, tanda ko kasi unang pahina nun na “Roll of the genealogy of Jesus Christ, son of David, son of Abraham, Abraham fathered Isaac, Isaac fathered Jacob, Jacob fathered Judah and his brothers, Judah fathered Perez and Zerah, whose mother was Tamar, Perez fathered Hezron, Hezron fathered Ram....” fathered ganito and so on and so forth. Hindi ko lang sure kung natapos ko pero sure ako nakakalahati ako kasi madami din naman pa ako kwentong naalala galing duon. Minsan namimiss ko yung batang ako, nakakatuwa na sa murang edad natutunan na nya magbasa ng bibliya.

Tulad ng sabi ko kanina madali ako mabored nuong bata ako. Kapag di pa oras ng laro sa kalye. Sa loob lang ako ng bahay, nag lalaro mag isa, nagkukulay, nag dodrawing at nag susulat ng kung ano ano (Elementary ako neto pero hindi ako mahilig mag aral at gumawa ng assignments). Isang araw wala na din akong natitirang babasahin, nabasa ko na din mga kwento sa elementary textbook na pahiram pa ng deped nun. Ayoko naman buklatin yung math textbook kasi wala naman ako mababasa dun at kasasabi ko lang, hindi ako mahilig magaral. Wala na talaga ako magawa that day, kaya nung napatingin ko sa isang boxes nga mga romance pocket book ni mama nag try ako kumuha ng isa. Hindi naman nya ako pinag babawalan mag basa ng mga pocket books nya, pero alam ko din naman kasi na hindi yun pang bata kaya hindi ko pinapansin. Pero na curious ako kung bakit humaling si mama dun at kahit wala pang kalahating araw e nakakatapos na sya nga isang pocket book (naiinggit pa nga ako nun at napapaisip sana ako din mabilis magbasa). So I tried one pocket book na precious heart romances. Hanggang sa naging 2, 3 at lahat na ng binibili ni mama binabasa ko na din. In short, grade 5 or 6 lang ata ako nuon alam ko na kiligin because of my mother’s pocket books. At sa maniwala kayo o sa hindi, kapag may intimate part or love making part nilalagpasan ko ‘yun (Pero later on nung highschool na ako binabasa ko na din. Hihi). Kinakabahan ako e, paniwala ko nun sobrang bata ko para makabasa ng ganun tapos takot ako mahuli ni mama na nababasa ko yung ganun part but anyway hindi pa din ako pinagbawalan magbasa ni mama ng mga pocket books n’ya. Nakakahinayang lang kasi 3 kahon na malalaki ang naipon nyang ganun at hindi ko alam kung san na napunta.

Sumunod naman is nung 1st  year high school ako sa Sta Elena, Marikina. Hindi pa din ako natigil mag babasa nuon ng pocket books (pang kids or romance story man) Mahirap kami, hindi namin afford ng mama ko na bumili ng mga Rick Riordan or JK Rowling books sa national books store. Bukod dun, di pa din ako mahilig magbasa ng mga english novels kasi baka sumakit at dumugo lang utak ko sa mga words. So ayun nga, balik sa kwento. Nung 1st year H.S. ako sa sta elena, hanggang 12nn ang pasok ko. Every uwian dumederetso ako sa Marikina Sports center kung saan merong isang malaking public library. Hindi ko na maalala kung paano ko nadiskubre yun, pero after class duon ako naderetso at hindi sa sakayan pauwi sa bahay. Favorite ko mag tambay dun, bukod kasi sa malamig naiinlove ako sa amoy ng mga libro, lalo na yung mga 2nd hand book na kulay brown ang mga pahina, basta hindi yung mga brand new (obviously!). Hindi ko talaga problema nuon kung hindi ako makabili ng books kasi nga may free public library naman, at duon naman natuto ako mag basa ng mga enlish na young adult genre ng books, pero yung maninipis lang like 50pages or less than 200 pages. Nakalimutan ko na din yung mga kwento na nababasa ko dun sa marikina library, hindi kasi ako palatanda sa author, more on stories ako nag fofocus. Hahaba na ito masyado kung ikukwento ko yung mga nabasa ko nun. Pero anyway ayun nga, ang isang libro na binabasa ko sa marikina libray at inaabot ng 2 days kasi syempre hindi naman ako maghapong nakatambay dun, hindi ko din alam paano hiramin. So itatabi ko na lang sya sa isang shelf at tatandaan ko kung saan nakapwesto para the next day babalikan ko at tatapusing basahin.

Pero uunahan na kita, hindi ako loner or yung sobrang wirdo. May mga kaibigan naman din ako. May mga time nga lang talaga na mas pinipili ko mag isa at magbasa.

So moving on, dumating yung araw na kailangan ko umuwi ng probinsya at duon ituloy ang pag aaral ng highschool. Yung mga unang taon ko dun nakakapanibago, walang friends tas maaga pa nag sisitulugan mga tao, ibang iba sa nakalakihan ko sa marikina na na kahit gabi na may mga bata pa ding nag lalaro ng habulan sa kalye. Yung pasok ko pa sa school buong mag hapon. Namiss ko nuon yung library sa marikina. One time umuwi din yung tita ko from manila, may mga dala syang textbook na pang higher year at college galing sa studyanteng nag aaral sa private school. Inuwi nya kasi alam kong magagamit namin. Which is nagamit ko naman talaga. Walang public library sa probinsya kaya naman kapag dumarating na yung oras na wala na akong magawa, yung mga textbooks niiiscan ko. Yung mga klase ng textbook na naiuwi ni tita ay mga english literature, filipino literature at science book. Syempre alam mo nadapat kung alin sa tatlong yung ang di ko binubuksan. Dun ko natutunan basahin yung mge excerpt from mythology, tulad Odyssey,  Oedipus, Pyramus and Thisbe  at ilan pang ping kwento about mythology. Mga short stories at poems nina Robert Frost, Nick Joaquin, Lualhati Bautista. (Again hindi ko tanda yung ibang author kasi hindi ako ganun kafocus kaya moslty yung mga sikat na pangalan ang tands ko kasi until now nakikita ko pa din mga names nila). Pero may mga tanda din akong titles tulad ng, May day eve, The truce in the forest, Invictus Biag ni Lam-ang, excerpt ng Noli Me Tangere at El Fili, at madami pang short stories na hindi naman talaga literal na short kasi umaabot ng 5-8 yung pages.

Sa probinsya pa din at highschool days, eto naman yung time na kaibigan ko na yung 2 ding transferee galing sa manila din. Nakakahiram ako sa kanila ng babasahain tulad ng komiks na Pugad Baboy at Bob Ong’s ABNKKBSNPLako. Ako naman mahilig lang talaga mag basa at wala pa ding pang bili ng libro kaya tamang basa basa lang sa mga resources na meron ako. Yung isa sa transferee pala mahilig na that time sa english novels. Kasagsagan ng unang twilight movie, sya tapos na buong series ng book. Sa sobrang excitement nya sa kwento ng twilight, sa’ken at sa isa pa naming friend nya lang naikukwento yung nabasa na nya sa book, ayaw daw nya ishare sa iba. Ayaw din nya ipahiram yung book kasi sobramg favorite nya talaga yun. As for me naman, hindi pa ako nakakabasa that time ng makakapal na english novels. And since di nya mapahiram yung twilight books nya kasi sobrang iniingatan nya, yung isang book na  ang title is “The Host” ang pinahiram nya. Since si Stephenie Meyer  din naman daw ang author. Nung una ko nakita ang book, di ko sure kung sisipagin akong basahin since medyo makapal na para sa akin yun. Pero ni try ko pa din basahin. Simula nun nag crave pa ako sa mga ganung klase ng books. Tapos after ata ng the host, yung books 3 ng  Harry Potter din pinahiram nya ako.

Kaya nung nag college na ako sa bulacan, since hindi ko pa din afford bumili bili ng books, nagtyaga lang muna ako sa ebooks and syempre pati wattpad. Yes, pala basa ako nun sa wattpad, hindi pa sya nun ganun ka trend wayback 2012-2013. Tapos magaganda talaga stories way back nung mga naunang sikat na author nun tulad ni Jonaxx, Purpleyhan, Iamkitin, at limot ko na ulit yung iba (Anyway yung mga ebooks nun meron pa akong kopya na sinend ko sa sariling yahoo acct ko. lol). Tas ayun download sa compshop ng mga english novels na feeling ko magaganda kwento Pero mostly ang na dadownload ko is yung mga stories ng sikat na author since usually sila lang din madaming nakakalat na free download sa web. Yun lang kasi talaga afford ko, yung hours sa internet cafe at hindi mga physical books.

Until 2019, nung medyo naka luwag luwag, I started to buy books (mapa-brand new or 2nd hand) Sa ngayon medyo onti pa lang sila. Pero soon mas padadamihin ko pa sila. Gusto ko pa mag basa ng magbasa ng magbasa. Yung mga books yung nag sisilbing safe haven ko. Isa eto sa mga bagay sa mundo na hindi ako mag sasawang gawin. Kaya naman for more books and stories along the way, kailangan ko magpayaman. Char lang. What I mean is I’m gonna workhard pa para magkaroon ng sariling library.

[jeunolikeslol]

This Quarantine made me realize.... 🙄💭💯 #LockdownThoughts https://www.instagram.com/p/B-qwxq8DyKd/?igshid=dg2c2t5n1ljg

[stressedsquidge]

The blight took my joy

Oh how it felt to be young and beautiful. Happiness without restraint and hope beyond borders. The “what if” and prospects for the future were endless, a source of love and comfort. 

Nothing feels as good as the memories of the “before”, the time when the future was uncertain and before brutal reality was spoken.

[volup2]

NEW ARTICLE UP! WHAT LOCKDOWN TAUGHT ME ABOUT MYSELF by Lucy Cowen https://www.volup2.com/articles-and-blog/2020/7/18/what-lockdown-taught-me-about-myself-by-lucy-cowen

[hotspicykimchi]

We can't return to normal, because the normal that we had was precisely the problem. #LockdownThoughts #EnjoyTheLittleThingsInLife #GoodVibes #HappyDays #HelloSummer (at Sopley, Dorset, United Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/CAc_0uPgoKplK6XqZQayjMLOmwNEPda224vyN80/?igshid=16aw7chk4ch72

[adityavadluri-blog]

#mylife #mylove #lifecycles #lifestyle #conversation #cycle #lockdownthoughts #quarantine #quarantinelife #quarantineandchill #chill #chillin #chillvibes https://www.instagram.com/p/CAS4-BiAxK3/?igshid=1pm8t1co6cos3

[jstiles-photographer]

One of the things I miss most during this quarantine is traveling. My wife and I have already had to cancel two trips, and we are hoping to keep it at that. As long as everyone continues to #stayhome we will get there. ______ This photo is a throw back to early January in St Thomas when we headed home from our honeymoon. ______ #jetblue #travel #travelphotography #travelgram #traveltheworld #traveler #travelholic #travelvibes #travel_captures #thingsimiss #thingsimissduringquarantine #lockdownthoughts #latergram #igdaily #igtravel #igaddict #instadaily #instagood #instagram #insta #instamood #ig_captures #flighttime #stthomas #virginislands #aircraft #airplane https://www.instagram.com/p/B_NTuJYl6Yk/?igshid=w1maep9lh9l3

[officialhittheart]

Share your views and experiences. #officialhittheart #hittheart #hittheartchennai #nanganallur #Chennai #Alandur #lockdown #21dayslockdown #lockdownthoughts #lockdown2020 #covid_19 #covid #staysafe #stayhome #westayatworkforyouyoustayathomeforus (at Chennai, India) https://www.instagram.com/p/B-jBK8SDLhD/?igshid=2aegai3cjj18

[misfitwandersdani]

If you’re stuck indoors, don’t forget, this will pass. Your traveling will begin again and you will get to venture in nature once again. But if you’re lucky enough to have nature in your backyard, embrace it. Being in nature can help in these hard times. It sure helps me. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ For those that are far from nature; the internet has virtual tours through national parks that can make you feel like you’re there! . ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ . ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ . #staypositive #pandemictroubles #indoors #travelagain #hiker #naturelover #stressreliever #isolated #lockdownthoughts #misfitwanders #femaletravelblogger @misfit_wanders (at Sweden) https://www.instagram.com/p/B-NaYHxA2X-/?igshid=dze1xa94hdtc

[averagemelbournegal1994]

Addiction

You just keep going in circles. 

Round and round I go. 

It takes control of your life. 

It has taken control of my life, many times before.

Relapse is bound to happen. 

As I said, it has happened many times before. But this time it’s different ? because I have employment and things aren’t as bad as before?

This is my brain as an addict. Constantly convincing myself I have it under control until I don’t. 

Even now I’m too zonked out to remember why I wanted to write this in the first place. 

I just keep going in circles.  

Something needs to change. I need to change. I am fighting this addiction, I will keep fighting this addiction. I am fighting this addiction with you. I am not alone. We all have demons. 

[livingjivawell]

💙Monday thoughts, Monday blues💙 Lockdown continues in the UK, & its hard to feel inspired somedays. The days are the same, the weeks roll by & its more of the same....... But I notice the seasons are changing, the snowdrops are beginning to bud, this small sign reassures me that despite the stagnation we can feel internally we are still growing & changing. So despite what my external world can feel like at times, its not really the reality, its only my perception...... Hang in there, be kind to yourself. Do something nice for yourself. And as we say in the Reiki precepts 'Just for Today' ° Its one day at a time at the moment 🙏💗💖🙌 Charlotte, Reiki Master 🙌 Vegan recipes @livingveganwell www.livingjivawell.com #mondaymood #mondayblues #monday #mondaymorning #mondaythoughts #morningrant #thoughts #morningvibes #anotherweek #lockdown #lockdownthoughts #lockdown2021 #lockdown3 #reiki #reikiprecepts #hanginthere #onedayatatime #reikivibes #whenwillthisend #betterdaysarecoming #anotherweek #bekindtoyourself #showcompassion #reikilove https://www.instagram.com/p/CKLn7_KlxOi/?igshid=10lmgd491cfuc

[taylortruther]

I don’t think Taylor will be publicly single soon and I wondered what you thought about if hypothetically JA was to get a blockbuster role that required lots of promo or Netflix regular cast that increases visibility, do you think they would do more pap walks or potato quality staged sightings if his social currency increased? Would they sell it more? I’m just curious from a PR only perspective of this hypothetical what you think? #LockdownThoughts lol

i think you’re sending this question to everyone, but... who knows. i don’t think taylor would start being seen with him everywhere just for that; it is obvious that she wants to support him more from behind the scenes.

you could argue that making joe single could actually help his publicity during promo, especially if he beefed up and went the eligible bachelor route like chris evans. 

but yeah obviously any photos/info of their relationship would be more valuable if he was more of a household name