#lonely thoughts

[known-to-self]

Me af

Local man thinks the woman trying to kill him asked him out. He shows up anyway.

[moodyseal]

Maomao's attitude towards Jinshi in the light novel is so much funnier than the anime made it out to be like as soon as he's anywhere within a 5 mile radius from her she's immediately like "Oh the nymph is back... look at that shameless eunuch... tempting everyone like that... such a waste of a pretty face... what a weirdo... he should cover his face it'll cause a war..." and she's like this for nearly an entire page every time he appears

[breelynnsblog]

My Bed Partner Since You’re Not Here! 🧸🧸🧸

[swirlingyouintomypoems]

you’re on your own, kid, you always have been

normal people, 2020/@ryebreadgf /ceilings - lizzy mcalpine/the haunting of hill house, shirley jackson/untitled, frank wright/unknown, from pinterest/nicolas martin, “dedicated to light”/you’re on your own, kid - taylor swift/edward hooper, “gayle on the f train”/@seashellronan/tolerate it - taylor swift/unknown/tv - billie eilish/unknown, from pinterest/@lustloveandliarsx/@finehoney/@farmlesbians/liability - lorde/i get so jealous of euthanized dogs - june gehringer/anne magill/you’re on your own, kid - taylor swift

[s0m4-r03]

i need someone clingy in my life.

it’s cold at night and the loneliness is hitting me at full force. i can only have so many pillows and blankets on my bed.

[macrolit]

Someday I will have a best friend all my own. One I can tell my secrets to. One who will understand my jokes without my having to explain them. - Sandra Cisneros

[angelunderheaven]

sometimes I don't feel so good...

[icantstopthebleeeding]

i remember being a kid and wishing something awful would happen to me. not because i wanted to die but because i wanted a reason to be held. i used to lie awake and think maybe if i got really sick, like hospital sick, something scary with a name, then they’d have to care. they’d look at me like i mattered. they’d touch my face gently. they’d stay.

sometimes i’d pretend to be sick. i’d wrap myself in blankets and fake coughs and say my stomach hurt, hoping someone would press a cool hand to my forehead and say poor thing, rest. hoping someone would miss me for a day. hoping someone would notice how tired i already was.

i used to think it was unfair when bad things happened to other kids and not to me. i know that sounds wrong but i’d watch people cry over them, gather around them, carry their pain like it was precious. and i’d think why not me. why doesn’t anyone worry about me. don’t they see i’m already hurting, even if there’s nothing on the outside.

i hated myself for it. for wanting the kind of pain people rush to fix. for dreaming about broken arms and hospital beds like they were lullabies. i was tired of crying with the door closed. tired of being good at disappearing.

i used to pray at night. not for joy or love or anything big. just for something to go wrong in a way people could see. just for a reason they’d finally look at me and realize i’d been hurting all along.

because sadness that hides in your chest gets ignored. because when you look fine they let you stay broken. but if your body’s in pieces, if your skin bruises the right way, if there’s a needle in your arm and a monitor beeping, suddenly it’s all real. suddenly you’re worth something. and god, i just wanted to be worth something.

[i-2flying-feders-us-blog]

I just want someone to take care of me but no one ever will.

[caseylhynn]

[moodyseal]

TOApril Day 12 - Eyes That Glow Gold

I'll always be a fan of Apollo' eyes looking like Kronos' when he's upset. The father haunts the son who haunts the father and so on and so forth

[breelynnsblog]

It Has Become An Ache Within My Soul! 🖤🖤🖤

[bloodonpages]

I think I was made to love, not to be loved.

[prisionserio]

No eras débil, solo estabas sobreviviendo. Con el corazón roto y el alma confundida, hiciste lo que pudiste con lo que tenías. No te castigues por no haber sabido cómo sanar cuando apenas estabas aprendiendo a sostenerte. Perdónate. No eras tú fallando. Eras tú intentando no caer.

[motocrunch]

We are far too smart to be the only thing standing in our way...