#magnus and alec calling each other my love

[sielaltruist]

“Oh, my love,” Magnus murmured. “I am so glad to be home.”

Magnus in The Red Scrolls of Magic

Magnus continued stroking Alec’s chest where the thorn had entered, until Alec, with effort, said, “Not here, my love. Ragnor is watching us.”

Alec in The Lost Book of the White

[im-out-of-it]

part 2 of season 2, episode 6 discussion continued MALECS FIRST DATE “iron sisters”

30. Magnus: take a second and have a drink with me love

31. Alec: he’s very convincing

32. I love Maia and Simon together (I also added some others one I couldn’t find before)

33. can we just pause and appreciate Maia real fucking quick? anybody who has read the books knows she gets sidelined but I love how in the show, she matters more. could we have more of her? absolutely we could have but it’s a lot more than CC thought Maia deserved. Maia is such an independent, gorgeous, talented, heartfelt, wonderful woman. she calls shit out and I feel like she’s the only one who calls out Luke’s problematic behavior as well as clary’s

34. literally Maia is the only one that’s kinda like is clary really worth the downworlders dying???? I hate how Luke treats Maia but I love them together in this episode and I love their parallel. I think Maia is severely underutilized but it was terrific to see her actually get to step out and bond with Simon

35. also any sizzy fans, sorry but Maia and Simon are so much better together. they both relate to being downworlders and they have a ton of chemistry. that’s just my three cents and they have such beautiful growth together

36. and I’ll admit, I adore Maia for more personal reasons. I know how it feels to be the child that is kind of in the back and who has a brother that is favored and gets away with everything. so when she has that trauma, I understand it. ok I’ll cry but I just have so much respect for Maia ok?????

37. Izzy and clary have arrived

38. okay it is beautiful though and so is Isabelle

39. ah shit, a purity trial. and Izzy is like you might be a demon clary as if we didn’t already know that

40. jace really thinks he can just walk around and not pay any consequences

41. Jace can’t admit what he did was wrong like one second he’s saying he needs to pay consequences and now he’s like omg how dare thy punish me!

42. onto far better thing. DRINKS FIRST THOUGH

43. Magnus, give Alec a second to turn into an alcoholic. it takes time

Alec: I have a feeling this drinking hobby of his will influence me

stopping at 44 and off we continue on this date ✨🥹

[carelessflower]

Malec's Wedding Vow - Some Thoughts

After much research and consideration, I believe that Malec's wedding vow is a perfect celebration of their relationship, the lows and highs, the triumphs and peace.

The questions

“Alexander Gideon Lightwood. Hast thou found the one thy soul loves?”

“I have found him,” Alec said. “And I will not let him go.”

“Hast thou gone among the watchmen, and in the cities of the world? Hast thou found the one thy soul loves?”

“I have found him,” Magnus said, gazing at Alec. “And I will not let him go.”

Inspiration

Song of Solomon 3:3 The watchmen that go about the city found me: to whom I said, Saw ye him whom my soul loveth? Song of Solomon 3:4 It was but a little that I passed from them, but I found him whom my soul loveth: I held him, and would not let him go.

How they have found each other despite all odds and are holding on with all they might.

2. Alec's vow

“Love flashes out like fire, the brightest kind of flame. Many waters cannot quench love, nor can the floods drown it.”

“Now place me as a seal over thine heart, as a seal over thine arm: For love is strong as death. And so we are bound: stronger than flame, stronger than water, stronger than death itself.”

Inspiration

Song of Solomon 8:6 Set me as a seal upon your heart, as a seal upon your arm, for love is strong as death, jealousy is fierce as the grave. Its flashes are flashes of fire, the very flame of the Lord. Song of Solomon 8:7 Many waters cannot quench love, neither can floods drown it.

They speak of Alec's devotion, the lengths he would go through for his love, for Magnus. He loves one man so much, he changes the world for him. And he will continue to do it, again and again, as no flood can drown Alec's love.

3. Magnus's vow

“Aku cinta kamu,” Magnus read out, gazing at the interior of the ring, and he smiled at Alec, a brilliant, world-spanning smile. “My love for yours, my heart for yours, my soul for yours, Alexander. Now and for all time.”

Catarina smiled at what must have been familiar words. 

Catarina smiling at Magnus's words may mean it is a warlock vow. Magnus's vow is a bit more interesting, since it is not a direct reference or interpretation from the same source as Alec's vow. However, I did find this one inspiration that came very close

Luca 10:27 - And he answered, “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind, and your neighbor as yourself.”

And who is Magnus's Lord, do you ask?

Alec had given him the gift of faith, a faith that Magnus was strong enough to make not just Alec happy, but a whole family happy. And in their happiness, Magnus had felt himself not just free, but surrounded by an unimaginable glory.

Some might have called it the presence of God.

Magnus just thought of it as Alexander Gideon Lightwood.

It also ties into Magnus's journey, how immortality, a seeming gift and privilege, slowly becomes a burden to him, is now something worth cherishing, loving, and worshipping. Despite Alec's mortality, Magnus's love for him will stay.

Does a god need physical remnants to become one?

4. The implication

The simple exchanges of vows, nephilim's and warlock's, mark the changes of the world surrounding them, something they also started. It's why Magnus doesn't want to marry until they can marry in gold and blue as they deserve.

I also like to imagine they exchange another set of vows later in private, after Alec's Wedded Union rune got drawn over his heart. Vows written by them and belong to them alone.

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[alexanderlightweight]

Hello! I’m a longtime reader of your work and love your writing!

If you are still open to taking prompts love a continuation of the long hair shadowhunters verse. Your work in that universe has left me thinking about what different braids mean and the many ways shadowhunters could potentially use their hair.

No preference on nsfw/sfw and absolutely no pressure at all.

thank you for the compliment and sticking around!

uh this did start from your prompt but may have veered a little off course? I would say it's Magnus' fault but the truth is it's Alec's fault this time.

last bit here and I actually had enough spoons to fill two prompts for this verse, so next bit here

I hope you enjoy!

<3 lumine

my path is set

Alexander’s braids are simple to untangle despite how intricate they look.  His hair slips free as Magnus fingers begin the first process of learning the braids through unweaving.  Undoing the work but learning the pattern of the motions all the same.

Alexander hadn’t hesitated to offer his hair — or his back — to Magnus.  From the moment he’d arrived — climbing up to the balcony rather than using the stairs — he’s been nothing but languid rather than laconic.

His words are few but he speaks without them all the same.  There’s a casualness to the way he makes himself at home, taking up the space Magnus leaves for him and not seeming to mind that Magnus intends to keep him.

As Magnus untangles the last braid and summons a brush, Alexander begins to hum and leans back trustingly, letting Magnus stroke magic bound bristles through his hair. The bristle he made from crystallizing product helping to condition each strand.

Alexander’s hair is always deceptively long.  

Magnus has witnessed it loose and touched it unhindered three times now. And yet each time he sees Alexander’s hair in its full glory is a wonder.  It’s long and thick and viciously dark.  A soft brown that catches the void of the shadow and mirrors it with mocking ease.

Alexander is practically purring.

Arching up and tilting to give Magnus better access to his scalp and he’s so docile, that Magnus isn’t sure quite what to do with him.

Magnus had known what to do with Alexander during the ritual.  

Knows how to handle him in bed and in front of others, but like this? Vulnerable and almost soft, melting for Magnus with an ease that shouldn’t be possible?

It’s a confusing but precious gift and Magnus knows he should tread carefully, but Alexander is a sweet trap.  Too tempting to resist and yet each time Magnus falls for it, the trap remains unsprung and Alexander stays malleable and his.

“Do they have names, these patterns of yours? I know they have various meanings but what of the braids themselves?” 

It’s a question that threatens to shatter the calm yet Alexander merely hums, contemplative and serious.  A little furrow forms between his brows and then he takes four strands of his own hair and quickly loops and interconnects them in something similar visually to fishtail chain, the links small and concise and delicate. 

The word Alexander speaks is guttural, deep and so coarse that it scrapes against Magnus’ ears like sandpaper.

Alexander laughs at his wince, an almost silent whisper of humor at Magnus’ expression.  

“We have no true translation for them in any tongue known to man. Some call the language Enochian or Angelica but that’s simply because like the language itself, the name of it has no true translation.” 

Magnus can understand the idea of what Alexander said and the language itself cannot harm him, unpleasant though it may be to hear.  In fact it’s rather similar in form but differing in dialect to the language of Edom that his own father taught him.

“Well, you say them to me as I learn and I’ll find my own translations then. Deal, pretty boy?”

Alexander smiles at him, the corner of his mouth turning up with delighted agreement.

AN:

Alec: *speaks angel language*

Magnus: ... do you need a cough drop? Or some tea and honey after that? Is your throat bleeding? Because my ears are.

—

Magnus: Alexander, you need to give me some limits or I’m going to start adding my own jewelry to your hair and i imagine there are rules about that.

Alec: there are, but they no longer apply to you

Magnus: ... alexander? Alexander, darling what does that mean? ALEC TELL ME WHAT THAT MEANS OR SO HELP ME!!!

Alec: you have a bracelet made of my own hair magnus. Putting your own jewelry in my hair is kind of redundant and mild at this point, it’s practically the least I’d expect from you

Magnus: did you just imply that i’m tame? Did you just insinuate that i’m FALLING BEHIND IN MY WOOING??? Me, Magnus Bane?

Everyone else seeing Magnus’ jewelry in Alec’s hair: What kind of fuckery is this? This is not normal? Does Bane realize how abnormal this is? Should someone warn him? No, that might draw Lightwood’s attention... no but really, shouldn’t someone warn Bane they’re nearly married at this point? Does no one else see this whirlwind romance?

Mirai: Bane’s smart enough that if he doesn’t already know then he’ll figure it out before it becomes a problem. This isn’t something any of you should endanger... i mean entangle yourselves with

(everyone knowing she said the right word the first time)

Shadowhutners: you could mention it to him. Lightwood wouldn’t care if it came from you.

Mirai: ... why in Raziel’s name would I do that? I haven’t had this much entertainment since Izzy exploded her lab last year and Alec decided that he would take everyone through the safety protocols personally. 

Shadowhunters: we should have remembered anyone that can enjoy having tea with Lightwood is clearly a sadist.

[mikuni14]

Three Tropes Tag Game!

The Prompt: Choose three of your favorite QL tropes, and show us three of your favorite examples of each.

I was tagged by @my-rose-tinted-glasses thank you love! I have a lot of favorite tropes, I decided to choose the first 3 that came to my mind (tbh I don't even know if you can call them tropes, is a character type a trope? 🤔):

Height difference 😛

Edit: I should have actually chosen this ✨excellent✨ example in this category: Alec and Magnus. Along with SE and Nagron these would be my three favorites 💖

2. A Strong Protector / A Knight in Shing Armour 🤩 when one of the couple defends the other, physically and verbally (the latter is quite rare tbh), who would actively put up their body as a shield. Also including "touch him and you die" trope my beloved. In general, I love it when someone in the couple is strong (not necessarily stronger than the other, just strong) and uses their strength to defend and protect their partner and other people, is caring and protective, people can rely on them

3. Crazy/jokester/sad/unhinged/a little pathetic/clown character 😍 a gremlin type, who has a reputation as a lunatic among people, who also masks their trauma, depression, their innate kindness that has been abused with their "madness" 🥺

Honorable mention: These two couples somehow fit all of the above categories: height difference (Saint and Shin are similar height, but Saint is massive), they are all crazy gremlins 😭 they all have traumas that they mask in various ways - often with jokes and being crazy and unhinged, they are all obsessed with their loved ones that they would die and kill for

Great, now I feel a sudden and strong need to rewatch all these series 😩

Tagging people, but no pressure! @delesaria-blog @pickletrip @italianpersonwithashippersheart @pinkkop @maxescheibechlinichacheli @nevermindsuga @benkaben @watchthisqqq @absolutebl @mesmey @obsessedferalgremlin (If you were not tagged because of my horrible negligence and want to take part in the game - please feel invited! ^^)

[tragedy-machine]

no but, how am I to believe that Edwin and Charles are not gonna be endgame??

Charles's character in the doom patrol was heavily, heavily implied to also have feelings for Edwin too

the rejection was literally like "I'm not in love, but you're more important to me than anyone else, we'll figure out what that means later"

the actors both said they "wouldn't call it Edwin being friendzoned, bcs their arc has not yet been fully resolved"

we got to see Charles jealous of Edwin's time with Monty and the Cat King, and do nooot even joke that that wasn't jealously, like what else, what else bro? why would they go so overboard to make it seem like Charles was peeved af in those moments

there's already so much love between them

usually shows that do the "gay bestie in love with his straight bestie" use it briefly as a more of a backstory for a character, to then introduce a new love interest for the gay, so the previous crush can be an obstacle in their love arc (like in shadowhunters with alec, jace and magnus)

why would you hurt my buddy Edwin like that

the ship of Charles and Crystal never really took off in my opinion, they liked each other and kissed, but then Crystal ended it, but even if they continued dating in s2 any human x ghost ship is doomed to fail from the beginning, they've sadly got like maybe max 5/6 years until it's gonna be very visible that Crystal is no longer a teen and older than Charles soo unless she dies, they can't really be endgame (and this is not to shit on this ship!!! I've got nothing against it, just think they would have had to really committed to it and milk the aging drama for the angst to make me invested in it)

[darcyolsson]

ok i'm finally getting around to this hello again. so my main issue with malec is mainly the oversaturation right. you look up content for anything else and malec is just constantly there, and I could forgive this if it didn't start bleeding into canon! cassie visibly shifted the way she started writing malec as they got so popular, and now they're so perfect and nothing can go wrong with them.

i'm sorry but they were so much better when they were toxic!! idk alec actively sabotaging magnus and magnus being way too emotionally absent for alec (who was in his first relationship and also barely not a child) and yet the way they still went back to each other every time! when they were broken up but still obsessed with each other - when magnus ended their break up by telling alec he loved him!! real shit right there!

but now they can't be flawed anymore :( i'm sorry i just do not care about them as parents. i'm so sorry i know everyone's obsessed with rafe and max but in my heart i think alec and magnus should be touring the world constantly breaking up and getting back together and having insane sex unhindered by infants. domestication of wild animals has never sat right with me.

and i know you said you loved the eldest curses but omg that series is my worst offender. first of all i know not everyone has this issue but i can really tell that it's cowritten by someone else and it's just a bit grating. second of all - why did the red scrolls of magic take away their fun holiday!! this is such a small grievance but what do you mean they had one adventure and then gave up and stayed at home. noooo they should have been getting it on all over europe nooo noo that will NEVER sit right with me.

and the lost book of the white.... mm mm didn't hit the spot sorry. the tmi gang have such a special place in my heart and i just... didn't really care about them in this book? i'm sorry i am one of the people calling tec fanservice because while i sometimes love fanservice this just didn't work for me - sammael felt like a hugely wasted villain and i didn't care about shinyun, plus my issue with tmi gang characterisation.

but my one big shining star of disappointment. malec didn't even have a proper arc in the book? absolutely nothing changed in their relationship. ik that's because this book was written between other books but you can't spin out a three book series and have NO meaningful development between the MAIN CHARACTERS. yes, development is taking place over time between the books, but it's not happening in the tec books themselves, rendering them obsolete! alec was a bit concerned about magnus not being honest with him but ultimately went nowhere with this and it just ended with them being super badass husbands again. by this point i'm sorry i'm BORED.

i know a lot of these grievances are just petty and ultimately i am mostly just getting into this rant for the bit, but a part of me is genuinely a little sad that the flaws of the characters, which are what made me enjoy them so much in the first place, just kind of don't exist anymore. like the fact that alec, who was the most conservative of all the tmi gang by far particularly about downworlders (was still uncomfortable that simon was a vampire in cohf), becomes the head of the downworlder shadowhunter alliance and is suddenly really friendly with all downworlders?? that would be kind of sweet if anyone would acknowledge that he had previously been mostly against their existence beforehand, but no one ever does. the development post tmi is basically completely skipped over. (side note it will forever irk me that alec is head of that alliance instead of simon, and that its meetings are held in simon's old flat discussing issues very relevant to simon's life experiences, but WHATEVER.)

alec becoming shadowpresident and living his best life is great and all but i miss the tension... the drama... back when he was properly bitchy. and i hate to say it but i actually prefer reading about magnus in the past series when alec isn't around because frankly magnus will always be mostly compelling to me as a charming isolated loser! i have to speak my truth.

anyway many apologies for this but i hope you enjoyed regardless. i actually didnt even get round to complaining about fandom at all but this is getting way too long anyway. down with canon and may jimon stay strong forever (i was the jimon 😢 anon)

first of all, the quote "domestication of wild animals has never sat right with me" regarding malec will never ever leave my head after reading this. what an incredible way to put it

it's so interesting that you mention disliking the tmi gang characterisation in tlbotw! i both get it and i don't. i read tlbotw right after reading tmi, and to me they did quintessentially feel like the tmi gang, but the gang we saw in the 1st half of tmi. i dont see people talk about this very often but i feel like the first half of tmi is SO different from the other half in tone. it's very silly and doesn't take itself too seriously, while the second half mostly lacks that vibe with the exception of a few chapters. it literally feels like two different series sometimes.

tlbotw definitely is more of a sequel to that tmi gang and the magnus we see in the bane chronicles than it is to the version of the gang we see in eg tda, but i personally didn't mind it. lower stakes and less seriousness for a side book feels appropriate, and i love the silly vibes in tbc and earlier tmi.

i DO agree with what you said about sammael though! when reading tmi the greater demons feel like this massive threat, but in later shadowhunter books (like tlh) they just... don't, because they don't get the same buildup. tlbotw is a really extreme example of this i feel, because what's supposed to be this massive villain gets defeated in just one book, and a book where none of the characters really take it seriously at that. taking what's supposed to be this huge evil and presenting it this way, imo, makes the greater demons as a whole a lot less interesting as a threat. if their supposed limitless power can be stopped in what feels like a low-stakes story, why should we worry about them as a threat in eg twp?

anyway. back to malec, who this is about: i do get it. i also love past magnus, and i was genuinely devastated to find that camille made no appearance in tlh, because their relationship has always been SO interesting to me. to me it feels very obvious that this is because any content we get about magnus is now about magnus-and-alec, meaning camille (alongside magnus as the messy, devastatingly lonely immortal) has now fully disappeared. he essentially became like tessa: as a character she is so defined by her relationships to jem and will that we never once see her as a main character in a story without them, even though we know she spent most of her life without either jem or will (and went through some crazy stuff in the meantime).

i really get what you're talking about when you say magnus & alec have become almost too perfect as a couple, and that you would prefer some more goold old fashioned toxicity. i get it! however i am going to hold you hand when i say this. you and i are not looking at this like the average reader does. we are people who always want characters to be Worse. and as my good friend julian blackthorn has let me know...... this is not a common sentiment among tsc fans (or perhaps YA readers in general).

malec post-tmi are written as a happy ending, and people would probably literally show up at cassie's house with torches if she did anything to them. this applies to all the main couples, we're also not going to see emma & julian, or even jem & tessa go through any significant struggle after their story is already finished, but obviously this applies to malec even more because theyre SO popular. and i DO agree that this puts malec in a really weird position re:bonus content, because theyre both the fan favourite so they cannot experience any kind of legitimate struggle or cassie will have to start worrying about her house getting burnt down, but at the same time they are the fan favourite so they must get a lot of fan content. i think there has to be a way to efficiently balance the two (i'm curious to see how jace and clary's recently announced Better in Black story turns out for this reasin) but ultimately, regarding malec, cassie will always play it safe, especially because alec as a character is important to her personally since he was written for a late friend of hers, as well as to loads of fans.

i do feel your struggle though! i am content with current malec, because if i miss bitchy alec i can simply return to tmi, but i will say that the magnus we saw in tbc will forever be my favourite and that i dont think i'll even enjoy alec's character as much as i did that time when he tried to mortality-trap his bf into never being with another person again. also i think magnus should have kissed matthew and/or camille in tlh and i do fully believe he would have had it not been for #malec, in that sense it's very clear tlh magnus was affected by the existence of present-day malec, which i think is a shame, because messy, serial 17-year-old-boy-kisser magnus was my favourite.

basically: i don't mind the current characterisation of malec as it being their happily ever after, because i think it suits the series and (most of the time) i know not to expect content like that from tsc/cassandra clare, but i also wish that magnus as an individual wasn't defined by his relationship to alec so much even in stories that take place long before alec was even born (but were written after #malecendgame happened in tmi)

(also, very true what you said about simon. ive thought of that before too!)

this was incoherent and long as hell, hope this makes any sense. sorry it took me so long to answer your ask i knew this reply would become massive so i kept putting it off lol

[soulofapatrick]

Nightmares and Cuddles - Simon Lewis x female reader

Summary: You have a nightmare and go to find Simon, both of you acting like a couple in front of the others for the first time

Words: 1.8k

Warnings: none; somewhat non-canon Clary

Y/N’s POV

I wake with a sharp intake  of breath, my body jerking upright in bed as a small cry escapes my lips. Mu heart hammers against my ribcage, panic flooding my sense as my hands frantically search the empty space beside me, grasping the comforting weight of Simon’s icy form. But he’s not there. 

Fear tightens its claws around my chest, squeezing the air from my lungs as I struggle to control the rising tide of panic. My fingers tremble as they trace the contours of the bed, desperately seeking the familiar warmth of his body, the reassuring beat of his heart. But all I find is emptiness, a void where his presence should be. 

“Si-Simon?” My voice wavers with uncertainty, the sound barely more than a whisper as I call out for him, my heart pounding in my ears. But there’s no response, only the oppressive silence of the room, pressing in on me from all sides. Tears sting at the corners of my eyes as I fight to hold back a sob, the ache of loneliness settling like a heavy weight in the pit of my stomach, “Simon.” I whimper again, the sound barely audible as I cling to the fragile hope that he’ll answer, that he’ll be there to chase away the darkness that threatens to consume me. 

With trembling limbs, I push myself out of bed and stumble towards the closed door, my heart pounding in my chest as I follow the siren call of their laughter. Each step feels like an eternity, the distance between us stretching out impossibly far as I fight to quell the rising panic that threatens to consume me. 

The laughter and yelling voices of Simon and Alec echo through the closed door, a beacon of warmth and familiarity in the cold darkness of the night. Each sound is a lifeline, pulling me closer to the safety and comfort that awaits me on the other side. But with each step, the knot of fear in my stomach tightens, threatening to suffocate me as I struggle to reach them. 

As I finally push open the door shuffle down the hallway and step into the living room, the scene before me is a blur of movement and noise. Magnus and Alec are engrossed in their game, their voices rising in excitement with each turn. Jace is huddled on the couch, Clary is sketching, both of them lost in their own little worlds, Izzy is cackling at the way Simon is kicking Magnus and Alec’s asses at the video game. And then, there's Simon, his face illuminated by the soft glow of the lamp, his laughter ringing out like a bell in the night.

For a moment,  I hesitate, unwilling to interrupt the easy camaraderie of their game. But then, as if sensing my presence, Simon turns his head, his face breaking into a wide grin as he catches sight of me standing in the doorway. 

“Hey, there you are,” Simon says, his voice filled with warmth and affection. But as he takes in my disheveled appearance, his expression shifts to one of concern, worry creasing his brow. Without a word, he pats his lap invitingly, a silent invitation for me to join him. And with trembling limbs, I shuffle over to him, feeling small and vulnerable in one of his oversized graphic t-shirts, my cheeks still puffy from crying in my sleep.

I try to ignore the way Alec and Izzy share curious looks, Magnus and Jace share knowing looks and Clary seems to glare at me over her sketch book when I stop in front of Simon. The daylighter looks up at me, cognac eyes full of love and concern as he reaches for my hips, gently guiding me onto his lap so I’m pressed into him, my feet tucking under Izzy’s thigh who welcomes them, used to me doing it. I rest my head on Simon’s shoulder, shivering slightly and press my forehead into the crook of his neck, breathing in everything Simon. 

I’m grumbling slightly when Simon leans to the side, dislodging my face from the crook of his neck, drawing a soft chuckle from him, his icy lips pressing to my forehead before a warm blanket is being wrapped around me, cocooning me in warmth and safety as he presses another gentle kiss to the top of my head as I burrow back into his chest. I can still see the images of Simon, Alec, Magnus, Jace and Izzy laying there, dead, and there was nothing I could do to stop it from happening. 

But even as Simon's arms encircle me, pulling me close, the images from my nightmare refuse to fade. They linger at the edges of my consciousness, haunting me with their vividness and cruelty. I can still see them—Simon, Alec, Magnus, Jace, and Izzy—lying there, lifeless and still, their faces frozen in expressions of agony. 

The tears well up anew, blurring my vision as I cling to the fabric of Simon’s shirt with desperate fingers, as if he might slip away from me if I let go. The weight of my fear presses down on me, threatening to suffocate me as I struggle to make sense of the horrors that linger in my mind. 

But Simon is here, his comforting presence unwavering as he holds me close. Though his heart may not beat like a human's, the unneeded but steady rhythm of his breath against my skin serves as a comforting reassurance. I can’t help but smile slightly as I know he’s only breathing so I can match my breath to his and stop panicking. And as he presses another gentle kiss to the top of my head, I feel a flicker of hope ignite within me, pushing back against the shadows that threaten to consume me. 

As I nudge his jaw with my nose, seeking solace in the familiar contours of his face, I’m met with the warmth of his gaze. In his eyes, I see a reflection of my own turmoil, but beneath it all, there's a depth of love and adoration that steals my breath away. I lose myself in the ocean of his gaze, the world around us fading into insignificance as I drown in the depths of his love. My heart swells with emotion, a tidal wave of longing and affection crashing against the walls I've built around myself.

And then, with a tenderness that steals  the very air from my lungs, Simon leans down to meet my lips in a soft, tender kiss. In that moment, everything else fades away—the nightmares, the doubts, the fears—replaced by the overwhelming warmth of his love. I melt into his embrace, savouring the sweetness of his lips against mine, the gentle press of his hand against the small of my back. Time seems to stand still as we lose ourselves in the intimacy of our connection, each touch, each caress, a testament to the depth of our bond. 

In the blissful cocoon of our embrace, time loses all meaning, swept away by the currents of our shared affection. But then, like a sudden clap of thunder shattering the tranquility of a summer's day, Clary's voice cuts through the silence, sharp and jarring. I startle at the sound, my heart pounding in my chest as I reluctantly pull away from Simon's lips, a sense of disorientation clouding my thoughts. Clary stands her expression a mix of surprise and disbelief, her eyes flickering with an emotion I can't quite place.

"How long has this been happening?" Her voice is tight, strained, as if each word is forced through clenched teeth. There's an edge to her tone, a hint of accusation that sends a shiver down my spine.

I glance up at Simon, searching for some sign of reassurance in his expression, but all I find is a mirrored reflection of my own uncertainty. His hand tightens around mine, a silent gesture of support, but the weight of Clary's question hangs heavy in the air between us. I swallow hard, the lump in my throat threatening to choke me as I struggle to find the right words to explain the depth of our connection. But before I can speak, Simon glares at her, his voice calm and steady despite the tension that simmers beneath the surface.

"It's been...a while," he admits, his gaze never wavering from Clary's. "But we wanted to keep it quiet, just until we were sure.” 

There's a flicker of something in Clary's eyes—disbelief, perhaps, or maybe just plain jealousy—but before I can dwell on it, she offers a tight-lipped nod, her expression unreadable. 

"Right," she says, her voice clipped and cold. It has me trying to wriggle out of Simon’s grip but he shushes me lovingly, gaze turned back to me, as if Clary’s disappeared and I can sense just how much it pisses her off but with the way Simon is looking at me I couldn’t care less. 

“I think you should go.” Izzy is speaking up as Simon’s urging me to lay my head back on his shoulder, face buried in the crook of his neck, his gentle hand carding through my hair while the other wraps around my legs and pulls me closer. I can hear Clary left out a sound of annoyance before she turns on her heels and I hear the front door slam before Alec clears his throat and challenges Simon to another round of whatever game they were playing before I joined them. 

And then, like a gentle breeze on a summer's day, Jace moves to sit on our other side, his hand finding mine in a silent gesture of solidarity. I squeeze his hand in silent gratitude, feeling the weight of his support like a lifeline in the darkness. 

As I lay there, surrounded by the comforting presence of my friends, I feel myself drifting off, the steady rhythm of Simon's heartbeat and the soft murmur of their laughter lulling me into a peaceful slumber.

In that moment, as I drift between wakefulness and dreams, I know with certainty that this is where I belong. In the warm embrace of my beloved Simon, surrounded by the laughter and love of our friends, I find a sense of belonging and contentment that I've longed for my entire life. And as sleep claims me once more, I let go of the worries and fears that have plagued me, knowing that as long as I have them by my side, I can face whatever challenges may come my way.

The Shadowhunters Masterlist TAG LIST - updated 21st Dec 2023

[terapsina]

And those rarest of creatures...

My Top 10 Favorite Canon ENDGAME OTPs

(and I realize some of these will be a surprise because I haven't posted that much about them but... well, when everything is perfect and nothing hurts there's less need for venting... also a bunch of them don't align with my Tumblr heavy periods or precede them entirely, so...)

1. Parker and Hardison - Leverage

The absolute sweetest couple maybe ever. The way Hardison just... loves Parker, without ultimatums or impatience. Just there once she's ready to meet his feelings with her own. And Parker, knowing she's developed feelings for... 'pretzels' and admitting it in the only way she can initially. So good.

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2. Aneela and Kendry - Killjoys

You give me two amoral queens, have them be evil and immortal, and have them fall in love? I was a goner from the word go. Giving them a sci-fi kid just added fuel to the fire.

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3. Jo and Zane - Eureka

I shipped the 1.0 version too. But when they accidentally erased the original timeline and had Jo remembering being in love and nearly engaged and having Zane not? Damn. Talk about angsty ship bait.

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4. Kensi and Deeks - NCIS: Los Angeles

Sunshine and gunpowder. Freaking made for each other and doing a proper piney slow burn. My jam.

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5. Magnus and Alec - Shadowhunters

I mean. Do you think I could resist a grand wedding crash with a 'if your son wants me gone he's going to have to say it to me himself' with the widely grinning sister of the miserable groom going 'I invited him'? What am I, made of stone? (War of Hearts is tattooed on the inside of my eardrums).

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6. Nico and Karolina - Runaways

Okay. But like, even beyond the flawless imagery of Gothic Witch Queen and Royal Heir of Sunshine and Rainbows... they were so captivating. So ready to sacrifice anything for each other's happiness. I love them your honor.

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7. Xiao Lanhua and Dongfang Qingcang - Love Between Fairy and Devil

"Everything in this world is fate. Only love is not fate."

Talk about ripping out my heart. In a story built around two people more trapped by fate than anyone, they save each other by doing the one thing fate has no say over.

(I usually prefer my romances to be the B and C plots, but these two? They are the exception that proves the rule. This whole show is their love story and I was spellbound for 36 episodes straight).

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8. Shawn and Jules - Psych

So. Much. Pining. And the inclusion of the cruelest 'I love you' known to man, because who doesn't love a good 'I've been shot, and the guy who shot me just let me call my girlfriend but I'm using the call to give out clues about how to find me, so I'm pretending you're Abigail, but he's listening and he wants me to tell you that I love you and I know... think... suspect... that saying it will hurt you, but I don't have a choice and I'm so sorry'.

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9. Nikita and Michael - Nikita

They both know what it feels like to lose someone you love. Which is why the way them kinda having at least a scene a season where one of them thinks the other just got killed is brutal. But I live for the looks on their faces when they figure out they're wrong.

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10. Korra and Asami - Legend of Korra

What's more fun than falling in love with the ex boyfriend's ex girlfriend? Nothing. They got me to stand up and pay attention right quick once I realized where this was going (and the finale was how I started watching reaction videos... it made me so happy watching everyone else cry, cheer and squee too)

[lurafita]

Random Mini Malec

Lil Magnus: "Mama? Why did you and papa marry each other?" Magnus' mom: "Because we love each other very much and wanted to be together for the rest of our lives." lil Magnus: "Ah."

next day

Lil Magnus: "My mommy said that when you love someone and want to be with them forever, you get married. So we gotta get married so that we will be together forever." Lil Alec: "Okay. How do we get married?" Lil Magnus: "I don't know. But I'm pretty sure it involves people throwing flowers. I saw that on tv. And doves." Lil Alec: "People throw doves?" Lil Magnus: "… It's okay, cause doves can fly." Lil Alec: "Yeah, you're right. So we catch some doves? … Do you think pigeons would work as well?" Lil Magnus: "Probably. And there's lots of daisies here. We can throw those, too." Lil Alec: "Great!"

Their parents are very confused when they are called by the caretaker and informed that Alec and Magnus have been put in time out for chasing pigeons and starting some kind of weird flower throwing fight.

[im-out-of-it]

season 2, episode 2 part 2 (kinda long but at least I’m a nice enough bitch to warn anyone)

41. the way Magnus says this is SO SAD!!!!!!!! like you can tell from his voice that he’s felt this shit in his soul. MAGNUS YOU ARE ENOUGH AND YOU ARE NOT A LOT OK (also don’t judge me with the light on the side, I was too tired to untangle the blinds for my cats sake)

42. I don’t get Luke and Jocelyn. they don’t have any chemistry

43. and why does Jocelyn look insulted when she sees Simon is a vampire? BITCH YOU ARE DATING A WEREWOLF! (if anyone wants to see the reaction, I have a video so if one person ask for it, I will do it) but she goes from being insulted to shocked to confused. I don’t know, I just don’t like how she looks almost disgusted as it’s a bad thing Simon is a vampire. and it’s all thanks to your daughter so thank her

44. welcome victor aldertree. he’s a massive dick but I do love the actor and love the accent (and why did they make him use an American one in the princess switch series 😭)

45. Alec and Izzy are really like what the actual fuck is this

46. “Maryse went behind my back”-Lydia girl, why are you shocked? Maryse is Maryse lmao and someone as commanding as Maryse isn’t going to want someone taking leadership away from her. so basically reverse reverse 😭

47. “let’s turn this institute around” meaning shadowhunters are the only ones who matter and downworlders, go home

48. you don’t need Alec to give jace a beating when valentines men are doing that but it still is better when Alec beats his ass

49. “let’s talk about jace”-aldertree. “well he’s my brother and I love him more than I should love a brother”-what clary is thinking 💀 I mean though, is it love? because when I watch their scenes, it doesn’t come off as love. even Izzy and Raphael had more chemistry than clary and Jace do

50. Aldertree just making notes while clary is telling them about jace warning them all lmao how did she think it would sound?????

51. look at Valentine cooking a home cooked meal. and they say Valentine has no heart. spaghetti is a delicacy. I’d be honored to get a home cooked meal just saying

52. “the lightwoods took me in, they made me strong, and they’re my family.”-jace. well you have a funny way of showing it. Jace said in episode 13 of season 1 that Maryse and Robert aren’t his parents and even hinted at them being traitors. and now it’s been a few days and he’s back on them being his family. so jace, is Alec and Izzy your family or only when it’s convenient for you? look, I can understand if he’s having identity crises but it’s hard to take him serious when one day he says he hates Robert and Maryse and the next day he loves them. do you like them or not? he flips back and forth so much

53. and how can you feel bad for him? sociopaths are known to lie and Valentine has mastered it. “she left you to die in idris” makes you wonder if Valentine is talking about Celine or “Jocelyn”. but still jace believes practically every word Valentine says- and we are supposed to believe he’s the fiercest shadowhunter of his time? ok sure

54. “you’ve felt more powerful than everyone else around you” ok I get what Valentine is trying to say but so the fact he has angel blood or whatever, he can jump high and shit? Jace would be dead if Alec didn’t babysit him all the time and if Izzy wasn’t there. he would be dead without Magnus. in the AU episode, he’s almost dying from demon venom but y’all really think clary could have portaled him out? no, they both need Magnus. and clary’s rune ability only goes so far which isn’t even known yet. and who do jace and clary constantly go to for their issues? Magnus, alec, and Izzy. they would be done if it wasn’t for that trio. and every situation alec and Izzy are in is because clary and Jace started shit they couldn’t finish

55. so let me get this straight. Valentine wanted the perfect weapon with good shadowhunter blood and demon blood yet he’s out there killing downworlders because of their blood. MAKE IT MAKE SENSE

56. Malec first fight part 2

57. Magnus calling Alec’s ass out 😭

58. no but for real, I’m glad Magnus is standing there saying “I like you Alec and I’m happy with you but I’m not standing for this treatment. I haven’t wronged you in any way and I don’t deserve to be treated in this manner.” literally Magnus wants to help Alec but he’s not going to tolerate being treated the way Alec is handling everything. it’s not Magnus’s fault if jace decided to leave

59. and the thing that gets me the most is Alec isn’t even thinking about how his words affect Magnus. Magnus is seriously so emotional right now. but I wonder (and I’m not a psychologist but I did go to school for it) (and it’s not that hard to read a persons mind or whatever) but what if the way Alec is acting reminds Magnus of how shadowhunters treat him in general? “Magnus has a mistrust of shadowhunters” was said by hodge in season one. downworlders get treated less than and Alec isn’t a bad person but what if the way Alec is treating him slightly reminds Magnus of that?

AND ALSO ALL OF THAT AND ALEC IS LIKE BUT BABE YOU WONT HELP ME? ALEC MY BOY PLEASE LOOK IN THE MIRROR

60. Alec clearly isn’t thinking but what I appreciate of Malec as a couple and Alec and Magnus as characters is their ability to call people out on their toxic behavior but also apologize when they’re wrong

61. JUST LOOK AT MAGNUS HES SO SAD ALSO THAT GLITTER EYELINER IS FIRE BUT ALSO THEY LOWKEY TOOK AWAY HIS GLITTERY EYESHADOW AND THAT UPSETS ME

62. I always love when Alec points his hand up because he’s like wait a fucking second and Magnus is out

63. but I agree with mags- vodka and steak is my go to as well ✨🍸🥩

64. Aldertree really said to the downworlders get the fuck out disrespectfully lmao

65. I mean at least Luke is safe but Simon is homeless and you just kicked him out. I get they are on lockdown but the issue is Valentine and jace technically not the downworlders. they should have a community for downworlders for each to have a safe space. like for the vampires if they don’t have a clan or want one, for the seelies, the werewolves if they don’t have a pack and don’t want one. like there should be safety precautions to safeguard all of these people

66. and also aren’t shadowhunters supposed to defend the world from evil demons? I’m sorry but some of them are such hypocrites

67. I didn’t make this note last time but I love how they made the runes black and sleeker. they look so much better

68. ah shit, Izzy and Alec are dismissed

69. aldertree is seen as evil but the man has a point. Jace knew Valentine’s plan or that it was a set up and it’s partially clary’s fault for not listening. Valentine didn’t care about the book of the white, he wanted Jocelyn to wake. Jace at many times has done wrong things but got away with it (and Alec took majority of the blame)

70. Alec: you can’t do this. Aldertree is like I just did bitch. now Alec is sitting on his revenge and vendetta against aldertree 😭

so I’m stopping at 71 and there’s twenty ish minutes left so halfway there!!!!!! and isn’t this better than not doing a million posts?????? I’ll probably try to either do one later tonight or tomorrow ✨

[meraki-yao]

WIP Ask Game

Tagged by @nocoastposts!!! Thank you dear <3

Haven't gotten around to actually writing that much these two weeks because of school and also me working on my little rwrb animatic project instead, but here's some of what I have at the moment!

Ask me anything about my WIPs!

Works Started:

The Word of Your Body (RWRB):

Song fic of the movie Paris scene using "The Word of Your Body" from Spring Awakening, Chapter 1 in Alex's pov completed and uploaded, Chapter 2 in Henry's pov with the Reprise of the song (that supposedly Nick sang when he was in the production at 19) currently planning

Enchanted to Meet You (RWRB):

Reverse Cinderella AU: Alex is the son of the town Mayor and is holding the town's harvest festival, Henry is the repressed prince of the kingdom who snuck away for a break, but then stumbles across Alex. Loosely based on 2015 Cinderella. Chapter 1 uploaded, currently planning (*cough struggling *cough) with Chapter 2

I know better (but you're still around) (RWRB):

One-shot song fic based on Taylor Swift's "Marjorie", exploration of the Hanover-Stuart Foxs (Movie verse) finally learns to deal with their grief and reconcile. Just started writing

Take Me Out and Take Me Home (Malec)

5+1 Fic: 5 times Alec called Magnus his boyfriend and the 1 time Alec called him something more. 4 chapters done, 2 left, and currently sort of in writer's block for this fic

Ideas:

I'll See You In My Dreams (RWRB)

Where the only way the insomniac Prince Henry can fall asleep is to the ASMR videos of a certain ACD, who's later invited to a discussion/panel for one of Henry's mental health-related programmes (or some other social issue? I'll have to think about it)

Book Tok Fic (haven't thought of a name yet) (RWRB)

Inspired by some tik tok reuploaded to Instagram reel I saw ages ago: Henry is an author who's struggling to write the physical part of romantic scenes in his novel and Alex, his roommate who he has a massive crush on offers to help by demonstrating it with him. Kiss kiss fall in love :)

The Little Prince (RWRB)

Movie Verse Expanded: Taking the campfire scene monologue and telling the story each part shows, ex: "His grandfather, the King, sent the prince a suit of armor and told him that if he always wore it, nothing would ever happen to him." = the King's talk with Henry on his 18th birthday

I know you (I walked with you once upon a dream) (RWRB)

Sleeping Beauty + Soulmates AU with Henry as Aurora and Alex as Prince Philip, the dreams actually being a soulmate connection (the mechanics of the soulmate aspect inspired by one of my favourite Malec fics)

 The Dreams That You Dream (RWRB)

Henry's POV of the Buckingham protest, one on book and one on movie

Song Fics/ Character Studies (RWRB)

At All Cost from Wish and You Matter to Me from Waitress

Identical (Qi Ye/ Tian Ya Ke)

I don't think any one of my tumblr followers would know this one but Qi Ye and Tian Ya Ke is a duology of Chinese BL ancient drama novels, with the latter adapted into the TV Show Word of Honor. There are two characters in the book that although only met once, have a very similar trajectory when it comes to their relationships and unrequited love, only one already moved on and found someone better while the other hasn't. Had this idea to expand upon their connection because in the novel, the one it's implied that the one that moved on immediately recognized their shared experience. But I never got around to writing it, it has been lying in my drafts for a year now 😭

Tagging @typicalopposite @luainthewild @england-would-fall @pippin-katz and anyone who wants to join in!

[alexanderlightweight]

Hello hello and happy Wednesday! I saw your post about how hot it is and oh my goodness be careful! Where I live it doesn’t get that hot and I’m so glad 😂 I hope your partners both feel some semblance of better soon depression is something I struggle with and it’s hard ❤️ I hope you guys find something that makes all of you smile.

For a prompt could you do anything that has Alec being overstimulated or just emotionally burnt out? Any verse is good I just would love something with Alec feeling particularly rough and exhausted emotionally but also like a livewire from overstimulation and having Magnus help ease it. I’m definitely projecting a bit but if not then consider this a free space to write what you want! Nsfw/sfw either one (though it would be interesting to see how nsfw would apply) thank you kindly and sorry for the huge paragraph! I hope you have a great rest of your week

hi! happy wednesday!

yeah i'm going outside only as needed. i did have to take out the trash which sometimes can wait till night but i was unable to. and nightshade needed the umbrellas up so his potty spots were shaded (the umbrellas go down depending on haboob/monsoon possibilities).

Nightshade makes ALL of us smile. he is the cutie patootie of the house (with a very shiny booty). he is so upset about being so far from me (the counter is higher than the table) so i brought in a camping chair (none of us camp it's for the park lol) and he keeps jumping up to join me for a few cuddles and then leaving. everytime he leaves he launches out, sending the chair back into the wall. he does this every time too.

the Abyss is working overtime on trying to get him in trouble. it's both hilarious and traumatizing (for him)

and you know, we keep going forward. we're all spending more time around each other which is good because being alone can make it harder during depression. and Say is speaking up more about intrusive thoughts so we can disprove them (if they're related to like, actions/words etc).

like no babe, i didn't say that because i secretly think you're annoying. i genuinely thought you yelling from the kitchen 'i shall wage war upon the potatoes!' as you peel the sprouts from them truly adorable. seriously. i almost snorted tea out my nose. (evil family make say doubt). i was sincere in saying 'honey you're fucking adorable'. kind of a way.

because it's important not to let the brain weasels win.

a great method i use is, i go. okay, were you sincere when you called that weird habit i have adorable? and say will be like 'yes, i think it's cute'.

and then i explain that hey, the same for me. the things you think are weird or annoying, i find them cute or adorable or hilarious. i'll tell you honestly if i have a problem or something stresses me out. but remember, if you can be sincere about me, i can be sincere about you. kind of a thing. having a friend or partner or trustworthy family member who can do that for you is really helpful. because depression isn't logical and if you have a shock of logic like that, even if it's annoyed and 'well okay but it's different' the brain can't outright refute it. which allows for doubt, towards the depressive mindset.

also sending you a hug if you'd like and lots of Nightshade cuddles and kisses (both from him and you may smooth the divot). i hope this fits in with what you wanted? and i hope things get better for you and you also find many new things consistently to make you smile.

last part here

<3 lumine

the frost of fury

“Alexander?” Magnus finds himself asking. Because he's been under the impression that Alexander wouldn't have much time to come to him. It's the kind of sudden visit that leads to Magnus forgoing summoning a sleep robe to instead stride over to Alexander. Unashamed of being naked and uncaring, instead luxuriating in the soft breeze and dull morning sun. 

Alexander’s back is towards him.

It’s a startling realization.

That Alexander is more focused on the perimeter than Magnus and while a part of that is a bit insulting, it’s also rewarding.

Because while Magnus would prefer Alexander’s attention on him, this means Magnus’ shadowhunter is giving his back to Magnus.  True, he’s slept vulnerable in Magnus’ arms after quite a bit of sex.

But this is different.

There’s a weight to it that Magnus feels slide onto his shoulder, a burden  not to weigh him down but to be carried with pride.

“Why do I trust you so much?”

It’s not a question Magnus expects and it’s not one he can answer.  He too doesn’t understand either his own yearning and trust of Alexander, or Alexander’s for him.

“I’ve officially disowned myself from the Lightwood line.” Alexander tells him as he finally turns around.  His eyes take in Magnus in his entirety and they soften as Magnus blinks, slow and steady and reaches out to smooth the collar of Alexander’s shirt. “I won’t, I can’t let the weight of their sins and the burden of their failures haunt me through every choice.  The Clave finds no problem, considering that I still carry Lightwood blood and it’s my own business if I disowned myself.  The Institute remains mine, but I’m a Trueblood now.  A legacy untainted by genocide. An Institute no longer under the name of murderers. And the only person I wanted to tell, to try and explain myself to, was you.”

Alexander looks haggard and Magnus hums softly and finally summons himself a robe.  It does not appear that Alexander showed up for sex, as delightful as that would have been.

However as this is showing that when Alexander is emotionally distraught, he came to Magnus, Magnus will forgive it.

“And yet you seem lost.”

“Because I’ve lost my family for this, Magnus. Is it worth it? What I’ve done? What I’m doing? I’ve exiled two of my siblings from the only home they’ve ever known. It will be months if not years before they’re let back. I know exactly how shadowhunters are tested in Idris. I know they’ll fail despite being prodigies.  Without a politician pushing them forward to show off, they won’t be let through until they’re fully trained. I might not see my youngest brother for years and I doubt my parents will forgive me.  I’ve humiliated and shamed not only them but their favored children and I’ve walked away with the power and legacy to build that they’ve been coveting for years.”

“Is it worth it, upholding justice and your oaths? Or would you rather protect the feelings of terrorists who committed treason?” Magnus asks, blunt and with a sigh as he looks at his nails.  The color seems dull in the strengthening light of the sun. It’s with an absent though that he grasps Alexander’s jaw, thumb pressing up against his boy’s bottom lip.

It’s easy to change the color to match the color of Alexander’s plush mouth and there’s a sigh, said mouth brushing over his fingers.

“No, it’s worth it.”

“Then you have your answer.”

Magnus has a feeling Alexander has some unfortunate feelings and emotions they’ll need to deal with, regarding his family.  Despite his logic and skills and beautiful competence, Magnus isn’t willing to assume Alexander has the ability to cut his ties so cleanly as he needs.  Nor can Magnus help with any true healing or distancing.

It would be so easy to feed Alexander a potion.  Anything really, even a little emotional dampening spell would work.  However it wouldn’t do any good in the long run and Magnus would rather they get this over with.  Cleanly and with sterile precision.

Alexander flinches from Magnus bare fingers against his skin and Magnus lets the warmth of his touch and his magic sink into his boy.

“You’re shaking.” He murmurs, because Alexander is trembling and while Magnus may not care about what the Lightwood’s or shadowhunters have brought upon themselves, he cares about this one man thinks and does.

His shadowhunter.

“I have everything I’ve worked towards and have lost everything I was brought up to protect.” Alexander looks helplessly adrift, “I— how am I supposed to handle this?”

Magnus pulls Alexander gently towards his balcony doors, because Alexander needs containment not a place with continually changing sensory input.

It’s with a snap of his fingers that he lights the fire and summons the thick sheepskins Ragnor bequeathed upon him. The texture should be soft enough and interesting enough that Alexander will be able to enjoy it, or ignore it.

“Go settle in front of the fire.” Magnus tells him and when Alexander just looks at him, helplessly confused and the competency that drew Magnus to him gone, Magnus melts. There is something about having someone so beautifully composed crumple before him — and only him, that has Magnus swallowing harshly.

It’s so easy to guide Alexander, who is nothing but pliable in Magnus’ hands. He doesn’t even flinch when Magnus changes his clothing to something softer and more comfortable, Magnus own lounge-wear.

“The consequences of actions cannot only affect you, darling.” Magnus murmurs as he summons several drinks and just settles against a veritable mountain of pillows.  “Others too, must be held to the same and sometimes even greater standards.  You have committed no crimes yet paid the price for sins done in a name you never asked to claim. I too bear the burden of my father’s sins, Alexander.  Yet I am not defined or confined by them.” The drink Magnus has summoned is fruity and tart and something he thinks Alexander would enjoy, but instead he offers his boy juice, thick and rich and full of magical nutrients that Alexander will need.

Shadowhunters aren’t shaken easily.  Alexander’s body will adapt and readjust quickly, but his mind will remember and linger on it.

“Why do you trust me?” Magnus asks, a re-framing of the question he could not answer.

“I couldn’t imagine anything else.” Alexander tells him, slow and honest and tired. “You were there. You were magical and you just, you were trustworthy.  I don’t know Magnus. That’s why I asked you.  I was hoping maybe you just exude like a natural charm as a part of your warlock mark or something. Or maybe you could explain it as it coming with age and power. Or that a lot of people met you and felt this way.”

Magnus is simultaneously offended and delighted.

“While I am quite capable of charming most people, it’s not like this. Not with someone like you,  Alexander.”

Magnus doesn’t even just mean a shadowhunter.

However he’s still a bit irked that Alexander thinks something like Magnus’ charisma can be explained with mere age and power.

Magnus’ charisma is both natural and also a talent he’s honed.

A bit of a demonic natural perhaps, but not enough to be considered mark and honestly, most nephilim find his charm off putting  — though whether that speaks to their prejudice or a natural distaste Magnus isn’t sure.  Either way, it says something that Alexander is instead the opposite.

“You wouldn’t come here just because of trust, Alexander.”

“Because I want you. To be around you and with you and I feel better when I am.” There’s a tired, small smile and then Alexander adds tired and slurring from being emotionally drained, “even if you’re mean during sex.”

Magnus tries really hard not to snort and instead it comes out a strangled sigh.  Which is still better than the exasperated laugh he wants to let out. “Giving you choices and options is hardly being mean, Alexander.”

Alexander pouts up at him and considering he’s still trembling and his fingers are white knuckled in the sheepskin, Magnus will let the argument die there. In the adorable curve of Alexander’s mouth sulking at him.

“You made the right choice.” Magnus reminds him, because perhaps that’s what Alexander needs.

It helps, in some small way as Alexander turns his face against Magnus’ thigh and rubs his cheek and nose against the skin there. Magnus would prefer a little less temptation when Alexander is this emotionally vulnerable, however he also isn’t going to deny himself or Alexander any physical touch or comfort.

“I don’t want to feel like this. Like everything is falling apart.”

“Your Institute is stable for the first time in decades. You have authority and hunters who trust you. And I have you, Alexander.”

Alexander did Magnus the honor of breaking in front of him. Crumpling to pieces before him and Magnus will either hold him together or piece him back together as best as he can.

Magnus still likes what he saw.

Prefers Alexander strong and tall and cold — but melting for Magnus.

Having Alexander like this, raw and open in his arms is a treasure, one Magnus will guard and maintain.

AN:

alec being competent is something magnus is very drawn to. however he also likes alec being vulnerable with him. and relying on him.

alec also is just. he can't break down in front of his subordinates. any of them. it's just not something he can do. he has no one to rely on and he decides that he trusts magnus enough to go to him for it.

which happens pretty quick in canon too.

magnus finds he likes both sides of alec.

Magnus: oh. oh no. i like ALL of him.

Magnus: this is dangerous

Alec: i am sad

Magnus: ... so he can never be sad again. this is doing things to me. i don't like the lack of control i have over myself at the moment. so therefore, no more sadness for my alexander.

[silver-lily-louise]

Shadowhunters Rewatch, 1.12 - Malec.

- Let's GOOOOOO !!!!!

- Gotta love they just named the episode 'Malec' 😂 ♡

- Lilies are a mourning flower, usually. And Alec's suit is almost white, it's such a pale gold. I think the funeral imagery in the Lightwood-Branwell wedding is so interesting

- 'It's important.' Yeah of course. Definitely. Why would anyone think you were going round Magnus' house for anything but work, hm, Alec?

- Refusing the toast is so bitchy. I love that Alec isn't ALL stoicism 🤭

- 'Tell me you're in love with Lydia, and I'll stop.' This has been said before but this is important tbh. Magnus isn't relentlessly pursuing a crush who's into someone else, he's trying to stop someone he cares about making a mistake.

- I love Magnus' khaki look. Honestly he's such a vibe through this whole series ♡

- 'That's a good punch' 😂

- I love how 'He's not more powerful than I am' is easy to read as rivalry and enmity at first... but with context of who they are to each other, it definitely sounds more like kid siblings going 'nuh-uh, I'M stronger!' 😂🤭

- 'I didn't know you were here! ^^' 'That was the point.' 😂

- Magnus that tarnish comment is Petty as heck 🤭 dude is HURTING over the pretty boy

- ♡ Alec and Izzy's relationship is so important to me :')

- Okay BUT. Ragnor's power rivals Magnus' and he's taken out by a convenient solo demon?? I definitely think the shax demon thing was a ruse to go back into hiding - sent by the spy, sure, but used by Ragnor to fulfil the purpose he wanted. I need to finish my fic about that tbh, might work on it after this episode.

- I do like that Lydia wasn't crushing on Alec like people (Clary 🤭) clearly thought. Just respect, and mutual benefit. ♡

- Simon and Izzy are cute. 🤭

- I do like how Alec telling Jace he's not 'sick' for being caught in a confusing situation - 'and trust me, I know.' - shows how he's come to terms with his own feelings, and stopped feeling quite so much shame. ♡

- Alec so close to an epiphany 😂 'if you follow the rules you'll be fine, that is until a complication arises...' Uh-huh? '...so then you need to get back in there and follow the rules even harder!' 🤦‍♀️ 😂

- Simon DOES look good at the wedding tbh.

- IT'S HAPPENING IT'S HAPPENING!!!! War of Hearts is playing in my /bloodstream/ rn -

- I like Lydia a lot more on my rewatch than I did the first time around. A very reasonable lady. ♡

- WELL that's one way to avoid making an 'I'm calling off the wedding' speech 😂😂 honestly this scene is iconic for a REASON ♡♡♡

- SIMON 😂

- Okay, lowkey I don't think Alec WAS serious about 'who invited the vampire'. I think he's high on adrenaline and decided to wind him up. 🤭

- Another classic Alec Autism Moment 🤭 intense social pressure crowds ARE the worst tbh

- 'Friend'? Luke no 😂 don't trust that slimy git...

10/10 no notes. Great episode. Deserving of its iconic status. ♡♡♡♡

[multistanisms]

Moving Day || Shadowhunters

FANDOM: Shadowhunters

PAIRING: Alec x Magnus

WORD COUNT: 784

RATING: PG

POTENTIAL TRIGGERS: N/A

SUMMARY: What would become the true love story of their lives began the day Alec and Magnus met - moving day before the new semester at the New York Institute campus.

TAGLIST: @no1likemybbgcharlie

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Freshman year for his sister meant that Alec was expecting a new roommate. The roommate he'd had the last two years - a fairly handsome man named Underhill - had graduated early and left Alec feeling oddly lonely despite not being very social. He supposed it helped that Underhill had been like him, but hadn't pushed for a relationship or anything. The male was a really good friend to Alec, like an older brother, so now a sophomore, Alec was hoping he could be as helpful to whomever walked in the door as his new roommate. Isabelle, darling sister that she was, kept insisting she would be his roommate, but Alec knew the odds were unlikely. The university tried to make siblings grow on their own and believed that pairing them up would hinder that. So he wasn't at all surprised when he got a call from an irritated Isabelle, which lasted until she discovered her roommate was a freshman named Clary, and Alec could hear the friendship develop instantly over the phone. He had laughed and promised he would help her unpack as soon as his own roommate arrived, and his baby sister was quick to hang up.

He went to make himself some tea, setting it down before picking up his Gibson TG-1, his favorite acoustic for the rich sound, and began fiddling with tuning it so he could work on a new video. He was tuning his guitar when there was a knock on the door. Carefully setting the instrument on the couch next to him, Alec stood and moved to open the door -

And had to catch his breath.

The man standing on the other side of the door was just a few inches shorter than him, with caramel skin, dark eyes accented by a blue glittery eyeshadow, hair done in a mohawk while a black and silver messenger bag hung across his body. It was beautiful and intriguing and Alec was sure his heart had stopped until the man spoke.

“Hello. I'm sorry if I interrupted anything.” the male finally greeted, having been momentarily stunned himself at the contrast of dark hair, blue eyes and pale skin.

Alec snapped from his reverie at the sound, and the music major wanted to faint because no voice should sound that damn good. “Not at all. You didn't have to knock, though. I thought the admin office still gave out keys?” He replied inquisitively, stepping aside to let the other inside.

“Yeah, well, my last uni was, uhm...active. A lot. Or at least my loftmates were.” The roommate said as he set his bag down behind the couch, turning to look at Alec and offer his hand. “I'm Magnus, by the way. Transferred in from PCA in France.”

“France?” Alec asked before a faint blush colored his cheeks and he shook Magnus’ hand. “Oh, uh, I'm Alec.”

“Oui.” Magnus said with a grin. “I was there to get an adventure. When I finished most of my courses, I decided to come back to the States.” he explained. “The dorms here are quite large.”

“Large and soundproof.” ALec agreed. “Unless the students in this hall are just not getting any.” He crossed his arms a little and laughed with Magnus, looking around. “Uh, do you want a quick tour?”

“Sure,” Dark eyes returned to Alec from where he’d been looking at the guitar propped on the couch. He followed Alec around the couch and to the kitchen area.

“So the kitchen we have to keep stocked. My sister and I split our tips from work and keep each other fed, but our father sends money once a month out of some obligation his friends have guilted him into. Our mom sends care packages, so if there’s something you’d like, I’m sure she wouldn’t mind adding it.” he shrugged, pointing to their right as they faced the living area. “Laundry room and guest bathroom are that way, our rooms are on the other side.” He explained, leading the way. “Both of us have our own bathrooms, walk in closets, and the office area is the one at the end of the hall.” he pointed at the doors across from each other and then the one at the end of the hall as he spoke.

“The university pays to furnish all this?” Magnus inquired, sounding impressed.

“Most of it. If you decide to get your own furniture, you can have campus officials pull out the originals. It’s what I did.” Alec answered, smiling. “Do you need help with your stuff?”

Magnus gave a smile and nodded as he went to set his bag in the bed in his room. “That would be great, Alec. Thank you.”

[shippergirl121fic]

Thank you @callivich for tagging me. Here are my answers to some of the questions.

3. What’s a headcanon you can’t stop thinking about?

That Mickey’s really kinky in the bedroom. He always wants to try new stuff to spice up their sex life.

5. What’s an idea you’d love to create if you had the time/inspiration?

That’s a good question. I have so many ideas that I want to write, but the one I think about a lot lately is for one of your prompts Calli. The one where Ian crosses the border with Mickey and likes the dress that Mickey’s wearing. I really want to write that, because I want to show that Trevor was nothing but a replacement for Mickey and that Ian’s the happiest when he’s with Mickey. Also I want Ian to appreciate Mickey’s chest tattoo.  

8. What’s your favourite season? And has this changed after multiple rewatches of the show?

S4. Mickey’s character development was so awesome in this season.  

11. What line/dialogue/description from something else (a poem, a book, a tv show, a movie or something else) do you feel describes Ian and Mickey’s relationship?

There’s another show that I really love its called Shadowhunters and there’s also a gay couple in the show. I really liked that line from Alec to Magnus, where he said. “But you and me… we always seem find our way back to each other.” I think that describes Ian and Mickey’s relationship. No matter what circumstances pull them apart or how hard they try to move on they always find their way back to each other.

Tagging: @juliakayyy @sleepyfacetoughguy @too-schoolforcool @energievie @whatwouldmickeydo