#master kong lang

[aceinthetrap]

THE LITCHI ROAD 《长安的荔枝》 (2025), ep. 3

😆😂 Can't wait for the brothers-in-law to join forces. They will join forces eventually, right?

[miyamiwu]

To Be Hero X: Top 10 Heroes’ Chinese Voice Actors

Info is taken from the TBHX Baidu page. For the VAs’ other roles, I’m only listing those I’m familiar with…which is limited to danmei* audio drama adaptations and very few donghua originals and danmei donghua, so uhhh sorry about that. Just check out their other roles by following the links in Baidu.

*Danmei = Chinese BL

Top 10 Heroes

1. Wèi Chāo 魏超 as X

Donghua roles:

Qian Jin in Link Click Season 2

Qing Xiong in Tianbao Fuyao Lu

Shi Xuejin in Da Wang Rao Ming (Spare Me, Great Lord!)

Audio drama roles:

Lan Wangji in Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation

Zhao Haochang in Silent Reading

Qi Fengge in Thousand Autumns

Li Feng in Sha Po Lang

My man is in a lot of big name danmei omg

2. Liú Xiàoyú 刘校妤 as Queen

Other animation roles:

young!Du Fu in 30,000 Miles from Chang’an (this is a big movie!)

(Unfortunately, I’m not familiar with her many other animation roles…)

Some audio drama roles:

Empress Ming Rui in Emblem of the Phoenix

Sima E in Offering Salted Fish To Master (not danmei)

Chu Huang in Black Moonlight Holds the BE Script (not danmei)

(I actually don’t know any of these works. I just didn’t want to leave Queen’s section empty…)

3. Chén Zhāng Tàikāng 陈张太康 as Liang Long (Dragon Boy)

Audio drama roles:

Hua Cheng from Heaven Official’s Blessing (omg 👀)

Li Heng in Tianbao Fuyao Lu Season 1

Cheng Yixie in Kaleidoscope of Death

The Male System in Global University Entrance Examination

Zong Jiu in Thriller Trainee (OMGGG 👀👀👀)

Lin Si in Cat’s Rose

Lin Qingyu in Married Thrice to Salted Fish

Su Cheng in Welcome to the Nightmare Live

Xie Qibao in The Daily Life of Being the Campus Idol’s Fake Boyfriend

....and a lot more danmei. I thought X being in many big-name danmei AD was impressive enough, but holy shit LL’s VA is in even more of them.

4. Cháng Wéntāo 常文涛 as Mo Sha (Ghostblade)

Donghua roles:

Liu Fei in Tianbao Fuyao Lu

Audio drama roles:

Zheng Shu in Cat’s Rose

Xiao Cheng in Married Thrice to Salted Fish Season 2

Xi Chengyun in A Contractual Marriage with the Best Leading Actor

Ruan Tanzhu in Devil Venerable Also Wants to Know (OMGGG 👀)

Sun Heguang in Transmigrating Into The Heartthrob’s Cannon Fodder Childhood Friend

蛇女目 (idk how to write this as a name) in The Fallen Merman

Meng-xiansheng (Mr. Dream) in The #1 Pretty Boy of the Immortal Path

Multiple side character roles in Kaleidoscope of Death (too lazy to list them all here)

5. Jǐn Lǐ as Xiao Qiang (Little Johnny)

VA for Da Qiang (Big Johnny) hasn't been announced yet

Other animation roles:

Li Tianchen in Link Click Season 2

Nezha in the Legend of Luo Xiaohei fan animated manhua

Audio drama roles:

Kong Hongjun in Tianbao Fuyao Lu

Jiang Fang in Forces of Temptation

Jiang Xinghong and Feng Yongle in Kaleidoscope of Death

Daoist A (extra) in The Husky and His White Cat Shizun

Ling Ke in The Daily Life of Being the Campus Idol’s Fake Boyfriend

Mo Qiu in Flying Gulls Never Land (HOLY SHIT THIS IS A GOOD ONE)

young!Guan Ye in Turing’s Code

Wu Zu in Pixiu Restaurant, No Way Out

young!Gu Jianshen in Want to Ascend? Then Fall in Love

Shi An in After the Abyss Dragon Awakens

Xiao Jie in Married Thrice to Salted Fish

More of his roles can be found here. (The wrong page is linked in the TBHX Baidu page)

6. Qián Chēn 钱琛 as Loli

Other animation roles:

Yu Xia in Link Click

Su Shu in Those Years I Opened a Zoo

Young! Jin Ling, Wen Yuan, Xue Yang, and Qin Su (she’s voicing all the kids lmao) in Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation

Audio drama roles:

Zhang Ting and Guo Fei in Silent Reading

Luo Sixue in The Pheromones Say We Have No Chance

Chen Xi in Hard to Please (aka First Frost)

The blonde maiden in Forces of Temptation

young!Jiang Songyi in When Two Alphas Meet, One’s an Omega

Several side characters in After Getting A Job in the Nether World, I Became Famous (this is a good novel btw, you guys should check it out)

Apparently, she’s also in Summit Dueling (aka Beloved Enemy), but it didn’t list what role she played...

7. Zhào Shuǎng 赵爽 as Lucky Cyan

Other animation roles:

Xu Shanshan in Link Click

Lu Xiaoyu in Da Wang Rao Ming (ohh that’s cute)

The female App voice in Those Years I Opened a Zoo (So that was her, lmaaao)

Zhao Nishang in No Doubt in Us Season 2

Xiaoyao Xinghe in My Dashixiong is a Villain/My Dashixiong has a Hole in His Brain (aka What’s Wrong with my Big Brother?)

Audio drama roles:

young!Chang Geng and young!Gu Yun in Sha Po Lang (lmaaao the main characters have the same voices as kids)

Chen Chen in Silent Reading

Lily in Little Mushroom

Yao Yao in When Two Alphas Meet, One’s an Omega

Chen Jiao in After Getting A Job in the Nether World, I Became Famous

Liu Jiayi in I Became a God Horror Game (HOLY SHIT, THIS IS MY FAVORITE NOVEL!!!! And she plays the Liu Jiayi??? Oh my lord)

8. Zhāng Fúzhēng 张福正 as Ahu

Other animation roles:

Chen Xiao in Link Click

A’Tong and Xue Yang in Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation

Shao Wuxing in Those Years I Opened a Zoo

Yang Jian in The Parting of the Orchid and Cang (aka The Farewell of Changlan, Love Between Fairy and Devil) (not danmei)

Audio drama roles:

Several side characters in Sha Po Lang

Xiao Haiyang in Silent Reading

Yu Tang in Your Majesty, Stop Making Trouble (listed as Stop Bothering Me, Emperor in NovelUpdates but I think that’s a mistranslation)

Zhang Guanyao in Breaking Through the Clouds

Pro 4.0 in Turing’s Code (Pro is short for Prometheus and is an AI designed by the side characters. Interesting that Ahu’s VA has done a tech voice..)

Bai Chunian in The Fallen Merman

Lu Changting in Licking Honey off a Knife Edge

Lin Xinlan in Mist

Lu Yizhan in I Became a God in a Horror Game (another GHG character!!!)

Xiao Jue in Rebirth of the Female General (aka Rebirth of the Star General, Legend of the Female General) (not danmei, but this is a popular baihe (Chinese GL))

9. Yáng Kǎiqí 杨凯祺 as Hun Dian (aka E-Soul)

(Not familiar with any of his donghua roles, so I’m not listing them here)

Audio drama roles:

General Xiao Cai and Chen Feiyun in Sha Po Lang

A Researcher in Little Mushroom

Xiao Wu in Silent Reading

Cheng Da Lang in Liu Yao: The Revitalization of Fuyao Sect

Wang Lili in After Getting A Job in the Nether World, I Became Famous

Wen Fei in Want to Ascend? Then Fall in Love

Chen Anzhi in After the Global Evolution, I Stand at the Top of the Food Chain

Fang Xue in Pheromones Say You’re Not Innocent

Zhang Shao in Flying Ashes

Jiang Yan in The True Scandal

10. Gǔ Jiāngshān 谷江山 as Nice and Lin Ling

Other animation roles:

Jin Zixuan in Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation (OMG 👀)

Jiang Yuanzheng in No Doubt in Us

Liu Xuanyu in Da Wang Rao Ming

Xiao Nanzhu in Chinese Almanac Master

Audio drama roles:

Yuan Yang in Summit Dueling, aka Beloved Enemy (HE PLAYS THE SCUMMY MALE LEAD LMAAAO 😂)

Mo Ran in The Husky and His White Cat Shizun (HELLO??? ANOTHER SCUM GONG FOR MR. “NICE” GUY??? AGSDJHFGSDJHGFJ)

Zhang Donglai in Silent Reading

Josh (aka Josie) in Little Mushroom

Li Yun in Liu Yao: The Revitalization of Fuyao Sect

Lao Bai (is this the White Impermanence? I’ve forgotten…) in After Getting A Job in the Nether World, I Became Famous

Fang Xiaojie in Old Fogey Goes Down The Mountain

Pei Qing in There Is Something Wrong with My Capture Target

Eris (厄里斯) in The Fallen Merman

There are many roles I didn’t include and some I wished I had but was too lazy to go back and add them. I think there were more of them in Chinese Almanac Master, True Scandal, and The Fallen Merman, but I just missed it...

But yeah guys, it’s not just the JP cast. All the Chinese VAs are “stacked” as well. They’ve been in lots of big name projects.

If there are any errors in this post, just tell me in the notes or send me an ask. I went through each VA very quickly coz I wanted to get this done in under an hour so I can get back to my readings for class lol

[brokehorrorfan]

King Kong will be released on Steelbook 4K Ultra HD (with Blu-ray and Digital) on April 9 via Paramount. The 1976 remake of the 1933 monster classic is produced by Dino De Laurentiis (Army of Darkness, Flash Gordon).

John Guillermin (The Towering Inferno, Death on the Nile) directs from a script by Lorenzo Semple Jr. (Flash Gordon). Jeff Bridges, Charles Grodin, and Jessica Lange star. Carlo Rambaldi (E.T. the Extra-Terrestrial) designed the Academy Award-winning special effects, with contributions from Rick Baker (An American Werewolf in London).

The theatrical version is presented in 4K with HDR and 5.1 DTS-HD Master Audio. The extended TV cut is included on Blu-ray with Mono DTS-HD Master Audio. No other extras are featured. Read on to see the full packaging.

Disc 1 - 4K UHD:

Theatrical version (134 minutes)

Disc 2 - Blu-ray:

TV version (182 minutes)

The Big Apple is again besieged by the monstrous King Kong. Jeff Bridges and Jessica Lange star in this ambitious remake of the 1933 original, which adds a great deal of camp and good fun to the story, Again, the gargantuan ape battles attacking aircraft high above the streets of New York, this time plunging from the top of the World Trade Center to his death amidst thousands of horrified onlookers. King Kong won an Oscar for special effects, and the horror and the thrills are brought anew to another generation in this classy production.

Pre-order King Kong.

[nice2meetyouu]

Random thoughts on a Sunday:

Gusto kong i-try 'yung NAWA Wellness sa Calatagan. May promo kasi 'yung eastwest, 20% off, not sure if applicable 'yun sa retreat. May mental wellness thing for women sila next month. Ang gastos ko na talaga these days.

Nagpakonsulta ako kahapon sa ENT. Tumawag ako sa hotline 2pm, pwede naman daw walk-in, first come, first served. Surprise, pang-14 ako pagdating doon noong 4pm. Ang schedule ay 4-6pm, pero 7:30pm na ako natignan. Siguro next time, may dala na lang din akong pending work or aaralin. Hindi ko kasi matantya kung tatawagin na ba ako or hindi pa. I mean, around 6pm, sabi, pang-6 pa lang 'yung tinatawag.

Bumalik ako kanina para magpakuha ng dugo. May mga hindi nasama sa listahan ng itinawag sa hmo na nasa request naman. Inayos naman nila no'ng sinabi ko, kaso +30 minutes waiting time or more nanaman kasi itatawag pa, paperwork pa ulit, and so on. Dati rin, pag ako 'yung nagpapaapprove sa app, andaming naiiwang lab test, kaya hindi ko na muna ginagamit 'yung app sa ngayon.

Naisip ko nanaman ang healthcare (delivery) in general. May mga "clinic" kasi sa ibang bansa na text-based na for non-urgent concerns, kasi alangan namang pipila ka nang pagkatagal-tagal every now and then. 'Yung concept ay asynchronous 'yung consultation and for specific concerns lang din naman.

Gusto kong maging understanding pero 'yung totoo, wala namang luxury of time 'yung most people para pumila at maghintay sa mga clinic. Naisip ko lang na other than APE and some citizens na concerned sa kalusugan nila, hindi pa rin masyadong uso 'yung preventive care sa atin. At kung magpapakonsulta ka man or lab test or imaging, andami-daming kinukuhang oras from you. Buti kung may dedicated day for that purpose na hindi affected ang work/pay and other things.

Hindi ko naman sinisisi 'yung clinic or anyone for that matter. Marami lang talagang tao. Siguro maganda kung may maisip silang sistema to make things more tolerable, like itetext ka na lang nila kapag tinawag na 'yung #8 samantalang #10 ka sa pila, para naman alam mong pwede kang kumain, magshopping, o umuwi muna, kaysa nakaupo ka lang doon. Pero unpredictable kasi minsan, gets ko rin naman.

Ang sarap ng greek yogurt!!!!!!!!

Bibilhan ko sana sila ng mcflurry pero naisip kong mag-lunch out na lang kami. Ilibre ko raw sila sa Yabu pagkauwi galing ospital.

Nakita ko 'yung Global Health Delivery Intensive, I thought interesting siya. Mag-aapply na sana ako kaso $10,000 pala ang tuition fee. Related sya sa Master of Medical Sciences in Global Health Delivery (MMSc-GHD) degree-program offered through Harvard Medical School. May scholarship, pero last year naaccept ako sa some program sa some university sa UK pero hindi sa scholarship so hindi ko tinuloy. And tl;dr tinatamad akong magpasa ng kung anu-ano ulit (tapos marereject lang).

[meyjiji]

CARLEXIS JUDE LIU — VALE (01)

"But I crumble completely when you cry. It seems like once again, you've had to greet me with goodbye."

The roar of the crowd still echoed in Carlexis Jude Liu’s ears as he slipped away from the podium, the taste of champagne lingering on his lips. Cameras flashed relentlessly, fans screaming his name, but all he could think about was getting to her.

Behind the scenes, away from the deafening applause, a private car waited. He moved quickly, his helmet tucked under his arm, his heart racing faster than it had on the track. Minutes later, he was in a secluded hotel suite, where the world’s most important celebration waited not with journalists or sponsors, but with his Val.

She was sitting on the couch, a soft smile on her face, holding a plate of his favorite food she had prepared herself. The sight of her melted the tension from his body. He crossed the room in quick strides, dropping everything and pulling her into his arms.

“Ang galing mo kanina, Jude,” she whispered, her voice full of pride. “Nakakabilib ka talaga.”

“Hindi ko magagawa 'yon kung hindi dahil sayo,” he murmured, his lips brushing her hair. “Pero ang hirap... ang hirap magdiwang nang hindi kita kasama doon.”

They sat together on the floor, the lights dim, the sound of the city far away. He told her about the race every turn, every near miss but the conversation soon fell into a comfortable silence.

Then, almost unbidden, the weight of his secret life crept in. As much as he wanted to bask in her warmth, guilt gnawed at the edges of his happiness. “Gusto ko na sana dalhin ka doon... ipakita ka sa mundo,” he admitted softly, his voice barely above a whisper. “Pero natatakot ako, Val.”

She tilted her head to meet his gaze. “Sa tingin mo ba gusto kong ganito? Gusto ko na masaya ka, pero Jude... masakit. Ang sakit na hindi ko man lang masabing ikaw ang mundo ko.”

He wanted to believe her, but the ache in his chest refused to subside. “Val, hindi ko alam kung kaya kong ilagay ka sa mundo ko. Ang gulo, ang daming mata... baka masaktan ka.”

“Huwag mong gawin sa'kin 'to,” she said, her voice trembling as tears welled in her eyes. “Ayoko nang magtago, Jude. Gusto kong ipakita sa mundo na ikaw ang mahal ko. Bakit hindi mo kayang ipaglaban ‘to? Ako?”

Her words sliced through him, and he closed his eyes as if trying to block out the pain. He had spent years mastering control— on the track, in front of the cameras, in every obstacle of his life. But here, with Val, he felt like a man unraveling, exposed in ways he wasn’t prepared for.

“Hindi kita kayang mawala, Val,” he said, his voice breaking. “Kung mawala ka, anong silbi ng lahat ng 'to? Pero... paano kung ang pagsama mo sa mundo ko ang dahilan kung bakit kita mawawala?”

“Hindi mo naman malalaman kung hindi mo susubukan, Jude,” she whispered, her voice barely audible. “Pero habang natatakot ka, nasasaktan ako. Habang pinoprotektahan mo ako, unti-unti mo akong tinutulak palayo.”

The words hung heavy in the air, and he felt his chest tighten. He reached for her hands, clutching them tightly as if afraid she would slip away.

“Val, mahal kita,” he whispered, his voice trembling. “Mahal na mahal. Kaya nga ginagawa ko 'to. Ayokong makita ka nilang durugin. Ang mundo ko? Hindi ito para sa'yo. Hindi ka dapat nahihila sa gulo nito.”

“Mahal din kita, Jude,” she replied, her tears falling freely now. “Pero mahal mo ba ako nang sapat para ipaglaban ako? Kasi kahit gaano kita kamahal, Jude, hindi ko kayang magmahal sa anino. Hindi ko kayang magpanggap na ayos lang ako, habang nagkukulang na tayo sa isa’t isa.”

He couldn’t answer her. The silence that followed was deafening, and for the first time in his life, Carlexis Jude Liu felt like a failure—not on the track, but in the one place he couldn’t afford to lose.

So he pulled her close, holding her as tightly as he could, hoping it would be enough to keep her from slipping away. But deep down, he knew that love, when hidden too long, had a way of breaking even the strongest hearts. Tonight, she was still his, but tomorrow? He wasn’t so sure.

How many more nights could they keep pretending? How many more times could he tell her that everything would be okay when his own heart was shattering from the inside out? He wanted to be everything she deserved, but all he felt was the sting of knowing he couldn't give her what she needed, not yet not in the way she deserved.

[joker1315]

All the movies and tv shows you can find on this blog

Use the following link and insert the tag you want to see:

#: 300 - 10 things i hate about you - 12 years a slave - 1899

a: a cure for wellness - a knights tale - after the rain - alice in wonderland - the alienist - all of us strangers - anchoress - andor - angels and demons - around the world in 80 days - assassins creed - august osage county - australia - the avengers - awake

b: bad influence - barbie - the battle for rome - birdland - black mirror - black panther - the blacklist - blackout - blackpool - blood - blood diamond - blow - the book of boba fett - boston legal - the boys - the brave - bright young things - broadchurch - brotherhood

c: captain america - casanova - case histories - cellular - centurion - charlie and the chocolate factory - chocolat - chumscrubber - the cloverfield paradox - clue - colonia - coriolanus - the counselor - covenant - crimson peak - critical care - the curse of the midas box

d: the damned united - dangerous lady - dark - the dark knight - the dark knight rises - dark shadows - dates - the davinci code - dead man - deadpool - the deal - the death of stalin - detective pikachu - die tür - dig - doctor strange - doctor who - dolly partons heartstrings - donnie brasco - dracula - dream lover - druk

e: ed wood - en kongelig affære - en kort en lang - exile - the expanse

f: the face of an angel - the falcon and the winter soldier - the fall - fantastic beasts - fantastic four - far from the madding crowd - fear and loathing in las vegas - the fifth estate - filth - finding neverland - fish tank - fleabag - the fountain - four rooms - fright night - from hell

g: gallowglass - der ganz grosse traum - good - good omens - the good thief - gotham - gothika - the great dictator - the great race - guardians of the galaxy

h: halt and catch fire - hamlet - hannibal - harry potter - heart - heartlands - high rise - his dark materials - the hobbit - the hollow crown - home again - how to train your dragon

i: i saw the light - the imitation game - the impossible - indiana jones - inglourious basterds - inkheart - iron man

j: jagten - james bond - jessica jones - the judge - jurassic park

k: kate and leopold - the kings speech - kingsman - kiss kiss bang bang - kong%3A skull island - ku'damm 59

l: l. a. without a map - the ladykillers - laws of attraction - the legend of 1900 - legion - the libertine - life on mars - little favour - loki - london - lord of the rings - love actually - lucifer

m: macbeth - macgyver - mamma mia - the mandalorian - marvel - master and commander - masters of sex - miranda - moon knight - mortdecai - moulin rouge - move on - mrs. doubtfire - much ado about nothing - much ado about nothing (1993) - mulan - the muppets most wanted

n: the necessary death of charlie countryman - the night manager - the nightmare before christmas - nine-1%2F2-minutes - not another teen movie - nu

o: the oa - once upon a time - only lovers left alive - oppenheimer - oscar wilde - oslo - ostfriesenblut - ostfriesenkiller

p: paddington 2 - parades end - passengers - patrick melrose - the patriot - peaky blinders - the pelayos - peter pan - pirates of the caribbean - polar - the power of the dog - the practice - preacher - present laughter - the prestige - prey - pride - priest - prodigal son - prometheus - pulp fiction - puncture - the pursuit of love - pushing daisies

r: rab c. nesbitt - ratatouille - rejseholdet - reprisal - reservoir dogs - resident alien - richard II - the right stuff - robin hood - rocketman - rocky horror picture show - rosencrantz and guildenstern are dead - rush - rush (series)

s: the salvation - the sandman - der schuh des manitu - secret window - secretary - shadow and bone - shame - sherlock - sherlock holmes - the silence of the lambs - the singing detective - single father - sleepy hollow - slow west - small island - the snowman - soldiers girl - the special relationship - spiderman - the stag - staged - star trek - star wars - stargate universe - the stickup - storage 24 - submergence - sucker punch - supernatural - supernova - sweeney todd

t: tatort - tatort berlin - tatort saarbrücken - the thick of it - third star - thor - to the ends of the earth - tolkien - torchwood - the tourist - the town - transcendence - triple frontier - tron - true lies - twilight - twin peaks

u: uncle frank - underworld - unthinkable

v: velvet goldmine - vildspor

w: wandavision - war horse - watchmen - welcome to the punch - whats eating gilbert grape - whats your number - wimbledon - windtalkers - the witcher - the wonderful story of henry sugar - the words - wreckers

x: x men - the x-files

y: yellow submarine

[sunb0rn]

gagii?? bigla akong hindi mapakali (not that i can do something about it pa buuut). nakuha ko from grad school yung certificate of completed units ko.

gaaah. parang sobra sobra yung units sa expected ko?? di ko alam san galing mga yun until naisip ko na baka sumobra ako sa enrolled subjects 🫠 so inisa isa ko at parang sumobra nga ako ng core, pero kulang sa specialty?? shutaa?? parang gusto ko umiyak sa pag iisip ng nagastos ko pero kung nakakaluwag luwag lang ako sa buhay masaya ako thinking of the experience/s i gained from those.

pero di pa din tally ehh, 3 units lang sobra ko na core, kulang naman ng 3 sa specialty. ano yung 11 units na sobra??

idk what to feel, really.

well, nung una kong nakita yung units earned parang "shet! konting konti nalang pala (masaya/inspired) pero laking gastos nito kung babalikan ko (anxious, nanghihinayang/clueless)" and then this. HAHAHA.

dumadami na yung nsa listahan kung bakit fail talaga yung pinili ko ipush yung masters kahit na alam kong di ako ready mentally, emotionally, physically at financially just to appease the people around me and even myself, or so i thought. pero the irony pa din talaga that this time of life gave me life, in a way. ittry ko nalang siguro mag focus doon. ✨

[upismediacenter]

LITERARY: 1DK

No’ng nakapagtapos na ako ng kolehiyo, pinili kong lumipat sa siyudad.

Ano’ng dahilan? Di ko rin alam. Basta isang araw, sinabi ko na lang sa aking mga magulang na lilipat ako sa Metro Manila. Sabi ko, isang job offering at tinanggap ko kaya roon muna ako. Well… in reality, di siya totoo. Lahat ng mga ina-applyan kong trabaho ay either di ako binalikan o di ako tinanggap. Sinabi ko lang ‘yon para payagan akong lumipat ng bahay. Naniwala naman sila agad! Buti na lang may latin honors ako. (lol)

Sa tulong ng mahiwagang Facebook at sa aking tita na nakatira sa Manila ngayon, nakahanap ako ng isang 1DK (1 bedroom and kitchen/dining area) na kaya kong bayaran ng hanggang tatlong buwan gamit ang savings. Siguro may trabaho na ako pagdating ng pang-apat na buwan. Baka pwede siguro magtrabaho sa retail or fast food? 

At dahil naniniwala ang aking pamilya na lumipat ako sa siyudad para maghanap ng magandang trabaho, grabe ang binigay nilang financial support. Nagbigay pa nga ng $300 ang Lola kong nakatira sa Chicago para sa mga gamit ko sa apartment. Tapos sabi ng tita ko, magfu-furniture shopping kami sa IKEA pagdating ko sa Manila???

Oops. ‘Yan tuloy. Naging mataas masyado ang expectations nila sa akin. Haha, sorry. It’s a prank lang pala na may trabaho ako sa isang very esteemed company! Very very impulsive decision. IKR! 

So ngayon nasa gitna ako ng apartment at napaliligiran ng mga kahon. Di ko sure kung kailan kong trip buksan at i-unpack ang mga trauma– I mean, ang mga kagamitan ko. Pero imbes na mag-ayos ng apartment, pilinili ko na lang magsulat ng isang blog post sa aking non-existent blog page! (Non-existent kasi ginawa kong imaginary blog ang google docs. Pero baka gumawa ako ng blog account soon? Bahala na si future me diyan.)

Bakit no’ng nakalipat na ako ng bahay at malayo na ako sa aking pamilya, biglang bumalik ang aking existential dread? O baka di talaga ito nawala at magaling lang talaga ako sa pag-suppress sa pakiramdam na ito. Pero feeling ko rin wala akong karapatan para maramdaman ito? Ako ay isang consistent honor student, may leadership position palagi sa classroom o sa org, nakakuha ng scholarship sa kolehiyo, tapos Summa Cum Laude pa. Di ba dapat “set for success” ako?  Yung mga kaibigan ko nakapagsimula na sila ng trabaho pagkatapos ng graduation, habang ako kinailangan ko pang magsinungaling para lang magkaroon ng independence galing sa aking pamilya? Heads up lang! Okay lang ang family situation ko, gusto ko lang i-lessen yung burden na meron ang mga magulang ko ngayon, at gusto ko rin yung pakiramdam ng pagiging independent! Pero mukhang ginawa ko yung kabaliktaran nun. Whoops. 

Ilang beses ko nang sinabi sa sarili ko na pansamantala lang ito at lilipas rin. Pero paano if hindi talaga ako makahanap ng trabaho? Display na lang ba ang aking Bachelor’s of Arts Degree sa Psychology? Hindi ba ako naghirap enough para ma-secure ko ang aking future na pinapangarap ko? Kailangan ko bang mag-aral ulit para sa isang Master’s Degree? Surely, tatanggapin na ako ng mga employers kapag maganda ang academic performance ko, right? Pero hindi iyon ang realidad. Minsan, overqualified ako sa position, minsan underqualified naman. Kung may employer man na gusto magmeet sa middle ground, biglang nakahanap sila na mas qualified kaysa sa akin! Mukhang kailangan ko na mag door-to-door sa lahat ng mga potential employers ko habang hawak ang aking résumé. Bakit ang hirap magkasecure ng trabaho?

Saan ba ako nagkamali? 

Paano ko kaya haharapin ang mga magulang ko? Ang tita ko na nakahanap ng apartment ko? Ang lola ko na nasa Chicago na nagpadala ng pera? 

Haha… Well! (deep sigh for added emphasis) It is what it is! Pinili kong tumakas na walang plano, so papanindigan ko!

Hihinga na lang ako ng malalim. May tatlong buwan pa ako para maayos ko ang aking gulo, internally and externally. Aaminin ko na hindi maganda ang decision-making skills ko habang desperado at ngayon pa lang, nahihirapan na akong mag-ayos ng apartment. Sana naman makahanap ako ng maayos na trabaho, pero, deserve ko ng mas magandang trabaho kung saan pwede ko magamit ang college degree ko. Pagdating ng pang-apat, change identity na lang ako at lumipat sa ibang bansa. Saan ako kukuha ng pera? Di ko pa sure. Pero okay lang kung di pa ako sure! Marami pa akong oras magdecide! (Sana. Coping mechanism na lang ito. May time limit pala na 3 months whoops). 

On the bright side, may veranda ako at ang ganda pa ng view. Ano konek? It’s none of your business. Gusto ko lang i-flex na may veranda ako.

(Note to self: If gusto mo talaga ito ang unang blog post mo sa gagawing mong blog account, ayusin mo nga muna ang mga eme mo. Dapat maging inspirational ito sa mga tao na kagaya mo na naghihirap ngayon dahil unemployed pa sila pagkatapos ng kolehiyo. Ang kalat mo dito. Sobra.)

(UPDATE to self: Tinitingnan ko ang mga drafts ko, hindi pala ito nakalabas? Anyways, nakatanggap ako ng tatlong job interviews. Sa wakas, may marunong magreply sa mga potential employees nila at hindi nangghoghost!) 

(UPDATE UPDATE to self: Hindi ko na pala kailangan mag change identity at lumipat ng ibang bansa para makatakas sa aking pamilya. May trabaho na ako at hindi nila na-figure out na nagsingungaling ako sa kanila. :>)

(FINAL UPDATE: gg alam pala nilang di totoo may job offering ako kaya pala sila nagbigay ng financial support sa simula??? EH DI SANA SINABI KO NA LANG DATI NA GUSTO KONG LUMIPAT KASI TRIP KO LANG! Sabi ng nanay ko na papayag naman sila kahit wala pa akong maayos na trabaho, mas kailangan ko pa ng change of environment at the time. Umiyak ang bakla sa revelation na ito. 

Anyways. May trabaho na ako :>. 5 months strong! Tapos mapro-promote pa ako next month! Nag-apply ako for Masters sa UP, pero this time, I’ll take it slow! Okay lang kung di pa ako sure sa gusto kong gawin kasi marami akong oras sa mundo para mag-decide.  Btw, ang ganda ng veranda ko. Since September na, puro Christmas decor na ang meron dito kasama ang aking beach chair na nabili ko sa Shopee 8.8 sale na 70% off. Wag mo na itanong kung ano ang konek. Masama ba i-flex ang aking financial capabilities ngayon? Ha. Thought so.)

[yourmeltedsunsets]

I’m not certain, but I think that my Mama and Papa were in their 50’s when they adopted me.

Mayo pakong aram kan mga panahon na ito, but I think that it was the most exciting day for them — and same man sakuya simply because it was a new beginning for me. Not that I’m discrediting the womb that I came from, it’s just that, para sakuya man kaya, that was the day and time that God clothe me with a totally different life. Something that is unique and extraordinary. I’d say, something greater than the life that I would’ve gotten from the other side.

I had a great childhood ~ kung ano man si mga nagigibo kan younger parents, dawa may edad na sila Mama and Papa, nagibo man ninda ito.

Pick me up from bed dawa magabat ako.

Give me a bath whenever I feel lazy getting one on my own.

My papa, he would play with me all the time.

He sends and picks me up at school.

He would take me for a ride with his bicycle.

Sometimes he would take me to his workplace kung ang pipinturahan na harong is just within the area.

He is a great painter by the way. He can tell how and what colors need to be mixed in order to get a particular tint. It was like a natural, innate skill of his, despite of the fact that he was an undergrad. It’s one of the things he’s greatest at. He is actually known for it. I remember, retired na sya sa pag pintura, may mga tao padin nagdidigdi samo ta gusto siyang kuanon para mag trabaho. Since dae nya na kaya ta nagluluya na an pag hiling, people would just come to our house and ‘consult’ nalang pag abot sa mga gagamiton na kulay and klase ning paint na pang kahoy, simento or bakal. Also, maski nuarin, dae lamang ko kayan narapado. NEVER ako kayan kinulugan maski sarong beses.

He is a great dad and is still being one.

My mama naman would buy things and dresses dawa dae baragay ta grabeng pagkatutong ko kadto. Iyo man yan ang pambawi nya ta pirming mayo ta school principal baya. She never failed to show her support for us. She would take me and my brother to Naga (almost every month) ~ for McDonalds, Naga Restaurant, minsan makakan duman sa Master. Babakalan bado sa Robertsons (the old one na Puregold na ngunyan) or Garmas, mabakal sapatos sa Footsteps.

Simplehon lang kadto ang lifestyle.

We never knew the branded stuff. Basta pag uli, may bitbit, may masusulot na pag simba or sa sunod na pag luwas luwas.

Every December, I would hang my socks sa may bintana, would even write my wishes and post it sa may pinto because “Santa Claus” is coming to town. I believed it for years. It was innocent, hopeful and exciting years kase, you always had this notion that by the end of the year, may maabot talaga na nakasakay sa sled, may reindeer and dara na si gift na gusto mo. I remember, minsan na din ako nagsäbit sako ta sabi ko gusto kong bike. Though mayo man nag abot na bike, kan nagdaradakula na ako, si Fuji bike na ni papa ang nagagamit ko.

These are just fractions of my childhood. Glimpse of my innocent years and the younger years of my Mama and Papa and kung paano sinda naging magurang samuya. Sobrang blessed and grateful na sinda ang naging magurang mi. They sent me and my brother to good schools and university. They provided everything that we needed. Supported everything that we wanted. Gosh kala ngani kang iba, mga spoiled kami. I’d say I was the favorite child tho. I didn’t had any scholarship when I was in college (so I didn’t have to maintain grades) didn’t even have to work ~ I was a full ‘Scholar ni Mama’. Which was a little different from my Kuya’s. If I’m not mistaken, scholar sya kadto so need nya mag maintain grades, nag part time din yan sa Jollibee. Dae yan sako pinaranas ni Mama. All I had to do was to study, eat, sleep and repeat with a weekly allowance of 1500 to 2000 pesos. She even bought me a Windows and Apple computer. Sobrang boot and supportive ninda sako.

Sadly, my mom passed away in 2020. Cancer took her. I remember the phone call I received, August 1st. That was the day I approved my mom’s DNR. Painful and heartbreaking decision ever but it was for the best. Dae naman siya mararahay digdi sa ibabaw. Naisip mi kadto, masakit lang din siya in the long run kung lalagan pang tubo ta nagtutubig na si lungs nya. I missed the chance na makabawi man lang saiya. Although I started working right away after mag graduate at the age of 19. It was just 5-short-years that I was given para makabawi saiya. Sobrang lïpot. She didn’t even saw the plaques of certificates and commendations I’ve acquired in my chosen field.

Ngunyan si Papa nalang ang natatada.

Halos gusto ko nang burutungon ang panahon to be stable sa gabos na aspect.

I may have wasted some good years sa ibang bagay, prioritized other people na dae ko man dapat ininot, pero iba ang pressure talaga pag nag gugurang na ang parents. Iniisip mo, pano ka mabawi when you don’t even have enough means. Although, I know, money is NOT the most important thing in the world, but it affects everything that is. Food, healthcare and even simple things such as clothing and other material things, of course, you want the best for them. Especially, when it comes to things na dae pa ninda naranasan and gusto mo iparanas ta nuarin pa.

I know God has a plan for me. And I believe dakul pang taon ang nakalaan sakuya. Sa ngunyan, mayo akong ibang gusto saka pangadyi, kundi ang maparahay si Papa saka maglawig pa ang buhay niya. Sana mahalat niya pa and mahiling ang mga maarabot pang achievements ko sa buhay. Dawa siya nalang makahiling and makaexperience kan gabos na dae ko naparanas ki Mama…

Dawa siya nalang.

PS: Take care of your parents. They won’t be around forever. Treasure every moment na yaon pa sinda and nakakaibahan mo pa. You don’t wanna live the rest of your life na pano ning regrets. They were once our feet, hands, everything especially kan kita nga saradit pa.

Though I know norms and traditions are changing, pero sana dae mabago an kaugalian ta pag abot sa pag ataman nin magurang.🤍

[bethelighttoyourowndarkness]

Life Lately:

Dumating na yung ref ko mga 2 days ago na din. Super life changing magkaroon ng sariling ref, hahahahaha. Unlike before na nakikilagay lang ako sa landlord namin.

Nag grocery ako yesterday, ang therapeutic sa pakiramdam, nag enjoy ako super. Excited akong mag replenish after 2 weeks. More on gulay and fruits talaga tinarget kong bilin at kung ano talaga yung need ko. Unlike before na trip ko lang kaya ko binili. Nakakatulong talaga na busog ka bago ka mag grocery.

Im slowly getting my rhythm back, excited ako sa mga possibilities at mga kaya kong gawin. Mag sstart na din pala akong mag self-review for master plumber board exam.

Things are getting better for me, sadyang you need to cut of the people na wala namang maiaambag sa self mo.

Mas natututo na akong mag budget, I set aside na agad yung pang move it ko ng kalahating buwan at pang food allowance ko. Manifesting na makaipon ako lalo now and makapag Vietnam this year.

[istariray23]

Mainit init at trending ang isyung ito ngayon

Pa react lang mga ka Tariray…

Wala namang nag sasabi na you don’t exist Memsh, napaka wrong move lang na if you want your child to go into showbizness hindi ganyang way na makikilala yung anak mo na anak sa labas ni FM🙄. Madami namang anak sa labas na pumasok sa larangan ng pag a-artista na tahimik at nakilala na lang na “ay anak pala ito ni ganito” dahil na din sa galing at husay ng bata without their mother saying anything at all.

Di naman na bago ang pag kakaroon ng anak sa labas ng mga sikat na tao, sample na lang yung mga like ng mga Poe, Gutierrez, Quizon, Padilla, Ejercito, Sotto ilan lang yan pero nakilala sila base sa kanilang talento no need for their mother to tell yung love story ng mga magulang nila🙄 like duh- loud and proud😁 na Kabit ka Teh🙄

And Oo, for 15 long years nanahimik ka it is because kase alam mong me Mali from the start. And consequence po iyan ng pag patol mo sa may Asawa at anak Memsh. Nasa lalake na din yan kung ipapakilala ka nya at ilalabas ka nya sa publiko during his time na buhay at malakas pa sya. At alam ko na, sasabihin ng iba dyan- hiwalay na sila Pia at FM nung naging sila at alam nang mga Prends ni FM yung about sa kanila. Sige nandun na tayo sa part na yun na alam- did she by any means get in touch dun sa legal wife even nung namatay na si FM? Did she attend FM's wake? Kase kung tanggap ka ng Family ni FM then dapat nakadalaw at naka silip ka man lang sa burol ni FM and hindi ganyang way ang pag labas mo sa publiko na sasabihin mo na nanahimik ka for 15 long years.

Another thing, yung pag be benta mo ng gamit sa Pinoy Pawnstars you could have requested it to be confidential kung ang aim mo lang talaga is mag-benta pero yeah, galing na din sa iyo mag-a-artista si anak and ang panget lang ng way na makikilala si anak mo ng publiko- napaka wrong move nito para sa akin. So this is an early publicity para kay anak na makilala ng public.

Hindi ko din maisip na ibenta yung gamit na ibinigay sa iyo ng taong Mahal mo na ang request sa iyo ay itago mo para kapag nalulungkot ka at na mi miss mo sya mayayakap mo yung Jersey nya, nang sa gayon ay para mo na din syang kasama at kayakap. Hindi ko lubos maisip na ibenta ang bagay na bigay ng taong sinasabi kong mahal ko at mahal ako- kase para sa akin NO AMOUNT OF MONEY COULD COMPENSATE THE THINGS GIVEN TO ME BY THE PERSON WHOM I DEARLY LOVE lalo nat' may habilin yung jersey na iyon.

Yes, nakaka gulat at nakaka lokah ang pag labas ni Ate Gurl at ni anak and there is always a much better timing and way para sa pag papakilala ni anak sa madlang people. Walang kasalanan si anak that's one thing for sure. Pero si Ate Gurl namen, sana hindi sa ganitong paraan mo ipinakilala si anak mo sa publiko.

Yun lang…..

[the-monkey-ruler]

Chapter 2 Journey to the West (2017) 二话西游

Director: Chen Li Ping Starring: Wang Xiaoxi / Kong Xiaoming Genre: Comedy / Fantasy Country/Region of Production: Mainland China Language: Mandarin Chinese Date: 2017-10-31 (Mainland China) Duration: 63 minutes Type: Retelling

Summary:

When Tang Monk and his disciples passed through Babu Mountain, they encountered the Almighty Demon, who cast spells. In order to save his master, Wukong was childized by the Almighty Demon. In order for Wukong to recover his mana and break the witchcraft, Wuneng volunteered to come to Heaven for help. After Wuneng went to the Heavenly Court, he visited all kinds of gods to no avail, and then went down to the world. Tang Seng, Wuneng, and Wujing brought the young Wukong to Babu Village and met Sai Xishi. Sai Xishi's younger sister, Wan Zhu, tried many means to get close to Tang Seng but failed. She wrote a letter and handed it to Tang Seng, revealing a shocking secret. Tang Seng watched it, suddenly realized, and then told Wuneng, who realized the method to break Wukong's childized form, and broke the magic. In the Shenlai Inn, the four masters and apprentices worked together to eliminate all kinds of monsters, during which many warm and funny stories happened. After Wukong recovered his true form, he successfully eliminated the Almighty Demon, and was unanimously praised by the villagers of Babu Village. Amid the reluctance and farewell of the villagers, the four masters and apprentices continued westward.

Source: https://movie.douban.com/subject/27186623/

Link: https://www.iq.com/album/%E4%BA%8C%E8%AF%9D%E8%A5%BF%E6%B8%B8-2017-19rre0imr8?lang=zh_cn

[ao3feed-drstrange]

Its Not About You

by DaydreamingInFebruary When a horrific car accident permanently damages the nerve cells in his hands, Stephen Strange is forced to reconsider his purpose in life, leading him from being an arrogant neurosurgeon to a humble sorcerer/defender of Earth. [SET in a PARALLEL UNIVERSE!] Words: 20525, Chapters: 8/8, Language: English Series: Part 6 of *MCU* Stories (Subseries) Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Doctor Strange (Movies) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Major Character Death Categories: F/M, Gen Characters: Stephen Strange, Christine Palmer, Peter Parker, Wong (Marvel), Ancient One (Marvel), Mantis (Marvel), Cassie Lang, The Cloak of Levitation (Marvel), Karl Mordo, Kaecilius (Marvel), Dormammu (Marvel), The Zealots (Marvel), Other Marvel Characters Relationships: Christine Palmer/Stephen Strange, Christine Palmer & Stephen Strange, Peter Parker & Stephen Strange, Christine Palmer & Peter Parker, Christine Palmer & Peter Parker & Stephen Strange, Mantis & Stephen Strange, The Cloak of Levitation & Stephen Strange, Stephen Strange & Everyone Additional Tags: Alternate Reality, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Post-Multiverse Reboot, Canon Divergence - Movie: Doctor Strange (2016), Not Canon Compliant With Movie: Spider-Man: Homecoming (2017), Parent Stephen Strange, Peter Parker is Stephen Strange's Biological Child, Parent Christine Palmer, Peter Parker is Christine Palmer's Biological Child, Medical Doctor Stephen Strange, Sorcerer Stephen Strange, Medical Doctor Christine Palmer, Mantis & Stephen Strange are Siblings, Aunt Mantis (Marvel), Mantis Has Aunt May Parker's Role (Marvel), Empath Mantis (Marvel), Mentioned Tony Stark, New York City, Kamar-Taj (Marvel), Hong Kong, Sanctum Sanctorum (Marvel), The Mystic Arts (Marvel), Masters of the Mystic Arts Organization (Marvel), Magical Realism, Magic-Users, Sorcerers, Doctors & Physicians, Hospitals, Car Accidents, Medical Trauma, Medical Procedures, Serious Injuries, Career Ending Injuries, Permanent Injury, Nerve Damage, Emotional Roller Coaster, Family Dynamics, Family Bonding, Family Feels, Family Angst, Family Issues, Friendship, Teamwork, Character Study, Character Development, Relationship Study, No Incest, No Selfcest, NOBODY HAS PERMISSION TO REPOST MY FANFICS!! via https://ift.tt/g0dNFyj

[unsent-unspoken]

Notes for my therapist:

what i'm about to tell you would make you frustrated with me. hindi magiging maganda yung tingin mo sa akin after i tell you things. that's okay. i was hoping you could give me the answers anyway.

i talk to an imaginary therapist in my head. it's the "thinking" part ng utak ko. since i can't afford a therapist, i have to make do with what i could.

i try to think of him less you know. maybe i'm not doing enough for it to happen though. i mean, i enrolled in masters for goodness sake para lang makalimot, ma-distract. i can't remember what i'm supposed to be telling you...

anyway, when things happen it feels incomplete. gusto kong ikwento sa kanya yung mga nangyayari. gusto kong sabihin. at the end of the day, i want to call him and listen to him tell me about his day and i'll tell him mine. but that's not going to happen, right? not anymore.

i have to figure out a way to be okay. because if i don't, i'll break over and over. everyday. every time.

i still haven't removed yung do not disturb mode sa phone ko. i can't. if i do and a notification comes in, i'd want it to be from him. and if it turns out na it's not... i'm not sure i could look at it and not cry. the very thought of it is already making me cry. hindi ko pa rin matanggal yung do not disturb mode. i'm not sure i'd want notifications to come in if it's not from him

[letterstomaxene]

Hi, anak.

Si nanay ‘to. Of course, you know it’s nanay.

Nak, naisip ko lang bigla gawin ‘to. Just after I drank my vitamins I thought how else could I release my emotions or feelings? Who else could I talk to, without being judged? Nak, naisip kita.

Without even being sure that you’ll ever come into my life, I thought of you, Max. Bukod kay Lord, who better else can I talk to kung ‘di ikaw? Kahit walang kasiguraduhan na mababasa mo ‘to in the future Max, I’ll write thinking that you will.

So, ano bang gusto i-share ni nanay? Kakatapos lang ng basketball game ng tatay mo, nak. Well, at least I want him to be your tatay, kahit ex ko siya. Mahabang istorya, anak. ‘Pag pinagkaloob ni Lord na siya maging tatay mo, I’ll tell you all about it. Ayoko pang isipin na hindi siya ang magiging tatay mo, Max. Gaya ng sabi ko, mahabang istorya. Just like with your existence, I’ll write thinking that he’ll be your tatay.

Going back, nanalo team ni tatay ngayong gabi. Maganda ang gameplay nila ngayon, anak. Nakalaro rin nang matagal ang tatay mo at naka-shoot siya nang madaming beses. Magaling si tatay, nak. Love niya magbasketball. Nak, when you grow up, let’s play with tatay, ha? Pagka-isahan natin siya. Kaya natin ‘yun.

What did I do today? Sinimulan ko ‘yung in-enrollan kong training sa LMS ng CSC. Good for one day training nga lang ‘yun at introduction/overview lang, pero information overload na agad ako kahit 40% pa lang progress ko, haha. Tapos ayun, nung malapit na ‘ko matapos sa Module 1, biglang nag-relapse ang nanay mo, nak, hahaha. Sige ba ang iyak ko. Naisip ko na nga lang, “simpleng training na lang ‘di ko pa maraos nang ‘di umiiyak, pa’no pa kaya ‘pag nag-Master’s ako?” Sobrang lakas kasi ng tama ko sa tatay mo, Max. 1 year na kami hiwalay pero ito, hindi ko pa rin tanggap. Nilalamon ako ng mga pala-isipan ko, nak. Paglaki mo, isusumbong ko sa’yo lahat ng sakit na binigay sa’kin ni tatay mo. Ta’s reresbakan natin siya, hm?

Anak, kakampihan mo si nanay, ‘di ba? Excited na ‘kong dumating ka. Alam mo ba 2nd day ng regla ko ngayon? Haha.

I love you, Max. Can you also hug me tonight as I go to sleep?

[ishliebedich]

Hindi ko alam kung paano ko i-explain ‘yung nararamdaman ko ngayon. Sobrang daming iniisip, ang bigat sa pakiramdam. Minsan gusto ko na lang huminto sandali, pero hindi puwede. Ang daming kailangang gawin, ang daming kailangang isipin.

Nurse ako. Matagal ko nang gustong kumuha ng NCLEX (Nursing Licensure exam for US, since yung license ko for Philippines lang), pero ngayon lang siya naging totoo sa akin. 2018 pa ‘yung last board exam ko. Sobrang tagal na. And now, after years, heto ako, nagre-review habang may full-time job. Hindi ko rin mabigyan ng full attention ‘yung pag-aaral ko kasi sa day off lang ako nakakapag-review. Sapat na ba ‘to? Hindi ko alam. Pero natatakot ako na baka hindi.

Ang gastos pa! Ilang beses ko nang napaisip, “Worth it pa ba ‘to? Paano kung mag-fail ako? Magbabayad na naman ako ulit?” Ang dami nang lumabas sa bulsa ko. $300+ sa documents, $350 sa review center, tapos ngayon kailangan ko na namang magbayad ng $350 para sa ATT (Authorization to Test) at exam scheduling. Hindi ‘to basta-basta lang.

At hindi lang NCLEX ang nasa isip ko. May thesis pa ako! Ito na lang ang kulang para grumaduate sa master’s degree ko, pero ang hirap! Wala akong mahanap na hospital na papayag magpa-research. Naiisip ko nang i-drop, pero sayang naman ‘yung dalawang taon ng pag-aaral ko! Mataas pa naman grades ko, pero ano ngayon kung hindi ko matapos?

Tapos, may health issues pa ako. Alam kong hindi ko dapat masyadong ini-stress sarili ko, pero paano? Sa dami ng kailangan kong gawin, minsan hindi ko na alam kung ano uunahin ko. Nakakapagod, ang bigat sa katawan at isip. Minsan parang gusto ko na lang magpahinga nang matagal, pero hindi ko rin kaya. Hindi ko alam kung kaya pa ng katawan ko, pero kailangan eh.

Tapos, kahapon, dumating ‘yung email. Approved na ‘yung application ko. Kailangan ko na lang magbayad at mag-book ng exam. Dapat ba akong matuwa? O mas lalo lang akong kabahan?

Sa dami ng iniisip ko, binuksan ko na lang ‘yung Bible app ko. At doon ko nabasa ang Joshua 1:9:

"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go."

Be strong, have courage daw. We face various challenges and uncertainties. In these moments, it's easy to feel overwhelmed and be discouraged. However, God is with us. His presence is not conditional or temporary but a constant source of strength and encouragement. It is normal to feel fear or doubt, but we must choose to trust God's promises despite those feelings.

We are not alone. I am not alone.

Parang sinampal ako ng verse na ‘to. Ang daming beses na akong natakot sa future, pero bakit ko nakakalimutan na hindi ko naman ‘to kailangang harapin mag-isa? Kahit gaano kahirap, kahit gaano kabigat, hindi ako nag-iisa sa laban na ‘to.

Kinakabahan pa rin ako. Pero pipiliin kong lumaban.

Kasi minsan, ang tapang hindi ‘yan ‘yung walang takot. Ang tunay na tapang, ‘yung kahit natatakot ka, tuloy ka pa rin.

At kung andito ka rin sa ganitong stage ng buhay mo, gusto ko lang sabihin sa ‘yo: hindi ka nag-iisa. Laban lang. Isang araw, babalikan natin ‘to at mapapangiti tayo, kasi kinaya natin. 💛