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Hey now, Let her cook!
#dungeon meshi#chilchuck tims#senshi#laios touden#marcille donato#izutsumi#oyasumi punpun#<- In case you are wondering what the source for the little bird guy is.#Yeah that's right. I'm back to my extremely obscure crossover BS.#Punpun is one of those series that falls under the category of 'Good! but I cannot responsibly recommend this to anyone."#If Dungeon Meshi is like a friend asking you to go on a quick errand and you accidently go on a life changing roadtrip -#Punpun is your friend asking to go on a quick errand and they pull up to the vet and tell you your dog is being put down.#Then they explode into sludge. Melting your car. You hitchhike back but the person who picked you up is an axe murderer.#I could not finish it. My friends who did say it was good. But agree it was for the best I did not finish it.#Hey speaking of tone twists...We are one episode away from one of my favourite chapters being animated!#WHO'S READY FOR THE SENSHI BACKSTORY! WHO IS READY TO CRY!#ME! I AM! I spooked my flatmate with how energetic I was this morning. I'm vibrating with energy I was not designed to contain.#I should talk about today's episode here: It was very good. I love how they animated the familiars.#And!!! Anime only people now are in the loop on the Chilchuck lore. Part 1 of many. He still contains multitudes.#They all do to be honest! If this episode told us anything it was that we still don't know these characters as well as we think!#See you guys next week. I'll be inconsolable.
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I feel like the universal David Tennant Fan experience is watching Takin' Over the Asylum for David, then staying and being devastated by the plot and the other characters (as well as Campbell obviously)
#NO SPOILERS I'M ONLY ON EP6#i'm so obsessed though#it's made me cry several times#fergus :(((#AND FRANCINE WITH THE CATS I SOBBED#takin over the asylum#taking over the asylum#david tennant#campbell bain#eddie mckenna#francine boyle#fergus mackinnon#rosalie garrity#ALSO CAN WE TALK ABOUT THE MENTAL HEALTH REPRESENTATION IN THIS FOR THE TIME?????
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guys I've just been to the marauders haters side of Pinterest.
I'm not okay
the fact is that they were kind of right in some things but those things are literally the reason why fanon is better
and as a fanon marauders fan that shit really made me want to cry cause why do people hate on James and Remus, say that Sirius is totally straight and a bigot and collectively decided to completely ignore the existence of Mary McDonald?
why do people hate on Wolfstar?????
oh my god I'm never gonna recover
#I'm traumatized#my poor sweet Remus#he and James deserve the world#the jegulus and jily hate made me cry#they also hated on Conan Gray wtf 😭😭😭#let's not talk about when I ended up in the hp vs pjo comments section and there were people defending jk rowling's ideas#BROOO#why do people need to hate so much?#also if you hate on James for being a bully you can't defend Snape or Draco and they still do so uhm#but that's ok cause I'm a FANON marauders era fan and I'M NOT associated with canon marauders or whatever the fuck is that#hating on the idea of Sirius refusing to wear anything feminine like crop tops was a crime scene to witness#I'm sure most of them only saw the movies and if not that means humanity is fucked up really bad#James Potter#Sirius black#mary mcdonald#regulus black#Remus lupin#nymphadora tonks#lily Evans#barty crouch jr#evan rosier#pandora rosier#jegulus#Jily#marylily#wolfstar#marauders incorrect quotes#dead gay wizards from the 70s#marauders era#fanon
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Okay so, serial women abuser NG saw the Corinthian manipulating women in the first season and went "wow! So hot, that's just how I flirt! He's pan now" and everyone has to be cool with that and accept that they turned a gay icon straight just to save on CGI for Matthew? Yeah fuck NG and Netflix the character belongs to fan artists and Alan Moore now fuck this shit
#the corinthian#the sandman season 2#the sandman#and I'm bi! I love good male bi rep#but this is not it#I'm gonna go cry again#I only activated my Tumblr so I could bitch about this so unfollow me now#this will be all I talk about#probably forever
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hopping up on my special interest soap box to say: i think we as a fandom should discuss the satire in danganronpa V3 more.
idk if it is just me but i have always viewed this game as a satire, if only just because of the ending. it exagerrates the formula set up by the previous games to criticize the current state of media and media consumption. i know a lot of people in the fandom don't like V3, and i think that is by design. it is ridiculous, it is over the top, the ending is a punch to the face, but it's all on purpose. you're supposed to be uncomfortable because it is a satire. (of course you don't have to like the game, i just think it is intentionally like that)
the whole theme of fiction vs reality is put in there intentionally to make fun of the fandomization of danganronpa, as well as to poke at game studios and companies that put out media in general. tsumugi, in my interpretation, is representative of danganronpa fans (hence why she's the ultimate cosplayer). she is the mastermind. you aren't supposed to like her. her insistence on the idea that "fiction doesn't affect reality" is a direct criticism of that exact idea in real life fandom. the idea that this is the "53rd" danganronpa is directly making fun of other pieces of media "jumping the shark" because fans insist upon it. this is not to say you can't like tsumugi, i think you absolutely can, i just think her character represents some key ideas relating to the satire of the game.
this is why everything in the game is SO over the top. kirumi being the prime minister, korekiyo both having DID AND being a serial killer in a reference to the first game, EVERYONE'S over the top backstories (gonta and keebo come to mind), it's all acting as an exaggeration of common tropes (albeit highly problematic in several areas, not trying to excuse those aspects by any means).
and then there's kaede. they set her up as a strong female protagonist, only to kill her chapter 1 to be replaced by a male protag. on paper this is very misogynistic, but in the context of satire it is an exaggeration of the danganronpa formula. of course we couldn't have a female protag in a main line game, of course it would have to be a man. shuichi having a secret ahoge only adds to this; it's making fun of the trope. the best part is that i truly do love both of these characters, and their role in the satire doesn't diminish the excellent writing that went into them and the story.
this entirely shapes how i view this game. it manages to tell an incredibly compelling story with very complex characters while making fun of itself at the same time (as a good satire should). i know a lot of people have said they feel like the writers of v3 must have hated danganronpa, and while i see exactly what they mean i don't think that's necessarily true. i think it was an intentional choice as a work of satire.
i can see an intense love behind the writing of this game. the characters are rich and the story is compelling. the ending just serves to send home the point they wanted to make. i think it adds a really beautiful perspective to the danganronpa series as a whole.
#hope this rant makes sense. i am so crazy about this game.#drv3#danganronpa v3#danganronpa v3 killing harmony#danganronpa#xe speaks!#look i really don't know if this is a common interpretation#and i'm not saying it's the only way to interpret it#but this is my current special interest and i must speak my truth#i would like to add that i am from the US and my perspective on this subject is likely unintentionally very western#and i'm sure i am missing cultural context#but i am trying to come at this from a literary analysis perspective#heart emoji <3#i could also talk about the treatment of queer characters but i fear i would need a lot more textual evidence so i will hold out#scared to post this y'all better be nice to me or i'll cry
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Can't remember if I've talked about it here or just in fic wips, but I like to HC that Dante is Actually Cursed levels of unlucky. Like, it isn't just that he *seems* kind of unlucky based on his circumstances, he's "loses 85% of the time on a 50% chance" kind of unlucky. He *will* consistently get tails 8 or 9 times out of 10 when flipping a coin and trying to get heads, or rolll a 1 or 2 five times in a row when playing a game where you want to high roll (reasons to destroy the DMC4 Dice, anyone?)
Lady and Trish actually discretely kept track a few times and did the math to come up with this number before telling him. They noticed it mostly applied to things that depend on pure luck/random chance like games with draws and rolls and so on, but he's had enough weird cases of being dealt a bad hand by fate that they're pretty sure it impacts everything to some extent. Dante mostly takes it in stride though, deciding that there's nothing he can do about it so he'll just do as he pleases. So what if he has crummy luck; he'll make up for it with skill. Or just take advantage of it. Maybe at some point he and the ladies go to a bar where they egg him into joining a game where they bet against him because it's pretty much guaranteed he'll lose and they'll profit big time. (Unless of course the "bad luck" comes in the form of him doing uncharacteristically well to the point that Lady and Trish lose their money because Dante suddenly couldn't stop rolling 6s. Bad luck comes in many forms, and some of them can seem good on the surface!)
Nero, on the other hand, is a "wins 70% of the time on a 50% chance" kind of guy because a ton of his skills are named after gambling stuff. Yes Dante has the Jackpot phrase, but otherwise he doesn't have the same sort of skill list so I think it would be hilarious if both Dante and Vergil have terrible luck while Nero's somehow wraps around to being pretty lucky. I think Dante would find it funny while Vergil would (not-so-) secretly be jealous.
#dmc#devil may cry#erubabbles#erurandomness#eruhcs#hcs#many ideas here#also i didn't originally even connect the two when i first developed this hc#but my brother was talking to me about the wheel of time recently and now i'm thinking about that...#reverse matt situation#also i'm only at book 6 of wot so if by chance someone has read that and wants to reference stuff i'm not done...
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"I decided it's my break day today, Oh coincidentally, I'm gonna sit here, and watch you work." also it's too cute how Nemo just came run at me whenever i sat on a bench
#my time at sandrock#mtas#mtas unsuur#mtas builder#mtas nemo#fanart#FHSDHdhsds tbh HIS PINNING WAS EXCITING#but after that HE REALLY DOESN'T HAVE ANY OTHER STORIES at ALL to tell during DATE HELP fhasdhdhsd#he is JUST like Sebek I'M CRYINg @sebek stop talking about ur malleus sama guard duty @unsuur stop talking only about the civil corps fshds#i'm dying my heart is faltering from the monotony; but just like the rule of thumb on every fandom; it depends to us to enrich the characte#so now i'm trying to enhance my delusional level & it's working right now when i sat there & watched him work#Maybe I was HASTY because HE WAS the first fish that BIT; andeverygamehasthatcharacterthatissoveryeasytogetbutwithlessdepthinthem#BUT thinking back#HE is REALLY A NICE GUY#WITH A NICE HEART that's just IN THE RIGHT PLACE; and HE IS FUNNY TO BOOT fshdshdj#i actually cried when he talked about what his proudest stack of stones meant to him#because the value in it hits too close to home#and when he said pls tell me if i no longer have a good personality bcs i would like to be the first one to know#AND DON'T GET ME STARTED ON THE FACE ON THE LEMON SOUP FSHDHSSFHSDH#I FELL RIGHT THEN RIGHT THERE#I FELL FOR HIM FOR ALL THE RIGHT REASONS#HE IS TOO CUTE AND SINCERE AND QUIRKY#DID YOU GUYS SEE WHEN HE JUST STRAIGHT WENT TO BED AFTER PAINTING FHSDHSDHSD I CAN'T; I LOST IT RIGHT THERE#everytime he said SET THE MOOD I'M DONE FHSDHSDH i am not sure if i should be glad or not that the music he plays when painting never retur#even when he said he's gonna SET THE MOOD again FHADHS it's way TOO FUNNY I JUST CAN'T
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#Enemies To Lovers To Exes To Best Friends To Endgame= Slow Burn Perfection (A Perfect Glow Up)
#when i say they have one of the best enemies to lovers slowburns of all time this is what I'm talking about#the growth#the parallels#its all just chefs kiss#only the best for the best#the glow up is unreal#i love them so damn much your honor#faves#cute things#love#some things never change#hear me sobbing#im not crying you are#started from the bottom now we're here#gif#gifs#gifset#pacey x joey#joey x pacey#pacey witter#joey potter#katie holmes#joshua jackson#dawsons creek#they are perfection
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Arawn headcannons?
Hi, anon!!!! Arawn beloved!!!! God, I love him. I think he's neat and also, anybody who is a fellow dog lover gets brownie points.
Okay, so, Arawn to me is a full-formed God straight out the gate. He doesn't have a family, really unlike say the family of Llŷr and the family of Dôn. He, to me, is similar to Cerridwen and Aerfen in that they make their families because they're vital concepts to the Celts if that makes sense? Like Death (Arawn), Warfare/Fate (Aerfen), and Awen (that's basically like the act of creation in Welsh culture. So Cerridwen's cauldron is the cauldron of Awen. It's roughly translated to inspiration or divine inspiration and it a big deal tbh) are vital things so they took shape pretty quickly. (I'd also say that Amaethon and Gofannon were fully-formed instead of growing up into adulthood but, as can be seen with Dylan Ail Don, gods probably grew into adults like within a day. Like those t-shirts you have to wet so they expand.)
ANYWAYS. He has a wife called Alaw (means melody. It's also the name of a river which features in the Second Branch of the Mabinogion) and she's the deity of said river (I've made that up, but it's cuz Annwfn is associated with water and I was like 'Arawn marries a river deity' to preserve that theme) and, yes, she's the lady who Pwyll has to share a bed with for a year and gets super pissed off when Arawn's like 'BUT BABE WE'VE ALWAYS TALKED' and she's like 'NOT ANYMORE, BITCH, WHERE THE FUCK WERE YOU?!' Anyways, they really do love each other and also they have a daughter called Morwen (sea white) who marries a guy and they have a kid called Alwen (also river name) who gets together with Urien Rheged and Modron in a menage á trois)
Originally, I headcannoned him as like a guy who could shape-shift into a 'black scrap' that was a bit ravenish so he could attack those he hated but he's now more fluid and water-based because of the whole Annwfn deal. Plus, idk a God of death being foreboding because of thr fact he's water-based is scary when you think about it! Water is incredibly destructive and nurturing and Arawn can be both. Like, dude is benevolent in The Mabinogion for the most part but when Pwyll first meets him you as the reader think 'JESUS, MY BOI PENDEFID DYFED'S ABOUT TO BE MURKED' because he just shows up and is like 'U SET UR HOUNDS UPON MY STAG.'
He and Alaw met because Arawn can use any river as pathways to his domain and he was out hunting and thr dogs were like 'A PERSON!!!!' Those dogs meet-cuted their master. He just walks on water with all his hounds behind him like a mini procession whenever they wanna hunt.
He is, as discussed, beesties with the Pwyll fam. I know this, I believe this. If the family of Pwyll has one fan it's me, if the family of Pwyll has a hundred fans I'm one of them, if the fam of Pwyll has no fans I'm dead and typing this from my grave. Pryderi sends Arawn letters CONSTANTLY. Arawn still dines with Pwyll's shade.
Chill guy. Any dog he sees he must pet.
He's very ambivalent about the family of Dôn. Like, Pryderi nearly died because of Gwydion (becauss of the one strike thing. I know it should be over running water, but I think the water would spit Pryderi back out because Arawn Does Not Want Him Dead unlike Hafgan. In my book Pryderi doesn't die because that's my brother in booboo and I LOVE him) and he went to Y Felen Rhyd to retrieve Pryderi's body instead of having Gwyn ap Nudd do it so Pryderi could get treatment from Cerridwen, Taliesin, and a tiny string bean of an Emrys/Myrddin.
He loves poetry. His job comes with the perk of having every poet who has ever died in his hall. Of course Arawn's gonna have poetry read to him every night. He even listens to Alaw read her pierty and she's BANGING AT POETRY. (Basing her on Gwerful Mechain, my absolute beloved. Women absolutely did master the Welsh bardic craft and I wish we had more of their works surviving) He commissions poetry for his and Alaw's wedding and gets Alaw to do it so his court knows how fuckin great his wife is at poetry because he's like 'EVERYBODY PLS LOOK AT MY WIFE OKAY SHUT UP SHE'S PERFORMING'
Is besties with Llŷr who is now, uh, chained up by Euroswydd somewhere in a silver chair (my invention idk how boi is chained up because MYTHS DON'T TELL) in a dungeon away from the sea. Euroswydd doesn't know that Arawn's been sending river water to Llŷr on the down low so he can keep his strength up. Although it's not the sea, Llŷr is endlessly grateful.
Arawn has met Cigfa because Pryderi was like 'u gotta meet my third dad' soon after they were married and basically trekked the poor girl to the Afon Cych and was like 'dw, dw, dw, I'm not a weirdo but I've been telling Arawn all about u' ans she's like THE GOD OF THE FUCKING DEAD?! And this close -> 🤏 to filing for divorce then and there. Fortunately, Arawn was like 'nice to meet u do u wanna meet my dogs and my KICKASS WIFE?' and Cigfa was like 'dogs 🥰🥰🥰'
(What if I told u she walks out of there with two Cŵn Annwfn pups who are only a few days old with the reddest ears and whitest coats? What then?)
The whole Hafgan thing is turned into Annwfn's biggest propaganda spin ever. Arawn is like 'Pwyll and I defeated Hafgan who was legit The Worst.' It's probably like Damnatio Memoriae in that no traces of Hafgan's rule over Y Gwlad y Haf exist. Arawn is absolutely ruthless in that.
Gwyn ap Nudd is Arawn's psychopomp but have you also considered be rules Annwfn whenever Arawn takes a holiday? The Wild Hunt is an exercise for the doggos at this point. Mallt-y-Nos screams because she's excited. (God, I've cutesified Welsh myth. Kill me.)
Anyways, anon hope these are good. Arawn is actually a bit more foreboding in the book. Morrígan's dead clutter his halls, he has a whole run-in with Oisín and Gwyn in a stable before he realises who they are, and murks a load of people. Also, his aura is white and red because of his hounds and also because those are Otherworldy colours.
#welsh mythology#the mabinogion#welsh myth#mabinogion#y mabinogi#y mabinogion#mabinogi#okay so like I know death should be foreboding but I don't think of it as being so. It can be painful and horrid and terrible#But it can also be the exact opposite of that. Like Arawn is all of those things depending on what you get. He's prismatic.#We only see one side of him in The Mab but in celtic culture death wasn't really shameful or something to be scared of#like there's a beautiful Marwysgafn by meilyr brydydd where he talks about his approaching end and it's so incredible and intense#'But silent now are all my hero lays#Love’s poignant spell my harp no longer sways.'#I'm going to cry into my cornflakes#Idk like gwyn's thoughts on death and grief are large part of the book. It impacts so many characters in the mab and within my book that#Arawn needs to be a god who can be both tender and foreboding.#Idk like I think about death and grief a lot because of my family stuff and I've done eulogies for two of my grandparents and idk.#I always think about grief and how it influences people because it has done to me in both good and bad ways#And we wouldn't be human if we didn't try to idk reconcile with our own mortality#Anyways what the fuck am I saying jesus christ
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I can't really put it into words but Gangle throwing off her mask (ep 4) reminded me a lot of Pomni trying to get out of the exit (ep 1)
The music direction and the vibe were like same/similar but one was evil (until the door opened) and one was good (until the truck came by)? Idk what this could mean (it's 11:30pm I'm tired) but I'm thinking about it rotating it there's something there. They happen at similar timestamps too.
Also (because of the above AND the overwhelming B+ grade AND some other things) I'm thinking the circus is hitting the.. [purgatory/sisyphus/the good place/ride the cyclone/not quite truly dead yet] points in my brain. Idk tho this is just vibes! This category of things. And I think the point behind the purgatory is something to do with "correctly" completing the adventures. Which is to say incorrectly. Prove humanity by being human (unpredictable/sporadic/neurotic/angry/panicked). Or something.
Idk. Tired!
#tadc#tadc pomni#tadc gangle#the amazing digital circus#also I numbered both the eps so that if any future people come along they know which episodes I'm on about#rotating my thoughts on Jax' character too#ragatha was always giving 'oldest daughter syndrome' so idk why everyone's shocked#(I say this lovingly btw)#(bc I don't think EVERYONE is shocked I think some ppl were waiting for evidence/proof)#GOD WHY DO I CONTINUE TO TALK IN THE TAGS#I love this stupid show that makes me cry for 5 minutes at the very end only to yank me back out of it#I feel like I too am going on the adventure#also I know we've been through the zooble thing but..#wait I'm gonna make a second post#oh also sorry for the way I like to format posts it's just I find it easier to read when I create a bunch of word blocks
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i'm like trying sooo hard to work on my mental health but i still feel like i'm fucking drowning
#starting pills and they give me health issues. taking some days off hoping it'll help with burnout#but instead it just makes me panic about going back to work and want to quit#my ex and i are barely speaking anymore which is normal but makes me want to cry#and i don't know what to do because when i try to talk she ends up just ghosting me for days#and i'm trying not to be like insaneee in my head about it because like she didn't ask for me to bring it up#and she has other stuff to deal with but okay i'm insane!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#i miss my best friend and i miss my coworker who i talked to the most who left#my body feels paralyzed so even when i know things will help me manage my anxiety i have a hard time doing it because it seems overwhelming#like if i'm worried about doing my job well i can look up resources!! i can watch some free webinars!#but instead my avoidant coping skills pin me down and i don't do shit#and i never fucking thought i'd live to be 28 and i'm not even sure what the fucking point of getting this far has been#the only things i've enjoyed have been talking to people like my mom my best friend and mutuals#and making art again#those things have been nice and i'm trying to hold onto them by my claws
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leviathan book 3 summary drop???
and it's coming out in april next year?? which is somehow way sooner than i thought yet still too far away????
#shadow of the leviathan#the tainted cup#unfollow me right now this is the only thing i'm gonna talk about etc etc#“the two find themselves racing with great speed and little dignity to the scene” impeccable. no notes#and the last line about din seeing his loyalties divided???? screaming crying throwing up
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my family putting the "men" in "mental illness"
#bolo speaks#my brother putting on the same screaming-and-yelling property destruction rage performances as our dad did! 💀#and it alwayysssssss comes down to this grown ass man breaking down in tears after punching the drywall#talking about how he just can't handle his anger like the rest of us don't get angry.#like *I'm* not angry because I have to put up with unstable aggressive men! but they're the only one's who explode!#cry me a riverrrrrrrr
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Are you all aware that they are marketing Tatort Stuttgart as Crimescapes - Scales of Justice internationally and have made the most dramatic trailer possible
here is the listing which also includes the following description:
#tatort#tatort stuttgart#I'm crying actual tears because what is this#this is the sunday night show for boomers why is the trailer like this#I knew about the spatort one but I just found this one on their website#there may be even more that I didn't recognise#also I think the trailer only focuses one one case? which like. you should not watch this for the cases probably.#you will never see these people again why is the trailer focusing on them#(I haven't actually seen any of the episodes from the trailer so I can't talk about how accurate they are but yeah)#anyway this is really funny to me#op keineahnung-ichhalt#episode: hal
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#ok finally making a post about meds#I've not ever tried taking medication before. I was sorta raised with that classic 'dont rely on meds you have to learn to manage without'#I mean I was also raised with the idea that therapy is stupid unless you have 'real' trauma. and also like idk.#can't stay home from school unless your temp is over 100 or you're throwing up. etc. very suck it up mindset#so I was just really nervous to start. also of course worried about losing myself or whatever I know that's a silly fear but#it's also a common fear for a reason!!! anyways#so I finally was like 'I need to do something' when I realized I was so anxious I couldnt even get myself to go outside alone#like I just don't want to do ANYTHING alone to a detrimental effect. and it was butting into my ability to do my work...#for various reasons. but then ALSO adhd has been a constant issue with my work as well!#it is SO hard to write and draw on a weekly pace like I am without being able to focus#my whole life I've had these terrible nightmares constantly and I've always woken up constantly in the night#sleep has always been terrible so I've always dreaded going to bed.. ESPECIALLy because it didnt even make me less tired#it was more something that I just did because I had to.#but going to bed was always terrible. there have been times I was too scared to go to sleep for weeks on end...#I've been mitigating this for years of course. and recently I've been taking melatonin which has been helping too.#but I've also always struggled to get up. because I've always been EXTREMELY exhausted#but also anxious of what the day might bring... idk.#anyways it has all hit a point that I was like okay. I am doing as many coping mechanisms as I can. the psych said they were good too#but... it just has never been enough. it's never been enough to make me not tired it's never been enough to make me not scared#so I finally talked to the doc about it. and she was like youve def got smth wrong basically. which yah I know.. but yknow#anyways so I started taking wellbutrin. and I am so frustrated now. because it's WORKING#that constant looming sense of dread is gone. I'm excited to get up. I'm excited to go to bed BECAUSE I'm excited to get up#I feel like for years I've been holding on to the idea that I have to get up because I have to put something good out into the world#and I've been clinging to knowing that if nothing else. I am able to help other people feel better.#but now for the first time in my life I'm like. free of it. I didnt even know it was possible... and I'm so sad how much I've lost out on#and so frustrated how my whole life I've been told to put up with it and push through it. and treated like a failure for it being too much.#and just. It has only been 2 weeks. but the lack of anxiety is SO noticeable I'm so...#I'll never miss it. the adhd is still pretty present but like whatever. I can manage that better.#and I'm just crying because of all this combined.#I just. I hope I get to finally be the best I can be now. for myself but also for you guys!
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Nooooo don't think about all the ways your momma has betrayed you just go to bed
#yesterday we got into a stupid argument bc i was like. ''i played majora's mask on the wii as a kid''#and she was like ''no you didnt. thats impossible. we never owned it on the wii''#and when i was like no i definitely remember playing it she accused me of gaslighting her!! straight up ''im so tired of you gaslighting me#the only logical explanation as to why you remember playing majora's mask and i dont is that you are remembering wrong''#so naturally i messaged my dad like ''hey did we ever own majora's mask on the wii'' and he was like yeah#!!!#this is such a profoundly stupid topic to argue about i know but we spent like half the day arguing about it#and i know its because my mom has absolutely 0 trust in my ability to remember shit#ever since we had that fight a few months ago where i brought up the times she got mad at me and tried to drag me#out of the room by my hair + the time she took down my bedroom door and literally beat my ass at 16 because i didnt want to talk to her abt#her bf after we had already been talking for an hour and i was crying and upset#she's just been like. ''anything i dont remember that you say happened is made up because youre a liar and youre crazy''#like she genuinely said i was a liar during that big fight and then tried to backtrack with#''im so concerned for your health... youve never acted like this or said these crazy things before''#and ever since then its just. nothing about my childhood is too small or benign for her to just trust me on#everything must have happened exactly as she remembers it up to and including that i never played any video games on the wii#if she wasnt home 🤔 but yes. /I'm/ the crazy one and also the gaslighter
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