#metaphoricalwords

[sweetnovember95]

Thank you @secretlifeofarwen for tagging me😊

Rules: Answer 20 questions and tag 20 followers you'd like to get to know better.

Name: Phylicia

Nicknames: Phie

Zodiac Sign: Scorpio

Height: 5'6 or 168cm

Languages: English

Nationality: Canadian

Favourite Fruit: Grapes

Favourite Scent: Tropical Fruit or Dark Chocolate

Favourite Colour: Purple

Coffee, tea or hot chocolate: Coffee

Average Hours of Sleep: 5-7

# blankets you sleep with: 1

Favourite fictional Character: Princess Shuri (Black Panther)

Dream Trip: England ( to visit family)

Last Book Read: The Book of Night Women

Blog Created: 2013 or 2014. Its all a blur at this point lol

Tagging: @autumnsdaily @justonelostme @daddyshornylittletoy @mgn12 @smolboudinball @the-worlds-personal-playmate @metaphoricalwords @crazyblackkchick @thebootygod @gentlemanalways @noemy265 @daye5363 @hellarama @drugs-r-bad-mmkay @conchfritters-n-spanishlimes @checkmatenowroyalty @ginascorpio88 @wickedmamii @hopeless-changing-over-time @ceecee111

[tiredlilvrgo]

Anyways @metaphoricalwords looks ETHEREAL in her new profile pic perhaps I cried

[richhomieyajirobe]

Tagged by @metaphoricalwords

Age: 22

Born: October 7

Current time: 1:35pm

Last drink: Sobe water

Easiest person to talk to: @rosecoloredjules

Favorite song : Justin Scott by big KRIT

Grossest memory: my friend got blackout drunk and thought my room was the bathroom 😑

Horror yes or horror no? Noooope, hell no

In love: 😅

Jealous of people? Nah

Ke$ha? Ain't she the hot mess version of Taylor Swift?

Love at first sight or should I walk by again?: love takes time but you kinda know within the first day if it'll get there

Middle name: Washington👨🏾‍💼

Number of siblings: 0

One wish: peace of mind

Person you called last: @em-pa-thy

Question you’re always asked: ain't you scared of falling when you skate?

Reason to smile: all the wonderful people in my life. Skateboarding too tho.

Time you woke up: 8 am

Underwear colour: navy blue

Vacation destination: afropunk in London

Worst habit: procrastination

X-rays: cost $260-$460, varying by provider and geographic location

Favorite food: chicken and rice

Zodiac sign: libra

I tag @rosecoloredjules @princessfailureee @justlalaloveeit @ksoyeahnxssv

[cherry-spiced]

Q, R, Y 😊

Q ~ questions always asked?

“is that your real hair”

R ~ reasons to smile?

The warmth of the sun on a cold winters day or like when you get to see a dog

Y ~ your last hug?

with my bf, he’s not feeling the great atm and is in definite need of more xoxo

[princess-adronitis]

" You're so strong"

As if I had any other option, every time I breathe I live with the knowledge that some aches don't go away

Was I supposed to add him to the never -ending list of pain? Should I cry or try to feel something again?

or pretend as if it never mattered?

You are strong when you have to be

You're strong when you have a heart that's constantly fractured

there is no remedy , no condolences but time

And many times, I kept the shelf warm until the realized I'm not what they wanted to find

There are promises , there are futures, there is love... but no guarantees.

You say you want to be as strong as me...?

I wouldn't wish the suffering it took on anybody

- jm

7/14/20 ©

( @metaphoricalwords )

[princess-adronitis]

And I will love you when it's morning and you don't want to get out of bed... I'll bring the breakfast to you instead.

I will love you in the fall afternoon, when work is too much to take. I'll rack my brain, and find a way to make you laugh 'til your sides ache

I will love you in the evening, when the pain calls your name and you're drowning it out

I will love you when the tears come at night , without forcing you to tell me what they're about.

Instead I'll wipe each tear gently with care,

And hold you close so you know I'm there

- (@metaphoricalwords) ©

10/12/19

[princess-adronitis]

Call it what it is

Don't tiptoe on terrified feet, when describing what you mean

In your voice I hear confusion, as if we've never encountered this dark scene

' it's back. Its back'

But what is it?

Like the feeling of swimming blindly and tiredly in thick tar water... At that point it doesnt matter what you 'taught her'

They keep avoiding the name, as if saying it will propel the darkness faster than it already is

A well scripted text, a strained hug and kiss

(What takes so long for the understanding of it?)

If they had it their way they'd skirt around it all the way to the wooden casket

Then drop their mediocre petals of love,

Crying to God above

About a tragedy there was help for

(Call it what it is, or don't bother me anymore)

jm

09/19 ©

(@metaphoricalwords)

[princess-adronitis]

What it's like to miss you

I miss you because it's 8am and I'm making breakfast and you're driving to work but this time you don't call and put me on speakerphone to ask how I slept

I miss you when I'm at work in an endless sea of fake smiles and orders and I can't text you while on break like i used to and tell you something annoying or funny someone did

I miss seeing you at the train station waiting for me, the summer sun making you squint and you'd wave to me even though most people would see you... But you know that I'm not most because I don't bother to wear my glasses

I miss when you would bear hug me and slightly lift me off my feet.

I miss how you always had something to tell me and you would go off on a tangent but then halfway through remember you hadn't greeted me with a kiss and pull me in.

I miss you when I see something you'd like, knowing I'll never buy it and give it to you

I miss the way any and everything felt like an adventure simply because we were together.

I miss the way your hand felt naturally right in mine, or how we'd laugh at the same thing for the millionth time because to us it's still funny days, even weeks later

I miss being my real self with you, I miss not having my walls up. I miss experiencing real trust

I just miss everything about what used to be us

- jm ©

August 2019

( @metaphoricalwords)

[princess-adronitis]

Thoughts of love

I see all the symptoms...

I think I'm in love with you

My eyes see the world once more bright

My smile for you melts the ice in my eyes, for you I'd shine day or night if it meant hearing your wonderful laugh

I think I'm in love with you

When I see you I can suddenly breathe, and feel so relaxed

You pull me into your arms and the whole world begins to pass

It's only me and you

In our own universe, own planet

Your heart becomes my goal, and I know must have it

In the sea of faces yours stands out to me,

Yours is the only one I truly wish to see

I was never one to think about fate or destiny but right now I think I'm starting to...

- j.m

August 4th, 2019. ©

( @metaphoricalwords)

[princess-adronitis]

Hard Lessons

I learned from a young age there's such a thing as too sweet

I've watched them gobble me up and then pick me from their teeth

In my nights full of anger, I'd lay there and seethe

Because I learned I'm easy to love, and eager to please

... But too hard to keep

- jo

(@metaphoricalwords)

07/21/2017  ©

[princess-adronitis]

"When it rains it pours, and when it pours, it floods "

- a series of unfortunate events indeed

(via @metaphoricalwords)

[princess-adronitis]

Maybe it's better this way

Because I am just an emptying ballon zooming all around the room

Seemingly fun and exciting but the life is leaving too quickly

Maybe I was naïve to think it could be you and me

You couldn't have loved something translucent, and sometimes barely there

I've broken so many times, my love might've feel like air

You deserved stability, and I deserved someone that would truly love me

(and I can't hate you for not staying to find out)

The clock struck 12, you say you feel your dreams are sprinting

And that you must follow them, or run out of time

(in your beautiful, overly practical mind)

And to an extent, so am I

But we could've faced the whole world together

- jm

09/24/2019 ©

( @metaphoricalwords)

[princess-adronitis]

Sister's keeper

You meant the word to insult... But I wouldn't have to "keep her" if someone else would

I wouldn't be so protective if you did as you should

---------

Don't be mad at me because you never bothered to express, all the resentment lodged in your chest

You say my fire is costly, but dear it's always well spent

I know where all the pieces of me went

Why do you think we prefer our separate lanes? Because like the Giver I carried both mine and then your pain, and now you're expecting my mind to be tame

I'm not sorry for being your protector, just wished you would admit

That if you're ever angry, I'm the last person who deserves it

On an axis I made things revolve around your sea

Because you mean so much to me

What did it give me? The life to see you thrive, to see you gain peace. So pardon me if I'm out of it or half asleep

Because I was dreaming up your happiness, the reward for all I keep.

- j. m 05/23/19. ©

( @metaphoricalwords)

[princess-adronitis]

Sometimes that lack of permancy in life gets into my head...seizing my attention

I think of butterflies; how I fear their too delicate wings falling apart the moment they touch me.

Maybe the fear is deeper than that. They represent change and maybe I resent that, because I'm always aching for stable ground.

Lying on the ground I know clouds will pass by, and the seasons will follow in order but life will not. From one Fall to the next different leaves fall, different hearts break.

I wonder what it would take to stay the same.

- (@metaphoricalwords) ©

[princess-adronitis]

She asked : do you think you don't belong?

I turned on the mic and gave her my song

A wistful melody of heaven being my home

Or a wish to see God himself because I feel so alone

And that they say it's a sin for me to see Him on my own

So I wait for Him to come for me someday

To give me wings and a permanent place to stay,

And maybe He'll grant me the duty of helping make the sun rise

Chasing the darkness away

- jm

09/29/19. ©

(@metaphoricalwords)

[princess-adronitis]

Closed fist

Unclench

Your hands at the stench of your own past coming to greet you

Am I the common denominator in all that has happened to you?

Maybe if my heart hadn't been so wide all those times

You wouldn't put it all on me,

when you fail...unable to find your definition of happy

Sometimes I feel like only a pawn, a chess piece

Sacrifice my life for yours,

Give you my sleep

I know if the bond rots from the outside in,

To you will I become worthless then; as your frustrations grow, your misplaced anger becoming relentless

With a closed fist I hold my suitcase close

Inside it holds my few treasures and clothes

(the ones we love trample us the most)

Unclench

I'm tense,

Always in an in between,

The reality that nobody ever fully wants me (I have to want myself)

Trenches in my hands, I open my palms

Dusting the dreams off the shelf

If it's time to go the door must be pushed right now

It's never before opened by itself

- jm

08/04/2019 ©

(@metaphoricalwords)