#mild/borderling OSAS

[feisty-yordle]

ever since i started telling myself "youre not dying" during my suffocation sleep paralysis nightmares ive been having them less, just like the internet said would happen

but it feels like cheating!

like im trying to tell myself "hey youre worried about it, please deal with this" and im reacting "nah if i keep calm and lie to myself then i can just glitch the dream into not happening"

but because im having the dream less from the hack, im waaaat less convinced im actually struggling in my sleep because of breathing issues or whatever because if i was, some mind magic wouldnt affect the dream frequency

and one of the last times i had the dream i couldnt be arsed to get out of bed or care anymore and i went back to sleep and slept a wonderful forever nap which never happens...

so i guess i learned some things anyway? and am now coping better?