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Listening to BLOOM by Doechii as a grounding exercise

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I’m not proud of it but I was adamantly pro-life in high school (I was a cradle catholic round trad catholics & I’m a very different person now). The thing that really convinced me otherwise and eventually made me prochoice was essentially this argument in the form of The Famous Violinist: Thought experiment. I had it explained to me really well in one of Abigail from Philosophy Tube’s video on the topic .

in light of the texas abortion ban here’s a reminder to stop debating what counts as a human, baby, or life with pro-lifers because that is not a debate you can win. you can not win a philosophical debate about what counts as a person, and you will not change their minds.

what can be proven is that in no situation under united states law is an individual legally obligated to lend their body or organs for the sake of another life. 

4.5 million people each year are in need of blood transfusion, the entire process of donating blood takes a little over an hour, it’s free, and a single pint of blood can save up to 3 peoples lives, but there is no legal obligation or requirement to donate blood in place. 

it is illegal to take organs from deceased peoples’ bodies without permission. CORPSES. bodily integrity is prioritized by law, even after death.

it doesn’t fucking matter whether a fetus is a person, whether a fetus is alive, whether a fetus has a soul. it literally doesn’t matter. pro-lifers set up the argument through that lens (hence their name) to evoke empathy and pity and take the focus away from the actual process of pregnancy, which changes a person’s body FOREVER. that is not an exaggeration. whether the pregnancy is complicated and high-risk or totally smooth sailing, the birthing person will physically never be the same. if they’re lucky, they’ll come out of it with weight gain, differently shaped breasts, and changes to the cervix/vagina. if they aren’t, there’s a fucking laundry list of potential complications that could arise, that may eventually fix themselves, need surgical or therapeutic intervention, or never go away, like varicose veins, separation of the abdominal muscles, incontinence, prolapse, diabetes, postpartum depression, and chronic pain, just off the top of my head. and this makes no mention of the very real possibility of income disruption, as well as the financial cost of giving birth, and the chance of fucking death, which is even higher for underserved communities like black women.

there is no basis for a governing body forcing an individual to lend their body or organs for the sake of another life. that is the argument. period the end.

[ignorantsackofeyeballs]

Behold my lesbian daughter

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Dickinson was great cause Emily and Sue are like my two brain cells lesbian brain cells oscillating at frequencies unknown to man.

Emily: my family sucks and are abusive but I love them.

Sue: Emily runaway let’s raise this child as ours.

Emily: but my poems?!!! I crave all the whimsy of cottagecore but none of the domesticity.

Sue & emily: Makingout

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Dune is such an interesting book cause how do people have any meaningful discussion about it without acknowledging the cultures in North Africa and west Asia that it directly draws from. Your prophet is called Muad'Dib and has a Jihad. Like it really doesn’t take Einstein to draw any conclusions.

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Love this axis these are my thoughts for some of the locked tomb women.

So I was thinking about Evil Women, as one does, and I think I've cracked the code. There's a taxonomy here, and they all fit into it somewhere.

I present to you: The Axis of Female Murderers:

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I don’t believe in soulmates, I don’t believe love is determined by fate or destiny. I believe that we choose who we love, that there’s a bit of carnal desire but most of it is loyalty and choosing someone over and over and over again. I like the Greek’s idea of soulmates though, that when we are created our beings are split in two. Although I think my heart is fractured not just in half but splintered. Not in clean chunks that could be glued together like kintsugi vase but decimated into rumble. That each piece of it is lost to me but held by my friends and family. That even if my family were never to talk to me again they would still hold those pieces.

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I don’t need trust. I don’t need love. I just need someone to kiss me then hold a knife to my chest, threatening to cut into my heart to further their political plans.

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Permeability of the soul

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Not sure if this is under the ‘gifted’ kid umbrella. I think it’s also important to acknowledge the social factors that go into getting you into that top class. I went to a decent school, that my parents paid too much money for me to go to and I under constant pressure to academically perform so they weren’t ‘wasting’ they’re money. I was threatened from like age 8 if I was best utilising my education to move me to a different school which as a kid felt like the end of the world. I was diagnosed with dyslexia pretty early (in retrospective they probs should have also looked for adhd/autism) but wasn’t told by my parents, my parents didn’t tell teachers either. I was told to work hard get in that top class, so I did, I was the teachers pet and basically workout out a method to convince my teachers that I was smart. No one talks about what it’s like being at the bottom of the gifted class where your both working your butt off and also not getting given the support you need because you’re in the gifted class. I am a curious person, wanted to learn, challenge myself throughout hs and often had to beg my teachers just to teach me (they’re job). Most of the top students would get tutoring and so had learnt the content years in advanced. By the time I got to uni, I was floundering missing a huge skill set I needed and had even less support. The current education system so fundamentally flawed.

people misunderstand what ‘gifted kid’ actually means but it’s ok it’s fine it’s cool it’s good

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“I think no matter what gender you are there’s a voice of the patriarch in your head because we are all raised in a patriarchy” - Mitski

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Lately, I’ve felt like a wafe of myself. Completely and utterly empty of any creativity. My poetry stolen in the night, my words missing. I feel the yeast has taken hold rising and leaving nothing but great crevasses in my soul. I wander. I sketch. I spend frivolously and I crave. A famished animal, hungry for what? I can not tell you. Maybe tomorrow will bring me satisfaction, until then I love what the soft creature within me loves and try not to miss the woman I am no longer tied to.

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Omfg I’m blushing?!?! Emily Dickinson I know what you are

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I finished reading the colour purple 2 days ago. I’m not over it. Celie is a lesbian in a way few other books are brave enough to describe. This is going to be a book that sits with me for a while

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I love how Mitski invented music 😭

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I wish revolutionary girl utena got the same level of notoriety and acclaim as evangellion. Its layers of symbolism and complex themes is at the same level of not better.