#mostly selfreflection

[newtdoods]

„Stop always try to give, try to receive something aswell“

- My mind at my brain (I just think those conflicts in my head are interesting)

[leynaeithnea]

What being an Infp is like for me (incomplete list)

Cons:

-Having an irrational fear of thinking the wrong things, like you think of something you shouldn't be thinking of or you have an opinion that might be wrong ( I try to ignore it but it's annoying after all )

-Wanting to fit in and belong somewhere but failing everytime I try

-Talking before thinking

-Not good at starting conversions

-Being anxious

-Being afraid to loose grip and slip into a mental disorder or other kind of toxic behavior/thoughts

-Losing that "everything" that I have

-Being too sincere

-Being fascinated about characters that are all fucked up and wanting to help but wanting to cry in compassion and overwhelmth when you hear about such story in real life and thinking about it for days until it hurts less

-Not being able to deal with reality and rather living in my own imagination and idealism

-Not being able to say something out loud but always having to write it down before

-Having a hard time living in the moment

-Being proud of something I accomplished for a few minutes before perfectionism hits in and I want to make it better although I know its good already

-Trying to find intimacy both emotional and physical and connection but withdraw as soon as I feel slightly insecure or feel like I bother someone or like the chemistry doesn't fit and it's useless to put more effort in that relationship cause it won't even end in normal friendship

-Having so many projects but ending up doing none of that

-Nostalgica for older days

-Being afraid that there's a dark part about myself you don't know of, or forgot about something in my past

-Floating without grip

-Procrastination

-Cutting uncomfortable feelings and thoughts off

-Being unable to make decisions

-My mind easily influences my body when I'm stressed or excited or when there lies something unknown before me

-Being stubborn

-Avoiding conflict

Pros:

-Staying true to myself

-Being not judgmental (I am very judgmental at first sight and I interpret a lot but im also able to shove that prejudices aside and accept people as who they are, as soon as I know them better)

-Being loyal to my friends

-Feeling things deeply

-Being willing to improve myself

-Mostly seeing the good in things

-Being able to have deep thoughts but don't let myself be caught in this darkness

-Smiling at strangers

-Being able to start smiling and being happy out of nowhere

- Being able to see things objective

-Trying to understand others reasons

-Being aware of my perks

-Being able to connect dots between situations

-Seeing things from many perspectives

-Being able to appreciate little things and moments

-Having a deep sense of harmony

-Loving my life

-Being honest with myself

-Being able to amuse myself with my own thoughts

-Still believing

-Being able to differ between dreamworld and reality

-Being able to set boundaries

-(Most of the time) Not stressing out on being the best/having to fuction, going by is just enough sometimes

-Being passionate about a lot of stuff

-Selfreflecting all the time (could also count as con)

-Not comparing myself to others very much

-Having a dirty and also very funny mind

-Being proud of who I am

-Knowing that bad times will pass

-Not taking things for granted

Bonus:

-Loving to write and create things and singing like no ones listening

-Wanting to learn many languages

-Having a whole lot is interests

ADDITION:

-Crying when upset/angry

[moriaddty]

Random Thought/Selfreflection/Realisation:

Dunno if anyone else experiences this but i have a friend which told me that they would like me to cry more around them. They say its because i have a tendency to cry and often tell them that i cried when we write about our day. But they noticed that i nearly never cry around them or when i do i try to surpress it, and they said they want me to know that they are a safe person to show my emotions to.

But that's not the reason i dont cry or activly surpress it around them.

Its that most of the time when i cry its not because i am genuinely sad about something, but for some reason my body expressing emotions running wild, without any real reason for the expressed emotion. It doesn't even feel like its my emotion that gets expressed but more like as if it was an intrusive thought but instead of a thought its an emotion. I also figured out so far that this happens mostly when i forgot to take my antidepressants and didnt manage to eat well.

I dont know if "intrusive emotions" are even a thing or i just feel this way bc i might be disconnected from my emotions sometimes, but that description feels most accurate. And it helped with dealing with them in a way that yes i might be crying rn but i doesn't feel sad really and thats okay, having an strong expression of an emotion doesnt mean that there has to be a deeper reason for it at all everytime or that i even have the emotion right now, it can also just be brain stupid. Just like when brain gives me anxiety bc i have stomacheache bc stomacheache is usually how my body expresses anxiety and it expects stomacheache to always be an expression of anxiety, which isnt the case, i can also just have eaten smth bad sometimes.

I dont know if i subconsciously decided that this friends isnt a safe person to let those "intrusive emotions" just express themselves but clearly communicate that they arent really my emotions in this moment like i do around other friends because i didnt get the feeling that they "trusted my judgment" of those emotions and take them at the same value as when i am genuinely sad, permanently questioning if it couldn't be that they are my deep down emotions and im just in denial if i do experience it around them, instead of just being like "okay if its smth you want to talk about you can, but if you dont want to or if its just body being weird and stupid imma just hug you and you can let it out, I'll be here and we can do whatever you decide is best for handling the emotions.", like other friends do.

But i do let genuine emotions express around them, im just rarely feeling very strong genuine emotions that would express themselves that visibly, the "intrusive ones" are way more common.

Dunno its weird and i dont know how tell my friend that beside saying exactly this, which it didnt seem like they understood and accepted.

My cynical side says: "if you have to say 'show me your emotions more i am a safe person to show emotions to' to someone, you probably arent a safe person to show emotions to for this person in they way you'd like/think you are."

[nomoexcuses]

Running through some photos given it's our kiddos first day of school and started doing some of my own self reflection. What can I say... I've tried to lose weight and lost over 50lbs 5 different times in my life. Through all of it though I have leaned a few of what I would consider key items: 1. It's mostly about the quantity and types of foods you put in your body. (I say 90% is about nutrition) but it starts with just making BETTER choices. 2. Stay active and keep to a Bare Ass Minimum (BAM) everyday to just keep going. My BAM is 10 push-ups each day. Sure I surpass it most of the time but reality is this is my minimum no matter what and I'm always stoked to get my BAM completed daily. 3. Don't make excuses, embrace who you are but all I can say is as much as I said to myself, "I'll start on Monday!" The Monday's kept coming and I kept on the same mantra and never changed. Finally I just STOPPED with it and said "Enough's enough!" and got to work one day and keeping working at it now #1DayAtATime 4. Results come with time...not overnight. If it was easy then well, it would be easy. You have to work to achieve results and the longer you work and stay consistent the higher gratification you achieve. 5. I haven't done it alone. I've had outstanding peeps help me along the way in many different ways and I thank you all. Most notably my wifey for making me delicious grub and pushing me on those days I was less motivated. I LOVE YOU! Also my kiddos for keeping me running and active so I can keep up with you and your sports. @myfuelup for customized meal plans. @westsidenutritionandfitness for guidance, education and coaching this last year. Lastly, all of you. I appreciate the comments, likes, DMs, FOLLOWS, etc...it pushes me and motivates me everyday! From 307lbs to 186lbs this morning, the journey is challenging but I do it everyday because it makes me feel good 👍. Thanks all for the motivation and today's reflection. #NoExcuses #CantStopWontStop #WeightLossJourney #1DayAtATime #PositiveVibes #SelfReflection #Inspire #Motivate https://www.instagram.com/p/CRnKSyuMgM6/?utm_medium=tumblr

[ninjamazon]

HEY, IT’S BEEN FOR NEVER SINCE I’VE SEEN YOU... ▪️Sometimes I’m asked about how I build self-confidence...How I continually manage to accept myself however I am, including the itchy and gross parts. ▪️Nowadays I have a few ways, one of the most important being my “Self Esteem Box” which is really a mostly-digital space I collect messages I clip to keep—kind and wonderful praises for my actions, videos, photos, and words. Positive reviews, encouraging statements, and otherwise loving and heartening messages from my friends and acquaintances over the years... ▪️All gifts generously given. ▪️ But at some point before I started that practice (late in my tumultuous teens) I developed a self-portrait practice. At first it was about confirming my self-image, but soon became a game to see how I could look, what others might possibly see... ▪️Since then it’s become as much a pastime as all that literal and metaphorical self-reflection—I even have a clandestine Insta for some of them, including a series fondly titled “Other People’s Bathrooms” ▪️So, there’s that. ▪️And here’s this. ▪️ ▪️ ▪️ #🐒 ▪️ ▪️ ▪️ #Practice + #Persistence = #Proficiency .............…….............................................. | #prepareyourself | #everydaykata | #tacticalpunk | #monkeemethod | #aperturemedicine | #selfportrait | #selfreflection | #selfesteembox | https://www.instagram.com/p/CD2qHMEnWC2/?igshid=buzbqtkl7e1k

[non-e-per-sempre]

19 july

Since then I can't get the image of the most beautiful guy I've ever seen in this town, out of my head. It was at an Open Air Cinema here by the lake, me and my best friend went and watched the film Parasite. As we were sitting in one of the last rows very far behind, we watched more and more people come and take their seats. And so I saw him, more I saw them it was him and this girl probably his girlfriend or date maybe and they took a seat a couple rows in front of us. It was like as if I was in a trance or more I was completely mesmerized by his whole beeing. The way underneath his brixton hat he had a beautiful brunette man bun or how he wore his black Birkenstoks with some black pants and his well fitting beige jacket combined with a shirt I forgot the color of, but most importantly his face. He had a brown beard, it was obviously trimmed and it fitted and flattered his face very well, he had such kind big brown eyes his full lips and his super defined jawline were just exquisite . To make it simple he just had the most beautiful face and frame in this town. Everything about the way he looked felt complete in his own way. So I wasn't per se drawn to him in a romantic way more like in a faszination of his whole being. That led me to then wonder, does he realize or know how beautiful he is? Was he as selfassured as I perceived him to be? And then am I perceived in the same way by someone? But most importantly do I also see and perceive myself in a self-assured manner? Yes and no. Yes I do feel myself and I do consider myself as very beautiful, inside and out. But I do have moments where my selfconfidence is low mostly when I'm in unfamiliar circumstances with strangers. That's something I'm working on right now. But yeah this stranger really left an imprint on me but also made me selfreflect on the perception of myself wich is a important aspect of life I think.

[luanafarayoga]

Have you noticed how important social media has become in our lives? I'm sure you have! Social Media is a revolution that has shaken up our lives! We spend a big portion of our time interacting through it: when we wake up, when we eat, at work, when we hang out, and even in the bathroom. We must understand which are our conscious and also our subconscious drivers, so we can use social media as a tool, instead of becoming a tool for it. This reflection is what I found by questioning myself about it! I acknowledge that from the wide range of possibilities in social media I mostly use Facebook and Instagram, both for different purposes, but definitely I invest more time today in Social Media than 5 years ago. Which makes me ask the question: What is the role of social media in my life? (...) Read the whole Blog Post in my NomadSoul Blog at www.luanafarayoga.com (Find the link in my bio). 📸Photo by @fotosbyboca 💙 #socialmedia #selfreflection #selfstudy #awareness #consciousness #consciousliving #mayallbeingsbefree #luanafarayoga (at Duke Farms)

[insightinspiringreflection-blog]

See life as it truthfully is, no matter how “blackened” it may appear. What others see in you, may be unclear to them and see a different tint than what is intended. Meaning, people will not understand what you truly mean. Be thorough in your examination of yourself, but not strict. Let it be a creative strike of life giving water that washes over the eyes in an earthly cleanse. It may appear “blackened” but is truly grounded and clear. Mostly because now there is not as much to fear. . . . . . #thoughtstoponder #thepowerofthought #quotes #quotestoliveby #inspirationalquotes #poetry #philosophicalpoetry #philosophy #poets #selfreflection #powerofreflection #nature #thinkfreely #selfimprovement #meaning #purpose #understanding #lifeguidance #spilledthoughts #insight #inspiringinsight https://www.instagram.com/p/B4_OZB9A-qN/?igshid=5dijxs7u9onx

[jenniferschianostudio]

I decided to start journaling again (..it’s been years!), mostly as a means for self exploration and getting to know me on a different level. I’m realizing that I’ve gone through much of my life thus far living under labels and other people’s perceptions of me. The first page of my journal is dedicated to just that.. answering the question (or more like attempting to !) who am I? I did this in a stream of consciousness kind of way, writing things down in an “I am..” statement, re-reading what came out and reflecting on the sentiments. It’s interesting to see what comes. Still got some work to do on the elephants but that’s ok because I’ve been working on a new pup portrait ! Can’t share it with you just yet but as soon as I can I definitely will 😊 . . . . . #selfreflection #journaling #selfexploration #mentalhealth #inprogress #paintingprocess #wip #animalart #elephants #elephantlove #elephantart #wildlifeart #woodart #artistsoninstagram #artlife #artist #imagination #animalartist #naturelovers #colorfulsky #artonwoodpanel #babyelephants #create #createcultivate #love #instaart #instaartist (at Upper Greenwood Lake, New Jersey) https://www.instagram.com/p/B00fIbnF5lm/?igshid=9u4ram2lz9ex

[miki-chaan]

„Overthinker“ - one of the reasons i am so slow at completing tasks is that i tend to overthink everything. It‘s like, i have a relatively simple task to finish, and i have a rough idea on how to complete it, but then, some thought comes to mind wich doesn‘t let me go. Those thoughts are often just making me unproductive and are not important to finish the task. I mostly don‘t even realize that i‘m doing it until i look at the time and register how much time i wasted. #timeflies #overthinking #selfreflection #panda #think #grass #lostinthought #art #sketch #draw #drawing #doodle #artist #artlovers #mangaart #mangaartist #illust #illustration #creative #sketchbook #instaart #instadraw #instasketch #instadoodle #instadrawing #instagood #instacute

[rajavoom]

Past. Present. Future. Time is just a man-made concept. What really matters is who really are you inside. People will mostly remember you of who you are and not of what you achieved. March 13 #life #inspiration #motivational #quote #instaquotes #dailyquotes #selfreflection https://ift.tt/2HjvQ95

[inbetweentimes]

Hello to the new boss. . . But what does it take to be a #leader in your own life? I find myself in positions of #leadership as it feels like the most natural place to be. Yet, through my studies, I have learned that there are skills which must be refined to be considered an excellent leader. . . I strive for #excellence in my life, so I have been digging deep into this process of #transformation over the past two years. It started before then, because #selfreflection and #change have been part of my life since I can remember. But now I have an outline for the type of "Natasha" I envision in my life, and I have taken complete #responsibility for the #progress and outcome. . . Being a leader in my life takes more than big talk and fun Instagram posts. It takes minute-by-minute, day-by-day, year-by-year WORK. And the clock never stops ticking on that project. What I've also learned is that incremental and small shifts over a longer period of time make the biggest difference. . . In this space of better #selfmanagement as the path towards true leadership, I have taken charge of understanding more about my health struggles and educating myself about how to best manage my #chronicillnesses. It is not something I can complain about or, alternatively, hide from anymore. I must own it in order to have a chance to fully heal, which I hold as a #possibility for myself always. . . I keep coming back to #thealchemist and how difficult it was the immediate several nights before he was about to reach his goal. I have been inside of that space for years it seems... Before I started #gradschool, mostly all I saw was the darkness. I kept hoping for light. Now I KNOW that there is light... because I AM BECOMING THE LIGHT. . . The process is taking me as long it needs to as I take care of my health as the top priority, the people I #love, and then my #academics. But I am definitely the new boss and in charge of my own life. . #Drucker #futureMBA #theslightedge #womeninleadership #womeninentertainment #womeninbusiness #gradstudent #gradschoollife #gradstudentlife #vision #Lupus #Hashimotos (at Arts District, Las Vegas) https://www.instagram.com/p/BsijvedgNJ4/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=10zp9e8siv19n

[thewhimsicaloffshoot-blog]

I am quietly processing the last decade and 48 hours. It has been a difficult and honest conversation with myself coming to terms with my 40th year on this earthly plane. I am full of gratitude for so much yet saddened at how quickly life goes. I have had so much anxiety, worry and uneasiness around this birthday. Mostly I'm sad. Sad for experiences and moments that slip further and further away, sad over milestones more than likely to never be experienced, and sad over friendships that slip away more and more over the years. I also reflect on the gratitude I have for family that loves me even though they may not always understand my journey, a husband who I have been through thick and thin with and still sees me for me and the person I am and want to be, and gratitude for the dearest of friends who truly know your soul. I look forward to what these next years bring and the teachings to unfold. 💗💗💗 I received this beautiful coastal forest goddess from my dear, sweet and uber friend over @shi_jewels . She had a beautiful opal and chrysoprase set into her with leaf and vine accents. I am so in love with her. Thank you so much Shi! I will forever be grateful for our friendship, sisterhood and hear connection 💗#friendship #shijewels #goddess #40 #selfreflection #preciousgifts

[cautiousawarereserved]

Piecing the Puzzle: People misunderstand me. And that's okay. I'm a puzzle that I'm almost positive others don't comprehend. I'm still carefully placing myself together, one day at a time, Piece by piece, edge by edge. 22 years into my portrait puzzle, I have to say, It's starting to look really picturesque. There's some clandestine pieces, some luminous pieces, quite a few comedic pieces– But all in all, I have to say, it's mostly extravagant. I hope my puzzle is solved one day. I'll always have one missing piece, For it's all a simple work in progress, Like all things grand. #poetry #poetryisnotdead #poetrycommunity #poetryofinstagram #poetrysociety #poetryislife #poet #poetsofinstagram #selfreflection #selfreminder #glassesgang #littleblackdress #throwback #almostthrowbackthursday #photoshoot #greensboronc #northcarolina #greensboro #december #figuringitout #onedayatatime #boggardens #lovelyday special thanks to @black_owl_art for taking great shots, can't wait until we do it again! ☺ you're truly gifted. ✨

[vickyaddy]

Perfectly rejecting perfection. . Muse @anna_vyas . . Life is nothing but trying to make things work mostly then we get hit by perfection & while chasing it we forget it doesn’t exist. Either it’s good or bad. . . . #perfection #rejection #acceptence #selfreflection #somewhere #lostinspace #timeless #wanderingsoul #dreamers #storyofmylife #woundedwarriorproject #persuitofportraits #irimages #portboxindia #tpj #indiaphotosociety #landscape #dancingwithmyself

[aether-inscriptions]

*** • So I have my first #seattleartshow coming up on April 28th! I will be one of many #seattleartists showcasing at the #pancakesandbooze #artshow at @elcorazonseattle. Everything I had hoped to achieve with moving to Seattle has more or less worked out, & so I felt compelled to do a bit of #selfreflection #throughwriting... • It still seems a bit surreal, deciding I would move to #seattlewa last June, and so I did in November. I know I will stir again, looking for my next home, but I feel as if I'm #livingagain. The past year in #raleighnc, as it turns out, was the actual surreal experience; my time spent there recollects like a #hazydream. I met some great people working at @mattiebsdurham, and got to reconnect with some old friends. I went on some great road trips around the #southeast; trips to #florida and #myrtlebeachsc had their moments of fun, but ultimately, they prolonged my time in a place I had never intended to be. On August 21st I drove down to #columbiasc in the middle of the night to avoid any potential traffic problems getting into town to see the #totaleclipse. It is a quaint little city, and I surely wish I had had more time to explore it. - My #solareclipse viewing was enjoyable, and I was able to capture the images I wanted to. However, it was two months earlier, when I traveled along the #blueridgeparkway that I was awakened from this dead end slumber. The #mountainsandvalleys whispered with a slowly rising fog, #denseforest and #ragingwaterfalls silenced the mind. It was #beautiful, and #peaceful, and #rejuvinating, but it was mostly a vivid reminder of what I had left. - #thismoment (the image posted), is one of very few that I had not captured myself. Some #randomtravelers, #inlovewithlife, offered to record this moment for me. The photos I took throughout the trip, they are just that, photographs. But this moment, perched atop my #hondaelement, capturing all the beauty that surrounded me, my dog #Moab, who has truly become my best friend, relaxing below, it is a reminder of #whyitravel, why I change places so often. However, above all else, this moment is a reminder of why I am here, why I chose the #emeraldcity... #urbanemerald (at Seattle, Washington)