#mummy nat 😵‍💫💕

[atinyniki]

i don’t rlly know who the anon in my inbox is rn but please stop sending me so much hate :( there’s really no reason for that bc i told her happy bday at midnight anyways :(

[atinyniki]

no bc this fic is SO my style… AAA I LOVE YOU SM NAT YOURE SO TALENTED

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Pairing: Seungmin x fem!Reader

Word Count: 1812

Summary: Seungmin had always been honest. Maybe even too honest, some would say. It was a quality that most people admired in him, his willingness to be open and not to pretend, though few could genuinely handle it. You always had been one of the few. Or at least, that’s what he had thought.

Warnings/Tags: angst, emotional!hurt, happy ending, miscommunication (sort of?), seungmin learns to open up

do not repost, translate, or plagiarize my works in any way here or on other platforms. ©️writingforstraykids 2024 -

Seungmin had always been honest. Maybe even too honest, some would say. It was a quality that most people admired in him, his willingness to be open and not to pretend, though few could genuinely handle it. You always had been one of the few.

Or at least, that’s what he had thought.

The night it happened, the two of you had been sitting in his dorm room, the soft hum of music playing in the background. It had been a stressful, exhausting day for you both, but there was comfort in each other’s presence…Or there had been.

Until he said it.

“You’re too sensitive, you know that?”

It wasn’t the first time he had told you this. There had been plenty of times: Lovingly, when you were crying over kitten videos, annoyed when you would take something to heart too quickly, embarrassed when you snapped at someone for saying something so clearly out of line for you. It wasn’t even the worst thing he had ever said. But tonight, it hit differently.

Maybe it was the way his voice had carried that edge of exasperation. Perhaps it was the weight of everything else you had endured that day. Maybe it was because you had spent so long trying to convince yourself that you could take whatever he threw at you, that you could handle his sharp words. After all, that was just who he was. And he usually didn’t mean it in a harmful way, did he?

But in that moment, something inside you cracked.

You had laughed at first, an empty sound, barely meeting his eyes. “Yeah, maybe I am.”

He didn’t notice the way your fingers curled into the hem of your sweater, knuckles white from the firm grip. He didn’t see the way your shoulders tensed as if bracing for the impact of more words possibly able to hurt you. He was too busy looking at his phone, too caught up in whatever joke Felix had just texted him.

And that was when you realized something you wished you hadn’t: He didn’t even notice.

He didn’t realize how much his words hurt. He didn’t realize that this wasn’t just about this one moment but about every moment before it - the times when he dismissed your feelings as if they were inconveniences and when his bluntness cut more profound than he understood - the times when you had swallowed your pain because you loved him.

And maybe that was the problem. You loved him. God, you loved him. You loved the way his eyes shone bright when he laughed at your jokes, the way his hair felt beneath your hand, the way his arms wrapped around you after a long day, you loved so much of him…

But did he love you the same way? Or did he love you only when you were easy to deal with?

You stood up so suddenly that he finally looked up from his phone, blinking. “Where are you going?”

You swallowed heavily. “I think I need some air.”

Seungmin frowned, as he always did when he thought you were being dramatic. “It’s late...”

“I’ll be fine.” You grabbed your bag, forcing yourself to keep your voice even. “I just… I need to go.”

He could have stopped you. He could have asked what was wrong, reached out, grabbed your wrist, and held you there until you told him what you were thinking and what you were feeling. He used to.

But he didn’t.

He just sighed, rolling his eyes. “Okay then, I guess.”

And that was it. That was the final crack before the dam broke. You didn’t say anything. You just walked out the door, not sparing him another glance.

And Seungmin let you.

-

He didn’t realize something was wrong until the next day.

It wasn’t like you hadn’t left before - sometimes you needed space, and he always assumed you would come back. But this time, you didn’t text him. You didn’t show up for your usual lunch break at the café. You didn’t respond to his messages, and the longer the silence stretched, the more uneasy he felt.

At first, he convinced himself he was overthinking. Maybe you were just busy. Maybe you needed time to cool off. But as the hours turned into an entire day and then another, the pit in his stomach only grew deeper.

It wasn’t until Jisung casually mentioned seeing you with your suitcase at the station that Seungmin felt something cold settle in his chest.

“She looked upset,” Jisung had said, frowning. “Did something happen?”

Seungmin didn’t answer.

His mind was racing, replaying the last conversation you had, the way you had looked at him before you left. The way you hadn’t looked at him at all. He had thought you would come back. But what if you weren’t planning to?

What if somewhere along the way, he had missed something, and this was it? What if you’d disappear for good this time?

-

The train station was nearly empty by the time Seungmin got there, breathless, his heart hammering in his chest. He had no idea if you were still here, no idea if he had already lost you. But then, he saw you.

Sitting on one of the benches, your suitcase beside you, your arms wrapped around yourself as if trying to make yourself smaller. You were staring blankly at the tracks, lost in thought, and for the first time in a long time, Seungmin saw you - truly saw you.

And you looked… tired. Worn. Like you had been carrying the weight of something heavy for far too long. Something inside him clenched painfully. He swallowed, stepping closer. “You weren’t going to tell me you were leaving?”

You stiffened at his voice, your fingers tightening around your sleeves. For a long moment, you didn’t say anything. Then, softly, you murmured, “Would it have mattered?”

The words hit him harder than they should have. “Of course, it matters.”

You turned to look at him then, and he wished you hadn’t. Because your eyes - your beautiful, expressive eyes - held something he had never seen before.

Resignation.

“I don’t think it does,” you said, and the words were quiet, but they might as well have been a scream. “Not really.”

Seungmin opened his mouth, but nothing came out because he didn’t know how to argue with something that was… true. For so long, he had taken you for granted, assuming that you would always be there, that you would always forgive him. He had never stopped to think about what it would mean if you decided you had enough one day.

And now, here you were. Leaving. Because of him. “Don’t go.” His voice was quieter than he intended, almost pleading.

You gave a sad, hollow smile. “You don’t mean that.”

“I do.”

“Why?”

Seungmin froze. Why? He had never been good with words - not the important ones, at least. But right now, if he didn’t say them, he would lose you. So, he forced himself to be honest. Not the kind of honesty that hurt, but the kind that mattered. “Because I care about you,” he said, his voice rough. “Because I don’t want to lose you. Because I should have realized sooner that just because I don’t mean to hurt you doesn’t mean I haven’t been.”

You looked at him, searching for something in his face. Then, you exhaled, shaking your head. “Seungmin… I can’t keep doing this.”

His chest tightened. “Doing what?”

“This.” You gestured vaguely between the two of you. “Trying so hard to make myself okay with the way you talk to me sometimes. Convincing myself that you don’t mean it, that it’s just the way you are. But I’m tired, Seungmin. I’m tired of feeling like my feelings don’t matter.”

He had never felt this kind of fear before, the kind that settled deep in his bones, making his hands shake. “I-”

“I don’t need you to fix everything,” you continued, voice raw. “I just need you to care when something hurts me. To see me. To want to see me.”

Seungmin swallowed, his throat dry. “But, I-I do see you.”

“Then why did it take me leaving for you to finally say that?” you asked tiredly, blinking up at him slowly, as you didn’t quite know if you wanted an answer or not.

He had no answer to that. And the silence that followed was the loudest thing he had ever heard. The train arrived. The doors opened. And for a moment, the world seemed to hold its breath. Then, you got up, grabbing the handle of your suitcase.

And Seungmin watched you step onto the train, the doors closing between you. He was being left behind, with all the words he should have said still sitting on his tongue, never spoken…

And then, Seungmin moved.

Shaking his head, he ran up to the train, slamming his hand against the button to reopen the doors. The moment they slid apart, he stepped inside and grabbed your wrist, pulling you back out onto the platform with him. Your suitcase followed, clattering onto the ground beside you.

“What the hell, Seungmin?” you yelled, struggling against his grip. “Let me go!”

But he didn’t. His fingers stayed wrapped around your wrist, firm but trembling, as the train doors shut behind you. The train whistled, then pulled away, leaving the two of you standing there - just you and him and the silence of everything unsaid.

Your world stood still as you saw the tears brimming in his eyes.

“I didn’t want to be too much,” he whispered, voice breaking. “I don’t want to cling to you, but I don’t know how to walk the fine line between being an unresponsive asshole and holding on too tight. I don’t know, but I’ll learn. I’ll try to learn… for you.”

Your breath hitched, your heart pounding against your ribs. What?

“I love you,” he admitted, his voice raw, his gaze searching yours. “I love you so much, Y/nnie, I don’t even know where to begin. I’m so sorry if I hurt you, I’m so sorry. And I know I should have said it sooner. I should have said a lot of things sooner. But please…” His grip tightened, desperation evident in every inch of him. “Don’t leave.”

Seungmin had always been honest. Maybe even too honest, some would say. But for the first time, his honesty wasn’t sharp. It wasn’t a blade. It was a plea.

How could you turn away from this and leave?

A shaky exhale left you as your fingers carefully intertwined with his, your own eyes mirroring his teary expression. “Do you promise to try and cling to me once in a while?”

“I promise,” he whispered, grabbing your other hand as well, squeezing them tightly in his hold. “I promise, my love.”

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[atinyniki]

NAT GAVE AZZY A KISS AND NOT ME :(

[atinyniki]

soft thoughts on Nat? (that valentine's gifft makes ne wonder)

authors note: this is literally the cutest ask ever omfg… also ive never done soft thoughts on anyone before…?! heheh im excited (also this might be super inaccurate bc im kinda projecting but… wtv) anyways this one is probably going to be long-ish, but it can be read as gender neutral. (i got help from zehina and kylei too btw :P) also normalize men being soft in relationships please!!! they don’t always have to be the tough guy :3 i hope most of it is right @writingforstraykids hehe :3

nat has to love cuddles. it’s the same thing over and over again. you’re sad? “come cuddle 🥺” you’re tired? “come cuddle 🥺”. she’d give the best cuddles too, which leads me into the specifics… nat would hold you close to her and fondle your hair while cuddling. if you’ve read her fics, that’s one of the things she talks about most. just laying down with her while she massages your scalp and rakes her fingers through your hair like agh 🥺💕 she’s so cutie

another thing, nat really hates when someone is in pain. if an anon mentions that they’re upset, she always asks what’s wrong. and she’d do the same to you, so so so incredibly caring. she’d always ask about your day, and you could talk for hours on end, but she’d pay attention the whole time. and if you asked her to recite everything you just said, she’d parrot it right back 💕

when you have a tummyache, nat would kiss and rub your cute lil tummy till you’re content. she hates seeing her baby in pain, and does anything she can to make you feel better. just imagine small little pecks across the soft skin, her nose nuzzling into your plush with every kiss 🥺

nat gives compliments. a lot of them, to just about everyone she knows. but what if you were to turn the tables? she’d get so blushy, trying her best to stay composed. if you were to shower her with compliments, she’d get so red. especially when in public. just small gestures to show your affection and some praises thrown around here and there is enough to get her all warm and fuzzy 🥺💕

nat cares deeply about every one of her friends, so what’s to say she wouldn’t care for her lover the same? of course, she shows everyone so much love, but once you’re the one being treated this way, everything changes. everything she does and says comes directly from her heart, and she’s never afraid to show you how genuine her words are.

nat is godly at aftercare. there’s nothing she loves more than taking care of her love. she always makes sure you go to the bathroom after and runs you a bath. even after a soft scene, she will always reassure you and make sure you know how much she loves you. her heart just about bursts whenever she hearts your heavy breathing and soft snoring as you fall asleep in her arms 🥹

when it’s gloomy out and you want to go outside, the two of you will drive around for hours. nothing is better than spending time with your lover, and long drives with the light pitter-patter of the rain in the background also gives you some more time to talk to eachother. when she’s driving you, she likes to intertwine your fingers with hers and place her hand onto the gear stick, just to feel you close to her. and since you’re traveling so much, you normally try a new place to eat! kind of like a special occasion ☺️

kissing nat is so sweet too. with the small pecks here and there, as well as the steamier moments you have with her, you will always be able to feel how much she loves you. kissing is never exclusive to just the lips either, and i’m sure she’d kiss all over your face if she had the chance 💕

it’s basically impossible to hide your feelings from nat, considering how attentive she is. if you talk or text a specific way, she can tell exactly how you’re feeling just based off of that. this ties back to the point about comforting. she’s constantly checking up on you, providing as much comfort as she possibly can. she never wants her baby feeling upset 🥺💕

nat is an amazing artist. if you’ve ever seen her art, you’d know. imagine going on a nice picnic date, feeding eachother fresh fruits and doing silly poses while sketching eachother. bonus points if it’s springtime, picking flowers and braiding them into her hair 🥺 you could be there for hours with her and never get bored, not when you’re in your lovers arms with the light breeze brushing against your cheeks >//<

kisses were already mentioned, but lazy/sleepy kisses deserve their own section. you both work hard, as one does, and sometimes it’s hard to talk to eachother when you’re drained of all energy, and so is she. so what do you do? you hop into bed with her and curl into her, planting lazy kisses to her face while half-asleep. there’s something about these kisses that are so intimate, recharging you after such a long day. the two of you end up getting so comfortable that you just fall asleep in eachothers arms, lips still brushing against each others 🥺

pda with nat sounds soooo sweet. just holding hands while in public or linking arms? kisses to the cheek while walking and talking? hugs while you’re at small gatherings and watching the smile grow on her face? she’d get soooo giggly and so so happy. we all know how cuddly she is, so chances are she’d do it right back to you :3

being with nat will always feel like a dream. at some points, you may even think she’s too good to you, because that’s just how amazing she is. she loves with her entire heart, and she’s damn good at it too. you will never feel neglected or unwanted with her, not with the amount of attention and love she gives you. with all the constant reassurance, the compliments, and the sweet gestures, there’s no doubt that she loves you hehe <3

[atinyniki]

Idk why you like Nat so much. You won't get any comfort whenever you're upset

fuck off anon. it’s the complete opposite, actually. nat comforts me just about every time something happens, it’s just difficult sometimes due to our different time zones. plus she always notices how im truly feeling despite trying to hide it. so don’t you dare say she doesn’t comfort me. you don’t know shit abt what goes on behind the scenes. if you don’t like her, you don’t like her, but leave me the fuck out of it.

[atinyniki]

Was Dear Exlover about Nat?

sigh. ah yes. dear ex lover was about nat (who i’ve never dated) dear ex lover was about nat (who is entirely too straight for me) dear ex lover was about nat (who i text everyday) dear ex lover was about nat (who i buy gifts and am preparing a package for) dear ex lover was about nat (i tell her i love her everyday. PLATONICALLY since you idiots can’t get it in your head)

no, it’s not about nat 😭 no one has hurt me like that, so please don’t assume 😭

[atinyniki]

You’re ruining Nat and Kailee’s relationship. Is it that hard to just leave?

no actually, i think you are ruining our relationship together. you and all the other stupid anons talking about this shit. if anything, you guys will probably be the ones that tear us apart. and then what’s next? no motivation to write? no funny convos here? no entertainment for you? so i suggest you keep your stupid little thoughts to yourself so you don’t ruin anything for us or yourself. as i said before, we love eachother equally. do me a favor and leave this fucking community 🥱

[atinyniki]

Why would I leave? I’m just telling you to leave Kailee and Nat alone. Not the entirety of Tumblr… It’s not your place to be part of their relationship anyways

lmfao, if you don’t want me to leave then stop this bullshit. it’s just making me want to delete this app and stop writing ffs… it’s not your place to dictate who i talk to either. i’m not going to leave nat or kylei alone because i love them, and they love me. so leave us be please, i don’t know why you’re so invested in this 😭🙏

[atinyniki]

TUMBLR THINKING MICHELLE IS NAT SHE ACTUALLY BROKE MY TUMBLR

[atinyniki]

hiii my beautiful sunshine🥺

and what if we kissed rn :3

[atinyniki]

Okay, so, since your beloved anon apparently knows so much about our relationship but doesn't give enough fucks to check my blog I'll send you an ask instead. Niki and I talk daily, sometimes more sometimes less as surprise we both have our own lives to deal with and tbh mine has been a mess lately so if anyone's to blame for the lack of “pda” it's me😐 I love interacting with my mooties on here but I'll stop if all it does is making some of you gossip and go wild like we're some celebrities dating, chill tf out pls.

And about Kylei…I promised myself to keep my mouth shut bc I don't want to drag someone through shit on here so I'll be as vague as possible. It's okay if you miss her but don't blame any of us for her leaving. I haven't heard from her in three months after addressing my issue with sudden disappearances and ignoring to which I was promised it wouldn't happen again combined with all sorts of endearing terms only like two weeks prior. Repeatedly. I won't go into detail about Zehina or Niki because I'm not that type of an asshole but damn.

Things didn't end well between all of us and the fact that we were all hurt but stayed and only one person didn't, should make you think. Yes, you were right before, there are fics about what happened on my blog bc I tried to work through some old shit that came up with it again, which she knew about btw and still went on and did the same in lesser forms.

Nevertheless, if you know me and what I need so well you should start thinking about who really hurt me and who's still by my side, making me smile every damn day when I don't feel like it.

Sincerely, get a life and stop messing with ours we'd love to catch a break some time :)))

this. again, you do not know abt anything that happens behind the scenes. go ask kylei what happened instead of berating us.

[atinyniki]

i’m gonna explode

okay so i know its been a fat fucking minute since ive been here but im ovulating deal with me for a sec…bangchan breeding you while lino sucks on your clit….OH MY GOD

"ah- ah fuck, is that good, baby? daddy's cock nice 'n big?" chan coos, and you nod eagerly. his curly hair is mussed with sweat, dangling over his forehead, and his lips are so pink and kiss bitten it makes you want to cry. minho's hands push your legs back further, pushing you into a mating press, and you wail at the way chan's cock goes just that much deeper.

"oh, oh! oh, daddy, can- will you breed me? breed baby's pussy, please, please?" you're babbling, head rolling on the pillow, and minho scoffs out a laugh. you pout, legs thrashing, and minho catches your ankle.

"am i being mean to you, kitty?" minho asks, and chan's thrusts pick up a bit, as if he'd forgotten his bandmate was there. you nod, eyes glassy, and even chan laughs at the look on your face. each long, languid thrust has you whining, pussy squelching with it, and your clit throbs. "i think you need to cum before your daddy breeds you, don't you?"

"i- i-"

"min, suck her clit," chan instructs, and he leans back to allow access. minho shuffles on his knees towards you, cock bobbing, and then his plushy lips are sucking the untouched bud into his mouth. you keen, hands moving to grip minho's hair, but chan's quick to pin them above your head. "s-stay still. stay still and take it, and- and you'll get daddy's cum, baby, i promise."

[atinyniki]

(sorry if this makes no sense but there was an anon asking who’s the best duo out of me kylei and nat pretty disrespectfully trying to disclude nat but i accidentally deleted it)

to the people who ask, “who’s the best duo in your trio?”, fuck off. it’s a TRIO for a reason. yes there are three duos in a trio, but none of them are gonna be the best duo in a healthy trio, bc everyone needs the proper amount of attention and affection. so please, leave me alone if you have a problem with the people im friends with :/ leave kylei and nat alone as well, trios are three

[atinyniki]

Hope you have the best day my pretty sunny. Take care and stay safe. I love you my dear lix🖤

crying what did i do to deserve you… i love you so much darling <3 hope you have a good morning too :3 (isn’t it like 11:30 rn)

[atinyniki]

pov me watching you do the bare minimum🥺🖤

STOP ACCEPTIJG THE BARE MINIMUM LIKE I JUST GAVE YOU MY KIDNEY 😡

but i love you cutie pie 🥺💕

[atinyniki]

You literally ruined their relationship though? Poly is okay, but you don’t fit together at all.

did we ever say we were dating? no. so why is that even being mentioned? just because people talk and flirt doesn’t mean they’re dating. just let me love them ffs… and grow up babes 😣