#my current lockscreen

[tanaisokay]

Posting more of my coms that I had done while on Twitter/Bsky ~

This gorgeous piece is by the wonderful Lina on bsky!

I decided I wanted to be more self-indulgent with my HL coms going forward, which means I am allowing myself to get more coms of the girls. My MC Aster is closest to Grace Pinch-Smedley and Nerida Roberts, to the point that the three are literally inseparable. Sebastian and Ominis don't even come close to touching these three in my mind. As much as the boys are lovely, girls are far more superior to teenage boys. So I shall give my MC the stable and happy relationships she deserves. And yes, Poppy and Natty are wonderful, I love them to pieces - but there's something far more alluring I find of Grace and Nerida, that Aster is utterly drawn to. Nerida and Aster are practically the same person in my mind, just different levels of ambition. Grace and Aster are a perfect blend of strengths that they bounce off each other beautifully. Plus, the DRAMA. Please, I gotta work off the in-game drama! It's so juicy and open ended, it's practically begging me to work with it and use it as my own.

I have so many HC's for both Nerida and Grace, it's not funny. I've fully built on their characters and kind of turned them into my own at this point. However, to me, they are the best magical besties Aster could ever ask for.

A huge thank you once again to Lina for the masterpiece! She quite literally knew exactly what I was asking for in terms of pose, and I am very grateful that she brought this piece to life.

[fernsnailz]

big fan of the world's most normal robot ^^

[manbeaft]

[lludo]

some band of brothers patch lockscreens/wallpapers 🪖 please like or reblog if you use, thank you!

if you would like to see some lockscreens/wallpapers of a certain person/color theme, shoot me an ask! i’d be happy to give it a go 🤍 please do not repost these anywhere - reblogs are of course encouraged and welcome

[straightouttapandora]

Time for my daily Lucanis posting. Enjoy 🥳

Here's the mod I've been using in these & other posts -> (x).

[sea-buns]

stunning. i love this season.

[absterstuff]

real image of me thinking about jerma’s halloween vampire rp stream that was cancelled hours it was supposed to happen for the millionth time. it’s been months. I will never get over this I fear

[kawaiichibiart]

Everyday I have the desire to change my home screen to something related to PRSK (like my favorite card, some of the official art, maybe a screenshot from a 2DMV I really love)

But doing that would mean I lose sexy Dr. Robotward, and I can't let that happen

I've only had one (1) person give me a reaction and it was beautiful.

[nnnnnnnothingtoseehere]

✨️Hwa✨️

[dying-suffering-french-stalkers]

[s-cordelia-mae]

Whoever took this photo of Oliver I owe you my life

[s-ephiroth]

i often thought, through all these years, like

"i'll leave this fandom someday"

i've seen people come and go, i've seen people completely delete and vanish and i've tried to mourn the hole they left behind when they went

(tried to, because i'm not good at mourning, i feel... i'm better at coping, at entering survival mode and just pushing through, and hiding the tears for when nobody is looking; i mourn extremely messy and never ending... i mourn any time i title a fic in full lowercase and think of the things icy said back then;

(i mourn when i see pages that will never update again and records of things from years ago — seeing how friends and i were so different back then, less paranoid, perhaps more carefree, less pained by the weight of world; seeing once busy chat rooms fall quiet even though people are still there, seeing people change fandoms... i mourn now even though i'm making a silly pun on a friend's stream chat)

i thought that one day i would be the next one to go, too

because somewhere in this world there are people who can't simply let others enjoy stuff on their corner or people who can't just give you a rejection email like a normal person and have to dodge a block to mock you, there are people out there who can't just say "i dislike this thing" and move on, instead coming up with convoluted excuses for why the thing is bad, while basking in equally messy stuff to what they bash

there are stalkers, there are people who go on your ao3 fic to ask why you blocked them, there are cowards who send people anon hate for months, people who crap comment on bookmarks, bullies who persist for years

there's a lot of bad and i often thought "maybe i'll be the next one to go... but... will someone miss me, when i go?"

the pessimist in me says people would miss me for a while, then forget

maybe eventually someone would be like "where are the prompts for sc/seph weeks?" and i would've been missed for a moment, then forgotten again

surely someone would come up with replacement events, maybe not

it would be okay... perhaps

the world keeps spinning and i'm but a little rock rolling along the river of time, as they say; ultimately, on my own i'm near powerless

i can't fully protect people i admire from their bullies, i can't stop drama bs from happening, i can barely bring myself to be creative quite often because my energy is limited

i can't rewind time and prevent one of my friends from being traumatized for life

surely one day i would be the next one to go; my self-esteem isn't very high, i don't really think of myself as too important

hell i almost died twice before, due to things outside of my control, i think of my own mortality and how fleeting stuff is a lot more than i'm willing to admit

probably someone like me would be the next to go, from fandom i mean, is what i think when i see people stop doing things they loved because others were evil to them

"surely, this time i'll not come back to public with art, it's not like some silly chibis are desired, it's not like my computer is robust enough, i was never given an excuse for why exactly i was rejected from that zine, maybe it was personal bias but maybe just maybe i really should fail, maybe what i do is not enough anyway... maybe if i come back those kinds of people will hunt me down like prey... but hey it's valentine's day, what if i force myself to do something"

it's not like anyone would've cared much, anyway

i could be the next one to go; the remake brought in too many ill intended people and icy was right in leaving, remake changed the climate

but for every single discourse bs that happens, for every no life person who manipulates others, even though there are too many people who have to touch grass

sometimes... sometimes you appreciate a piece of good fan art for 4 years, often going back from time to time to share it with others, looking at it when things feel too hard and the artist comes back to it, redraws it

and you just think "fuck... i need to do something too!!! i've thought of the original so much, i watched from afar for too long, it watered my dying crops over and over and over"

and i do... and i befriend the artist somehow? and there's official material related to the subject matter, and i befriend other people too and fuck, fuck, fuck—

turns out there way more people than i thought into the subject matter too!!! and even more official material coming out after years of just having this one shortish game to go by, the one thing to bring me into the fandom in the first place

and i just think

"i can't leave... i like it here, i hope no one takes this from me, i'll gladly shield people if i have to, i'll throw hands if i have to"

and suddenly, i can't be the next one to go and this post is turning much longer than i expected it to, while i'm bawling my eyes out from being too emotional while watching a stream

and you, reading this, as long as you're an innocent bystander who contributes in some way, even if you just mostly lurk and don't get involved much? you shouldn't go either

the world is a fuck on fire right now, but maybe you make it less so, for someone

maybe you're someone's favorite artist or writer or cosplayer; maybe someone is still waiting on that fic you haven't updated in like 3 years or maybe someone's seeing you go on hiatus and worrying, "will... will i see you again?"

you never know

maybe you'll indeed, move fandoms some day, find another place to lurk in with people you can affectionately call your "favorite losers" or maybe life will get too busy, maybe you need a short break to detox

but while that doesn't happen, please don't go?

please don't go

[filmbyjy]

I was going to sleep but then jungwon went live and then I saw the time…

ITS ALMOST 4AM IN KOREA

[3minutehug]

i'm all the bad guys 🖕😈✌️👅

[c00kietin]

thinking about making this my banner 🤔

[tarotbyroxie]

i need this stamped inside my brain