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skunkes · 1 year ago

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can i ask why ur getting the surgery? /gen curious /no hate

i am getting a bi(lateral)salp(ingectomy) bc i never want to be pregnant or be a parent!

Even if i do change my mind later about the parent thing (not super likely but things can change, sure) theres noooo shortage of single parents lmao

And even if I never End Up In The Circumstance(s) Where I COULD Become Pregnant in my life, I'd want the peace of mind anyway...

I've always felt disgusted that this is something my body is capable of. I want it to be MY body and not a site and vessel for potential tragedy in any direction. And I want it to be something permanent and not dependent on access to services/medicines or even laws!!! Dis is a gender affirming surgery for me honestly...

#anonymous #skunk mail #in the past ive always thot about how id obvs immediately get an abortion if anything happened #but along with living in texas idk #like. id obvs get it but just the thought of ever being pregnant in my life for even a little bit makes me feel sick.#idk what id do. what a betrayal by the shell im in that would be.#my mind wld be frayed forever. ive had nightmares abt it. i dont think i cld ever Enjoy Anything if i was always worried about BC failure.#pregnancy is so unnerving to me i dont even like seeing or being around pregnant animals especially when ppl start calling them Mommy or #Mama it just makes me extremely uncomfortable.#my life was destined to be tragedy as soon as I was born in this body‚ i might as well do one of the only things I can do to ease the horro #of it #ive literally had my day ruined by just remembering its something my body can do. it makes me so miserable #it feels so disgusting etc #without the surgery my life would continue to feel like its counting down to inevitable tragedy #whether it be by Scare or Assault #and why wld i continue to live my life like that if its always going to be unwanted!!!!! need permanent solution and not just a bandaid #its not like the opportunities come up often but honestly ive even been avoiding sex bc of this. id rather just not ever do it at all #than risk anything

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