#nekole's thoughts

[nekole-doodles]

The Date Everything brainworms have taken over way faster than I could have ever predicted and it has been occupying my thoughts 24/7, so here's some animatic/animation and fanfic ideas!!! (Very centric to a few characters)

A Crack Treated Seriously fic where the Realized dateables are out in the world, using their past as objects to aid in their new lives, and figuring out exactly how the world and society works. In some interactions, they nonchalantly hint at their past as an object while talking to normal human beings, which confuses the hell out of many people. I think it'd be really funny if someone asks them about it and they just casually go, "Oh yeah! I used to be an object and the person who lived in the home I resided in found these high tech glasses that allowed them to interact with us as humanoids and turn all the objects into humans! Isn't it neat?"

A series of oneshots that is pretty slice-of-life that tell what happens after all the objects are Realized, most of them being interactions between the Player and the Realized dateables. Some include the characters popping over to the Player's to ask questions about how things work in the real world(legal stuff, society, etc), while some are the characters coming over just to spend time with the Player(like Eddie coming by for a drink or Volt coming over to dance with the Player or Hector painting masks with the Player or Mateo bringing over some new rescues for the Player to meet).

An Eddie and Volt centric Mafia AU because I can't get the image of those two being Mafia bosses and it's driving me nuts

Mateo-centric story post-Realization of his adventures rescuing people and animals across the world because that would be pretty cool.

A simple, sweet coffee shop AU with Kopi because coffee shop AUs are just a classic, and who wouldn't love a sweet fic with Kopi <3

A Human AU(maybe a college or highschool AU) with Mac just being this super cool and smart stranger that the reader/MC meet randomly and kept running into, so they started to get close and get to know Mac better. Idk how to explain this better because it sounded better in my head, but I just really like the idea of more Mac interactions. Also, this is based on this minicomic series and pretty much sums up what I'm talking about:

An animation/animatic of Eddie with this song:

A sort of what-if concept animation/animatic to the song The Call by Regina Spektor where it takes the concept of "What if Volt really did dissappear after you reset the system?" It would start with the beginning of Eddie and Volt's relationship when Volt was formed and Eddie's surprise at his appearance("it started out as a feeling") and continues to show clips of them getting closer and closer(scene ends at the line "which then turns into a quiet word"), goes to the struggle with the power("and then the word grew louder and louder"), shows the whole scene when the power went out and the Player had to fix and reset the system("Til there was a battle cry"), and then jumps to when Volt disappears after the reset, which is shown as Volt fading before Eddie's eyes as it looks like he says the lines "I'll come back, when you call me, no need to say goodbye". Volt is smiling softly, accpeting the fact that he will be gone for now, while Eddie reaches out, eyes filled with sorrow. The following scenes are Eddie being miserable, having flashbacks of the time before Volt("just because everything's changing, doesn't mean it's never been this way before"), and the other objects in the house coming over to the bar(which has been closed) to try and provide comfort("all you can do is try to know who your friends are"). Eddie suddenly decides that he's going to try with all his might to bring Volt back, even if he doesn't know exactly how he did it("as you head off to the war). He sees flashbacks of Volt talking to the patrons in the bar, announcing the start of the show, and finally, Volt's bright smile directed at Eddie, to remind him exactly why he needs to do this("Pick a star on the dark horizon, and follow the light"). As Eddie prepares to make his first attempt, he thinks the words, "You'll come back, when it's over, no need to say goodbye." The instrumental section shows clips of Eddie trying to bring Volt back(which shows crackles of energy and sparks), draining his energy with each attempt(the Player comes by often to make sure Eddie is recharging before the next try). When the lyrics start again, it shows Eddie, closing his eyes and concentrating to make one more attempt, trying to remember how it felt like to split himself in two("now we're back to the beginning; it's just a feeling that no one knows yet"). He struggles to get a grasp on the feeling, brows furrowed, so he tries harder to connect with how it felt to be with Volt, how Volt completed and complimented him so well("but just because they can't feel it to, doesn't mean that you have to forget"). This leads to Eddie remembering Volt, face relaxing as the memories flood in("let your memories grow stronger and stronger"). As he relives these memories, the electric glow in front of him grows and grows, until it's brighter than it's ever been in the previous attempts, then it seems to dim, but not dissappear. That's when Eddie slowly opens his eyes to see the results, and his eyes widen in disbelief("until they're before your eyes"). The shot widens out to reveal that Volt has been brought back to his physical form a few feet away("you'll come back, when they call you"). Then, it focuses on Volt smiling softly at Eddie("no need to say goodbye. You'll come back"), and walking over to him, who is crying in relief("when they call you"), to finally connect with him once more as things slowly fade to white as the song ends("no need to say goodbye").

Wow. I didn't think I'd be able to plan the whole thing. Welp, if you want a more organized version of this, just ask and I'll make a script or something like that so the sequence is a bit clearer.

Anyway, this is pretty long so I'll end it here and maybe make another one later down the line. If you actually use any of these ideas, please please please send them to me because I need more Date Everything content to feed the brainworms.

[trashcanreddiefan]

Pick Your Poison (Reddie Undercover Cop AU) 1/?

Summary: By-the-book DEA agent Edward “Eddie” Kaspbrak receives an assignment that takes him to Derry, ME in order to capture Robert “Bob” Gray, aka “Pennywise”, a notorious drug lord. Working with the local PD, he is partnered with Detective Richie Tozier, a wise-cracking, messy cop who immediately pushes Eddie’s buttons. When they have to go undercover as a pair, will they put aside their differences long enough to work together, or will working together reveal that they have more in common than they initially thought?

Word Count: 1089 for chapter 1.

Warnings: Canon-typical violence (in later parts), swearing, mentions of drug use, other tags to be updated as necessary for each part 

Author’s Note: Slow-burn, Dual-PoV Reddie AU inspired by this gifset by the lovely @toesure!

Tagging: @yourpersonalsleepparalysisdemon

CROSS-POSTED AT AO3

“What does that even mean?” DEA agent Edward Kaspbrak muttered to himself as he sat at his desk, reviewing a fellow agent’s field report in order to transcribe it. He made a note to ask Franklin what the hell a ‘bananagram orangutan’ even was and was absentmindedly chewing on his pen while trying to make sense of the report when his extension rang. 

He quickly took the pen out of his mouth and picked up the receiver without bothering to look at the caller ID. “Kaspbrak.”

“Agent Kaspbrak, urgent meeting in the conference room, now,” the voice of the DEA director, Nekol Eastwood, replied brusquely.

“Yes ma'am.” Eddie immediately hung up, grabbed his coffee, a notepad, and a new pen, and headed down the hall.

He entered the conference room and gave a brief nod to his colleagues already in attendance before sitting down and neatly arranging his belongings on the table, noticing that the projector that sat on the table was on and pointed towards the screen on the wall.

A few seconds later, Director Eastwood walked in. “Good morning everyone,” she said as she stepped behind the podium at the head of the room. “Thank you all for joining me on such short notice.”

Eddie turned his attention to the screen behind the Director as she picked up the presentation remote that had been sitting on the podium and clicked a button.

Eddie’s eyebrows raised as a photo appeared on the screen and Director Eastwood began to speak.

“At 6:42 AM this morning, we received an anonymous tip that Robert "Bob” Gray, also known as “Pennywise”, was currently located in a small town in rural Maine, which fits previous intel we had been given about an increase in the number of possible drug-related deaths in the area.“ She clicked to a new slide, showing a map of Maine, with a star on it labelled Derry. 

"A small baggie of pills, all bearing Pennywise’s logo, was found at the latest scene.” She clicked again and a new slide appeared. On the left side of the screen was a crime scene photo showing a close-up of a baggie of pills on the floor of a room. On the right, another photo showed a singular pill bearing Pennywise’s clown-faced stamp.

“Agent Kaspbrak.”

At the sound of his name Eddie subconsciously straightened and his eyes snapped from the screen back to Director Eastwood. “Yes ma'am.”

“Since Pennywise is believed to be involved I want you to go to Maine and work with the local PD in order to find him and bring him in." 

Eddie sucked in a breath. He had recently requested to be placed back on field duty but hadn’t expected to be handed an assignment quite so soon, especially not the one case he had been itching to get involved in. "Me, Director?”

Director Eastwood leveled a look at him. “You requested to be placed back on active field duty, did you not?”

“Yes, ma'am.”

“Well then. You’re approved.” Director Eastwood looked around the room. “The rest of you know your assignments. You’re dismissed.”

Eddie went to get up, but Director Eastwood stopped him. “Agent Kaspbrak, before you go, a moment please.”

Eddie lowered himself back into his seat as the rest of his colleagues filed out.

Director Eastwood shut the door behind them before taking a seat across from Eddie. “You seemed surprised to be handed this assignment.”

“I was,” Eddie replied, “but only because I just submitted my official request to return to the field last week. I just wasn’t expecting to be given an assignment so quickly, especially not one as broad and important as the Pennywise case.”

Director Eastwood steepled her fingers together and looked at Eddie over them. “I know you’ve been studying this case for a while now and know the details and Pennywise’s patterns better than anyone, which is why I gave it to you. But if you feel like it’s too soon or need to start with something smaller I can assign someone else, like Franklin for instance–”

“Don’t you DARE,” Eddie hissed so as not to be overheard. “Franklin is an idiot!”

Director Eastwood’s lips quirked up in a smile, but Eddie was on a roll and didn’t notice. “I was trying to make sense of his field report from the Monterey cartel case last month and I swear, it’s complete nonsense. It’s riddled with grammatical errors, he misspelled the word 'grapefruit’, and he used so much correction tape on it that it looks like half of it has been redacted.”

He finally noticed the grin on Director Eastwood’s face and narrowed his eyes. “You weren’t actually going to give this assignment to Franklin, were you?”

Director Eastwood just quirked an eyebrow and leaned back in her chair. “How are you doing, Eddie?” she asked seriously. “Really.”

Eddie sighed and relaxed. “I’m fine, Nikki, I promise. I honestly feel better than I have in years. You know the only reason I requested desk duty during my divorce proceedings was so that I could be sure to be in town for the meetings with my & Myra’s lawyers since Myra kept trying to stall by scheduling meetings for when she knew I was out of town on a case. But now that the divorce is final I can get back to doing what I do best – capturing drug-running scum like Pennywise and putting them behind bars.”

“Good. I’m really happy to hear you say that.”

Eddie bit his lip. “I… I do want to say thank you though for everything else you’ve done for me during the divorce. You have no idea how much I appreciate you, and the therapist you recommended has been great in helping me figuring out who I am and what I want in life.”

Director Eastwood paused. “Any time, Eddie. Just because I’ve been your boss for the past 3 years, it doesn’t cancel out the 20-plus years of friendship that we’ve had and the fact that you’re basically family. You’re my best friend and I love you like a brother. You know you can always count on me if you ever need to talk or anything. You truly deserve to find happiness.”

“Thanks, Nikki.”

Director Eastwood stood and patted Eddie on the shoulder. “Now, the details of your assignment will be on your desk by the end of the day. Oh, and Agent Kaspbrak?”

Eddie grinned. “Yes ma'am?”

“Go catch the bastard.”

Director Eastwood shot him a wink as she left the conference room.

[thoughtsbegone]

Fresh.

Lights are now passing by my eyes clearly than I have ever seen before. It took me some time to fully realize this but I have now and, it's going to be a slow and rocky process. There may be times that I would look back and want the things that I had before but the things that will be offered in the future will be much more compared to what I had. It took me three years to finally realize my worth, so many people I have talked to, friends that I have lost along the way, connections that I have cut, and so much more. But all it took was one night, one thought, one emotion, and one person. I have done something that I have feared that I may do to someone, I have overstepped someone's boundaries. I know, it 's a small thing for other people but for me this one is big. I don't want to hurt anyone, be it as small as pinching them or as big as an emotional trauma. I never intended to hurt anyone and I don't think I'll be able to accept it as a thought that I have done it on someone, someone who I cherish and care for. Yes, I'm scared of doing it again and I will be taking it as a lesson to always, always check and to always ask for permission no matter how ridiculous it is, it will never hurt someone if you ask them if they are comfortable with something that you are doing with each other. I think that one scared me the most, the thought of hurting someone without me knowing scares me more than diving in the deep ocean and my phobia of the ocean is big. The thought of someone questioning and blaming themselves for what I did is something that my soul cannot fathom, that I myself cannot even accept even if it's small. I know this will sound ridiculous for other people but it is who I am, I have been scarred and traumatized by life that I don't want anyone experiencing that from me or from anyone for that matter. I know it's something that we cannot control, that we have no way of stopping but it may be something that we can prevent. It scares me that I have done something without me realizing it. Now, I'm taking all of it and leaving everything as well. I'm now walking towards the right direction and believe that this is the right direction. I have already told a friend of mine what's my plan and I'll elaborate everything, not like someone is going to be reading this after all.

Ever since I was a kid, I have always wanted to be an Architect and now that I am on my way to being one, I want to focus all my energy and thoughts into it. The sooner I graduate the better but I also want to enjoy what college has to offer to me. I want to focus on the team, being one with them and growing with them as a drummer as well as an individual. I want to focus my energy into healing, self improvement, and taking care of my physical and mental health. It's not too late to turn things around and to finally walk towards the right direction.

Ever since I stepped into college, I was thrown into a whirlwind of emotion. I went through two exes, many flings, hook ups, talking stages, and a lot of failed attempts at finding someone that I think would be suitable for me as a partner. While also juggling my schoolwork, my own mental health, the things that are going around me, and finding the motivation to keep on breathing. But as days, weeks, months, years has passed by I kept losing myself and kept on doing the same thing over and over again. Until I realized that, I am in the place where I have prayed for many years before but I continue to overlook it because I can't seem to be contented with the things that I have. Now that I am, I realize what I have and I'm excited as well as happy as to what life has to offer to me again. I'm an Architecture student from Mapua, one of the top schools in the country. I'm an Athlete in which I have always dreamed of being since I was in 6th grade. I have friends who support me and who always has my back no matter what happens. Also Nekol who has never left my side ever since she pestered me when we were in 11th grade. I am healthy, I have clothes that I love wearing, my favorite shoe collection, pets that I consider as my best friends, and a Family that supports me. This is what I wanted when I was a kid and more, I wanted to be able to study in Manila. I wanted friends who I can go to whenever I want to. I'm out and proud with myself, I'm taking care of everything and I have it all down to the T. My plan is to Graduate, become a License Architect, create my own company, have loads of money, and become a Pilot. And this plan makes me happy, this plan makes me feel contented. As you can see it's not a full on timeline but goals that I want to achieve in life. That is because I believe that I will be reaching all of those things despite what life throws at me, despite what will happen to me I will be reaching that dream of mine of being successful. You may be wondering, why is there no room for lovelife in your goals and dreams? I also asked myself that question. I don't know why I never included a Special Someone in that dream and goals of mine. I guess that's another question that we will find an answer to one of these days. But to answer and not so answer the question, I will be focusing everything on me right now and I think that was an overshadow that appeared when I built that plan of mine. Yes I want to marry someone but not right now, and I don't think that time will come just yet. Love seems to complicate things and life is already complicated, why complicate it more. Yes, it will be good to have someone by your side to check on you, to tell you they love you, to care for you, or feel them holding you in their arms but, I don't think I want that for now. I have myself and I can take care of myself. In this journey the lead is me, in this chapter the main character is me, and in this life the one I will be focusing on is Me. It's going to be one hell of a ride, but I'm ready for it. I'm so fucking ready for it.

[goatlingsvent]

i think all the designs for MM are really cute actually, my only complaint is that none of the cat themed designs got picked this year </3 ik we have kataluna and the maneki nekoling, but theres sooo many dog / bunny themed ADs comparatively.... i thought the witch familiar design was sooo cute, and i loved how they turned the horns into kitty ears to comply w the design requirements

🛍️

[sharpmidnight]

Ennui x Leader?

/Literally had this child in my mind for about 3 weeks and I love them so much. I will fight anyone to protect them. Now I have an opportunity to show them./

• Name: The name would be Nicole, after Ennui’s mother. However, because of a certain reason that I’ll explain later, some people will call her Nekole because of her being like a cat.

• Gender: This kitten would be a girl. Ennui is actually very glad about it since he doesn’t want to raise a boy.

• General appearance: She would have long black hair that reach to her waist and blue eyes. She also have some freckles on her face. Also has hearing aids that looks like headphones with cat ears on the top. Even a tail that touches the ground to help feel any vibrations or any other objects. (Leader was going to make boots but thought it was cuter if he made a tail. Ennui loves it.) And fingerless gloves that has claws in them. (Ennui taught her how to fight because he is very overprotective over his family)

• Personality: Sweet, kind, and quiet. I kinda think of her as a curious kitten that wants to help others as much as possible. Can be a little mischievous at times like hiding stuff or turning off her hearing aid so it looks like she’s listening. (If it glows, it’s on. But if it’s not the it’s off. Many people don’t know this.) Usually calm like Ennui, but more cheerful.

• Special talents: Has her father ability to be super flexible. (You see where I’m going with this, right?) Likes to solve puzzles and actually is a very musical person who likes to sing or play different instruments.

• Who they like better: She loves them both but only pick sides if she either agrees with them or is on her side.

• Who they take after more: Well it’s kinda a mix with being a little adventurous like Leader to being laid back like Ennui, but cautious. People are very confused of the child being related to a ragged mummy and a guy that looks like an alien.

• Personal headcanon: Nicole is partially deaf but with Leader’s help, she can hear fine with her hearing aids. If they break, she will use sign language communicate, but it doesn’t mean that she can’t talk. (She loves to trick people with that) She thinks that she wants to be an agent like her dad, Ennui, but thinks she wants to do something in music, like a teacher.

• Face claim: Demi Lovato.

[nekole-doodles]

So, in the C! Quackity finale, Slime said that he would go to see the rest of the world, right? What if someone made a fanfic of Slime traveling through different SMPs and learning from the people there and their conflicts while also giving some very wise advice too? I think that would make me happy. C! Slime, you are a cool goopy guy, I hope you know that

[nekole-doodles]

November 16th is coming up and since this is the first year in this fandom that I've been as directly involved in the community rather than just consuming the fancontent on YouTube or ao3, I really wanted to do something special, but I completely lost track of time, have a bunch of homework, and have a SERIOUS artist block right now, so you guys are probably gonna get a little oneshot scene from one of my canon compliant(? Kinda canon compliant, just with a different continuation of the ending and an important added element for flavor) about November 16th :] I'm mostly going to be working on it during free time in class since I don't have time at home, so it's going to be rough around the edges, but hopefully it'll be good enough!

[nekole-doodles]

I made a poem thing for my English class and I actually really like it :D The assignment was to write a poem similar to the poem "Where I'm From" by George Ella Lyon but using our own life for it

I Am From Memories Just Out Of Reach

I am from colorful cartoons and innocent cluelessness

From rainbow popsicles and Sunny-D,

To Lola’s rice crispies and a roof I was too scared to touch

(My cousins trying to beckon me over like a lost animal, the hot summer sun beating down)

I am from tacky skirts and fluffy boots that turned to sweaters practically glued to my body

I am from nightmares like abstract paintings depicting death and peril

Nightmares I still have today, I could always tell when I was being dragged down into one

From a dreamcatcher I had to hang that has had a place in my room for years

I am from Hello Kitty and soft plushies

Stuffed animals that would stare back at me with void eyes, untouched but never forgotten

I am from sinigang and white pasta,

The nickname Kimchi that I adored but was barely used

I am from the feeling that I was always supposed to have wings and fly into the cotton candy clouds

To wanting to have superpowers from books I’ve read over and over again

I am from summer hikes and smiles that never looked quite right in family photos

I am from impulsive comments and embarrassment,

From gained anxiety to hesitation, never asking my parents for what I need

I am from old friends I long for who don’t long for me anymore

I am from a line of neutrality, being tugged this way and that

I am from memories that I wish to forget but anxiety never will

I am from stomach aches of unknown origin and never trusting my own memory

I am from interests that no one shares, interests that die in everyone except in me

I miss the line “It was never meant to be” and comfort characters who have never once felt comfort in their lives

I miss the great warrior who was an anarchist but wore a monarch’s outfit,

The child soldier who just wanted a family, a home, but everyone would always leave,

And a revolutionary, the brother who destroyed his “unfinished symphony” in his spiral of insanity

I look back at pictures displayed proudly but not by me,

Wanting to obscure my own strained smiles and too-wide eyes

I don’t like my past me but at least she had less worries

I have interests I want to speak about, ramble about all of the “what-ifs” and “could’ve beens”

But no one is a willing listener, no one could understand these thoughts of mine

My mother says I talk too fast, everyone does, but, to me, I don’t talk fast enough

Never enough time, never enough lines in this poem, why can’t there be more hours in the day?

Always have to be moving because of buzzing energy but I never want to do work

Sometimes I wish I had no interests at all so all I could do is focus on my work but…

I want to read to myself and try to copy the characters’ accents until my voice goes hoarse,

I want to sing my voice raw, write until my hands cramp, walk and watch the dying sunset

Maybe even be satisfied with my writing and my art to share to anyone and everyone,

Not just to a slim few or to people who will never know my face and I’ll never know theirs

I have all these ideas I want to share but can't put into words, amazing concepts I can't draw

Will there be anyone to listen, will anyone understand the words coming out of my mouth?

And yes, I felt like adding a few DSMP references was obligated! I needed an allusion so I added one about the hyperfixation that influenced me the most!

[nekole-doodles]

Someone recommended the band Bears In Trees and I checked them out on Spotify :> Their top song was Ramblings of a Lunatic and as I listened to it, I was just like- oh... C! Tommy :|

Time to cry now (after adding the song to my C! Tommy playlist) :D

But like- I was literally about to cry in a hotel room surrounded by my family and I'm like "Well Frick :/" I can't help, I just get really sad when an angst song reminds me of characters I like!

But seriously, they have really good music, you should totally check them out :D

[nekole-doodles]

Part #4 of Nekole's DSMP-coded songs! Haven't done one in like- 2 weeks

C! Wilbur, especially post-finale/Utah ending

"Does somebody jump for joy" How he thought others would react to him leaving

"Does somebody cry?" How C! Tommy reacted to him leaving

"Does somebody want me now? Now that I can't fly, Now that I'm not part of the madness" After leaving to go to Utah, Wilbur wonders if anyone misses him now that he's not a part of the Dream SMP anymore. A kind of "you only miss it when it's gone" kind of thing. Now that Wilbur isn't a present threat in everyone's mind, people don't have to always worry about what he'll do and now there is room in their thoughts to think about Wilbur without the automatic worry over what his presence brings. It makes way for people to really reflect on how they felt about him and maybe even miss him.

"Laughter and screams seem to echo faintly, I can still hear them around" Wilbur reminiscing on the old days of the DSMP when things felt simpler. He misses those days sometimes, misses when his friends were happier and didn't always glare at him with automatic suspicion.

"Somewhere the roller coaster climbs and dives, While I've got my feet on the ground" Quite a few things happened after Wilbur left and he was never aware of what happened after he left, he just had a feeling that big things were still happening without him there to witness it. He doesn't know if he likes that thought or not.

"Aren't I so much better now that I'm just a normal guy? Now that I'm not... Part of the madness" Wilbur left DSMP so he can let other people heal without him since it seems that all he can do it hurt people. He also thought that maybe if he got away from the place where he was "corrupted," he could also slowly become a better person.

[nekole-doodles]

Hello and welcome to my blog :D (This will get updated every once in a while)

She/her and Omnisexual :] (And chronically single, pathetically so. Probably cupioromantic :/)

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I mainly share and ramble about my AUs and headcanons for my current hyperfixations and occasionally post my art :)

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Main Fandoms(Hyperfixations): DSMP, QSMP, FNaF, Hermitcraft, Date Everything(Help me... I hate how quickly the brainworms for this game took over)

Minor Fandoms: Arcane(got demoted to minor fixation) Jujutsu Kaisen, Detroit: Become Human, Good Omens, Steven Universe(the OG hyperfixation), The Owl House, Gravity Falls, The Amazing Digital Circus, The Magnus Archives(only on Ep 16 ToT), Yuri!!! On Ice, Violet Evergarden, Haikyuu(more of an old SUPER hyperfixation rather than a current casual fixation but it still has a special place in my heart for being my first MAJOR hyperfixation)

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Have a basic sense of human decency and common sense in comments, asks, or reblogs.

Reblogs and comments are definitely welcome, just no reposting or claiming my art(even though I doubt my art is worth claiming ahdksj)

My DSMP/QSMP posts are ONLY TALKING ABOUT THE CHARACTER, not the creator, please don't harass me in the ask box, comments, and etc about that kind of stuff

Also, a little less important, but I'm trying not talk about real-life politics in my blog and keeping it mostly fandom things since I don't really like talking about politics and I don't have the right to since I don't know the full story of everything going on and don't want to spread misinformation. This blog was created mostly to talk about my hyperfixations and share my thoughts, headcanons, AUs, analyzations, and fanart, so I will try and keep it that way.

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[thoughtsbegone]

Things that have happened since we parted ways

It has been two? Three months? Since we have last spoken. As usual, it ended in a heated argument. You blocked me out of nowhere which still angers me sometimes because I don't get it, but now I'm just "meh" towards the whole situation. A lot has happened since then, and I can finally say I have moved on.

I've decided to cut my hair shorter than before, and I love it. I'm more confident now, I received a lot of compliments from other people, especially my friends and Ligaya, who always says that I look pogi whenever she sees the chance. I also say that I'm pogi out of nowhere, and I get really happy because of it, I can say that I'm more confident in myself now that I love how I look. I started going to the gym and working out more, plainly because we need it for training and such but it also boosts my whole energy. I'm more positive towards the world and how I face things, my mindset has changed a lot and, I don't know. I'm more carefree now, happier than before. Classes still drain the heck out of me, but I'm more eager to work on it than bury it under the ground. I found lots of things fun now, who knew that I would get better at Valorant hahaha. I'm playing Genshin less but I think that's because I get to play with friends on Valo more than I do with Genshin. I'm spending less time with Angel, Karen, and Jess that's because we're all busy with different things in life. Karen is now living with Abi at Sta. Cruz, meanwhile Angel, and Jess are busy with their meetings at school. I remember how you said you're jealous of Ligaya, out of all the people! Haha! But I'm thankful for her, she doesn't know it but she saved me more than once. She helped me in more things than she thinks she did. And also Nekol, who we now call Doktora, if it wasn't for the two of them, I wouldn't know where I would be right now. I don't think I'll be writing this or even join drumcorps. Because of those two people, I met other souls who are genuine, caring and supportive. Pops, Wawi, Katrina, Belle, Patrick! All of them managed to impact my life in ways I could never have imagined before.

I'm still working on my relationship with my parents, these days it was more rocky than before. We fought more but that was because I'm trying to tell them more than I did in the past and opening up with the issues that I see with us as a family. I'm more vocal now, I speak up about what I feel, if I can't talk to other people I try to write as much as possible. It helps, believe it or not, it really does and it makes me happy when I read it again.

This is out of the blue but, I met this girl HAHAHAHA. I know my friends are gonna laugh when they see this but I did meet this girl out of nowhere on Omegle. She's 2 years younger than me but she acts like she's the same age as me. I kinda like her, she's a genuine soul who should be protected and cared for but she has this tough shell that's sometimes hard to crack and read but she peels it off piece by piece as time goes by. She's really fun to be with and I enjoy teasing the hell out of her, we have this banter relationship and I just enjoy it. I saw her for the first time last month and I had a blast spending time with her, I think we grew closer because of that but I'm happy that she gained more friends through me, a stranger she met on Omegle just to play valo with. She knows I like her but I just joke around with her because she likes someone else and I respect her, I don't push whatever I feel towards her even though my friends hear enough of me going "I miss ******" or "I like ******" HAHAHAHA. Yes I'm censoring shit because who knows who will read this. But if my friends are the ones who are reading this, you all know who I'm talking about because I taLK ABOUT HER ALL THE TIME. Added thought to that is, I'm more open to loving someone now. I went back to the yellow app, I know you know this because you swiped on me. Sorry but I didn't swipe right on you because when I said I no longer want any connections, I meant that. But I am more open on letting people in my life now, example is the one above, but I'm more cautious and I choose those who I give myself to. Right now I'm not entertaining anyone because I genuinely like this person and I like their company but yeah, if time goes by and whatever feelings that I have for this person goes away, I might try again. I no longer entertain the idea of having too many people to talk to, I guess I got tired of doing it a lot back then and would just like to focus on one person now. I stopped smoking cigs now, I remember we always smoke a stick or two when we see each other and now I don't. I switched to disposable vapes and I enjoy it a lot. I may have missed a thing or two here and there but these are the things that my brain brought up. That sums up the things that happened when we stopped talking. I hope you're better now and is a lot happier than before if you are with someone, then good for you. If not, then that's still good, I hope everything goes well in your life. I know your graduation is coming up, and I just want to apologize that I won't be able to fulfill the promise that I said to you back then that I would attend your graduation, but I will send you flowers when the time comes, and I hope you'll appreciate them once you receive them. I'm still thinking about going and giving you the flower personally, but I don't think that will bring anything between the two of us. I will try my best to send you the flowers that I have mentioned, and I just want to say that still, after everything that has happened between the two of us. I'm proud of the woman that you have become.