#nothing if not consistent i guess 🤷🏻‍♀️

[sunminshine]

Tagged by @puppymocchi (ily ❤️❤️❤️) to post my top artists and songs of 2023!

Surprised but not surprised honestly 😅 a lot of the kpop is scattered throughout my 100 but leave it to Shinee to claim the #2 spot 💖

Not tagging anyone specifically but if any of you haven't posted yours yet, please do and tag me!!!

[vintagesuga]

Cuddle Party - Ot8

Genre: Huge fluff, Hybrid A.U

Paring: Polyamorus Ot8 x gn! reader

Warning: Polyamory, brief mentions of food

a/n: I meant to post this ages ago, but ya know 🤷🏻‍♀️. It's just kinda hard to keep consistency with my writing, and I hate that :( I want to write more. Also, this is proofread, but still let me know of any mistakes. It is greatly appreciated!!

Coming home to a quiet house wasn't all that unusual. There were sometimes when you could get some peace, but living with 8 hybrids, it was very rare for said peace. The calmest thing you had come home to was them talking about who knows what in the living room.

Kicking off your shoes and hanging up your coat, you placed your keys on the hook by the door. You moved sluggishly as you locked the door and padded into the living room. Before you could make it in all the way, however, a soft ball of fur startled you as it slinked in between your feet. You looked down, making sure you wouldn't kick it, as you quickly caught yourself on the wall. An orange tabby looked up at you, meowing at you like nothing happened. Like the little demon didn't just almost kill you. But you should have guessed he would greet you at the door. He always did.

"Hi to you too, Minho." You said as you reached down to pet him. He met you halfway, butting his head in your hand. "Where are the others?"

Minho didn't answer you. He just started to stroll down the hall. He then looked back at you, trilling at you as if to tell you to follow. You followed behind him as he climbed the stairs and made his way to your bedroom. All the while, he would look back, making sure you were still following.

Your bedroom door was cracked open slightly, just big enough for an animal to slip in. You pushed it open all the way now, trying to be somewhat quiet. The sight that greeted you was absolutely heart meltingly sick.

There on your bed were all your beloved hybrids. All snuggled up to each other, taking up most of the space on your bed. Each one was in their animal form, the mass of fur rising and falling with their breathing. It was cute. You resisted the urge to coo at them, not wanting to disturb their sleep.

Hyunjin, your panther hybrid, was stretched out just below your pillows. With his legs spread toward the middle of your bed, he looked as if he wanted to take up as much space as possible. In the space between his neck and shoulder was a tiny brown ball. It would seem Jisung, your chipmunk hybrid, thought Hyunjin made for a good pillow. I mean, who could blame him? You had done the same thing once or twice. Jisung was curled in on himself, taking up as little space as possible. It was funny, seeing the difference between the two of them.

In the middle of the bed lay a mass of multi-colored fur. A beagle, fennec fox, and Australian Mist. Seungmin, the beagle, was facing your closet. His back against Jeongin's who faced the opposite wall. Jeongin, the fox, was curled up in a ball. His large ears lay flat against his head and his fluffy tail covering his snout. Felix, your other cat hybrid, also had his back facing the other two, and much like Jeongin, he too was curled up in a ball. What was funny was that on top of all three hybrids lay Changbin. The bunny hybrid had somehow burrowed his way into the junction at their backs. His feet faced Seungmin and every so often would thump against the poor puppy. Although the puppy didn't seem to mind.

Chan, ever the caring pack leader, had taken up the space at the foot of the bed. Curled up with his snout in his tail, the wolf hybrid faced the bedroom door as if to protect his pack. His eyes were on you, and his ears would twitch in your direction every so often. There, by his head, the sheets were disrupted, and you suspected that's where Minho was lying. Offering his silent support to your pack leader.

Like I said earlier, it was an adorable sight to behold. All your hybrids cuddled up together on your bed. Note that your bed is big enough that at least two or three of them could be in human form. I mean, that's the whole reason you bought a king-sized bed. Curiously, though, they all decided to sleep in their animal form, more than likely just for convenience.

You carefully snapped a photo, sharing it with the group chat, before quietly making your way to the bathroom. You stopped by your dresser, grabbing a change of clothes.

When you came back out of the bathroom, nothing changed. Minho had just laid back down in his spot, butting his head softly against Chan's. Like he was reassuring him that everything was ok, it was just you. No threats.

You smiled. Times like this, it's what you lived for. Just the domesticity of it all melted your heart. All of you are so different, yet you worked so cohesively, like you were just extensions of each other. Made for one another. It just made you beyond happy.

Quietly, you slunk out of the bedroom, going back downstairs to eat. You would join the fur pile later, maybe even convince one of them to cuddle in their human form. More than likely, Felix or Jisung. For now, however, you needed food. Craving the Jajangmyeon Minho texted you about earlier. You ate relatively slow, and your moves are sluggish. Your exhaustion is setting in gradually.

By the time you finished and cleaned up the dishes, it was nearing 10 pm. So you made your way back upstairs after double-checking locks and lights. Back in your room, the fur pile seemed to have shifted only slightly. Changbin now cuddled up in Felix’s paws. Jeongin had stretched out, and Seungmin was now facing the door more.

Hyunjin was a rock and didn't move an inch. Jisung had gotten hot and splayed out on your pillows, his bushy tail flicking every now and again. You chuckled, shuffling over to the side of the bed before deciding to disturb them. You didn't want to, but you needed to sleep too.

“Alright you moochers. Pack it up and move, I need in here.” You softly nudged Hyunjin's head. Hoping he would get the memo and at least wake up enough to move.

He huffed, moving his head but making no progress in waking up. So you patted his body a little harder. It earned you a growl as he started to shift, which in turn made everyone else shift. Hyunjin's weight disturbing the bed.

Jeongin let out a yawn as he woke up. Pawing at his face before realizing you were there. He jumped up almost instantly, shoving his face in your hands. Jisung startles awake, making a noise as he hops down from the pillows stretching and moving off the bed.

The others showed their enthusiasm in various ways. Nuzzling against you and cuddling up around you, something that was easier in animal form. Jisung had come out of the bathroom, hugging you from behind as he pressed his face in your neck. Mumbling his hellos against your skin. Chan waited patiently. He had transformed into his human form a bit ago. Waiting for the others to have their turns first.

“How was work?” He greeted you with a peck to your lips. Hearing a couple of groans from those who had shifted. Seungmin made a comment about needing to throw up. Like he wasn't just peppering your face earlier.

You groaned at the mention of work. “It was ok. Had to sit through a dumb meeting that they could have just summed up in an email.”

“That's how it is, though. They just want to make sure you hear it, I guess.” Chan chuckled as you rolled your eyes.

“I guess. It's just so boring, and now I'm tired and just wanting cuddles.”

You flopped on the bed, mindful of those who were still lying down. You got comfy in the middle, opening up either side of you to anyone who wanted cuddles. Jisung dove at the opportunity, nuzzling up to your side as he tangled his limbs with yours. It had been a while since he had his turn with you.

That's how you all worked. Taking turns being cuddled up with each other. Since you couldn't shift into an animal, you were often in the middle of some cuddle sandwiches. The others could shift so they could shimmy themselves wherever there was space. You all had your own rooms but it was nice sleeping all together sometimes. Changbin and Jisung, especially, loved making nests in your bed.

“Why were you all in my room?” You asked as Hyunjin took up the space on your other side. His long arms snake around your waist, pulling you into his chest.

“Cause we missed you. And your scent is strongest here.” He mumbled into your hair, already falling back asleep.

“I wasn't even gone that long.”

“Yeah but still. Missed you.” Jisung pressed a kiss to your forehead.

It was easiest for Hyunjin and Jisung to be the ones in human form when all nine of you slept together. Since they were the biggest and smallest in animal form. The others curled up along the bed in various places. It was hot, sure, that's why you dressed so loosely, but you wouldn't have it any other way.

This was home.

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[37q]

ive been kinda disgusted with my stream of consciousness lately. talking about it just entrenches the banks of the river but conceptualization is the first step to dissolution. or maybe not, because i cant tell if my general attitude in this chapter of my life is just a crystalizing observation of a pattern witnessed in a series of impermanent events or not, or even if the conceptualization of the attitude informs my future decision making. on the other hand these could all be naturally internalized products of my reality, and identifying them as a pattern could just end up being an illusory post hoc reconstruction of some eternal ego. is it my stream of consciousness? or the attachments im throwing in there for a little reference?

anyhoodles i wanna change at least how i conduct myself internally because i gain nothing from my current setup. i guess i could consider this a psychological "take back whats mine" from the conditions that, well, condition me. but thats silly, who am i without what im made of? thats right, nothing. but not in a bad way. this isnt a woeful tale. since i want to maintain a sense of self instead of dissolve rn ill just make more conditions, ones i really like. its really that simple 🤷🏻‍♀️

one of my conditions that ive either left myself unequipped to confront or allowed myself not to give a fuck to change is that i crave consistency. but im talking like philosophical -> subatomic type shit. i get all inductive about everything. and i wanna find a "straight and narrow" thing but truly i only agree with buddhism LOL.

im so burned by all the shit women go through in their sanghas and the reactionary tendencies of all institutional manifestations of spiritual dogma but especially buddhist ones. it makes me so mad and i dont think its right to ever let that go, and i feel that way about a lot of things. buddhism is far too unjust for me, even though its correct. sometimes somebody needs to win. but that attitude could either be an ego-driven product of adversity or the engine for my so-called spiritual isolation. or maybe im right! maybe theres a way for buddhists to do the right thing, and its definitely not the present patriarchal sangha culture. but if nothing else its definitely emblematic of where i am right now. is it something to fight or accept? and is dissolution not acceptance?

[whorrorbvby]

We have. They apologize and make sure to tell me that I mean something to them but they run away. I feel like I'm being pulled and pushed at a whim. I do my best to understand and I believe they aren't doing things with ill intent but it hurts all the same. Feeling like I'm not fully good enough to keep close consistently. I'm good for a couple of days and nights but to never expect them to stay longer than that. I know people that are married that met through this site. Best friends, no, family made here. Some people suck and put on a mask on here but there are also real people on here, and because of that, is why I'll always be real. but it does feel like a curse at times.

i totally get that. honestly it’s kind of why i keep to myself as much as possible. i’ve come to realise the people who are always going on about how ‘real’ they are tend to be the most dishonest and the persona they are projecting is complete bullshit. it’s wild and honestly kind of sad what people will do for attention on the internet but hey to each their own i guess 🤷🏻‍♀️

in the case of your situation though they seem like an avoidant and as much as it sucks there’s really not much you can do to change the situation. you kind of have to either accept that this is how it’s going to be with them coming and going or remove yourself from the situation. it doesn’t have anything to do with you, believe me. avoidants go and stick around where it’s easy if that makes sense? i’m 10000% guilty of doing this as well. if im overwhelmed i just peace out and you won’t hear from me for days, weeks, months, sometimes never again if enough time passes. it has nothing to do with the other person and everything to do with me no matter how much i care about someone. i don’t trust people so if im given positive reinforcement my brain calls bullshit and the more security i’m given the more i push it away. it makes me physically uncomfortable and sometimes even angry but i can’t help it. like i haven’t spooeb to anyone in my family in like 2mo and every time they reach out a rage builds inside of me because i just don’t want to deal with it and then on a random tuesday i could be in a great mood and want to talk to them again and then the next day it will be back to silence.

i’ve also been on the receiving end of avoidance but because i’m just like them i do understand and while it’s beyond frustrating i really can’t hold it against them and im sure you can’t do that to your person either yea? they will continue to do this push and pull until they decide to do the inner work. they have to want to change and be better but change is also really fucking hard and scary. i’m not sure how close you are with this person but you could try and have a conversation about their avoidance and offer a supportive hand if they want to fix your relationship but you have to give them the choice. say, if you want this you have to come to me’ because avoidants want you to chase them so they know you care but by you chasing you’re only reinforcing that their behaviour is okay. don’t completely cut them off, still show you care and support them small ways like 🤍 their posts if they make personal ones or if you follow each other on other socials interact with them there so they know you’re still there for them but don’t message or anything because you’ll just keep setting yourself up for that same dynamic.

it’s hard dealing with an avoidant and it takes a lot of patience and understanding and an open heart but it also take communication like if they’re in a avoidant mood they have to communicate they may disappear and you then have to allow them that space and the opportunity to come back but they absolutely need to communicate. setting boundaries like that and adhering to them is the most basic form of respect you know?

i don’t ever think all hope is lost when dealing with an avoidant and it absolutely has nothing to do with anything you’re doing it’s just you have to make a decision on what it is that you want. if you want to fight then fight but if you don’t think you can handle the potential disappointment or don’t think it’s worth it honestly it would be in your own best interest to let them go.

[always-rolling-my-eyes]

Ok, no one asked, but here are my thoughts / impressions of the DWTS 32 cast, and I’m going to be honest, I had to google more people on this cast than any other season before so 😬:

Excited for:

Ariana Madix: I am obsessed with all things Bravo and the #Scandoval was literally my entire life for about for 4 months. She has dance and performing experience, and I think she’s going to be really good. Plus, having Pasha as a pro, the choreography he is going to give her 😍 (not to be morbid, but this is actually the couple I’m most sad that Len won’t get to see 😢)

Alyson Hannigan: I was a Buffy fan and loved HIMYM (until that god awful finale 🤮) so I am so happy (but very surprised tbh) to see her on the cast. Idk how much of a natural mover she’ll be, but I think she’s going to have a really great attitude and just enjoy the experience. I am expecting typical Sasha so…yeah 🤷🏻‍♀️

Jason Mraz: I’m mostly excited for him because he’s with Daniella tbh 😂 she always does such great work with her partners and is able to pull the very best out of them. I can see him being a good performer and them being a very strong team. Also, yay to new mommy, Daniella! 💗

Mira Sorvino: Romy! I know she has had a rough time (fuck you H*rvey W*instein🖕🏻) and I hope this journey brings her happiness and joy and she sees how much support she has and why, oh why did they have to partner her with Gleb 😩

Intrigued by:

Tyson Beckford: Wow. He is 😍 isn’t he? And apparently his only dance experience is a guest performance with Chippendales (shocking 😂) which will be interesting because we all know how Jenna is as a teacher 😬. I predict a lot of shirts being taken off 🙄 (but also 😏) And again, yay to new mommy, Jenna! 💗

Matt Walsh: Seen him guest star on almost every sitcom ever 😂 and I see his trajectory going one of two ways: he’s terrible and voted out early, or he’s the lovable guy the GP falls in love with because of his dedication and journey. He’s either low hanging fruit or a dark horse and with Koko as his partner, I would lean towards dark horse.

Mauricio Umansky: So…(separated?) husbands of Real Housewives are stars now? Whatever 🙄 and honestly out of all the House Husbands, I am unbelievably grateful this is the one they chose. (istg if it was any of those misogynistic animals from RHONJ, I would not have watched this season) but anyway, I think he’ll work hard but not take it too seriously (not in a bad way) and he’ll have fun with it. Plus, it will be a cold day in hell before I don’t support Emma Slater. And aren’t they both single? 😏 I want an entanglement in the ballroom! 😂

Barry Williams: I’m only intrigued because we’ll probably get some sweet Florence Henderson mentions / memories because of him 😢. And Peta is definitely the designated first out partner atp. But it probably works for her so 🤷🏻‍♀️ and yay to mommy x2 Peta! 💗

Have heard of them, but don’t know them:

Charity Lawson: I know she was the Bachelorette but other than that, I got nothing. 🤷🏻‍♀️ But I always root for Artem, and he’s pretty consistent with his partners and choreography. That combined with Bachelor Nation, very possible they make the Finals unless she is absolutely, undeniably terrible (which I doubt) or if shenanigans happen

Xochitl Gomez: I’ve heard her name before, but I always thought she was a singer 🥴 my bad 😂 I haven’t watched anything Marvel related in almost two years, so 🤷🏻‍♀️ she’ll probably go far especially because of the Disney / ABC connection as well as Val being the most production assisted pro in DWTS history (sorry, but y’all know how I feel about Val 🤮 😂) but I do think she’s going to be fun to watch and actually be a good dancer, I just don’t have faith her partner will give her good choreography. We’ll see how (or if) that effects things (probably not)

Had absolutely no idea who they were:

Lele Pons: Influencer? I guess? She seems nice and I love how excited she is to be on the show. I think she’s going to be a lot of fun and maybe this can be a breakthrough season for Brandon🤞🏻

Harry Jowsey: Reality Star? Dating show? Youtuber? I have no idea tbh. And, not to go all Karen Smith, but if he’s British, why isn’t he on Strictly? 🤨 But very much looking forward to Rylee as a pro. I always enjoyed Lindsay as a teacher / choreographer, so let’s see if it runs in the family 😂

Adrian Peterson: I WISH I STILL DIDN’T KNOW WHO HE WAS. WTF 🤬 Poor Britt. To go from Daniel to this? The ultimate downgrade 😔

Don’t give one single fuck about:

Jamie Lynn Spears: I have made my feelings on this vile creature known 🤮 Apologies and best of luck to Alan (not really tho because I want her foul ass eliminated asap)

[rosapexa]

I'm not even trying to contest the stupid lables Tumblr puts on my stuff. It's been days since i disputed the first (in my opinion) false flagged posts, including my pinned post. And nothing happened.

And the flagging happily continues. Even in my freakin' drafts 🤣

My TL consists of at least 40% posts from mutuals, that are flagged and when i click on them it's the most harmless stuff. And the pixelated profile pics are the rediculous cherry on the stupid cake.

I guess, we have to accept atm, that we are all filthy porn accounts now 🤪🤷🏻‍♀️

The post flagging by Tumblr is getting so damn rediculous 🙄

I really hope it doesn't stay this way, cause this is already not fun anymore 💩

[lovecolibri]

SaL anon here friend to (belatedly) celebrate the success of our "zero expectations" attitude for 911 this week!! We got a lot of fussing over Buck and a whole Buddie scene on OG (honestly I would easily skip most 6x11 and go straight to this episode if I could) and some amazing backstory for Marjan and family moments over on LS. So yay to keeping our expectations in the ground!! I have nothing to expect for the next OG episode since every plot line seems kinda closed right now (I guess not the Denny stuff but its barely been around so 🤷‍♀️) so keeping that up when it returns seems easy enough (knowing KR I'm sure we'll get some promo eventually to sink them) but I'm actually looking forward to seeing a paramedic focused episode on LS (not that there's been much of a firefighting focus lately 🙄) so I should start tempering that.

Anyway, the main point right now is that its finally song time!! And look, I know we've done this one a LOT, but you cannot convince me that the Buddie of last episode was not the literal embodiment of Two. Its almost word for word perfection from "sweetheart, you look a little tired" to "calm waters if that serves you best". The way Eddie doesn't push, just gives the space he Buck needs and says what he needs to hear when he wants to hear it, and the little hints of their shared traumas and both want to "get around to fixing myself too", I couldn't resist, so enjoy!!

Hello my friend! I'm glad there's no episode today because between having my niece visiting and the head cold I have, there was no way this was getting done before tonight. 6x11 letting me down SO HARD in regards to Buddie/firefam focus and feels meant that 6x12 was so much sweeter when I was watching. (It still had some issues, one of which being that after telling us all about how Bobby and Buck are father and son we got nothing with Buck being worried or concerned about Bobby. I swear the pacing and planning is just all over the place with no consistency, but that's for another post.) I'm also confused about what we're doing for the rest of the season because everything but the Denny thing seems to be in a good place (I'm steadfastly refusing to think about the sperm donor thing because it's stupid and I hate it and IDK what the point even was if they weren't going to have Buck struggle at all. Still manifesting it's not his baby because I need this plot to GO AWAY and NEVER. COME. BACK.), but I know we have Ravi's return and some good Madney stuff to look forward to! Aside from the whole thing about L coming back (seriously, that more than anything else TANKED my excitement for the season. I hope they cut absolutely everything possible. Zero dialogue, just let her be present in the background and then fuck off forever), there looks to be some exciting stuff and the finale looks good! So it's a mixed bag. (I'm still not convinced that Buddie poker picture is real and not something that person did to show off some editing skills 🤷🏻‍♀️

For LS, oh man that was an EPISODE! I think I would mind less about them doing one-character focused episodes if they were more spread out so we got lots of everyone, every week and then once in awhile we got a "begins" type episode but I'm taking all the Marjan content where I can get it because we never get enough! And I'm excited to get back to the team responding to emergencies and tomorrow's episode looks really exciting on that front!

Okay, song time!! And look, it's not our fault Two is such a banger! It's just sooooo good! And if the show would quit robbing us of opportunities to do songs like Learning Curve and January White, we wouldn't be in this position, but here we are 🤷🏻‍♀️ So lets get to it!

sweet heart, you look a little tired. when did you last eat? come in and make yourself right at home- stay as long as you need. tell me, is something wrong? if something’s wrong you can count on me. you know i’ll take my heart clean apart, if it helps yours beat.

it’s okay if you can’t find the words, let me take your coat and this weight off of your shoulders.

Okay but YES this is EXACTLY the kitchen scene!! Eddie noticing Buck looks tired and welcoming him in, letting Buck make himself right at home, and not minding that it's already late and dark out. Then the whole "Am I allowed to ask how you are now?" because Eddie was going to give Buck space, but he is also desperate to know and to help and to be there for Buck like Buck was there for him after the shooting. AND THEN you have Buck bringing up the shooting and Eddie being willing to confront that memory, to take his own heart apart, to give Buck some peace of mind, and being willing to listen as Buck struggles to find the right words, and helping carry the weight for a bit so Buck can rest. I just... *screams into pillow* this whole first verse just...perfectly captures that whole scene. And there's something to parents often mis-typing as Twos because that's the state they revert to in times of stress and needing to protect their loved ones, and the Chris of it all being present in the food Eddie is making and Eddie taking that care and applying it to Buck too. Hold on a minute, I need to go cry about this scene again.

like a force to be reckoned with, a mighty ocean or a gentle kiss, i will love you with every single thing i have. like a tidal wave, i’ll make a mess. or calm waters if that serves you best. i will love you without any strings attached.

Ahhhhh, this is the 6x10/6x12 parallel just laid out in front of us too! When Buck was suspended in air, Eddie was a force to be reckoned with, fighting to get him up and when that failed, getting him down to safety, and forcing Buck's heart to beat until it could do so on it's own. When Buck spent the whole day hosting people and putting up a front that he's fine (because he doesn't want to be a burden), Eddie is the calm waters Buck retreats to where he can rest. Eddie sees what Buck needs and makes sure he's able to give what serves Buck best in the moment. And how "love me anyway" coded is "I will love you without any strings attached"?!

it’s okay if you can’t catch your breath, you can take the oxygen straight out of my own chest.

Oh man, we were just missing a scene of Eddie giving Buck mouth-to-mouth and this would have fit PERFECTLY but they knew they would never recover from that 🤣 This also fits the shooting conversation scene (both this one and the one from season 5 at the stables but in reverse), where Eddie sees that Buck is struggling and pulls his memory of that horrible day from himself to give Buck a moment to breathe.

i know exactly how the rule goes: put my mask on first. no, i don’t want to talk about myself- tell me where it hurts. i just want to build you up, build you up ’til you’re good as new and maybe one day i will get around to fixing myself too.

Oof oof oof. I'm thinking about that little wrinkle in Eddie's brow after he says "you DIED, Buck" like he can't bare to think or talk about that moment. Which is fine because right now it's NOT about him and how he's feeling, he wants to get to the bottom of where Buck is hurting so he can help him feel better. I would LOVE if this comes back around later because Eddie has been doing so well, but I would strongly suspect something like this, especially with him being the one holding the rope, to throw him for a loop. I don't expect to see it, but it's what makes sense in the narrative.

i don’t even know where to start, already tired of trying to recall when it all fell apart. and i just want to love you, to love you, to love you well. i just want to learn how, to somehow, be loved myself.

This is just...the Buddie thesis statement. I want to love you well, I want to learn how to somehow be love myself. That's it! That's Buddie in a nutshell.

like a force to be reckoned with, a mighty ocean or a gentle kiss, i will love you without any strings attached. and what a privilege it is to love, a great honor to hold you up.

like a force to be reckoned with a mighty ocean or a gentle kiss, i will love you with every single thing i have like a tidal wave, i’ll make a mess. or calm waters if that serves you best. i will love you without any strings attached, i will love you without a single string attached.

While 6x12 made this chorus very much fitting for Eddie, it's also just so true of both of them like, all the time. They are always there to balance each other out, to give what the other is needing in the moment, whatever serves them best, and they love each other. Full stop. Without a single string attached, that love is there for the other's taking. Aaaaaaand now I'm crying again.

PERFECT choice this week with everything we got! Fingers crossed we can get at least one more song out of this season!

[sanstropfremir]

Why are the theatre/film schools like that? 💀💀💀

In mine most profs were complete idiots. One of them, a well know actor and the president of the Academy at that time, did absolutely nothing in class. He bailed most of the time due to “shootings” and the few days he came we practically did nothing, just some chats with him about his job. To grade us he asked us to write in a paper what we thought we deserved. I kid you not.

Another one, who was a tv producer, was most likely very mentally ill and undiagnosed cause he would have the most random shitty ideas that we had to comply with and a lot of mood-swings. The day of the final exam he came 40 mins late because he was smoking week in front of the back door and then proceeded to give us the weirdest exam ever that kept us a minimum of 3 hours there. We had to make a plan of how to shoot an event and he kept adding snipers, famous people and animals to the mix.

There was one that I deeply hated cause we had 3 classes with him that were practically the same. He was more on the sociology side but did not know at all how to be a professor. His classes consisted of spiting facts and giving 10+ random bibliography per day. I learned nothing and I still have murderous waves every time someone mentions his name.

There was a couple who were married and had the sane vibe of old and way to classical. They were harmless until the end, when we learned that they blocked A LOT OF THINGS to make the space and curriculum better. Like, requesting funding to take a paid intern for their research lab of 3d shit, choosing the one (a friend of mine), signing the contract and then NEVER DO ANYTHING NOR SPEAK WITH THE CHOSEN PERSON. She had to go crying to the dean for a response and even then they were not held accountable. The school employed her as a paid intern in another department to make up for it but the rest never got resolved.

Other profs were alright, just very weird characters. The screenwriter prof was a very funny man but deeply depressed and had us all worried at first hour on Mondays (his Very Bad Day).

And on top of that was The Building™️. You see, ours was made by a very famous architect and it won several awards. Every couple of weeks we had someone taking photos of it. However, it’s the most impractical building ever because it was built as at a museum and not a school. The chairs are absolutely demential. So uncomfortable and very easily breakable BUT they cannot be replaced until 20-30 years from now because they signed a contract with the architect that said so. There is one (or two if your lucky) power plug per class but millions on the corridors. The bathrooms stalls are so narrow that if you want to enter with a bag/backpack you cannot close the door. In fact, some of those doors barely close without anyone inside. The editing rooms have gigantic windows where you cannot block the light so you can’t see shit on the computers. Well, windows are a thing in general. Classrooms have them but only one of them can be open partially with a button and let me tell you it does not help to ventilate properly 🙊. And the doors, boi, most of them had the handle broken so someone was always at risk of getting trapped there. You taught that they would fix this but it’s been more than 6 years since I finished and it’s still the same. There’s a twitter account that posts the shenanigans that are going on and most shit is the same.

So yeah, wild shit is always happening I guess 🤷🏻‍♀️

✨🎥 anon

literally all film/theatre schools are same shit different channel slkdfjsldkjflskdjflskdjflsdjflsdkjf oh i feel you for all of this. most of our profs did actually know what they were talking about thank god, but a lot of them were old bastions and hadn't worked professionally in AGES so they were sooooo out of date to how the scene actually operated in the modern era. we had a couple of real characters and one of which was the director for my thesis show, who was five foot zero inches and thin as a twig, wore leather pants frequently and called everyone 'lovey'. and like i previously said, was somewhere between 65 and 85 and nobody could tell bc she occasionally went to switzerland to have some crazy type of botox done to her face. we did have potentially maybe two sexual abusers?? i never got confirmation on any of it bc it was kept sooo tightly under wraps but in one case i'm not sure if there was any evidence brought forward (he was just a regular abuser though, that guy fucking SUCKED), and the other guy i only found out about from a former student bc the whole thing got swept under the rug bc his wife ALSO worked in the department. also the whole staff was like. so racist. the year after i left one of the shows that went up to committee for season suggestion was a show written in the 70s that had a bunch of racial slurs in it (and no people of colour in the script) and almost the entire student body put a petition up to remove it from selection but the director wouldn't stand down so they did it anyways 💀💀💀 i was fucking glad i was out of that hellhole by that time.

and oh my god the building architecture.....never before have i been so glad that there's no famous architects from anywhere near my hometown bc fuckin YIKES. we had a designated separate building from the rest of campus that was built in the 80s specifically for the theatre department, so we rarely left bc all the rehearsal rooms + class rooms were all in there with the theatres. and almost no non-theatre students came in bc there was only one 'theatre' class that a non-registered theatre major could take, and that was a public speaking class, so every time that class happened once a week we'd all give eyeballs to the lost looking business and sciences majors coming in. also there were signs on like every door that said 'no non theatre personnel beyond this point' (bc the building also had the box office and held audiences for when the shows were running) so anyone who was lost always looked extra lost. plus the whole thing was a huge maze bc there were upper level catwalks and corridors that connected the grid + fly systems between the two theatres, so the techies sometimes would go up to the upper levels and not come down for the entire day.

oh and there was a tradition where if you had sex in the building you would mark the spot with a black 'x'. in my first year we did a show with a big coffin as one of the setpieces and on one of the last nights of the run two of the actors fucked in it

[hannah-darlin]

Oh hello!! Welcome🌸

Heya the names Hannah! I’m a Digital Artist! I can also consider myself as a writer but just a bit I guess🤷🏻‍♀️ Also everyone here is welcomed and safe on this blog! So huddle along and vibe with me!😚

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All requests are closed at the moment. But for when they are open…

✍🏻As for art requests, same as writing, don’t request characters with too much detail, once again it’s hard to draw. And also no nsfw or else I’m sending you to horny jail!😾🔪

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What kind of blog is this? What stuff to you put up?💬

This is a blog that I post my Drawings, Short story prompts and Fanfics!(Though I’ll doubt I’ll write so soon) Cause I like to share my stuff with everyone! I also like to chat random stuff with my followers! So feel free to fire away asks!

What kind of people do you allow on your blog?💬

I’ll allow anyone to interact with me. The only people that are denied here are just hateful/disgusting people in general that has nothing to do in their sad lives.

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[harleiquina]

Typical... as if I don't have enough stories within my mind, a new one is brewing 🙄

So far I'm "working on":

- 7 books of a supernatural detective saga (Working title: Broken Wings): The Devil himself chooses to work with a demoted guardian angel to capture the evasive 7 Deadly Sins before Humanity is forever doomed... I'd tell more but SPOILERS. Bits and some chapters written here and there, and overall plot set so... I'll say it's about 20% done

- 3 books of, let's call it, a thriller (Black Suit). Asassins's organization is starting to be noticed by a group of detectives. Cat & mouse kinda thing with a twist but SPOILERS! so 🤐. I almost finished the first half of the first book, second one being plotted... the third one is still taking shape. About 30% done (?)

- 1 book, another supernatural/detective kind of thing -that could be more if inspiration strikes- of a Ghost-hunter-kinda-guy that tries to solve a murder of 70-ish years... with the victim's ghost obviously (Working title: Tak-tak). Just a few scenes half-way written, plot points set... 2% done.

- 1 book of a thriller? I guess based on 2 myths: 1) There are at least 7 people that look exactly like you around the world and 2) If you ever see your Doppelgänger, you die. Overall plot thought out... few scenes half-way written... maybe 5% done 🤷🏻‍♀️

- 1 book of fairy tales that will consist of retellings of famous stories (Cinderella, Snowhite, Sleeping Beauty and Beauty & the Beast born out of spite after Disney's remakes) and the novelization of my all-time favourite russian folkloric fairytale that will borrow elements of other stories to fill a few plot holes in the story. Either The Harlequin's retellings or The Little frog princess and other stories. Overall plot for the novelization done, first retelling (Cinderella AKA The Lady of the Well) first draft done, B&B in progress just like Sleeping Beauty... Snowhite is just a thought. I'll say 10% done.

- 1 fantasy book (The Hunter's Daughter) born out of the question "what if the lead heroine has a long dated romance with the villain of the story, but they keep it on secret to the rest of the world?". Few things, scenes' seeds, written and nothing more... let's say 0.5% done.

- 1 fantasy book (untitled yet) born out of the question "what if instead of having a romance born throughout the story between a human and a fae, they are already in a serious relationship until the Starting Incident takes place and the fae part has to 'come out' to their partner?". Just a thought, 1 dialogue written... about 0,3% done.

And now... another idea that could marry my untiltled project where a kingdom is divided into 4 realms (no hate among each other, just small family-rooted conflicts and maybe some mistrust towards some regions but nothing too big). We'll see... 🤷🏻‍♀️

Life would be a lot easier if I could live off of my creativity... but my country doesn't allow it and I need a "serious job" to support my family *cries in argentinean*

[i-will-steal-your-intestines]

@senadimell the babe is BAKED

now to the results…

we’ll start with the consistency..

it feels…a bit doughy, I suppose…not raw, it’s perfectly cooked, but it’s the feel of it, it’s like, idk, it’s just not my favourite.

flavourwise, I’d say it was fine.

it’s slightly zesty from the buttermilk, and it tastes of cinnamon and cloves, but those are not the main flavours, the main flavour is more sort of bananary…which I guess makes sense. i did add like 2 bananas after all, and overly ripe ones too (big mistake lol).

it tastes nothing like potatoes though, you wouldn’t even realise it was a potato cake really.

it was also rather sweet for my tastes. i added like 3/4 cup of sugar, nothing more than normal, so i think it was the ripeness of the bananas. my family liked it though 🤷🏻‍♀️.

so my notes for next time would probably be:

- reduce sugar to 1/2 cup

- replace buttermilk for eggs (2 to be specific).

- use bananas that are not too ripe (or eliminate bananas altogether?.. 👀🤔)

- attempt to add cocoa like the more common potato cake recipes and see how it goes.

- leave in oven an additional 15 mins maybe (I like mine a bit more crumbly and dry-ish, this one was too moist..AND ITS BECAUSE OF THE DAMN BANANAS I TELL U)

@senadimell the babe is baking, and it’s looking absolute divineee (and the SMELL, it’s absolutely permeating the kitchen)

few mins to go

[brittaninikolenow]

My Body Positivity Saga

Fat, that’s the word that describes most of my life. I was never a tiny kid and grew up into an even less tiny adult. I had tried diet pills, not eating, and every other unhealthy trick in the book. It never got me anywhere if it ever did get me anywhere it was very minuscule. I decided that maybe this was just me but I didn’t want it to be. And for that people shamed me for not loving myself. In a world where body positivity is key no matter the size I find myself being very body positive towards other people, people even bigger than me, but I just can’t find that positivity for myself. And then I realized it was because I wasn’t working on myself that I didn’t love myself.

This was me (the one in the blue) in 2008 Close to 200 pounds and miserable. I just wanted to be like everyone else I saw and then on Sundays I wanted to be something different than when I saw who is a very confusing time I just hit my 20s and had no clue who I was or what I was going to do with my life. When I move to New Orleans from Ohio I got even fatter. The food down in New Orleans does not help when you try to trim your waist. All of my friends around me were dancers or just athletic individuals and even though they were smaller than me they always told me to be positive about who I was and some days I felt good and other days I felt like I was never going to get out of this body. Now keep in mind this entire time I hadn’t even tried working out I hadn’t even tried doing anything to help my body I guess in your 20s you figured I’ll just change on its own 🤷🏻‍♀️

I love all shapes and sizes I cheer on women and men of any size that love themselves and know who they are it just wasn’t me I didn’t know who I was I didn’t know how to love myself. Until I finally realized that loving myself meant reaching my goals. I want to booty that goes Pow! I want abs and I want strong legs for days. So I started hitting the gym I didn’t see much progress and I still get frustrated every now and then and I finally learned to stop weighing myself Because my weight has nothing to do with my muscle I’m gaining and my inches that I’m losing. So now about a year into the gym time with some downtime in between for sure I haven’t been a consistent as I should be but I’m getting there. I now feel closer to loving myself because I’m closer to my goals. And that’s how I’m finding positivity in my body.

Sorry for such a short post I just wanted to talk about the struggles of weight and self love that we all struggle with. Hope you make yourself happy today.

Till next time,

Brittani xoxo

[nolongerapileofashprobably]

I love stuff like this!! Thank you for the tag sweetheart <3

Name: nolongerapileofashprobably or just Ash :)

Fandoms: Mostly The Legend of Zelda!! But I’ve dabbled in Spideychelle (Peter and MJ in Marvel/Sony’s Spidey trilogy) and The Originals — Klaus/Hayley are a guilty pleasure ship that I just really love.

Where you post: ao3 and tumblr are my primary platforms :)

Most popular one shot: I would have to say Destiny and Time Forever Bound is my most popular true one shot. Like it says in the summary, it may become a series of one shots that don’t connect incase I ever get in the mood to write OoT Zelink, but for right now it’s the only one! I do have a Spideychelle fic (One Loser, One Observer, and a Red String) that has ten chapters but it’s 10 one shots based on different ideas I had at the time soo 🤷🏻‍♀️

Most popular multi chapter: Fate’s Cruelty is definitely my most popular fic and it’s the only multi chapter that’s a consistent story. It’s also my only multi chapter that’s consistent— at least on this account and platform. Once upon a time I had a TMI fic on Wattpad and that had almost 100,000 reads but since I haven’t gone on Wattpad for a minute now, I don’t count it.

Favorite story I’ve written so far: No doubt about it— Fate’s Cruelty. That fic is my baby and I love it immensely. It takes up the majority of my writing inspiration and time (for good reason). I’ve really gotten my personal writing style down from writing this fic and I just love delving into characters from botw that we really didn’t get see much of.

Fics you were nervous to post: Erhm— I’ll be quite honest, I haven’t been nervous with any of the fics I’ve written and posted. There are certainly scenes and chapters I’ve been uneasy posting but that’s more from me not loving the way it was written than anything.

How you choose your titles: I honestly have this weird fascination with fate and destiny— almost all of my titles have SOMETHING to do with fate/destiny or something symbolized with it. Why? I dunno I have a real cynical outlook on fate and destiny soooooo

Do you outline: I have a vague idea of what chapters will consist of and the plot direction I’m heading towards. I have pivotal moments planned in my head but a legit outline? Nope.

Complete: just the oneshots! And even those will most likely get added chapters to em. That ancient fic I mentioned earlier IS complete but everything else is in progress!

In progress: Essentially Fate’s Cruelty is the only official in progress fic!

Coming soon: Besides new chapters for Fate’s Cruelty?? Okay, I’ll be honest... nothing really :( okay... I lied (just a little). Nothing Zelda related! After rebinging Naruto I’m back in some pretty ancient feels so I have a few oneshots in the works but nothing is set in stone

Prompts: I don’t tend to write prompts or ask for em— but I’m always open to receiving prompts to write oneshots for! I tend to be incredibly busy during semester so I never have the time to do them (but my semester just ended sooooo ;) )

Upcoming work I’m most excited about: nothing fandom related tbh. I have my own original novel that’s been in the works for years and I’ve finally settled on a beginning to set the tone for the rest of the story sooo...

OH WAIT okay so I’ve CONTEMPLATED the IDEA of a sequel for Fate’s Cruelty. In reality, I just really want to write a SPECIFIC scene/ have the opening sequence planned out. Maybe it won’t even be a full length fic like Fate’s Cruelty will be, but even just a series of little scenes I’ve envisioned for future Zelly and Link is probable :) I guess it also depends on the botw sequel and what that inspires (and what’s happening in my life at that point as well). I HAVE left tiny clues for me to capitalize on in Fate’s Cruelty to keep my options open, but they aren’t so significant that there NEEDS to be a sequel for it.

I guess I’ll tag @intangiblyyourswrites and anyone else who sees this and would like to take part in answering a few questions if they haven’t done so and would like to!

interview with the writer

tagged by @eska-rina​—thanks for the tag!!

name:  xenon, anavysos_kouros on ao3 [i am and always will be an art history nerd]

fandoms:  Haikyuu!! and Promare right now, though I do have a Yuri!! On Ice fic i may finish some day

where you post:  ao3 only, but snippets and planning and whatnot go on my sideblog. 

most popular oneshot:  going by kudos-to-hits ratio and also the most kudos in the least time, it’s “asking for help” which i posted two days ago and has over 50 already. [which is insane! i was not expecting that! thank you, promare fandom].

most popular multichap:  the only multichapter i’ve posted so far is “mother, mother” so that one i guess.

favourite story you’ve written so far:  ahhh this is hard,, probably “mother, mother” if we’re going with anything that isn’t a wip [which is still untrue since it’s incomplete]. i really really like the arc i have planned out for it, and it’s the first piece i started doing actual drafting on, so it’s taught me a lot as well! 

fic you were nervous to post:  again, “mother, mother,” since i’ve been working on it since august-ish and i very much worry about pulling it off well. that’s probably why it’s so hard to write at this point

how do you choose your titles:  sometimes they come to me fully-formed along with the beginning of the story, other times i just pick a catchy-sounding phrase that’s adjacent to what the fic is about and run with it.

do you outline?:  that’s all i do at this point. when i’m working on the first draft of a fic it’s just a bunch of half-completed scenes strung together in something similar to an outline. multichapter stuff is always outlined, which is a habit i started when i was 14 and have barely improved upon since. 

complete:  3! all oneshots, all under 5k. definitely more than i expected to finish since i get ideas at the speed of sound and don’t complete them without jumping to the next. i haven’t written fanfiction in several years and started up again in august, so 3 since then is not bad, honestly.

in progress:  i’d leave it at “so many” but i’m also curious so counting through my notes it’s about,,,sixteen. most of them are oneshots but. that’s still a lot. i should do something about that. 

coming soon:  i’m going to get chapter 2 of “mother, mother” out before 2020 is over or die trying. 

prompts:  not usually? the paranormal au was spawned by haikyuu horror week prompts, and “mother, mother” came out of a one-line dialogue prompt, but other than that i don’t use prompts. i have too many ideas of my own, unfortunately.

upcoming work you’re most excited about:  at this point probably the fantasy AU or the paranormal AU i have planned for haikyuu. i haven’t written fantasy in a few months and i miss it a lot, then the paranormal au is full of dumbassery i can’t wait to write. 

thanks again for the tag! this was super fun. i’m tagging @spacejammie2020, @kittmoon, and @unapologetically-asexual but no pressure to do this!