#oh my coinduo...

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transcript of ros talking abt factions and pangi yesterday (24/03/25, 0:58:30 in her vod)

ros: no, it's so hard — i feel like i can't be against anyone but i should be, y'know what i mean? i, i just feel too bad, chat. even with the people who've wronged me, i feel a little— i feel a little bit bad, for the... like uninviting people to the ball, i dunno. it's hard. i feel, i feel bad. 

ros: it's so— like i trust sneeg. like i feel like sneeg has a really good... direction. and i... and i want him to... i want to, i want to genuinely, like, like i trust him, but i— it's so— it's hard to— the thing is, it's hard to battle how i feel when i know people are gonna think i'm biased. and then it's like, it's like 'well, if ros is biased then it's irrelevant,'— like not, not like that, but y'know what i'm saying? like that kind of vibe. like it's hard to trust someone who's biased for a specific reason. it's why i don't wanna fight my whole case. 

ros: ... i don't think pangi would lie — let's be honest, when has pangi lied to me in the last month? since the null, when has pangi lied to me? exactly, yeah exactly! exactly! which i, which i empathize with because i would also, i would also be that way, y'know? if... i, (quiet sigh) i don't know. it's hard. 

(..)

ros: i just feel like... i feel like— okay, this is my thoughts. pangi doesn't want me dead, right? but that doesn't mean he'll— he'd stop his faction from maybe treating me badly, right? doesn't mean he'd stop his faction from... at least i don't think so, i don't think it would stop his— him from... (sigh) i feel like, if the— if it was reversed, he'd be the same way, because it wouldn't be directed at me, it'd be directed at the faction. 

ros: ... the thing is— as well, like i. (huff) i've told you guys that pa— pili makes me feel kind of uncomfortable, but it's hard, 'cause at the end of the day, i really care about the kingdom, and pili's part of the kingdom. and it— that's where the confusion sets in. 'cause i... i like, i— yeah! i'm team kingdom. i'm team kingdom, all the way! and, but there's never been a, a— a point where i'd have to choose between the kingdom and my friends, and that's where it's hard. 

ros: yeah, they can believe that pangi's a bad person, but it doesn't mean that he can't still be my friend — but now it feels like there's a, there's a in-between. 

(..) 

ros: yeah... um, the hard thing is, as well, like i understand it, like, there's like a war,— (stutter) okay, let's be honest: i feel like green have kinda started this war, right? they've started this war. not, not yellow, green. so, the deal has been, like he— pangi's technically sticking with his team on that, right? (sigh) i say this stuff, and then i just lose where my point's going. like saying that— that i'm not gonna die, technically isn't really saving me, 'cause it just means that it's still gonna cause (piglin hits her, voice stresses) pain to my faction! and that's gonna indirectly cause pain to me. um... him killing my faction is causing pain— someone in my faction, is causing pain to me, y'know what i mean?

(..)

ros: so, (huff) ... (reading chat, 'partly probably due to the fact he has nowhere else to go aside from alone in terms of factions maybe?') 'nowhere else to go,' and that is true! but i also feel like i, (sigh) i feel like i also kind of have— no, but then he— he has me to go to, right? and i have him to go to, but, i don't know where i'd... oh, it's hard, chat. 

(..)

ros: it's, it's just the fact that pili— it was pili's last life. pili can't defend himself, can't say exactly what happened, it's... it's how it is right now, y'know what i'm saying.

[krorenn]

SHE CAN FLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!