jet black heart by 5sos is THE buddie song from eddie’s pov and here’s why! (ps very long but worth it)
everybody’s got their demons, even wide awake or dreaming
we all know eddie has his demons. common sense.
i’m the one who ends up leaving, make it okay
he left shannon and chris to go on his second tour, and he obviously feels bad about it but buck doesn’t blame him when they talk about it
…but now that i’m broken, and now that you know it
literally when eddie says “i’m broken and i don’t know how to fix it” and buck KNOWS, he knows and he’s willing to help
caught up in a moment, can you see inside?
could mean literally any of their moments, the tsunami, the well, ANY OF IT.
cause i’ve got a jet black heart, and there’s a hurricane underneath it, trying to keep us apart
eddie’s bad relationship with love = his jet black heart and some unresolved feelings for shannon and or the emotional turmoil about chris AND buck being with tommy have him confused and not sure how to proceed, therefore keeping them apart
i write with a poison pen
literally eddie writing buck into his will. what else?
but these chemicals moving between us are the reason to start again
could mean anything, i’m getting that maybe when buck came out it set something off in eddie and he realizes maybe they have a shot at this or something
now i’m holding on for dear life, there is no way that we can rewind. maybe there’s nothing after midnight that could make you stay
holding on?? for dear life?? how about eddie when buck got struck by lightning?? this is a direct relation to that i fear.
…the blood in my veins is made up of mistakes
much like the first line, we know u fuck up in life/relationships but buck doesn’t condemn you for it, sweet angel
let’s forget who we are and dive into the dark, as we burst into color, returning to life
could mean multiple things!! the forget who we are part reminds me of when they got drunk together at the bachelor party, but the returning to life part makes me think of the well scene and how eddie survived off of thinking about chris and buck.
these are the lyrics that stood out to me (basically the whole song) and why i think they correlate. hey there if you made it to the end :)
I thought she changed, then she dogpiled on Kate, then cried, now wash, rinse, & repeat SPIN Cycle
In 2020 we watched as Kinsey Schofield provided online news agencies with all the "talking points" from the noprah liefest.
Lately, the more Kinsey speaks, the more she reveals that she won't sever her original allegiance to Sparry & the wife.
Like good narcissists, Sparry and the wife intend to use the UK Inflictus events to exploit the wounded & "hoover" and torment Sparry's family.
Even during "kategate" Kinsey (like the others) pretended to have "inside info" but she was actually finessing roya's reports.
It's sickening the way the press is determined to push Sparry back into the fold. Unfortunately over the next 4-12 weeks we'll witness the implementation of yet another Sussex scheme to grift off the veterans to gain fame & fortune. The board and trustees at Invictus should hang their heads in shame for allowing the so-called "patron" to repeatedly play these sick PR games off the backs of donors, tax payers, and wounded warriors.
"Frogmore Cottage is empty!"---MEgain's alias continues her appeal to the press for a royal residence. They are grifters.
Although I don't think oliver has those strong negative feelings (if any at all) about how the story went the fans want him to, I don't think it matters?
I mean it does and doesn't at the same time. Oliver is an actor and his job is to act, whether he likes how the character's story is going or not. Many great actors have done award winning roles while not having the best feelings for the character itself, directors or co-stars, hence the award winning, bc they were able to bring their character to life regardless of the environment.
Now I'm not saying Oliver's feedback isn't important, it is, Tim certainly thinks it is. But there's a limit on how much his opinion can affect the writing. It's heard and taken into consideration but at the end of the day, it's Tim's call what's good for the story or not, because that's his job.
I think it all boils down to the fandom parasocial relationship with actors, Oliver isn't an extention of buck, his opinions aren't buck's, his feelings aren't either. your relationship with him ends when the episode ends, and that's something many fail to understand.
on the one hand i think it's normal (if a little parasocial) that if you're a fan of an actor you'd want them to be doing work they enjoy/are proud of. what's weird imo is speculating an actor hates a storyline based solely on extreme over-analysis of their social media presence. the "poor oliver, he must hate this," narrative is nothing more than certain fans projecting their own disappoint about buck's storyline onto the man that plays him.
i think you've hit the nail on the head re: oliver being treated as an extension of buck, and after the daddy issues bs it's clear that some in the fandom have projected so hard onto him they can no longer separate themselves from his character, so maybe it shouldn't be surprising they're doing the same with oliver.
there's probably also an element of needing to reconcile their hatred for bucktommy (+ bucktommy shippers) with their love/admiration/fandom of oliver. he has to secretly agree with them otherwise he's just another fetishist/racist/hag/pervert/whatever-new-attack-they've-come-up-with.
like. okay. im just imagining sam and dean as kids and they fight like siblings do (im talking in dean voice now). sometimes dean hits sam for being annoying cause that’s also what siblings do. dads gone all the time and when he’s back his feelings are too big for dean to handle and he cant be mad at dad cause it’s DAD, but that’s what dads do, but then sam‘s there when dad goes and sam’s being annoying as usual, can’t he understand what they do is important, can’t he put aside his own stupid wants for once, and dean’s so mad and he loves sam so much but he’s so annoying sometimes and he lashes out and hits him.
it feels a little different this time - dean actually feels kind of bad. but sam just goes quiet and takes it. and dad’s gone a lot. even when he’s there sometimes he gets really angry, too. especially when he’s drunk - sometimes he lashes out if provoked, swings for dean or for sam, sometimes he makes contact. but he never actually means it and besides dean gets what its like, dean understands. and he’s nice, really, most of the time, when he’s around, and he loves them more than anything, so it doesn’t matter. dean’s nice, too, to sam, he loves sam more than anything, so that doesn’t matter either. he’s dean’s dad and dean’s sam’s brother. this is what family is.
and if after a hunt sometimes dean’s still all fired up and sam makes a bitchy comment dean doesn’t like about hunting or dad or school or dean and dean laughs and punches him in the face? rarely sometimes sam hits back. usually more often he just scoffs, wipes the blood away, and turns back to his book or his homework or whatever he thinks is better than dean.
years pass and dad’s still never home and they’re both hunting and sam doesn’t hit back. he thinks he’s better than dean now, above the violence that’s been the language of the winchesters for so long. he just takes it. sometimes that bothers dean more than when they used to actually fight. sometimes it makes him feel guilty, sometimes it makes him more angry. but sometimes he likes it. sam’s not easily controlled and he’s always got something to say but this is a way dean can shut him up - most of the time.
its almost satisfying. it definitely makes him feel better. he’s pretty sure sam knows that, too; pretty sure it’s at least a factor in why he just takes it. maybe it’s his concession to dean, after all. something sam can do for him, does for him. maybe it’s that proof dean’s always searching for that sam does love him, no matter how often he talks about leaving these days. or maybe sometimes it just feels good to hit someone who you’re pretty sure will let you.
POV: me pretending I’m not going absolutely feral for all the new F1 drama that keeps rolling in, totally 100% NOT kicking screaming giggling my feet over the pure silliness that is the 2024 season
Nico providing us with top tier meme able content fr, he’s out there doing gods work