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boomtanknotboombox · 8 years ago

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A Promise and Resolution

Harbringer: -Idly slides his servos about Blaster's waist and pulls him back- How have the nightmares been lately? -Lowers his helm to nuzzle into Blaster's neck-

Blaster: -startled squeaking- Hee? Oh. Getting easier to ignore, and less frequent. Thanks for helping with them. -hums a bit in response and leans back-

Harbringer: -That was adorable. It was better than Blaster doing more. Nuzzles more and lightly kisses the back of his neck- Your health is my advantage.

-Grips his talons on opposing each hip. Idly scratches them- You know you still have to face them in reality, Blaster, not just in nightmares.

Blaster: -This was fine for him. Going to purr quietly, and nod- I know. Still. Thank you.

-Now that earns a startled noise, quickly silenced, but there- I know...I just don't know how to deal with them...-sighs before leaning heavily into Harbringer-

Harbringer: You should talk to me about it. -Pulls Blaster back with him into a chair. The tank gets pulled right into his lab and allowed to get comfortable-

Try it, Blaster. Tell me what you can manage. -Kisses the side of Blaster's neck-

Blaster: -Not going to argue with that, and simply makes himself comfortable in the avatar's lap- ...you sure? I mean...you saw it. Them. There's not-not much else to it.

-huffs quietly, before sinking a bit- Just...that one...with the featureless armor...it's more of a-a mash up of multiple times I did...that.

Harbringer: Talking about it and visualizing are two different things. -Keeps hold of Blaster. Idly nuzzling to give him attention-

How many times, Blaster?

Blaster: ....I guess... -didn't make talking about it any easier-

I...lost count. Somewhere around several dozen. Mo-mostly small settlements and towns.

Harbringer: -Lightly kisses Blaster's neck. Slides his talons up over the tank's abdomen- Now why did you do all of that, Blaster?

Blaster: -huffs, but doesn't pull away, but does let out another squeaking noise as he has talons over his middle- I...orders. My abilities were 'put to use' and I...I kinda regret not following Soundwave...

Harbringer: Following him? You mean to the Decepticons? -This was new to him. Talons scratch lightly over Blaster's abdomen-

Blaster: -wiggles a bit more, trying not to giggle. This was a serious topic!- Yes. I think I should have followed him to the Decepticons some orns...I miss my brother...uh not by any real relation we were just...

Harbringer: -Oh he knew it was serious. If Blaster stayed serious, he'd start to get depressed. And that simply wouldn't do- When friends simply wouldn't do, and lovers don't fit, you're brothers. Something I hear Megatron and Optimus were often called.

-Nuzzles Blaster's neck- So... You regret not following Soundwave. As if your abilities would not be turned into use for the Decepticons as well. When did you leave the, as Sideswipe put it, "faceless ones" ?

Blaster: -puffs a bit, and settles a bit more, still wiggling and trying not to giggle too much. Because Harbringer was right about that. Too much serious and he would get depressed- Yeah...I...I really miss him.

-And that did feel nice. Even if the subject matter wasn't.- Yeah...at least I would have known someone...-and that question is met with a long sigh- They would have been. I know that...but at least they were up front about using violence to get what they wanted...

-and the question about his time with that one group makes him all but freeze for a moment- I didn't...I didn't keep track. It was whenever we were needed.

Harbringer: Perhaps one of these days you should get together with him. -Gently nibbles Blaster's neck as one servo strokes up and down over the abdominal biolights-

The past and what-ifs are in the past. Along with universes of where you had joined. Isn't the multiverse quite the thing~? -Nips-

So... You regret your actions under the ranks of them. It is no wonder you would not want the other Autobots to find out. When did you finally change from being a literal faceless to the mech the Autobots know now?

Blaster: Maybe. In the far future. For now...he...kinda still hates me. A lot. Can't say I blame him though. -OKAY! That was a startled giggle sounding squeak from Blaster-

Wait. What? I-EEEEP! -that would be a second odd sounding squeak from him. Congratulations-

Yeah...I regret what I did, and who I hurt. I can't justify those actions. Not to myself. Maybe someone else could make them sound better...like we were doing something to help but I know that it doesn't justify all the lives lost. -another shuddering sigh- I...didn't. The armor was like...changing a uniform. We'd get called in, change all our plating and armor out for that set, and when it was done just change it all back...

Harbringer: -Snickers. Well he was doing a good job of keeping Blaster from going into a depression with these trips into the past. And the squeaking was hilarious to him-

Hrm... I see. No wonder you mentioned the nightmares being a mix, a mesh, of things. You never stopped being one of them. A little soldier mech following orders for the 'benefit' of the Autobot cause.

-Small tsk- Few things justify death, Blaster. Mechs will view any loss as wrong, even if it saves millions. I'm a mech to see both sides. I dislike death as it ruins my fun. At the same time, a little death can ripple through and save millions, giving me even more fun.

Now that you're the new leader... have you finally shed that last change in armor?

Blaster: -Yes, well, he wasn't expecting Harbringer to find that tickling him was a good way to distract him....at least he hadn't gone for the insides of his treads-

Yeah...it just...didn't stop. I tried. I tried to keep it from escalating, to...stop what I could. Bu-but it just dragged on and on...I didn't see an end...and...

...and I know. I know it justifies nothing...all those lives, and I'm responsible for their deaths. And it didn't save anyone, only...prolonged things. Our race is almost gone in my timeline.

Yes. I'm not...I'm never going to do something like that again. I can't. I won't.

Harbringer: -Shifts Blaster on his lap to have him sitting sideways. One strong arm supported Blaster while the other turned his helm around to face him.

There was a time to talk, a time for distractions, and a time to let Blaster just vent to finally admit things about what he was suffering through day after day and night after night-

Your timeline is warped, that much I can see. Not the worst I've come across. Your race hasn't wiped itself out or continued finding new ways to slaughter each other.

-Talons stroked down Blaster's cheek. He could be gentle when he had to be. It wasn't all laughter and wicked grins. Chaos didn't always operate in flashy ways-

Oh I believe you, Blaster. I wouldn't of put my time into you had I doubted for a second you wouldn't fight to make sure peace remains. Not by more energon shed upon the ground. Instead by making the harder choice to work inside to keep things running.

-Presses is helm against Blaster's- And don't worry. None of this goes beyond us. I have your trust. To expose this is not something of a risk I will take. You'll tell someone else eventually. Just not tonight.

Blaster: -He's going to listen. Listen and cling and bury his face in the avatar's chest once he was able, and simply vent to try and control his roiling emotions. Everything hurt, and he wanted it to not, thank you very much. He'd tried so so hard to stop the deaths from mounting, but nothing worked, not even as he moved up in ranks, not even stopping Shockwave's projects...but had tried anyways-

-Now that comment earned a shaky laugh, as he peered back up at Harbringer.- Gu-guess that's one good thing, huh? -And he's getting comfortable against the other mech, nodding again- No more fighting...no more death. There's been enough of it...

Thank you...I...yeah, later. Later I will.

Harbringer: You're stronger than you give yourself credit for, Blaster. You didn't crumble under the weight of what you did. Nor did you just roll over and accept everything, black it out, and grow used to the death.

Your nightmares prove you're not a puppet. Just a mech who followed orders and tried to stop. It doesn't always work out as you originally planned. Except now you are finally in that position to stop things.

-Smirks- And have the attention of a, well, demi-god who plans on making your life just that much easier~ After putting you through a miniature hell in admitting your past to them that is.

-For the briefest of moments, he kissed Blaster- Feeling better, in a relative sense, now that someone else knows about your history, Blaster?

Blaster: ...I don't feel like I am. But...if you believe that I am...when explained...I guess...I need to take a closer look. -sighs and yawns a bit- I'd prefer if the nightmares weren't so...frequent. But that's comforting. Somehow. But, yeah, I am.

Thanks? Uh...I think? Maybe? -mild concern here. Still- Yeah. I am. Thank you for listening...and not telling anyone else.

Harbringer: -Leans back into the chair. Moves his wings around to act as a blanket for Blaster- And now I say you should probably get some rest after all of that. Have a dreamless, deep , sleep so you can face the next day. Perhaps with a lighter spark.

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