#please ask me about my headcanons for MCD this is getting out of hand at this point and I physically cannot write fast enough

[yoinkschief]

!!!! NON SEXUAL NUDITY UNDER THE CUT !!!!

Now let me yap my shit

I have a personal headcanon that when a wielder obtains the relic it attaches itself to them in a very permanent way, since you cannot lose the relic unless you die (or are suffering main character syndrome I guess) it should permanently attach itself to you, in this case my way of physically showing that would be through a tattoo over his heart - externally, anyway, internally is a different story, quite literally attaching itself to the wielder's heart

Though I have plans to change it from just the user's heart, and instead it being a vital organ that corresponds with something more symbolic with their nature of the relic, i.e. the Keeper would attach to the brain as it is the keeper of all knowledge and know-how, so on, but the Protector would remain on the heart, for what I hope to be obvious reasons

How the tattoos looks depends on the person and Garroth's will DEFINITELY change once I get everything a little more fleshed out, just know the coloring will probably stay the same, at least relatively so, maybe some gold inking for some pizazz and because I like it, and something something pure gold of heart or whateva but the design might change, like the actual symbol of the relic over his heart and the swirly bits will definitely have a more cohesive sense of movement to them once I flesh it out

I love Garroth so much, I think about him a lot

and everyone else too I guess

[talesofpheonixdrop]

Hey there! I really like your blog (っᵔ◡ᵔ)っ · 💐 🥞

Would it be okay if I requested the mcd boys x sick reader, please?

Also, what does your fan base call you?

Hey there bun!!!!!! Long time no see!!!!

You are so incredibly sweet!! Absolutely of course you can have those headcanons, just what I needed!

I don't think i have a fan base lmfaooo but your so sweet for saying so!!! I go by Mello here on the interwebs! You are all free to call me so ^^.

Since you didn't specify a gender reader will be G/N, and since you didn't specify anyone I'm just gonna throw whatever man strikes my fancy in the moment at this lmfao,

Warnings: Sickness of various variety hopefully... i remember to come back and edit this as I write and go-

Without further ado! Let's get into it!

Worry Wart.

Like honestly, almost immeadite panic based on how sick you are.

Like seriously has a internal crisis about whether to take care of you or do his actual JOB

After all the village can't reeeaaallly function without the lord and head guard all day out of nowhere.

Like your laying in bed, sick as a dog, head feeling like your getting squeezed in a vice.

You can see Garroth standing in the doorway, wearing his basic linens for under his armor. His eyebrows are pinched, and he's worrying his lip between his teeth. And it's just so clear he's having a violent internal conflict over abandoning all his duties to care for you.

You have to be the responsible lord and tell him to go, that you'll be fine on your own.

Otherwise your village will be in disarray and you'll have people rushing in, in a panic.

He is very hesitant to leave, asks if you're sure, and leaves all while looking at you with the most pitiful wettest blue eyes you've seen.

Hes back at your shared room within the hour.

Your immeaditly just like 'S I r. What are you doing back here???'

But is it any suprise when he sits at the side of your bed with a cold damp cloth and tenderly wipes the sweat from your feverish form before placing it across your forehead.

All while assuring you in a whisper, he could *never* have left you alone miserable and in pain, that he only left long enough to give instruction to his second in command to ensure Pheonix drop could run easily until you feel well.

.....

Andalsotogetadvicefromdonnaresidentnursecoughcough

Garroth is gentlemen through and through and takes very good care of you.

He will NOT kiss or cuddle with you tho when your sick, major red flag of him (jk)

Due to his royal upbringing he wasn't exposed to illness a ton as a kid so, his immune system?? Shit. If what you have is airborne he will be bedbound twice as long as you lol.

Please don't pout or bed though he is a WEAK man and you will see him going through all 7 stages of grief in record time every single time.

If you reach out for him in bed and your voice break a little with just a tiny 'please..' he nearly bursts into tears about it.

When you wear down his incredibly weak resolve he will start sleeping in a chair next to your bed holding your hand.

As if that's any better for his health, the loser lmfao.

Point is 9/10. Love him.

Oh Laurance, Laurance...

The moment you start coughing, he looks over with a raised eyebrow and asks if you feel alright

And obviously, you brush him off because come on, laurance, it's just a little coughing. I probably need water or something.

Yeah, the next day you're in coughing fits so bad, curled over, and you feel like your ribs may crack.

Laurance is ushering you back to bed. And albeit playfully, scolding you for even TRYING to go about your business in this state. I mean no offense obviously your the most breathtaking person he's ever seen but you look horrible.

Laurance doesn't even entertain the idea of leaving. Poor Garroth (or if this is while he's a head of Metelli his second hand) has to storm into the house demanding to know if everything's okay and why he's shirked duties.

Laurance just looks over and very casually is like ' oh yeah I'm going to be out for a while something more important has come up, you understand keep it covered only get me if it's a real emergency thanks'

And you don't have a choice here, now he's not going to straight up neglect his duties he loves you but he's also very serious about his guard work. But Metelli has a excess of guards and he's not the head at Pheonix drop, he knows Garroth can handle it without him for a while. So there's no need for you to feel guilty.

Just lay back and let him take care of you love <3 yeah?

He will cuddle and smooch you even while your sick, the cuddling is obvious but you will have to ask for a kiss anywhere more than the forehead.

He also takes your temperature by pressing his lips to your forehead every time

The tease, single handedly rasing your temperature

He's also the best cook so.... you are eating WELL fresh and from scratch.

10/10 but do we expect anything less

Oh yeah also even before he became a shadowknight and therefore couldn't get mortal sicknesses cause his body runs to hot for most viruses to survive. He just as a guy had a STUPIDLY great immune system. So he just doesn't get sick no matter how I'll you are and it's kind of infuriating.

Okay party people, this one... it depends. lmfaooo

Your request was specfically for being *sick* so I can only assume that means have a virus or infection of some kind, a bug if you will.

Which is VERY different from like.. recovering from a injury or like... morning sickness or something.

Which i will write if people want it but anyway.

Sorry Pookies he's not going to be personally there holding your hand or feeding you soup.

Germs and sickness freak him out and he wants nothing to do with it at all. He won't even sleep or hang in the same ROOM as you.

He arranges for only the best care though. And OH Irene help and preserve that entire staff team if he hears the staff are treating you in anyway he deems... unfit.

You'll have a full new staff within half an hour

All MUCH to afraid to treat you in a way that didn't reflect divine reverence.

Yeah... Zanes is rather short because he's pretty absent.

He makes sure to get reports on how you are frequently.

But once you're better, you can expect a lavish gift

Also, he's more likely to end work early and go to sleep the same time you do when your better.

He won't admit it but he missed your warmth beside him.

Oh Travis my sweet boy!! Welcome to being included in the fics mwah.

This might be controversial (I hope not, tho)

Travis would be the best in this regard.

He has a freaky 6th sense for knowing three days before you get sick, that your *gonna* get sick.

Like your feeling just fine and you look over and he's running around and already prepping for you to be sick.

Reading books on it, making medicine, meal planning etc. Etc.

Oh yeah I MEANT making medicine, mfer goes out and forager for his remedies to any and all ailments.

He takes top notch care of you. Diagnoses you easily, lays you to rest, spoon feeds you, lightly wipes your sweat away, supports you through enough exercise to keep your strength and whispers encouragement.

My advice... don't ask how he knows to do this.

Even through fever its heartbreaking to hear him explain how he had to care for not only himself but... when she was alive... his mother.

All alone on that mountain... everytime he got sick he had no one to brush his hair... clean his sick... make his meals.

In order to survive that... you have to learn to figure it out...get ahead of it prepare what you need so you don't have to scavenge through it.

He will NEVER let you go through that alone. Not while he lives.

Well hello and welcome to the club Aaron

well, my version of you anyway.

Aaron is a good man, but he's also a very focused and fleeting man.

What does that mean? Oh just that he is not sticking by your side unless you are actively journeying with him on his quest for revenge.

Even if he cares deeply for you, your already in.... well... honestly i hate to use this term for medieval fantasy but its more a situation ship then a relationship. He has.. a VERY hard time handling the idea of being with someone else after his wife.

If you fall ill at a village, perhaps your the lord.. something is tying you where you are.

Your not going to see alot of Aaron im so sorry pookie.

When you don't show up where he normally sees you he will pop up.

He went to ask what happened but... he can tell just from looking at you . If your asleep, he watches for a moment... taking in your gaunt state and letting it sink into himself that your still breathing and then he leaves.

You'll wake up to a little vial of medication on your bedside.

How often you see Aaron after that depends on what he was doing there, he's not putting his plans on hold for you.

If hes able to stay in the village and investigate he will. Checking in on you occasionally and bringing you medicine.

But...if he needs to leave to pursue Zane.... He will leave you Medicine and a note telling you to stay safe.. don't look for him... He will try to come back to you but... if its over a year don't wait for him.

Yeah Aaron totally what a sick person wants to read.

For him though....leaving a note is a big deal. Anyone else he would have just vanished.

Now! However! if you are actively travelling with him for any reason, he can NOT just stomach leaving you while your sick.

SO he does stop.. works on setting up a more long term camp. Reinforces the tent, sets up a fire pit, and makes a Cooking spit.

He takes care of you.. kind of, he thinks you should have some layer of independence even when your sick so he will still have you do some tasks on your own.

For him its very a 'just in case, you need to capable. What if next time i'm not here?'

Jeffory Golden Heart What a sweetheart.

He won't find out you're sick till about midday.

When Abby's teacher shows up to his Patrol to tell him that you never showed up to pick her up from school.

Which instantly worries Jeffory because that's very unlike you, if you weren't able to pick up Abby for some reason you would tell him even with his early hours.. A note or at dinner before.

He has to hold back at jumping to any conclusions, hoisting up Abby on to his shoulders and heading back to your shared home while chatting about her day to keep her at ease.

He has a million thoughts in his mind working with Zane...its hard not to he finds himself hoping that you had a lapse in memory, that this was going to end with him mildly annoyed over anything else.

But he arrives to your Home and when he calls out your name he hears just a pitiful little croak he S P R I N T S through the house to your bedroom where, he doesn't see some horrible crime scene but you in bed, flushed and clearly miserable and he just feels all his muscles relax.

Jeffory is so sweet, but he can't care for you as much as he wants to with Jury of nine duty and caring for Abby, but he still makes sure when he's not on duty your getting his attention, his poor sick little dove he makes soup, washes and brushes your hair, and brings in the best doctor O'khasis has and once your cleared as non contagious he pulls Abby into the tasks so you can have even more care.

Help making the soup, help braiding your hair, and reading stories at your side.

You get two caretakers for the price of one with this one.

[youdisgust]

NSFW HEADCANONS PT.1

Who: garroth, laurance, zane x fem!reader

Tags: nsfw, teasing, degrading, praising, bondage, begging, edging, size kink, belly bulge, dacryphilia(?), pet names, pussy eating

WC: 702

AN: on vacation so i’m not writing to my full capability everything i write has been flopping so this is just to throw out there! THIS IS JS RANDOM THOUGHTS I WROTE DOWN WHILE HALF ASLEEP, NOT PROOFREAD

this post is nsfw. if you’re underage or uncomfortable with nsfw content, please dni.

GARROTH

𖦹size kink. he is huge. i’m thinking kind of mcd garroth where he is big and strong.

𖦹that being said, he loves watching your stomach bulge when he pounds into you. it fascinates him. it could make him cum just watching it appear and disappear.

𖦹this man will coddle you. praising and pampering you. his aftercare is eleven out of ten. running you warm bath water and massaging your shoulders after you soak.

he’d kind of HAVE to so you wouldn’t be sore later. even though he’s sweet, he fucks HARD.

𖦹on the topic of praise.. he’d talk you through the entire session.

“so gorgeous” as you’re crunched in half on your back, his big hands pressing your thighs to your stomach. you’re drooling and moaning out his name.

“squeezing me so tight. you love this cock don’t you, pretty girl.” all you can do is sputter out what seems to be a “yes!! yes!! it’s so good!!”

LAURANCE

𖦹hear me out.. he would edge you and make you BEG to cum. he’d love to hear your voice through broken sobs from your sexual frustration.

“come on, my love. i’m not hearing you loud enough.” you’re shaking and pulling his hair while he laps at your opening, not daring to touch your sensitive area. “pl-please let me cum laurance!! need your mouth on me” you’re humiliated. he knows you can’t stand voicing what you want from him.

he chuckles and returns sucking on your clit and slowly dipping his finger in and out of your dripping cunt. it doesn’t take you long to feel that pressure in your stomach. “fu-hah.. please, want it ‘s bad laur-ance!” he stops moving and peers up at you with big teasing eyes. you whimper and pout your lip. “tsk tsk, not enough,” he laughs.

𖦹i feel like he kind of sucks at after care.. he’s a ladies man he’s had tons of flings. he’d throw you a blanket and take off to shower.

𖦹vocal. huffs and pants when he’s close. you can hear him saying your name under his breath when he’s plowing into you. very rarely you’ll hear a whine or a gasp. he’ll cough to cover it up and ignore you when you tease him about it.

𖦹he’s the type of guy your neighbors would leave complaints about.

𖦹he’s a sucker for the “boyfriends t-shirt with no pants on” look.

ZANE

𖦹HUGEE BABY. when he gets overstimulated he’ll tear up and hide his face.

𖦹he’s never usually a top, but when he is he’s mean.

he always wanted to be like gene.. so i feel like he’d try to act all big like him

𖦹calling you pathetic for cumming too quick. laughing when you beg him to slow down because it’s too much and vice versa when he’s slowwwwly rolling his hips into you to make you beg for more.

“so easy,” he scoffs. “if you want it that bad get it yourself.” he’d watch while you bounce on his dick, trying your hardest not to make a sound to avoid his taunting. his free hand sneaking to your waist to stroke your skin.

𖦹when he’s NOT trying to act all tough. he’s a whining mess. begging for you to use him for your pleasure. asking so nicely if he can cum. when you get yourself off without worrying about his release, he begs for you to make him feel good. to give him anything.

𖦹he loves hearing your praise. and will do almost anything to receive it.

𖦹bondage freak.

..but only with lacy ribbon holding him back WHO SAID THAT??

“my pretty boy, you’re so sweet like this.” he’s jerking at the restraints on his wrists. his cock twitches at the pet name. “fuck.. ah!” you slowly stroke his tip, getting back at him for all the times he deprived you of a release. his head jolts back and he shuts his eyes, gritting his teeth. a tear falls down his cheek

come ON he’d be SUCH a baby..

he thrusts his hips into your hand, but you quickly pull away and chuckle. through gritted teeth he pleads, “i’ve been so good, please make me cum!”

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Again, this is a Minecraft blog, so the fandoms I'll primarily be interacting or talking about will be Minecraft related. I'm not a fan of hermitcraft, major smps and such, so you won't be seeing any of that here, but I do enjoy other MCYT content. I'm MAINLY here for the Aphmau fandom, SPECIFICALLY MCD.

☆ Aphmau [Old Aphmau, not cocomau]

☆ Calvin (MCYT)

That being said, for Aphverse fics, I will primarily be focusing on either rewrites, drabbles, or expanding on series because I've been mentally ill over these series for too long not to get a proper ending.

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I'm currently in the process of doing an MCD rewrite. Because let's be honest, we are ALL disappointed and heartbroken with the way it went. And I can't stand not having closure for such a treasured part of my childhood. I like the concepts that were brought out in Rebirth, but I MISS the mods, chaos, and charm that came from s1. So this rewrite is gonna be a very interesting conglomeration of present-day Minecraft, MCD season 1 w/mods, and bits from Rebirth. I'm gonna be highlighting lore, worldbuilding, found family, and romance. Going in depth about the regions, the Divine Warriors, the other races that populate the world, the relics, magics, etc. As for romance, the end game ship is going to be Garrancezoeymau (Garroth X Laurence X Aphmau X Zoey). Cause we all know how unfair it was for those 4 not to end up together [they all got two hands to hold each other's, and I'm gonna make them all kiss]. I am NOT an Aarmau fan or shipper in the slightest, so PLEASE don't ask about them being a couple in any post I make. They will NOT be getting together, but I will make sure their dynamic is interesting. As well as focusing on the other characters and making sure they get the appropriate love they deserve as well. We will NOT be letting characters be forgotten in this household. Because MCD Phoenix Drop is about COMMUNITY and FAMILY, and just how far you're willing to go for them. Also, I'm exploring and expanding everyone's relationships/friendships with each other. Cause some of the dynamics we didn't get enough of or didn't see are so SCRUMPTIOUS (*ahem* Lucinda and Laurence *ahem* *ahem* Zoey, Aphmau, Levin and Malachi and the rest of the village *ahem*)

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Favorite ships?

MC in general: Herosteve (Herobrine X Steve)

MCD: Garmau (MAIN SHIP; Garroth X Aphmau), Laurmau (Laurence X Aphmau), Garrancemau (Garroth X Laurence X Aphmau), Garrancezoeymau ( Garroth X Laurence X Aphmau X Zoey)

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I will write for violence, gore, MC death, dark topics, smut, and just adult or mature content in general. My content is for mature audiences. I write like it's game of thrones.

Favorite color(s)?

Shades of purple, navy, and amber

Favorite flower(s)?

IRL: Morning Glory & Hibiscus

MC: Cornflower

How long have you been in the fandom?

MC?: 2013-2015???

Aphmau?: Around about S1 episode 60 of MCD is where I joined in and stayed till season 3.

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Phantoms, Bees, Wolves, Cats.

Favorite MC block(s)?

Crying Obsidian, Skulk, Gilded Blackstone, Cobbled Deepslate, and Dark Oak Wood.

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YO MANU THIS FINALLY CAME THROUGH I'LL LIKE READ AND DO COMMENTARY AND EDIT THIS LATER BUT I WANTED TO POST IT WHILE I HAD IT!!!!

Bless, tumblr finally working for you.

Anyway, here's the post from @delirious-and-slightly-murderous

So seeing as Tumblr hates me, I'm trying this darling, hope it reaches you.

So just read rat king.

[You should all totally read rat king if you haven't yet, it's fun I promise :) But also read Manu's commentary on it!!]

Tuuli I hope you know I love you and completely adore you and I am in awe of you but right now I HATE YOU. 

You broke me AGAIN. And I was just mending myself.

This was great and beautiful and fantastic and completely awful and the worst thing I've ever seen in my life. 

I'm crying.

So now I'm going to make a habit of coming to scream at you on tumblr every time you post something. 

You already know how I feel about your characterization and Andrés' POV and the angst. So there, it applies here too.

Here we go you awful and magnificent goddess.

“Martín,” Sergio clarified, moving up his glasses, the prescription of which was much too weak for his continuously worsening eyesight, “I think you should stop sleeping with him: Yes, Segio and his judgement. That couldn't not be there. But Andrés and Martín are sleeping together? I know this is going to hurt.

Martín was a constant in his life, something carried over from before. Martín? Martín wasn’t a problem; Martín was the only one thing that was good: at least here he appreciates him. Thank god.

Before, he would have found some entirely healthier way of loving his soulmate. Maybe they would have even had an old-world relationship, eventually. Andrés felt like he might have liked that, once. He knew Martín would have loved it: 😭 I want this for them and it hurts that it's simply not going to happen. I'm afraid of the MCD tag, Tuuliiiiiiiiiiii! Who did you kill, you murderous genius?

Andrés needed Martín, desperately. Too desperately to love him the way he should have: I'm going to die. He could at least try but nooooo, god forbid the day Andrés de Fonollosa makes things simple for anyone.

Andrés could see the way orgasms had loosened some of the tensions that so often gripped his body, and he hoped Sergio could too.😏

 If Andrés had to choose only one, he would have certainly chosen— : repressed asshole. I hope that was going to end with the word Martín. Why are you even getting married? What's even the point. But I see Andrés will continue to be emotionally stunted even when the world is ending.

Martín and Sergio had gotten along well, before. Andrés could remember so many pleasant evenings, just the three of them and a bottle of wine. But ever since they had to move to this base, the tensions had been palpable. They were both desperately trying to keep them alive, but were constantly disagreeing on the how: I'm starting to like Sergio more than Andrés here, how is that possible? How? See what you do Tuuli?

He turned around at the doorway and left the room, because he had no doubts about it: they would listen to him: Andresito, you are being too egocentric, this is not going to end well, for anyone.

Andrés understood just enough to know he was proud.: I don't know how to feel about this Andrés. I can't.

Andrés always tried not to take the slights of this brave new world personally – it was cruel, but they all had to endure loss of unspeakable magnitude – but this? Having to choose between his Martín and his brother?: Oh no, Oh no, NO. This isn't fair. Why do I get the terrible feeling we already know who he's going to choose? Please DON'T do this.

Andrés knew with unwavering certainty that either one of them would be willing to do it, and that they would consider it a great big favour to Andrés, and not the horrifying curse it truly was. He was the one who would have to pay the ultimate price, and live, knowing how much it had cost: Everything always has to be about you, doesn't it Andrés. You fucking deserve it.

Andrés could appreciate such a malleable room, because it reminded him of Martín, who always became what Andrés needed him to be.😡😭💔

Martín had never cared about plants, before. Actually, he seemed to have held a certain disdain for them. He had always said they were stupid and lifeless. Now he was looking at these ones, their lifeline, and he was filled with reverence and sorrow. If Andrés could have given him one thing, he would have liked to return to him his complete disregard for flora, and all the things it had since then come to imply: This hurts, and not only for obvious reasons. But nature? Fuck right in the feels.

Martín was entirely too pretty to look like this. They hadn’t even been having sex, because suddenly Martín looked like his eternally calcium-deficient bones might now break from the strain. Pretty Martín yeah! And you are a genius. Now this is my official headcanon as to why Martín drinks milk, he has fragile bones, the poor baby.

The weird walking corpse at the table smiled, and it almost made him resemble Martín.: He's already halfway dead. The MCD tag is him isn't it? I hate you Tuuli.

Andrés had to remind himself that he was lucky to have this. He may have had so many better things, before, but now he had this, and that was good. They had it better than most, him and Martín, for they had each other. Andrés still had his brother, and now he would have his wife, too. He was lucky: Not for long, buddy. And you deserve it. Poor Sergio I normally hate him but gosh.

“No,” Andrés said without waiting for a single beat, because he couldn’t let Sergio think he considered it. Even though he almost— “No, I don’t. I want you two, both of you, to figure out a way. A different way.”: He loves them both and he accepts it? Why does the world have to be ending.

Andrés tried not to think too much about Martín from before, but sometimes he did anyway. That night, as he wrapped his arms around Martín’s pathetic, weak and shivering frame, he thought about his true soulmate, the one this body had once belonged to.: Now I understand Martín sacrificing himself is the only way. He's already dead. And because of Andrés no less. How tragic.

Andrés had never said it back.

That night, he didn’t say it back.: Now Martín is going to die and it'll be horrible isn't it? Tuuli I want to murder you.

I’m so sorry, Andrés,” Sergio said quietly, slowly reaching out a hand to touch his shoulder.

Andrés recoiled from it, sharply. “No,” he snapped, “No. We are all going to die. Say those words, Sergio. We are all going to die.” He had made his peace with death long ago. There were worse things, many things so much more horrifying—

“We are not all going to die,” Sergio said, “The generator—” His words were cut off by Andrés’s hand on his throat, squeezing.: You are the king of denial, bad decision, being stupid, emotionaly stunned and not appreciating your soulmate enough Andrés. You deserve all the pain.

“He doesn’t deserve that,” Andrés said, his voice breaking again as he thought of it, Martín’s body, his corpse, frozen and preserved like that for as long as they would live. Martín, out there, while Andrés was in here, unable to ever go and give him even a proper burial. He had always been able to give Martín so little, and in death he would fail him yet again: I really have no words for this. But Martín being forever preserved out there and Andrés knowing that and not being able to mourn him. That is genius and it hurts and it's the perfect ending for them.

Andrés had never told him. Not once. How could he be certain that Martín had known? How could he insist that Martín, the brightest of them all, had known, when Andrés had never told him? Martín operated in words – how could Andrés have forced him to read his love in a language he didn’t even speak?: Now you confront your feelings too late, like always you repressed asshole. You deserve all the pain.

God, he wished Martín hadn’t been so bright. That he had been an idiot, dim-witted and slow like the rest of them.

Then the two of them would have let all of humanity perish.: You already murdered me with 'stay a while' and now this. Tuuli I'm coming back as a vengeful ghost and haunting your perfect ass.

So yeah, I don't have words but that's what I could spit out.

And Tuuli, you know the thing I showed you about the spider? Well when I finished reading this I was crying and wailing. My professor came running because he thought it was another spider or something even worse like a serpent.

When he asked what was going on I was in such a state I could only say 'rat' like a dumbass. 

RAT.

Like seriously? And when he asked again I said Rat king fic and pointed vaguely to my phone. 

He thought I was talking about an actual rat.

So imagine this. We are there, at night (in Costa Rica nightfall is around 6:00pm all year round, so now it's 9:00pm and here in the tropical rainforest it gets Dark), camping in the middle of nowhere in the wild with a tropical storm falling over our heads and I start crying about Rats. 

Congratulations Tuuli, you put me in such a state that I managed to send the whole of 9 biologists into a frenzy, frantically checking out the tents over an imaginary giant rat. 

It was literally terror in the jungle. 

I wanted the earth to shallow me. I didn't know how to explain that all that circus was because of a fucking fic.

I think now I no longer have satelital internet rights.

I hate you.

(P.S: But don't worry I still absolutely adore you, even if now I am the laughing stock of my fellows 🥰😘♥️)

Here have my friend the spider to show how I'm feeling.