#probs the next time i procrastinate on writing

[atlabeth]

pretty boy

pairing: spencer reid x reader

summary: spencer walks in one day with a new look. you handle it pretty well.

a/n: im in the opposite of a writing slump right now (will prob fall into a writing slump right after i say this) probably because im procrastinating on essays for school and i can only write when im meant to be doing work. but tiny little fluffy spencer one shots are very good for the soul right now. i think it's my way of healing from my hotch fic

wc: 1.8k

warning(s): one slightly sexual joke from emily. all fluff

You usually don’t get to the office this early, but you don’t exactly have a choice. The BAU’s last couple cases have all run one after another, barely leaving you any time in the office, and now you’re paying for it. 

You’ve got a mountain of paperwork to get through and not nearly enough time to do it all—if you’re lucky, you’ll be writing reports for a few days straight. If you’re not, you’ll be putting in some overtime.  

“This is the most focused I’ve ever seen you this early,” Derek comments. 

You shake your head with a sigh. “These reports are government mandated torture.” 

He chuckles, and he nods at Emily as she walks over to her desk. “Are you this busy?” 

She shakes her head. “I’ve still got a report to get through, but nothing that bad.” 

“I get it,” you say wryly. “You’re all more organized than me. Just don’t come to me asking to go out tonight—you know I can’t say no.” 

“But don’t shots taste better when you’re supposed to be doing work?” Derek asks, and you roll your eyes with a laugh. 

“Not when I’ve got this much work I’m supposed to be doing.” 

You hear the elevator ding and glance up—Spencer’s walking through and fixing his tie. You look back down at your report as you greet him. 

“Hey, Spence,” you call. “Why’re you late?” 

“I’m not late,” he says, and you can see him checking his watch out of your peripherals. “I’m two minutes and thirty-three seconds early.” 

“Really?” you muse. “I guess I’m just so used to you being here before me.” 

“You can’t judge my timeliness on yours when you’ve been here for an hour already,” Spencer says. 

You frown, tapping your pen against the paper. “How do you know?” 

“You’re settled in already. Your coat’s on your chair, your stack of unfinished files is smaller than it was last time we were in the office, your coffee isn’t steaming, and your mug has a chipped handle—when they were put away last night, that one was set in the front, so you’d have to be here early to get it.” 

“Touche,” you murmur. You’re not sure why you ever ask your team of profilers how they know something. 

“You also look like you don’t want to be here,” he comments. “That’s pretty typical of agents who have to be here before their regular hours.” 

You chuckle and tilt your head in admission. You don’t really want to be here, especially running on so few hours of sleep. 

“Why aren’t you as early as usual?” Emily asks. 

“My neighbor knocked on my door this morning to ask me for something,” Spencer says. “It threw off my whole routine. I picked the wrong tie, I couldn’t pack my bag properly, and I had to toast my bagel for two minutes instead of three and a half to make it out in time.” 

“How terrible,” Derek says with mock austerity. 

“It is terrible!” he exclaims. “It’s scientifically proven that a morning routine makes you happier, more energized, and ready to seize the day—carpe diem.” Spencer sets his bag on the floor next to his desk and looks at everyone else with a smile. “Did you know that phrase was actually coined by the Roman poet Horace in his Odes? It comes from the first book out of four in the eleventh poem—the full phrase in Latin is carpe diem, quam mini—”

“How was your bagel?” Emily asks to interrupt him, and he pauses. 

“It was good,” he says. “Could’ve been toastier.” 

You look up, a teasing remark on the edge of your tongue, but the words die in your throat when you actually see him. 

Spencer’s started combing a hand through his hair to fix it—must have been another part of his affected morning routine—his lips set in a pout as he tries to see his reflection in his dark monitor. He always looks good, even without trying, but now—

“You’re wearing glasses,” you say dumbly. 

“My contacts dried out,” he grumbles, still focused on his hair. “We got home so late last night I forgot to put them in their solution, and I had no time to fix them because my neighbor messed up my whole morning.” 

You nod, still unable to tear your eyes away from him. “Are you gonna keep wearing them?” 

“I don’t know. Contacts are better for cases because I’m not worried about them falling off or fogging up, but I usually sleep on the jet on the way back, and sleeping with contacts in isn’t good.” He smiles a bit as he fully turns to you, seemingly satisfied with his hair. “It reduces the amount of oxygen that gets to your cornea, which damages the cornea’s surface and makes it harder to regenerate new cells. Sleeping with contacts actually makes you six to eight times more likely to get an eye infection.”

You nod again, your brain still not quite working at full power. You always love listening to Spencer’s fact dumps—it gives you a lot of material to impress your non-BAU friends with on the side, and you’re eternally thankful for that—but right now, you seriously cannot focus. 

You’d never really thought about him in glasses, but that’s probably a good thing if this is how it makes you feel. 

You were valedictorian as an undergrad, and you received stellar feedback from your professors during your masters program. You’re an excellent profiler, a valued member of the BAU, and you’re a goddamn FBI agent. 

And yet you can’t find a single thought in your head because your coworker showed up to work wearing glasses. 

He’s still rambling about other common causes of eye infection and how nobody seems to take them as seriously as they should, when Derek, not even trying to hide his grin at your turmoil, speaks up.  

“Reid. Wanna cool it a bit?” 

Spencer’s eyes dart over to him for a moment before he stops. “Uh— sorry.” He frowns as he looks back at you. “Why do you ask? Do you not like them?” 

“No,” you blurt out, and you shake your head a multitude of times. “No. They look great. You look great. They’re—” You dig your nails hard into your palm as you try your hardest to smile like normal, and this time you nod. “They’re good, Spence.” 

“Thanks.” Spencer does that little smile-nod combo of his, and he pushes his glasses back into place with his thumb by the bottom of the frames. “That’s nice to know I’ve got another option.” 

You thank whatever god may be out there that Hotch and Penelope are busy in their offices and JJ is busy with some other case, because you think you would die if anyone else saw you like this. 

“Hey, Reid,” Emily says, also not doing a very good job of hiding her amusement. You hate your team sometimes. “They’re almost out of sugar in the breakroom. If you want coffee the way you like it this morning, you should probably get in there.” 

“What?” Spencer shoots up, his brows already furrowing into a frown. “That— that’s ridiculous. I can’t mess up my morning any more.” 

“You’d better get in there, then,” she remarks. 

“We’re an entire office of agents running on coffee,” Spencer complains as he starts walking. “How are we almost out of sugar?” 

“Because half of ‘em drink it black,” Derek says, and Spencer shakes his head with a sigh as he leaves. 

“That’s ridiculous.” 

You bury your head in your hands the moment he’s gone and Derek laughs. “I wish I could’ve gotten that on video.” 

“Don’t talk to me,” you groan. “It is not fair of him to walk in like that.” 

“And that is why I call him pretty boy.”

“He needs them to see,” Emily says with amusement as she leans against the side of your desk. “You just can’t control yourself.” 

“I need to transfer offices,” you say, shaking your head. “I can’t do this.” 

“You should ask him out!” Derek encourages. “He’d probably say yes.” 

“Absolutely not,” you insist. “I doubt he likes me like that. A— and even if he does, that’s the last thing either of us need right now.” 

“I don’t know,” Emily muses. “It looks like you clearly need something.” 

You let out a frustrated noise as you screw your eyes shut. “I’m doomed.” 

You hear Spencer say your name, and when you look over at him, one hand still pressed against your head, you see he’s got two cups of coffee in his hands. “Are you okay?” 

“Yeah,” you say weakly. “I’m great. Why?” 

“I got you one too,” he says, holding one of the mugs out to you. “The one you have is probably cold by now, and it looks like you need an extra kick to get through all those reports.” 

“Thanks, Spence. That’s sweet.” He nods as you take the proffered mug, and you swear your cheeks are as warm as the coffee. He is really testing your strength today. 

“You— you have a lot,” he says, and you huff a dry laugh and nod. “I’m not trying to be sarcastic. I could take half of them if you want?” 

Your grip tightens on the mug and you can feel Derek’s eyes on you. “I couldn’t make you do that, Spence.” 

“You’re not!” Spencer exclaims. “I can get through mine really quickly—we worked together for almost the whole last case so I can do all of that anyways.” 

“...You’re sure it wouldn’t be an imposition?” 

“I’m sure,” he nods. “Besides, I offered. I wouldn’t if I didn’t want to.” 

And god damn him, because he nudges his glasses back into place again, pushes a strand of loose hair back into place. You’re dying over here. 

You set the mug of coffee on your desk and pick up the top half of your pile. “All yours, Spence.” 

He takes the bottom half and smiles at you, and you smile back before he walks back to his desk. You are dying over here. 

“Let me know how I can pay you back,” you say, and he shakes his head. 

“You don’t need to pay me back.” 

“Really?” 

Spencer nods. “I mean, Morgan invited us all out on the jet last night, and I don’t think I can do it alone. If you can get out of the office in time, I don’t have to. I think that's enough of a payback.” 

“Yeah,” you say. “I’ll be there.” 

He smiles again and nods, then he picks up a pen and focuses in. You turn back to your desk, your face burning. 

“What was that about him not liking you like that?” Derek says. 

“Quiet!” you whisper-yell, swatting him with the pile of files in your hand. “He might hear you!” 

“He’s not hearing anything while he’s focused on that,” he says. “That just means you can ogle him more.” 

You groan again, letting your forehead fall into your palm. “I’m pathetic.” 

“I think you’re right.” Emily chuckles as she stands up. “You are doomed.” 

[thomtrebond]

music shuffle game 🎵

rules: shuffle your ‘on repeat’ playlist and post the first 10 songs, then tag 10 friends to do the same.

i was tagged by @redgoldblue who is probably idk performing surgery on a baby elf as we speak. me i'm procrastinating writing another book about the debilitating and sometimes connective impacts of mental illness !

Square - Mitski - ouch forever and always

Half-Boyfriend - Jay Brannan prince of my heart forever and always

Throw Your Arms Around Me - DAAS who thinks 'y'know what? i want a ballad by the Offensive Comedy Men who nonetheless sound like angelic little choirboys' to such a great result.

Mirror - The Last Dinner Party - aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Lying Is the Most Fun a Girl Can Have - Panic! At the Disco while i have been listening to this song probs since it came out it's forever tied in my head to a trans male writer of glee fic who had blaine, who had been in prison and was in a crumbling social housing centre, sing this song with an acoustic guitar as his audition for the glee club ??? anyway can't remember name of person or fic but the author was like. very cool and very clear about boundaries with his readers. did not like all the questions "but are u trans or cis" as one of the Token Boys writing glee slash. and he made the option "none of your business" possible. also king stuff. he came out more officially a bit later. hope he's doin good.

Heaven - Emeli Sande - again i. probably found this song through glee? bc emeli sande's 'next to me' was a duet with rachel and shelby. last time i thought about that i was 14 and in love with a trans girl who hadn't come out yet and she started transitioning a couple of years ago and i was like. very happy for her. but i think i was the first trans person she'd spoken to and i like had to explain dysphoria to her. and my god. i was bad trans rep i think. in that i was just So Much All of the Time.

Teardrop - Jose Gonzales - house md music designer i want your head on a stake.

Sonya Alone - Natasha, Pierre, and the Great Comet of 1812 - ballad of All Time

The Original High - Adam Lambert - king king king

Fucking Around - Darren Criss - he had so much fun performing this live. he's such a passionate swearer. i'm love him

Through Me (The Flood) - Hozier (I am allowed 11 because 10 songs on my favourites playlist not showing any Hozier at all is so statistically improbable it felt like lying sorry I do make the rules)

there are apparently three genres:

miserable beautiful ballads (square, half-boyfriend, mirror, teardrop, sonya alone)

bops that are nonetheless bordered by a vague sense of despair (lying is the most fun, heaven, the original high, through me, throw your arms around me)

just a very fun time (fucking around)

i tag: @voldiebuns @elfiver @ossidae-passeridae @goldenaltar @teacupsandcyanide @transunicorn If You Wish to Participate, and i tag You Dear Reader If You Also Wish to Participate

[bropunzeling]

oh sure i'll do a writing meme. ty @ohtemporas because i did not want to open the gdoc. ellipsus doc. that does NOT roll off the tongue. hooray procrastination.

What's one story you've written, you're the most proud of?

im proud of a lot of stories but two that i think really demonstrate like, committing to the bit (and by bit i mean tone) are only fools rush in and linger. i think it really shows that i followed these one after the other too, because like, marriage bets was about delivering a Rom-Com in the rom-commiest of fashions, where everything is driven by like, the contrast of low life stakes to high personal stakes (it's silly! but through the silliness we find an emotional core that MATTERS) and linger aka omega matthew is like, well what if we went totally opposite tonally. i really wanted to stretch myself doing something that wasn't a lot of rapid-fire jokes or light-heartedness and really spend some time in the emotional wallowing and i'm glad i did even tho writing it kinda sucked sometimes.

What's one story you wished you had expanded on, or spent more time writing?

hmmmm i think like, i'm really proud of the soulbond au for what it is while also being like, damn i could write it so much better now? but also it's such an artifact of when i wrote it and who i was when i wrote it. i think for literally anything i posted, after three years i'm like, man i can see all the ways that i changed as a writer and all these flaws and crutches and wow, it could be a lot better. but that's definitely a "wrote it in a two month fever dream" fic so maybe could've benefitted from a month of thinking on it? or maybe not.

What's your favorite trope of all time?

gosh i love so many. marriage of convenience obviously. i'm a HUGE sucker for soulbonds and things of that nature because you can get into the free will of it all. anything that allows for some world-building is delightful to me. i LOVE fake dating. i LOVE many classic dynamics. i LOVE pining. the best and greatest emotion of them all!!!

If you could be the main character in one of your stories, what one would it be?

absolutely not, i want my brain to work when i'm 50. tho i could fuck with being fen from proper english and being a rich lesbian who just swans about at house parties and exclaims over corpses. i'd be GREAT at that.

Do you think you'll ever stop writing for the fandom you're currently most active in?

yeah probs! everything is seasonal, everything is cyclical, and i have SO much tv to catch up on and potentially doctors to make kiss on the mouth i hear

You've been given a book deal. What story are you publishing from your collection?

uh none because i don't believe in converting fic into original fic lol. if it works outside of the context of the fandom then that has implications about it as a fanned fiction!

that said i would love to write a rom-com! we the people deserve more of them. not enough romance novels indulge in hijinks, shenanigans, things of that nature.

Top writing tip for others?

copying prev but seriously the filtering for words you use all the time (just, a little, feels like, etc.) and cutting them, as well as having an awareness of your crutches (mine are like three adjectives i love, em-dashes, and a certain kind of sentence structure) and addressing them, will save ur life and ur bacon. i also think it's a really good idea to, once you finish a draft, take a break from looking at it and send it to someone else so you can come back to editing with fresh eyes. don't even check the email notifications from beta comments. it's good to reset! finally just like. write the thing. if it's bad you'll figure out how to do it better next time. cringing at the past is a part of life.

tagging @hopetorun, @postoperation, @astronomical-light, whoever else wants to!

[hroscek]

✎📃Dottore studying headcanons📚

Back again with more Dottore content. This is a bit of a mix between a modern au but still somehow compliant with Genshin? Idk I just wanted to write ab him studying and projecting finding inspiration in my own life without having to explain how he has access to YouTube in his akademiya days okay? Anyways enjoy and make sure to study if you happen to be procrastinating at the moment (I will know)!

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Dottore study headcanons

Probably the type that ultra-focuses on the material in front of him leading to generally neglecting any and all other needs until he physically can't anymore (nearly burnt down his dorm via hair catching fire from a candle when he fell asleep at the desk)

Thinks he's above attending lectures so he'd definitely be that one student that never shows up but still ends up acing the exams.

Fully believes that he must achieve a state of total focus to optimize his brain. This starts as threatening the other students into leaving him alone as he studies, drawing the curtains and shutting out all other distractions. Probably spent too much on finding a good noise-cancelling headset.

After getting kicked out gracefully parting ways with the akademiya he devoted some time to trying to find ways to improve his focus even more. I'm talking full blown rounds of experimentation with different methods such as binaural beats (actually works tbh), sensory deprivation tanks etc. Sort of how greater lord rukkhadevata would shut herself away to meditate, but he would never admit how similar their methods are.

Honestly I wouldn't be surprised if the original Dottore is just floating in a state of meditation rn trying to achieve max brain power (legit a headcanon for me now lmao).

Seeing as he probably doesn't sleep much, especially when in the thick of experiments he tries his best to compensate in other ways. He drank an inhuman amount of coffee or energy drinks (or both at the same time tbh) until he grew a tolerance to all forms of caffeine and is now forced to actually sleep once in a while.

He is intimately familiar with is work area and instantly knows where everything is. To outsiders it looks like a mess of various documents, piles of paper, supplies and mechanical parts. Often he asks a new intern to fetch him a sheet or something and they'll spend hours looking for it in the raven's nest that man calls an office. Then he'll show up pissed as hell like "It was under the desk next to the 3rd used energy core. Are you really that stupid?".

When he's in the zone he's deathly silent, his eyes laser focused on whatever page or machine he's trying to figure out. An observer might be afraid he'll burn a hole trough the object with his eyes. This is probably the only time he doesn't wear his mask as he doesn't want anything to obstruct him. Archons couldn't help the unfortunate soul who dares to interrupt him in this state. Instant volunteer for his next experiment.

Pantalone once decided to gift him with an expensive stationery set in a desperate attempt to get him to organize his study. It included quills, ink, various highlighters and organizers all in pastels with cute motifs. "To bring some positivity to the gloomy atmosphere around you!". Dottore claimed to hate it but was seen months later using a kitten-themed notepad at one of his labs.

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Another post, another slay (probs a flop). I'm currently taking a half-voluntary gap year because I decided to switch universities a little too late in the year oops. And honestly in this time I've realized how much I thrive in the academic environment and I miss studying so much! Idk might sound a bit too optimistic coming from someone who's currently not under any pressing deadlines or tests but I really do miss it. As much as I hated crunching the night before a test and stressed about the material I believe it's an environment I truly thrive in. I really do find such comfort in being able to take notes, discuss with classmates and professors. It's probably one of the many reasons I find Dottore relatable. We both share such a thirst for knowledge and focus way too much on our favorite subjects. I'm rambling, sorry. Thank you so much for reading and please don't be shy to send me asks or comments with ideas you'd like me to expand upon. I'm still pretty new to writing in fandom space so I'd really be grateful to get feedback and see what the community wants lol.

Have a good day! ❀

[inshelliesworld]

get to know yourself:

· What does your ideal day look like?

I'm going to answer this as an ideal fantasy day and not one set in reality 😂 wake up super early for morning sex and go back to sleep. actually get up whenever is natural for the morning song and dance routine at my own pace and have breakfast or brunch if I feel like it. Some yoga or a quick run. Shower. Tend to my business(es) and charities. Lunch with the besties. Write, paint, read, etc. Play with the dogs/cats. Dinner, games, movie, conversation with my man & our friends. Nighttime song and dance routine; bedtime reading and sex. Deep, peaceful sleep.

· What did you wanna be when you were younger?

a ballerina, an astronaut, a marine biologist, an actress, a lawyer, a psychiatrist....

. Who are you most inspired by? Why?

my grandmothers were the best women I've ever known and my bestie is currently fighting cancer with the best attitude

. Who would you love to meet? What would you ask them?

Josh. What? Why? How? When? (iykyk)

· What habit would you like to break?

procrastination (it's not a habit but I would like to get rid of my executive decision dysfunction, please & thanks)

. What habit would you like to start?

playing the piano

· What qualities do you admire in people?

critical thinking

. What does relax look like to you?

· When was the last time you did something you were afraid of?

today, probs... maybe yesterday

· What are you most proud of?

my coven 🌙🖤✨🧿🔮🪄🎶📚🍪🌌🫧🧹🌞🩵☪️

· What are you most afraid of?

The Handmaid's Tale becoming reality.

· If life stopped today, what would you regret not doing?

More travelling.

. Who would you like to (re)connect with? Why?

Laura. I just miss her.

· What skills do you wish you had?

How to be successful with the stock market

. What memories would you like to have when you're in your 90s? What stories do you want to tell?

fun times, life lessons, world travel, great books

what it's like to be a good friend and to have good friends, why laughter makes everything better, how the hard days don't last forever, when to tell the truth and when to shut the fuck up, who to trust, where to go if there's trouble, the secrets of believing in yourself, and the magic of falling in love every chance that comes around.

· What is your favorite book/movie/song? Why?

book: there's a lot but for 2024 my favorite was "The Midnight Library" by Matt Haig-- if this book doesn't change your perspective, gtfo. movie: too many to choose one but I will always watch Clueless or Wayne's World or Remember the Titans song: Wheel by John Mayer-- "And if you never stop when you wave goodbye You just might find if you give it time You will wave hello again You just might wave hello again"

· What do you love to do for or give to others?

deep, uncontrollable, loud laughs

· What makes you excited?

all red Starburst jelly beans

· What do you wish you did more of?

writing

. What would you do with unlimited money?

Put a bunch of lobbyists in DC / buy the government

· What area of your life makes you feel the best?

I feel like this question is oddly worded.... but my best answer is my insatiable curiosity and eagerness to learn makes me feel best.

· What do you want to achieve in the next 12 months?

become 'minimalist enough' & organized!

. What advice would you give 5-year-old you?

Don't carry around backpacks full of shit that isn't yours. Don't even carry around backpacks full of your own shit for too long. You're meant to put that shit down and walk away.

· How do you want to be remembered in life?

understanding, empathetic, fair, and loving

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[memberment]

Genesis

12:06 oh my god I have once again woken up too early and this time it was not on purpose.

TRYING to speed run some of this pre-work. Updates later but GOOD MORNING

9:12 I am back and working on two chapters at the same time. BECAUSE I NEED TO CONCEPT A DAMN ANGEL FOR HEIDI AND KENNY TO FIGHT. I CONCEPTED ONE AT WORK BUT THEY CAN'T FIGHT THIS ONE LMFAO

Also I need a flashback for Kyle so I'm literally just playing procrastinator olympics as I pingpong between two chapters. I might work on Bound for a bit tonight though, ngl. Because I am 21 chapters completed deep and 71.9k words in on this and Bound has THREE CHAPTERS READY AND BOUND HAS INTERMISSION CHAPTERS SO TECHNICALLY TWO LIKE. I WANT THE OPTION TO NOT WRITE WHEN MY SEMESTER STARTS!!!! (It's not like I'd even follow that but STILL.)

Also next line up is prob not gonna have a fic for every day, much to my own disappointment. Because school literally starts in FOURTEEN DAYS. and I only have four things ready to go. And I am determined to finish Genesis before my semester starts. Like I'm definitely gonna take a solid break from this series before I start Revelation, because that is going to be A LOT. (I do not think I will be taking much of a break between Revelation and Karma though, ngl. Bc each part starts, like, immediately after the previous one, but I KNOW how Revelation ends and Karma starts already and it has me LOSING MY SHIT. LIKE THE ENDING OF FUCKING REVELATION IS INSANEEEEEEE. And I hope not a soul sees it coming despite it being RIGHT THERE.)

I am sad though because I did want to start on Princess of Fire and get to a point where regular posts can pull up on that because I genuinely really like the concept and like, fine, I'm getting better at writing (and it is SOT and I do not wanna post a shit SOT fic on Wintergrew's internet) as I go so maybe holding off isn't a huge deal BUT I WANT Y'ALL TO FUCKING SEE THE VISION‼️‼️‼️

I honestly wish I could livestream my brain does that make sense LMFAO

2:24: Tears just rolled down my cheeks at the realization that we have not had one goddamn (exclusively) Bebe centric chapter and I am trying to write chapter 24. OH MY GOD. I can't even give her a full filler chapter because I wan't my filler to be like LIGHT HEARTED AND FUN. I CAN'T JUST STRETCH OUT LIKE 3K WORDS OF HER JUST EXISTING IN THE MIDDLE OF ANY OF THIS. LIKE WE ARE TEN CHAPTERS DEEP INTO THE WORSE SHIT. OH MY GOD I HATE IT HERE. Like I actually was just scrolling through the chapter titles and was like 'oh we have Stan! We have Craig! We have duhduhduhduhduh.' AND I GOT TO THE BEGINNING AND THERE IS NO FUCKING BEBE CHAPTER?????? WHAT THE FUCK! (I literally did this with Butters in Dandelion and had the same reaction why is it that all of my favorite fucking characters I do this to???? HOW. Like, we get more of her in Revelations but WHAT! THE! FUCK!)

So yeah, 24 is gonna be Bebe, despite me kinda wanting it to be Tam or Wendy.

Also I'm reading 'You're Not Mine Anymore' AGAIN (because even though I said I hated it, that chapter has literally embedded itself in my brain. Like, it's so fucking disturbing and so sad and I actually wanna throw myself out my window every time I think about it LMFAO)

2:55 I changed one sentence in this chapter and now I'm actually gonna sob. I hate it here.

4:30 I got distracted and watched tik toks since my last update, specifically spending like an entire ten minutes absolutely geeking over the 1970's gymnastics olympics and I am now back at my keyboard. I got a very specific bit of inspiration and it is fucking TERRIFYING.

Anyways. RIP Craig. Like seriously, dude is going THROUGH IT. This is what I get for ignoring him for like a week and a half (two weeks? ish. I'm settling on ish, here. A VAGUE, BUT NOT VERY LONG AMOUNT OF TIME) of their time when he is actively losing his shit.

I think killing him and Tweek off at this point is more of a mercy killing than anything on my part why did I do this to them I am so sad. AND THE FACT THAT THEIR DEATHS IS WHAT THIS WHOLE FIC GOT CONCEPTED AROUND IS FUCKING INSANE. LIKE I WROTE THEIR DEATH SCENE AND WAS LIKE WELP GOTTA WRITE A MAGICAL GIRL FIC.

And now I'm slowly but surely on my way to that chapter and annotating and writing in bits and pieces of THAT chapter and I'm like wow. Wow oh wow. Might need a hallucinations tag. Hypothetically, of course. But also hypothetically, would the hallucinations tag apply to this if said hallucinations are questionably real? Hypothetically. Anyways, when Fall From Grace gets posted, y'all are gonna need like sixteen and a half TWs.

And now I'm off to go write this fucking MESS of a chapter that is the Bebe chapter because I STILL DIDN'T WRITE IT. AND I AM OFFICIALLY DOWN TO THIRTEEN DAYS.

Another hypothetical, while I'm still here before I leave again and don't update until god knows when. Do you guys think I can finish 20 chapters in 13 days? Like, that would be approximately 60-80k words. Do y'all think I got this? And I'm typing that and realizing I thought the wc for this was gonna be like 100k and am now realizing I'm at 74k and just wow. ANYWAYS. LATER. Hope y'all are enjoying my extra long screams into the void tonight.

4:55 Black Swan cries out violently in the background as I realize I have just made five out of six, the quintet is now a trio, and Red is just there not giving a fuck. My head is in my hands. My jaw is dropped. I fear I may be evil for writing this.

May the gods I don't believe in help us all.

(I HAVE NEVER WRITTEN THIS MANY MAJOR CHARACTER DEATHS. MY MAX HAS BEEN TWO SO FAR. THIS IS WHY DESOLATION ENDED THE WAY IT DID BECAUSE I FEARED THIS.)

Eh, fun fact while I'm here again. The original ending of Desolation, everyone was gonna die except for Kyle.

But wow OH WOW. Yeah, this is why I don't write major character death.

It is 6:26 am and I just posted An Answer chapter in attempts to procrastinate this horrible ending further and the realization has dawned on me that I am now involved in the mystery because I'm rereading and I have no idea WHAT THE FUCK is going on. I'm laughing so hard over this. God, how two months can really slip away is insane.

6:49: guys I'm rereading this and I am actually thrown off by my own writing like I fully forgot how off-putting this fic is supposed to be BECAUSE of what happened and why things are like this and I actually fell into my own fucking trap. I'm crying this is so funny HELP

7:02: not me happily reading and giggling over platonic twendy fluff and just getting smacked in the face by shit getting very real very fast. this is wild.

[screampied]

vegasssss you should not be letting me yap especially cuz i'm bouta be on spring break like this week (yippie except i have a test the literal week i get back ☹️) and i may or may not accidentally bombard you with asks so uhm yeah anyways

erm okay okay so basically idk if has been done before, probably has cuz i don't think it's very special but like let me try and explain it okay

sooooo it's like you live with geto and this is like pre-kenjaku (i think its kinda obvi where im going with this but wtvr) one night you're in bed waiting for him to come home and you check the time seeing it's already when he usually gets home right and like "zamn where he att???" yk and uhmm you call and he don't pick up no matter how many times you call which is weird cuz he usually at least texts you or smth if he can't pick and then out of NOWHERE you get a call from gojo and he's like "don't open the door for anyone" which is cray cray cuz you get a knock the door (crazy right) and it's geto (or is it...) and then i ended up falling asleep or waking up or smth cuz idk what happens next

i promise i'll get sleep, soon, hopefully

hope you're day is good and you're night is better vegas‼️‼️

WAIT I FORGOT TO ASK HRU

HRU VEGAS⁉️⁉️

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YAP ALL YOU WANT 💝💝💝🫂. squirt nation is so happy to have u, don’t worry !!!!

woah ur spring break comes so late, lucky. mine ended about last week n im alr missing it <3 good luck & make sure to study a lot ! feel freeeee to bombard me with asks lover

OOOOOOo i love it. pre-kenjaku you say? omg this sounds kinda eerie me like. pls the “it’s geto (or is it)” TBIS SOUNDS GOOD. u should totally write it that seems like a fire ass angst ☹️☹️😞

it’s been like four hours (i just woke up) hope ur getting some good sleep rn !!!!

but awh thank you babe! 🫂 im doing okay im GOOOOOD, prob gonna make me some ramen n finish these assignments i procrastinated

[imanes]

hi imane! i hope ur doing well <3 i just wanted to ask: what do you do during times of uncertainty? im a uni student abt to go on placement and I've been applying for part-time jobs that's centred around my field but to no avail sadly :/ i wanted to save up at least so i wouldn't stress during placement and everything's so overwhelming.. there are other external factors that's making me feel this way too like a friendship break-up i had few months ago and its affected me quite badly but im starting to pick myself up again. anyways sorry for the rant and i hope ur day is lovely x

hey! just sat down after hours of procrastination to work on my dissertation and i wish i were done already akjdkfgj but it could be worse!! ok it's gonna be long and probs unhelpful but i know that you wanted to vent more than you thought i was holding some solution so I'll just ramble and hope something resonates with you lmao <3

for me uncertainty makes me feel like my life is in shambles, it's hard to cope with things going south and not seeing the light at the end of the tunnel but during my yearly flop era in march/april i had a talk with a friend who's much older, wiser, and more experimented, and basically it helped me put things into perspective and learn how to let go. there are only so many things that you can control so i split my different issues into different categories for a more systemic approach to my problems lol: things that i can actually somewhat control (my emotions, my reactions, my efforts, what i can do moving forward to alleviate some of my stress), things that are out of my control (how people misconstrue me, external stressors like shitty coworkers, refusals from jobs i was applying for) and things (and people) that i don't need in my life. learning to let go of things for me internationally infamous control freak was not easy but it was liberating, idk if you're religious so if you aren't the next part isn't going to be helpful lol but i don't think i should be chasing things because i am exactly where i am meant to be, and if i start clutching at the things that aren't meant to be in my life, it's just my ego getting in the way, and i prayed that Allah just lets me find the place that i would fit better in and that He'd take me away from it if i wasn't going to be doing or feeling good there. i guess the non-religious version would just be to trust the process and understand that things in life wax and wane, whether it be job opportunities or relationships. obviously there's like a plethora of other factors like what do i do if i can't pay the bills and stuff? that was how i was thinking just a couple of months ago when my dissertation was not writing itself and nobody was hiring me! but a few weeks have passed and looking back on it i was starting to chase things again and it made me feel like i was stuck in a rut when in fact it's normal for things to take some time to settle down and for opportunities to arrive.

so basically whether you stress about it or not, literally nothing is going to change except the way you frame it in your head. for me i just continued applying and gave interviews my all while also being detached enough to simply trust myself to find the space that i was meant to occupy eventually, and after many many many rejections i finally found something a week ago, but it took a couple of months of steady job application to get there. looking from the other side of the mirror it's easy to say things like "don't get discouraged!" but it is true that if you keep throwing shit at a wall something's going to eventually stick, hence the power of consistency and of never giving up.

i'm glad you're slowly building yourself back up after your friendship break-up, i know how much it can drag you down but again some people are meant to be with you for a season only and at the end of the day with the effect of time making things more bearable and by working on your self-esteem and knowing that you can do things that you set your mind to, whether it is finding a part-time job or picking yourself back up, in a few weeks you're gonna look back on where you were mentally at when you sent me this message and where you'll be then and you'll thing "well i guess things DO pass huh who would've thought!!" lol life is a cycle of stability and unsteadiness, doesn't matter how much you prepare something's always going to go sideways but another truth is that things fall back into place again and you have to have faith in that, in yourself, and maybe in something else like i am w/ my relation to religion if u need extra help. speaking of help if you have a support system, confide in them and let them carry some of that weight for you!! you'd do the same for them so don't feel like you're a burden for needing help when you are facing instability. wishing you the best of luck and i really hope you find a good part-time job before your placement babe

[whentherewerebicycles]

goooood morning! it’s a WFH friday everybody cheer!!!! I have one meeting with a former student from 11-12 to work on grad applications but the rest of the day is project work which will be very fun. I am planning to do a long brainstorming + synthesizing + AY23-24 goal-setting session this weekend (maybe tomorrow?) so I think I can keep focused on discrete projects today. that way I will have some nice concrete ~deliverables~ to show for the week.

here’s what I’d like to do:

FINISH STUDENT LEADERS PROPOSAL. write opening context paragraph. make list of concrete asks for summer/fall at the end with short explanations. draft questions for the working group to discuss next week. move doc into sharepoint (my beloathèd). attach new link to meeting agenda.

FINISH DIGITAL STRATEGY PROPOSAL. I made a long list detailing the limitations of our current strategy earlier this week bc I was so exasperated about it lol but I think that’s way too negative and I don’t want to hurt feelings or bulldoze!! SO I'd like to rewrite the list in the language of opportunities (ie look at all these exciting areas for growth!). I want to limit this proposal to 2 pages and while I can tinker with the order/framing of content I’d like to convey the following: specific aspects of current strategy we need to change (bc not achieving desired results), a new purpose statement, a list of short-term concrete asks (redesign of launch page and search results page, pruning of entries, streamlining of submission process, proposed delegation of new work, etc), and a skeleton sketch of our fall promotion strategy.

ONBOARDING PREP. add a few items to the running list of potential projects for the new hire... maybe fill in some of that onboarding plan if i need a sort of mindless task to work on...

this is a big chunk of work and I’d be satisfied if I got through all that today in addition to this student meeting. however if I am on a roll (or if I get frustrated with the above projects and need to take a break) I can also think about winter course planning (look at sample syllabi, think about learning outcomes, brainstorm possible assignments).

rough timing of the day:

8-10:30 worked on onboarding stuff and work emails

10:30-11 comments on AU's draft

11-12 AU mtg

12-1:30 pick your poison... whichever proposal you feel least like procrastinating on. prob student leaders?

1:30-2:15ish make lunch & do a burst of pod editing

2:15-3:30 work on the other proposal

pod editing

[m1ckeyb3rry]

WAIT MIRA YOU ALRDY POSTED THE LAST PART?? GOD WAIT IM NOT READY WHAT HELP NO, NOW I NEED TO READ IT NOW BEFORE I GET SPOILED OR SMTH WHEN YOU ANSWER ASKS

Also the fact that it took you so little time to finish this?? I want that talent TT NOO IM NOT READY TO LEAVE THIS SERIES ITS SO GOOD IM GONNA SOB

SKDJDJ KOUUUU I JUST POSTED IT AN HOUR OR SO AGO!! omg i am looking forward to your thoughts on part two and part three hehe I HOPE YOU LOVE 🥹💖

AHH i feel like if i hadn’t had classes and exams i would’ve finished much sooner tbh i procrastinated w writing this one a lot <//3 but honestly that is where my life is atm i probs won’t be super prolific again until summer!! UEUEUE you are so sweet but it’s not really a talent as much as a work style i think…i write a LOT really quickly and then ghost for a while like there’s nothing resembling consistency here 😓✊🏻 but i appreciate it regardless!!

I CAN’T QUITE BELIEVE IT’S OVER EITHER 😭😭😭 i will miss working on it because it truly was such a blast!! but the good news is now i can finally play amphoreus and meet mydei and handsomeboyfriend and the rest in game FJDKJD hopefully my next work won’t require an entire paragraph of warnings about how i don’t know the main love interest that well 🙏🏻

[vampiremoneyz]

just checked my inbox for the first time in months n found a whole bunch of erasermic fic requests that i never finished writing maybe i’ll finish them some time this year

[momosbrainrots]

Lovesick | Jinx X sick Reader

Got the c virus and it's awful. I'm so sick I needed to write the most cliche fluff, but I love them and I'm soft.

And tadaa, I'm accepting requests! I want to improve my English writing skills so anything is appreciated!

Thank you for everything and be safe guys.

Good night ♡

"Ahhh, so booorinngg, how long does it take to treat a cold!?"

After spending hours on cold Zaun nights safeguarding Shimmer's cargo's from attack or theft, it's taken a toll on you. No matter how strong you are, no one is safe from catching a cold.

At least this time you have some company.

"I told you you'd get bored, you can go if you want, you don't have to be here you know?"- you cough

"Aww you're no fun. Are you kicking me out even though I came here to keep you company? Rude."- she said pouting

She turned to go to the small kitchen of your apartment, maybe she'd find something to entertain herself there.

"Oh, while you're there bring me some water please."

"Gotcha!"

Looking through the cupboards for a glass she starts to rattle on, jumping from topic to topic, you try to pay attention to your s/o but your head won't register what she's saying, you hear something about a new gadget and some complaints of the last work. Finally she gives you your needed water. You sit up in bed and begin to drink, while she continues to wander around your room.

While you're drinking, the need to cough gets you , thus choking on the water. You spit it out because you can't swallow it or breath. At that moment you begin to cough uncontrollably, struggling to inhale some air.

"Also- Oh! You should have seen the face of that ogre today when Silco tell her off, and... Hey, are you lisen"- Jinx lost in thought didn't realize the situation yet, she turns around and sees you fighting for your life.

She comes running to your side, sitting next to you, and tries to think what to do.

"Oh no, fuck toots are you alright?! Wait look at the ceiling, look up!"-She tells you while patting you on the back.

When you manage to calm down and recover your breathing you realize that you had clung tightly to her arm, and that the bed was now wet.

"Ugh... Thank you"- you say with a raspy voice, still coughing painfully

The blue-haired girl reaches for some tissues that you had on the table next to the bed and proceeds to dry you and the bed.

"No prob but geez you almost drown yourself here, I can't even let you drink water by yourself now"- she laughs but worry's still present in her eyes

It was in these moments that you could appreciate the affection and delicacy with which she treated you, in contrast to everything that is her, something that only you could see in moments as intimate as these.

Jinx is not someone who knows how to take care of others, god she can hardly even take care of herself, but you saw how she tried to do the same things you did for her in moments like this.

"Scooch over, will you?"- says as she makes her way under the covers. Instinctively, you cuddle her, letting your head rest in the crook of her neck, her warmth and scent quickly flooding your senses as you let a content hum. She adapts to you, wrapping you in her arms, allowing you to position yourself comfortable.

"This way you'll catch it too y'know..."

"Mhm, sounds tempting, that way you'll have to take care of me."

"Not if we're both sick."- she remained silent for a second

"Then we'll just need to stay here as long as it lasts"

"Silco's gonna kill us."

"Yeah."

You both chuckle for a last time as you drift away in a peaceful slumber.

The next day Jinx did indeed catch it too. But that means procrastinating, Silco giving extra work to Sevika and more cuddles, so thats sounds like a plan.

[stressghoul]

HII!!! ITS ME AGAIN, fellow stressed ghestie, how are you today?? Have you had water?? A nice meal?? Enough sleep?? Make sure to take a nap if it helps!! I like doodling in between classes to take my mind off things— I WAS FEELING ANXIOUS THE OTHER DAY AND A FELLOW GHESTIE SUGGESTED SOME HEADCANONS!!

Whoever it is you like most (i.e. copia) write down how you think they would react to you in that moment!! Stressed? Copia would probably bring you a nice warm cup of tea or anything you like, some of your favorite snacks, he would cover you with a fuzzy blanket and bring some books to read to you, or maybe sit and talk about things you both like!!

It's such a cute idea and it made me feel so much better and then I got ALL A's ON MY TESTS I WAS SO HAPPY AFTER!! best of luck to you and your studies!!!! :) I shall keep checking in hehe

hello @bluravenite <33

i am doing okay. i am very tired and spent much time rotting in procrastination. i have had water, and I had a big ass chicken kebab for dinner ty for asking. I'm struggling to nap these days which is weird for me. is it the anxiety? its probs the anxiety.

ironic u say then what copia would do if u were stressed hahaha oh man. I've thought about that a lot. probably every day if I'm honest. what I would give for him to lie next to me under a blankie and stroke my back saying that he will be with me every step of the way. that he will protect me. that he will be there when no one else is. can u tell I'm lonely? anyways.

I AM SO PROUD OF U WOOOOW (Copia would be too!!!) tysm I need all the luck I can get <33

[imagine-straykids]

★ Sincerely, Lee Know | Ver. 01

★ Summary: In an alternate universe where Lee Minho AKA Lee Know is a sassy blogger. You get to see with your very own eyes everything he documents on his blog, whether that's his thoughts on a recent movie he had just watched, his experience eating at Taco Bell for the first time, or the bitch he almost had to fight, Lee Minho will stop at nothing to get his points across.

★ Discretion: I hope it's not confusing, but this is a roleplay? I thought the idea would be fun. A lot of cursing and mature contents will be discussed, but nothing too over the top. Beware excessive cringe maybe. This is a series. Enjoy!

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Hi, my name is Lee Know, or I guess if we're getting personal here: Lee Minho. Although I prefer Lee Know because people always get me confused with the actor Lee Minho.

I rant and complain A LOT, but I don't think I need to tell you that, because you'll be finding it out for yourself later. But I have the mouth the size of the pacific ocean, and holding back is the last thing Lee Know does. So if you're a sensitive little bitch, then do not continue any further. If you still do and proceed to come for me, then well... that's between you and god.

More about myself? Well... I'm just your average everyday guy, but better. I like to listen to music and dance on my free time. And when I'm not doing that, then I usually hang out with my crew. They can be real idiotic and sometimes I wonder why am I even putting myself through their shit, but they are the real homies. Have been with me since forever and I know they will always have my back, so watch out.

Why I started this blog? Well, funny story. I got into an argument with Chan one day, btw shoutout to @christopherbangcorner go follow and like his stuff. I know he told me to not tell anyone about his blog but I could give two shit. Anyways, we were arguing and he said to me "You run that mouth of yours so much, why don't you put it to good use for once." so here I am. So if you're interested, keep reading. If you're just coming here to hate on me, then well... that's going to be difficult because I'm quite a likable person if I say so myself. I'm just kidding... ish.

Anyways. That's that. Proceed with caution!

Sincerely, Lee Know.

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rant #1 2:35 p.m.

I swear, hoes these days be thirsty asf. Me and Hyunjin just wanted to go to the convenience store to get some things Chan's lazy ass ordered us to, and we legit got followed the whole way there. ARE PEOPLE LITERALLY THAT JOBLESS! Leave us alone next time or don't say I didn't warn you when I whip out my asian slipper and slap every one of you so hard you're going to regret ever meeting me in this lifetime. And like, aren't you guys supposed to be in class right now? Go back, Jesus. Bet every one of y'all are failing. How would your mothers feel if she knows you're ditching class to go chase some dicks.

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Yo, I just suddenly remembered the rudest customer I ever had. So I used to work at this Boba shop during my high school days, and this motherfucker with his cupcake shaped hair jimmy neutron looking ass came in and started yelling at me for getting his order wrong. Like bro... why you tryna fight a 16 year old about a $4 drink. Chill tf out. There are children dying in Africa. Now that I think about it, 16 year old me was on some adult shit. 22 year old me now would've spit in his drink.

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Learn to wear a goddamn mask. I will not repeat myself. You ain't no Rosa Parks, you just a stupid headass. Do all these people really think they're doing sum?

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Yes, we know we're hot.

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yo, wtf. people actually read the shit that I write? no offense, but are you guys like... okay?! i sorta created this blog out of spite but now I just might have to roll with it.

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I'm bored and my inbox are open. Send me something. No nudes or creepy ass messages please. There's a block button and I'm not afraid to use it.

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➤ potofnoodle923 asked: dang shawty, you cute.

sincerelyleeknow replied: tell me something I don't know.

➤ anonymous asked: why are you wearing makeup? that's gay. You're not funny and all of your followers suck.

sincerelyleeknow replied: why you mad bro? I bet you sent that from your mom's basement. go out and get some sunlight my dude. bitter ass mf i know you're scared.

➤ caillou_caillou0 asked: you're cute and all but why your hair be looking crispy.

sincerelyleeknow replied: okurr caillou. at least I have hair.

➤ flowerbeauty7 asked: go out with me?

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➤ anonymous asked: fucking traitor hoe.

sincerelyleeknow replied: ayy chill out Chan. I helped promote your blog.

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okay well that was a fucking mistake. anyways, I'm gonna bounce now. prob answer more tmr or whenever I'm not procrastinating. some of y'all weird as fuck.

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[euphoricfilter]

YOONGI IN THE DAECHITWA AND AGUST D MVS! I want to request a drabble with daechitwa lore with one or both of the Yoongis in the daechitwa mv. (Am I being too selfish?? Lol) Maybe even add 2016 AGUST D and modern idol Yoongi. Idk I feel greedy lol. Omg this is long lol. If you say yes, I should prob send in a shorter ver for the reply lol.

Could do reincarnation, time travel, or something to see a lil of each version. Could do something more convenient like a genie/demon wish, a dream, or something that has 1-4 of the versions with mc. (Assuming mc isn’t in a relationship with any of them. This prob works best with mc and idol Yoongi with the wish for other versions hm.) Idk if this would be hard to write so maybe the next one would be better. But I’d like to read your version of daechitwa lore omg please! (Please add daechitwa lore to the other option somehow if you don’t do this one lol)

Or idol Yoongi who fucks mc during or after each of the mv recordings with his makeup and outfit on. (Both daechitwa looks ofc). Omg and now I’m thinking of adding a Tony Montana concert version too oh no lol. I think I want to add it please lol. (Maybe yes for the other option too if you do it) Quickies? Or not since it’s more fun to savor it idk. Maybe different things per time. Timeskip around. Kinda cute to think of how different they both might be as the years pass. (Oh no thinking about predebut/debut Yoongi too. This one is prob a no for both options? But could be nice aww) Or he role plays for her at their home as favors that mc needs to repay or as gifts. Maybe one version per day? Idk if Yoongi could realistically do it but that sounds nice lol. What if he breaks character during it lol

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OMG I LOVE ALL TJESE IDEAS

even if you just copy and paste them, put them into separate asks so that when i upload them i can post it straight from the request! and that makes my life a tiny bit easier if that’s okay?

i also have i think 17 requests at the moment but if i can stop procrastinating im gonna try and get one out today or tomorrow morning.. starting is always the hardest part for me

but i will get round to writing these ones as well because i love the ideas and there are so many possibilities for me to write, i think they’re gonna be a little longer LMAO i’ve been struggling to keep my requests around 4-5k because once i start writing my brain goes brrr and i just wanna write like 10k words to set the scene and have a real good plot line with all this flowery language to make it pretty— for these ones i might do that because they need a good story 🥲 i have another request that i wanna make a longer story as well because there’s absolutely no way i’m squeezing it into a drabble. that’s wasted potential

[whentherewerebicycles]

did not sleep well last night too busy processing oppenheimer which was so good in so many ways that its glaring flaws annoyed me even more because they seemed so avoidable? like they clearly weren’t failures of ability or nerve they were just nolan being like mm no that is of no interest to me. but on the whole a v good piece of art with a couple fatal flaws lol and one I’ll prob go see again. it was a movie that reminded me what I like about films as a medium distinct from other kinds of storytelling. etc etc

mm what else. BIG thunderstorm this morning which was so nice although sadly it is already dissipating. this is my last full day here and I’m sad about it!! I feel like my parents and I built up a ton of goodwill just through dealing with the early pregnancy stress and the emotional fallout of the surgery together, and it’s just been really nice to spend a lot of time with them this summer even if some of that was for bleh reasons. anyway it’s fine I will just have to make time to come back in the fall sometime too. ok ok but time to start the day probably let’s see…

8:30-9:50 coffee, lounge, work emails, review big priorities for the week

9:50-10:15 shower/get ready

10:15-11ish talk to liz

11-11:30 prep for meeting

11:30-12:30 LK/ND mtg

12:30-4:30 open time—I’d like to email five faculty members (so I’ll have to make a quick template for that and do a tiny bit of research to tailor it) and maybe do a first rough draft of the one-page proposal. I can tell I’m going to want to procrastinate on that because I think it’ll be time-consuming but I’ve actually done a lot of the legwork already so I just need to block off some time to compile stuff. I will copy over the list of identified needs, trim it down to essentials, add dates/times for the event series, and note where we’re planning to add links to the expectations contract + check-in templates next week. if I can get all that done (which will take 30-60 min max) I can check that off my list and send it on to the next stage for feedback. and my reward will be that if I do those two things (emails and proposal draft) I can spend the rest of this block writing fic :) although I might also want to do all the veggie prep to make this roasted veggie tart if we’re doing that tonight hmmmm I’ll have to ask my mom

4:30-6 equity analysis mtg

done for the day!