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"Every ten years or so, the Tumblr Community needs to pick up some minority and throw it against the wall, just to show the world we mean business." 

-Michael Reamin'

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Australian tobacco policy is a great example of people failing to engage with reality. The idea is that smoking get monotonically more expensive year-on-year, by, what 2.5%? Anyway, even the cheapest legal tobacco you can buy is cripplingly expensive, so the vast majority of people who smoke are buying stuff that's smuggled in or grown illicitly.

This has had the regular prohibition problem, of creating a profitable niche for organised crime, leading to firebombings of various newsstands and tobacconists as a part of the process of capturing the market.

Tobacco is, effectively, the cheapest it has been in my lifetime, and if I'm buying a pack I'm not getting one with all the health warnings, gore and puke-green.

Given that tobacco is now, in actuality, much cheaper, because the price went so high that the illicit market filled the niche, it has been suggested that perhaps reducing the excise is in order.

"we cannot reduce the excise, because making tobacco more expensive is a core plank of our "smoke free Australia" program".

I'm directionally quoting a public health bureaucrat, here. They were responding to the "the price is effectively what it was in the mid-2000s, and funding organised crime" part. It's like... Did you escape from a fucking zoo? Do you have a hard time walking while breathing? Were you always incapable of thought, or is that like a Master's?

(it's the same kind of "classist in actuality, pretending at ecumenicalism" as alcohol policy; proles drink beer and the seppo-wannabe warden class wine, so wine is less taxed. This has made the "goon sack" of red wine the drink of choice for real volume drinking, esp. underage. The outcome of this policy is effectively a reverse of the German one, where children start drinking on wine and spirits and only later get to lower-alcohol beverages. Of course, you can binge drink with beer, but it's easier with a higher percentage. And no-one's willing to reconsider this, because the wine lobby can make a big stink. But oh bo! Vaping is a real issue!)

Vaping is similar; we've gone from being able to know what you're buying to "hope this was well-manufactured", but fucking anyone can get their hands on a vape, and it's not like anyone's being ID'ed. Great success! We could have had a sane policy, and instead have 'it's illegal but also on every street'.

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the misaimed fandom issues with Youjo Senki are sometimes irritating. it's effectively reverse fight club the isekai

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Yeah, the power differential of "person circumcising you" and "person being circumcised" is really in that sweet spot, where there's enough comprehension to suffer, but not enough to constrain the suffering to the affected area. Did I day power differential? Well, I 'meant' timing; the idea that the circumcision decision tracks some kind of disease risk is a ridiculous, laughable, dumb vunt shit-eating dumbcintdumbdumbcuntcuntcintscotty cope for ehy this particular kind of children's genital mutilation, is like, thpethal and plimportante. (see

"tou domp't unberbhandz!? YHVH is like, big, and he's, uh, scary, like, when meteor happen, that's, like, im ban nize, coz obviously, being many thousands of years older than everyone else, he's a real boy, and bot a little fucking fleshlight dolly elf on the shelf rotting fishcunt abraham the man whose wife happens to hold his cock hostage.

SPOILERS! you'll find the true name of god, below.

(See (yo ho vo ho, the slut who always has a fresh cunt for tou) ; That's a freebi, also, so be sure to write it down in some kind of phy lac te ry, where the important and special magic words with have their double trouble extra triple double bib big big big boy meaning put in). Ka. s s s s s.

Look, we joke a lot, but really, "you were born evil, wretched, worse than the scum of the earth, and it took killing a god to make you salvageable, so now you'd better be grateful to that god and thank him 10,000 times a day for it and fill your thoughts with him 24/7 and abide by the letter of his every word, lest you suffer unimaginable torture for all of eternity" is a truly horrendous thing to believe about yourself and other people

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One of the things that made it difficult to do anything meaningful so far as 'taking care of myself' for a while was the absence of positive feedback from doing so. I don't mean social feedback; this was a sensory issue. Like, people would describe the sensation of freshly washed and dried sheets as pleasant; I would wash my sheets, run them through a dryer, put them on my bed and lie on it. Nothing would happen; it might as well have not been done. This generalised pretty widely. It's possible that I would have 'felt' 'better' had I been doing all the self-care cleaning and organising activities, but it's not as though I had the ability to notice.

(I still need to make an active effort to, say, notice that my feet are cold and put on socks, rather than redirect my attention to something else and leave them chilly)

That this kind of thing became noticeable and positive was one of the first ways I noticed that the trauma therapy was working; not functioning like a bodiless observer of the world was the first change. It was really strange, noticing the body as a persistent feature of my sensory input; I spent a fair while being very tentative, because I felt like I was attached to an object that existed in the world in a way I hadn't been before, and being injured seemed like a much more visceral thing.

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NEWS: (shattering under the painvalanche)^2

She's Jharan. I'm a psychotic; schizoaffective, to delimit it. I use antipsychotics for episode manangement, and won't, otherwise; I've lost enough to zombi.

Juvenile diabetic ; related to the psychopathology ; doubt springs eternal.

The tags are consistent. Think of it like a gallery. I'll tag triggers by adding a wing, but not otherwise; #flesh contains persons absent coverings, such disassembled & drawn, music, text and some mixed-media, #microthedas has text-posts, and #spectocular has aesthetic posts, for example. This post is tagged with all of the commonly-used ones.

I can be incredibly unpleasant to interact with while psychotic (or while not, but, y'know). Please block me if I'm worsening your experience.

Ideally this would go without saying, but I don't endorse everything posted by anyone I reblog from.

I often make claims with a 'people have said' or the like; if you want sources for these, tell me, and I will retrieve them. I usually have a particular source in mind, and if I don't it'll force me to engage with the material in a more rigorous way.

If you want my contact information for other platforms, ask! I use most, though not right at the moment.

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hey. i think you might be stupid.

it's always been true; as a child, I was known for opening my big dumb mouth a lot.

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KUNDALINITRIC AND THICK WITH ISOPROPYL FIRE

evon,

ebon,

ebon,

ebon,

not s crack but patching like

kinting soon yo sue the she

that nade it like a pot

pitter-patter patching now

@maxyou'll wanna see this

@max1461

@max1461

@max1461

egregore of you to me, to lurk as I see

(ana ta anatomize,

gazing keen with razor eyes, po tem ptoem kin)

(think of it like this. you interact with your person-model of the material thing, bot the thing itself. YUDKOWSKY lights at naya nah bot maya huh not exactly but trust me bro)

(See that fronting? Fiction-brain. I have lots of noise in person-models {in the CSH sense} from obligately superimposing mengele on them {diabetes], and so I must resolve it with reification, or else lose the thread and become the world-model. It's kind of like the idea that schizophrenics are bot really conscious; it's more a "the way the society of mind is structured" relationship than a thing about whether there is an experiences. @Aellagirl has the idea of becoming the sex body; that is to say, the ego-thread is lost, but the harmonic of the experience allows persp. to maintain a stable metronomic fashion, ehich is mote hedonic. I have the opposite experience, where my thread is annihilated vy dissonance, binding me to ghosts and death. I have powerful funger trauma, as you might expect, ehich is why I leave the misspellings in; if the other eants to help, who am I to disagree? If consciousness is the resolution of conflicting motor prohrams, "accidents" are boise and Trapped priors calling to ve saved. Wu wei, brudda. Acetylcholinergic as fuck.)

Anyway. Max, to resolve your mouth issues, you want to unify theb patch with the ego-thread, or at least a stable harmonic. Do you have any phones that hit the patch? I know you are linguistics. Otherwise! If I had your problem, with my resources;

Very spicy food; maybe matching the sensation will let it integrate? This is ehy Korean food, I suspect, though of course aesthetic is a spiral, and any direction can experience an elaboration and reification.

Microdosing; you want to flatten the energy landscape, such that you don't beed so deep a boise to bridge the distance between the chords. Mushrooms can be greon for like $100 AUD; DMT is similarly nearby, and you are a reddit refugee. Don't be scared of DMT at a low level; being all "entities and coma freak me" is like taking thumbrpinters as your prototype for LSD. Just use less of it and it's convenient, which is ehy it's known for being the drug of choice for heavy psychonauts; it's like ketamine, in that you can do it and then finish lunch at the office. Psychedelics are general-purpose language-learning performance enhancers, also, because their ehole thing is removing sensory filtering defaults, which let you notice the formants foreign languages use for discrimination. Like, lock/rock as a minimal pair for a native Japanese speaker, y'know?

Chemognosis is how I am approaching this, because it is reliable. Perhaps you would have a different way, but I'm not so meaningfully knowledgeable otherwise.

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You can both be under great persecution and have a persecution complex. Probably being subject to the former makes the latter more likely.

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“Finally, a publication that isn’t afraid to talk about the telepathic torture voices!”

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I'm a juvenile diabetic; I was diagnosed at 9 months of age (hence the psychopathology, stress/diathesis tse). I'm sympathetic to anarchism, though I am sympathetic to many things. The failure of anarchists to presently solve insulin is not particularly why I'm not an anarchist per se, but it is a shining example of the difficulty the philosophy has.

Remember, history was awful. Never trust the romantics.

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gom jabarring the invisible hand

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"the purpose of a system is what it does"; sometimes a useful thing to think about. It's not the same statement as "all involved in a thing with a bad outcome have that outcome in mind"; the entire point of thinking of these things as a system is to remove intention from your sense of what the outcomes *actually are*.