#readables

[vomitingwords]

and then I learned

how to cry

without tears

falling from my eyes

behind clouds // ma.c.a

[acurtist]

It's okay. 🙂‍↕️

Kindness is obviously the hardest form of labor. 😶

[themhayonnaise]

[teenxskylar]

Went to Subic last Friday night and had our dinner in ben's kitchen, sarap naman ribs nila. We also ordered clam chowder; it's my first time trying it, and its good! Ang creamy, parang pwede pang sauce sa carbonara HAHAHA

We had our coffee shop stop sa may primero, and oo na sorry na for not being able to take a picture of the cafe!!! Search niyo na lang, primero subic! HAHAHA, their drinks are okay? sb price range pero ganda naman ang cafe vibes, and they have a seaside view sa labas ng cafe so overall goods na

Lastly, tangina si lei bumili ng roller blades! kaya ayan, nag practice siya HAHAHA TANGINA PANAY SIYA SEMPLANG, PATI RIN KAMING MGA NAG ALALAY SAKANYA PAGOD!

And for the stop light pic...ala lang drama ko lang...I hope we can stop the time whenever were enjoying, no? Pero it would not be that much fun if we were stuck in it. Magsasawa rin tayo, some are better are better left to past, much better if we happen to create more happy memories na lang.

[mysecretworks01]

from summer 2022

But I’m in pain... as I lay barely awake in bed typing this, I know I have to let it all out before I forget again.

It’s all in my chest, it’s heavy.. the rest of my limbs feel featherweight. I am as stuck to the sheets of my bed as I am to the idea there is no end to me and you. The slightest thought of the final chapter binds me to this spot. And as the weight of this feeling begins to turn me claustrophobic, I have already sunk further into oblivion.

[fellelouise]

New Year, New Me.

Char.

2024 na, posting my first site visit of the year. Also, magaanniversary narin itong commercial project ko. It feels so surreal to be able to witness ung drawing ko from paper to reality. It feels like a heavy weight on my chest. Haha

But other than that, I am happy to be able to be where I am standing now. Dati, pangarap ko lang to eh. Maging Architect, magkaron ng commercial project, now look at me. 🫶🏽

Universe, Lord, Guardians... alam niyo na po next, bahay ko naman po sana itatayo ko. Tska pahingi narin ng 500 million cash!! 🤣

To more projects, achievements, experiences this year!! Wooh 🥳🎉

Filing it here

[antinatalistwhump]

To love and to be loved is to hurt and be hurt.

I do not want to be hurt, nor do I want to hurt you.

[izzythedemigod]

I just found the funniest font ever

Like. What is this. Why is this. Who is the target audience of this?

[theafterlifeofgob]

Monday Blues

I set a 5PM alarm today — 3 hours before the start of my shift. I just wanted to start early and give myself more time before officially kicking off the work week.

5PM came, and I still couldn’t drag myself out of bed.

I set another alarm but chose to fall asleep again.

And when I finally decided to get up, it started to rain. There was a sudden comfort in the cold air — it pulled me right back into bed.

8PM came, and I was awaken by the loud ringing of my phone… my boss was already calling. We had a meeting, and everyone was waiting for me.

Well, today wasn’t the kind of Monday I wanted—but not the kind of Monday I hate either, if you know what I mean.

Happy Monday!

[vomitingwords]

and there came my muse,

dressed in his masculine vibes,

trying to avoid staring

at my wandering eyes

pursing his lips

swallowing all those words

I wished he could say out loud

heart darker than mine // ma.c.a

[crowcrate]

Yeah sorry

Combined image under the cut ✌️

[themhayonnaise]

Sometimes I read, sometimes I take pictures. 🥹

[teenxskylar]

Ano ba talaga gender ni teenxskylar?

Back in 2015, I was a minor, blogging a bunch of heartfelt posts about my special person. I was scared to reveal my gender back then, given that the lgbt community was not celebrated pa that time. 2015 was the experimental year pa noon, tolerated naman ang karamihan na miyembro ng lgbt (hanggang ngayon pa rin naman, tolerated lang tayo, hindi celebrated, pero this topic is for another blog) and I wasn't ready to come out yet. Hence, I blogged anonymously and with that ang daming nang bobombard sa inbox ko noon. Kung babae raw ba ako or lalaki, kung babae raw ba ako bakit ganun ako mag blog parang lalaki raw yada yada.

I admit sobrang nakakapagod, I can't blog in peace. Hindi ko alam bakit dati kailangan ilabas ko pa gender identity ko para lang tigilan ako ng mga tao. Hindi ba pwedeng basahin niyo na lang ang mga kalandian posts ko back then huhu, gusto ko lang magkwento tungkol sa mga naging crush ko na hindi ko maikwento sa mga kaibigan ko kasi hindi pa ako out noon? Grabe sobrang big deal ang gender talaga noon 'no? Parang hindi nila mababasa ang blog mo if di mo i-indicate yata sa hashtag kung babae ka ba, lalaki or bading. Although I had my own faults din, nilito ko ang mga tao, pinaglaruan ko sila with my gender, minsan nagrereveal ako na babae ako, minsan lalaki, pero at the end of the day its not my responsibility to feed people's curiosity. Ika nga ni Jose Rizal, "my blog, my rules." eme

And I'm thankful na ngayon naging safe space ko na ulit ang tumblr, wala na ang mga toxic people noon na nang abuso ng pagkabata ko, they took advantage of my age knowing na madali akong maniwala pa noon. Kilala niyo kung sino kayo, pero hindi ko na kayo maalala hehe.

[mysecretworks01]

Most Days

Most days I find that I’m better at writing to myself in my notes app than I am at talking to the people around me. I pride myself on being a great communicator, and yet I severely lack the confidence to share this part of me with the people I love most. 

Would they enjoy the mundane anecdotes? Or think of me as a silly woman overly romanticizing and dramatizing things?

Most days, I think that I am doing exactly that. Romanticizing, dramatizing, living with my head in the clouds. The truth is, is that most days I’m afraid. And the safest place I know is between the lines on a piece of paper or in the notes app on my phone. 

There I can express myself freely.

And most days, I do. 

[mcr-themed-brain]

What accent coach is working magic behind the scenes of iwtv. A british man plays an american man with a thick new orleans accent that slowly fades to a standard american accent. Another british man plays an indian man with a french accent that morphs into a british accent. An australian man plays a french man with the strongest most unintelligible french accent youve ever heard

[pseudopossum]

i've been playing a lot of balatro lately, and at one point i turned on high contrast cards, had the thought of 'wow those are almost tmnt colors,' which then eventually led to '...i wonder how hard it is to mod this game'

turns out it's not too hard..!

i might've doomed myself here a little tho bc now i want a complete set of face cards.. which means drawing 8 more characters..

trapped in the pixel mines ⛏😔