#rebs rant

[ineedtogointhesea]

My brain is like the old TV logo and when it hits the corner perfectly I produce a coherent thought

Anyways I just reminded myself how much I bloody LOVE Torchwood, like holy shit I love my disaster alien hunting bisexuals how did I forget this!!!

Also so it’s so sad they only had 2 seasons and there was never an ending to the second season ha… ha…. ha (I love angst but killing ur gays is not the way to go plus angst is so much better when the characters are alive to suffer through it and get character development and shit 😭)

[aliciadessendre]

I think ff/7 reb/irth devs need to stop talking about the game and let just wait for it to actually come out in the end of the next month

[magic-is-something-we-create]

While I don't doubt that it's an issue in fanfiction circles, this entire post came about because of the pressure and guilt I see (and used to feel!!) in purely-original writing circles everywhere from Pinterest to Reddit! I've never written, nor read, fanfiction in my life, aside from a handful of fics to support my friend who writes them on the side. And the majority of posts lamenting speed and productivity and such have been coming from the original writers I follow for years - even if they originated in fan circles, it's spread a lot.

Which is absolutely messed up, because we all (I hope) know that the publishing industry moves at a snail's pace, and has since it started!

And while that's absolutely the intent of NaNoWriMo, the internet phenomenon of it (at least in the circles I've interacted with, both here and on YouTube) has morphed into this almost... proving ground? It's similar to how bullet journalling started as a bare bones prioritization strategy, and now it's a whole art form that has a tendency to make the bare-bones function folks feel guilty about not putting as much effort into their own.

But yeah!! It's a weird and sad thing that happens, and I just... wish there was less pressure on Everyone to give their absolute all into Everything. And more self-forgiveness when we struggle to keep up. Because we deserve that.

Something I've been thinking about lately is the shame around writing slowly, and how prevalent it is for people to be upset about not being able to write a lot really quickly. About how so much of writing advice is "how to write more faster," and how many people seeking advice are asking how to write a thousand words a day, and how big of an annual thing NaNoWriMo is because it's difficult but there's this general vibe of condescension for those who don't participate or who don't "win."

And I used to feel ashamed too. I'd get frustrated by my apparent inability to write more than a few hundred words in a sitting on a good day. I'd beat myself up for only managing my bare minimum of fifty words, I'd try again and again at NaNoWriMo and hate myself for not being able to do it.

But I've realized that if I didn't write slowly, my stories wouldn't be what they are. I wouldn't love them so much, because they wouldn't have become what they did - because they had time to bloom.

And I've also realized that while I have had moments in time where I wrote like that - multiple thousands of words a day for days or weeks on end - that's... not something I aspire to.

I write slow! That's okay!

I'm proud of writing slow. I'm proud of having gotten to the point where I put myself and my process before what others expect of me.

You don't need to be fast. You don't need to be ashamed.

And you don't need to want to be fast, either.

I certainly don't.

[gryficowa]

Boycott!

It pisses me off when people criticize a series they haven't seen because they're bothered by the fact that the characters are LGBT+… Yes, it pisses me off on many levels

Yes, I see this a lot with "The Owl House", they attack the series for its LGBT+ characters and think that's the only reason people like this series, not because it fucking has an interesting plot and characters… It irritates me so much

As a person with ASD, this pisses me off because it shows that they don't give a damn about the medium of animation, they would prefer only cis straight white able-bodied characters (Preferably male…)

I know this is a random rant, but it pissed me off

Now that I have your attention:

[rebnrthed]

ㅤㅤㅤㅤ 𝕿𝗔𝗚' ㅤ𝗌

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ༒

　 ͏ ͏ ͏　 ͏ ͏ ͏•　 ͏ ͏ RANTS

𝗋𝗂𝖽𝗂𝗇 𝗿𝗼𝘂𝗻𝗱' ㅤ︵⃨‿ ㅤ❝ 𝑓oreign 𝖼𝖺𝗋𝗌 ❞

　 ͏ ͏ ͏　 ͏ ͏ ͏•　 ͏ ͏ iNBOX

ㅤㅤㅤ𝘄𝗵𝒊𝘀𝓹𝗲𝗿𝒊𝗻𝗴 𓆉 𝖠𝖭𝕲𝖤𝖫𝖲 ㅤㅤㅤ. . .

　 ͏ ͏ ͏　 ͏ ͏ ͏•　 ͏ ͏ MOOTS

ℝ̷̸𝗢𝗔𝗥𝒊𝗡��� ⸜ LIONS

　 ͏ ͏ ͏　 ͏ ͏ ͏•　 ͏ ͏ MOOTS REB/OGS

　 ͏ ͏ ͏　 ͏ ͏ ͏•　 ͏ ͏ ViSiTORS

𝖢𝖫𝑨𝑾𝑬𝖣 　⏁ 　 𝑱𝖠𝖦𝖴𝖠𝖱𝖲

　 ͏ ͏ ͏　 ͏ ͏ ͏•　 ͏ ͏ MOOTS BiRTHDAYS

mootsㅤㅤㅤ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ :ㅤㅤㅤ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ go girl !!! it's ya birthday !!!!

ㅤㅤthe ) 𓊝 ( 𝗥𝗨𝗟𝗘 𝗈𝖿 di𝑣inity

　 ͏ ͏ ͏　 ͏ ͏ ͏•　 ͏ ͏ /UNA ViSUA/S

𝓽𝖍𝖊 ㅤㅤ═╪ ㅤㅤ 🐐

　 ͏ ͏ ͏　 ͏ ͏ ͏•　 ͏ ͏ [REA/iTY] ViSUA/S

　 ͏ ͏ ͏　 ͏ ͏ ͏•　 ͏ ͏ /UNA'S PROGRESS

̶ʍoney 🐆 can't buy ／6𝖨𝖷𝖳𝖧 𝗦𝗘𝗡 𝖘𝖊.

[hyperactivewhore]

do you think there was some ... attraction going on between klaus and reb?

Please don't ask me this 😭

No it's a lie I've been waiting all my life for someone to ask me my thoughts about whatever the fuck Klaus and Rebekah had going on.

There was definitely sexual tension in there and some (enormous) weird feelings between both of them as well. I'm aware is because Joseph and Claire fucked, but there's a whole theory about Pl*c having read Flowers on the Attic and being perfectly aware of what she was doing with klebekah. And besides, they didn't have just tension sexual.

It looked like Klaus was fucking in love/obssesed with Rebekah, and she went for the most alike person to him. That only makes it worse.

If I'm honest I don't think they fucked, not even kissed, and I don't wanna think they were in love either. But they were inseparable for a thousand years, Klaus said that they always had been together and Bex said he was the only one who never left her, and that only gets worse when we remember she's his favorite sibling and he may be hers too.

Klaus was already insecure when he was human, that only turned worse when he became a hybrid so his possessive and jealous side over Rebekah just grew worse and worse: he "punished" her for falling in love 24/7, was especially mean to her despite the fact that she stayed with him through everything and never made up for it, giving her the cure was just ooc and bad writing for the show.

Perhaps a part of it was because physically she was the one who ressembled Esther the most, and his mommy issues are awful, so he took it out on his youngest sister because he was seeing the betrayal his mother put him through and the potential "treason" Rebekah may do against him? I wanna think it that way.

Klaus was more protective over Rebekah because after Hope, she was clearly the person he loved the most. And his daughter was born a thousand years after all the abuse he put her through, so during all those centuries his main focus was Bekah. As a result, he killed anyone who looked at her for more than a second and was insanely jealous of any of her love interests, especially Marcel.

Marcel, the person who resembled Klaus the most in the show eyes, the one Rebekah fell in love with and the one she married. And Klaus, fancing a blonde and falling in love with another, both of them really similar to Rebekah They couldn't be together so they went for the closest thing they could get instead??

I don't know, their whole relationship feels so incestuous and the chemistry between Joseph and Claire is insane, they definitely don't portray the relationship their characters have in a platonic way, their eye fucking in that one scene in s4 of The Originals where she told him she knew she was his favorite sibling was so strange.

Anyway. This whole rant didn't come out the way I wanted because my thoughts are a mess right now, but if they were in Game of Thrones they definitely would be fucking 24/7.

[ineedtogointhesea]

Okay so rant about the doctors time

So I’ve been trying to find anxiety meds that actually work for me and I ended up trying two that both gave me panic attacks from nightmares and as someone who has NEVER dreamed and only got nightmares like ONCE a year at the most it was happening every single night and I ended up not sleeping properly for a month until they finally let me change meds

And the meds I’m on now are fine but are at too low a dose but the doctors are all fuckin useless and just want you to go to therapy and magically be fixed and never need meds so they try every single time to get you off of them and it’s super fuckin exhausting because my anxiety is making me try and get out of there as soon as possible so I just don’t argue and take what I’m given which is why my meds now aren’t strong enough

So my mum (my life saver) has permission to speak on my behalf because my anxiety is too bad to answer phone calls and shit and we asked to change the main number to her number because they still kept trying to ring me because they’re all fuckin idiots. Anyways just found out today that apparently they didn’t even add her number as an alternate number to ring let alone the main number they should ring so I’m fuckin PISSED and THEN they have the AUDACITY to say they can’t change the number to her number without my written permission for some fuckin reason when WE ALREADY FUCKIN DID ALL OF THAT AND THEY’RE THE ONES WHO DIDN’T FUCKIN DO ANYTHING WHEN WE ASKED THEM TO!!!!

And I’m so fuckin exhausted and just want to take a nap but I can’t because there’s still a chance they’ll fuckin ring my number because they’re all fuckin IDIOTS who NEVER FUCKIN LISTEN

[margoblack]

Number 5. What is your favorite work and why?

Including only completed work, it's hard to choose between three that I have written with @wicked-felina

Zavarka and Americano  - which was a Man from Uncle fic that celebrates art, the screwball comedy genre and coffee. It's really easy to praise my own stuff because everything I like is because of her. Beautiful introspection on Van Gogh one minute, and then her hilarious rant about Picasso the next.

All My Shades of Blue - A Better Call Saul fic which I can't go into much detail about in case no one has seen the last season -- but this was me piggy backing on her beautiful story. Sort of like drawing penises on a Monet and you look to him for praise and he pats you on the head and gets you to aim the ejaculation to the left a tad.

Wow. I really am Reb's sub.

They Only Want You For Your Brains  - An ancient Glee zombie fic which is the silliest thing we have ever, ever written that still makes me laugh.

One story that we never posted on AO3 (it had the most amazing title - "Not Keen on Tuedays, Either") I remember fondly, less for the story but for being round at her house, drunk, stood on a table and trying to make my body do the gesture I wanted her to turn into text. And us both sobbing as she read out the words that killed off our favourite character.

It should be noted - we aren't always drunk when we write.

Of my WIPs of which I have two in the L&O fandom, it's:

The Passenger - Law and Order SVU possession fic because I literally am just writing it for me at this point, while wearing my little weirdo hat and cracking my stupid jokes.Ultimately, what I'm saying is that Rebness is the best writer I have ever read, and I thank her for letting me add the tiny cocks to her pieces. Go here to see her work.

[astrologicaldiary]

I don’t like Uranus transit in Taurus 😑

Ok, ummmm I don’t like this transit. I have Uranus transiting in my first house in Taurus (my ascendant) , I have been hit with bills on bills .

I can’t said too much , but one is that I had to pay back my hospital bills when I was given refunds , and now out of no where I need to start paying my student loans.

With this fascist US administration, not only that they are destroying the US economy on purpose in front of our eyes…. But they are going to take 15% wages on people salary if they haven’t been paying student loans…. Everything is high, rent is high , food is high, and with all of that, this country don’t want to increase wages!

I truly feel America is Karmic country. Like folks really went to vote for this trash because for RACISM…. Meanwhile me and people who read and listen , we knew this was a mission for the Reb. party. But the non blacks and POC voted for this shit ! Racism is truly a deadly disease…. Even with Target, they bowed down with Fascism m administration to remove DEI, now they are crying and what dollars from black people … I guess in America, people care more about racism and making other people lives horrible than caring how some of these policies could negatively impact our economy and livelihood !

I had to go on a rant…. But yea , I don’t like this transit at all. Like I’m trying to save money but Uranus wants to take my money .

I guess the positive is that whenever I go out my siblings will pay for my food and entertainment. But I still hate this transit so much!

Is any of y’all dealing with this ?

[racingtoaredlight]

Instructional VHS from the past

There was a day, before the internet became widespread, where aspiring musicians had to pay cash money for things like tab books and practice material and instructional videos.

The markup on these things were insane. I expeditied, ran foodand bussed tables at a high-end restaurant all through high school, and it'd cost me essentially an entire busy Saturday night's worth of pay to buy a single one of these.

Most of them were absolute goddamned GOLDMINES. The one with Mr. Big's Paul Gilbert is 90 minutes building the best bridge between heavy metal and classical theory you could imagine. Danny Gatton's cost me an insane $100 for a VHS tape, but that video was pretty much an entire year's worth of lessons you could take on your own time.

I only knew Winger from the dork's t-shirt in Beavis and Butthead...I had no idea their guitarist Reb Beach was Allan Holdsworth with a poodle cut.

But the Yngwie Malmsteen VHS ruled them all for highschool096.

*the finger point to start the backing track at 0:12 is /chefskiss

This guitar above...when I built my P-Bass all those years ago, this was the aesthetic I modeled it after. Because I had watched this video so many goddamned times, spent so many goddamned hours practicing all these licks with a painfully slow metronome, this candy apple red Strat with a mint pickguard and a 50's neck swapped on...a Strat he's not even that affiliated with...was forever my favorite.

This video is where my chops come from. Granted, I'm a long way divorced from playing like this...that drive for speed, precision and control was formented through practicing all the shit in this video.

It was the first time I was exposed to the right hand being something more than just the thing that holds the pick. It could be turned into a musical weapon in its own right.

It was the first time I was exposed to Pagannini, and taking baroque counterpoint into modern genres. Did Yngwie Malmsteen make me want to dress like a gay pirate? No, but he sure as hell made me want to play guitar like one.

That's the other thing about this video...it's a perfect encapsulation of time.

This was Yngwie at his absolute peak. Coked to the gills, but still lucid enough to be in full control. His arrogance wasn't yet toxic...rather, a necessary psychological element for someone doing acrobatics at such absurd speeds with no safety net.

Importantly, it was before his brutal high-speed car wreck in a v12 Jaguar. And most importantly, it was long before the thing he's probably best known for...an air plane rant where he threatens to unleash the FOOKIN FURY!...something that has its own Wiki page.

There were plenty of rock d'alliances with classical music before Yngwie...Ritchie Blackmore/Deep Purple, Yes, Emerson Lake and Palmer come immediately to mind. But those earlier flings didn't have the dedication to classic music like Yngwie had.

It wasn't just that he was playing Bach stuff in a heavy metal setting...take the guitar out of it entirely. He was an old-school, died-in-the-wool baroque violinist who idolized Pagannini and Bach, and switched instruments out of economic necessity. I consider Yngwie to be a classical music fish in heavy metal water, not the other way around.

The technical foundation that this instructional video laid was about as sound as it gets. When I switched to jazz, technique was a complete non-issue...not only was it good enough to get by, it was the thing I leaned on to set me apart. When I started to play all different kinds of music with new musicians, it was the thing I knew would let me step right in without anxiety or nerves.

When I think back to how expensive these handful of videos were, that disappeared pretty quickly. When you consider what lessons and stuff costs over time, and the amount of educational material each one of these was packed to the gills with, they seem like hilarious values in hindsight.

And when I look back on the Yngwie vid...and realize that even though I haven't played with a pick in probably 8 months...it's still the bedrock foundation of my chops, damn that $50 seems like one of the best investments that I've ever made in my life.

[rottenreb99]

Oh man I don’t know if anyone will even read this, but I have so so much on my mind and I don’t know where to put it all … REB was such a sweet soul he was so hardly misunderstood. I could keep it all inside my mind until the moment I read the love letter from him to a girl from work . The way he wasn’t attacked to her looks but to her mind and her words … the way she thought.. the deep shit you know .. why on earth did no one FUCKING NO ONE give him a chance bro I would’ve sit with him for days even if it was cold I would put my personal words behind his and just listen. And for anyone. Yes I have red everything even the notes where he talks about the positions of woman and “ if you don’t want to kill yourself just do it quick “ bla bla bla . That shit was all after he was fucked over so so so many times by non empathetic HORES . Of course there were girls who went on dates with him but these girls would later ghost him and say that he was weird and quiet. HE WASNT WEIRD YOU STUPID FUCK ! HE WAS SCARED. . The way he thought the way he saw the world I think that way since the day I was born and I don’t condone any of the actions that happened but I understand . And to be real real here it’s the schools 100% fault ! He had teased it to many times even in his essays and If just one ONE fucking person listened to him maybe he would still be here today and the rest would to .

( if you want to here me rant more , and I doubt it very much let me know I’m hardly finished but this helped already just to write it down and get it off my mind going to smoke a cigarette now or 10)

-rottenREB

#REB

[dameronswife-2]

i have too many rants solidly locked and loaded about poe/poe associated stuff, because i'm beginning to have dreams that i'm finally popping off about them publicly. a few months ago I dreamt I popped off with an entire thread on why resistance reb*orn is such a terrible pos book on twitter (and promptly had to check to make sure I hadn't, like, done that in my sleep) and then last night I dreamt I went off on here about why i think st*rm*il*t is such an unhealthy ship.

[hellsbellschime]

https://www.hollywoodreporter.com/movies/movie-news/justin-baldoni-blake-lively-jennifer-abel-leaked-texts-1236093044/ this article talks about how BL and her legal team got the texts and from who. it also has the PR rep whose phone/emails were taken responding to it all. i guess she thought it was a good idea to rant on facebook about everything and claims those messages were just jokes. her posts were deleted, but how dumb are you to be in PR for years and rant in public and not just let your attorney handle the situation? also saw someone on tiktok (she's a lawyer, i think her name is reb) explain that they haven't actually filed the lawsuit yet, they filed a complaint with the CRD (california civil rights dept) and sent that file to news outlets. you cannot file a lawsuit in cali regarding employment discrimination/harassment without first filing a complaint with the CRD. so what is strange about the document that was sent to news outlets are the texts. with complaints you don't need hard evidence, that comes with discovery when you are able to file the lawsuit then you can subpoena the work phone/emails of the PR rep to obtain those texts. BL's team had them before filing the lawsuit. and we know the texts are real because the rep ranted about how they were able to get them and how she wants to sue. BL's lawyers responded about the rant claiming they obtained everything legally and filed a subpoena and gave that to the PR firm that the rep was with when this all went down. what's weird is that filing any subpoena takes months of back and forth with the courts and who they are requesting the info from. and no news outlets picked up on this story until BL was ready to alert them? so i assume they must have filed the subpoena without BL's name attached in order to keep it out of the media until she was ready. also the working theory is that BL's team probably went to the firm with a request for access to the work phone in exchange they wouldn't be named in the lawsuit that is coming. because they apparently have been very cooperative with her and her legal team throughout this entire thing.

Yeah I think that has been confirmed by this lady's former PR firm now, they handed over her former communications and hilariously it seems like she was plotting to screw over her then-current, now-former company on her company provided tech too, so I'm not surprised that they handed all her shit over. Honestly this is like a layer cake of absurdity already.

[inklore]

MY THOUGHTS AND OPINIONS ON THE ABOVE RESULTS.

so after letting myself stew and think on if i really wanted or needed to say anything, needed being the key word here. i’ve decided that why not. this is my space and for those who care about my takes will care, and those who don’t are more than encouraged to not read this or by all means rb with your own constructive opinions (meaning don’t be an asshole about it).

now if i didn’t put the last option in the poll it’s more than clear that the second one would have won, and probably by a landslide. which is honestly very happy to see that even if the like to reblog ratio sucks on here writers are still going to do what they love.

the only opinion i have on this is that, as a writer myself, i think we tend to point fingers at silent readers, serial likers, and apps like tiktok for the lack of morale and community and overall fun this space used to have. and yeah, that’s a big part of it. but i don’t think it’s big enough to truly put all the blame on.

there are more people in the writing community on here than i think we truly realize. people whose writing we may already know and follow and are mutuals with, people who we admire from afar, people who we haven’t discovered yet because we have yet to enter the fandom their in or may never be in. the point being: there’s enough people / writers in this community for it to FEEL like a community that it’s becoming a readers ruining this space vs writers themselves ruining it.

that’s not me saying that readers don’t matter or that we don’t just post fics for our fellow writers to read, we do it for everyone to read, to enjoy. nor is it me saying posting with that in mind i bad / needs to stop or anyone's feelings on the matter are invalid. it's me saying both readers and writers are equally to blame here. if we are looking at constructively and having no bias.

community is what it comes down to. and if the people within that community are busy pointing fingers and staying in the dumps of how the place sucks around here and just letting the enjoyment die out because you’ve put all the blame for this shit feeling on one demographic, let’s say, then yeah. the morale is going to be crap. we’re not going to have fun on here anymore.

i’ve seen people in fandoms that some may label as ‘dead’ get asks everyday, get interaction, whether little note or big notes, they’re thriving and enjoying themselves because they’ve built a little community of writer friends, and even readers. but they’re loving it on here. you rarely see them complain. then you have the other half of fandoms, writers, what have you, staying in their own melancholy bubble.

again, i’m not saying that it’s not warranted. that it’s not okay to feel like crap over not getting love on a writing you love so much and put all your time into. i’m not saying you’re the problem for feeling that way. so please don’t twist it that way. all feelings are valid.

people follow by example. as kids we saw a group of other kids playing and were like wow i wanna join and we either did or we didn’t and felt a little sour about it. if i’ve learnt anything from being online for as long as i have it’s that people follow by example. people will see someone doing something and having and enjoying it and they’ll either join or they’ll stay back and just watch from afar (or they’re a hater and in that case log off).

so how can we as writers sit and carry on about the morale being down, point fingers about ratios, and stay in our melancholy bubbles when we are not trying to lead by design? to change it around here?

making rant posts is sadly not how we change stuff around here. trust me i wish it was. but it's proven time and time again it's not. i support all rant posts and everyone's feelings they want and need to get out, so please never stifle yourself. this is just the reality i've seen on here. they usually have little to no positive outcome the way we want.

you want people to comment, reblog, and leave asks but you don’t do that with others. you want to keep the fandom you’re in alive but you don’t interact with other people unless they’re in your inbox. the best thing about being online is: no one knows you. there’s no reason to be scared to reach out, send asks, comment, send memes via reblog over how much you loved a fellow writers fic, or even making an entire post just to list off all the fics you like in your fandom with some random pinterest graphic just to share the love and hype up your fellow writers.

no one is going to see that and be like wow what a loser. the writer you inbox or message isn’t going to laugh in your face. and guess what even if they did they make the block button for a reason.

all of us writers are guilty of kind of wanting to be the center of attention but not giving that attention back. even to the writers we love, our friends, mutuals, etc. i don’t think it’s a crime but i do think that we need to look inward and realize that community can’t start just from readers or carry on when the writers within it are not pulling their weight to keep it alive.

i'm not saying everyone is like this either.

it’s 50/50. give and take. follow by example. make this community and your space what you want it to be. don’t preach about reblogs if you never reblog other writers (this is a big debate but i’m sorry, so many successful authors have said it best that you can’t be a writer unless you’re a reader first. life gets busy and not everyone has time to read, but you have time to write which takes a hell of a lot more time than reading a fic, just saying). you want comments but YOU don’t comment. think constructively here.

i know many people who have tried and failed to build themselves a little community and reach out to other writers and just are left back where they started, alone and sitting in that melancholy. i’m not saying it’s something simple or that it’s fool proof. i’m saying you can’t try to without fail, you can’t succeed if you never try. never put yourself forward into what you want to see and experience and bring into your life / community.

so the point of all this yapping is to say: writers if we want community back as bad as we say we do we gotta build it back up ourselves and the rest will (hopefully) follow. how do you do that? interact more, join discords or make your own, send asks to your fellow writers more random or not, comment more, read more, reblog more. if you don’t have the time then make time. five minutes. two. it’s still making an effort.

(side note: i’ve been making gifs on here for years now and the giffing community has it worse on here. writers couldn’t fathom the messed up ratios. there’s complaints, there’s being rightfully upset. but they keep making gifs. why? because they love doing it. it’s fun. it’s not a job. it’s a hobby that brings them joy and they see it as that. they make 10+ gifing community pages for fellow fandom lovers of all kind to join and post along beside them. maybe some don’t interact with other giffers on an inbox or comment level but they reblog and have reblogs from other giffers that feels like a little hug and being seen)

or if you don’t think you’re the problem and it’s definitely all the readers and the clock app then okay. you are entitled to stay in that lane and i support you. just don’t be rude and blind about it.

i love everyone who writes. who puts themselves out there with their writing. no writing is bad. it’s all in the eye of the reader / beholder. readers are writers. writers are readers. if you’re only a writer and not a reader then it’s up to you to make your opinions on if that’s okay or not. what i say or a dozen others won’t matter. but what does matter is that community starts with us and ends with readers. no corner of the internet is perfect and you have to craft it to your liking. if we want community we must put in the work and hopefully the rest will follow <3.

not trying to stir the pot i’m just genuinely curious lol

[ineedtogointhesea]

One thing I hate is that anxiety is so talked about nowadays that most people don’t take it seriously

And like it’s cool that it’s being talked about but people still don’t understand when instead of breaking down crying (which I do do occasionally) my reaction to anxiety is anger.

Especially if it’s something out of my control because I will get pissed off about it and aggressive if someone mentions it when I’m trying not to think about it.

The issue is that being aggressive doesn’t give me the same sympathy as if I was crying so I end up having to bottle up my emotions and that’ll just lead to me crying instead.

And it sucks because the anger works as a distraction and a release of my anxiety whilst crying just makes me feel worse but If I’m in public I can’t let myself get angry so I end up having to make myself feel worse. And because I’ve still got stupid people pleasing anxiety if I have to deal with people who make my anxiety worse for no fuckin reason (cough cough fuckin DOCTORS) then I don’t let myself be angry so I just become a pushover to get rid of them as fast as possible and so don’t actually get the issue solved

[ressioo]

Sunstone enjoyer, very ready to be murdered. can't wait

Good.

You can have this while you wait the eternity that is 12 more days