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I'm winning.

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Book Claude is driving me INSANE again.

I don’t even care anymore, I’ve crossed over. I am on my knees for him. Have you SEEN him?! This man is almost fully bald and still so ungodly handsome it should be illegal. Like. For WHAT. FOR WHAT PURPOSE.

I want to cup his face and kiss his forehead and help him wash his hair (what’s left of it, anyway). I want to drag my fingers gently over his scalp and hear him sigh, just once, just for me. I want to press my lips to the hollow of his throat and feel him shiver like the sinner he swears he's not. I KNOW, I just KNOW his kisses are desperate and trembling and so full of need they make time stop.

Half my thoughts about this man are not in the Bible. I'm sorry. I'm not proud (I am VERY proud).

I want him on top of me. I want to pull him into my arms and tease the absolute life out of him. I want to lick the guilt off his soul and kiss every scar and self-inflicted wound on his chest. I want to trace them, heal them, worship them. I want to wrap a blanket around him and force-feed him a decent meal and then kiss the crumbs off his lips. I want him to know pleasure and peace, even if he doesn't think he deserves either.

ARCHDEACON CLAUDE, WHEN I CATCH YOU-

You will always be perfect to me. Your brilliant but spiraling brain. Your hands that shake but still hold knowledge. Your gaze that burns and flickers and pleads.

I want to make him feel loved. I want to kiss the breath out of him. I want him to tremble under me for once and let go.

May God forgive me. <- You know it’s bad when you’re Luciferian but the priest is doing things to your soul.

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HE'S HERE!!!

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So I finally got my hands on Twisted Wonderland after years of it not being available in my region and it’s been like. An hour. ONE hour. Two of my friends (I'm looking at you, Soph and Ari) already assigned me Dire Crowley as an F/O earlier today and??? They were so right. Dude is so dramatic, self-obsessed in the funniest way and I fear I’m already down bad. Send help. Or more Crowley content.

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Hi, Alex here. Welcome to my self-ship blog, my little comfort zone on this site. I’m very selective about interactions, especially when it comes to people who engage with my F/O doubles, so please respect that boundary. I block liberally but I'm chill otherwise! If you think I may have blocked you by mistake, feel free to reach out politely, and I’ll be happy to check.

Main F/Os:

Zandik (Il Dottore) - Genshin Impact

Claude Frollo - Notre-Dame de Paris / The Hunchback of Notre Dame

Rollo Flamme - Twisted Wonderland

Wanderer - Genshin Impact

Dire Crowley - Twisted Wonderland

Full list in my Carrd!

DNI:

Please don’t interact if you:

– Ship incest, pedophilia, or with underage characters

– Engage in self-insert RPF (self-shipping with real people)

– Are a known double of my F/Os or are close with one

– Use callouts to harass or dogpile

– Can’t respect curated experiences or boundaries

I mostly reblog safeship and comfort-focused posts for the sake of others' peace of mind, and my own. I don’t engage with content involving incest or pedophilia, and I curate carefully. That said, I have better things to do than start drama over complex or dark fictional tropes (like yandere or kidnapper dynamics). If it’s not for me, I scroll past. Please extend the same courtesy.

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Dire... Aughhh-

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I am going to kiss him.

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Ngl, I’m itching to walk side by side with Zandik toward Zapolyarny Palace, both of us wrapped in our Harbinger coats. And there, trailing close behind, Arashi, scarf wrapped snug around his neck, not because he needs it, but because Nahida insisted. A new glint would spark in my eyes. Power, yes, Geo, but no longer soft. Hardened. Honed. Desert-forged. Then Arashi’s voice would cut through the icy air like a whip:

“You lied.”

My breath would catch.

“He kidnapped me.”

And beside me, Zandik would chuckle, low, dark and dangerous.

“Kidnapped?�� he’d say with a crooked grin. “No, no. I simply reclaimed what was mine all along. She was mine first, long before you even knew she existed. One of my more… brilliant missteps. I erased her memory to make a better first impression.”

His grin would widen, cruelly amused.

“Isn’t that romantic?”

And Arashi’s voice would hiss back, venomous.

“You used her. Like a failed experiment. Like me.”

Zandik's tone would stay honeyed and sweet as he reached out, tracing a gloved finger along the back of my hand.

“Not failed,” he’d whisper. “She bloomed beautifully underground. Didn’t you, my dear? My desert rose. My living theorem.”

So Arashi would demand I be released, but Zandik would just smile confidently.

“You really should thank me. I made her into something you never could. Gods aren’t found, they’re forged.”

And just-

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opens Personality Database to double-check something and sees that Wanderer is, in fact, INTJ too

This makes me so happy, you have no idea. Claude, Rollo, him and I are the INTJ gang right now.

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Nobody look at me as I stare patiently at this man.

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Y'all I've just had a silly self-ship dream. I was still with my classmates and they made me an F/O letter. From Shy. It was a silly sketch of him on one side and the letter itself on the other, written in first person, mentioning how he's learning to read and write. I was so hyped in the dream I couldn’t even finish reading it because I was too excited. I brought it home and showed it to my uncle, and he read out loud a part that said “The Perfect Wife” and I lost it. It was so funny to me, I was wheezing.

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Me, minding my own business:

My brain: Every kiss he gives is a French kiss because he’s French. 😌

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Book Claude... That's it, that's the post.

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HE'S FINALLY HOME! Beloved arrived safe and sound and I’m absolutely obsessed, as always. He’s so soft and perfect and I'm going to cuddle him all night and kiss him all day. I can’t believe he’s really here ahhh, I LOVE HIM SO MUCH! The F/O ever.💜

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I have acquired!

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I think I have successfully corrupted my brother.