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[gulliesforever]

you ever think about how jake moved to la for a job opportunity. and then spent his whole time at that job talking about amir to the point where his coworker had to ask who was obsessed with who and he still didnt get it. and then he moved back because he missed amir, he sat on a beach listening to a frickin shitty playlist amir made him. and then years later he follows amir across the country again, and ultimately stays with him. and then do you ever think about how they didn't talk for like 3 years but then amir facetimed him one day and despite how much jake 'hated' amir calling him he still started up a podcast network with him. do you ever think about how much jake loves amir and would follow him to the ends of the earth but will likely never reach that conclusion himself. and do you ever think about how-

GINGER AND CELERY I DID NOT GO TO BED AT 5:30AM THINKING ABOUT THEM AND WAKE UP AT 7:26AM STILL THINKING ABOUT THEM TO DEAL WITH THIS ASK!! EMOTIONALLY AND PHYSICALLY AND ALL THE LLY'S!!!! HOW DARE YOU!!!!!

no, but i litreally think about it all the time!!!! essay incoming because I'm very long winded!!!

Like you basically said.... Sick Day is, i think, the peak of Jake and Amir being extremely queercoded. not only is it an unironic queer drama plot where they both find unfulfilling love interests and then come back to each other (disregarding any intent of irl janda)... it also simply annihilates any doubt that jake doesn't CHOOSE to be with amir, which basically manufactures the crux of the complexity of their relationship and codepency.

And of course... Everyone asks, yknow, "why do you stay?" when it comes to Jake.

and you're right: he loves amir.

he loves him, of course he does, otherwise he wouldn't do these things for him. and on some level, he must know that. because he always comes back when he has the opportunity to leave. and i think road trip does a great job of conveying that jake loves amir and he knows it. but more than that, i think, actually the finale arc showcases another something that im not sure jake can really come to terms with. it's like, almost beyond love at all. its kinda just that... jake likes, needs, and wants what amir offers his life. and that's absolute destruction and discord and somebody's attention.

without amir, jake is just some failure of a writer at collegehumor who can't get dates, has no fulfilling prospects, and is so insecure he's not even sure who he wants to be. with him, he has a life where things happen, where he has the opportunity to be right and do things because amir is always wrong and getting into things. in other words, jake is a fucking loser. but that's... exactly what Amir is too, except he's has no concept of shame about it. and so jake NEEDS amir. because hes on this same wavelength as him, but he's more right and he's admired and that means he's WORTH something. that, to me, is incredibly interesting.

I think sick day showcases both sides of it - Jake loves amir, he genuinely admires his stupid songs and high voices and idiotic jokes as much as he can't say that - but he also NEEDS him because "he was obsessed with me" and therefore that must mean "im worthy of being obsessed OVER".

and what i find super intersting about that too, is like, as the series goes on, they tend to get a lot more violent with each other with LA being a point where jake was legit letting amir die and even praying for it. one might take this as like, he's being regressed (as especially after road trip) but to me, it almost makes it seem like they have fit these horrible roles that just keep escalating so much that in a sense they are confident they will never be able to leave each other. "i can wish amir death, it's not like he's actually going to die", lol, and "he already knows id choose him, so its not like it matters how mean i am". almost like a weird sense of stability in the most instable way. because it's just straight up toxic.

and so i think that informs my thoughts in terms of amir not seeing jake for "3 years" and then them starting a podcast together miraculously. its like. i think they both realized after roadtrip, finally, that they are not really leaving under any circumstance, and they've kind of come to peace with it (so amir leaving for 3 years is honestly not that weird because he's gonna come back anyways), and they speak this love language of foul-mouthed hatred and malice just because it's how they operate. that's why it feels so damn homely. its because now they both know they love each other, but they're playing their part because that's the only part they know how to play and it works. they dont have to say "i love you" to get that across. and that, to me, is incredibly romantic and fucking insane.

so yes, in a sense, I do think about how. i think about how all the damn time.

[uglypastels]

I just got invited to a halloween party with a theme of animated characters. And so obviously i'm already obsessing over costume ideas

Should I go as Gretchen from Recess?

[halfvigilante]

just wanted to commiserate with the only other person who voted boober

nobody respect him…

[gaysessuale]

@ambreiiigns tagged me (thank you sweetheart I love you a whole lot, love your ghost fixation, big fan) to share 5 songs I listen to regularly and tag like 10 people I'll try (it's my time to shine, to show you I listen to other singers)

(I'll give myself a challenge and list some tracks I listen to regularly BUT each one from a different country/sang in a different language)

Du swipa höger - Emil Berg

Penelope, Spara! - Niccolò Carnesi, Dimartino

Mit sem érdekel - Carson Coma

Àstarbrèf - lúpína

Ciel - Lous and The Yakuza

And first of all I tag Everyone On This Site (you should know I listen to A Lot of music, all genres, from classical music to drill to screamo to country, any language is allowed, so tag me because I'll 99% listen to what you post), secondly I'll specifically tag @just-one-more-fandom , @huge-fuckin-nerd , @coileoniamoremi , @amadello , @omarfor-mp3 , @alexactor-bw (babe when did you change your url I am shoqueth), @remuslupinisthevoiceofgod and WHOEVER SEES THIS POST please I'm begging, suggest me more songs to listen to

[kraniumet]

the complete setlist

[theramseyloft]

4/8/22 Report

God dammit! I forgot to cancel the Chewy order. I'mma be up to my eyes in food.

10/8 cups of Royal Wing Classic Mix, plus 1/8 cup each of Safflower seeds, basic wild bird blend, and finch blend were given to Cheeto and Cotta yesterday.

10/8 cups total remained today.

The inside feed bucket needed refilling today.

It takes 5 measures.

It's filled with 3 measures of Versele Laga classic pigeon blend 15% no corn and two of Royal Wing Classic Mix, alternating.

Cheeto and Cotta will share 1, 1/8 cups of that blend, plus 1/8 cup each of Safflower, generic wild bird blend, and finch blend today.

Tomorrow's leftovers will be measured.

Titan is still fluffed up, hunchy, and unwell, so he and his mom will stay in quarantine.

He drank 4/5 of his medicated water.

His samples are concerningly insubstantial.

Bruce drank half his medicated water.

All samples left since yesterday are idea in color and consistency. The untrampled ones are perfect.

In the hand, his keel was tangible, but not sharp, thisckening at a steady gradient up his sides.

He's lost a little muscle mass during his confinement that should return with the opportunity to exercise.

High 4 on the body scale.

He has returned to the loft.

Diamond drank 2/3 of her water and appears to have tracked seeds and some trampled pieces of samples into her water dish during bouts of agitated pacing.

All samples have been trampled, but are good size, color, and consistency.

In the hand, her keel is ideally tangible. Easily found, with muscle thickening at a smooth gradient up to her sides.

There is further tangible thickening along her lateral line, where her wings connect to her torso, indicative of some excess fat.

Low 6 on the body scale.

With the space to move, I expect her to lose this.

She has returned to the loft.

Nobu drank about 1/3 of his water.

Samples range from olive green to sandy brown and remain distinctly granular, siggesting that he went from a high concentration of Safflower seeds back to a high concentration of millet.

In the hand, his keel is tangible with thick muscle, making him feel a little barrel chested.

Maybe a mid 6 on the body scale.

He has returned to the loft.

Jack drank his dish dry. Aaaand trampled all his samples into his spilled seed and tore up his paper pacing and trying to lift the door.

In the hand, his keel is tangible, but he's barrel chested.

High 6 on the body scale.

He has returned to the loft.

Ness drank about 1/4 of his medicated water.

He's done lots of pacing and trampled nearly all of his samples, but you can still tell volume, color, and consistency from them.

He boxed me quite powerfully when picked up!

Solid 7 on the body scale.

This is a little boy who takes after his very slender mother, so a thick barrel chest with tangible keel puts him higher on the body scale than the other birds of bulkier breed blends.

He has returned to the loft.

Titan has been moved over to the #1 slot.

He feels a little lighter in the hand than he should. His parents are big, chesty breed blends, so what would be a solid 5 on the body scale for a racing homer is about a low to mid 4 for Titan.

It's hard to get clear photos through the bars of the way he stands right now, but you can see him a little fluffed in this irritated defensive pose.

Thankfully, his appetite seems better.

He's eating while he's digging. Seems very excited for the smallest peas in the Versele Laga blend.

Ibis has drunk about 2/3 of her water dish, which is significantly larger than the little hospital dishes.

Her samples are mostly wet and sloppy, but a few are more substantial and at least close to solid.

I think she may like Jack's slightly more shallow dish.

Samples on the Loft's social surfaces range from perfect to trampled.

In the time it took me to fill the refuse bin with 2/3 of the loft's leftovers, Sterling came to see me three times.

When he wasn't on my shoulders or in my lap, he was preening my hip or side.

He's become probably my present favorite.

Jack immediately re-paired with Taffeta, who looks very happy to see him. Two more on the keeper list so far.

One of the brightest silver linings to the prospect of a long term shut down is having time to see how the young birds' temperaments develop.

Will Sterling and Orchid stay that lovey?

We'll see!

With five fairly large birds returning to the loft, feed has increased to 16 measures.

1/2 Versele Laga classic blend 15% no corn and 1/2 Royal Wing Classic Mix blended by alternating measures into a 5 gallon bucket.

Orchid spent some time on my shoulder to preen my face.

Terra hopped on my back to start an argument with Sterling over who had the right to be there, which Sterling won handily by shoving him off.

Hope sat on my head for a bit.

Observed Granite expel a huge sample, ideal for a broody hen. (Her egg is fake.)

Still no news about the fungal or viral panels. I'm trying not to worry. The last one took almost two weeks.