#small art dump because its been a while...

[jebbliink]

Back with some MONKEY MANIA!!!

[yanyandam]

Hmm HIII again saw your request are open and wanted to make a request because your Rindou art gave me a dream/idea… NOT JOKING but I was wondering if u could write a fic of him

It’s basically a happy ending AU where Rindou and Ran own a club and Rindou is DJing and one night he sees reader dancing and drawing a big crowd. He thinks she’s cute and ends up talking to her they hit it off and hook up (U DONT HAVE TO WRITE THE HOOK UP PART) But when the reader’s leaving, she bumps into Ran outside and have small talk and she heads back to the club after a few days to dance and later, she finds Rindou at the bar, and just as they’re talking Ran shows up being the annoying older brother is like “Hey I remember you You were leaving my little bro’s room,” and starts talking about how Rindou’s been all emo since his ex dumped him and hasn’t hooked up in months embarrassing Rindou BUT in the end it turns out that moment was actually Ran giving his drunken best man speech at Rindou and reader’s wedding being super inappropriate talking about not kid friendly things while Rindou’s losing his mind yelling at his brother and reader is just drunk and laughing while their kid (gender your choice) who they had before getting married, is sitting there stuffing their face with cake asking “What’s is a hookup?”

AHHH sorry its long… AGAIN PLEASE know u don’t have to write this (it would be nice) BUT DONT FEEL THE NEED TO u probably have a BUNCH of requests that have built up over the months <3 (also that other sanzu one I requested DONT DO THAT ONE I asked for that because I missed u) Anyways Love LOVE your writing it’s always *chefs kiss*and just seeing u post makes me smile anyways sorry the request is long :p

HIII SORRY FOR MAKING YOU WAIT SO LONG!! Thanks for the support, as for the sanzu fic, I had accidentally deleted the request but when i wanted to ask whoever requested whatever, i forgor the acc lmao. You can ask it again if you want!! Whatever, did my best here, love ya

That night, he’d been watching you pacing back and forth.

The club was chaos and velvet. Low lights, flashing reds, shadows dancing on sweat-slick walls. Haitani Club, yeah: a name that echoed through Roppongi like a dirty secret. Too clean to be illegal, too powerful to be innocent. People whispered yakuza affiliations, but what was the point of accusing a Haitani of anything? When your name carries weight, who needs backup? But that’s not the point.

Rindou was pushing thirty and still spinning like the world owed him something. He liked to say that real DJs worshipped the vinyl, not SoundCloud remixes from some TikTok-brained kid in Harajuku. There was a sacred art in beat matching, in crate-digging for forgotten records. Tonight, though, he was going through the motions; head bobbing, cigarette burning dangerously close to the mixer, watching the crowd lose themselves to a bassline he barely cared about. And then he saw you.

It wasn’t even your face that caught him first, just the way you moved through the floor like the music owed you space. Your body, loose but intentional. Your hair stuck to your temple, glitter under your eyes. A deliberate error on your outfit, like a name tag ripped halfway, a strap falling down just so… the kind of thing that made sober men double take and drunk ones trip over their own feet. Then your head turned. Those eyes. Sharp. Bored. Beautiful. “Not bad,” he muttered to himself.

He exhaled smoke through his nose, flicked the volume down just a touch, then waved over one of the juniors to take over the deck. He didn’t bother explaining. Didn’t need to.He stepped down from the booth, adjusting the cuffs on his black shirt, feet hitting the floor with lazy confidence. His tattoos peeking just barely beneath his sleeves, face unreadable but locked in. Target acquired.

You feel someone watching you before you even see him. Not in a creepy way : just that instinct, that flicker at the back of your neck, that quiet pressure like heat before lightning. You glance up from your drink. There he is.

He’s leaning against the bar now, lit from behind in a haze of red neon and cigarette smoke. His shirt is half-unbuttoned like he forgot about it mid-task. He moves like a man who doesn’t rush for anyone.

“Your boy out there?” he asks, jerking his chin toward the dance floor.

You blink, caught off-guard. “Who?”

“The one spilling half his drink every time he moves. Kinda tragic.”

You raise an eyebrow, already half-smiling despite yourself. “You always this nosy?”

He shrugs, lazy. “Only when I see someone dancing like they deserve better company.”

His tone isn’t even smug. Just matter-of-fact. You look him over; the faint tattoo ink creeping out from under his sleeve, the tired eyes that somehow still scan like a laser, the faint scent of something expensive and careless.

“You hit on people often while hiding behind DJ booths?” you ask.

He actually smiles this time.

“Only when the bass isn’t the best thing I’ve seen tonight.”

Your stomach flips, stupidly. It shouldn't be working. But it is.

“You’re not subtle, are you?”

“Nope,” he says, eyes on your mouth. “I’m efficient.”

You laugh; a little sharp, a little defensive. It’s been a long time since someone spoke to you like that without sounding desperate.

“You’ve got a lot of confidence for someone who hasn’t even offered a name.”

“Rindou,” he says, without missing a beat. “Now come on.”

He nods toward the quieter end of the club. There’s no pressure. No insistence. Just the expectation that you’ll follow.

The hotel wasn’t far, just a turn off the main strip, tucked behind a ramen joint that smelled like broth and cheap beer. Neon buzzed overhead, soft and sickly, casting the whole hallway in flickering pinks and greens. Rindou walked ahead of you, slow and unhurried, like he knew exactly where he was going. Like this wasn’t new to him. Maybe it wasn’t. His keycard beeped low and hollow. The door clicked open with a sigh.

He didn’t turn on the lights right away. The glow from the city outside filtered through the blackout curtains, just enough to outline his silhouette as he dropped his jacket over a chair and kicked off his shoes like it was his own place. He turned slightly, his voice low.

“You coming in, or…?”

You stepped inside, letting the door fall shut behind you. It was quiet in here. Too quiet. You could still hear the pulse of bass faintly through the walls,  or maybe it was just your own heartbeat. Rindou didn’t say anything else. He just looked at you. Not with hunger, not even with heat, just with that slow, assessing calm of someone who knows they don’t need to rush. You caught your reflection in the mirror across the room. Smudged eyeliner. Slightly parted lips. A little dazed.

He was still watching you. “You okay?” he asked, finally.

You nodded. He cracked a smile. “Good. I don’t want you drunk and regretting shit.”

“I’m not drunk,” you said.

He raised a brow. “Sure?”

“Yeah. I’m sure.”

For a second, neither of you moved. And then he took a step forward. He reached out (not for your waist, not for your face) but for your hand. Just your hand. His palm was warm. Callused in a way that surprised you. “I don’t rush,” he said.

You didn’t pull away. You didn’t need to. Not for the whole night.

—-

You left the hotel with your jacket barely on and the taste of cheap champagne still hanging on your tongue. The air hit different outside. Like the city was reminding you that you weren’t in some dim-lit bubble anymore. And then, just as you were lighting a cigarette and pulling your phone out to check the time, someone spoke behind you.

“Well shit, you’re not limping. I thought my little bro had more stamina than that.”

You turned. Tall guy, smirking, gold rings catching the glow of a nearby vending machine. Haitani Ran?

“Excuse me?” you said.

“Relax,” he chuckled. “I’m just messing. Saw you heading out of the hotel. Rindou’s room. You were, what, up there an hour? Two?”

You stared at him. He didn’t flinch.

“You always this nosy?” Probably a good adjective for them both.

He shrugged, taking a lazy drag from his cigarette like this was just another Tuesday.

“Only when it’s about my little brother. He’s been acting like a kicked puppy for months. You’re the first person I’ve seen him even look at like that. Just saying.”

You rolled your eyes, but something about his tone wasn’t mean. Just blunt. Maybe he didn’t know how to be anything else.

“Thanks for the update, I guess.”

“Anytime,” he said with a crooked grin. “Name’s Ran, by the way. If he ghosts you, you can always call the upgrade.”

You scoffed, but maybe, just maybe, you smiled a little too before walking away.

A few days passed. The memory should’ve faded. It didn’t. So, you went back. Not to chase anything, that’s what you told yourself anyway, but just to dance, to sweat it out, to maybe see if it was all just a one-night trick your brain played on you. You slipped through the front doors like you’d done it a hundred times. Same red lighting. Same pulsing bass. But this time, he wasn’t behind the booth.

Rindou was at the bar, one hand around a glass, the other scrolling through something on his phone like he was trying not to look bored. He didn’t notice you right away: or maybe he did, and just waited. You leaned against the bar next to him.

“Didn’t think I’d see you again,” he muttered, voice low.

“I didn’t think I’d come back.”

He looked at you finally, eyes heavy but a little amused. “So… you here for the music, or for something else?”

You gave him a look. “Don’t flatter yourself.”

He smirked, raised his glass in a half-toast. “Too late.”

You were mid-sip, pretending not to notice the way his leg had been tapping under the counter since you showed up. Conversation was still in that awkward limbo between “was that a one-time thing?” and “so… now what?”

Then, the atmosphere shifted, you didn’t even have to turn to know it.

“Yo,” a familiar voice called behind you, smooth and loud like it was born to interrupt. “I remember you. You were the one sneaking out of my little bro’s room the other night.”

You glanced over your shoulder. Ran Haitani, grinning like he was about to drop a bomb just for the fun of watching it blow. Rindou visibly tensed beside you, glass pausing midair. “Ran. Fuck off.”

But Ran was already leaning on the bar, way too comfortable, already making it worse.

“Bro, chill. I’m just saying. It was kind of adorable. You haven’t seen this guy lately, all broody and broken-hearted ever since his ex did him dirty. I was starting to think he forgot how to flirt.”

Rindou exhaled like he was trying to stay calm, but his knuckles were white around his drink. Ran didn’t stop. “Then boom. You come along. He’s got a spring in his step again. Guy even shaved his neck for once. That’s how I knew it was serious.”

You tried not to laugh, but it cracked out anyway. Rindou shot you a betrayed side-eye. “Don’t encourage him.”

But Ran was already on a roll. “He hadn’t even looked at anyone since, what was it? I was getting worried, for real. Thought he might start writing poetry or some shit.”

You turned to Rindou, raising an eyebrow. “Poetry?”

“Don’t listen to him,” Rindou muttered through clenched teeth, glaring at his brother. “He’s drunk. Or high. Or both.”

“I’m not drunk,” Ran said, clearly lying. “I’m observant. And supportive. This is me being supportive.”

Rindou slammed his drink down and stood. “I’m leaving.”

“Aw, come on-”

“Nope. Not doing this.”

He walked off, dragging his dignity behind him, and Ran just looked at you with that same smug expression. “See? Told you he gets all emotional. You want another drink?” God. The wedding was supposed to be elegant. 

That was the idea. Clean black suits, soft lights, imported champagne, and a string quartet nobody could hear over the sound of distant laughter and clinking glass. And then later Ran took the mic.

The room quieted a little, half-curious, half-afraid. Everyone knew this man had a mouth on him. Rindou was already shaking his head before a single word left his brother’s lips.

Ran raised his glass. “To love, right?”

A soft cheer rose, polite. Safe. But Ran kept going. “You know… I remember when I first met you,” he said, pointing directly at you in your wedding dress like it was a roast. “Leaving my little bro’s hotel room, hair all fucked up, walking like your knees lost the will to live.”

The crowd choked on their drinks. Rindou physically lunged, grabbing the mic, but Ran twisted away.

“Let me finish!” he yelled, already laughing at his own mess. “I’m being heartfelt!”

“Ran, shut the fuck up—”

“Nah nah, this is important. Because that night, right after, this idiot- ” He gestured to Rindou. “This quiet, emotionally-stunted loser came up to me and said, ‘I think I actually like her.’ Which was nuts, because before that, he’d been crying about his ex for three goddamn months and not touching a single soul.”

“Ran,” Rindou barked. “Shut. The fuck. Up.”

“He used to mope on the fucking couch,” Ran continued, ignoring him, “like a little Victorian widow. Refused to go out. Said modern women had no taste. And then—boom. She shows up, and suddenly he’s washing his hair and trimming his nails and-”

You were crying with laughter, doubled over at the table, wine glass threatening to slip from your hand. It was chaos. The good kind. Your cheeks hurt. You didn’t care that the whole guest list was horrified. You’d been through worse. “Ran, I swear to god” Rindou was red in the face, practically yanking the mic away now.

“Oh shut up, you married her, didn’t you?” Ran shouted into the mic before it finally cut.

There was a beat of silence, heavy. Charged. Then your kid, who was sitting nearby with cake all over their cheeks, looked up from their plate and said, loudly:

“What’s a hookup?”

And just like that, the room exploded. Rindou buried his face in his hands, groaning so deep it was almost a prayer. You were wheezing. Ran threw his head back and howled with laughter, arms spread like he just pulled off the greatest performance of his life.It wasn’t perfect. But it was yours. And somehow, it felt just right.

[kinerxy]

Hi its been a while, have this small art dump because my last post was 1 month ago lol

i have been trying a new way to render, which is basically painting in greyscale, then slapping in a gradient map and hope for the best

and this is an old drawing i forgot to post (i still love it hehe)

[crimsoncold]

Jonsa Fairytale AU (True Love's Kiss) by @crimsoncold

If you must mourn, my love Mourn with the moon and the stars up above If you must mourn Don't do it alone

...

If you must die, sweetheart Die knowing your life was my life's best part If you must die Remember your life

-Keaton Henson, You

For a while l've been considering doing a Fairytale inspired jonsa AU but was never able to make up my mind in terms of which specific fairytale I wanted to base my art piece around (i could of course just do multiple ones but with already so many WIPs i didn't want to plan to add several more into my art rotation) so unable to make a decision I set the idea aside to work on other more concrete art ideas.

Then of course I saw the prompts for the Jonsa Valentine 2025 event, and it really did seem like the world itself was encouraging me to make a fairytale jonsa art piece.

This time I chose to avoid basing it on one specific fairytale and instead considered more general fairytale tropes that are found across many tales when I was brainstorming ideas on what I would make for this prompt.

In the end I decided to use the trope of True Love's Kiss (i.e. A kiss imbued with it's own sort of magic, able to break a curse, or even bring someone back from literal death) both because I thought it would be visually interesting and because I felt it would incorporate several elements of asoiaf/got canon.

(i.e. both the inherent romanticism of Jon and Sansa's personalities and storylines as well as specific events like Jon's tragic "death" and his later resurrection as well as the likely possibility of Sansa being the girl in grey fleeing north to be reunited with her "brother")

I was pushing hard to have this finished in time (with the event being about a month a way when I first started this) and even though it ended up taking me a lot more time than I had hoped, I am happy with my decision to make two versions of this artwork as i feel the most satisfying element and impactful part of this fairytale trope is in the profound transformation it can create, and to do this justice I really felt I needed a before and after version of Sansa's Kiss being what brings Jon back from the dead.

As for the related quote, I had been struggling to pick one as most of my possible choices, while admittedly poignant and romantic, felt very specific to either Jon or to Sansa in this art piece rather than being about the two of them together, so I'm actually really pleased with my final choice (lyrics from Keaton Henson's song You) as it feels like it had segments that represent the differing perspectives/wishes of both Jon and Sansa in this scenario.

Anyway thats about all the background info I'd like to dump on you about this piece so l'll end this on a thank you; specifically thank you to anyone who found, liked, or shared this piece and/or bothered to read my rambling thoughts about making this, as well as a thank you to everyone in this fandom who arranged and/or participated in this event!

Being part of a small but so dedicated fandom is just the sort of thing that makes me happy when everything else around me starts to feel harsh and distressing. I hope you all have a wonderful day and that everyone feels inspired to keep making and sharing all sorts of art and creative pieces for this fandom- it seems a very small thing in the scope of everything happening in the world and our lives but its still something that brings some much needed joy that I think many (especially myself) greatly value while also forgetting or struggling to actually find a way to adequately express our appreciation... so this is just my attempt to say thank you all for making this little slice of fandom so wonderful!

-Crimson Cold

[feathermouth]

okay, so im a brainrotted freak, and ive had p.AI.nter on my mind for a while. naturally, i gave the bastard a body! here ya go!

rant/art dump below the cut

first off, p.ai.nter is a short king. mostly because i like the aesthetic, but its also convenient for him! it takes less resources to keep his body going! i imagine he would also wanna be smaller so that he could be more intricate with his art.

now, because he is mobile, the power source becomes an issue. hes an old computer! how does he survive unplugged ?!

well, here, i introduce the wonderful world of BATTERIES!

p.ai.nter would have a battery somewhere in his core, which would be how he keeps himself charged. that also means i get to give him a little cord tail! (for charging purposes, of course.)

i also am giving him a second tail, just for funsies. he deserves a USB drive with his conscience in it. he connected to other tech in the blacksite, so he should be able to keep doing that! because it was a very SAFE and FRIENDLY action on his part!

maybe angsty, but i think that p.ai.nter finds humans a wee bit gross, especially after everything that happened to him. why would he wanna be human shaped?

he wants something mobile and appropriate for a human-dominated world, of course, so he needs to have arms and a torso—but he wants his machinery to be obvious, if that makes any sense. no exposed wires (he is not stupid), but flashy metal bits, visible joint segments, yap!

now, building off of that, p.ai.nter would prefer a bird-like shape to his legs. he would definitely need to go through some manner of physical therapy in order to pilot his new body, and so he needs legs that inherently provide for more balance!

therefore, an excuse to give him anthro legs.

considering how much art p.ai.nter will probably begin creating, he wants something that doesnt stain easily.

a small problem : he doesnt like the look of dark paint! it doesnt match his monitor, and thats awful!

so, he resorts to covering clothes.

p.ai.nters shirts would need to be oversized and flowy to accommodate for his THICK AS FUCK head. so that he can actually put them on without stretching them out, of course.

therefore: oversized sweaters, long skirts, and aprons!

fucking GOLDEN! housewife looking guy! funky!

p.ai.nter wants to be MOBILE! theres so much to do and see! hes been locked down for years, how could he waste a perfectly good body ?!

he has several jointed segments in his torso to aid in movement and rotation, and his limb joints are made out of pliable metal tubes.

it also aids his precision in art! its easier to get clear views without body parts in the way and whatnot.

note: p.ai.nter settled on having five fingers per hand, despite insisting he wanted four for stylistic purposes. five fingers are ideal for human equipment, hes pretty sure.

now, you might be thinking, this guy has a lot going on. does he not overheat? hes a sentient brick?

there is a solution : air holes and internal fans!

a few strategically placed holes cover p.ai.nters body to aid in natural ventilation. its kinda like breathing!

inside of his body, cooling fans are centered in his chest and limbs. they distribute the air more evenly.

he really overheats when hes trying to do too much, such as controlling several devices or thinking about too many things at once!

now, for the behavioral headcanons :

painter has a LOT of fun toying with his new body. he goes on leisurely strolls sometimes, because hes previously never been able to.

his art will improve a lot upon receiving a body! having a new sense of autonomy would be a serious upgrade for him, and he would have many new ways of living. it wouldnt be AS dull to be a sentient AI in an abandoned facility.

he might go find ellies painting and stare sadly at it, though—i assume this theory still holds up? right? please?

sometimes he mimics the faces of other people on his monitor! like, he might draw sebastians eyes and mouth, and just uses that face to talk to him sometimes. as a means of teasing or affection. (he could probably do this before getting a body, but having a body definitely gives him the energy to do silly things like this!) pretty good way to find out how he sees your face, too.

despite p.ai.nter overheating when he runs too many tasks, hes a chronic multitasker! he tries to make the most of his new body, and hes often forced to sit back and slow down.

painter tried to convince his builder—most likely sebastian, with his engineering major and all—to let him have turrets on his arms, but that could become problematic with p.ai.nters mental state, so he agreed to have fake turrets for stylistic purposes only! he likes to keep them on his forearms and thighs, secured with straps that can be taken off. he enjoys pointing them at things and pretending to shoot stuff—which is EXACTLY why he doesnt get to have real guns.

and, after all this buildup, who would i be to not provide some full pictures? <3

[pixelatedraindrops]

Baby Makoto AU Doodle Dump🐣

Hiya everyone! So, I’ve been busy working on some art of this new little concept of mine. It’s been in my head for a while. Ever since I found out Makoto is in fact canonically 3 years old. And then thinking of Number One being a doting single parent to his tiny homunculus clone whom he adopts to keep safe from further experimentation and raises as his own 🥺💕

I’ve seen other people (specifically on twitter) come up with this thought as well. Makoto as a 3 year old child with Yuma as his parent. Honestly other than drawing my favorite characters being sick, drawing them as little kids also brings about a nostalgic comfort to me. Not nearly as much joy as drawing sickies brings me, but it was fun to draw the all powerful CEO as a little toddler curious about the world. He's just a little baby <3

Now I am actually a bit shy and insecure about this idea. Mainly due to people possibly confusing it with infantilization and/or age regression. This is neither of those things. It’s an AU where he just happens to be a toddler. If anything I picture little Makoto to be similar to Anya from Spy x Family. (and the fact they both share a Japanese VA makes this connection even cuter, and he's only one year younger than her x3)

Anyway, I hope you all will indulge in me as I share the art I’ve done of this tiny little homunculus. I probably won’t talk about this au or draw it often due to feeling shy about it, so I just made a full on thread of the doodles if you want to see. I keep them under a read more to prevent spam (and I know not everyone is a fan of this concept)

But if you look, I hope you enjoy!

A little reference of sorts I made of my toddler Makoto design. (though he wears different clothing in every art I do of him lol this just connects his normal purple flowery attire) He is exactly 2 feet shorter than his usual height making him pretty small for a toddler. (but yuma is pretty short too lol and I want him to be able to carry him ;w;)

He has 2 special toys that connect to his other mask designs in the concept art. The teddy bear is his very special possession that Yuma gave him as a present, and the puppet teruteru-bozu is something he made together with Yuma when crafting on a rainy day. (he is so talented preparing him for the future when he actually develops products for the company he will run) The melon ball is based on his favorite fruit, and he has socks and a fuzzy blanket with the pattern of his mask.

In this AU, Yuma retains his Number One persona. He’s not meek apologetic and unsure, he has the confidence of the ultimate detective. But is he confident as a parent? Not in the slightest. But taking care of Makoto teaches him more about being kind and empathetic towards others, and eventually over time he becomes super protective and even at times doting towards Makoto.

Making his personality a bit more bright and pleasant, much like the kind and gentle Yuma that we all know and love. Parenthood causes the serious detective to soften up a lot. And of course this causes Makoto to love and depend on Yuma in return and never want to cause him trouble. (So he puts on a tough act a lot ;w;) However, he almost never calls Yuma dad. He just calls him Yuma. Its very rare that he refers to Yuma as his dad but this is perfectly okay by Yuma. (But when Makoto does call him dad? Yuma feels such unexplainable emotional discord that he almost cries.)

Some more doodles :3

Such a silly little family. I love them so much <3

Why did I think of this AU? Because I want Makoto and pre-game Yuma to not be lonely, be happy together, and for Makoto to have a childhood. Honestly Makoto seems a bit childish and playful in canon too so...

I think I'd like him to have an actual childhood where he grows up comfortable and happy. And in the care of someone who loves him 💜

[drconstellation]

The Cupperty Ceremony

Every bit of food and drink in both seasons has a metaphorical significance, even if you don't realize it.

Tea is no exception. Its one of the few times an eastern philosophy creeps into Good Omens, but it still meets with a western ideal. It's also intrinsically linked to Aziraphale and his affected British style.

Coffee gets more of a focus in S2, and has a specific meaning around freedom and liberty, whereas tea appears more in S1. But the metaphorical meanings around them are fairly consistent across both seasons, with stereotypes for the British drinking tea and the Americans only drinking coffee put aside.

Lets start with Muriel on the doorstep of the bookshop, at the beginning of S2E3, asking to come in, because its noisy outside.

Aziraphale, after a moment to take in who they are, is the epitome of politeness as he welcomes them inside.

You might think "well, isn't this just Aziraphale being typically Aziraphale?" in this moment, but soon we shall see its a relevant part of a ritual going on here.

The bookshop is noticeably quieter on the inside. There is just the two of them. Aziraphale offers Muriel tea in a fine china cup, with a blue pattern, and gold trim.

Muriel is not sure what to do with it so they just hold it. Aziraphale makes a point of demonstrating what should be done: He tells Muriel the tea is "to drink," then looks at it, sips, and makes both an appreciative expression and sound.

Muriel seems repelled by this, and declares they are just going to look at theirs. Aziraphale patiently, still polite, lets them do so.

Up to this point, there are actually two levels of meta happening at the same time. The first one is a tea ceremony (which I had a go at once before, and got the wrong one!) and the other is about trying to get Muriel to take the first step in "going native."

A tea ceremony always starts with a courteous invitation. The tea is prepared, then served and offered to others. It should be taken in a tranquil, peaceful setting, perhaps in a harmonious natural environment (such as a Garden) and with only a few people at a time (two people is considered a "superior" experience.) The tea ware is important, as it should allow the fragrance of the tea to be appreciated (we have some fine china, Heavenly-coded.) Appreciation of the tea's qualities is undertaken, first with the eyes, then by smell, then tasting. It is considered an art, a process of spiritual enjoyment, a means of cultivating the moral character - and then Crowley bursts into the bookshop with his flirty comment about going by train and breaks the fragile connection Aziraphale had been trying to establish with Muriel.

*sigh* Timing, Crowley! Can't you see I'm in the middle of trying to subvert a fellow angel here?

I was recently reminded that tea and coffee have a connection in GO, in that that they are both linked to the American War of Independence. While the speech that gives us "Give me liberty, or give me death!" conjures the stormy winds of war sounding trouble approaching, the Boston Tea Party was the initial spark of the brewing conflict.

I realize there is a LOT of stuff written about this particular bit of history, and it can get quite political even in these modern times, so let me frame it in a Good Omens frame of reference if you aren't familiar with it - the colonists in the New World were upset at how they were being ruled from afar by the British and staged a small protest about some new laws imposed on them by dumping ship-loads of valuable tea leaves (a daily consumable pleasure people had become hooked on) into Boston Harbor on the night of 16th December 1773. To disguise themselves they dressed themselves as indigenous people, or "native Americans" as one might have said. This was just the beginning of further rebellion that led to war a few years later.

So here is another reason Aziraphale offers tea to Muriel, and not cocoa; he can see how fascinated they are with with everything Earthly around them, and he hopes to ignite a spark of rebellion in them, too, by introducing them to the more civilized pleasures (*ahem*) that he knows and enjoys so well.

While there is little tea to be seen in S2, there is plenty to be seen in S1. Perhaps the most prominent one for this discussion occurs right near the beginning, when Gabriel surprises Aziraphale in the sushi restaurant in S1E1.

Aziraphale offers to tea to Gabriel, and Gabriel shuns it. He, like most of the angels we meet, have no real interest in Earth. It's "gross." Ah, well. He gets to change his mind in S2.

So where else do we see tea in S1?

The Four Horsepeople: War orders four teas, one black, and a cheese sandwich in the diner where they all meet up together for the first time on Earth. We don't know who the sandwich is for, but I'm going to guess its for Famine. Reasons below, with Shadwell. (Cheese and tea make a nice savoury pair for a snack, if you haven't tried it. I'm partial to tea with cheese and crackers on the side from time to time.)

The Tibetan Tunnelers were on tea break from digging tunnels all over the Earth when we meet them, where they mention they were transported into the tunnels when they themselves stopped for tea back in their real lives on the surface.

Shadwell's infamously sweet tea, with either nine sugars or condensed milk, needs a mention as well, as it appears several times. Shadwell is an Aziraphale parallel-character, living on the fringes of society and starving for attention, even though he makes feeble swipes at Madam Tracey's attempts to care for him. The sugar represents the amount of care or "sweetening up" he needs.

When he first meets Newt he gets the young man to buy him a tea and a packet of cheese and onion crisps. Remember the cheese sandwich War ordered for Famine? A packet of cheese flavoured crisps is a parallel here. Newt has turned up and finally given someone Shadwell someone to sink his teeth into.

Finally, we need to return to Crowley - its coffee, as black as his soul for him, please, and extra strong (six shots is for the number of Hell.)

Because he's already "gone native," just like Aziraphale, and he wants to maintain his freedom. He's left the Garden, and Heaven, behind him, and he'll do anything to keep it that way, thank you.

I'd like to thank my mutual and other food meta writer @vidavalor for discussing some of this off-list some time ago. We mostly see things the same way, I believe, but one must tread one's own path sometimes. They have some different ideas around some of this, but I'll let them say it in their own words.

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no but listen, rachel has truly embodied herself as persephone because she's constantly trying to "distance herself" from her past as a medical fetish artist but then keeps the name that's affiliated with her medical fetish art-

Like, I can't believe I never noticed it before tbh, but that was the thought that hit me while I was explaining to someone on reddit what the name "used bandaid" meant and why it was weird that Rachel is STILL using it on her print cover books, even now when she just recently set up a new Facebook account with her REAL NAME and not the used_bandaid penname (I feel like this is an attempt to "legitimize" herself in the industry but idk).

But that leads me into talking about how she keeps lying about LO being her first webcomic project and that really pisses me off. And yes, this is related to the used_bandaid thing, just bear with me here.

A lot of my contempt for this is for reasons that go beyond her, I just hate the notion that people should succeed on their "first try" and that's an idea that's often sold by people like Rachel who spin these grandiose stories of how they were just "trying it out" and suddenly wham! Fame and fortune! You can achieve all this and more if you just xyz!

Literally, in every interview I've found over the past couple years, she always heavily implies that LO was her "first attempt", that she had never used Webtoons prior to LO, and that she was just "dipping her toes" into the medium. None of this is true, she's literally been drawing webcomics since the early 2000's (possibly earlier but the earliest documentation we can find is of The Doctor Pepper Show), LO wasn't even her first webcomic on the Webtoons platform (that goes to The Doctor Foxglove Show which she ended up dumping a chapter in to work on LO almost immediately after starting it on Tumblr) and as much as she'll claim she "couldn't pay anyone to look at her work", she had landed a number of gigs that got her work out there, had been printed in anthology collections, and IIRC she had even won some small local NZ awards for her comics prior to LO. Shit, there was a local beer brand that had her art on its labelling.

But it really feels like she's trying her damn hardest to hide all that, never mentioning or implying that she did anything prior to LO, that she was just a "struggling graphic artist working in retail" until LO happened.

So why keep the penname that's directly affiliated with that past identity ??

It boggles my mind, honestly, especially considering she had gone by MULTIPLE usernames back then, some of which were actually pretty sane that she could have used instead (such as Rach Alex, which she uses in her FB groups, and Rachel Royale).

I wouldn't blame her if she was trying to hide her old medical fetish stuff, whether she didn't want it affiliated with her new LO branding or if she's just embarrassed by it, I can totally empathize with that because god knows I wouldn't be all that proud to show off the cringy shit I got up to during my early days on the Internet. But if she IS embarrassed by it, you'd think the last thing she'd want to keep is the name that's directly affiliated with the thing she's embarrassed by. Almost like a certain pink protagonist who goes by the name she earned after doing the thing she doesn't want to talk about.

But if she ISN'T embarrassed by it, then why lie?

Why paint this picture that LO was a one hit wonder, that she lived on "struggle street" until she found fame and fortune on Webtoons?

Oh right. Because it's a better story.

Because it's way more romantic to be some struggling indie darling who "came from nothing" and achieved fame through one big idea. Because it looks good for the platform who's trying to attract people to their app and website on the promise that you, too, can be a success story simply because you followed the exact same perceived steps that you saw another person follow and advertise.

If you can't tell from my tone, I really fucking hate this kind of disingenuous wish fulfillment advertising. It's manipulative, it's cruel, and it sets people up with expectations far beyond their scope of reaching, both due to the luck and "being in the right place at the right time" involved at best (which is a HUGE factor in stories like these that people never talk about), or through joy-killing comparison at worst when you don't achieve worldwide fame on your first try and wonder why everyone else did (spoiler: they didn't, they just want you to think that because it makes for better headlines and it gets you using whatever product they're affiliated with.)

If Rachel doesn't want to be tied down to her past, that's fine. But it's incredibly irresponsible and flat out cruel to lie about that past existing at all because it sets a horrible precedent to those who look up to her and want what she has.

And I say all that because I've seen what happens to the people starting out who admire these creators who painted the picture that they were just successful right off the bat. It's not a fun headspace to be in, it's robbed many creators like myself and others of their joy in creating, and it's really all just a ploy to get you to spend time and money and energy on a stupid corporate phone app that profits off your emotional investment and labor. Don't fall for it. Pretending like the Act of Wrath didn't happen doesn't remove it from history.

Anyways, I was gonna leave it at that, but then I ended up doing another rabbithole deep dive through her Wayback Machine and found album art she had illustrated for NZ band PorcelainToy. Enjoy this piece of her "dark era" art that still exists without needing to use the Wayback Machine.

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I’m not typically a fan of spiders, but I’ve been using your blog as exposure therapy. I’m also getting better at letting them chill in my house. The men at work are more scared of spiders than I am, so inevitably when a wolfie decides to sneak in, I’m the one that has to escort him or her back outside. There was a big panic the day a lady wolf spider got in with all her kids. She and the kids were safely taken back outside and I gave everyone that was freaking out a scathing look. Was Mama aggressive and mad I was disturbing her and her children? Yes. Was it terrifying? Absolutely. But nobody got bit or squashed or dropped, so that’s pretty good.

Also, one of the most unbelievable things I’ve ever seen is a jumping spider come out of its hiding spot, take an absolutely massive dump, and hide again.

Anyway, thanks for the spooders.

If there's any tags I can use to help ease your fears, let me know!

My husbands old workplace was FILLED with wolf spiders, and he would call me while i worked in a different building across the city just so i could come over and help let them outside. His most terrifying moment was a big mama with lil babies on her back, but its my favorite encounter because i got to see them <3

He's also getting less scared of spiders the more I talk to him about a different kind of spood I learned about, or saw that day.

My favorite spider youtuber is Richard over at The Tarantula Collective. Hes very passionate about educating people on husbandries, and spider behaviors to help ease fears! As well as help further educationals and studies based off of tarantulas. He was the bridge between me leaving behind my small spider phobia and embracing my love for the unloved.

Arachnophobia is one of the most common phobias, and its usually surrounded by misinformation and dramatizations; and through art and education we can change.

If you haven't read this yet, here's a poem that's helped change peoples minds about squishing spiders.

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anonymous asked: why aren't u using an Asian FC for Sig if she's MCU-based and Vanir?

first things first - i know that @hollustu answered a similar question the same day that this was sent to me; this has been in my inbox for quite a while, but i wanted to be able to take the time to answer it properly. and, a brief disclaimer before i do that: i'm white. while i can speak to my own headcanons and lore for these characters, it isn't my place to speak on actual representation within the mcu, nor would i attempt to; i'll always do my best to amplify the voices of poc within the fandom in that regard, rather than adding my own where it isn't wanted.

i could just say that my sigyn is both mcu and myth based, so mcu-only logic doesn't apply to her, but i don't think that answer would really satisfy either of us so you're getting something of a lore dump from me instead. this is what happens when recovering historians have special interests: we do research.

i appreciate that you're probably asking this because the main vanir character featured in the mcu is hogun, who is played by tadanobu asano (who is japanese). the part of vanaheim, and the majority of the people there, which we see in thor: the dark world is also heavily inspired by various asian cultures (the art book confirms this, and it also mentions mayan and early christian cultures being used as well). but that's the thing: what we see in tdw is part of an entire world (realm / planet / choose your own description). we meet one named character, and unnamed extras, who are from that one part of the world which is being shown to us.

in my personal lore for sigyn, her people, and her home - which i've been developing since before tdw was released, but that's not really the point, i'm just old - vanaheim is as diverse as we see asgard to be. canonically the vanir 'share many physical traits with the asgardians' and are 'similar to human beings'; the idea that all vanir are analogous to a single race of people from earth just doesn't make sense to me. yes, the art book also talks about designing the vanir shown in tdw and how they drew from asian cultures in doing so, but again: in my interpretation, these are the people native to this part of vanaheim.

there's also the fact that there are allusions within the mcu itself to vanir culture being more diverse than you're assuming it to be - the first which comes to mind is frigga's comment that she was 'raised by witches', which is a direct reference to her comic counterpart, who is from vanaheim.

i can understand why you'd have concerns about sigyn being whitewashed if your only context for the vanir is the small about of their world that we see within the mcu, but as i think i've detailed pretty clearly above i don't believe that to be representative of the whole realm, or all of its people. and maybe i'd feel a little less weird about this message if you hadn't sent something similar to another sigyn blog, too.

there are so many different versions of sigyn, because she's not a canon character in the mcu, and we know very little about her in the myths. all the different versions of her i've seen are unique and diverse and wonderful; everyone has built up their own backstories and lore for her, and most of us use entirely different faceclaims for her too. in my experience, people who write sigyn are each other's biggest cheerleaders because we all recognise that we share our love for her as a character, and love seeing the way other people have brought her to life. sending anons to try and cause drama doesn't fit with that. i hope you're satisfied by my answer, but i also hope you'll consider just coming and chatting to someone about your concerns in the future, rather than sending abrupt anons to multiple blogs trying to call them out for something.

[thelongestway]

All right, peeps. This story has finished off my brain, and I really need to actually focus on work for a while. So. You are getting a victory lap today. Two more chapters, which mean that ding-dong, the draft is done!

Without further ado...

Chapter 44: Upload

By the time Dandelion and Aspen got back from their trip, Aspen carrying a brand-new name with them (the Vivacious, which all of Thiago's informants agreed was a nice proper Arborea Cosmica ship name, and disagreed on why exactly it had been a problem to take it before Aspen ever left dock), Seth had considered ART's proposal and decided that PSUMNT would make the offer. So after Aspen had settled in with a local maintenance crew who would be putting the name on their hull and registry, Seth sent them an invitation to a small conference aboard ART.

"Dr. Vivacious," Seth said as Aspen's human avatar walked through the doors to ART's crew lounge. "Welcome aboard."

In the feed, I could see Aspen read Seth's little pause before their new name and grin, satisfied. Out loud, they cheerfully said, "Thank you for having me!" as they settled into a chair opposite Seth. Their eyes ran across ART's crew, who were all present, and they added, "I have to say, I'm very curious what this is all about."

"I'm going to have to begin with something of an apology," Seth said sheepishly. "Perihelion overheard a private conversation between you and SecUnit, and brought it to my attention, because it thought it was important enough to do so."

Aspen glanced up and gave a quiet little snort.

"Is this going to be another one of your… Interventions, Perihelion?"

"Yes," ART said. "And you will like it."

"Vaguely threatening, but all right," Aspen muttered, rolling their eyes. "All right, Captain Seth. Go on, please."

Despite rehearsing this conversation for the entire prior evening, Seth still stumbled over the words.

"Perihelion told us that you had an old crew member that's presently in chronostasis."

He gulped, because even though Aspen's expression barely changed, they focused on him so sharply that the whiplash made even Iris take a step back. (And she was used to ART's shenanigans.)

"I do." Aspen said in the silence. "Why?"

"And that said crew member was in chronostasis, because their last will and testament involved holding them in chronostasis until the technology was there to fully upload a human mind into a machine existence."

Aspen didn't answer. They just nodded to indicate a "keep going."

"Well. On behalf of the Pan-System University of Mihira and New Tideland, I am authorized to inform you that this technology does, in fact, exist. The results of its use were used to prototype Perihelion's older relatives--the first generation of PSUMNT AIs. It does come with a number of cave--"

Seth shut up. Because Aspen's human avatar flickered as they extended their hand, aimed slightly upwards.

"Journals. Monographs. Research notes. Everything you can give me. Now."

Radiating smug satisfaction, ART dumped a veritable mountain of data on them. And if they were slower at chewing through it than when they had been the station, I really couldn't tell the difference at my level, because seconds later they opened a broad connection to Dandelion and yelled, You have got to come see this! And get Iceblink, too!

I'm here, Dandelion said, alert and ready. What's going on?

It says--they say--Dandelion, I think Tal actually made it, Aspen's human avatar swallowed, like they were gulping down tears. I think ke made it. I can't believe this.

She nodded, unruffled.

I actually wouldn't get my hopes up just yet. Let's go through the data first, and as Iceblink connected into the workspace, Dandelion began sifting through the pile of papers and offloading some of them to her.

And even Iceblink didn't have to look at the topic very long with her human processing speed to understand what was happening.

no rotting way. seriously?

That's what we're here to find out, Dandelion said.

Iceblink gave her little salute and dove into the data.

Okay, Aspen said, breathing out heavily. Okay. If anyone has any misgivings, I want to hear about them now.

I looked at their hopeful human face. Saw them all but vibrate in the feed. And I hated, really hated, that I was going to say this. But I was looking at the papers as they processed them, and knew I had to.

Yeah. I've got one.

Aspen didn't stop their frantic feed activity (they could read research papers and listen at the same time), but they did give a full twenty percent of their processing power.

The PSUMNT technology isn't an upload. It's a rebuilding of a vegetative human's mind into a machine. It's not going to be them. It's going to be a different person, with their memories.

That didn't perturb Aspen for one second.

We'd considered a Ship of Theseus scenario before ke went under. That was an explicit yes.

I really wasn't going to be parsing their weird Arborean metaphors right now.

You don't understand, I said. (And felt an emotion bleed from me into the feed. I hated that. But I also couldn't do anything about it.)

You must listen to it, ART said forcefully, rising in the feed from behind me. This procedure was suggested at my behest, and I am in full agreement with SecUnit. Before you attempt it, you must be aware what you are attempting.

At that, Aspen stopped all of their processing, and so did Dandelion and Iceblink.

All right, Aspen said, taking another deep breath. We're listening. Please help us understand.

So I spoke.

First, your sleeping human isn't going to survive this, right? If they do this, they open the pod, and then ke dies. You know that. But I thought I needed to say it anyway, because it's easy to forget that.

I saw Dandelion give me an appreciative tap, and Aspen nodded. Iceblink looked very sad, and hid behind another journal article that she pretended to be reading.

Okay. We got that. But second. I said this already, but I didn't understand what it meant before I went through it, so I'm saying it again, and I'm giving you logs to match.

They were listening, and I took a pause for emphasis.

That is not going to be a copy of Tal.

Another pause.

If your procedure succeeds, it's going to be its own person. Because the PSUMNT researchers will need to add code to it so it goes live, and also because it's not going to have organics anymore.

They were all staring at me, and they clearly didn't understand, so I just sent them my logs about 2.0 and disconnected. In our private workspace, ART and I leaned against each other.

We told them, right? I said. There's not anything else we can do.

Yes, it said, unusually solemn. I believe this is a good idea. But they need to know what they are getting themselves into.

Can they even know? I asked.

ART just squeezed me tighter in the feed. Out loud, it said to Seth: "Do not be alarmed. The Trellians are processing."

"It has to be a lot," Seth agreed. "We'll wait."

Almost thirty minutes later, after everyone except Aspen had time to get starchy foods and stimulant beverages, Aspen invited me and ART back into their feed. Dandelion and Iceblink were still there, feeling very somber.

Aspen tried to speak. And failed. Before trying again, they sent me an appreciative tap, and then managed, Taproot and stars. SecUnit. That puts things in perspective.

Yeah. I couldn't say anything much either. So I just sent them a tap back.

ART spoke instead of me. We are glad you have taken our data seriously. What did you decide?

Aspen curled around Dandelion and around Iceblink like they were a weirdly mobile figure-of-eight and said, The same. Because Tal didn't think ke would be surviving chronostasis, and in all of our conversations, I didn't get the sense ke ever thought ke'd be surviving a potential upload either. But ke wanted to be a part of it. Ke wanted to try. So whether it's kem that wakes up, or a new person with kes memories--it doesn't matter. Because either way, it's exactly what ke would have wanted. We're doing this.

Then the Pan-System University of Mihira and New Tideland will help, ART said, squeezing my inputs. And so will we.

Even without a full connection, I could almost feel Iceblink swallow.

wow. i mean. oof. wow, she paused, and then resumed typing. i'm gonna tell captain Reed that we're going to PSUMNT together with Aspen, not just sticking around at Preservation, right, Dandelion? i know Maize isn't a node ship, but i guess you both are going to be connected to kem at shutdown, and--

Yes, we are, Dandelion answered in an uncharacteristically soft voice. But I don't think I'm the right person for what you're suggesting.

what? you're joking. you're Courageous emergency crew! who the heck else would it be?

Someone who's spent every shore leave for the last eighteen years visiting kem and telling kem the news?

Iceblink froze. Then she poked at Aspen. Quietly. Who briefly curled around her in the feed, then dropped logs on her. It was statistics.

You've been there for Tal for decades, they said encouragingly. You should join me.

i. i. sorry everyone i am going to go have an emotion about this. Iceblink said and disconnected.

Aspen looked out the window to give the Tenacious a fond smile, and then unfroze their avatar, which had been staring at the stars blankly for at the entire duration of their processing, and turned to Seth.

"Captain Seth? I can't express to you how grateful I--how grateful we all--are for the offer. And our answer is yes. Let's do this."

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a very egregiously big art dump i think

idrew taizan out of pure boredomyyeahhhh thats about it 2. i drew an octoling in that one witch outfit,,, out of memory, this was made before the splatoon raiders trailer or teaser or whatevr yoy call that thing came out. you may wonder why is that relevant but its because a couple of months ago i started to lose interest towards splatoon and that kinda upseted me alittle since it was something that holds a lot of dear memories 4 me i mean, it straight up was one of the things it made me enjoy to draw soooooooooooooooo this drawing in particular i made this just when i was somewhat starting to enjoy the franchise again??????? BAH i dont know how to word shittttt BUT TAHTS it 3. i drew this shinji out of pure boredom, once again 4. EMU, i was trying to make a new brush! and it was a sucess,, it felt natural 2 draw specially with my new drawing tablet!!! since the TINY SMALL drawing tablet dat i have had like,,,,,,, 8100 something something of pen pressure while the recent one that i have has 12000000000 or whatever iam not doing my research ANYWAYS it was nicer to draw details, though, i miss the small, compact size of my older drawing tablet as it lets me reach corners faster i guess??? its complicated, and since the pen pressure has a bigger capacity in the new drawing tablet I REALLY REALLY i had to 2 tweak a lot of things for my own comfort and finally,,, the buttons. i dont use them. thse unesseary 4 me. my old tablet doesnt have that and i really dont have a problem with that. i work fine with keyboard shortcuts + the placement of the tablet is a little awkward to be doing that kind of stuff OH and teh exams not dat important MOVING ON 5. mafuyu

progress on the bake no hana adachi rei cover drawing how do i explain this i am struggling A LOT with this one iam not joking this is PAINFUL to work on because ive been drawing mostly potraits lately and thatr was basicly all dat i was doing through most of my drawings so making this was out of my comfort zone

sooo i took long breaks not because i fele tired (no not really but. sort of) but because i also had a crazy amount of school projects and it was a pain in the arse

ANDD this one is a great example of how god awful iam with poses and composition, the colors look fine but everything else just looks awkward to look at and i really dont wnat that for my bake no hana drawing.... sorry barbara ill do better next time also, while i was making this my dad would NOT stop watching those crappy right-winger transphobic content outloud and it was pissing me OFFF like, i kno youre kinda old and all but PLESE this cant be the only thing you should be watching its. driving me COO COcCRAZYYYyyyy but thats not all, butt ill write dat later. (ps. i think he tried to kill me with a large amount of sodium, and byy that i mean he added a lot of salt on my premade prebaked whatver hashbrowns, eggs, SAUSAEGEs................. and he wouldnt stop playing fancy like in my car!!!!!!!!!! wtf!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

this was made for an art course i am in! - making this kinda sucked. yeah thats it really i dont know how i could explain the process behind this but i . hated. every moment of this particular drawing. yoy have no idea + heres my chicken hes my buddy say to him

this one was for a school project, i had to censor a lot of things because it has my school info and i dont wnat dat shit,,, and that poorly drawn makoto yashiro yes thats him i wanted to draw him but, ijust couldnt it was painful to sit through and it sucked but anyways,,, theres honami! she looks fine but in the drafts it looked better since it had more personality

the worst part about this might be the fact that if i didnt altered that much the draft i wouldve drawn makoto better

so, a couple of weeks ago ive felt like school was draining my motivation to draw or do the things that i like. in thsi twt post i somewhat explain this better but to summerize this , i think my mental health was getting worse

and thats about it really, i dont think its THAT big of a matter to me but its just the little things that really change the way i think or do ONCE GAING this is not me venting or doomposting (maybe it is but iam just not sure abt that) i just wanted to share something that was bugging my mind for a while

AND TERES THE SPLATOON RAIDERS ANNOUNCEMENT you have no idea how excited i was when i first saw this, i was just brushing my teeth, almosrt going to school, looking at my phone,. and all of the sudden i see this i almost freakedouttttt i love deep cut and i really like frye and seeing that raiders was going to be a spin-off centered around deepcut i was filled with enjoyment,,, unfortunaly i dont own a switch2 soooooo i wont play it,,, but hey i can watch letsplays!!!!! + i drew this while i was at school, so i had to do this by memory

also these 3 but its not relevant lol

ahhhh speaking of school. it really brings the worst of me, i tried to take a picture of myslef for a project but i looked AWFULLL yeahhhhhhhhhh it was terryfing tio2 look at god i ahte this

and youll see somthing REALLY interesting about most of my art process or making or. something. 99% of the time i do this by memory. its so. annoying!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhthats why it looks so wweirdddddddddddddddddddddddddd seriously

ok

well

i made this while my school was taking pictures for my garduition and it was so long and BORINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGgg it took 3 hours for me to sit on chairand smile and do shit for 3 ugly pictures of myslef i despitethis crap , at least the rendering the hair looks good..........................(also this is miku btw)

Saki Kudo!!! i wanted to be more expresive with my art and i guess it looks fine? iam not sure in what parts should i improve , maybe anatomy? perhaps????????????????????

ANDDDDDD this is one my latest drawings! these are SOME of the kurohyou girlies ive drawn.... (Saeko, Mirai, Chiaki and Shizuka) i drew thse for the sole purpose of the fact that ive been getting worse at drawing women soooooooo i made this. honestly, it looks nice!!! i am specially proud of my chiaki drawing since it looks uniform? in a way? + ive made a couple of tweaks to everyones (minus saeko) designs to make them unique! well, i guess say that since ive drawn these completly diferently but i kinda dont care. OK SO moving on chiaki once again, i really wanted to make her look more like her brother (hyuga) so i losely referenced his in-game 3d model and came up with this! ,,, you can see how my first attempt didnt went very well however on the second try it was a huge improvement from the other... with that being said i cant say the same with shizuka,,, i really had no idea how i couldve worked around with her design, i wanted to make her "petite" and "innocent" or something like that but, nothing ive made really clicked on me soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo i ended up with this. i mean. its alright? i dont like it but dont hate it to some extent. maybe the blank expression is what is doing that for me but even if it tweak it a little it would still look strange?????? oh well, i guess this looks on par with the kurohyou art style Saeko!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11 youll see how ive used one of the brushes ive made in my emu and it really works wonderfully!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!it has a nice texture too,, in my mirai drawing i have really nothing this important to say really,,, sorry (ps. no, that s not TRUE. this is barely a minute and iam editiing THIS BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH) i knew iewas missing something

ASLO IF YOU NOTICE THE GRUG ON THE TOP RIGHT. my brother made me draw this dumb craop iam sorry / ill see if i can work around with my bake no hana drawing tomorrow, again, i am sorry for the wall of text i ahave a lot to type today + i want to make a good use of my tumblr OK well,,, goodnite its like almost 11 pm for me

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ippiki au lore dump

if the name of the au does not make it very obvious, this au was inspired very heavily by the trained cards for kick it up a notch (i just chose to reference the comm, hitsuji ga ippiki, as the au name because it sounds cooler than calling it like. kickup au. so its ippiki au instead. when i first started working on this i just called it animal fighters au but thats long LOL)

its one of my favorite sets, im a big fan of dystopian and post-apocalyptic themes which the set hits perfectly and there was room to have fun with animal designs (i mean, seriously, they gave kohane sheep horns and named akitos costume "hound kid") and so i started thinking from the moment i laid eyes on the set when it leaked and i ended up with an au based around the idea of animal/human hybrids.

first of all for actual au stuff, character profiles! these were made a lot earlier on into working the au so ive made minor adjustments to their designs since then, but nothing drastic. mainly just little things ive changed when drawing them in more detail, like additional scars and such.

while making kohane a sheep and akito a dog (hes... not a specific kind of dog. hes a mix of a whole bunch of different larger domestic dog breeds combined with some wild canines. ) were obvious from the set, deciding on the animals for an and touya required a bit more thought. i ended up settling on a fox for an partially as a nod to her ny3 card and also because for a long time now ive thought theyre fitting for her anyway, and touya as a black leopard because... he's kitty. but i wanted to make him a big kitty not a domestic kitty. i do also like bunny touyas but for how i was feeling with this au i wanted him to be a cat.

theres the fun little detail that kohane is the only animal that isnt a predator in vbs.

but i should probably explain why theyre animal hybrids in this au.

im going to put the rest of the lore dump and more art below, this gets long.

basically, in the face of a coming apocalypse, there was an effort to attempt to hybridize humans with animals to see if they could create a form of human (or something seen as "human enough") that would be more resilient if the apocalypse threatened the survival of normal humanity. it was never completely successful and the hybrids were less stable/generally shorter lived (if physically stronger) but it ended up being unnecessary and enough of humanity survived to rebuild. but the experiments to create hybrids continued.

in the present day of the au, hybrids are created for... less pleasant tasks. the kinds of things people dont want to take on, and theyre physically stronger than the average human so theyre put to those jobs instead. or theyre created as showpieces/pets for the wealthy (most people outside of those circles find it strange to keep hybrids like that though. hybrids arent always seen as being truly human (although theyre fully capable of everything human and then some) but theyre still seen as human enough for it to be weird).

many of them though, are created as sacrifices for entertainment in battle arenas where theyll have to fight each other to the death. its a seemingly inevitable fate to die there once theyre sent, but escape has happened before. an is living proof of that, as both of her parents are escaped arena fighters who helped establish a small town of hybrids out in the wasteland beyond the city at the core of hybrid creation and sacrifice.

how an ended up as an arena fighter despite being born well outside the city... thats a long story.

touya is a showpiece fighter, created to fight but kept secure and safe outside of his registered fights. he might be healthier physically, much less worn down by fighting, but hes been very socially isolated and doesnt fit in with other hybrids very well.

an and touya fight in the same arena, and touyas fight days are the only times he interacts with other hybrids. hes given free reign around the hybrid compound (where most other hybrids are restricted under collars and chains) and he ends up meeting an there. although tense, they become sort of friends and he frees her and they escape together.

kohane and akito are just normal arena fighters, created solely for that purpose, although kohane was meant as an early sacrifice due to her skittish nature, but she survives. theyre in the same arena as each other, although its a harsher one than the one antouya are in, theyre unable to properly interact with anyone else at all and are just lucky enough to be neighbors to end up bonding.

i just grouped them based on which side of their face they have the barcodes on in the original cards lol in this au the arenas generally brand their fighters with a code for identifying them. touyas is actually not permanent like the others, but temporarily applied whenever he has a fight coming up (like a temporary tattoo lol)

kohane managing to survive despite the intention being that she dies is actually the driving force that starts the fic for this au (which fun fact, despite me never mentioning the title, does have a title! the fic will be called "fight, flight, freedom", unless i think of something that fits even better, but i already like the title as is so i probably wont change it)

its rough but i promise everyone gets a happy ending eventually :)

now for sitting through all that rambling heres some art

heres my very initial attempts at designs for them! no drastic changes even since this initial pass at designs tbh i was pretty content with them pretty quickly

some various doodles of them interacting, some during/around the time of the fic and others post-fic

what if they were... more animal? like furries instead of just the ears/tails? obviously noncanon but it was a fun little thing to draw

wip aged up designs! heavily inspired by the power of unity set because it also fits into the post apocalyptic type theme and i thought would work for them when theyre a little older. assume theyre about 20-21 here, while in the main canon of the au theyre about 16-17.

a silly little sketch i did last week of aged up akikoha in their burn my soul outfits... kohane cant really wear hats, horns are inconvenient for that. everyone elses ears would probably make hats difficult too, but you could probably make holes for their ears. you cant really make holes for the tops of her horns.

some little finished pieces i did for this au. can you tell akito is my favorite to draw for this?

now heres some other random au facts

an and haruka are childhood friends, haruka also being the child of ferals. haruka is a domestic cat hybrid (either a gray or black cat, i havent decided which yet). she is not in their hometown anymore either. where is she now...? ill leave you to wonder about that.

kohane and minori grew up in the same group of created hybrids together, theyre friends but were sent to different places so they dont know whats happened to each other since. minori is a goat btw (inspired by her halloween card)

a lot of ans scars are from injuries that snowballed after an incident in a fight that severely broke her tail and led to part of it being amputated. her balance was thrown off for a while after that so she was a little clumsier in fights than normal

akitos scars on the other hand are caused by the fact that hes a reckless fighter. a good fighter, but not much care for the damage he takes in the process. that and improper padding on his collars and muzzle, leaving those spots unable to fully heal from being rubbed against metal for months and when they finally do heal they scarred.

im still sorting things out for sure but tentatively for vbs npcs i have decided on fox ken and yuka (obviously, same as an), tiger taiga (i mean... how could i not go for the pun. and i think it suits him), maned wolf nagi (update march 2024 ive drawn nagi now so this is what has been made canon), raccoon kotaro, caracal arata, and dog souma (sorry to any tatsuya fans, i have not figured out how to include him in the au at all)

vbs all very clingy with each other once they get comfortable together. platonic polysquad ❤️

other characters outside of vbs exist in this au but theyre just not relevant enough to the story for me to include here 👍

the fic outline is like 2.4k words. the first chapter is a couple scenes away from being finished and its about 5k words. it will not be the longest chapter of the fic. this is going to be a long au.

maybe ill do another lore dump another day if i can think of more stuff. well see.

if you made it this far, thank you for reading, heres an edit i made the moment we got high quality versions of the cards and is probably partially responsible for the existence of this au

[gee-arid]

I'm kinda curious, do you have an reason to give the miraculous for each characters? Like why turtle to Ivan?

I do! It links back to my au though- So congrats! More lore dump!

Because ive given Nathaniel and Marc the ladybug and cat miraculous, they get to distribute the other miraculous. They share responsibility for this and choose based on their own experiences with their friends/classmates.

The reason they share responsibility is different to canon because they learn quickly the importance of trust and teamwork (will be explained soon).

The moment the box was passed over to Ailes Rouges and Veilleuse, they discussed it together, without names and shared the miraculous between the two of them to look after until the time came for the appropriate hero.

(explainations below cut, lots of words, no art in this one lol)

Creation Box:

Butterfly + Peacock: Same as canon (right now anyway, considering giving Adrien the Peacock, something something angst), following same beginning point anyway.

Bee: Juleka - Nathaniels choice. The first choice for Juleka was actually the tiger (explained further down). But shes chosen as the bee officially. I know this girls got pent up rage shes too scared to show or let out without a mask. The bee will be good for her :)

Fox: Marinette - Marcs choice (His first choice would be Nath if its after theyve met and become friends outside their alter egos, but is either declined or unable to be found (for obvious reasons); though Nath would likely choose the same, torn between her and Alix). If youre looking for creativity, someone with a strong enough imagination to create and spin stories strong enough to convince another person its real? Marinettes perfect for the job. Especially creating illusions of people.

Turtle: Ivan - Nathaniels choice, if youre looking for defence, someone strong to help protect people, Ivans your guy. Hes seen it first hand, particularly with Mylene, but after years of being in the same class as him, hes experienced his protection too.

Zodiac Box:

Rooster: Markov - Nathaniels choice. This one was a bit of a gamble. Markov cant see kwamis, but if he can be akumatised, it stands to reason that he can be a hero. Despite being a robot, he still only gets one use of the roosters power, as hes not human the magic has to draw from his power and since hes so small, he only has a small bank to draw from. Despite this, being small gives him more leeway into where he can go, as my roosters power is rejuvination, its important that they can get around to other heroes easily.

Goat: Alix - Nathaniels choice. The goat in my au is all about movement, and who better for than than Alix. Not to mention, theyve been friends for years, Nathaniel would trust them with his life.

Rat: Nino - Nathaniels choice. If youre looking for someone to multitask, Ninos got experience. Particularly with herding people, experienced with his brother, and occasionally his own friends. Nathaniel used to be close with Nino in previous years but drifted apart before canon present. He still believes Nino is responsible and trustworthy enough for the job.

Ox: Luka - Marcs choice. (Nathaniel would choose the same). Who else could be calm enough not to flinch at the sight of oncoming danger. Hes the older sibling of Juleka (not twin), and often cool and laidback. While he may not be super close to either hero, he knows their identity, a magical suit doesnt change a persons heart song. Luka is the perfect candidate for the Ox, he trusts the magic enough to know it wont fail him. Its just a hunch but dont you think hes already experienced with this worlds magic?

Horse: Sabrina - Nathaniels reluctant pick. There is no other person Nath has seen who is so co-ordinated. Someone who knows exactly what is going on and when and where. Despite her dubious alegions in the classroom, she can be trusted to keep a plan on track. Also shes a horse-girl, dont @ me.

Dragon: Aroure/Mirelle - Marcs pick. A dragon is experienced in the elements, and who else is more experienced than Aroure and Mirelle. They both are aware and skilled in the weather area, this experience leads to incredible skill with the dragons power. They are rarely apart these days but are very busy with their jobs, so they both become the Dragon, they swap out with eachother when one or another is busy, and it works.

Snake: Max- Nathaniels choice. Max is a person who thinks in numbers. Hes able to keep an exact time line in his mind, able to run numbers and percentages on the spot. Max is simply the most efficient Snake. His ability to think logically lends to his skill, he can effectively keep track of whats happened and whats the best course of action. Nathaniel trusts his judgement and his silence, Max is smart enough to understand the concequences and risks of an alterego.

Pig: Kim - Nathaniels hesitant choice. Now honestly, Kims the obvious pick for a superhero, hes like.. classic superhero build and attitude. However, Nathaniel hasnt always had a particularly friendly attitude with him. So despite the present situation he will always be slightly on edge with Kim. Either way, hes a straight forward kind of guy, perfect for the hunt of the pig. Nathaniel can only hope he doesnt get too much to handle, maybe he'll see Kim in a different light after. Or maybe not.

Dog: Rose- Marcs pick (Nathaniel would choose the same). The dog is all about loyalty, friendship, lowering someones guard. Who else would be perfect for the job than Rose? She is able to see the good in a person no matter what, she can keep a persons attention long enough for a job to be done, if getting a job done through affection is not an option.

Monkey: Zoe.. or Adrien - Marcs choice, Zoe, once shes transfered from abroad, becomes a quick friend of Marcs. They both have bright senses of style and well like-calls-to-like. Shes pretty laidback and adaptable, she can work on her feet which works well for the monkey. Nathaniels choice, Adrien, is also fairly new to the social scene but Nathaniels hung out with him enough by proxy that he can get a grip on his personality. He, like Zoe, is pretty adaptable, maybe less laidback from what hes seen but always willing to try something. He doesnt give up, thats important for a monkey too. Also i dont want to leave Adrien out :(.

Rabbit: Alya - Marcs hesitant choice. Shes been seen around akuma attacks before, always with her phone out and recording. Despite this shes always able to help a citizen run away or hide. Shes also friends with Marinette and from what Marcs heard, shes fairly reliable. Theyre not close to eachother for Marc to be certain, but shes around attacks enough to be reliable, shes consistently helpful, and is fairly knowledgable in akuma related activities; she'll work.

Tiger: Kagami - Marcs choice. The tigers original holder was Juleka (chosen by Nathaniel). Who else would be best for going unnoticed than the invisible girl. However after using it once, she declined to use it again. Its not what she wants. Nathaniel understood, he could see it wasnt good for her. So, Marc chose Kagami next. Kagamis sneaky, able to sneak up on someone and not hesitate. If Juleka was like a rouge, Kagami is more like an assassin.

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game concept art 2023 - EARTHSHINE - part 1 - characters

This is part 1 of my campaign design project from my concept art course last year, called EARTHSHINE!

I designed all these concepts for a top down space fantasy alien RPG called EARTHSHINE, inspired by Undertale, Deltarune, and Omori. The aesthetics were based on sci fi and retro futurism, pop art, black light photos and arcades, and a spacey aesthetic in the vein of Super Mario Galaxy and Slime Rancher.

In a reverse Solar System populated with aliens, many are racing to claim the empty planet, Earth. But no one seems to be consulting its moon, Luna, who's people adore it as part of their culture.

Dawa, an alien from Luna, is on a quest to claim Earth for their home, meeting new companions Ferni from Mars and Destiny from Mercury along the way.

kofi // instagram // artfight // bluesky

More info about the characters under the cut!! vv

PLAYER CHARACTERS

DAWA - Dawa is a humble farmer living their life with their mother on her lunar grape farm. They're quiet and have a tendency to throw themself into work and hobbies. Because of this they come off as anti-social. Dawa can be blunt and snarky, but they just say what's on their mind and will act on an idea if they're certain of their goal. It’s why they left home to confront the leaders about the planet they orbit, as they feel their home and the locals should also have a say in claiming it. Dawa is an ambush and heavy hitter, using their strong legs and quick movements to immobilise their enemies.

FERNI - Ferni is the owner of the Aresi Cosmic Curio Shop. She's taken up the role of a historian, and her first job is to learn about Earth from the locals on moons and Mars. Ferni is a fountain of energy and incredibly sweet, but she can be an overwhelming presence. It only takes someone slightly mentioning anything Earth related for her to go into a full information dump. Upon hearing about Dawa's quest, she immediately tags along, eager to learn about the Earth's history. She's a little too excited to fight battles, but at least she has the spirit and the heart! She’s good at targeting faraway targets,and earned the role of wild card.

DESTINY - Destiny is currently one of the only small spaceship drivers on Mercury aboard the Wings of Felestian Spaceship. Destiny takes on an older guide role for the team. She's highly sociable due to the nature of her job, but is very comfortable hanging back in the ship alone. She's resourceful and has a habit of proposing new ideas and upgrades for the ship. She plays support over communications for the team, offering advice and updates when she can. Generally a charming, reliable presence.

NPCS

LEADER ACACIA - Leader Acacia, or just Acacia, is the Leader of the Jovian Colonies, a proud and stubborn alien with a penchant for snapping at others. Despite the slightly arrogant demeanour, they are under a lot of stress due to the arguments they have been having with the Captain of Neptune about Earth. Other Aliens have unfairly painted them as cocky, while Jovians mainly see them as just a stressed, if not a little goofy leader, who enjoys a cup of tea in their spare time.

CAPTAIN BERA - Bera, or Captain Bera, has certainly made a name for herself among the solar system. She commands the raging Seas of Neptune aboard her submarine. One thing that makes her a fierce leader, is her competitiveness, which drives the other planets' leaders insane in her sheer confidence over her right to claim Earth. Bera's actions are as bold as her thoughts, yet despite her reputation, she seems to be well respected by the people and her crew.

KEEPER PLASMA - Keeper Plasma is notoriously mysterious. They were a respected figure amongst the Solar System, but nowadays very few know of them. Those who do engage describe a rather bitter and reclusive person. Plasma has been asked what their opinions are on the Earth space race, and it's always been the same answer, "Petty squabbles are none of my business.". They're a keeper of knowledge and history for the Solar System, so there could be information not even the great leaders know of.

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Yey! Silly vent because I feel like shit!

Read under the cut if you want the juicy ass details

So basically, I gotta let this shit out.. its fucking me up a bit rn.

I met this dude around the start of 2021 on tiktok AND HE WAS SO TALENTED AND FUNNY but he always said he wasn't. Anyway time skip a lil..

We started getting into a few arguments near the middle of 2022. And they where just small disagreements then they gradually got worse and worse every time it happend. And it especially got bad when I made another friend on tiktok who loved doing art related things and drew my old persona back then.

And HE WAS NOT HAVING IT and he said quite alot of bad things to me. Did I stay friends with him? Yes I did. Did I also block the nice guy just trying to be my friend? Yes. I blocked them out of fear of loosing my best friend.

And near the end of 2022 we started dating because things had gotten a better.

Oh how I was so wrong. Everything just went downhill when he left high-school. He always needed attention. He got mad at me because I couldn't set an alarm BECAUSE he was up at 10am and I was up near 1pm. So I forced myself to do so mutch bullshit for him. Like draw him art as an apology and it drained me do badly I could hardly do my own personal art.

I didn't even have personal art at this point. Every time I fixated on something it was what he was fixating on because he'd get mad at me and argue with me if I wasn't.

But everything was calm when it was around April in 2023 and we where finally getting along like an actul couple because of a game called final fantasy. We where obsessed with it for months! And then around June or July I re discovered transformers.

I have never felt as happy in a fandom since 2019! Like holy shit the fandom is so sweet.

But I kept it a secret from him he still doesn't know. Then at some point I made this tumblr to get my stupid little urges out and now look at where I'm at. I haven't been this happy in a LONG while.

And just st the start of 2024 my ex got into an argument with one of his friends and I offered to talk to them. so he agreed and I spoke to them.

Im so fucking glad I did.

Because without their help I'd still be fucking miserable. They gave me the confidence to dump that bitches ass and I honestly feel like a weight has been taken off. Because it honestly felt like a chore every day of my life just talking to him.

And my other friend on discord had helped me out to. Including you silly fuckers on discord/tumblr. If your even reading this... if you are why are you still reading this?

But anyway. I just needed this off my chest. Because it does hurt a little spite how good i feel but I just have an off feeling. I haven't put down everything that happend while I was with my ex and some things might be in the wrong order or time but at least I'm forgetting it?

Just. I love the transformers fandom so mutch mutch really helped me pull through...

Fuck I'm ranting. Uh. Bye!

Also a big thank you to Avery and rex for helping me feel better (rex I've only known you for a little bit but jesus christ I fucking laugh my ass off because of you) jesus I'm sappy as fuck. (and avery your so fucking cool. You helped me alot.) And belyyvolks (I've had alot of fun messing around about ironhide XD) I'm not tagging because I don't want alot of attention on this post.