#so I'm hoping the strike doesnt last too long...

[nmzuka]

Might be going on strike at work :V

[vampyprince]

is this a long route, or am i just slogging along anything without eito?? ❗killing game + 2nd scenario spoilers

damn, tsubasa... damn tsubasa.

it's honestly baffling to do this route. i know sirei isn't here to push karua dreams on takumi... but he legit brushed karua off as just like a 'sister',,, but takumi also called daruko 'like sisters', so i don't trust takumis sis radar LOL

it just goes to show that everyone is such a blank slate. they have their backstories implanted, but.. they essentially were born in the LDA classroom... their first time existing in their bodies.

it makes sense that everything that happens can lead to significant impacts on takumi (and everyone else)'s personalities and motives.

in some routes, takumi was completely focused on nozomi's happiness and NOTHING else. in other routes, he sincerely connected and cared about darumi. in others, he was so eito brained and killed everyone. takumi could be anything... it just depends on what choices we make for him.

im aware there are several different endings for this route... but i always choose the safest, most compassionate options... I THINK,,

if i (takumi) were to give in to the ruthlessness and killing, i bet a much darker takumi would be born.

detach yourself...

it's just work...

take.. their lives..

he was starting to lose it a bit in his murder zone, but i might've prevented that outcome.

i imagine a scenario where takumi is fighting the 'invaders'.. he detaches himself, tells himself its just work... and strikes down.............. a fellow friend. completely on instinct.

imagine if he did so to the tsukumos... and it gives us a takemaru who is more vengeful... might even make him try to kill takumi on his own. i could see that....

pain,, takemaru just wanted to protect the young twins.. he was a true hero despite the part where he was attacking nozomi

i just hope ima doesnt do anything stupid. i doubt he'll let go of his distaste of takumi. BUT, he is also very calculating... so, sabotage isn't out of the question.

who even is this new sponsor?!? they give off eito vibes imo... saying they want to ~play~ with takumi.

fuck, nothing makes sense, so i don't make sense either!!!

at least we have nozomi, and kamyuhn.. and our girlfriend tsubasa and her girlfriend darumi and our cuckold yugamu

eito, i miss you so bad. i'm hallucinating that you're everywhere ;~;

so takumi has eito INSIDE him

darumi has hiruko INSIDE her

tsubasa sucked up took on half of takumi's sins.. so i guess eitos inside her too (i know what tsubasa did is figurative, just being silly)

nozomi has eva INSIDE her

poor yugamu is just BEGGING takumi to let him hit, but only gets denied.... yugamu really gets the short end of the stick in this situationship.

i hope theres a branch where yugamu and takumi are just a ruthless duo plzplzplz

still... thinking about how shion is in danger.

and is v'ehxness behind the invader hunt? it doesn't seem very possible... but, she wanted the SDU to be stronger for her to fight...

but it was the first sponsor who seemed so excited over us hunting and batting, the current sponsor is more.. flimsy? the second sponsor led us to an enemy base to wipe out (nearly) the last of the invaders...

the third party (and fourth, sponsor 1 and sponsor 2 respectively), must have a motive that involves v'ehxness someHOW.. whether to aid her hopes of stronger warriors to fight, or to crush her army... i cannot tell....

they really packed in all the fast pace, confusing twists in the killing game route,,, my brain cant take all this in one day! i need my answers, but my brain doesnt want to take it aaaaa

time for a honk shoo mimimi

[aceclipse]

stargaze

author's note/rambles: this is meant to be read in andreas' pov btw! anyways this is the first thing i've wrote something like this so i hope it doesnt sound bad.. idk though lmao i dont really write as much as i used to so this should be a fresh (re)start

warnings: brief mentions of drugs

it's been a long time. a long time since i've felt whole.

nothing feels the same anymore. it never has to begin with. i'm in prison again and sandra died without me knowing a single thing about it. i've always been so lost, but now it's like i hit a dead end on everything. there's nothing much left for me other than to wait. wait until it's all over. wait until i get out of my cell, do some new shit, the usual. but it'll never be the same.

for the first time in a long time, i regret thinking so much i couldn't even keep up with them. i'm losing the will to live every day. and yet there's something in my head that won't leave me. i keep thinking about the night i looked up to the stars with her, my sandra....

[1996, summer]

"..well fuck. these strings can only last for a while. i'll just try to rearrange the drums until i get my guitar fixed. i haven't had much time to do my shit anyways. got schoolwork to catch up on, i have to submit a reaction paper on that documentary about that heroin addict. dad's telling me to change the wording on one of the questions there, but i don't want to lie about being a drug-less sick fuck. and i was told my friends were stargazing tonight. apparently the stars have been shining brighter than usual for some reason. whatever. i don't have the time for this. i can't waste time on worthless shit. i've already used up too much of it on... okay, maybe i do have time, but only for now. i don't need to work with people to make albums or something. but maybe..

hm? i think i just heard sandra call me to join her with our friends. this better be quick. i'm finally outside and ready to enjoy the view, i guess. i'm glad i have people like her though. it's comforting that i'm not the only one who's sick in this small town. ...everything feels nicer here, actually. the trees always strike me with a sense of longing for the old times, back when dark ruled the rule. looking back, the church near my house against the night sky could as well be an album cover. and it already is! i'm glad i could enjoy this at least. i was already kinda out of ideas in the first place... sandra's already there and waiting for me. she noticed i was enjoying myself with the view a lot so she just let me do whatever.

so now i'm with my gang, finally. it's getting a bit dark outside because of how late we are, but the lights from above are so bright and gentle... wait. why do i feel so giddy about some white dots on a void? why am i here, lying on the grass, and doing nothing but stare to the star with others? why do i actually want to enjoy something like this? my guitar's broken and i got school shit to do, but i don't care as long as i can spend time with myself. like i've said, i don't need someone else to do what i love, learned my lesson after that fuckup with my friends' band.

but is it okay if i want to stay like this? i also don't want to be like anyone else, i fucking hate the thought of being a poser. love is a nigh-alien feeling to anyone fully immersed in the scene. i was lost beneath my thoughts, thinking and thinking about everything going on around me. i forgot i was meant to be a son of pure darkness and hatred. i got so lost, so lost thinking about all of this that i forgot about everything else, until i felt sandra's hands tapping on my shoulder.

"is everything okay, andi?"

..."

i can't remember the rest.

i never realized how much being with someone made me feel so... warm? i'm not sure, it's been too long. i felt more than happy to be with her, under the summer sky at night, gazing at the sparkling stars above us. i guess drugs make me happy, they always had for me, but this one felt so long-lasting and warm...and... i don't know anymore. i'm not sure this is the sort of life i want. i mean, what the fuck do i even have to do when i'm out of this dingy prison? just make music by myself and hope it works out?

i've liked being alone for as long as i remember, and yet being with others in a place like that made me happier then before back then.. i wonder what i should do about this. i should get back into thinking about my future again. i can't stay being lonely for too long, but i can't go back to that point. i haven't seen them in a long time anyway. there's no way i can do that again, let alone like this. there's nothing more for me than to either get out and make ugly music or rot in this hell called prison.

i'll keep doing this shit for as long as i can. but i'm not sure if i can do it alone all the time. whatever, i'll forget about it all tomorrow, so what's the point? i'll just go back to bed, it's late in the night. i won't care about it soon and i won't ever feen whole since then.

i'm not sure if i ever felt whole in the first place.

[chocottang]

heyyys hope this isnt an awkward ask but, since you like cami a very normal amount i presume, i thought i'd ask... do you maybe understand or have any interpretations or headcanons about cami and her shadow and how they manage to coexist in the same body together?

(e.g.: is cami always her shadow? do you think she see it and interact with it like fred? how come she has more control over it than other characters but still not enough? etc.)

overall just your personal thoughts about it just because i think that was never really explained in the show and i would love to see what someone who has such a complex and interesting understanding of her backstory thinks about it ! hope this isnt weird to ask hnhnfnfng

hey! not weird or awkward at all, i love getting asks! and thanks for the nice comments u///u

i put a read more just in case it's too long

like you said, cami's shadow wasn't explored a lot in the show, we only got two frames to be exact.

i'm going to call her shadow tat

i already talked about the first frame in the analysis: i think tat came out as a result of cami's realization that she's not alone, that eak and t-trap have been with her all along. tat was probably triggered by the uncommon influx of overwhelming emotions. her purporse seems to be to keep the body going as normal, since the only thing that we see of cami after this is a frame where she looks the same. we don't know if it's cami or tat in z3r0 but she's also acting the same.

about the second frame, it's interesting in the context of the song, because tat seems to be reaching for something while the lyrics talk about finding a way out. after the song, tat takes over the body, so maybe it was alluding to the way out of the shadow world. but, the frame also goes together with this one in an interesting way.

this frame is actually supposed to go with the one of ttrap reaching for cami when they were kids, cami only reaching out now. but, it could go with both of them. cami is both reaching towards ttrap and tat. meaning, she wasn't taken over by her, but rather, she let tat take control. it may be alluding to cami letting her most repressed emotions take over again, accepting them. nevertheless, we know shadows are sentient beings, not just metaphors, so this leads me to think that:

1. even though cami was met with a pretty strong realization after eavesdropping eak and ttrap, she didn't want to actively change anything about her life. at least not yet.

2. cami and tat have at least met before for cami to willingly give her control. besides, they don't look even mildly surprised about what's happening. only on the second frame does tat look different and it doesnt strike me as surprised, but rather like she's just reaching hard.

which brings me to this question: how does cami have powers? a little out of nowhere, but bare with me.

cami and owynn have powers of some sort that are connected to the shadow world, they can make someone's shadow come out and cami can make someone into a mindless zombie.

we've seen that shadows have some sort of power. gold could turn people into mindless zombies (or maybe he was just retransmitting cami's power?), shadow fox had some sort of fire (or maybe he was the fire?) and fred was able to...explode...and make a group of people forget the last year of their lives.

in z3r0, we learn that when humans and shadows fuse, they gain powers that can debilitate shadows.

this makes me think that cami and owynn's powers are nothing more than their shadow's powers. i don't think its a fusion, since those powers seem to be specifically for debilitating shadows, the opposite of what owynn and cami do. in the case of cami, her powers may be just her shadow coming out, since we dont see her eyes very often. but im very sure that the one time owynn used his powers on that one piano, it was himself. so, there exists a way for a human to borrow their shadow's power. meaning, they have to have a relationahip with them in some way. do they make a deal? do they force them? i dont know. but based on the little we see of tat, it seems that at least her and cami are in good terms.

i don't think it's in the level of fred and freddy though, as i believe most shadows are confined to the shadow world unless they take over the human's body. fred is an exception, a very special boy. but i don't think it's necessary to have a ghost form in order to form a bond with a human. the villains seem to know quite a bit about the shadow world, so maybe they found a way to access it on command so they can regularly talk to their shadow and make sure they access its powers.

so, i think cami and tat are in good terms, and cami visits her regularly in the shadow world. whether it be for accessing her power or to talk about what tat has done outside with the power. since the powers are used to serve the villains, tat has to know about the plan and is on board with everything, and since cami has always been aware of what's happened regarding the plan, it means tat is always telling her what she's done (if she's the one using the powers). they really trust each other and are on the same page. at some point, they had an agreement that when cami has to deal with strong emotions, tat will go out. this may be so cami can escape the situation so she doesn't have to deal with her feelings, while tat keeps normalcy. also, so they can be a productive peon for owynn regardless of the situation. so, they have open communication and willingly give control of the body over to the other one, the frequency of this depending on if tat is responsible for all magic acts or if she only goes out on dire ocassions.

the fact that she has more control over her shadow than most characters may be because she simply has more of a relationship with her. or, perhaps the control she attempts to have over her own feelings manifests in a docile shadow, easily controlled. I don't think tat has the same cold personality as cami, but rather she pretends to. i think, in reality, she houses cami's deepest and most repressed feelings, and tat pretends that she doesnt have them so cami won't get mad at her. she does it and agrees on everything cami wants to do so she continues visiting her. even shadows can get lonely, especially in the black endless nothing of the shadow world.

uhh i think that's all i have. its mostly dumb theorizing. thanks for the ask!!! it was really fun to think about. i do like cami a very normal amount <3

[bubblesthetherapyfish]

ermmmm babygirl time

i like that you can just say no and walk away

whoa it's clive's dad

pls wol only you can save my oc

what if we were stars in the sky and then we touched each other and then asploded 😳

it's RAINING SO MUCH

i waited a bit and it's gone 👍🏾

I HAVE THE BITCH IN MY SIGHTS IM READY TO FIRE

ermmm that's not ffxiv music

damn even noctis didn't land in here face first

"who are these slightly low poly people"

clive sees a brown person for the first time in his entire life

brother you look so wet

wol seeing all the visible pixels on clive's glove "whoau just like graha"

my son crump he has every disease (and even amnesia)

i can't tell if they nerfed his tits or not

huh it's really hard to see unless he's really zoomed in but his head is wiggling a tiny bit in his idle

also this is probably the first time i'm realizing how the front of his shirt works

okay maybe i shouldn't zoom in like this cause his face has realistic texture to it but his neck and cleavage are just flat colors this is throwing me off 😭

bro's got a double dose of being fucked up with not even being able to tell he's in Another World

yeah those were racist money people and these are racist tree people

YAY I CAN TAKE HIM SHOPPING NOW

why is his idle crossed arms now 😭

ambrosia 🥺🥺🥺

sir please don't break the aetheryte i need that for my gc turn-ins

don't worry our mothercrystal is long gone i don't cry about it or anything like that

IT'S RAINING IRL

clive im so scared of thunder you have to hold m

he likes gridania 👉🏾👈🏾

clive: GARUDA YOU SAY 👀👀👀🔪🗡️🔪🔪🔪🗡️🔪

that's right i outrank all you bitches i do those fucking turn-ins 💪🏾💪🏾💪🏾

i wonder if kan-e-senna is just gonna take one look at clive and be like 👉🏾 different world

oh thank god we get to hear something other than the same fucking song for the lotus stand every single time

wait does he not even remember his last name :(

of course not-yoshi-p is already on to it

also who let you in???????????

yeah we had one of those visitors a couple weeks ago that was funny

my kitty is getting scared of the thunder too now :(((

oh there we go

this is so sad alexa play trauma from ghost trick

imagine putting the most hugged ff protagonist in this game and not letting me hug him in cutscenes

okay before we kill stuff im gonna get a biscuit to eat i hope the lightning doesnt strike me down on the way to the kitchen

brother it is raining so fucking hard

okay i OH FUCK THE POWER

CLIVE DON'T LEAVE ME

i think we're good?

this song...

hey i remember this place!!! all the guys i worked with are fucking dead now .

"that's weird dog"

THERE'S MY FUCKED UP DOGGY

ffxvi ifrit makes ffxiv ifrit look like a stupid little bitch

poweredpoint

IFRIT FIGHT IFRIT FIGHT

wol watching this go down: 🧍🏾‍♂️

OUPPY

yeah that was fucked up......

follow the ouppy

world's first follow the npc mission where the npc speed is the same as your own

ARE YOU TELLING ME TO PLAY FFXVI

GIVE ME A PS5 THEN

my wol just fucking BLINKS

"sure i guess ill fucking buy a ps5"

mr wandering minstrel you have so many specific skills

time to blow 400k mgp

i feel very sad

can't tell if that questline was short or just felt that way?

i really liked the boss and the sheer power and raw ego that being able to stand in aoes can give a guy

i don't want to go back to my world of nobody having a chance to recover from trauma and horrible things happening to them please come back my blowjob brother

[holmsister]

"Don't tell me he's still not sleeping."

Marcille shrugs sadly.

"He is so scared of missing the moment she wakes. I can't blame him too much--" she breaks into a big yawn, "last time she was with us it was for less than 24 hours. I understand. But i am certain it will take at least another day for her to wake, and I need a bath, so i'm giving up for today."

Kabru peeks behind her, in the room where he knows Laios is waiting by his sister's bedside.

Marcille smiles weakly.

"You're welcome to keep trying. He'd be happy to see you either way."

Marcille is right. Laios' tone is happy when he bids Kabru to enter.

Kabru went to procure a bottle of wine, some sort of sweet, aromatic thing they make here. Nothing too fancy.

Laios is turned towards Falin again when he enters, so he grabs a chair and moves it to Laios' side. He sits down, pours a glass for himself and one he passes to Laios, who receives it mechanically.

Laios is struggling to keep his eyes open, as if he's afraid Falin will open hers the moment he closes his.

Falin looks unchanged, laying on her back, peaceful, her short hair haloing her head. There's colour on her face and she is breathing quietly. There's no sign of distress or pain. She's just sleeping.

Marcille says she's recuperating, that after such a long death and a painful resurrection it's normal that she would need more time. She has even made some calculations. At least three days, she said, up to seven. She won't worry until it starts going into the double digits, she said.

She is *still* worrying, of course, still minutely feeding Falin mana through holding her hand even when her own mana is getting depleted, sleeping no more than a few hours in a row on a chair in this same room.

But she has also started to exit the room sometimes, take her meals with everyone else, if nothing else to give people updates.

Laios hasn't moved from that chair he's on except to go to the bathroom. It's kind of creepy, seeing him, usually so mobile and easily bored, sitting down with such focus and intent for hours on end - staring at Falin as if he could will her to wake up with his mind.

Kabru doesnt say anything. He observes Laios' face in profile. As happy and full of hope he looked during the feast, now he looks again like he did in the last few hours in the dungeon, uncertain, worried. And it's not his new kingdom that worries him.

None of this - the conquest of the dungeon, the crown of Melini - none of this will mean anything to him if Falin doesn't wake up.

Kabru turns to her again. Not a movement besides the quiet coming and going of her breath - not even the fluttering of eyes that indicates dreaming. Her resemblance to her brother is striking.

There are so many things to do, to decide, to organise, so many people to meet. But Falin sleeps, so Laios waits. Kabru meant to convince him to start moving, maybe, but now that he's here, his eyes going from one sibling to another, appreciating all the subtle ways in which their faces are identical and different, he finds it feels unfair to rip Laios away. In a very real way, none of them would be here without Laios, and Laios would not be here without Falin. They have earned this moment.

So instead he sips on his wine, thoughtful, and says, "Why don't you close your eyes for a moment, Laios? I'll wake you if there's movement."

Laios turns to him, slightly surprised. His eyes are heavy, dark. He did sip on the wine a little - Kabru was right that it would be to his taste.

"I, ah. I know I'm being- unreasonable."

"She's your sister." Kabru takes another sip, pondering what to say next. "And I think... you feel responsible for her fate as much as Marcille does."

"I am. Responsible for her fate." Laios' fingers tighten around the cup. "She... the last time... when we..."

Kabru looks at him. He's never heard Laios so broken. Like there's something heavy and scratchy in his throat that he cannot dislodge.

"I killed her. With my own hands." Ah. That's what that was.

Kabru grabs his hand and squeezes it.

"So you could resuscitate her."

"I killed her! My *sister*, Kabru! My baby sister- who- who does that. Who offers himself to do that, who-"

He lets go of Kabru's hand to cover his face, trying to take back some control. He slams back the rest of the wine.

"Who offers himself to do that? Someone who is willing to do whatever it takes," Kabru says measuredly.

"It will work, Laios," he adds.

Laios laughs, his nerves fraught. "You can't know that."

"I cannot, yeah. But I'm very good at lying."

Laios turns towards him, surprise in his face.

"It will work. She will wake up in a day or two," Kabru says, quietly confident. "She will be fine. She won't remember any of the horrible things that happened to her - that *were done* to her. She will only know you as the brother she loves and who loves her. And you are going to slowly forget, as well, as you watch her live a happy life, as you build a beautiful home for the two of you, how it was to be so desperate, so full of guilt. In the end, you will only remember the joy of having her back, and it will make everything worth it. There's nothing to worry about, so sleep for a little, ok? I'll stay here and warn you if something changes."

Laios' face has gone from surprise to something akin to relax, almost a smile, although always weighted down by his own exhaustion and worry.

"Are you sure?"

Kabru winks and grins. "One hundred percent."

Laios places the wine on the floor and pulls up the blanket that was just on his legs.

"Alright," he says.

He closes his eyes. He's so tired that Kabru hears his light snoozes not a few minutes after.

He turns to Falin again. No movement.

Sigh, he thinks. I should've brought a book.

how often do u think kabru visited laios while he was waiting for falin to wake up. with as many times as he emerged literally from a random bush to talk to laios before the feast i cant imagine him leaving him be during such a hard time, even if others were caring for him too, not when kabru finally, finally got to call him friend and ate 7 days worth of dragon meat for him thats an unbreakable bond . senshi remarks on his journal how laios basically collapsed as soon as she was up again bc he was barely eating or sleeping. do u think kabru ever brought him a nightcap to get him to bed bc he knows what thats like? kabru already knew he was sticking by his king by then, no matter what, so how many times a day did he come see him then?

[laesas]

For the fanfic as game:

💖 What do you like most about your own writing?

🖊 Post a snippet from a current WIP

🌝 Who is one character you haven’t yet written for that you would like to?

Thank you!!!!! I keep getting over excited and writing so much more than I mean to so in the interest of not taking over an entire dashboard! TINY answers here; Long answers and snippet under the cut :)

💖 What do you like most about your own writing?

I think I'm getting good at consistent use of imagery for characters that layers and carries across a fic! It's expecially nice to do for Kim or Chay POV (my little songwriter duo) who I imagine have a very good sense for those kinds of pretty descriptions and metaphors and use them in their heads!

🌝 Who is one character you haven’t yet written for that you would like to?

Ken my bestie Ken. Manwhore Manipiulate Manslaughter 🥰 - He terrifies me to write though!! (also Chan - answered here)

🖊 Post a snippet from a current WIP

I'm reworking my entire KimBig kiss from the beginning (again.) but this time I really like it, so there's a snippet of that under the cut! :)

✨📝 Writers Ask Game 📝✨

💌Send me one here!💌

Long answer time hehe!

💖 What do you like most about your own writing?

I really love consistent use of imagery in fics, especially ones that feed into eachother and build on top of eachother across several scenes. I'm definitely not perfect at it but it's one of the things that I'm really proud of in the KimBig story! (For context, they're both processing the fact that Kinn was kidnapped and shot and almost died)

Kim and Big are both heavily represented by fire, so lots of sparks and smoke and burning etc. and the warmth vs the volitility. I hoped by making the imagery consistent I'd give the sense of them desperately seeking warmth but also destroying themselves in the process. It gets referred to as "a mutual immolation" at one point, which I think sums the fic up pretty well!

By contrast, Kinn's metaphors are very cold and water based. In the beginning for example, there hasn't been any rain in Bangkok since Kinn left, but by the end when Kim has processed that Kinn is safe, it's raining outside.

For the layering; In the aftermath, Kim refers to his grief surrounding Kinn with this imagery of standing on a shoreline waiting for a tsunami to hit. So where Kim and Big come together and create a little fire, all of Kim and Big's feelings surrounding Kinn gets represented by this huge inevitable force of water that completely extinguishes what little warmth Kim and Big have sought out.

IDK probably a horrible explaination and I swear it's much more subtle in the fic haha! I dont want to be too self congratulatory about it because I am aware that that style of writing isn't for everyone and it's also a fic for such a ridiculous rare-pair that literally 6 people max are going to read. BUT in the interest of self-indulgent explorations of metaphor.... it's fun and I'm kinda proud of it hehe

🌝 Who is one character you haven’t yet written for that you would like to?

I answered Chan here (for so many reasons!) but I have spent the last several months WISHING I understood Ken well enough to write him!

He's just such a mix of things I struggle with as a writer - He's incredibly direct (to the point of cruelty) and I imagine it's similiar in his inner world as well, which takes a lot of my beloved imagery and metaphorical speak off the table. Plus he doesnt strike me as someone that's particularly introspective or self aware. If someone calls him out on something, he's much more likely to respond by lashing out than he is to absorb any kind of reasonable criticism or change his behaviour.

Paired with Big (and he *wILL* be paired with Big) there are just so many ways that those dynamics could play off eachother. I feel like putting them in a scene together would be a case of the characters very much controlling the scene and not me and I LOVE to plan a scene haha!

I do imagine Ken has a bit of a superiority complex though, which WOULD be incredibly fun to write. Especially as it feeds into how he became the traitor! He's finally being appreciated as something more than one of Kinn's loyal dogs! (Read: he's Vegas' dog now) If Big doesnt want him then he doesnt care! that doesnt matter because Vegas wants him! (Read: Vegas is manipulating him, Ken is lying to himself)

I literally love him so so much but writing him TERRIFIES me!!

🖊 Post a snippet from a current WIP

I'm currently completely re-working the KimBig kiss! once I'm done with that it's just........... betas and posting??? aah!?

Big's hand feels like static where it rests at his back. He stays still, he leans up, he goes where Kim guides him, but he’s almost sickeningly pliant, the only indication he’s affected at all is the uneven hitch in his breath as he kisses Kim back, meeting his mouth with a gentleness that’s almost cruel. His lips are soft but the sparks aren’t catching fast enough and all Kim wants is to be consumed. It’s not enough. It occurs to Kim that this, all of this, is a terrible idea. The thought, once distant and impassive, now spreads in ice-shard splinters across his skin. They should stop. Kim should stop.  Kim should let him leave. But that thought is worse. It constricts in his lungs and warps his vision in a rush of vertigo. ‘Please,’ Kim thinks. His desperation beats in time with the pounding of blood in his ears. ‘Please. please. please. please.’  He doesn’t think he says it out loud but he must have done something, whispered something, thought it loud enough that Big could hear; because suddenly there’s a shift. There’s a sharp intake of breath, the sensation of Big's fingers curling into a fist through the fabric of his t-shirt, then Big is taking his bottom lip between his teeth and Kim’s thoughts finally, finally go up in smoke.

I love a ramble! So sorry these got so long haha!! but thank you so so much for asking ily!! 😊🌸🥰💕

[hongjoongpresent]

pls talk about all your favourite things in heavenly blade

Lol thats ok

Tbh I might just answer my own questions

@insomniac-jay and @unusualshrimp all the answers are here both the ones you did and did not ask for hope this helps

1. Favorite speed combo?

K so I will be adding how to do the combo but I don't feel like typing it out every time so

S = square

T = triangle

K cool

ANGEL'S CROP!!! (Sttss) This combo is so very satisfying. Just a shame you only unlock it pretty late into the game but literally from the moment I get it I don't use a single other speed combo. Except maybe once in a blue moon if I feel silly and decide to use angel's harvest (sttst) instead, but they're really similar so my point still stands

Even besides these 2 combos, in my opinion the only speed combos worth using are ones that start with square triangle triangle. They're the prettiest and most satisfying

2. Favorite power combo?

I only ever use two (2) heavy combos because there's literally only two power combos that are actually worth using, considering how slow power stance is you don't really wanna spend too long doing a combo that isn't worth it in the end

The only 2 power combos I use are laughing devil (hold r1 ttst) (tip: if you use laughing devil against whiptail while she's down the last hit will hit and stunlock her even when she already got up. I've tried multiple combos against her and this is the best one to open with while she's down). Mainly use this one against the heavy guys with the axes

The other one is striking hell (hold r1 ttss), this one is really effective when theres a large group of enemies with shields/helmets since I've found speed stance block breakers don't Always work against them?? Idk why, so I prefer using power stance and this one is really good for multiple enemies

3. Favorite aerial combo?

Probably falling blossom (go into aerial combo mode, then stt hold r1 ss)

It's the last one you unlock and when you do unlock it it's the strongest, and for aerial combos it doesnt matter that it takes longer so it's the only one that really is worth using after you unlock it

4. Favorite level with Nariko?

Can I just say the entirety of chapter 4 it's my most replayed chapter for SURE. If I have to choose one specific level though,, I'd probably say on silent wings, because I find ninja enemies the most satisfying enemies to fight.. Idk why. Yes even when I fail my counterattack for the 10075th time. Idk I just really love fast attacks I love when I can use speed stance against guys

5. Least favorite level with Nariko?

I won't count boss fights,, otherwise it'd be to kill a fox, lol. But tbh, all nariko Levels are fine really because her playstyle is very fun. But I would probably say both dawn siege and bohan's army, simply because you don't get to actually fight with her in it. I've never cared much for shooting the cannon.

6. Favorite level with Kai?

Shen's escape. Literally the only correct answer to this question. I fucking love sniping I love being a sniper I love it when Kai plays as a sniper. Next question

7. Least favorite level with Kai?

Hoooo boy. Fucking. PLAYTIME. There's only 2 little redeemable things about playtime and thats (1) the music and (2) the fact that for the last wave of enemies, you can run past them into the door they just came out of and jump over the barricade and then they cant follow you its really stupid and doesnt make any sense but it is funny. I'm currently replaying this game and I can't believe I just got all 3 glyphs in this level it's a miracle

8, 9, and 10 I already answered here but I do want to add one of the most boring things about whiptail's boss fight is that you always get all the glyphs because of how easy breaking her waves is. The most fun I have in this game is when I have to really struggle to get all the glyphs and the fight with whiptail fully trivializes it, it's really lame

[survivorkomnata]

Episode #10: “ I'm a fucking Virgo. If you burn me I will never forget it.” - Jess

Dear Alyssa,

For someone who claims to have a HUGE interest in Astrology.... you seem to have forgotten the fact that I'm a fucking Virgo. If you burn me I will never forget it. You declared war and that's on YOU.

i hate this “we only start talking an hour before tribal” nonsense that this merge tribe has going on. like pls get your lives together sooner. i don’t even message ppl anymore bc we just do the “yaaa i haven’t heard anything” “me either” back and forth

i feel pretty hopeless in the game i’m ngl, fully think we should just wrap it up now and give zach the win

alyssa is an emotional and illogical player who came into the merge with the goal of miguel and luke being voted out for voting against her premerge. she didn’t think of the long term, only revenge. it’s embarrassing.

i don’t rly have an endgame path. or anything anymore. i miss luke and stephen.

So, yesterday was a bit of blindside for me. Not even really because Luke left, I woke up that morning willing to vote him out myself, but because I was unable to get Karth, Tim, or Alyssa on my side. I don't think any of them are truly "against me" at this point but it's a little worrying that Luke left over Jake, who I still don't really have a strategic relationship with.

Alyssa confronted me last night saying that other people had gone to her and said that I was planning to target her once Jake was gone. This isn't exactly true, but it has enough basis in reality since I have talked in the "4-elements" alliance about how we should target Jake before going after Alyssa. I'm not sure who went to her with this idea, nor do I know if she was even approached with it in the first place. Alyssa has deceived me for 2 votes now. First, she outright lied to me about voting Zach out at F10 (I still don't technically have confirmation of this, but it makes sense that she'd take out Luke/Miguel as soon as possible). More evidence supporting that she lied is that the former Kato2.0 side decided to vote Luke out next, which would be odd if he was the one to flip to their side at the first merge vote.

The second thing she lied about was being on the fence at this last tribal council.  After Luke was gone she told Jess that we "should've known she didn't want Jake out" despite her never saying that to us. It's clear that Alyssa had planned to vote Luke out as soon as she knew this would be a 5-4 vote. But she lied to me about that and wasted my time up until the very last minute.

Basically, what I'm saying is... it's getting exhausting to try and work with her strategically. It's not like Ally/Jess/Karth, who I feel I can talk frankly and honestly with. I want her and Jake gone. Jake hasn't really "wronged" me in anyway, but I can tell him and Alyssa have to at least be a little close so the jury can have both of them. Honestly, I kinda want them both gone more than Zach at this point. I'm doing my best to win this upcoming immunity challenge so people stop going behind my back, but if Zach were to win.. well... I certainly have a few alternatives in mind.

I am feeling a bit stuck in this game. With Zach in the game I feel my game is pretty restricted and I would feel too bad to backstab him. I already felt bad for voting Luke. I just dont know what to do here.

i have no idea what’s happening

zach and karth have reached out to me about potentially trying to reconcile and ofc i’m open to that

i’m kinda worried they’re voting jess out and i hope not bc i love her

i wish i had any kind of idea what i was doing

i wish luke didn’t get voted out

i wish this idol search made sense

i wish i was a little bit taller i wish i was a baller

So apparently Zach and Jake are throwing around Stephen's name with my name as an alternative. I'm not surprised at all at this rate. I figured this would happen as soon as I took my strike at both Zach and Jake.

The only possible saving grace from this all is that both Alyssa and Tim let me know about it. This kind of gives me a glimmer of hope that both of them aren't willing to at least vote me out at this stage in the game. If they'd did.. they'll look like idiots because I'm playing such a horrible game. I have yet to make a big move or win an immunity, I don't have any solid alliances aside from "The Last Hope" which honestly just a circumstantial alliance and most likely we die soon. Taking me at this point is ridiculous because I'm literally the perfect person to sit final 3 with right now.

My game plan at least now is.. I want either Zach or Jake to go. If I can work the angle of Jake or Zach trying to get me out as a way to sway people who think I'm their best friend in this game... yeet. If not I am dead and I will write my own eulogy....

If I get voted out because I lost immunity by 1 point.. I WILL FUCKING RIOT.

Ok so sorry for the lack of confessionals going on I have a lot (of good things) happening in my life atm. Anyways, I got sent to the basement which sux and now the vote is super stressful!!! I'm pretty much pulling a lot of strings within the tribe atm and trying to balance it all! I have Zach and Jake in my pocket completely!! Jake and Alyssa are like on my coat tail and Jess/Stephen/and Ally are in their grave ready to be destroyed lmaoo. Fingers crossed I don't go home.

im vulnerable, and it's an hour til tribal. i'm unsure of what's going to happen. here's a quick recap:

A - i go to ally/stephen to encourage reconciling. i think this is genuinely smart as we are all 'big threats' and it's stupid to let middle players slide by while helping pin bigger threats against one another. they basically end up agreeing (more so stephen). B - alyssa and tim come to me (separately) saying that they are throwing my name around, and tim goes even further to say that they want to split between me / jake. this sounds really believable based on track record. C - ally pms me saying that she heard X told Jess who told her that i'm targeting stephen. i say it's true, but under the circumstances that people are saying they are going after me. D - we talk in the "alliance" chat and come to a conclusion that jake should be the vote as he best fits the "middle player" role, thus being dangerous. though i disagree, i'm in no position to bury karthik/tim in a hole. E - with karthik spearheading, i help flip the vote from stephen to jess. this is because jess will weaken that side, and i don't trust her. at all. on top of that, it helps me not worry as much abt alyssa being sketchy & it keeps my promise 2 stephen/ally in the sense of not voting stephen (and i can argue saying that with them lying at merge, i had to be reaaaalllllyyyy cautious). F - i'm unsure about my idol. it could still happen. right now i'm leaning towards playing my idol because i want it GONE. by using this idol, here are the outcomes: F.1 - the vote is 4-4 or even more slanted, and i idol successfully, meaning jess will leave this game. F.2 - i receive 0 votes and completely waste it. this makes me more vulnerable, but also, could help if i utilize it correctly/effectively. F.3 - I receive 3 votes (give or take) and it's ineffective but shows that i can't trust ally/stephen and by attachment, jess (who should be gone). i guess my preferred order would be F1 -> F3 -> F2 just because if i use it, i want it to be as effective as possible since wasting an idol isn't going to help my case at FTC (which is already weak LSDGKDSLGDSH).

my gut is really sick (as always bar f9.. so just f10). i don't THINK i'm getting any votes, but u can never be too sure. to elaborate on the entire point of 'F', i want to go over pros n cons of idolling (and wasting it). PROS: - no more paranoia for me (GOD BLESS) - i'm much more vulnerable, meaning they may not target me (double-sided) - im 100% safe regardless, and in f7. CONS: - im more vulnerable; easier to target. - ppl are shook bc i dont trust them/ didnt tell them - its wasted and doesnt help my FTC case.

and lastly, who has the idols? [based on tribe idols] CONFIRMED: me . (OG Takagi idol) LIKELY: alyssa (the only person who could have two) COULD POSSIBLY HAVE ONE: stephen (someone probs has attila, i think itd be him or alyssa). karthik (basement king, but def not tribal idol probs .) jake (og kato, could have the kato idol). NOT LIKELY: tim (og takagi/nu-kato. both idols were gone, so i doubt it. but, maybe basement??) jess (unless she worked w alissa n found attalia, it's no) DEFINITELY NOT: ally (was on OG Takagi (my idol) and takagi post-swap, so unless swap idol, N/A).

Jess is voted out 5-3. She becomes the fourth member of our jury.