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Prompt #24: Bar
A man with golden eyes watched him from the shadows. Silvaineaux could feel his presence as much as he could see him, a dark shape pacing slowly around him. They paced around each other for a moment, circling like a pair of unfriendly cats, or like a pair of hawks with their eyes fixed on the same prey. “Who are you to bar my way?” The man asked, his voice a low and venomous hiss.
“Who are you at all?” Silvaineaux snarled in return. “Nobody.”
“You wish I were that.”
“I do.”
Another shadow loomed beside him, he was aware of it as he stepped carefully around the other. This one was large, hovering great and square at the edge of his sight until gradually he knew what it was even before he looked at it.
He kept his eyes fixed on his opponent and stepped again.
The man with the golden eyes was gone.
He was in the fine sitting room of a house and now it was books that circled him. They flew around him in a tornado of heavy bindings, their pages filling the air with a sound like a thousand wings. He ducked as the first one flew -at- him. It slammed into his shoulder, then another came and another. Until the shelf seemed to have hurled its entire contents at him. Yet one book remained unmoved in the center of the room. The cloud washed afternoon sun caught in the gilt on its leather cover.
He took a single step toward it. Afternoon light was suddenly the blue of evening, the dust and frost had vanished and every book sat once again in place upon a shelf save that one.
A man came into the room, his movements furtive, hurried. Silvaineaux did not know him and the man moved past him in his unerring path toward the book as if he was not there at all.
And so he merely watched as the man hastily tugged the book open. Silvaineaux recognized it then for a holy book. Yet the man sought no prayers. Instead he looked up hastily toward the doorway by which he’d entered and then drew his knife.
Hastily he worked the blade beneath the fine colored endpapers at the back, working it loose a little at a time. Every few moments he looked up again, not at Silvaineaux who watched him but at the empty doorway.
After several moments the man made a soft sound of satisfaction. He tugged a paper out of his jacket. The sheet was folded once so that Silvaineaux only had the briefest impression of closely packed words showing a little through the paper. The man shoved the paper hastily into the space he’d made under the endpaper, then slammed the book shut.
The sound of it made both of them jump.
The man looked up again at the doorway, but this time there was someone there. He took a hasty step back from the book and then turned toward the door.
A lady stood there.
The lady with her red hair and her enormous blue-grey eyes. This time Silvaineaux thought she was not yet a ghost. And yet.
“There’s someone at the gates.” She said quietly, setting her small hand on the man’s arm.
“Who?” He asked, covering that hand with his.
“I do not know, but I am afraid.”
“I promise you do not need to fear.” He said. “I will not let anything harm you, no matter what it costs me.”
Silvaineaux looked from the man to the book and then back again. The man gently drew away from the lady. “I will go and send them off.” He said.
Silvaineaux watched him leave the room.
When he looked up again the lady was looking at him. She smiled as she caught his eyes.
Silvaineaux jerked awake. It took him just a moment to place the familiar shapes and hues of his own bed hangings. He scrubbed his hands over his face and drew in a heavy breath. The unease of the dream hung over him like a cloud. “I didn’t even drink that much at the bar last night.” He whispered to the empty room, just to break its silence.
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EEEEHEHEHEHEHEHEEE JOY AND WHIMSY REACTIVATED OHHHOHOOO WHIPPIE YAHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!
#catagory 5 autism events happening#I GOT MY DREAM JOB!!!! OFFICE WORK!!!! HURRAY!!!!!!!#plus helluva boss new seasons... im sorry pookies i do enjoy it but i havent posted anything about it because im afraid of the hatred#i got the switch 2 preordered for free by trading in an xbox i didnt use#oblivion is fun! and my baby is cute!! and food is yummy!!#i'm so happy!!!!#also my MIL likes helluva too so i can actually talk about it without my wife's friends shaming me#i think it's neat man. it's horrible but neat at the same time i can have both#yeah its a shit ball of terror and bad rep but it tickles my brain#like danganronpa#im gonna play monster hunter wilds soon and i am possible gonna draw fanart of some stuff soon i need more joy and whimsy
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when I was little I used to play clue with my sister and when I won by being like “okay YOU don’t have the candlestick and I don’t have the candlestick and there are no more cards, so it’s gotta be the candlestick” she would get really mad and tell me I was cheating because I wasn’t supposed to be making assumptions like that and she didn’t understand where I was getting the info from, so I was ruining the game for her
anyways I don’t rly get why people on twt are THAT mad about veilguard spoilers because they do not seem that deep
#dragon age spoilers#dav#da4 spoilers#da4#and my GOD the spoilers are here in the comments too#but like I keep seeing people like ‘I can’t believe they’d just tell us that the blight is organic’#girl the blight’s BEEN organic#‘they said we’re gonna see things about solas’ past!!!!!’#at solas’ house? his house in the fade? where all the dreams and spirits and memories live? groundbreaking#I can see the whole ‘ghilan’nain has been experimenting on darkspawn’ thing as a shock to some people#and I’m not saying you have to read the companion books#but like….. that was established in tevinter nights#a book that’s been out for four years and pretty widely discussed in the fandom#also though the discourse around spoilers for da4 has just been bizarre in general#like idk man I think that BioWare/content creators being like ‘in two weeks there will be spoilers on twt’ is….. decent and reasonable?#and some of the comments are so……. ????#I just don’t think ‘I don’t like spoilers so no one else should be allowed to see them’ is a very hinged take#I saw someone who said that them saying ‘’maybe stay off twt for a minute’#was essentially them telling her that she couldn’t read the news or talk to her family#like WHAT are you talking about#and I think yeah! it is totally your right to not want to see spoilers absolutely 1000% fair#but why are you watching a 22 minute gameplay reveal and expecting it to be entirely context-free???#ESPECIALLY when all the videos have a warning at the beginning about spoilers??#on twt I keep seeing people who are like ‘showing all this stuff about the game in advance is rude to fans and HORRIBLE marketing’#what do you MEEEEAAAAANNNNNNNN
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Kinda obsessed with just lettin him sit here. His high chair.
#snap chats#this IS for helmet but i left that at home so#with spring break around the corner that means im starting to move some stuff back home but i didnt take the lil stand#whats funny is i had a dream where my helmet was just. horribly decayed and weathered#no idea what that implies about my brain but whatever we ball !!!!!#anywya lookiy him. my lil man. im taking him to get a wrap with me#AND MY TUMS MY ANTACIDS i forgot those last time and died so. not fun !!#anyway bye :]
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getting #real on my hockey tumblr sideblog or whatever but, i was raised catholic and i do take from my catholic upbringing the emotional utility of embracing suffering from time to time. life is unbelievably painful and we live in an unspeakably cruel time. my mental health and ability to cope with pain improved astronomically when i learned to accept misery and grief as an inevitability i have to set a place at the table for. when i accepted that i had more time to figure out how to feel joy and compassion without being eaten alive by the shame and horror that comes with experiencing human consciousness. part of the thing, all you can do is figure out how to carry the weight and help other people carry the weight
#to tie it all together i will say: this is much more about the news and life stuff and some absolutely horrific cases at work#but it is maybe 5% that fucking st. louis blues game#god told me in a dream (horrible mushroom trip) that everything is an echo of everything else so that's actually not cringe thanks
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im alive again hooray
#dude i just woke up from like the worst dream ever all i remeber is there was like one more episode of dungeon meshi for some reason and#daisuke from mouthwashing was in it and that was just normal like he wasnt from mw he was just from did#horrible stuff idk how i came up with that one#jello shut up challenge
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i genuinely cannot stay asleep for longer than twenty minutes at a time so i am gonna be weird and introspective instead. evan character analysis. btw no i am not in a crisis or anything i'm just trynna dr house my neuroses. delete that "are you good??" dm right now
#i consider myself like. someone who wants to be creative anyway. so i have a lot going on in my mind all the time. and often i'll feel 'wow#i actually like this!' right? but as soon as i tell someone else about it i realize i HATEE IT and it is BADDD#i cannot take myself seriously enough to actually explain things in a serious way so i like. make it into a silly joke flanderized goofball#thing. but i do have actual serious earnest lore about these things you know. i just consider myself.. Too Cringe#basically swinging wildly between 'PERFECTION IS REAL I JUST NEED TO BE BETTER!!!' and 'haha lolll who even cares like whateverrrrr haha'#but when i am alone with my thoughts and enjoying my daydreams and playing with my tuoys i am so far removed from that dichotomy lol#i can't say i DON'T fall victim to 'ewww cringe' thoughts when i'm alone too but it's unbelievably less severe#i assume this is some presentation of social anxiety. like fear of judgement. but it won't go away no matter how many social anxiety coping#strategies i use. it's become this insanely bad complex i have. like i can make myself talk on the phone. i can make myself exist in crowds.#i can almost never share something i create. or something i enjoy. i can barely even tell people foods i like because i'm worried about them#like. happening to hate that food. a really big problem with this is that someone can go 'omg cool i love this!!' to something i made and i#will usually assume they are actually being sarcastic or lying to spare my feelings. that is my brain's instinctual reaction to praise. and#like there is never any justifiable reason for me to interpret it like this. it genuinely makes me feel insane. i feel nothing but anxiety#when people praise me. i feel anxiety when people criticize me. i feel anxiety when i am sitting there doing nothing..#now as someone who has gone through countless OCD therapy sessions i KNOW the answer is just telling my brain it's wrong and shoving the#thought away. distracting myself and all that. but this is an issue i didn't really notice i had until recently after noticing how fucking#neurotic and insane i am about sharing oc lore lol. looking back this has been a Thing with me for a long time. i would straight up just not#turn in assignments in english class and art class because i'd rather fail than let my teachers see my ~horrible~ art or read my ~terrible~#essays. when i was a kid i would write crappy stories about dragons and dinosaurs and show them off to anyone i could. i'd draw animals#whenever i could and would tape them up on the wall wherever i could lol. i miss that. WHAT made me snap and get neurotic with it........#i know perfection is not a healthy ideal to strive for and i am actually pretty mellow with everything else in my life lol. i never expect#anyone else to be perfect. i try to encourage people to just relax and have fun and chill. but i am not capable of extending that to myself.#it's like i have a brain augment specifically designed for this purpose or something. feels like an entirely different entity than my actual#brain. but tbf i feel like that whenever i feel like. any emotion because the hashtag borderline stuff. and i'm not SURPRISED by this#experience because i've had diagnosable OCD since i was ~8. but idk i guess it's just weird how i can do these things and think a certain#way for so long without even noticing it. but when i become aware of it i still can't stop doing it. i'm just hyperaware of how crazy i am#logically i do know i'm like. more creative than the average person. at least more imaginative. there was a point in my life where i#genuinely considered myself talented. but my mental illness has robbed me of that pride and i am so AAARRERRHHHHJGGGHHHHHHHH..........#i hope i come up with a solution to this in my sleep and it's not just another weird dream where i am publicly humiliated by my teeth#falling out after i fail to conceal the fact that my teeth are falling out and everyone points and laughs
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oh speaking of hw btw. you remember rui’s whole “thank you for giving me the chance to change” thing towards tsukasa….….hw tsukasa being the one to give hw a second chance……idk they’re all convinced they’re hopeless and then this stupid star persuades them enough to join him and ghrdsgfygfndfnshansdngyhgsadfn
#mono’s stuff#hollow ☆ wonderland#listen like. like#tsukasa has the same dream that emu did to make people smile#tsukasa wants to make people smile with emu#tsukasa doesn’t think of her as childish or naive for wanting that#if emu’s a fool then so is he but he wants to do it with her#tsukasa who knows what its like to be burned by what he was pursuing encouraging nene to try#like he’s sure she wants this just as much as he does and he has faith in her ability to find that courage again#and idk idkkk the way he makes rui feel wanted#he likes rui’s’ ideas he wants rui there#rui isn’t obligated to join if he doesn’t want to but god tsukasa genuinely wants him there with the rest of them#rui is wanted….#do you hear me#am i making any sense here#tsukasa who gives some light to these horribly sad kids lives and in turn they love him for it#and when his light dims they don’t think of him any less they just want to help him shine as well#DOES THSI MAKE ANY SENSE
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me when ihave a dream about my 3rh closest friends all beyeaying me 🤯🤯🤯
#vent#duh#it was sostupid too im jjst. an idiot and emotional and i hate being left out and everyoneknows that wnd that dream has genunlu runed my day#woke up sobbing oops!and in that drupid thing everyome was like get over it itsnkt a big deal like ok sorry. sorry sorrywjqyever#amd none of themare here rigjt now and i miss them all so much and its not fair because ik they wuld never just abandon me for eahc otherbut#everytime i introduce my feiends to each other its like oh duh juli they like each other more! what did u expect! and im the stupidone for#feeling upset at being left out asthey go on witjout me and its like ok talk witjoug me whatever idc but. reallh. really#i was gonan wake up early and do all this stuff but i dont wang to get up anymote im so tired already i feel horrible#idec ab the otjer ppl calling me atupid and emotional or whatever buf ughj b#on the other hand in that dream i did a one pull and got childe twice excepf there were 2 versions of him for some reason???#like u could be childe OR tartaglia ?! idek what fhe difference was one jusg looked younger#erm. anwyay ☺️#post#maes tag#to delete#actually idk if fheyre aroun d rn im kind of too scared to do anything relagimg to them bc what if my nightmare was True!#(def wasnt)
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starr is like is anybody else gonna manipulate this autistic teenage girl who is obsessed with being likeable and famous and Doesnt wait for an answer
#ALL THINGS CONSIDERED starr is actually not that horrible to bubblegum#he isn't really interested in her at all and mostly finds her annoying#only EVER interested when it involves bubblegum asking him to help in getting popular or boosting his confidence in some other way#he isn't super into interacting with kids generally and bubblegum is just too immature for him#like an annoying younger sister he has to be polite to bcuz family#Except more complicated. he does like her though. i think#he's more protective of building block bcuz i think he sees a lot of who he couldve been in her weirdly enough#which i guess is because she's a baby and easier to project his own hopes and dreams onto#the childhood he never got to have#plus she doesnt talk which is a bonus#starr is always trying to get her interested in science and stuff its kinda cute#i specifically made bubblegum NOT be a fangirl of starr bcuz the dynamic between them would be too unbalenced and toxic#starr would have manipulated and abused bubblegum for her fame and ego#its also much funnier that bubblegum only cares about starr in terms of their proximity to fame and hollywood#and starr is uninterested bcuz unless bubblegum thinks He specifically is cool and important there isnt any reason to talk to her#txt#object ocs
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There's no feeling stranger than knowing that something is bad but liking it anyways. Not in a 'it's so bad it's good' way. Because that implies that it has become good. I'm talking like this thing is just kinda bad in the normal ways things are bad, but i like it anyways.
#honestly I'm talking about Batgirls rn#because like...it has its moments but I wouldn't call it good. it even has some of my own personal pet peeves#specifically the overabundance of narration boxes that aren't from a character and rather the author is speaking to us.#if I wanted an overabundance Authors Notes I would read fucking early 2000s fanfics#and Babsgirl existing but I've made peace with the fact that we'll only get an Oracle story in a Black Label or similar thing at this point#I love the art and it has among my favorite designs for both Spoiler and Black Bat#don't get me STARTED on the covers holy fuck. the 90s rewind in particular lives in my head rent free because ajlkdfjdsalk;fjdlsa;kf#it also has both moments of REALLY FUCKING BAD characterization and REALLY FUCKING GOOD characterization#Cass being like 'ok but do we HAVE to save Seer?' horrible! demonstrates an egregious misunderstanding of her. what the hell?#Steph being abnormally good at solving the Riddler's puzzles and knowing basically every cipher because of Arthur? then getting incredibly#upset at even the MENTION of him to the point that she gets fucking stabbed by the RIDDLER of all people?#wow thanks for actually addressing a very interesting part of Steph's character that is often left by the wayside. good job.#issue 14 is amazing and it makes me want to implode every time I read it. like I actually recommend it without any caveats attached#it is straight up good. it's the high-point of Batgirls and it's not even close imo.#and wow! there is almost no dialogue and NO NARRATION BOXES??#it's almost like the whole appeal of comics is telling incredible stories through art or something. and that when you have good art#and good art direction you should just fucking let it speak for itself or something#and that maybe using what words you DO have to let your CHARACTERS speak in a way they normally wouldn't is a good idea#even if the in universe reason is that Steph is basically leaving this note as a 'I am either dead or close to it' type of thing#like holy fuck how did they do that?? AND SO LATE IN THE GAME THAT NOBODY FUCKING TALKS ABOUT IT??#and obviously there is a conversation to be had about 'was Batgirls queerbaiting' but honestly since it was cancelled IDK#I could see a universe where given time it could have made a natural shift to a love story between Steph and Cass#I'm not upset about it but I get why other people might be. there are some panels that like...come on.#and as always I am most fascinated by missed potential. because Batgirls showed that it COULD be good with Issue 14#and arguably other of the better issues. the art was incredible and as the issues went on it felt like the kinks were getting ironed out#plus getting a series focused on 3 of my favorite characters was a dream come true for me. ESPECIALLY because we rarely get good#stuff for Cass and Steph.
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Me watching Q's stream:

#I mean I feel kinda bad#bc doxxing is genuinely horrible and very scary#but I struggle to feel much sympathy when he did /nothing/ abt dream & his stans#+ I know a few creators have been harassed and doxxed on his own server and he never said shit#my stuff#*I know as in I know they've been harrassed but I'm not sure about doxxing but usually one thing leads to another#also lea#and the rest of the outspoken ex qsmp workers#like????#not even some 'hey don't spread doxxed info in general'#just 'don't spread my information#don't justify spreading this type of info'#meanwhile absolutr silence with everyone else#also 'this is the first time being the face of a project like this'#oh really? do you feel some more sympathy to a certain someone now?
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important things: just dreamt about heather chandler and veronica making out. while switching perspectives. that was an experience.
#original post#this might as well happen#its better than the other stuff#dreamt about my ex + being terrified for a flight because i hadnt packed#traveling in the woods while this guy’s eye got swollen plus just. had a twig in it for forever#being part of a god assembly……. while in a library? i was looking for the other cruel prince books. devastating#also two of the gods had some weiiiiird flirty shit going on. good luck to them#also broke into a high school to observe their production of aladdin. it was actually really fucking good#however my mom then went why tf arent you heading for the airport and i went oh shit!!!#also dreamed about the most HORRIBLE roads to drive on. they went upside down. scary shit#Im like HAHHAHAHAHAH im gonna DIE#damn i dreamt about a lot. anyways
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My belly should stop hurting I’m literally so cute why is this happening 🥺
#i mean okay maybe its happening cuz i have a horrible diet but liiiike#why is this happening 🥺#my mom had like strep and was all gross and ive been coughing worse than usual today so i hope im not getting sick#and im like nauseous and wanna gag grrrrr if i throw up in the morning im gonna be so mad#i havent slept great this week and when i dont get proper sleep it makes my stomach act up so maybe its just that but well#id sure like it if i could sleep good#kinda just thinking about a lot of stuff i guess and cant turn it off#had some craaaazy ass dreams last night
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genuinely can you actually be traumatized or something by a dream?
#/gen question#maybe nit fully traumatized but like messed up or something#sometimes i have dreams that are just horrible#and they have got to affect my brain in some way because how did it even come up with that stuff???
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"all this foreshadowing abt declan dying and then he didn't even die" well personally i think declan got murdered dead by mstief in greywaren so. actually 2 me he did die. Badly.
#like sorry 2 to say it but also not sorry the declan i know would never do to matthew what he did in gw..#like obviously he has done some shit stuff to matthew (and ronan as well. this to mean ronan did shit stuff irt matthew as well not declan#did shit stuff to ronan. though he very much did and vice versa but like not the point here.) BUT i know he would NEVER strip matthew of his#autonomy like that and NEVER for so long. like i didn't write declan lynch as a character but also i know he wouldn't do that. that's his#baby brother........and i know he feels like matthew robbed him of his youth and his life and whoever he would've grown up to be but HE JUST#WOULD NEVER....i know this....like sorry but that is the most awful fucked up shit to do ever in the entire world. someone depends on you#and looks up to you and trusts you and you take away the thing that keeps them awake??? i'd even say the thing that essentially keeps them#ALIVE bc without a sweetmetal dreams aren't really alive they're just sleeping for eternity which is a kind of death. LIKE......#that just baffles me so much u just have to be soooooo uncaring to do that....like if he just did it in the moment of anger - snatched that#pendant off matthew's neck so he fell asleep and declan wouldn't have to deal with him anymore and then immediately afterwards was like.#what have i done this is so fucked up to do to someone. and put the pendant back on matthew. and apologized prefusely for it. that would#have still not been fine but in bouts of anger ppl do stupid desperate things that negatively affect others and it would've been#considerably less fucked up than it is now. like declan kept that pendant away for UP TO TWO DAYS. he drove the whole way back put ronan#somewhere safe carried matthew out of the car and into the house carried him upstairs into the bedroom and put him in bed went back#downstairs went outside locked the car went back into the house ate showered slept woke up ate breakfast again go through the whole day and#NOT ONCE did he think to himself oh this thing i'm doing is genuinely horrible i can't just take away someone's like. awareness. like that#& went to go 'wake' matthew????? NOT ONCE????? ARE YOU BEING SERIOUS???? NOT ONCE IN THOSE ONE AND A HALF OR TWO OR POSSIBLY MORE DAYS???#also just the whole. turning into his father thing. HARD NO. u mean the same declan who hated his father for very right reasons and hated#what he did to the entire lynch family both while he was alive and after he died the same declan that hated all the trading and buying and#selling dream things business and just that underground market in general (that btw. put the family he had left in life-threatening danger.)#the same declan who hated his father for dreaming a more perfect and loving unconditionally copy of his actual mother (rightfully so.) went#on 2 go into the exact business he always hated w/ a fiery passion?? ur also telling me he invited his father's killer to his wedding? fake.#trc#greywaren#<- needs its own tag bc i'm not putting it in the same category as call down the hawk my beloved call down the hawk.#anyway. that entire essay in the tags can be summarized w/: who declan ended up as & his entire arc is SO shit i hate it sm peace n love 🙏#as i've said before. me: mom can we have declan lynch? mom: no we have declan lynch @ home. declan lynch @ home: declan lynch in greywaren.#<<<<< full experience of reading gw. 2 me. ARGHHHH AOUGH THE POTENTIAL IT HAD THE POTENTIAL IT WASTED... IT'S ACTUALLY SO SAD....
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