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lily s. by arif seyed
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Capitalism shure will make you feel guilty about wanting to work on a later schedule than 8 to 5
#I want to work 12 to 9 or something like that#I never took a class in college earlier than 10#and I didn’t mind classes that lasted until 8pm#besides walking back to my dorms in New England winter weather#but that’s the climate not school#idk#i’ve been treading on this thought for a while and finally got to verbalize it to someone#which made me realize#yeah#I would rather work late than torture myself by getting up early#G muses
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big apologies to this blog for coming a little bare as blonde gach.a men (+child.e) take over the brain. my otom.e characters are not forgotten and I will probably find something to post about tonight! 💖
#❛ 𝐒𝐈𝐃𝐄 𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐒 ⧽ — ooc.#CRYINGGG IM NOT BEING LEFT ALONE BY ANY OF THEM#if someone read my mind itd be chil.de hc -> albe.do thought -> kave.h interlude -> myd.ei opinions -> luoch#a meta ...#i have no way to stop this 😤#probs getting back into my genp.act phase.#i have my other blog for all these muses and at some point commit to promoing it again here incase people wanna follow#i FORGOT THOM.A. honorary blonde fr.#i even said yesterday it was time to write but then i went to do some asks and got distracted with graphics (some ask banners i needed to#make & a new icon. i spoil these characters way too much )#my plan tonight is to queue up what ive done for tomorrow and continue writing child.e pieces bc i love him and im bias#and then tomorrow ... maybe tackle some more around these parts?#editing is always my beloathed and im not trusting a grammar website rn
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#ALL POWER DEMANDS PAIN AND SACRIFICE: musings.#okay but this made me laugh so hard just because of how much it reminds me of misao JSJSJ LOL because she has had like casual 'flings'-#with people and is an addictive personality as i've talked about here once which includes her being a love junkie + getting into-#relationships with people because she is in love with the IDEA of being in love though falling in love with someone can't just happen-#like magic as it involves a bunch of hormones and stuff but misao kind of somewhat hopes that this person of interest to her will somehow-#complete her life anyhow which... yeah can definitely raise a few problems as people with a love addiction often attract love-#avoidant people because both of these types of people generally have a fear of being abandoned and controlled.#but whenever it comes to love-avoidant individual's they're also emotionally unavailable so 😬#it's unfortunately kinddd of a recipe for an unhealthy relationship that could very well lead to the both of them being in a bad place-#once they break up as misao as a love addict is constantly seeking out new love in particular as a lot of excitement and good feelings-#come with this particular type of love in particular. so yeahhh - i know that this may be a bit of a weird picture to do a meta to but-#SHHH lol i just thought it could possibly relate to her more long-term relationships that she's had with people as misao-#tends to avoid feelings of vulnerability with people as you may all know and so this leads to both her + the other person not really-#knowing what they are BC they haven't really established that deeper connection even though they've been together for a while.#not to say that i'm trying to blame misao for having problems with opening up or anything like that but she has a very disorganized-#attachment style i think and that leads to her often doing this continuous 'push and pull' thing in her romantic/sexual ships#where one moment she will want to be attached to the hip to them but the next she will be cold and distant from them.#so yeahhh. misao is honestly kind of like what i've said barton is before: a cake inside of a cake because i feel like she's got sides of-#herself that she doesn't even know about because she's been scared of being fully emotionally vulnerable with someone for a while now sadly#NO SLEEP OF THE INNOCENT. NOT FOR YOU: character study.
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I was listening to an interview of Gagne's about her sociopathic condition and some of these parts really resonated with Tobias. Like her mentioning she's masking "right now" (during the interview) otherwise she'd be smiling and blinking far less, the story about how as a child she felt a pressure building up in her and when another kid who was sitting next to her annoyed her at the wrong moment she stabbed them and the stabbing made her feel startlingly euphoric, the way she was discussing empathy as something learned from society and intended to gain something from (a dopamine release/good feeling) because she doesn't understand any actions that are done by neurotypicals for no reason, her experience having to mimic her neurotypical sister to fit into society, the relief she felt when she met her husband who didn't shy away from her despite her unburdening herself to him about all of her (the bad, scary & unnerving qualities/actions/etc included)... there are a bunch of differences between her & Tobias' experiences too, obviously, but at least THESE parts were very on the nose. Especially one declaration that stood out to me: "Doing something morally unacceptable was a way to force a pop of color [in my life]" which is exactly why Tobias does anything he does. That pop of color. That derived amusement. The odd joy that follows which is the only thing he can really feel out of the positive cluster of emotions.
#◜✧ . ❪ muse. tobias. ❫#◜✧ . ❪ tobias ; meta. ❫#I like researching about people with aspd (sociopathic aspd in particular... go figure why...) & I think the clearest glimpse I can get#is from mixing the stories of homicidal sociopaths with the stories of everyday sociopaths. which were/are still criminal in Some regard#but who didn't act on their homicidal or aggressive impulses for one reason or another & instead are far more/basically harmless#It's the most likely approach to help me understand the truth behind sociopathy instead of Just basing things off of common knowledge#bc lbr sociopaths aren't exactly portrayed in the greatest way in media! And Tobias doesn't help much considering his whole backstory#and how That has influenced him make him feel closer to the usual sociopaths we can find in media/news than the less harmful ones#but now that he's also... a little less rigid? or a bit more open?? idk how to explain whatever he's got going around Ash.#but yeah whatever That's called. I think I should delve a bit more into the regular sociopaths' lifestyles & belief systems#to gauge what's the shared ground between All sociopaths (what really MAKES them sociopathic) in various 'normal' contexts#I took the PCL test & everything for him he IS 100% a sociopath. The only issue is they tend to be vastly diff from one another#so I'm squinting at all the Shared traits I see in their books/shows/interviews/etc like I'm a clinical psychologist on duty 😭#One day I should write a long ass meta post about Tobias' sociopathic tendencies bc golly gee there's so much to yap about 😮💨#I do think he'll never be fully comfortable w someone who won't accept Every side of him tho. He's fine masking since he's done that#all his life & he sure isn't gonna stop anytime soon but doing that 24/7 can sometimes be pretty damn irritating. sometimes even exhausting#& obviously he sometimes wants to throw the damn facade on the floor and relax even if he can be unsettling as hell during those times#He will never show his 'real self' to sb he doesn't entirely trust btw. Not unless they're abt to die which erm... not ideal circumstances!#so 99.9% of people will never see the REAL Tobias bared naked to his core personality. Most will get some degree of truth mixed in with#a lot of societal bs that's either expected of him or that he wants to do to obtain their trust/friendship/etc. NEVER the full picture!
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❛ yw look like you've got somethin’ ta say, bro. ❜
@yukikorogashi || meme
He always felt like a fish out of water over here. Somehow, Jayce had imagined repeated exposure would've made the whole setting more palatable—less . . . distracting in every sense of the word—but as he followed one stride behind the polite girl's heel, he almost began to wonder if he'd need to start holding her hand to avoid getting lost. His head swiveled this way and that, perking when a vendor called out to him, flinching as someone careless came close to knocking him off his feet as they hurried past (he'd uttered a quiet, “Excuse you” that [probably thankfully] went unheard), keeping that pair of braided pigtails in his periphery when he could—
Once or twice, Jayce opened his mouth to address his guide, no more than a stunted syllable crumbling through before something else snatched his attention away. And it was only when she slowed just enough to let him walk in-step with her that she posed a question proving she had a knack for drowning everything else out. “No. No, I—” He craned his neck to look down an alley, regretted it promptly after the fact. “I guess— Well, what isn't there to say?” His fingers smoothed out the twisted strap of his book bag, and that same hand ventured down to hold the latch firmly closed.
“Are you sure you know where you're going?” he prompted, leaning in more so she could hear him over the bustle. “I feel like we've been on this street for hours.”
#✧。・🛠️《 answered 》#yukikorogashi#aAAaaaa the bestie graces me with her presence!! ;w; thank you so much! <3 <3#i'm always so thrilled to interact with you and the sweet itsuki! T~T <3#one of the many bonuses of having new muses: NEW INTERACTIONS WITH BECKY >)))#i figured itsuki would be someone who can navigate the undercity p well :0c#and jayce is a big dumb as he tries to do it himself so#please give this man a guide who WON'T swindle him ty#he is literally me in any big city tbh just walking around dumbly like :OOO wowzers#ppl like him and me get taken advantage of sO fast#but he's got itsuki so :) we're gucci here
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so... if i had a nickel for every time i introduced a gotham rogue into the DC community on here that other muses can spot are probably more than likely than not a native gothammite because they have a strong accent (which would be russian, in ana's case), i'd have two nickels. which isn't a lot, but it may or mayyy not be a coincidence that it happened twice LOL
#NO ONE EVER TELLS YOU THAT BRAVERY FEELS LIKE FEAR: musings.#ooc post.#AHH... what can i say y'all. i like people with accents BC i think they're so cool okok ✋️ but of course they also contribute to a#character's identity and perhapsss how other's perceive them BC like i was talking about here gotham is thought of to be in new jersey#sooo if someone were to walk around there and speak with a russian accent i'd say that about 9 times out of 10 people#would be like ' oh... yeah no. he must've spent at least some part of his life in russia because that accent is 👌 ' you know?? lolll#but yeah basically what i was trying to say here is that if anastasiy is talking to your muse then he's got a very pronounced russian accen#so his dialect makes it so that R's are sharper but words as a whole are kinddd of softened by palatized vowels
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YOU WATCH JAIDEN OVER SPARKLEZ????? you have truly changed, icarus.
i’m going to expose myself with this one. i rarely ever watch jordan live nowadays. i am a vod girlie 95% of the time. partially because i use captainsparklez vods to fall asleep, and partially because i only get the time to watch his stream when none of my mains are live, which is. extremely rare as of late
#muse talk#anon#i’m sorry for shattering anyone’s perception of me#i Do get frequent updates of when shit is happening#which is why when i liveblog it’s always the Big Moments#bc i am Informed of shenanigans and must see for myself#but. most of the time. it is vods for me#it’s just a lot easier bc like. jordan streams are short. concise.#missing one isn’t really a Big Deal. at most i’ll moss some shenanigans and homoeroticism#however. if i miss. say. a qsmp stream. god only fucking knows what i miss#you look away from those fucks for two seconds and suddenly one of thems pregnant there are three new relationships#someone’s placed 3000 mines everywhere one of the eggs got kidnapped one of the players got kidnapped#and all of that is somewhere within a like. 8-10 hour vod#keeping jordan for the vods is just Much Easier than dealing with the alternative
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anyway send me memes because i'm going to be here the next few days even if it kills me
#got new followers so this is just. the easiest way to get myself to write starters askjdflk#tbd.#biggest muse is for main verse because pj.o brainrot of course but. yj always strong too :/#by next few days i mean after Someone goes to sleep. mostly
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🌸 ( bc why not let's goo :')) )
@indigodreames played muse roulette and got nico robin!
" that looks lovely. " robin's quiet as she approaches the other, easily peeking from over their shoulder. she didn't mean to pry, but she's all too quick to forget boundaries when something catches her eye. hopefully they won't mind too much, and merely see her sudden remark as genuine interest.
brows raise in anticipation as she meets their eyes, a smile already on her lips. " did you make it yourself? "
#indigodreames#( ic ask ; nico robin )#wow icb you got a muse i HAVEN'T thrown at u yet#left it open on your end to choose someone!#can be first meeting or established#also robin is kind of a new muse and i dont have a bio up for her yet#but tl;dr she's an archaelogist with Trauma#weirdcore girl mom friend#works for period and modern settings
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should've gotten these up sooner but oh well
blog tags and ship / character tag with @praeteritus-memories' alastor!
🔥 VISAGE → Hell's top advertiser at your service! if you want your fifteen minutes I'm the one to talk to. 🔥 MUSINGS → never the type to just kiss and tell — perhaps this will offer a glimpse of what she really is like. 🔥 AESTHETICS → who can deny the siren call of finer things? these items speak of who she truly is. 🔥 INBOX → you've got a new request! just who is it from? 🔥 DESIRES → this is just my way of unleashing the feelings deep inside of me. 🔥 MUSIC → we've got a special request from our caller. 🔥 MANNERISMS → she only lets people see the mask as every action is calculated. 🔥 WARDROBE → proper attire makes the appearance as they say but even she likes fancy garments. 🔥 STUDY → facets of who she really is underneath the calculating expression and demeanor.
🔥 OUT OF THE OFFICE → leave a message with my receptionist. 🔥 PROMOTIONS → a service? a product? a new book? whatever it is I'll promote it. 🔥 SELF-PROMOTION → of course you get a full page spread — it's YOUR paper after all! 🔥 DASHBOARD COMMENTARY → and just what is the rumor mill circulating today? 🔥 DASH GAMES → it's all fun and games until someone's bankrupt from monopoly.
🔥 RADIOFIRE 📻 i just want to start a flame in your heart; my soulmate; my other half — with you I feel whole. 🔥 ALASTOR 📻 the radio demon to most but to me he's the reason my heart has healed with his love and charm.
🔥 VERSE: BEFORE THE DAMNATION 🔥 a heart full of hate that's closed off; may the world burn for what it's done. 🔥 VERSE: HELL IS NOW YOUR HOME! 🔥 a second chance to continue the streak; from nothing to something almost overnight.
#🔥 VISAGE → Hell's top advertiser at your service! if you want your fifteen minutes I'm the one to talk to.#🔥 MUSINGS → never the type to just kiss and tell — perhaps this will offer a glimpse of what she really is like.#🔥 AESTHETICS → who can deny the siren call of finer things? these items speak of who she truly is.#🔥 INBOX → you've got a new request! just who is it from?#🔥 DESIRES → this is just my way of unleashing the feelings deep inside of me.#🔥 MUSIC → we've got a special request from our caller.#🔥 MANNERISMS → she only lets people see the mask as every action is calculated.#🔥 WARDROBE → proper attire makes the appearance as they say but even she likes fancy garments.#🔥 STUDY → facets of who she really is underneath the calculating expression and demeanor.#🔥 OUT OF THE OFFICE → leave a message with my receptionist.#🔥 PROMOTIONS → a service? a product? a new book? whatever it is I'll promote it.#🔥 SELF-PROMOTION → of course you get a full page spread — it's YOUR paper after all!#🔥 DASHBOARD COMMENTARY → and just what is the rumor mill circulating today?#🔥 DASH GAMES → it's all fun and games until someone's bankrupt from monopoly.#🔥 RADIOFIRE 📻 i just want to start a flame in your heart; my soulmate; my other half — with you I feel whole.#🔥 ALASTOR 📻 the radio demon to most but to me he's the reason my heart has healed with his love and charm.#🔥 VERSE: BEFORE THE DAMNATION 🔥 a heart full of hate that's closed off; may the world burn for what it's done.#🔥 VERSE: HELL IS NOW YOUR HOME! 🔥 a second chance to continue the streak; from nothing to something almost overnight.
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most cathartic moment of my life was last night when me and my sister were yapping to each other about our least favourite pieces of media ever and i showed her ONE scene from DOD3 after bitching about it for like a million hours and she was just "okay i see why you think every dod3 fan is a horrible person what the fuck is this"
#gu6chan's musings#the scene was fives death btw#i was talking about how dod3 fans would try and advertise the game to me and that's how my initial skepticism began to take hold#bc i went from 'i hear theres a THIRD game! can't wait to play it' to 'dont bring that pos up to me' after like 4 conversations#and the one that REALLY sealed the deal was having a slight idea about dito and fives relationship and then someone brought that scene up to#show how 'funny' dod3 was which first of all#HOW IS THAT A GOOD POINT YOU WANNA ADVERTISE TO SOMEONE WHO LIKED THE APOCALYPTIC NATURE OF THE FIRST TWO????#Anyways i was like 'wait isn't he an sa victim? why would they place a joke here' and they got quiet real fuckin quick#but yeah as far as THIS goes#i was yapping about how awful i felt for judging ppl by what GAMES they play (DOD3) and how it's not a good metric to judge ppls entire#personality on but somehow ended up working REALLY well given - with NO exaggeration - every dod3 fan i let in ended up being a VERY#specific brand of edgy annoying anime fan who banks off of reminding others of how 'damaged' and 'traumatised' they are every 3 seconds#and also somehow are always SWERFs????#in general awful noisy ppl who always started some shit till i was like 'you know i think im recognizing a pattern im gonna try something'#and it was WRONG but it worked????? when i brought up that our friends ex playing drakengard 3 was literally my first big red flag from her#my sister was like 'I GET IT OMG' bc she was always suprised at how quickly i was like 'this bitch is bad news'#and the answer to how i learned that was a ps3 game from 2013. i still am like 'is it right tho???' but it hasn't failed me so far so?????
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#tag talk#because of all the artists I follow and the art I see I'm able to muster up some art when the muse sings.#so thanks I was able to sketch something for the guy I'm getting to know and maybe will be dating at some point#was thinking about whether to call him cute or not and I think yeah I do think he's cute.#I've been using all my brain power to min-max the interactions we've had without jumping too quickly into the deep end#which is why I don't call him my boyfriend because we've only met irl twice but I think there's no reason why we won't escalate to dating#provided I can not fuck things up#prolly not healthy to have the mindset that I'm responsible for whether things go well or not#not healthy to have the mindset that I'm a stick of dynamite and if I screw things up it'll all blow to shit.#idk. I still feel that way.#we'll see.#either way he's my in to a whole other friend group of coworkers and their friends since we got matched by a coworker/friend#my coworker his friend so I have higher hopes since it's not an online match.#he seems pretty cool and I'm doing my best to spread out the interaction and not get too caught up in his dms#and I was the one to be like “yeah this hangout has gone pretty long” because I know I tend to drag things out longer than they should go.#even if the other person is engaged it's functionally great to make a lunch date last the whole afternoon into the evening.#we both have things to do so as fun as it is to hang out for five hours I'm trying to keep emotionally healthy.#enough distance to keep perspective on things.#my last relationship the other person pushed for more and more hangout time and more and more closeness and I think that's what fucked it#I need to keep my distance to stay emotionally healthy#and honestly? I'm proud of myself for learning that and keeping it in mind.#I've had some hard experiences to learn that lesson but now I'm going to put it to good use and maybe get some dick again.#it's deadass been since October. deadass halfa year since I got dick.#I fucked someone more recently than that but fucking and getting dick are not the same thing.#anyway. new relationship. wish me luck.
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((idk if this is sad (it probably is...actually...no, I know it is) but I'm always shocked or surprised when people remember my favorite things and interests. Mainly because why would anyone bother to remember the things I love and hold dear save for me? fefffsghfhfgfh))
#;;ooc: mun muttering#my aunt got me a really cute cardigan that's fall colors (orange; brown; cream)#and the first words out of her mouth unprompted 'I knew you'd love it; it reminds me of Prof/essor la/yton!' and she's exactly right#I really should be posting this on malus bc I muse him there but...nah lol#but really??? someone remembering one of my extra special interests??? and her of all people?? fuck#...I hope the new game comes out soon ;;;#and I'm very excited to wear my new cardigan on my day off ;;; it looks so nice and it's warm
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@stillresolved | ♥
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Diana has survived and manned countless situations the meeker side of the living would rather not even dream of ever being a part of - and those that do, do it with a sense of violent underestimation of what it is they'd actually be getting themselves into.
Nonetheless, she somehow finds this a much stronger struggle instead: her frown is already constricting into one resembling the outwardly recognizable signs of onset headaches.
All in the details, isn't a crime a crime? Can there be good intentions behind a crime? How can a world spin at a proper tempo if crimes suddenly become circumstantial in their deserving of that definition.
More than anything, her speaking companion's nonchalance is seemingly the most intense aspect here. Something about being met with half the energy, a look in those eyes that insinuate she's waiting a recognizable pattern of behaviours out, as if simply waiting for Diana to be done, Diana doesn't like feeling like she isn't in control of the situation.
She isn't in control here.
It's that odd, sneaking suspicion into the subconscious that you might actually be wrong, like hot embarrassing and violent acid burning at the pride of someone as likely to ignite as Diana.
"I understand evidence," she says, as if personally offended by the insinuation she might not understand having to prove a crime has been committed. "Which book is irrelevant. The crime is the relevant aspect. All I have to say is 'a book was stolen' and then retrieve it. It being in possession of you would be the evidence."
Accusation and punishment becomes very easy if you never walk in someone else's shoes.
"Intentions don't make a crime no crime. There are other ways to provide for someone who needs it, though possessing a book would qualify as a luxury, don't you think."
#stillresolved#the valkyrie;diana#HYELLO~ ♥ remember this old thingy~#i actually got a few OLD old thingies that i had scouted out recently but was holding onto while you revamped#so i can tag your new bloggo WAHOO~ ♥#also wow I've been low on muse for Diana for a while and writing her again now... in this context? absolutely the WORST#she's coming off as someone who says 'well self-defense is still-'#at the same time though she would fuck up Mister Dinh so fast which.-- does that count as vigilante work oh goodness#diana vc: wait... are you trying to tell me... there are... N u aNC es?#;queue
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˙ . ꒷ 🍰 . 𖦹˙— "𝖠𝖽𝗆𝗂𝗋𝖺𝗍𝗂𝗈𝗇" - Bob Reynolds x freader x platonic thunderbolts
Golden Retriever x Black Cat trope
Being recruited by Valentina as part of the new Avengers (z) team was never part of your list of agendas. Yet here you were, doting on an awkward brunette.
a.n - This is a short scenario that got me all giddy while writing this, so I hope you Bob fans enjoy this as much as I did!
Warnings - minor spoilers! trauma, nightmares, making out, hickeys & yearning Bob! Lots of fluff too



A few months had passed since the 'incident' on the streets of Newyork where almost half the city was engulfed in complete darkness.
You mostly blamed this on Valentina since she pushed her ideals of the sentry project onto Bob. Now you, along with the others tried your best to make him feel welcome and wanted, despite his 'minor' flaws.
Now that you all moved into the newly refurbished Avengers tower, you had to adjust to your new life. This was never part of your agenda but you're one to complain.
Especially since you got the chance to dote on a certain brunette, who you undeniably cannot ignore since he's always trailing after you wherever you went.
Yelena had introduced you to Bob properly after the whole incident and he's been glued to your side since then. You were more on the nonchalant and cool girl type while he was the polar opposite.
But he still admired you nonetheless. Not to mention, you also get endlessly teased by Yelena and the others.
More so than usual when she noticed that Bob tends to follow you around more than her now. Not that she cares, she was more than happy that he was trying to get closer with someone else other than her.
Yelena had joined you in the main kitchen after training together. You reached into the refrigerator to bring out your bottle of water when she asked an unexpected question.
"Do you like Bob?" She asks straight up, catching you offguard in the process.
"As friends? Yeah ofcourse." You muttered underneath your breath then took a chug of your water.
"Pshh friends? Friends don't eyefuck eachother across the room." She mused while leaning against the refrigerator door with an amusing smirk.
You choked a couple of times while Yelena pats your back before adding another comment. "It's okay! No need to feel ashamed."
"What're you talking about??"
"Okay maybe not, but you two would still make a cute couple." She mused while flashing you her iconic smirk.
"Oh...I don't know about that 'lena. He's just someone I care about alot you know?"
Before you could carry on the conversation, your eyes shift past Yelena's shoulders. Sure enough, Bob was awkwardly standing in the hallway.
"I uh - I didn't hear anything."
Yelena steps back to let Bob in before mouthing a quick 'goodluck' to you. God that girl was going to be the death of you.
The only times he wasn't with you was when you went on missions, which is when he'd spend most of his time in the tower with Alpine.
After a gruelling and unbearably long mission, all you wanted to do was to take a shower, eat dinner then go to bed.
"Ugh...Ava, what time is it?" You groaned while rubbing your temples to somehow lessen your headache.
Ava, along with you and John were on the quinjet, which was preparing its landing sequence on the helipad of the tower.
She glances at the time on her watch before answering with a yawn. "It's a little past midnight."
"You think anyone's awake right now?" John joins in on the rather dull conversation. The ship was on autopilot and had finally landed when he finished his sentence.
"Mhm I highly doubt it," you replied with a strained voice as you stretched your limbs. Almost every inch of your body ached, and your muscles were extremely sore.
As soon as the hatch opened, you dragged your tired body through the hanger. The endless corridors of the living quarters almost made you lose your mind, but you breathed a sigh of relief when you finally made it to your room.
You hesitated for a moment, noticing the door was slightly ajar. Figuring it was just you being paranoid, you swiftly flung the door open, only to find a familiar set of eyes blinking back at you.
Bob stood almost a feet away from you with a pillow in hand, the poor man had flinched at your sudden appearance. Almost immediately, he let out a string of '"sorry's'' since he invited himself in without your permission.
"Hey-- Bob, it's ok. You can stay in my room as long as you like." You say in a hushed tone while placing your hands on his shoulders, rubbing them gently so he'd calm down.
He found it hard to focus on your face as his eyes shift downwards in shame. "I just... I wanted to talk to you as soon as you came back."
"We can talk-" you intercept almost immediately. "But would you mind if I took a shower first? Then we can talk afterwards ok?"
Bob finally lifts his eyes off the ground to look at you before nodding. "Uhh yeah... yeah, I can wait."
You reached up to ruffle his slightly messy hair before retreating to where your walk-in closet was. Bob took the leisure of sitting back on your comfy bed as his eyes followed your every move.
"Ah, this will do," you muttered to yourself while fishing out your sleep shirt and a pair of shorts. Except, it looked bigger than usual?
"Oh right uhm, I think that's mine..." Bob mumbles hesitantly when you notice that it was, in fact, not yours.
Bob had the tendency to leave his belongings scattered in your room, including his large sweatshirts. He'd vist you almost every night since he'd constantly have nightmares, and you would comfort him whenever you could.
"You wouldn't mind if I wore this would you?" You turned around with the sleep shirt pressed against your chest to show it off. It was a deep blue navy colour, simple, yet comfortable.
"Uh yeah! Go ahead." Bob replies with open arms and his usual widespread grin. You returned the smile before grabbing your towel and headed into the washroom.
You quickly scrambled out of your suit and chucked it into the laundry basket to wash later. Bob could hear the sound of falling water through the doors of the washroom as he looked around.
That's when he realised he made quite a mess while waiting for you. So he took his time going around and picking things up from the floor to put them back to the right spots.
After half an hour or so, you stepped out with the towel around your neck after wringing out excess water from your hair. You had the power to control the wind, so it was easier to dry your hair, which was awfully convenient.
"Bob? You here?" You called out after noticing that he was nowhere in sight. The lack of response concerned you as you frantically searched your room for the man.
You finally found him in the far corner of the room, huddled with one of your plushies and was fast asleep. The racing of your heart only quickened once you hear him mumbling your name in his sleep.
"Oh Bob..." you shook your head amusingly as you bent down to his height to lightly shake him awake. It only took a few seconds before he stirred, you felt bad for doing so but you didn't want him to sleep on the floor.
"Do you wanna sleep here tonight?" You asked quietly since he was still half asleep, trying to process what you were saying. He nods his head after a while, placing the plush toy back where it was in the pile before reaching his arms out for you to grab.
You do just that and lead him towards your massive king sized bed. Just earlier on today, you had changed the sheets to satin ones, so it was even more comfortable than usual.
The lights were dimmed but not completely off since you learned the hard way that Bob hated the dark. So you switched on a nightlight by your bedside for extra light just in case.
Bob settled into the crispy sheets that had been untouched since your arrival. He scoots over a bit while you slipped in next to him.
Although, you two were in quite an awkward position after a while. Since you had to prepare a schedule for the next day, he was pretty much beneath you. You were struggling not to crush him while he only made things worse. His arms were wrapped around your waist to pull you closer to him so he could soak in your warmth while you worked.
"Sorry Bob, just give me a few more minutes." You sighed while typing away on your phone. Bob only hummed in response while burying his face into the crook of your neck.
"By the way...do you want to talk about the nightmare that you had?"
"Mm...yeah." Bob replied with a muffled voice as the vibrations tickled your skin, making you squirm slightly. "Alright, tell me what happened."
That's exactly what he did. You listened carefully as he mentioned all the bad things that he had seen in the nightmare.
That's one of the reasons why Bob admired you. You were straightforward with him but caring.
Many would think that sort of activity was only reserved for relationships. Which was partially true, you in fact, did harbour feelings for him. But you chose to keep them to yourself.
What Bob needed was someone who was patient and not pushy. For now, you were content with just being 'friends.' Even though it was far more than that.
It was around 7am in the morning by the time you awoke. The soft golden rays of sunlight shone through the blinds of your room, giving your room a soft glow.
Little did you know that a blonde haired assassin had come to your room during the night to ask you something, only to find you with your limbs entangled with Bob's.
Yelena being Yelena, took the opportunity to snap a few pictures on her phone before leaving. Already planning on using them for blackmail or to tease you whenever she pleased.
Speaking of Bob, he was fast asleep as you peer down at him. You became quite flustered since his face was fully pressed against your chest. He probably thought that it was his pillow, yet you were too afraid to move him. Instead, you opted to run your fingers through his dark chocolate locks.
They were soft, as usual, but still, you tried to detangle his hair gently since there were a few knots. It wasn't long before he started to stir, causing you to freeze in the process. You move away from him slightly to give him some space as he slowly processes where he is.
"Morning sunshine... did you sleep well?" You whispered gently as he peers up at you through his lashes, his eyes still heavy with sleep. His voice was hoarse while he spoke,
"G'morning...yeah I slept well, and you?"
"Ahh, me too..." You responded while brushing stray hair away from his face, it had gotten slightly longer than before. Which gave you the idea of maybe trimming the front bangs later on, with his consent, of course.
Your fingers lingered on his cheek for a brief moment, before retracting your hand. Bob was disappointed to say the least when he felt the warmth of your hand no longer present against his skin.
"Let's get freshen up and head down for breakfast. How does that sound...?"
Bob nods in agreement after rubbing the sleep from his eyes while you slowly got up.
He found himself practically swooning over you while he observed the way you stretched, letting your hair fall across your shoulders. Sure it was messy since you had just woken up, but to him, you looked heavenly.
You felt him staring but you chose not to think much of it. Bob's cheeks had a slight hue of red when you did manage to look back down at him, bringing a small smile to your face at his bashfullness.
"What? Is there something on my face?"
Bob immediately shook his head before you positioned yourself above him. You reached down to place one hand on his cheek to feel the light stubble against your skin.
This time he doesn't let you retreat that easily as he tugs you down gently. A bold move indeed, especially for you.
At first you weren't sure how to respond, the air around you suddenly felt awfully scarce as you were beginning to find it hard to breathe.
Even though he was the one who had instigated the sudden act of intimacy, he too grew a sense of shyness.
To test the waters, he lean in closer, bumping your nose against his and letting your lips hover over his. Your eyes flickered from his lips back up to meet his. If anything, you were more than happy to back away if he felt uncomfortable.
But Bob did want this, so he took the initiative to press his lips against yours. You let out a surprised sound before melting into the kiss.
His lips were slightly chapped, but that didn't bother you. You smiled against his lips as he was struggling slightly, honestly you didn't blame him. He probably hasn't kissed anyone for a while.
But eventually he got the hang of it. He picked up the pace while you struggled to keep up. Turned out he's a quick learner since he copied the way your lips moved against his.
You wasted no time reaching to the back of his neck and slipped your fingers into his dark hair pulling him in impossibly closer.
Soft whimpers escaped his mouth in between each kiss while you soaked in every one, pushing him to kiss you deeper. Sighs and moans of content or pleaure are passed between both your lips and his. The two had to fight to not entirely lose yourselves completely within pure bliss.
You nipped his bottom lip slightly before leaving a soft trail of kisses from his mouth down to the side of his jaw.
"Hm? What're you doing?" He drawled while your lips leaves his briefly, almost bringing out another whine as he feels you lightly kiss the juncture of his neck.
"Mhm, just need you - ," you hummed against his supple skin. You left open-mouthed kisses against a specific area on his neck before gently taking his skin between your teeth to leave a mark.
The feeling was too overwhelming for him yet he found himself bringing you in impossibly closer while you worked. After leaving a significantly dark hickey on the side of his neck, you move back towards his lips.
Which he happily accepts. Head tilting the side, his hot breath mingling with yours, he kisses you with much fever.
Yet keeps it sweet and gentle at the same time. Lightly sucking on your bottom lip while running his thumb against your cheek.
The kiss was filled with raw emotions, all the times that he wanted to tell you of his true feelings were poured into it. You too shared the same amount of passion when you deepened the kiss even further.
Sadly, the need to breathe was apparent after what seemed like forever. You flutters your eyes open before pulling away to take in Bob's appearance. He looked so effortlessly pretty.
His cheeks were rosy and wet from his tears and hair was disheveled, but he still managed to look perfect to you. Before you could say a word, some unexpected words leaves his lips.
"I...I love you," he whispers while you processed what he just said. A small rush of warmth filled you at the sound of those meaningful words as you fought back the urge to kiss him again.
"I love you too..." you whispered before dipping your head low to pepper his face with kisses, making him laugh in the process.
"C'mon sleepy head, let's wash up." Bob reluctantly accepts the offer and tugs the end of your shirt while following you into the washroom.
He was still trying to recover from the small makeout session as his legs almost felt like jelly as he walked. Which was new for him.
An array of skincare products lined up before him as you reached into one your drawers to bring something out. You had given him one of your waterproof headbands to wear so that his hair wouldn't get in his face in the process.
One of the reasons why you did a skincare routine specifically for him was because he enjoyed the feeling of being pampered by you.
So it was no surprise when he leans into your touch with excitement while you applied the cleansing foam on his face. A satisfied grin played on his lips while you rubbed the product into his skin, making you feel all giddy inside.
After the two of you washed up and got dressed, you then made your way to the kitchen to have breakfast.
Not even a second went by when Ava gave you one of her snarky remarks as soon as you walked in with Bob in tow.
"Ahh the couple's here to join us." You rolled your eyes playfully at the sarcastic comment as you turn to face the women in question.
Little did she know that she was, in fact, telling the truth. But you weren't going to give her that satisfaction.
"Oh shush, you're just jealous that I'm not giving the same attention to you." You retorted with the same amount of sass.
"Wow, Touche." She responds while sipping her coffee.
"Bob? Do you want pancakes?" You turned your attention back to the brunette who was patiently waiting for you.
"Yes please," he replies with a tight-lipped smile, already feeling shy from Ava's comment of referring to you both as a couple.
"Pancakes it is then."
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