#talking about but that's mostly bc I'm a lesbian

[scarlettfevor]

Decided to start watching teen wolf because why not, and I'm literally only 3 episodes in and I already suspect that Scott is probably going to be my favorite, and I know that there's a thriving shipping scene for this show so I took a quick peak at the top ships on ao3 and it......Derek and Stilies...? I think that once I get over his kinda cringey early 2010's humor I could grow to like Stilies, but Derek? To me he just seems like every other sad bad boy in every twilight/Buffy-inspired teen show from the 2000's - 2010's, there is 0 chance I'll actually like him, so it's no surprise really that he seems to be fairly popular.

[hunysckle]

office fit check 🍇🐇✨️

[trans-soapberry]

as a certified Aromantic Asexual (I should make myself a certificate) I genuinely don't Believe there is systemic oppression that specifically targets Aromantic or Asexual people.

I do however believe that people Cannot be normal about ppl who don't have sex or romantic relationships, and that can Really Impact Aromantic And Asexual People.

Also like. Aros n aces are still. Experiences Other forms of oppression that can interact with the aro and/or ace-ness

[vamptastic]

I need to kill the t-rf in my head already how many times do I need to be called a faggot by strangers and have random men hit on me whilst passing to them as male to stop feeling guilty about so much as mentioning an unchangeable facet of my identity. I wish I could just get rid of that evil voice conjuring up the worst rhetoric every time I fall outside of the stereotype of a trans man

[bluem1lls]

can you do a non squid game au, where the reader is thanos' younger sister and is friends with se mi. he's really protective of the reader cause she's sweet and he believes people will take advantage, so she secretly dates se mi.

then thanos (and maybe nam gyu cause we love) come to vists the reader, and find se mi already there. just some comedic reactions from the boy(s) and him trying to be all intimidating, while se mi fights back and the reader tries to keep the peace.

can you see me using everything to hold back?

best friend! se-mi x reader

- summary: you've been her best friend for years, and that's alright because at least you have her in your life.

it doesn't matter if she doesn't see your longing eyes when she's with her girlfriend. but what happens when her girlfriend sees them?

- content: angst!! bff! se-mi and brothers best friend! se-mi, fluff too bc why not, cheating (i mean kind of??), mostly angst tbh!, thanos is your brother!

- author's note: i think the request was meant to be something short and silly but i ended up creating THIS. anyways i love friends to lovers trope soooo here we are! tysm for requesting and reading! i hope u like it lots! ilysm!!!

i wake up with a shaky breath in bed, my chest panting as i stare at my brother and his best friend at the foot of my bed.

i bite my lip as i grab my phone—2 a.m. i sigh and call her, one tone, then two.

"what happened?" a groggy voice answers.

"nightmare…" i reply softly.

"where are thanos and nam-gyu?" she asks, stirring.

"at the foot of my bed, drunk and knocked out," i whisper, a small smile escaping my lips. "can you come over, please? i can't sleep"

"yeah, i'll be there in 20" she says with a groan, getting out of bed. i can hear the shuffling of her changing. "want me to stay on the line or should i hang up and call you when i'm there?"

"no, it's fine. just let me know when you're here," i say, rolling over in my bed.

"i love you, be there in a bit." she says with a hoarse voice.

"i love you" i reply, hanging up.

i can't remember a day when it wasn't me and se-mi.

ever since we met at 16, we became inseparable.

it started when she became my older brother's best friend, when he tried to flirt with her and she made fun of him. clearly, everyone could see she was a lesbian... except him.

once he introduced her to me as "se-mi, the girl i tried to flirt with but laughed in my face" i knew instantly how much we'd click.

she quickly became part of the group; nam-gyu, my brother, min-su, gyeong-su and i.

we spent every afternoon hanging out together, mostly after we got our own apartment with my brother. apparently, everyone seemed to move in too. they even had a key!

i hear the front door open softly. after 5 minutes, she knocks once on my room, very quietly. i get out of bed to open the door, hugging her as soon as i see her. her arms wrap around me, pressing me against her body.

"you okay?" she caressed my face, staring into my eyes as i nodded.

i pull away, grabbing her hand to pull her into my bed. she stares at the guys and snorts quietly.

she lays beside me, covering our bodies with the blanket. my back is against her chest. her hand sneaks to my waist, hugging me and pulling me closer to her body.

"do you wanna sleep now?" she whispers in my ear, making my heart beat unnervingly fast. i close my eyes as my hand finds hers.

"yeah. let's sleep."

"se-mi! we’ve talked about this!" i hear a voice and a small groan coming from beside me.

"go fuck yourself," se-mi mumbles, half asleep. i don't even turn when i hear a small 'auch' coming from her.

"move! that's my little sister!" my brother's voice can now be heard clearly.

"and my best friend!—fuck— oh, you're on. you loser—" i hear her reply back to him.

i do turn when i start to feel the bed moving, along with mumbles and curses.

nam-gyu is standing to the side with messy hair, rubbing his eyes as he tiredly looks at my brother, who's grabbing se-mi's hair while she’s also grabbing his.

"i told you to move!" su-bong screams as se-mi pulls harder.

"i was sleeping with my best friend!" she shouts back.

as they keep pulling each other's hair, i sigh and get up from bed. i stare at nam-gyu, who points at the door with a sigh. i laugh, following him.

we go into the kitchen to get started on breakfast.

"do they ever get tired?" he mutters, still hearing their screams as i chuckle.

"apparently not" i shrug as i pour some coffee into my cup and his.

he sips and hums in agreement. he seems like he wants to ask something, but is hesitant to do so.

"hey, but like..." he trails off as i lift an eyebrow. "you... you're not really into se-mi, right?" he asks. the question leaves me breathless.

i mean, no, not really.

because, like, it’s normal to think about kissing your best friend sometimes or… thinking about what your life together would be if you dated her… right? i bet everyone does that.

or staring at her for too long when you're hanging out together until she catches you and smirks, pushing you away with an eye roll?

it's not my fault!

i started thinking about this stuff ever since she was my first kiss because she didn’t want any 'douche with no experience' to take it.

"it's just practice," she laughed as i stared at her anxiously.

"and what if i'm bad at it?" i mumbled as she cupped my face in her hands.

"i don't care. i just..." her eyes trailed my face, falling on my lips.

and i don’t know who kissed who first; i just know we practiced for an hour.

and don't get me wrong, i wasn't even her first kiss. she might be a big loser, but she still had girls.

and that's all i knew. until one year, everyone started talking about how good she was in bed.

and then i knew more than i wanted to.

"she has a fucking tongue piercing!" lisa hit my arm as i winced, confused.

"huh?" i replied, staring at her.

"se-mi has a fucking tongue piercing!" she whispered to me, hitting my arm in excitement.

"w-wha—how do you know that?" i asked, even more confused. lisa is my best friend and se-mi is my complete opposite best friend. they never got along—how would—

she fucked her.

i stared at lisa with wide eyes, still not believing it. she shrugged in response, faking innocence.

"well, you've heard the rumors! i couldn't stay behind. besides, we've talked about it. you told me you didn’t like her, right?" lisa asked.

and i mean, yeah.

there’s no way i’d ever be into se-mi.

she's my best friend.

i nod along as lisa hums.

"so i tried it by myself! god she's.. god. i can't believe you haven't tried it" she nudges me. "she's so good! she does this thing with her tongue that had me tre—

"that's too much! that's too much!"

i mean, after hearing what they're saying, i guess it's normal that you also wanna try how good your best friend could fuck y—

"you don't... right?" nam-gyu carefully asks again, pulling me out of my thoughts as i stare at him.

"huh?" i blink. "oh... no. of course not!" i chuckle dryly as i chug my coffee to change the subject. "it's se-mi. there's just..." i trail. "no way."

and he looks like he wants to say something.

maybe the same thing everyone says.

'but you two are so close! and you guys treat each other so differently than usual friends.'

yeah, that's what i thought —until one afternoon, i met se-mi's girlfriend.

"see you guys!" mi-na smiled at us. she looked at se-mi, and finally left a peck on her lips.

like it was... an everyday thing.

a normal thing going on between them.

my blood went cold.

i turned, disbelief written all over my face, as mi-na walked away.

my mouth was agape as my best friend turned to stare at me. her eyes lingered on my face. she softly hit my arm, smirking and rolling her eyes, then snuck her arm around my shoulders, hugging me.

"what the fuck?" i asked her as we kept walking. she just let out a chuckle. "i'm serious! what the fuck?" i asked again.

"i dunno, it just happened" she shrugged it off. "why? you jealous?" she teased as i rolled my eyes.

"mi-na? out of everyone?" i ask, struggling to carry my books as she sighs and grabs them from me.

"don't do that. she's actually cool if you try to get to know her," she says, defending her, as i bite the inside of my cheek.

for some reason, i don't find her cool.

he doesn't get to say anything though, because se-mi and my brother walk into the room in some loose shirts and sweatpants (both wearing clothes i'm sure are nam-gyu's, given how he rolls his eyes at the sight of them).

my brother sits beside his best friend as i turn to prep the eggs, feeling a pair of arms wrap around me. i smile at her usual scent.

"what's for breakfast?" she asks, resting her head on my shoulder as i giggle.

"same old. eggs and toast," i reply with a hum, still feeling her warm embrace.

maybe we're just different than other friends.

maybe we just have a closer friendship, that doesn't have to mean anything.

i see thanos on the side grabbing a small object i can't even identify and throwing it at se-mi's head.

"not my sister!" he says as the object hits se-mi. she turns with a cold stare, mumbling something under her breath as she gives him the middle finger, but she still pulls her arms away from me, suddenly leaving me cold.

she stays besides me, leaning on the counter as i finish breakfast. i take one plate, and she takes the other. we leave them both on the table.

the four of us sit down to have breakfast. she sits beside me and grabs my leg, putting mine on top of hers.

the small gesture leaves my heart fluttering, but i choose to ignore it.

my brother turns on the tv as i scroll through my phone, and se-mi does the same with hers.

the guys start talking and i look up, trying to hear them, but it’s hard with the tv so loud.

fucking bong-su.

i roll my eyes at him as i try to grab the tv controller, but someone beats me to it

se-mi is quickly grabbing the control and turning down the volume.

i can only stare at her as she winks at me.

she knows me better than anyone. she knows my quirks and twists, she knows what i like and what i don’t.

i wish the next time i get a girlfriend, she’ll be just like my best friend.

i hope the next girl i meet is exactly like se-mi.

i take a piece of toast with some egg, quickly biting into it as my stomach growls. i can’t even remember if we ate anything last night—

i suddenly feel her thumb at the corner of my lips, wiping away some crumbs that fell there.

our eyes meet and she smiles once she sees my cheeks turn red.

"you're such a messy eater," she says, sipping on her coffee as she pulls her gaze away, like what she did was nothing.

i let out a big sigh and move my eyes away from hers.

and even if i'm not looking, i know nam-gyu is staring at me.

and i know what he's silently asking.

i’m asking myself the same thing, too.

se-mi: its saturday

se-mi: do u know what that means?????????

she types again before i can reply.

se-mi: get drunk and play.

me: i think i know

me: since im the host.

[se-mi is typing]

se-mi: :D

se-mi: see ya babe

and she definitely meant that, because not even three hours later, se-mi is sitting on the floor of the living room, nam-gyu on the single couch and min-su are on the single chairs and me and my brother are on the big couch. we’re all surrounding a small rectangle table.

se-mi is prepping the board game as thanos opens the beer and other drinks.

"you're taking too long and doing it wrong!" nam-gyu jumps in to neatly put the pieces together as se-mi and i snort, and the guys watch with amusement.

"you're such a pain in the ass," she rolls her eyes and watches him place everything together.

once he's done, he pulls away, revealing the game put together.

but—

"it's not color coordinated," se-mi says, rolling her eyes as she takes one of the pieces. nam-gyu stares at her, confused.

"and you're a messy bitch, so why do you care?" he says, as she rolls her eyes and starts to put them together.

"because if it's not color coordinated," se-mi says, biting her lower lip with concentration, placing the last piece with a smile. "she can't play. it makes her nervous." she looks at me.

my eyes find hers, and i can't believe she still notices every little detail about me.

and if the guys hear her, they don’t say anything. but you can tell on their faces.

i hear her tho.

so i smile, wrapping my arms around her as she gives me a forehead kiss.

"so, who's starting?" she asks, looking around at everyone in the room.

it doesn’t take long for everyone to start drinking and playing.

i think about my next move as my brother moves his piece, but everything gets interrupted when we hear the doorbell ring.

"i thought gyeun-su wasn't coming?" min-su asks confused, as se-mi gets up to answer the door.

"oh yeah, it’s probably not him" she dismisses him with a smile as she opens the door.

and once i see the strawberry blonde hair as se-mi lifts her up and gives her a kiss,

i know damn well who it is.

we all sigh in defeat as mi-na comes into the apartment, tangled up with se-mi.

as se-mi goes to the kitchen to grab another drink, i stand up too to follow her.

she opens the fridge as i place my hand on it and close it, leaning against the door as she stares at me. once she sees my expression, she smirks.

"why is she here?" i whisper annoyed as opens the fridge again with a teasing smiling.

"she is my girlfriend, you know?" she replies without even looking at me, searching for a drink that mi-na likes.

"that doesn't include her in our gaming night!" i whisper-shout, groaning.

"it actually does, because she wants to spend more time with me and also make sure i don’t cheat. and i don’t do that anymore, so here’s the— there you are!" she says, grabbing the drink for mi-na and closing the fridge. giving me a soft smile while rolling her eyes. "don’t be a sour ass, it’ll be fun" she kisses my forehead, leaving me standing there alone with a heavy heart as she takes the drink to her girlfriend.

a long night is coming, apparently.

i hear her annoying giggle every time she moves a piece and the annoying way her girlfriend — and my best friend — hugs her and kisses her cheek when she wins the round.

and somehow, even though i think my brother doesn’t know anything, the way his hand rests on my shoulder and squeezes it when se-mi whispers something on mi-na's ear that makes her blush tells me enough.

“okay okay, who’s next?” i say dryly, trying to get them to hurry up and play.

se-mi's eyes find mine. she scans my face for a minute. when she's done, she stares away, finally moving her piece.

“happy?” she says sarcastically as i scoff.

mi-na’s eyes follow us.

and maybe i’m not inside her head, but everyone in the room can read her mind.

the way she sees how se-mi's eyes always end up leaving hers to find mine.

even now that we're bickering, i know she’s saying something snarky, but when her soft eyes meet mine, i also know she doesn’t mean it.

i’m so caught up in our small argument that i miss the moment mi-na stands up.

“what’s your problem?” she asks, and the whole room goes silent. se-mi and i stare at her, but mi-na’s eyes are locked on me.

i look at her, confused, raising my eyebrows.

“excuse me?” i reply with a disbelieving chuckle.

she crosses her arms in front of her chest. “i asked, what’s your problem?” she repeats.

se-mi stares at her in disbelief and tries to quickly intervine, placing herself on the middle of us. “baby—”

“no." mi-na says, pushing se-mi aside and standing in front of me. "don’t you think everyone notices how much you hate me? you’re pathetic. all of this... over a girl? if you have a problem with me, make it serious. i’ve never had anything against you." my blood runs cold. "don’t you think all of us notice how you stare at her?” she says, now looking straight at se-mi.

that’s when my heart drops.

i gulp, trying to speak, but nothing comes out.

“the only thing i ever did to you was date se-mi.” mi-na says. “and apparently, that’s the worst thing i could’ve done, right? because you love her.” she pauses, like she’s daring me to deny it.

“you pretend you don’t, but we can all see it.” she gestures around the room. “and this pathetic puppy game you’re playing? it’s fucking dumb.” she grabs her stuff to leave.

the guys are standing there, shocked. and so is se-mi.

i want to say something. i want to say anything that would make her turn around and slap me.

because i deserve it. i’ve always been a bitch to her.

and all for what?

dating...

the girl i’ve always loved?

she opens the door, but stops herself mid-way. se-mi is behind her, grabbing her arm, trying to talk, but mi-na pulls away mad.

she turns to stare at me with hatred. “se-mi knows,” she says, and whatever thoughts were in my head just vanish.

what?

she scoffs, mocking me. “of course she knows! even before i said all of this, she knew. but she didn’t tell you anything."

she nods, biting the inside of her cheek. “so yeah, you’re pathetic. instead of confessing, all you did was hide under your ‘little hate act.’”

and with that, she leaves, closing the door behind her.

i just stand there as all the guys quietly excuse themselves, heading to their rooms, one by one —leaving me and se-mi alone.

nam-gyu walks past with his head down, min-su trailing behind him.

my brother lingers for a second, just staring at me. he sighs and gives me soft pat in the back before disappearing down the hall.

se-mi stares at the door and slowly turns to me. her eyes find mine, and i can see she doesn’t even know what to say.

but i do. and i’m mad.

maybe not at her.

but it’s easier if i pretend it’s her fault, right?

i move closer. my hands press against her chest, pushing her, hitting her softly as a few tears slip down my cheeks. i stare at her, furious.

“you knew! you knew this entire time and you never said anything! you kept bringing girls around like it was nothing! like i was nothing!” i shout, my voice breaking.

our chests rise and fall with heavy breaths. the air is thick —so tense, i don’t think anyone in their rooms dares to move.

“of course i knew!” she replies, throwing her arms aside and stepping closer. her voice rises. “how could i not? when you look at me like that? when you keep looking at poor mi-na like that?” her words cut deep, because i’m staring at her in disbelief.

“you’re unbelievable.” i mutter under my breath, her eyes burning into mine with fury.

we’re so close our chests touch, and i can feel her breath on my lips.

and then suddenly, it hits me.

it hits me as i stare into her eyes —eyes that, even filled with fury, are still soft for me. eyes that almost whisper 'i love you'.

she closes them with a big breath and pulls away.

“you never rejected me,” i whisper. she avoids my stare as she huffs, sitting on the couch and grabbing her head with her hands. “if—if you knew, and didn’t felt the same, you would've said something. i know you.” i say, stepping closer.

i watch the rise and fall of her chest, the way she can’t even look at me.

she stands up, trying to say something, but she can't find the words.

our eyes find eachother.

“you love me too.” i whisper, getting close enough to feel her breath on my lips.

and she seems like she wants to deny it, but her own mind betrays her.

she opens her mouth once, twice, but no words come out.

sadness crashing over me —i can’t even describe the flood of feelings. “w-why didn’t you say anything? you knew! and you... why didn’t you—” i ask her, confused, but she doesn't even let me finish.

“because i can't! b-because i don’t know how to be here without you! because i wouldn’t know who i am without loving you! i don’t even remember who i was before i was 16, before meeting you! but i do fucking know that everything— fuck. everything made sense once i saw your face." she says raising her voice, leaving me cold. i can feel my body trembling, only one word away from breaking. "and i— i wouldn't know what to do if-if... if i ever lost you" she lowers her tone to almost a whisper. her eyes never leaving mine. "i wouldn't survive so… i forget. for a while, i fuck other people and i try to not think about the way you'd.." she closes her eyes, taking a deep breath, just like i'm doing. "i try not to think about kissing you. about having you" she opens her eyes with a sigh. "because if i ever had you, and i lost you, i'd loose myself. you wouldn't be here with me anymore. not like my.. g-girlfriend. not like my best friend. you just wouldn't. and i can’t take that" she says, grabbing her jacket as i’m standing there, cold and without moving. "so yeah, i'm a coward. because i've loved you since we're sixteen, and i still love you so much, that i’m not ready to risk to losing it all" she says putting on her jacket and walking towards the door.

i blink for a second before running to stand in front of the door, blocking the way out.

"you won’t- you can't leave." i mutter in shock. "not after saying.. all that" i stare at her with pain in my face as she shakes her head no.

i can feel her hands on my waist and for a second, i think she might kiss me, and i think she does too, by the way she stares at my lips.

but her eyes shut close as she softly pushes me out of the way and opens the door.

"i fucking love you" she says, biting the inside of her cheek as she avoids my stare. i don’t even have to stare at her to know she's about to cry. the shake of her voice tells me. "and that's exactly why this? can't happen." she says, quickly leaving my apartment. i stand alone with tears rolling down my cheeks.

and i don’t even hear the door, but my brother is now standing besides me, holding me in his arms, caressing my hair as i sob.

i sob for all the years i didn’t allowed myself to.

and all he does is comfort me, but i don’t think anything could ever be enough.

because what are you supposed to do when the person you love the most, leaves because she loves you too much?

[midniiights-garden]

Mizu realising she's in love/a lesbian [Headcanons!!]

(A/N: I feel like this is like... already a given but please remember that these are HEADCANONS!! She does not have a canon sexuality. And I know it's mostly the lesbians who haven taken over the show but my content is available for everyone to see and I wanted to remind everyone that I am not going to tolerate slander or trash talking because of a personal opinion. You are entitled to your thoughts and I am entitled to mine.)

Possible TWs!!: Mentions of sex and sexual encounters, M*kio (you cannot stop me from putting this man as a warning I hate him sm), Canon typical violence, Racisim, Homophobia, Mysogyny (did I spell that right??)

Firstly I wanna address her relationship with Mikio in order to fully understand my headcanons.

Personally I do not believe that Mizu actually "loved" Mikio in the romantic sense. She thought she was in love, but in the end it wasn't.

Speaking as someone with a lot of personal trauma regarding relationships myself I realised that I couldn't differentiate between romantic and platonic love. Basically, for me, all I saw was that someone was treating me nicely for once and now I'm attached to them. And for the longest time I thought that was what love was.

And I think Mizu experienced something similar.

Basically, when Mikio treated her like a fucking human being she was like "oh, hey this is nice. This is weird, but it's nice. So I guess I'm in love, right?"

Like, no, baby. You aren't. That's just called emotional trauma.

That's also why she thought she was straight for the longest time because she genuinely cannot tell when she likes someone romantically.

As I often restate it'll take a while for her to fully understand the extent of her emotions, but she'll get there.

Now onto the fluffier stuff :))

~~~

How does she realise she's in love? What's her reaction to it?

I think she gets hit with the realisation as if it were a train crashing into her.

It's just a normal evening, she's probably at a ramen shop with her future S/O with her and then as she's taking a bite of her ramen she looks over at you and thinks: "Huh... I wonder what it would be like if I got to hold them?"

And then it's just a record scratch moment for her where she's like wtf where did that come from.

It's either just normal domestic moment like I mentioned or her future S/O sparring with her (which may or not freak her out bc of the fucking Mikio incident).

But when Mizu successfully pins her S/O down they just laugh and smile, knowing Mizu would never hurt them on purpose.

That made Mizu's heart flutter more than anything Mikio had ever done for her.

She's going to be in denial about it for a long time. Like... a really, really long time. Cue the "but we're just friends"!

How does she react when she realises she's into girls?

Due to the internalized homophobia instilled within her as a child and other such thoughts she starts to think she may be going crazy.

She'll start to pull away out of fear, not truly understanding her emotions.

Which, of course, will hurt her future S/O and cause them to worry.

Seeing her future S/O so distraught kind of triggers something in her. She realises that there's nothing inherently wrong with her, that she's still a person and the person she likes is still a person and that there shouldn't be anything wrong with liking her S/O. She also just didn't like seeing you worry over her, it hurt her more than any blade that she's been stabbed with.

Now onto her actual physical attraction.

Once the whole emotional side of it is somewhat sorted in her mind she finds herself not so subtly staring at her S/O's tatas.

She doesn't strike me as someone with high libido or anything despite what I've seen a lot of headcanons say. But I think shes the kind of lover to enjoy getting her S/O off a lottttt

I don't believe she was ever really attracted to Mikio sexually but seeing her S/O's kimono slip off their shoulder to reveal some titty has her red and hot.

She likes that it's soft. She really likes the softness of her S/O's body.

~~~

(A/N: That's all!! I feel like I was terribly self-indulgent with this one but there are a lot of aspects in which I relate to Mizu with. Which is probably why I care a lot about representing her correctly. As usual, feel free to comment or send asks to my inbox!! I hope y'all enjoyed <33)

[kandicon]

Had to do a lot of walking today, and I am sore as hell. It's fun to see little kids make big, wide eyes at my forearm crutches though.

Anyone can continue! <3

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Do this picrew of yourself, and tell me one thing you did today!

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[felonytaxevasion]

what are ur undersiders sexuality/gender thoughts slash headcanons (i’m asking mostly for aisha bc u’re the no1 aisha fan but i do want to hear ur thoughts on the rest!)

You know I honestly feel like I'm not picky about Undersiders gender sexuality portrayals/ don't have many strong headcanons. Like I'm still gonna answer this question in depth and at length but I feel like the only HC I'd even think twice about is CisHet Rachel. The rest exist more fluidly in my minds eye. Anyways though -

Taylor I personally see as Bi, though I am an ally to the lesbian Taylor truthers. I just find the argument that she's gay because her weird heterosexual larp with Brian comes across bland and lacking passion to be unconvincing. I think Taylor and Brian have a weird relationship because Taylor and Brian are weird outside of their relationship. Taylor feels like she has more natural chemistry with Lisa and Rachel because Lisa and Rachel are both pretty unconcerned with appearing normal. Taylor can just talk to them without trying to do things "the right way" like she does with Brian. I think if you paired Taylor with Amy Dallon or someone similar she would come across just as stilted and awkward as she does with Brian. Gender wise I'm not sure. Im a really big fan of trans fem Taylor it just feels at odds with Wildbow's intention to write her as Cis a lot of the time. I want it to be real though

Lisa - Aspec bi?? gay???? gender????? I really don't know. Obviously she's canonically ace aro as of Ward and that does feel accurate to me, especially in Ward. In Worm I'm conflicted because I don't think her feelings towards Taylor are platonic but I also don't necessarily think they are romantic. It's a secret third thing. I think Lisa's dream is to live with Taylor in a house and share a bedroom and hug all the time and Taylor let's Lisa take care of her and they go on dates But also they never kiss or think about being regular in love. As I understand it this is probably the definition of some genre of queerplatonic relationship which I think this is a real life experience people can have, and if they wanna call themselves acearo because they don't experience traditional romantic attraction or sapphic because they do desire a special kind of relationship with a girl that's up to them. Lisa's label doesn't really matter to me as much as her feelings about Taylor existing in the grey area of friendship and romance does. Gender wise I have no strong feelings, though I think she's one of the Undersiders who could be retroactively declared as Trans The Whole Time without raising questions about things that happen in Worm.

Brian - and I think he is such a typical CisHet man but it would be really good for him and his mental health to explore this. I think he'll go on the journey of self discovery and still identify as a heterosexual cis man in the end but it would be good for him to choose this identity for himself instead of letting society decide for him.

Rachel - she is THE butch lesbian to me. I don't care that she was described that way only because Taylor was trying to insult her face shape she is butch to ME. And also other people too probably. But I think Rachel is like the scary stereotypical lesbians they show to girls in But I'm A Cheerleaders fictional conversion camp. I don't think she dates men I think Biter was either a fellow butch lesbian or the narrator made a mistake she's Gaygay to me. Gender wise I think Rachel just identifies as Rachel. I don't think she has a great attachment to her identity as a woman but also doesn't desire to escape it

Alec - has non binary energy but won't realize that himself for a couple years. I've said before that I think you'd have to misgender Alec multiple times in rapid succession before he even cared enough to say anything and I maintain that to be true. He's canonically kind of bisexual (likes it's canon he likes all genders but the way it's phrased doesn't give him a label beyond "hedonist" which is just. We can't get into it, moving on) anyway he's bisexual to me.

Aisha - now I don't know if I've earned the title no 1 Aisha fan but I sure do strive to be this every day of my life. Anyway Aisha is a cis woman, I've written before about her relationship to gender. She's experienced a ton of misogyny and specifically misogynoir in her life but her attitude towards womanhood has always been more of something she wants to fight for to feel safe, rather than something she wants to escape. I can see an Aisha who identifies differently but I think that compared to other characters like Taylor or Brian who would feel obligated to conform to the gender norms of the gender they were transitioning to, Aisha would stay the exact same and maybe just change or add a pronoun. But really I like Aisha's in text relationship with gender a lot, I don't really read into it in any other way. Sexuality wise she is bisexual which is canon. My only caveat is that in Ward she says she has a preference for boys but I think thats not true. Especially since she followed it up by saying her taste in boys is as close to Alec Again as possible. I think she likes both genders equally tbh but that she's going to end up with a woman because she's comparing every man she dates to her dead best friend.

Sabah - Sabah is high femme lesbian to me. Like obviously she is a lesbian sexuality wise but I think lesbian is also her gender. I think she likes performing feminity but it does feel like an intentional performance for her. I do think she also enjoys experimenting and presenting more masc sometimes but that feminity and her identity as femme is what feels most comfortable for her. Projection on my fellow fictional fashion and doll designer mayhaps but it does feel right.

Lily - I think that she identifies as one of those ponytail masc lesbians, I don't think she identifies as butch per se, like I don't think she's performing masculinity so much as refusing to perform feminity. That said I think masc is a label she would give herself anyway. I think going from Flechette to Foil she starts incorporating more intentional masculine elements to her presentation. I don't think the wards were pressuring her to be femme in any way but that Lily would internalize the way the other girl wards present and try to match. Who knows what will happen when March dies and the cluster bleed through hits Lily hard though because I think May is very Femme.

Anyway these are my many many thoughts that I said I didn't have thank you for asking I love talking about the undersidersssss

[intothepast9]

ummmm marauders hot takes bc I can't think of anything else rn

I don't think I'm doing this as you would have asked but thanks <3

hot takes about characters/ships

jegulus and pandalily present opportunities for us to explore similar relationships to drarry and linny except without having to deal with JKR's characterization by instead having characters with whatever parts of those ones we want and

wolfstar cannot be true to canon in any real sense and be healthy. that's fine. fuck canon

pandora doesn't have to be into astrology, a stoner, or a seer unless she's with xenophilius

Lily and James in canon are basically just these archetypes of masculinity and femininity and jkr is misogynist and made james complicated (if contradictory) and so Lily is not given that type of depth. She's basically a blank slate for us to fill in, so far as her character goes

continuation: Lily probably felt lonely and like an outsider in the Order and married to James. Mary is mentioned as her friend in canon, but we don’t know if Mary joined the Order. We know Lily had to cut herself off from Snape as a friend due to his bigotry and joining a fascist militant group. Yes, Lily was friends with Sirius, their first choice to be their Secret Keeper; we can tell this through their correspondence. But he was primarily James’ friend. They were inseparable at Hogwarts, and when he broke out of Azkaban, he mostly talked to Harry about James and saw James in Harry. Likewise, we know she was friends with Peter enough to trust him as Secret Keeper, but again he was primarily James’ friend. Lily wasn’t an animagus; she wasn’t in the Marauders’ Map, and if she was separated from her other friends and spent her time in the Order with James’ friends, she probably felt left out. She probably felt like she was viewed partially as an extension of James’ life.

hot takes about the fandom

1 . we are a majority women (though gender diverse) group mostly interested in reading mlm fic even though most of us are queer. This is OK but it is an interesting dynamic--why TF do I, a lesbian, sometimes read m/m smut? Make it make sense. I really appreciated Strange Aeon's analysis--(https://youtu.be/kYPOAoVO7Xw?si=0VIO3UVN7bBOQcXe) mlm fanfic can present a chance for us to view sexual relationships in a way that are fundamentally different and unaffected by the same gendered power dynamics we're used to seeing in traditional media relationships. Like reading about some fictional twink, I can understand them being attracted to fictional men in some greater sense than I'm able to understand real people of any gender who are attracted to real men (which is a feeling of like, you do you, bestie <3). They're a way for us to explore relationships without the bodied issues we're used to. A lot of them probably are not true at all to how most gay relationships play out. But that's ok. Apologies to any gay men who are weirded out and feel fetishized.

[catboybiologist]

I unfollowed bc I couldn't watch the drama, but the other day you spent an afternoon telling people that transmascs aren't in as much danger due to bathroom laws & you went as far as to say something along the line of "shut up and listen to women".... to trans men...... many of who've lived most of their life as women, and were then silenced in a conversation about THEIR OWN experiences of risk and danger. You said butch lesbians and trans women have more in common here than transmascs... as if the overlap of all those groups isn't HUGE. As if there is a MASSIVE gulf between the presentation of a butch lesbian and a transmasc who isnt a decade into transition. You have a HUGE following and that day you used it to divide the community, silence people who ARE at AS MUCH if not more risk either 1) failing to present "correct masculinity" in a masculine space - something resulting in violence and rape - or 2) failing to present "correct femininity" in a feminine space where they're just as likely to have cops called. You parroted TERF rhetoric about the massive differences of transmascs (shut up and listen to women!!! Even if you were one!!! Even if you're talking about your own life! You cant speak as a women and you have to be silenced as a man so!!! Get fucked!) and transfemmes, about an imaginary gulf in risk and safety and presentation that mostly doesn't exist except for those decades into medical transition - or who are thin & white and fit the " so much easier to transition" false rhetoric. Ofc transmascs shouldn't use the "oh you really want a buff guy in here" bullshit but MOSTLY ITS NOT US its cis people or one of those exceptional few who do pass well and aren't in the trenches of these laws and conversations. You boiled transmens experiences down to something to be discarded and diminished and it HURT so much to see someone so intelligent, with such a wide following and CAPABILITY to learn and listen, talk the way you did to and about transmascs. SO MUCH uncritical terf rhetoric about who has it easier (to transition to piss to exist), who needs to stfu and listen or has the right to talk based on current gender. It keeps ringing in my ears and it is so hurtful from within the community and someone who honestly should have and hopefully someday will know better. Thanks for listening if you did..... just...... there is no gulf that exists between you and me and a cis butch lesbian and a girly queer man.... we're all in different overlaps of presentation and risk and experience. We can only survive united. Please please think it through next time instead of establishing false dichotomies and spreading terf rhetoric and hurting your own community

At some point along the way of shitposting, transition documentation, occasional science talks, and political venting to my little blog, a subsection of people started treating me as a major mouthpiece in this slice of the community, and I just. Don't know when that happened and how I feel about it. My blog was initially about keeping some reddit queer networks intact, early transition documentation, and chatting science. Basically none of that is relevant anymore, so honestly idk what I'm doing here anymore

Anon I understand your frustration and there's things in that post that could've been way better, and I could respond and elaborate but I'm not going to extensively cuz I'm just so tired

One thing I will say:

About cis people using the "buff transmascs in women's rooms argument" that is what the post was about initially. Removed of any spirals. That was the point of the post. I'm not gonna comment on anything out from there. There's a lot else here that I think is misinterpretations of what I said, or something I said poorly, or something that was just me being pissy and annoyed. But see my first paragraph.

Also, don't jump on anon in the notes btw. Please.

[badgalsasuke]

So that same Karin stan misread and misinterpreted my post where I talk about how Kishimoto's misogyny doesn't cancel out Naruto and Sasuke's homoerotic writing and thought I was instead denying Kishimoto is a misonynist, after I asked her to expand on her point (bc I genuinely didn't know what she disagreed on, her reply wasn't clear to me) she immediately jumped to insults and when I matched her energy she couldn't take the heat and she started telling me I should off myself, which doesn't phase me like babe we're no longer in middle school c'mon, but also started using homophobic slurs against me which is gross because she ships both lesbian and gay ships, like woah you're one of those fetishizers

It was also funny because she was whining about me calling her misognynistic slurs (bitch & cunt, just so you know lol I was already angry by that point) like you don't get to do both babe. But it was until this comment that I finally realized what had bothered her and what she essentially misunderstood abt my post.

So if you follow me you know I have written about Kishimoto's misogynistic writing [LINK] and I would have linked this from the beginning to her if she had told me what was her issue instead of jumping to insults. Anyway, I still linked that post to her and I told her that I don't deny Kishimoto is a misogynist and she simply misunderstood my words on the initial post that started this whole shitshow but I still insulted her bc like I said, I was already angry but also mostly annoyed that she jumped into conclusions, put words in my mouth and decided to attack me based on *her* misconceptions like woah lmao this was so unnecessary from her part.

And it was after I linked that post that she kinda realized that she messed up (she took some time between replies so I know she checked the link and realized her mistake) but she kept doubling down because most people won't aknowledge they did something stupid but it's like whatever girl LMFAO

But anyway, if I post something and you're not quite sure what I meant just ASK ME. If you do so politely I'm willing to explain myself. And I've done that, one time I posted abt me thinking that fanfiction has a role in people's declining media literacy and some of you sent me anons either disagreeing or asking me to expand on my point and I did. I'm willing to have a conversation, you just need to be clear on what you didn't get.

[girlfriendsofthegalaxy]

tuesday again 1/21/2025

hey it's fucking snowing here in houston texas! what the fuck!

listening: toes by the glass animals

reading: the steerswoman series by rosemary kirstein, and the gay and lesbian erotica book of the week, candidate by tracey richardson

watching: various david attenborough documentaries

playing: brief genshin impact report

making: banana bread

listening

glass animals' toes: my best friend's husband and i were chatting about music my best friend introduced us to, and my god there's been so much! i remember back in 2018 i did not expect to like them bc we had wildly diverging indie rock tastes at the time, but they really do scratch something in my brain. very good writing music, bc each album has such a tightly curated vibe and the words are recognizable english but so poetic as to be mostly nonsense. this song is loosely about The Island of Dr Moreau. my best friend has described this song as "like listening to crayons melt"

I'm a man, I'm a twisted fool My hands are twisted too Five fingers, two black hooves I'm a man, don't spin me a lie Got toes, and I can smile I'm crooked but upright

a song for very few blorbos but when it hits for a blorbo it Hits yanno

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reading

im having a brain time that is favorable to reading many books in one week. we're going to start with some i loved and then go to the gay and lesbian erotica, which i did not love and did not finish.

talking about which post led me to this series would give you an enormous spoiler for the book. we're going to yoink the Setting from wikipedia:

A Steerswoman is a traveling scholar, required to answer any question asked of them, as long as the asker answers truthfully in return. Anyone refusing to answer a Steerswoman's question is placed under a ban, and no Steerswoman will answer their questions in future. Only wizards do not respect the Steerswomen, maintaining intense secrecy around their magic. Kirstein's work is often characterized as science fantasy. Jo Walton describes the Steerswoman series as "not only science fiction, but more science fictional than anything else."[1] Cory Doctorow says of The Steerswoman, "even the book's genre is a riddle that you'll have enormous great fun solving."[2] The Steerswoman series addresses themes of technological development, inter-species interaction, and distribution of knowledge.[4]

i ADORED these. i did basically nothing for two days except apply to jobs and read these books. these are physics brain books. these are Science Fiction with the capitals on books. the first chapter has someone derive a bit of orbital mechanics from first principles by making logical inferences from a chart she drew in the dirt about distribution of certain jewels. despite that, it's never boring! sometimes the steerswoman Rowan will puzzle over something for several chapters before something finally clicks for both you and her. the books are one big nested riddle, and you have all the pieces from the beginning! it just looks so strange from Rowan's eyes that you don't figure it out until she does! and even when you figure out one bit you just have more questions!!! and despite knowing a huge spoiler going in, part of it really blindsided me! it was a very clever bit of writing! good job rosemary!!!

and now for the gay and lesbian erotica book, which again has a 3.8 on goodreads and again i have no idea why. published in 2008 by Bella Press in a very indifferent perfect-bound ~250p softcover with the most creasable cover imaginable, our author Tracey Richardson is a Canadian writing about an American presidential candidate. from what i read, the political speeches were the best part of the book. this was genuinely groundbreaking and revolutionary in 2008 for a Democratic presidential candidate to openly support the LGBTQ+ community! i think Tracey put a more progressive veneer on some of JFK's speeches but that's okay they still hit! that man did have some talented staff members and a great stage presence!

i tortured my best friend by reading snippets of this aloud and removing her toddler daughter from various mischief as she cooked, and we got really stuck on the presidential candidate Jane's age. she is forty three. she is a medical doctor. she lost her husband ten years ago when she had her own private medical practice at THIRTY THREE. she left for a year to do Doctors Without Borders, started a nonprofit in America about healthcare access, and is now a second term senator. this had my bestie and i doing back of the envelope math and we can only conclude she never slept or went on vacation.

i have many beefs with this book, both petty and with regards to construction. my best friend got extremely peeved at the description of someone's accent as "a well heeled eastern seaboard accent". WHAT the fuck does that mean. WHERE on the eastern seaboard??? the standard American Newscaster Accent is faintly midwestern. did they have a sort of bland tidewater politician faint drawl? who knows! this canadian author cannot tell us :(

Tracey is a big fan of dropping details very late. eg we only find out on page 8 after a lot of dialogue that love interest/Secret Service agent Alex has a southern accent. Five pages into a party scene we find out she’s wearing a hawaiian shirt. i had to go back and reread the entire party scene with that in mind. on page 42 we find out Alex is an Olympic gold medal hockey player in the first year women were allowed to play Olympic hockey. earlier in the book we see her playing hockey for funsies with her rec league and we also go over her dossier in detail with Jane. either place would have been a great place to bring this up!!!

this book is also very reverent of the office of usa politicians in a way i find strange for a canadian. and for alex, a somewhat jaded civil servant. alex!!! she’s just a rich nepo baby and has good stage presence!!!! stop falling for it!!!

as a bisexual, novels about straight widows turning lesbian really bother me sometimes. this was one of the ones that really bothered me. it's kind of insane how little bisexual fiction there is compared to the strongly represented pan and poly communities. this was 2008 though so pansexuality wasn't really as mainstream, i don't remember hearing much about it until i went to college in western massachusetts in 2013.

i had to stop reading this book bc it hit me with the following:

these are both cis women. does she have an infection??????? is she okay???? the book is not going to get better from here. books rarely start out bad and then improve. i have only a limited amount of time here on god's green earth and i want to read the thirteenth volume of witch hat atelier instead. gentle reader, i hope you understand.

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watching

again if i could log individual children's tv show episodes i would be winning letterboxd. i half-watched a lot of david attenborough docs in the background and fell asleep on a couch to his soothing voice. there are some fucked up little guys on this planet.

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playing

good fucking riddance, even though this is basically a slap on the wrist. the multiple-step in-game currency exchanges in order to get the main in-game currency for pulling for characters is one of the more underhanded gacha systems. gambling is an ancient human activity, it is not instantly harmful or instantly addictive, and there will never be a good way to legislate it out of existence, but i do think some more predatory practices (like this one!) should be legislated.

nothing to report about actually playing genshin this week. a big yearly event approacheth, however. excited to bring you news of the new four-star character, a basket weaver

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making

banana bread embarrassment. i hate my kitchen so fucking much. my fridge and oven both need to be replaced but will my landlord do that???? no. this oven is from 2007 and does not hold a consistent temp, which is fine if im roasting chicken thighs and it randomly spikes the temp and doesn't heat in one quadrant, but it makes it Very Difficult to bake. i think this was a combo of an inconsistent inner temp and forming a slightly burnt crust that did not want to pull out of the perhaps undergreased pans. fuck an aldi nonstick spray i guess. i SLATHERED that thing and it still had to be persuaded out of the pan.

i consistently forget that martha stewart consistently produces baked goods that are just a touch oilier than i like. you could lose a good two tablespoons of butter in this and not notice it much, i think. a very wet recipe. added in one orange's worth of zest bc i like it.

[menlove]

in honor of pride month. how queer (or Not) do you think the bugs are. for science

here's my semi controversial takes okay take them w a grain of salt idk these men (...people?) anyway

paul: I do think he's bi. whether or not he's like out to people around him or even himself who knows but he's. 100% bi. my evidence is well. really everything w john but also just his Consistent flirting with men in so so so so so many interviews. (my joking answer is that he's a lesbian. him and linda are lesbians.)

george: also bi, mostly bc of the stuff surrounding dylan & some of his lyrics. I feel like there's a quote somewhere where he alludes to having done stuff w men but I could absolutely be making that up in my mind lmao. feel like he also could have been sold on the idea that souls are genderless and so not necessarily Be a man in the more spiritual sense. like if he were a 20-30 smth year old today. or I mean even in his actual life I just don't know but I Could See It. 0 evidence for that beyond how many transfemmes I know adore george

john: CONTROVERSIAL ONE IM SORRYYYYY. but he's definitely the one that's For Sure Queer like we all know this. & a lot of people use the bi label bc he had relationships w women & this would be the easiest answer but I'm gonna be really and totally honest... to me a lot of his/yoko's/everyone else's quotes surrounding his attraction to men vs women make it sound Very comphet driven. like his quotes about yoko being the perfect woman bc she was so much like a man/himself in drag. "you think of rock hudson when we do it". him constantly comparing yoko & paul & never really discussing cynthia and in general just disregarding her existence entirely. (which is very shitty btw his treatment of cyn makes me rage, it just also reeks of marriage out of comphet and obligation while he was actually committing himself to paul, whether that was ever fulfilled or not). his general angst around being called gay. etc. to me he reads more as a gay man that never fully came around to identifying that way. but for the sake of not speculating on a dead man's sexuality I'll just say he was Definitely Queer. also given some of his quotes surrounding identity and gender and whatnot I do think he maaay have been gender queer as well but that one is definitely more speculative and vibe based. I could see a modern john or john if he lived being more genderfluid but We'll Never Know.

ringo: token straight I'm sorry buddy. I can enjoy a good fictional depiction of him being bi (shout out to that paul/ringo fic in hamburg that made me chew glass) but as for like. real life I haven't seen a single shred of anything pointing to him being anything but cishet. maybe! but if we're solely talking what I think is Actually going on... no.

[little-lambs-bakery]

The Bakery!!!!

Rules No NSFW, if you wanna flirt that's fine idk be nice to mod Azai, i have done no wrong 💔 PLEASE NO MAGIC ANONS IN THE BAKERY No GoFundMe asks, I'm a broke minor who cant donate This will probably be my most tame blog lol ~~~~~~~~~ You can talk too: >Octavia : The manager, and the Lamb (shes also on the @kali-lamb blog) -Omni (and we have a partner lined up for her) - shes calmest here but may snap if its been a bad day - mostly bakes bc its been her dream to own this bakery -Female (She/her) - 42 yrs old - VC: Clara (erens mother) TOT <<Actions>> Speaking >Lipan : The main register dude, and the Rabbit - Also omni towards women, but will date men - we have a paretner lined up for him too i think - Demi-Boy (They/He) - 19 yrs old - VC: Fern (Adventure time) <<Actions>> Speaking >Payla : secondary baker, and the Squid (her "hair" is tenticles) - Asexual Lesbian - i dont think she has a partner set up for her - Agender (Doesnt care about pronouns) - 18 yrs old - VC: Rosa Dias (Brooklyn 99) <<Actions>> Speaking ~~~~~~~~~~ MOD INFO [Mod will speak like this (had to use a dif color this time TvT)] [<<Mod actions>>] Mods other accs @azai-coi @kali-lamb @the-pink-crowns @from-the-pearled-waters @rascal-the-raccoon ~~~~~~~~~ Other peopls :D @ask-the-three-of-chaos

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MORE TO BE ADDED!!!!!!

[crushedsweets]

i am so so sorry for the sheer amount of headcanons i'm making you crank out, HOWEVER... i am so curious as to if you have any headcanons for nina and natalie as a duo. i love the way you perceive them and write them it genuinely makes me so happy

i had to doodle them . ok. lets go..

nat was one of the first people nina met from jeff, since she and jeff lived in the barn together.

nina thought nat was a lesbian when they first met . that is literally the only reason why she wasnt mad jeff was living with a woman.

although nina was like, one of the ONLY people to notice toby/nat tension and was sooo heartbroken when she realized they were never getting together..... but then was relieved they didnt get together when she got over jeff because 'well i can't be the only single one!'

again, natalie grew up with 0 girl friends, only hung out with her brother and boys. even after meeting the creeps, theyre still mostly guys. so she's just kinda really awkward and weird around girls. not in a like, 'oh girls r so annoying' way but like... she just doesnt know how to fit in. she just feels so different in the worst possible way and always has.

and nina is very girly, outgoing, touchy, friendly, cute, etc. so it was very like UMMM?!? idk. natalie kept snapping at her, assuming she was fake and weird and just trying to get something from nat, but nina was so persistent and just. friendly. it started making natalie feel warm.

nina's presence started to heal natalies inner little girl. she had it stolen from her time and time again, from her dad, her brother, her peers - the operator, too.

so the two are eventually actual friends. they'll text and play mobile phone games together. sometimes they'll just sit on call and nina will be talking her head off while nat does her own thing at home. one time nat was at tobys cabin and nina was talking about toby on speaker and toby walked in and was like 'hey nina' .... nina almost threw up she was so embarrassed.

nina loves visiting nats bar because everyone is always talking to nina and giving her attention and buying her drinks, and at first nat was irritated but it kinda got nat some better tips since the customers started realizing ninas her friend. so nat was pleased. LOL

nat was never the type to go shopping, but she'll follow nina around and sit while nina tries on clothes and carry around all her bags that she buys LOL... ninas made jokes about nat being boyfriend material and nat just flatout says smth about how nina should get over jeff cuz he would never.

nat is friends with jeff but she's oddly comfortable just telling nina that he's a piece of shit. and ninas always like NOOO U DONT GET IT U DONT SEE WHAT I DO and nats always just .. not... impressed..

nina's always inviting nat out to try new foods. nat grew up just eating bread and noodles with butter half the time so it's fun. nina always tries to pay bc 'well i invited you!!!'. sometimes toby tags along but he feels a way abt going in public places..

nina rarely visits jack cuz she has no reason to, but nat is friends with him so sometimes nina pops in and she's always like ^_^ HELLO TALL MYSTERIOUS SLIGHTLY MONSTEROUS MAN... <3... nat smacks the back of her head cuz she's being dumb and drooling over a bunch of rando freaks. ... . ok i love nina and she owes jeff nothing but she is def not loyal LOLLLL AND SHE HAS THE RIGHT TO FAWN OVER EVERYONE she's a fangirl at heart.

they watch a ton of shows together. nina got nat into horror kdrama stuff, but they have to watch in dub cuz nat cant read the subtitles fast enough . . . at first nina cringed but now she doesnt care.

nat's painted/drawn nina several times, and nina almost cries everytime. she's put the drawings up on her wall before but anytime nat's at her apartment, she takes it down bc 'i dont want my art on ur wall stop it' LOL... kinda rude but whatevs.

ugh theyre just so fucking cute guys im sorry i love them . holds them. brushes their hair.

[loving-family-poll]

the bible stuff irritates me first because it's dull and secondly because the actually interesting incest did not make it into the polls smh. now could i have submitted this? sure. but i'm mostly of the mind the bible stuff's the least interesting & most overplayed stuff anyway. derrrhurrr lets make fun of jesus and the two other figures we know from veggietales or w/e. i'm jewish and have superior taste. hmph (that being said, it's still mostly played out. i just want to throw things out there)

cain/abel BORING, PREDICTABLE

lot & his daughters? somewhat more interesting. we have the only good place in utah from that story (moab). yes father, drink this wine so we can have babies with you!! potentially hot, depending on kinks. not as interesting bc there's like classical paintings about it & w/e

noah & ham? intergenerational father/son bonding experience! some scholars argued that ham fucked that old man after the flood. also hot & honestly noah probably deserved that prostate orgasm! interesting! hot! also ham went on to sire nations which is kind of cool

rachel/leah -- cmon. you might say here 'nonnie! this is like cain and abel!' no! this is taking two women who were otherwise competing over a man (boring, worse bc theyre sisters) and making their relationship better!! also leah & rachel are usually depicted as fucking smokeshows and i'm gay and it makes me kinda hot thinkin about it ngl this one's self motivated. but they spend a lot of time with each other or with the two of them and bilhah (rachel's maid, also slept w jacob) and like... feelings develop u know?? also i read this book the red tent as a kid and it was mid but did kinda get me hot too idk (bonus because jacob was already their cousin) reuben/joseph -- reuben was the only brother who was nice to joseph. u got some classic yaoi elements here & ok i'll be honest i think this is an objectively good idea but i saw that the red tent is a mini series w minnie driver as leah and morena baccarin as rachel and i think someone jacked the temp up so i better send this & figure that out lol

sorry for the spam i apparently have stronger feelings about biblical incest than i thought. but hey, minnie driver & morena baccarin as rival sisters turned lovers?? something good came outta this whole thang lol

thank for this EXCELLENT take anon. The bible relationships that people talk about here are just. it's literally only cain and abel and jesus and judas those are the only ones. They don't know any other ones. And the way people talk about them has no actual reference to scripture. Tumblr users just like the religious ~vibes~ and the light edginess of it and those pairs are popular for modern poems and plays and songs to allude to which generates quotes they can use in their web weaves about dog coding and pomegranates (I'm hating but I love those dog motif posts don't be fooled)(still hating but still don't be fooled it is Always Correct to put adam raised a cain by the boss o7 in ur web weave). I for one would like some variety in there and I appreciate ur suggestions! Very intrigued by the apparent existence of scholarly arguments in favor of dadson yaoi in torah. I like Rachel/leah a lot, omg morena baccarin rachel i had such a huge crush on her as a kid my 13-year-old baby lesbian ass watched firefly and it was overrrr 😵‍💫 speaking of lot some other people have mentioned lot and his daughters and I love that one too mainly for the novelty of it. I don't think i can think of a single other depiction of father/daughter rape specifically for the purposes of reproduction in which the daughter is the aggressor like, anywhere else? I love that. There was that episode of house I guess but I dont think that girl wanted to be pregnant 🤔 in general i just think parent/child rape where the child is the aggressor is really fun 🤪<- me getting silly w fictionalized rape

I would like to propose some of my own ships. wholesome one: miriam/aaron/moses. 40 years is a long time you know? Gets lonely out in the wilderness. And they clearly love each other, they do a lot for each other, maybe Miriam and Aaron welcomed back their long lost little brother with VERY open arms. Plus they're pretty mad when he gets married so 🤨

tragic one: absalom/tamar. Two prettiest girls in the world they hated them bc they ain't them 😫 king david's amazingly beautiful daughter and his equally beautiful femboy son? With many half siblings but they're each other's only full siblings? Tamar goes to absalom when she is raped by her eldest half-brother, which David dismisses, and absalom is so furious he kills the rapist brother and has to flee, only returning once he's raised an army against David, which fails and results in his death. And Tamar then raises his daughter (who is named after her) and is left "a desolate woman in his house" 🤧 so sad clearly they should've been king and queen together

Toxic one: Jacob/esau. Twincest ❤️ kind of gay to come out of the womb holding onto ur brother. Kind of gay to spend ur life hunting ur brother for stealing ur birthright with sporadic periods of reconciliation. Kind of gay for this rivalry to continue on to ur ancestors. If the rivalry lasts beyond ur lifetime you are no longer rivals. You are gay