#the problem is he was capable of anything but decency or remorse. the problem is those are the only to things she was capable of in the end

[deiscension]

Did you guys know I love taking emotional damage

[kucherkozmokoza]

★ Dr. Brain | sketch reference

• Sketch reference, with the image of my original character Dr. Brain. Here for the first time in a long time I updated his appearance and his whole as a whole. I want to tell you a little about him:

– His initial image was a floating head in a kind of mechanized spacesuit. He was created inspired by the image of Doctor Fetus from MeatBoy Forever

– His exact age is unknown, but as an author I can say with confidence that he is definitely over 80 years old

– Theo considers Brain his mentor and educator, Aaron himself perceives him more as an pet, a funny toy that can be pushed around. This is his experiment and he is interested in what Theo will turn into under his command. No feelings, except for scientific interest

– And although Brain seems hyperactive, lively, energetic and constantly moving sharply, inside he is absolutely cold and soulless. Although his behavior, playfulness and optimism border on outright madness, he is completely devoid of compassion, a feeling of sympathy for anyone and even more so he is never worried about remorse. Nobody knows why and how he became what he is now

– He is an outright psychopath and sadist, sincerely enjoying the pain of others. He is far from mentally stable. He just likes to do something immoral, because it is so interesting – how far he can go in his actions. A real scientist, completely devoid of any concepts of the boundaries of decency, law or ethics. His social experiment is complete chaos and lawlessness. He can do anything as long as it is not punishable. And he is interested in what his actions will ultimately lead to. Many will consider him a psychopath, but he believes that he is absolutely healthy, only INSANELY curious. He is interested in what methods and how many he can kill or simply maim. He has unlimited power, because he can do anything and eventually find out where it will lead him

– This is what you get if you try to mix an intelligent and gallant gentleman with a mentally unstable maniac and season it all with science fiction. He is like a dreadful cocktail, just as unpredictable and random. You do not know what he can do and this is the worst thing. He can spare you, only so that you fall into another of his traps. Or he can immediately, without any problems, completely deprive you of all limbs. Or maybe he wants to have fun and dance with you? Who knows? That's right, no one! Not even himself. His actions may seem random and feigned, but this is not so. He has excellent control over his body, is incredibly evasive, fast and cunning. The effect of surprise, ladies and gentlemen!

– It's no secret that he, like Abigail, has undergone genetic modifications to his body. Now he seems to be, if not immortal, then certainly hardly aging. His body exceeds the capabilities of ordinary morphs. He is also a specialist in the field of bioprosthetics and cybernetic implants, but that's just by the way. All the prosthetics used by the heads of the workshops in "Genesis" are his merit

[dimancheetoile]

Rant time (and a fucking PSA too)

(cw: this doesn’t relate to anything personal, mental health-related, or any kind of sensitive content. this is about a fandom thing, so there shouldn’t be anything triggering in here. just to be cautious though, content warnings for strong language, swearing and general angry-ness on my part)

ok so here’s the thing. i know the naruto fandom. i’ve been in it for thirteen years, though not all of it on tumblr. i’m lucky to be part of the older community, where all the people i interact with are adults, mature and sensible, who are able to have constructive conversations about the characters we like, dislike, like despite their flaws and dislike despite their qualities. 

now, i’m writing fanfiction because i enjoy it. i enjoy putting down ideas that make me happy, that make me think hard and deep about what i like about the world and translating that into stories i feel are interesting and thought-provoking. 

most of my stories can be classified as being a part of the meta-fandom, let’s call it that way, where adults are discussing deep subjects around konoha’s government, financial stability, working system, casts and clans and workforce, where you come out of a discussion feeling like you know more than you did before. that’s what i enjoy writing about, that sort of deep worldbuilding. i love writing it like rae loves her fluff, y’know? that’s just my thing.

i can’t control who reads my stories like i can control who i interact with on tumblr. and even then, sometimes i get pos on tumblr, so i’m not safe from them anywhere. but generally, as most of you know with g.o.d for example, the worst offenders are on AO3 and tend to be horrible people in comment sections. and that shit happens:

ok so apparently i am “basing their relationship on hating sasuke”. great. i never did that. learn how to read. this is a crackfick based on a stupid, comedic concept, and ino proposes to sakura in a joking manner. now if you’re allergic to sarcasm, it’s not my problem. but here’s what i have to tell you, and every single person who ever read or will ever read my stories:

IF YOU ARE A SASUKE STAN, YOU SHOULD NOT READ MY STORIES

I REPEAT

THIS IS A PSA

IF YOU ARE A SASUKE STAN, YOU SHOULD NOT READ MY STORIES

aside from a few exceptions, he is rarely treated well in my works because he is a character i dislike greatly. now, here’s the thing. i have taken great care in warning people about this. i have written an entire page, linked on my blog, about the content i write about, and more importantly in this case, a list of characters i don’t like. here’s what it looks like:

this list hasn’t been edited in YEARS. so it’s not my problem if you go to read my stories and don’t find a sasuke fan. and i mean, if it was just the one comment, i would never even consider writing this post. except it’s not.

(yeah, i’m not blurring their name, i regret having blurred the name of the commenter above but i did it a while back and deleted the comment so i don’t know who wrote it. reason why is, this shit is public. i don’t condone harassment, and i don’t need people to defend me, but if they didn’t want people to read their comments, they would have gone in guest mode. however if i see anyone being shitty back instead of engaging in polite discussion, i’ll delete your comment, ok?)

now what do you noticed here? yeah, those are two comments posted ON TWO DIFFERENT STORIES.

my take on sasuke is tired? you’re sad at my treatment of sasuke? on TWO DIFFERENT STORIES? yeah, do you a need a fucking reminder that i dislike the character a real fucking lot? DONT FUCKING READ MY FICS OMFG IT’S NOT HARD TO UNDERSTAND. LEAVE INSTEAD OF LEAVING COMMENTS.

(and btw, those are not the only comments this person left me, and most had the same kind of tone to them)

so let me repeat something real quick.

If you like Kishimoto’s Sasuke, don’t fucking read my fucking stories. If you don’t like my fanon version of Sasuke, be it when he’s the bad guy or when i try to redeem him, don’t fucking read my fucking stories.

there are literally countless stories online of this fandom, where sasuke is viewed in a much more charitable light than i ever will, and that, imo, he will ever deserve. this man is a piece of shit and his tragic past is not an excuse for it. newsflash people, i have chronic depression, i’ve survived sexual assault and i had an abusive childhood, and shocker, i’m not a psychopath with zero capability for remorse, empathy, human decency, healthy relationships and respect, like your precious emo boy. your tragic backstory is not an excuse for horrible, abusive behaviour, and if you think so, you need therapy. slapping that kind of behaviour on a fictional character, then defending it, doesn’t make it suddenly okay either.

i don’t need those kind of comments in my life, i don’t want your fucking concrit and unless it’s been asked, don’t fucking give it to authors unprompted. if you’re not happy with what you’re reading, buy a fucking book, or even better, browse the endless catalogue avaibale for free online, written by passionate people who pour their heart into their stories. next time you feel like being a fucking asshole, shut the fuck up and go write your own stories instead of whining about other people’s works.

ok rant over now.