#the way i read this and screamed. sorry.
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#kpp#the way i read this and screamed. sorry.#this is soooo. clutches my stomach oughhh#also would anybody like to recommend me any poetry. holds my hand out i've never actively sought out poetry in this way and it's making me#realize how limited i am by my lack of knowledge. lets hold hands and read together ok?
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hero/villain showdown but one of them has a spontaneous medical emergency and the battle gets put on hold while their archnemesis drives them to Urgent Care
#it should be like. a hernia. or diverticulitis#something intestinal for maximum Awkward Scenario#and the entire car ride alternates between awkward silence and the driver lecturing their nemesis on the importance of regular check-ups#this is funnier if the hero is the one having the hernia tbh. but both options are Very Good#want to emphasize that it is a 'medical emergency ' that is clearly not extreme enough for the emergency room#and the sidekick/henchperson gets stuck in traffic so the hero/villain stays for moral support#they spend 8 hours in the waiting room playing Uno (it devolves into a screaming match)#at the end of the ordeal one of them vows to burn the hospital to the ground with their laser eye powers#and it's Not The One You Think#oh oh oh! ALTERNATIVELY:#it's an allergic reaction; one of them accidentally poisoned the other by using like. soybean derivative in a tranquilizer dart#emphasis on *accidentally*. yes they were technically fighting but That Wasn't Supposed To Happen#so now they're obligated to take responsibility and Stay In The Waiting Room#(can't decide if it's funnier if it's the hero or the villain stuck in this situation)#(probably the villain)#âwhy didn't you TELL me you were allergic to soybeans???â#âum because you would use it against me in combat?â#âas opposed to NOT telling me! which has worked out fantastic for you!!!â#villain being genuinely offended bc they have a biochemistry degree and have invented literally dozens of untraceable poisons#they have the scientific skill to poison their favorite jackass in hundreds of ways#(and have done so before! in admittedly non-fatal outcomes but that was by design okay)#but it's âdangerousâ to do them the simple curtesy of informing them about a SOY ALLERGY????#above all else they consider themself a scientist#and they're LIVID that their favorite (reluctant) test subject lied about their medical history#âtechnically i didn't LIE--#âI read you the questionnaire! the very first time i held u hostage i READ YOU THE QUESTIONNAIRE!!!â#â...the what nowâ#âthe MEDI--holy shit you weren't even paying attention were you#i had you bound and gagged over an ACTUAL BUBBLING ACID PIT and you couldn't even be bothered to--#â--so i was obviously a bit BUSY at that moment! I'm sorry i ignored your VILLAINOUS MONOLOGUING while the BLOOD WAS RUSHING TO MY HEAD but
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⥠Honey, Lemons, And Apple Pie âĄ
(Alpha!Doctor!Steve Harrington x Omega!Fem!Reader x Rockstar!Alpha!Eddie Munson)
Youâve always known in your heart and soul that you are destined to be an omega, scent matched to your bestfriend, Eddie Munson. No matter how hard you try, you canât shake that feeling. Even Eddie gave up on you. Even if you are almost 30 and still havenât presented. But when you meet a sexy, goofy doctor, things change drastically. And fast. It doesnât help that your past is coming back to haunt you.
Warnings: Angst between Eddie and reader(but he makes up for it I swear and Steve is there being sweet and perfect to soothe the burn), best friends to lovers, alpha!Eddie Munson, Alpha!Steve Harrington, Omega!Fem!Reader, mentions of Reader being in therapy in the past and itâs implied that she has shitty parents, soo much flirty banter, pet names, typical omegaverse behaviors, knotting, scenting, marking, heats, rough unprotected sex, minor Steddie, one mention of blood, spanking, choking, pussy eating, hair pulling, face fucking, Eiffel Tower, cum eating happy ending! WK: 17kđ 18+MDNI!
Youâve made a nice life for yourself. You have a good job at a social media advertising company and you were able to save up enough to buy yourself a small two bedroom house. You have your cat, mochi, and your best friend, Lina. Who's also your personal assistant. You have lunch together every weekday and brunch on Sundays. Your life isnât boring, per say, itâs comfortable. But no matter what you do to try and make yourself happy and secure you always feel like something is missing. What makes it even worse? Is that you know exactly what that void inside of you is and you have no idea how to fix it.Â
Ever since you were old enough to understand what secondary genders were, you knew you were an omega. Everything in your body and soul told you so. But youâre almost thirty years old and youâve still yet to present. You thought at first maybe you were just a late bloomer, trying anything and everything the doctors suggested to get your omega to come out. Not only did you not want to disappoint your mother who always assumed youâd be an omega because she is. You also knew for a fact in your heart of hearts that your best friend was meant to be your alpha.Â
Eddie Munson. He presented when you were both sixteen and you both always assumed youâd follow short after him. Youâd never fully crossed the line between friends but you fantasized about and planned your life together, banking on the fact that youâd be each otherâs mates. But by the time you were twenty things started to look grim for you.Â
Eddie had finally graduated and planned on moving to Chicago with the Corroded Coffin guys. A manager there offered them a shot and there was no way they werenât going to take it, even if they failed. You werenât quite ready to leave Hawkins yet, you wanted to stay until your little sister graduated since your parents hardly paid her any attention. It was only two years, you could save up and then go be with Eddie. Youâd have to present by then. You just knew it.Â
But your sister's graduation came and went and you were still just a beta. Eddie and the guys blew up fast. He was on his first headlining world tour following the release of their second album. But he still video called you once a week and texted you all the time. He still seemed like he had hope that youâd be together one day. Thatâs why when out of nowhere, on a random Tuesday in mid August, he called you to tell you he had found his scent match you were completely blind sided.Â
You didnât understand how that could be possible when you were Eddieâs scent match. You knew it in your heart and soul. An omega having more than one alpha scent matches is rare, but an alpha having two omega scent matches is essentially unheard of. You felt like your whole world fell apart that day. Suddenly the words of every doctor, every specialist, every peer and even your parents came crashing down on you. Maybe you really werenât an omega. Maybe it was all in your head. You really questioned your sanity after that. You had a full mental breakdown. It took a lot of therapy, basically brainwashing you into believing what your body was telling you is a lie. Even if you never fully believed it.Â
Eventually you were able to get to a point where those feelings of anguish were bearable. You pulled yourself out of that dark abyss and got a job at the local diner so you could save up and still move to the city. Not for Eddie, for yourself. It took years to get yourself to this point where you were comfortable with your life as a beta. A whole decade to be exact. But there is still that little piece inside of you that knows that isnât true. In your heart you still know that you are an omega. Even if you are almost thirty and still havenât presented yet. You just need to find out why.Â
Although youâve worked so hard to achieve the life you have now, a big drive for you has always been being able to afford to go and get a full genome mapping done. To see if maybe, just maybe, there really is a reason you havenât presented yet. And now, you finally can.
You take in a shaky breath as you look up at the sign on top of the large white building in front of you that reads âOmega Specialist and Treatment Centerâ. Today is the day that will make or break the never ending war waging inside of you. That gnawing feeling that something is just wrong or trapped. If they donât find anything, youâll finally accept yourself for what everyoneâs always said you are. A beta. But if they do find something? You might be validated for the first time in your life.Â
And itâs worth the risk.Â
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Your nurse is a nice, bright blue haired, beta woman who takes your vitals with a smile. She draws your blood with ease before kindly telling you that âDr. Harringtonâ will be in shortly with your test results. You busy yourself by fidgeting and aimlessly scrolling on your phone. You arenât even really processing what youâre looking at, your thumbs just idly tapping on your screen as your eyes glaze over. Youâre so anxious you feel like youâre going to burst out of your skin.Â
Thereâs a soft knock on the door before it pushes open and a whole different type of nerves roll through you. A man who you assume is your doctor walks into the room and he just might be the most beautiful man youâve ever seen. Besides Eddie. You internalize a frustrated sigh at the thought. No matter what you do, you feel like youâll never fully escape him. But that doesnât take away from how absolutely gorgeous this man is.Â
His perfectly styled, chestnut hair looks silky to the touch and his face is almost unreal. He has soft hazel eyes that instantly make you feel at ease. The pointed slope of his nose causes you have to stop your mind from going somewhere dirty and so do those plush lips, outlined in a thin layer of stubble. Like he hasnât shaved in a few days. A sharp jaw that looks perfect for kissing and nipping on your way to the side of his neck that looks like it was made for shoving your nose in so you can inhale his scent.Â
Which strangely enough, when this alpha walks into the room your senses are flooded with the smell of fresh laundry. Thereâs a hint of lemon and something sweet, like whipped cream. Youâve never had the ability to scent anyone before though, so he must just have a really nice cologne.Â
âHello, Iâm Dr. Steve Harrington and I'm going to be going over your lab results with you today.â He smiles at you kindly before sitting on the round rolling chair across from you. âSo, you are almost thirty years old and havenât presented yet.â
Your heart feels like itâs going to stop as it sinks into your stomach and you prepare yourself for the worst. Again. âGive it to me straight, doc.â
âWell, although you havenât presented, your genes are almost entirely omega.â Your heart subtly beats again and you feel it start to rise back into your chest ever so slightly. âThereâs just one gene thatâs off, and itâs very rare but I think it may be the reason you have yet to present.â
âYouâre still beating around the bush, Dr. Harrington.â You glare at him but thereâs no malice behind it and it makes the corner of Steveâs lips tilt up. Youâre his patient so he absolutely shouldnât think so, but, youâre cute. And something about you feels comforting to him. Like heâs known you all his life. Even though heâs never seen you until less than five minutes ago.Â
âSorry.â He chuckles awkwardly but itâs endearing. âAs I was saying, this gene typically only shows up when an omega has met their scent match and their alpha either rejectes them or left their life in some way.âÂ
âOhâŠâ Your heart sinks so far back down into your stomach you feel like itâs going to fall out of your ass. That or explode out of your intestines from how fast itâs beating. Your hands shake and tears well up in your eyes before silently spilling down your cheeks as you stare at the doctor, speechless.Â
âIâm so sorry if I said something to upset you!â Steve immediately feels panicked, like heâd do anything to get you to stop crying and destroy anyone in the world thatâs ever caused you any kind of pain. But all he can manage is awkwardly fumbling for the tissues in his desk and holding them out to you.Â
âItâs just- let me make sure I have this right.â You take a wobbly deep breath. âYouâre saying that I am an omega. But, I havenât presented because my scent match rejected me?â
âYes, thatâs exactly what Iâm saying, miss.â Steveâs eyes widen at the way you growl and slam your hand down on the paper covering the little plastic bed youâre sitting on.Â
âYouâve got to be fucking kidding me!â You let out a dry laugh that completely contradicts the ocean of tears that flow from your eyes. Youâre feeling so many emotions at once that itâs making your entire nervous system confused.Â
'No, I uh - Iâm deadly serious.â Steve isnât exactly sure what to do or say but apparently his body does. He doesnât realize he released an extra puff of pheromones until he sees the way your nostrils flare before your shoulders relax. Your tears donât stop though. âAre you okay?â
âNo? Yes? I donât fucking know!â You throw your head back and groan. âItâs just, for the last decade Iâve been called a delusional beta, put in intensive therapy, and been laughed at.âÂ
You scoff out a dry laugh as you shake your head in disbelief. âAnd now youâre telling me, that after all this time, I was fucking right? Which Iâm stoked about, donât get me wrong. But youâre also telling me the entire reason Iâm broken is because I was abandoned and thatâs just- Itâs just a lot to process, doc.â
âAbandoned?â A growl rumbles deep in Steveâs chest as he rises to his feet and takes a few steps toward you. He doesnât even realize his actions until he sees the way your eyes widen and a faint smell of honey and chai tea hits his nose. âForgive me, I donât know what came over me. That was extremely unprofessional.â
âItâs - itâs alright, no worries.â You squeak out. Your insides heat at his actions, adding a whole new level of confusion to your emotions. Thereâs just something about him that you canât quite put your finger on, something akin to the first time the warm spring sun hits your face after a long winter. You want to drink it in and drown in it. âIs there⊠Anything I can do to fix it?â
âOther than being around your scent match? Iâm not sure, if Iâm being honest.â Steve rubs the back of his neck awkwardly as he stands only about a foot away from you. But he canât seem to get himself to back up. Itâs like heâs cemented in place and the only way he can physically move is toward you. âThere haven't been many studies on this gene in which an omega presents without the help of their fated alpha. The only exception being if they have more than one scent match and that alpha happens to come into their life, which is extremely rare. Otherwise they can go their entire life without presenting.âÂ
Your head hangs down between your shoulders as a sob wracks through you, tears dripping down onto your bare thighs where your pencil skirt from work rides up. Steve feels awful, the fact that youâre upset is really getting to him. He has to physically stop himself from taking you into his arms. âI wonât give up on you though. Iâll do some research on this gene and see what I can come up with, maybe thereâs some type of loop hole.âÂ
That makes your head shoot up, tears still streaming down your face, smudging your pretty makeup. But thereâs the tiniest bit of hope in your eyes and Steve feels like he will do anything to keep it there. He closes the distance between you and rests a strong hand on your shoulder while leaning down so he can fix you in a warm, hazel gaze. âWe will figure this out, omega.âÂ
Youâre taken back the title and it has another wave of tears streaming down your face.Â
âOh, god, Iâm so sorry! What did I say now?!â Steveâs hand on your shoulder runs down your arm, caressing you gently. The fact that heâs upset sends off alarm bells in your head and you immediately feel the need to soothe him.Â
âItâs nothing bad! I mean, it is, but it isnât.â Your hand subconsciously rests on top of his as you're flooded with his warm, clean, scent and it makes your head feel a little clearer. You at least have somewhat liner thoughts for the moment. Steve makes you feel grounded for a reason you canât seem to put your finger on.Â
âNo one has ever believed me. I have always known deep in my heart and soul that I am an omega and youâre the first person in my entire life to acknowledge me as such. Thank you, Dr. Harrington.âÂ
âI- Of course, miss, Iâm just doing my job.â Steve offers you a lopsided smile even though heâs screaming on the inside. He didnât even realize he called you by your designation title. Youâre making his instinics go haywire and he needs to get away from you before he does something truly stupid. You pull your hand off his and he misses your touch immediately. He pats your arm awkwardly before turning around to grab your paperwork. âHere are your test results, my card is attached if you have any questions. Iâll do some research on my end and be in touch.â
You take the outstretched papers and smile sweetly at the kind, sexy doctor, the one who finally listened to you and confirmed every doubt youâve ever had about yourself. âThanks, Doc, really. I canât put into words how much this means to me.â
âLike I said, just doing my job.â He returns your smile with a thousand wat one that makes you swoon. âHave a good day, Omega.â
âOH! I - um - Thank you, AlphaâŠâ Steve turns and leaves after that and you canât shake the feeling that heâs taking a piece of you with him.Â
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You decide you deserve your favorite take out and a comfort movie after the emotional rollercoaster that was that doctorâs appointment so you stop at your favorite Chinese spot on your way home. You ordered your food and youâre waiting at one of the booths but itâs so hot in here you feel like youâre suffocating. Itâs a rainy February day but it feels like their AC is broken in the middle of summer. Your work shirt feels like itâs constricting your body and your vision feels hazy.Â
It also smells horrible in here. Itâs like you can smell every individual dish theyâre cooking in the kitchen and the scent of the three alphas and two omegas in the restaurant blend together to make one sickly sweet, musky mess. If you didnât already pay, you would get up and leave.Â
But they finally call your name and you get up on shaky legs and make your way to the counter. Your body feels like itâs being weighed down by bags of sand and your ears feel like theyâre underwater. Your muscles suddenly ache like you just worked out for two hours straight and your mind is so cloudy you can hardly think straight.Â
You grab your food and right as you turn to leave the door swings open, bringing a scent that is like a saviour among the fragrances flooding the room with it. Itâs the scent of a warm apple pie with a cinnamon glaze. One that someoneâs cooking on a rainy fall day with the windows open. It reminds you of being at your grandmotherâs house on Thanksgiving as a child. One of the few places youâve ever truly felt at home. Home. It smells like home.Â
Itâs then you realize who the scent is being carried by. A man you havenât seen in person in ten years but youâve watched from afar through social media and his very public music career. Eddie Munson.
Heâs even more beautiful than any camera couldâve ever captured. His curly brown locks brush against the leather jacket thatâs taunt against his thick arms. His big, chocolate eyes hold so much emotion you arenât even sure you could begin to unpack it. His cute button nose you used to always poke and give innocent kisses growing up has a million memories flashing through your mind at once. Itâs the same as it always was, just a little bigger and he has a nose piercing now. His lips are as plump as ever and you want to bury your face in his thick, tattooed neck and inhale his apple crisp scent.Â
Eddie says your name and suddenly youâre so dizzy you feel like the room is on an axis and you arenât sure why the floor is coming towards you. Your heart is beating so fast you can hear it pulsing in your ears and your eyes start to roll into the back of your head. Then your mind goes blank.Â
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Your nose is filled with the most relaxing aroma. Itâs like sitting on a freshly mowed lawn after spring cleaning. The windows are open so you can smell the fresh load of laundry in the dryer wafting out while you have an ice cold glass of lemonade. But when you open your eyes you realize youâre very much not outside.Â
The fluorescent lights above you are nearly blinding and the medical posters on the wall tell you that youâre in a hospital bed. But not only does it not smell even the slightest bit like a hospital, the bed beneath you is warm and breathing. It takes a second for you to feel like you can move but when youâre finally able to tilt your head up you couldnât be more surprised.Â
âDr. Harrington?â Your eyes blow wide as they meet soft hazel ones and as you look down and take in more of your surroundings you realize youâre laying nearly entirely on top of him in a tiny hospital bed. âWhy am I here? What are you doing here? Why am I laying on top of you?â
âHey, hey, calm down.â Steveâs strong hand runs down your back and that fresh, clean scent thickens in the room, instantly relaxing you. âYou presented. You fainted and when they brought you here they found my card on you and assumed I was your doctor so they called me⊠But when I got here I smelled you andâŠâ
Thatâs when it clicks in your mind. Steveâs scent. Heâs your scent match. You feel that same at home, bone warming, feeling you felt when you scented Eddie earlier and thatâs when it all really starts coming back to you.Â
The doctor's appointment. Stopping to get food. Running into Eddie.Â
âYouâre my scent match.â You canât help the smile that breaks out on your face despite the events that got you here. You presented and this handsome, slightly goofy doctor is your scent match. âThat still doesnât explain why Iâm laying on top of you thoughâŠâ You giggle.
âYou were whimpering in your sleep and your scent was filled with distressâŠâ Steve sighs as he brings his hand up to smooth your hair. âInstincts kind of took over and I felt this overwhelming need to be close to you. Iâm really sorry if thatâs weird or invasive, I just-â
âSteve.â The sound of you calling him by his name for the first time is like music to his ears. âItâs okay, Iâm glad youâre here. Iâm feeling sort of⊠strange. Kind of like I want to cry tears of joy and sorrow simultaneously. If that makes sense.â
âIt does.â Steve cups your jaw and rubs his thumb along your cheek. You nuzzle into it and he feels like he could melt. âYouâre basically going through puberty again at thirty. Not only that, but you've had a lot of big changes today. Itâs only natural that youâre feeling emotionally overwhelmed.âÂ
âYeah, I guess youâre right. I woke up this morning not knowing if Iâd ever present and now not only have I presented but I have two scent matches⊠Itâs a lot to process.â You sigh and subconsciously shove your nose into his chest, inhaling his scent.Â
âSpeaking of that⊠Your other alpha is hereâŠâ You tense in his arms again and Steve lets out a puff of pheromones to try and calm you.Â
âHeâs not my alpha.â You growl. âI donât want him anywhere fucking near me.âÂ
âItâs okay, honey.â Steve grabs onto your wrist, bringing it up so he can run his nose along it, the smell of chai tea and honey filling his nose. Your scent is much stronger than it was just a few short hours ago.Â
âHeâs in the lobby losing it because they wonât let him see you. He keeps telling them youâre his omega but thereâs no documentation of you being mates and you arenât marked. They canât just let any alpha back to see an unmated omega. Honestly once they see me in your bed Iâm worried they might kick me out too.âÂ
âI wonât let them.â You let out another little growl that Steve canât help but think is adorable. âThis might sound crazy but the thought of being away from you right now sounds like actual torture.â
âIt doesnât sound crazy, we might have just met but we were meant for each other. Itâs normal for us to feel an instant attachment to each other. Being away from you sounds like torture too. I feel this overwhelming need to protect you.â Steve runs his nose along your wrist again and it sends shivers down your spine.
âYou smell so fucking good by the way. Like chai tea and honey.â Steve chuckles gently. âWhich is funny because Iâm not a coffee person. I drink tea in the morning and at night. It soothes me and so does your presence. Itâs fitting.âÂ
âYou smell so good too, doc.â Steve chuckles at the nickname. He might be goofy but as far as he can tell so are you and he already loves that about you. âYou smell like fresh laundry, warm spring days, and perfectly sweetened lemonade.â
âDr. Harrington, that is hardly appropriate! Get off that patient right now!â You and Steve are broken from your little bubble when your nurse comes in with an alarmed look on her face. Youâre sure this looks bad, an unmated alpha in the hospital bed of an unconscious, umated omega.Â
âNo.â You grip tightly onto Steveâs chest and wrap your leg tighter around his waist. Your body heats and you suddenly start to feel the same way you did in the chinese restaurant. You want to tear off all of Steveâs clothes and ride him like your life depends on it right in front of this nurse. âHeâs mine.âÂ
âItâs okay, Iâm her scent match.â The nurse furrows her brows as if sheâs assessing the situation.
âWhy are you written down as her provider then? And why wouldnât you mention that when you got here?â You know rationally that this nurse is just doing her job to protect you but that part of your brain that is starting to feel clouded wants to tear her eyes out because why is she so concerned about what your alpha is doing, does she want him for herself?
âItâs a long story, but the short version is that we didnât know until I got here. She has a condition that made it so she didnât present until now so sheâs having heat spikes, which is whatâs happening right now. But I swear on my medical license thereâs nothing weird going on.â
âItâs the truth, heâs mine.â You muster up enough rationality to know you need to defend your alpha but itâs really hard to think about much other than his knot being buried deep inside you.Â
âAlright, well, in that case you canât be her physician. But all of her tests came back normal so Iâll send in another doctor with her release forms and get you guys out of here as soon as possible.â The nurse scribbles something down on her clipboard before exiting the room.Â
âDonât leave me.â You whine as you squeeze onto Steve and shove your face into his neck. You vaguely processed him saying something about heat spikes but youâre struggling to focus. You just know you canât be away from him. âCome home with me. Need you.âÂ
âI can do that, honey.â Steve caresses your back and politely ignores the way youâre subconsciously grinding down on his leg. Even if it does make his cock twitch in his pants. âI need to go by my place and get some stuff and then we can go to your house, howâs that sound?â
âMhm, yes. I just wanna be near you.â
âMe too, sweet girl.â Steve sighs contentedly. âDo you want to sneak out the employee entrance so Eddie doesnât see you?â
That snaps you back to reality right quick and you feel a rush of embarrassment over your behavior over the last few minutes. You canât see Eddie like this. You arenât even sure if you want to see him ever, despite the fact that your body is screaming to be near him. You wonât cave that easily. Not after everything. He only wants you because youâre an omega now. He abandoned you. He lied to you.Â
âYes, please.â You whine and you want to slap yourself. God youâre a mess. âIâm sorry for-â
âShhh, stop apologizing. Being an omega is going to take some getting used to, donât be embarrassed. Iâm here for you all the way.â Steve gives you that sweet, warm smile as he perfumes for you and you canât help but swoon. âLetâs get you out of here and then we will figure the rest out together, yeah, omega?â
âYeah.â You sigh dreamily. âThat sounds good, alpha.â
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Youâve been living with Steve for two months now. After the first night he stayed with you, you asked if he would stay for a while. And a week later you asked him to just move in. Your place was bigger and nicer than his so he had no issue giving it up. He brought his clothes, his extensive mug collection, and three full bookcases that now line the living room wall. It always felt like there was something missing there. He also brought his fat orange cat, Puff.Â
Being with Steve is as easy as breathing. There was no awkward phase, just a getting to know you phase. You wanted to know everything about each other. From your favorite colors to your momâs middle names.Â
On days you both work, you get home around the same time and immediately get in comfy clothes. You cook together or order take out before curling up on the couch together. You watch each other's favorite movies, chat for hours, sit next to each other while you read. Youâre even binging old Jersey Shore episodes together right now. You drink tea together and he cuddles up with you in your bed every night. But he still hasnât fucked you.Â
Thereâs been lots of kissing and several make out sessions with heavy petting, especially when your heat spikes hit. But it hasnât gone further than that. And you canât help but feel like maybe it has something to do with you. Maybe he isnât attracted to you physically, just your scent. And now heâs stuck with you. You want him so badly though. Especially since your first real heat is coming in the next few weeks or so. You want to be sentient the first time Steve fucks you.Â
You got off a little early today so you came home and took an everything shower, fixed your hair, and put on your sluttiest pajamas that could almost be lingerie. Itâs a little pink silk tank top and shorts set with lace bordering.Â
Steve got home about an hour ago and heâs now in the kitchen, prepping dinner. In nothing but a pair of fucking grey sweatpants. Theyâre hanging low on his hips and thereâs the tiniest bit of bush poking out of the top. It leads up to his happy trail and all the way up to his delicious chest hair. You swear this man is actually trying to drive you insane. You walk up to him and lace your arms around his waist. He smells so good you canât help but nuzzle into the skin on his mole covered back and inhale his scent. You place a gentle kiss on his back and follow it with another. And then another.Â
âHey beautiful.â You can hear the smile in Steveâs voice and his hand comes up to caress your arm thatâs tucked around his waist. You continue your trail of kisses, letting them get gradually wetter and more open mouthed as you go. Youâre trying to kiss every single mole on his back and connect them with your lips to form your own brand new constellation. You run your hands up his chest and back down as you press your body tighter against his back. âMmm, that feels nice.â
âI missed you Stevie.â Steve twirls around in your arms and takes your face in his hands, giving you that smile that makes your insides melt. He leans down to kiss you gently but you lace your hands in his hair to pull his mouth against yours more roughly. You run your tongue along his bottom lip and he immediately grants you access, swirling his tongue with your own. You moan into the kiss and Steve grips onto your hips, pulling your body flush against his.Â
âI missed you too, honey, so bad.â Steveâs voice is breathless from your kisses and he leans down to shove his nose into your neck so he can scent you. You feel his cock start to harden against your stomach and you canât help but grind against him. Steve groans before pulling back so he can look at you. âLet me cook for you.â
âSteve. Do you not want me?â You hate how vulnerable you sound but youâre tired of walking around not knowing. If heâs not attracted to you youâd rather find out now rather than later.Â
âWhat?â Steve gasps and his eyes blow wide. âWhy would you even think that? Of course I want you, baby. I want you so bad it hurts.â
âThen why wonât you fuck me?â You canât help but pout.Â
âHoney.â Steve runs his thumbs along your cheeks. âI just donât want to rush you. I donât want you to think Iâm some meat headed alpha who feels entitled to sex because we are scent matches.â
âThatâs really sweet and all, and Iâm really glad that you respect me but I really need you to start disrespecting me before I go fucking crazy, Steve. I need you to fuck me before my first heat. I wanna be fully here for it.â You rub your stomach against his now fully hard cock and run your manicured nails down his back to prove your point.Â
âIâm also nervous, if Iâm being honest. I know once I cross that line with you Iâm going to lose control and I donât want to scare you offâŠâÂ
âScare me off⊠how?â You raise a brow at him. You donât know what he could possibly do to scare you off.Â
âWith my um - sexual preferences.â Steve clears his throat awkwardly as he looks anywhere but you.Â
âSo let me get this straight, doc.â Steve canât help but smile at the little nickname youâve given him. Your comforting scent fills the room causing his shoulders to relax.
 âYouâre telling me that I not only scored an alpha whoâs hot as hell, a doctor, youâre goofy, smart and youâre a freak in bed? I think I scored the alpha fucking jackpot.âÂ
âAre you sure?â Steve bites his lip as he looks down at you nervously. âI know I seem like kind of a boring guy but when it comes to sexâŠâ
âSteve.â You giggle. âI want you to fucking tear me to pieces and fuck me like a rag doll.âÂ
âYeah?â Steve smiles down at you like you just told him he won the lottery.Â
âYeah, silly.â You press up on your tiptoes so you can run your nose along his scent gland. âWhy would the universe destine us to be together and not make us sexually compatible?â
âThatâs good.â Steve laces his fingers through your hair and yanks your head back so youâre looking at him. âBecause Iâm about to fucking ruin you, baby.â
âDo your worst, Dr. Harrington.â You giggle and smile at him mischievously.Â
âOh, now youâre just asking for it.â Steve chuckles as he uses his grip on your hair to spin you around so youâre bent over the counter. Steve leans over you, covering your body with his firm, strong form. He runs his nose along your scent gland possessively before brushing the shell of your ear with his lips.Â
âI donât know how you could ever think I donât want you. You smell so fucking good and then I come home to you wearing this? God, youâre so fucking sexy.âÂ
âMmm, thank you, Stevie.â You hum as you wiggle beneath him, grinding your ass back on his hard cock. Steve inhales your scent again and licks along the column of your throat before leaning back. He runs his hands down your body, letting the silky material of your pajamas caress his skin. He suddenly pulls his hand back and lands a harsh smack on your ass causing you to moan loudly as you jolt forward.Â
âI love this perfect ass. Youâre so perfect for me.â Steve admires the way your back looks arched over the counter, the way that silk hugs your curves perfectly.Â
Steve spanks you again and is nearly hypnotized by the way your ass bounces in retaliation. He gives the other cheek the same treatment before taking the globes of your ass into his big hands and kneads it. He spreads you open and not only can he smell the rush of slick that drips from your pussy, he sees it wet that pink silk right before his eyes. A wave of your lust filled pheromones hit his nose and thatâs when instinct truly takes over. Steveâs grip on your satin shorts tightens until they rip at the middle seam. The torn material falls down your legs and you arenât wearing panties so it leaves you completely bare for him with your slick, glistening cunt on display.Â
âSteve! These are my favorite jammies!â You gasp.
âIâm sorry, baby, Iâll buy you new ones.â Steve gets down on his knees behind you and grips onto the backs of your thighs, pulling you open. Slick drips out of your pussy and onto the floor and he canât help but growl at the fact that itâs going to waste. âBut right now Iâve gotta fucking taste you.â
He shoves his face between your legs, running his nose along your wet slit, groaning as he inhales your honey-sweet scent.
Steve flattens his tongue, licking a long stripe from your hole to your clit. He sucks it into his mouth before bringing his tongue back down to swirl it around your entrance. He shoves his tongue deep inside of you and flicks it against your walls, practically scooping up your wetness.Â
âOh my god, Steve.â You moan loudly as your back arches further and it shoves Steveâs face deeper into your pussy.Â
Steve feels like heâs going to go insane. Heâs drunk on your pretty moans and your sweet taste. He could eat your pussy until your legs gave out if his cock didnât feel like it was going to explode. He needs you to cum on his face first though. His lips wrap around your pulsing clit as he circles two thick fingers around your entrance before pushing them knuckle deep inside you.Â
âFuck, thatâs so good, youâre gonna make me cum.â Steve curls his fingers against your sweet spot while he circles his tongue around your clit and it has pleasure wracking through your entire body. If you werenât bent over the counter youâd probably fall on your ass from how bad your legs shake. Steve pulls his fingers from inside you and sucks them into his mouth before licking up the slick that is dripping from your pussy.
âYou taste so fucking sweet, just as good as you smell.â Steve mumbles against your skin as he peppers messy kisses on your thighs. He kisses your ass before sinking his teeth into it, not enough to break the skin, but enough to sting deliciously. Steve stands up behind you and pushes his sweats down his hips before kicking them off. He takes his thick, hard cock into his hand and runs his tip through your slick.Â
âPlease Alpha.â You wiggle your ass against him and Steve lines up with your entrance before thrusting balls deep inside you and you both moan in unison at the stretch. He doesnât give you time to adjust before heâs brutally thrusting into you. Steve grabs onto one of your hands and pulls it behind your back and the other comes up to press your head into the side of the cool marble countertop.Â
âIâll never make you beg, baby girl.â Steve uses his grip on your hand and your for leverage as he pounds into you. âUnless you act like a fucking brat, then maybe Iâll make you beg for mercy.âÂ
âFuck, I guess Iâll make a note to get on your nerves sometime.â You chuckle but it morphs into a loud moan when Steveâs fingers lace through your hair and yank your head back.Â
âGod, you really were made for me, huh?â Steve pulls your head to the side so he can shove his nose into your neck and greedily inhale your scent.Â
âMark me.â Steve slows his thrusts to deep pumps of his cock inside you and pulls back so he can look into your eyes.Â
âAre you sure?â It takes literally everything in Steve to not just sink his teeth into your throat the minute you ask.Â
âOf course Iâm sure, youâre my mate. Mark me. Make me yours forever.â Steve leans down and kisses you messily before yanking your head back to the side by your hair and sinking his teeth deep into your neck. It makes your pussy pulse around him as an orgasm crashes through you like a tsunami. Steve pulls back and licks the blood left behind from his teeth marks and then pulls out of you, manhandling your ass onto the counter. He pushes your legs apart and grabs onto his cock, thrusting back into your glistening cunt. Â
âYour turn.â Steve bares his neck to you and you feel like he just offered you the world.Â
You loop one of your arms around his neck and rest the other against his chest as you lean forward to kiss along his scent gland before sinking your teeth into his skin. You feel your bond snap into place and itâs like a piece of you that was always missing is finally a part of you. You can feel Steve in every fiber of your being and it makes you cum so hard your vision goes white.Â
âOh fuck, I feel you everywhere, alpha.âÂ
âMine.â Steve growls and grips onto your thighs as the pace of his hips picks up. It only takes a few pumps of his cock to have him cumming right along with you. His cock twitches inside you, ropes of his cum spilling deep into you. Steve grips onto your face and kisses you deeply. While youâre kissing you feel his knot start to expand inside of you before locking in place. It makes you yelp out but it quickly morphs into pleasure as you cum around his cock a final time.
âEverything feels so right.â You sigh dreamily as you look into your handsome alphaâs eyes.
âYeah, it really does. Youâre fucking perfect.â Steve gives you that boy next door smile that makes you feel like a schoolgirl with a crush. âIâm sorry for knotting you right here on the kitchen counter though.â
âOh my god, Steve! Youâre such a fucking dork.â You giggle and swat his chest playfully. âOne second youâre spanking my ass and ripping my shorts off my body and now youâre apologizing for knotting me. I could stay here all night, honestly. Iâve wanted this for so long.â
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Youâve been doing surprisingly well not thinking about Eddie. Having a super hot, super funny alpha like Steve has helped a lot. But the closer you get to your heat, the more often your mind starts to wander to him. And more and more you start to feel like another piece of you is missing. Itâs almost like he can sense it too because you donât know how he found out where you live but heâs started sending you courting gifts.Â
A few days ago there was a knock on your door and when you opened it there was no one there, but, sitting on your doormat was a little black box. Your eyes immediately filled with tears when you opened it. There was a silver chain necklace with a little bear charm hanging from it. You didnât need a card to know who it was from. Your Teddie.Â
Then the other day when you got home from work there was takeout from your favorite Chinese place sitting on your doormat. The place you passed out in just a few weeks ago. There was a note attached, that read: âI hope this is still your favorite.âÂ
It wasnât signed, but youâd recognize that messy handwriting anywhere. Youâve seen it a thousand times. Passing notes in class, doing homework together, notebooks filled with pages and pages of D&D campaigns. That combined with the fact that he remembered your Chinese order brought tears to your eyes all over again. Itâs like heâs trying to make sure you canât forget about him when youâre trying everything you can to keep him out of sight out of mind. Even if you are still stalking his socials.Â
Which youâre doing right now. Youâre supposed to be working but you have a few minutes before your meeting with your new client so you took it upon yourself to pull up Eddieâs Instagram.Â
He hasnât made any new posts but you look at the old ones like you havenât seen them a thousand times before. His many pictures from Corroded Coffin shows, pictures of his hands and his toned, tattooed body. Heâs so fucking hot it pisses you off. He posts pictures of his nice cars and his husky dog. God, the cats would hate that. You immediately scold yourself for letting your mind wander to thoughts of what it would be like if Eddie joined your little pack.Â
He hasnât made any new posts but he did post on his story. A flyer for an upcoming festival, a picture of his lower stomach tattoo that has to be one of the banes of your existence because every time you see it you canât help but imagine running your tongue across it. And lastly, there was a selfie of him with a caption announcing that he would be going live tonight at 8PM.Â
âMiss, your 1 oâclock is here.â Your assistant Lina pops her head into your office and you give her a small smile as you let her know youâll be in the conference room shortly. You arenât exactly sure who this new client is but your boss said itâs for a big record label. You take a final longing look at Eddieâs instagram before standing up, straightening your pencil skirt and walking out of your office.Â
As you pull open the door to the conference room youâre hit with a waft of deliciously sweet apple pie. At first you think your client brought an actual apple pie with him but when your eyes roam the room it only takes you seconds to realize the true source. Eddie fucking Munson is sitting at the head of the large table with a mousy looking beta man that you assume is with the record label. Your body immediately fills with rage at the sight of him.Â
âYouâve got to be fucking kidding me.â You laugh dryly. âIs this a fucking joke? You really think you can just walk into my work after ten years like it's just casual?â
âPrincess, please just hear me out.â Eddie looks at you pleadingly and you canât help but roll your eyes.Â
âHear you out? Hear you out?â You scoff as you round the table so you can get in Eddieâs face. His scent distracts you but it doesnât outweigh the anger you feel towards him. âYou fucking lied to me Eddie. And you wanna know what that lie did to me? Not only did it break me into a tiny million pieces and make me question my sanity, your rejection suppressed my omega gene for a quarter of my life!! And now that Iâve presented you suddenly want me?! Fuck that!â
Eddie sits there wide eyed, his jaw nearly on the floor as he processes your words. âI didnât - I didnât know. I was just trying to protect you. What if I really did find my scent match and she didn't want a beta around? I thought - I thought I was doing the right thing⊠But I never stopped missing you.â
âI find that really hard to believe, Edward. Youâve been living out all of your wildest rockstar dreams, I really doubt that youâve spent all these years thinking about some girl you grew up with.â You feel tears start to burn the rims of your eyes but you force yourself to keep them inside. He doesnât deserve to see you cry.Â
âSweetheart, youâre not just some girl to me. You never have beenâ Eddie looks at you pleadingly as he reaches for your hand but you snatch it away and he deflates. âPlease, just give me a chance?â
âYou want a chance? Bombarding me at my place of work isnât the right way to go about it, Eddie. This wasnât cool.â You shake your head frustratedly. âI canât take this deal, Iâm really sorry. Iâll have my assistant give you the card for our sister company and Iâm sure they can help you out.â You look at the man who is awkwardly sitting next to Eddie in silence and shoot him a polite smile. âHave a nice day.â
You turn around to leave but Eddie calls your name and as much as you donât want to give him the time of day you canât help but look back at him.Â
âPlease, donât shut me out. I need you. I miss you. Iâll do anything.â The look in Eddieâs eyes and the way his shoulders sag make the omega in you want to curl up in his lap and shove your nose in his neck, anything to make your alpha feel better. But you fight against it.
âYou donât want me to shut you out, Eddie? Maybe find a better way to go about it than this.â You sigh heavily as you look into his eyes. âThank you for the necklace, Iâll see you around.âÂ
You turn and walk out of the room but not before Eddieâs eyes flash to your chest where he sees the little silver bear resting against your soft skin. Youâre wearing it. Maybe thereâs a chance for him yet. He will do anything and everything to prove to you that he wants you, that heâs always wanted you.Â
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âWhoa, hey! Whatâs going on?â Steveâs eyes blow wide as he gets up off the couch to rush toward you. You pushed the front door open so hard that it slammed against the wall before slamming your purse on the kitchen island. âHoney, whatâs wrong?â
âHe has some fucking nerve showing up at my job like that!!â You growl as you rip your coat from your body and throw it on the ground. âWho the fuck does he think he is?! Bombarding me at work after not seeing me for a fucking decade!!â
Your chest heaves as you kick your heels from your feet across the room. It only takes Steve a second to gather who âheâ is. Especially considering how worked up you are. He canât help but think youâre adorable huffing and puffing around like this. Heâs also worried though.
âBaby.â Steve walks over to you and lets off a wave of his pheromones to try and calm you. It works a little, enough to get you to stop growling long enough to look at him. He rests his hands on your shoulders before running them up and down your arms soothingly. âDid Eddie show up at your work? Is that whatâs happening right now?â
âYeah! He fucking got his production company to set up a deal with my office just so he had a reason to see me!â You growl. âHe just showed up after all these years, looking sexy as ever, smelling like a goddamn apple pie, with his stupid fucking face calling me that stupid fucking nickname he gave me when we were eight. Looking at me with those wet, pathetic, puppy dog eyes, ugh!!â
Steve canât help but chuckle a little. He has to give Eddie props for creativity.Â
âIâm sorry he did that to you, sweet girl.â Steve hums as he leans down to kiss his mark on your neck and it lights up every nerve in your body. âBut it kind of seems like you were a little happy to see himâŠâ
âWhat?!â You gasp and pull back so you can look in Steveâs eyes. Heâs smirking and you kind of want to slap him. âI was not happy to see him, Steve! I canât stand him. Itâs like youâre on his side or something.â You pout.Â
âHey, donât get it twisted. I am loyal to you first and foremost. At the end of the day I will do whatever makes you happy.â Steve takes your face in his hands. âIf you want to give Eddie a chance, I support that. If you want to reject him, Iâll support that too. But I will say that I think you will regret the ladder. Youâll just be hurting yourself all over again if you reject him. I do think you should make him work for it though.âÂ
âWhat did I do to deserve you, Steve Harrington?â You look at him with teary, wonder filled eyes. âYouâre perfect, you know that?â
âI could say the same thing about you, my love.â Steve smiles at you sweetly before leaning down to nuzzle his nose against yours. âBut I do think you should think about what I said.â
âI will.â You nod and press a sweet kiss to his lips. âI might have seen that heâs going live tonight when I was stalking his instagram earlier⊠Would it be weird if I tuned in?â You bite your lip anxiously.Â
âNot at all, I think heâd probably cream his pants if he saw your username pop up.â Steve smirks down at you. âEspecially after that display today, it seems like heâs desperate for your attention. Throw the dog a bone. But like I said, make him work for it. You deserve the world, make him prove to you that heâs worth forgiving.âÂ
Eight oâclock rolls around and youâre cozied up on the couch with Steve and the cats. He bent you over in the shower and ate you like a starved man before fucking you until you screamed. Eddie is supposed to go live any minute now and anxiously scroll through instagram while Steve reads his current book of the week beside you. You finally get the notification that heâs live and your hand shakes when you click on that little circle with his photo in it.Â
âHey guys.â Eddie smiles but it doesnât quite reach his eyes the way you remember. He looks so fucking good though. Heâs wearing a tight black tank top, displaying his toned, tattooed arms. And his fluffy hair is up in a messy bun, like he just took a nap. You canât see the lower half of him but he has his knee propped up in view of the camera and heâs wearing fucking grey sweatpants. What is it with these men in your life and grey sweatpants? Itâs like theyâre trying to make you a puddle of slick or something.
âItâs been a while since I went live. But I have a song I wanna share with you guys, I hope you like it.â You watch as Eddie pulls his acoustic guitar in his lap and begins to play.Â
He plucks the first few notes of the song with his skillful fingers before his voice joins in. Itâs been a long time since you heard it like this. Corroded Coffin is first and foremost a metal band. Eddieâs harsh vocals and rough high notes are otherworldly, he commands every room heâs in and his stage presence is mesmerizing. Youâve heard every single one of their songs. Youâve listened to his entire discography back to back a hundred times and thereâs maybe three ballads in total. Ones you secretly hoped were about you.Â
But when you were younger, Eddie would always serenade you with his acoustic. Heâd sing to you on warm spring days while you had a picnic, or while you dozed off in his bed in his trailer. They were always songs about princesses and dragons. He wrote a few songs about all the reasons he loved you that could be passed off as platonic but were just barely teetering the line of something more. As he begins to sing you realize you recognize this song, itâs one of those songs that was about you. Itâs different now though, itâs not borderline romantic, itâs a full blown love song.Â
Eddie sings about how beautiful you are, how easy being around you has always been, he sings about your late night milkshake runs to the diner and how his life wouldâve never been the same without you. Even if youâre the only person in the world who knows it, heâs singing this just for you. To you. You arenât sure if he knows youâre watching but the fact that heâs doing it even with the slim chance that youâd never see it means a lot to you.Â
You donât even realize youâre crying until Steveâs thumb comes up to wipe away your tears. Heâs watching over your shoulder and he doesnât feel jealous at all. He feels like something is missing. Like he knows Eddie is supposed to be here with the two of you. He would never push you to do anything but he really thinks you should at least hear him out. Plus youâre not wrong, Eddie is hot as hell.
Eddie plays the last few notes of the song before leaning down to get a better look at the comments flooding in. Theyâre mostly people wondering who the song is about and girls thirsting after him. You canât help yourself and you drop a little pink heart emoji. And you canât stop the butterflies that start to flutter in your belly at the way Eddieâs eyes grow comically large when he sees your comment.
âTo all of you guys asking who this song is about, itâs something I wrote a long time ago.â Eddie chuckles gently. âWhen I played it for her originally, I changed the lyrics around so it seemed a little less romantic because back then we were just two best friends pretending we werenât in love with each other. This is the way it was originally written though. Iâve taken a few liberties since itâs been so long⊠But I didnât change much.âÂ
He takes a deep breath before looking directly into the camera and saying your name. âI love you. Iâve always loved you. I know I fucked up. Bad. But please, just give me a chance to explain? Youâre not just my omega because of whatever cosmic bullshit that made us scent matches, youâre also my best fucking friend. I would choose you even if you werenât meant for me. Even if you were a beta. Like I shouldâve before. I was young and dumb but I love you and Iâll do anything it takes to prove that to you. Iâll go all the way to Mordor and back if thatâs what it takes, princess. Just say the word.â
Eddie smiles at the camera gently before ending the live.Â
âWow.â Steve blows out a puff of air as he looks down at you. Thereâs tears streaming down your pretty face in buckets and he canât help but pull you into his lap. He runs his hands along your back soothingly. âThat was⊠Are you okay?â
âI - I donât even know.â You laugh but it turns into a sob. âI miss him so much but Iâm scared, Stevie.â You tuck your face into his neck and inhale his fresh scent to help ground you a little.Â
âI know, honey.â Steve hums as he smoothes out the back of your hair. âBut I think youâll feel better if you just talk to him. And I canât lie, I have to give him props for that, it was smooth as hell. I feel like even I was swooning a little.â
âSteve!â You chuckle as you swat his chest playfully.Â
âIâm sorry baby, but I have to admit, the man is pretty and talented.â Steve shrugs as you look at him in shock. Youâre about to tease him because it kind of seems like he has a crush on Eddie but your phone dings a bunch of times in a row, distracting you. When you pick it up and look at it, you see instagram message notifications from Eddie.Â
âThank you for watching, princess.â
âPlease just give me a chance to explain myself?â
âIâll be at the diner near your work tomorrow at 5PM. Will you meet me? Just to talk.â
âI was such a fucking idiot for letting you go. But I never will again, if you just give me a chance. I miss you so much.â
You read the messages and take a deep breath, throwing your head up toward the ceiling. You gather your thoughts for a moment before typing out your reply. As angry as you still are with Eddie, you know that you canât live without him. If you reject your bond itâll be like losing a limb and youâve already lost him once.Â
âOkay.â Is all you type before hitting send.Â
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âAre you sure about this?â Steve stops you by your shoulders to look into your eyes. Itâs a little after five and youâre standing outside the diner Eddie said to meet at. You wouldâve been earlier but you wanted to go home and change. You also decided last minute that you wanted Steve to come with you. You said no when he originally offered (without pressure of course because heâs perfect in every way) but after thinking about it, you realized it would be best to be upfront with Eddie about Steve. If he isnât okay with Steve being part of your life, then heâs already ruined his chance. So itâs also a bit of a test.Â
âYeah, letâs fucking do this shit.â You give Steve a determined nod before pressing a kiss to his lips and marching into the diner with your head held high. Steve watches after you for a second, youâre so fucking cute when youâre all fired up. Plus the way your ass looks in those shorts is almost criminal.Â
You look around the dimly lit diner. Thereâs black and white checkered flooring and retro art on the walls. The tables and chairs are a shiny red that perfectly matches the red and silver counter bar. You look around for Eddie and it isnât hard to spot him. The diner isnât very busy, thereâs an old man sitting at the bar and a younger couple in a corner booth. And then thereâs Eddie. Sitting in one of the large round booths, looking annoyingly irresistible. His hair looks like he just washed and styled it and heâs wearing a white cut off band tank that has his toned, fully tattooed arms on display. Thereâs a soft look in his pretty brown eyes when they meet yours but when they travel to Steve who has his arm resting on his lower back his lip curls up in a snarl. Shit.Â
âWho the hell is that?â Eddieâs voice comes out as a growl as you approach the table and stop a few feet away.Â
âThis is Steve, heâs my alpha.â Your eyes shoot daggers at Eddie, challenging him to question you. âIs that going to be a problem? Because if it is, then we can just leave.â
âNo, donât go!â Eddieâs look softens again as he urgently shakes his hands in front of him. âI was just surprised, Iâm sorry, please donât go.â
âItâs fine. Me and Steve are a package deal though. There is no me without him.â You cross your arms, pushing your tits together in your little tank top and it makes Eddieâs cock stir. âHeâs my scent match too.â
âGod, I missed your sassy little self.â Eddie smiles at you and it takes everything in you to not just cave and forgive him on the spot.Â
âI really want to punch you in the fucking face, Eddie.â Steve bursts out laughing at that and Eddie canât help the smirk that spreads across his lips.Â
âWell, if thatâs what it takes for you to forgive me, Iâll gladly let you punch me in the face as many times as you want.â That makes you snort out a laugh, the tension between the three of you easing a bit. You slide into the booth next to him and Steve follows suit. Eddieâs crisp, warm apple cinnamon scent floods your nose and it makes you clench your thighs to try and hide the scent of the slick that drips into your panties.Â
âI missed you.â Eddie rests his forearm on the table so he can turn toward you and you have to physically rip your eyes away from his ringed hand spread out on the table. It doesnât help that heâs still wearing the skull ring you got him back in highschool.
âI missed you too, Eddie.â You sigh as you look over at him with sad eyes and Eddie wishes he could kick his own ass for it.Â
âIâm sorry.â Eddie takes in a shaky deep breath as he closes his eyes, grounding himself before meeting your gaze again. âI was such a fucking idiot, princess. I really thought I was protecting you. Iâd never hurt you just to hurt you. I didnât know youâd just disappear from my life. I didnât know Iâd⊠I didnât know this would happen. I didnât know it could happen. Iâm so sorry I did this to you.â
His bottom lip quivers as he looks up at the ceiling to try and keep the tears in his water line from falling.Â
âYou knew I loved you Eddie, you knew I had always imagined us together. In what universe would you telling me that youâd never want to be with me, that you found someone else, not be painful?â The wide eyed look of hurt on your face makes Eddie blink hard, a few stray tears spilling down his cheeks.Â
âIf the roles were reversed, if I was an omega and you never presented as an alpha I wouldâve stuck by you, Eddie. Yeah, my silly childhood dream was for us to be fated mates but that wasnât all it was about. It was about you, about us, not just our designations. If you didnât love me, you couldâve just said so, you didnât have to go to all this trouble to lie in order to reject me. Or if you really did care that much about if I was an omega or not, if thatâs what was make or break for you, maybe I just never really knew you at all.âÂ
âNo.â Eddie brushes the tears on his cheeks away with his ringed thumb. He doesnât deserve to cry right now. âThat is not how it is, at all. Iâm just a fucking idiot. I loved you, I love you more than Iâve ever loved anything in my entire life. I got in my head, I convinced myself that shutting down any chance of us being together was the right thing. I thought if I told you I found my omega before I actually did, it would be easier for us both in the long run. I made that decision for both of us and that wasnât fair, I shouldâve talked to you first. But I didnât, I smashed your heart into a million pieces. I gave up on you. You knew you were an omega, my omega, and I didnât listen. Iâm not any better than your parents and all those doctors. I failed you.âÂ
âYeah, you did.â You look over at Eddie with your brow furrowed, you want so badly to go off on him, be mean like you always planned. But now that youâre here? Smothered between His cozy autumn and Steveâs fresh spring scent, you feel at home, you feel complete. Steveâs hand finds your bare thigh, his thumb gently caressing your skin, grounding you with his presence in the way he does. You peer over your shoulder at him, he gives you a reassuring nod and it gives you the courage to go on.Â
âYou broke me, Eddie. You shattered me into a million pieces. Not only did you break my heart, you broke my mind too. Every single word of doubt and discouragement Iâd heard in those years flooded me to the point that I questioned my entire existence. I knew I was an omega, I knew with every fiber of my being. But no one believed me. Not even the one person who was always there for me. So maybe it really was just all in my head, huh?â You shake your head as you chuckle dryly. âDoctors deemed me mentally unwell and delusional. I was forced into rehabilitation therapy and they wouldnât let me stop until I finally just lied to them and told them I knew I was a beta, that I was ready to let my âfantasyâ about being an omega go. Even if I never truly believed it. Do you have any idea how hard that was for me?â
âGod fucking damn it.â Eddie groans and pushes the heels of his hands into his eyes. âThatâs fucking disgusting, sweetheart. Iâm so sorry. I wish I had words for how fucking sorry I am. I never should have left you. It was the worst thing Iâve ever done and I completely understand if you want nothing to do with me for the rest of our lives, Iâll respect that. But, god, it would kill me. Iâll do anything, anything to prove to you that I was wrong. I havenât been happy since I lost you. I achieved my biggest dreams but it felt dull and grey without you. Nothing has ever felt right without you. Iâd give it all up in an instant if it meant I could go back in time and spend it with you instead. Iâm such a fucking dumb ass.âÂ
âYeah, you are.â You giggle as you look over at Eddie with tears in your eyes and he canât help the goofy smile that spreads across his lips. âI never could stay mad at you, could I?âÂ
âNah, you canât resist my dorky ass.â Eddie chuckles and he takes your hands in his before the look on his face turns serious. âI understand if you stay pissed at me though, you have every right to be.â
âOh, Iâm gonna be pissed for a while.â Eddieâs face falls slightly but you squeeze his hands to keep his eyes on you. âBut, I quite like the look of the pathetic beggar on you, Munson, so I think Iâll keep you around.âÂ
âYeah? Youâd bestow such a high honor on a lowly peasant like me, fair maiden?â Eddieâs eyes twinkle with hope and you couldnât dream of crushing it.Â
âYeah, dumby. But you better not fuck it up.â You roll your eyes and shove his shoulder playfully.
âWouldnât fuckinâ dream of it, princess.â Eddie smiles at you and it heats your entire body, a million good memories flashing through your mind. Â
âKiss, kiss, kiss.â Steve whisper chants on the opposite side of you and Eddie doesnât need to be told twice, he takes your face in his hands so he can pull your lips against his own. Youâve kissed Eddie before, a playful peck as children, that one time you learned how to make out by practicing on each other. But nothing like this.Â
Eddieâs lips feel like heaven as they mold perfectly against yours. Your entire body lights up like wildfire and you donât think any amount of clenching your thighs could cover up the smell of the slick that drips out of you at his taste. Eddieâs tongue sweeps across your bottom lip and you open your mouth so he can slip it inside, your hands find purchase in his curly mane as you tangle your tongues together. You start going at it like horny teenagers, almost completely forgetting where you are until Steve clears his throat.Â
âYou guys are really hot together and all, but we are in a public space and the pheromones coming off the two of you could send even a beta into a frenzy.â Steve chuckles at the way Eddieâs face turns bright red and you stick your tongue out at him. He thinks he could get used to this dynamic.Â
âOooh, Stevie, you think Eddie is hot?â You wiggle your eyebrows at him.Â
âHoney, look at him.â Steve gestures toward Eddie with an almost lustful look in his eyes and the images of them making out that flood your brain have another wave of slick dripping from you.Â
âI think your boyfriend is hitting on me.â Eddie leans down to whisper in your ear loud enough for Steve to still hear. His warm breath fans out against your neck as his scent almost swallows you whole and you want him to sink his teeth into your mating gland right fucking here. âBut that's okay because heâs pretty cute.â
âHeâs so sexy, right?â You giggle.Â
The three of you bound easily, meshing together like the missing pieces of a puzzle. You order food, crack jokes, tell life stories. Eddie tells Steve what you were like growing up and Steve tells the both of you about how he was in highschool. All while youâre practically glued to the seat by the slick thatâs now seeping out of your yoga shorts. You know this isnât the time to be absolutely feral but the longer you sit here between them the more horny you get. They both smell intoxicating and their body heat pressed to either side of you warms you from the inside out to the point that youâre starting to sweat and overheat. But the thought of not being between them at this moment makes you whine deep in your throat.
âWhoa, honey.â Steve stops talking abruptly, his eyes searching your face. âYou okay?â
âYeah, I just - I was thinking about how we are going to have to leave soon and I got really anxious all of a sudden.â You tangle your hands together as you look down at your lap.Â
âHey.â Eddie rests his fingers under your chin, tilting your head up so youâre looking at him. He smiles gently. âIâm not going anywhere, okay? As long as you want me, Iâm yours.â
âThat makes me really happy to hear, Eddie.â You smile back but it doesnât reach your eyes. âItâs just right now the thought of walking away from you after this even just for the night, I donât know, it just sounds really awful if that makes sense? God, is it hot in here?â
Steveâs hand rests on your forehead, checking your temperature. He observes the thin layer of sweat on your skin, how strong your scent is, the hazy look in your eyes. âBaby, I think youâre going into heat.â
âWhat? Itâs probably just one of my heat spikes, I just need some fresh air-â Your words are cut short by a stabbing pain in your abdomen that makes your body bend in half. âOh my god, ow! Shit, okay, maybe youâre right.â
âFuck, should I go?â Eddie looks over your shoulder at Steve in a panic. The thought of leaving you right now disgusts him but he isnât exactly sure where he fits in this puzzle yet. Steveâs eyes widen as he shakes his head slowly while mouthing the word ânoâ.Â
âNo!â Your hands fly to Eddieâs arm in a panic, your nails digging into his bare skin from the strength in which you latch on. âPlease, no. Donât leave me again, Eddie, I need you.â
âSweetheart, youâve barely even forgiven me.â Eddie pulls your hands from his arm and takes them in his own, caressing your heated skin gently. His touch calms you a bit and slight embarrassment sets in at your desperation. âAre you sure? I donât want to do anything youâll regret when your heat is over.âÂ
âIâm still upset with you, Eddie. But I donât think Iâll ever forgive you if you donât stay with me through this. I need you with me.â You meet his eyes, forcing the haziness from taking over just long enough so he can see how much you mean it. âI am still sound of mind enough to know that I want this, I want you. Please?â
âI donât ever want to hear you beg me for a single goddamn thing, alright?â Eddie drops your hands so he can cup your cheeks instead. âI am the only one who should ever be begging for anything in this relationship. I will always give you what you need.âÂ
The way his words mirror the ones Steve said to you before he fucked you the first time heats your body and your heart. A few months ago you were still a lonely beta and now youâre an omega, with two alphas that are devoted to you and your happiness.
âWhat if Iâm a real bad girl and you have to punish me until I beg you to stop or let me finally cum?â The haze in your eyes returns as you look at Eddie lustfully, your bottom lip secured between your teeth. Steve and Eddie both groan in unison as a puff of each of their pheromones fills your nose, making you dizzy.
âOh, jesus fucking christ.â Eddieâs cock feels like itâs going to burst out of his jeans and he really isnât sure whatâs stopping him from knotting and claiming you right here in this booth.Â
âAlright, we better get the fuck out of here before it starts getting pornographic.â Steve chuckles as he starts to slide out of the booth but you latch onto his arm with both of yours, stopping him. âHoney, Iâm going to go pay and Eddie is going to take you out to the car, then we will get you home and give you all the knots you want, alright?â You let out a cute little growl as you clutch onto him tighter.Â
âPrincess, itâs okay.â Eddie grabs your hands and gently pulls them off Steve. âSteve will be just a second, right Steve? And then we will all go in the same car together. We can leave Steveâs car here.â
âWhat? Why my car? I know the way there, I should be the one driving.â Steve raises a brow at Eddie.
âNo offense dude, but, I saw your mom wagon and I'd waaay rather leave that here than my Lambo. You can drive, though.â Eddie pulls his keys from his pocket, points the fob toward his car to unlock it, and throws Steve the keys before picking you up bridal style and carrying you out of the diner.Â
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It takes everything in Eddie to not sink his cock into your dripping heat in the passenger of his two seater. The drive to your house is only about ten minutes but youâre sitting on his lap and the material of his jeans is soaked through from you grinding your needy, slick dripping pussy against him. It doesnât help that youâre pawing at his clothes while you look at him with big desperate eyes and your scent was so thick in the small space he felt high off of it. âPrincess, the first time I fuck you is not going to be in my car, okay?â
âWeâre almost there honey, only like one more minute.â Steve peaks over at you and he feels like his cock is going to explode out of his jeans.Â
When Steve pulls into the driveway heâs barely parked before heâs out of the car and speed walking around the front. He pulls the passenger door open and practically rips you from Eddieâs lap and speed walks toward the front door with Eddie close on his heels. Once youâre inside he heads directly for your room while you writhe around in his arms.Â
Steve throws you down on the bed amongst the various pillows and articles of clothing youâve been arranging there for the last week. Your skin is flushed and covered with a sheen of sweat and your little pink yoga shorts are completely soaked at the crutch, making them a shade darker. Youâre breathing heavily, making your tits bounce in your little top and the look in your eyes is feral. Eddie comes to stand at the end of the bed with Steve and your knees subconsciously fall to your sides, causing a strong wave of your arousal to waft through the room.Â
âPlease?â You whine as you look up at them with glassy eyes, theyâre both so fucking hot. Steve in his tight white t-shirt that you can just barely see his chest hair through and his thick cock straining against his jeans that always seem to mold perfectly with his body. His chestnut hair is tousled and his hazel eyes are almost black as he stares down at you hungrily. That goddamn cut off shirt Eddie is wearing shows off his tattoo covered arms and it hits just above his belt, giving you a delicious view of his happy trail and slutty lower stomach tattoo. His ripped black jeans fit looser on the bottom but theyâre tight in all the right places. Like his ass and his big fucking cock that youâre dying to see, his zipper looks like itâs going to burst and you kind of hope it does. Also they both smell so fucking good itâs making you more dizzy than you already.
A stabbing pain shoots through your abdomen causing you to cry out. âPlease fuck me? Bite me, knot me, fill me with cum until Iâm so full it just keeps spilling out and then fill me some more.âÂ
Steveâs nostrils flare and he breathes out through his nose almost like a bull. He rips his shirt over his head so fast you hear a tearing sound and tosses it on the bed among the various clothing items already there. His large hand wraps around your ankle and he pulls you to the edge of the bed until your calves are hanging off. He grips onto the top of your shorts, ripping them in two with such ease youâd think they were a piece of paper. When he sees youâre not wearing panties, your glistening, puffy cunt on full display for him with your honey-sweet scent flooding his senses, he loses it.Â
âMine.â Steve growls and drops to his knees in front of the bed, throwing your legs over his shoulders and shoves his face between your legs. He runs the tip of his nose through your folds, inhaling deeply. He flattens his tongue and licks a long stripe from your hole to your clit, he circles your bud a few times before bringing his tongue back to your hole so he can taste your sweet nectar. Sweet fucks you with his tongue, sucking your clit and shoving his tongue as deep as it will go inside of you until youâre coming apart for him. Your back arches off the bed so far he has to pin you down and your slick drips down his chin and neck as you cry out his name.Â
âFuck, thatâs a beautiful sight.â Somewhere amongst your orgasm haze you hear Eddieâs voice and it has another orgasm hurtling through you. Steve fucks you through it before standing up and riding himself of the rest of his clothes. Eddie comes to sit beside you on the edge of the bed and your pussy clenches around nothing at the sight of him. âYouâre so fucking gorgeous.â
âNeed you.â You reach for him as another shooting pain stabs through you but he grabs onto your hand, lacing his fingers through yours.
âI know, sweetheart.â Eddie pushes some of your hair out of your face and runs a ringed finger along your temple down your jaw. âBut itâs only fair that I let Stevie here have you first.â
âI think I just might like you, Munson.â Steve smirks at Eddie as he grabs onto one of your thighs and throws it around his hip. He cups your pussy, grinding his palm against your pulsing clit so he can collect some of your slick. Steve takes his shaft in his wet hand and pumps it a few times before lining up and burying his cock inside you in one rough thrust. Your pussy greedily sucks him in, the feeling of his cock easing the stabbing pain coursing through you. He pulls almost all the way out before slamming back into you and starting up at a rough pace.Â
âOh, fuck yes.â You moan loudly as Steve practically uses your pussy as a cock sleeve, you hear a zipper next to your head and when you look over you see Eddie pulling his cock from his jeans as he watches the way Steve slides in and out of you, the sounds of your slick filling the room. His ringed hand slides between your legs rubbing against your clit. His palm rests against your mound as he spreads his fingers down the middle and runs them down either side of Steveâs cock thatâs nestled inside you. He slides his fingers up and down a few times, gathering your slick as his rings rub against the soft skin of Steveâs cock. You watch Steveâs face for his reaction and when you see the way heâs looking at Eddie with fire in his eyes it makes your walls clench around him.Â
âI think I might like you too, Steve.â You tilt your head to look at Eddie and he has that shit eating grin that you know all too well plastered on his face. He pulls his hand from between your legs and uses it to lube up his cock before gripping onto it so he can stroke himself.Â
âGod, that was so hot.â Your words are slurred and you have this hazy look in your eyes but that doesnât spot you from returning Eddieâs smirk with one of your own. âI wanna see you guys kiss.â
âYeah? Maybe one day, honey.â Steve grabs onto your thighs and throws them over his shoulders as he pumps his cock into you, the new angle has the head of him pressing right against your sweet spot and it makes your pussy clench like vice grip around his cock while you come undone for him. âThatâs a good girl, cum all over your alphaâs cock.â
âYouâre taking him so well, baby girl.â Eddie cups your cheek gently as he looks down at you in awe. Heâs stroking his cock leisurely while he watches you, scared he might bust his nut at the sight of you like this if he gets too carried away. âI canât fucking wait to be inside you, how does she feel, Steve?â
âSo fucking good, so fucking tight and wet. Her pussy is fucking perfect.â Steve moans as he leans over you, his hands coming down on either side of your head with your legs still thrown over his shoulders, practically folding you in half like a pretzel.Â
âYes! Oh my god alpha, thatâs so good.â Your hands grip onto Steve's forearms, your nails digging into his flesh deliciously. âIâm so close, choke me, Eddie.â
âJesus Christ, are you for real?â Eddie groans and his cock twitches in his hand.Â
âSheâs deadly fucking serious, our omega is a little masochist.â Steve chimes in for you.
âGod, Iâm so fucking obsessed with you.â Eddie licks his lips as he brings his free hand to your throat. He wraps his thick ringed fingers around your flesh before squeezing just tight enough to obstruct your air flow. You pussy spasms around Steveâs cock as another ogasm has euphoria over taking your entire being.Â
âIâm gonna fucking cum.â Steve moans as he pushes himself up to stand again, he grabs onto the back of your thighs and pushes them to your chest as he fucks you like a wild animal. It doesnât take long for his cock to pulse inside you as ropes of his cum fill your walls.
âKnot, alpha, give me your knot. Need it.â Your mind is so foggy it feels like silent hill has taken up residence there and all you can think about now is how badly you need Steveâs knot inside you. You donât have to want long because as soon as he stops cumming you feel the head of his cock inflate inside you. Thereâs a stabbing pain thatâs quickly replaced with otherworldly pleasure, your eyes roll into the back of your head and your body probably wouldâve flown off the bed if Eddieâs hands didnât come down to pin your hips. It feels like it takes you forever to come down from your high. But when you finally do, Steve grabs onto you so he can pick you up just long enough to lay down on the bed on his back with you straddling him.Â
âMmm, you feeling any better, honey?â Steveâs knot is still nestled inside of you and he runs his hands down your hair to your back where he traces little circles on your skin with his fingertips. You feel the mattress shift and when you peel your tired eyes open you see a now shirtless Eddie propped up on his elbow the bed beside you.
âYes, a little.â You nod, your cheek rubbing against Steveâs sweaty chest hair. âBut, I need Eddieâs knot too.â Your bottom lip juts out as you look over at him with puppy dog eyes.
âAnd Iâm going to give it to you, sweet thing.â Eddie hums. âAs soon as Steveâs goes down, Iâm all yours.â
After about ten minutes you feel Steveâs cock start to soften inside you, his knot unlocking from your walls. Youâre so wet he slips out of you once heâs fully soft and Eddie wastes absolutely no time ripping your body from Steveâs and throwing you onto your back. He hovers over you on his knees and the sight of him all tattooed and now fully naked makes you whimper. He runs two of his fingers through your slit, gathering your slick and Steveâs cum onto them. He brings them to your lips, smearing the wetness across them like lipgloss.Â
âTaste it.â You oblige him, taking his thick fingers into your mouth until his rings hit your lips. You swirl your tongue around, your eyes rolling back with a moan at the taste of you and Steve together. Eddie pulls his fingers from your mouth and leans down to lick your lips before kissing you hard. He runs his tongue along your bottom lip and you open your mouth so he can slide it against yours. He tangles your tongues together before sucking yours into his mouth and pulling off, a string of spit still connecting you.Â
âDamn, you guys taste delicious together.â Eddie smirks over at Steve with his wet mouth and it has his cock hardening again already.Â
âAre you flirting with me, Munson?â Steve raises a thick brow at him, returning his smirk with one of his own.Â
âI thought it would be obvious by now.â Eddie chuckles.
âYou guys are super cute and all but I feel like Iâm getting stabbed and if you donât fuck me soon Iâm gonna lose my shit.â You look between them, a devious little smirk of your own finding your lips. âUnless you guys are gonna kiss, then I can wait for that.âÂ
âWell, what the princess wantsâŠâ Eddie leans over you to grab the back of Steveâs neck so he pull his mouth against his in a hard kiss. Steveâs hands find purchase in Eddieâs hair and their lips move together roughly. Their mouths open and you see their tongues dancing with each other messily. Itâs messy and rough and it looks like theyâre fighting for dominance.
âThatâs the hottest fucking thing Iâve ever seen.â Your voice has your alphas breaking their kiss and their attention directed back to you. âMaybe I can watch you guys fuck someday.âÂ
âIâm sure youâd love that.â Eddie chuckles before wrapping his hand around your throat and squeezing. He leans down so his face less than an inch from yours, his hot breath hitting your face. âBut right now, youâre fucking mine. I have waited so long for this and Iâm about to fuck you until you canât walk for days.â
âDo it. Fucking ruin me, Eddie.â Itâs like you said the magic words because Eddie grips onto your hips so he can flip you onto your stomach. You push yourself up onto your hands and arch your back so your ass is in the air for him. His hand comes down on your asscheek hard, his rings biting your skin. He gives the other cheek the same treatment before thrusting two thick fingers inside of you.
âYouâre so fucking wet.â Eddie groans as he pumps his fingers in and out of you at a fast pace. You clench around his fingers, your orgasm just in reach, but he pulls his fingers out of you, taking your orgasm with him.
âHey! I was about to cum!â You whine.
âI know, baby, but I need you to cum on my cock.â You feel the tip of Eddieâs cock slide through your folds before his slams into you in one thrust and starts to fuck you with no remorse. âOh fuck, youâre so tight, oh my god.â
âYou feel so fucking good, alpha.â You bounce back against him, meeting his thrusts the best you can. Eddieâs hand smacks your ass again before he roughly grips onto your hips as you fucks you like his life depends on it.Â
âDamn, youâre right, that is a beautiful sight.â The sound of Steveâs voice has your head whipping toward him and you moan at the sight of him. His hair is a complete mess, his skin is shiny with sweat, including his glistening chest hair, and heâs jerking himself off. âYou look so fucking gorgeous, baby.â
âSo gorgeous.â Eddie agrees as he wraps your hair around his hand, he pulls it so hard it makes your hands raise off the bed. He snaps his hips into you over and over again, the sound of skin slapping on skin and your slick practically echoing off the walls.Â
âBite me, Eddie.â You lean your head to the side, bearing your neck to him.
âFuck, princess, are you sure?â Eddieâs thrusts slow for a moment as he looks down at you, hesitantly. He shoots Steve a questioning look and the other alpha gives him a reassuring nod.
âIâm so fucking sure, Iâve wanted it for as long as I can remember, Iâm done waiting.â Eddie growls, pulling out of you and pushing you onto your back and slamming his cock back into you before you hardly have time to miss it.Â
âYouâre mine, baby, you always have been, and now you always will be.â Eddie presses his hand under your head so he can cup the back of your neck before leaning down and running his tongue along the column of your throat as he pulls his cock almost all the way out of you and then he bares his teeth, sinking them into your flesh while he slams his cock into you rough and deep. Every nerve in your body feels like itâs on fire and you have the most mind blowing orgasm of the night. Eddie pulls away and looks at you like you just gave him the world, because you did, youâre his everything.Â
âMy turn. Where can IâŠ?â You look over Eddieâs inked form, there isnât much left that isnât tattooed but as youâre looking for a spot to bite him, you spot an empty patch of skin right on the side of his neck, underneath one of his neck tattoos. You run your finger along it as you look into his chocolatey eyes. âIs this spot okay?â
âOf course, thatâs your spot, remember?â Eddie cups your jaw and runs his thumb along the apple of your cheek. You try to search your foggy mind for what heâs talking about but youâre coming up short. You give him a puzzled look as you shake your head gently. âIt was right after I presented when we were sixteen, we were sitting in the back of the van at the lake. It was a hot ass hell summer day so we went swimming and you brought lunch for us because youâre just always prepared like that.â Eddie chuckles fondly. âI was shirtless and had just gotten my first chest tattoo for my birthday and you look at me dead in the eyes, pointed at that spot on my neck and said âI know you want to be covered in tattoos one day, but you better always leave this spot open for me to markâ and so I did.â
âEddieâs thatâs-â You eyes well up with tears as you look up at the man youâve loved all your life. Heâs so beautiful, his button nose, those plush pink lips, those sweet chocolate eyes that assured you on your worst days. You lost him, and you were so angry at him for it. But now heâs here, inside you, with a beautiful patch of porcelain skin that he kept bare for the last seventeen years, for you. âI fucking love you, Eddie munson.â
âAnd I fucking love you, sweetheart.â He sends you that goofy smile that you love so much and you wrap your arms around his neck pulling him down so you can sink your teeth into him. A second shockwave buzzes through your body as you feel your bond with Eddie snap into place, an unexpected orgasm taking you by surprise. âIâm glad we covered that because Iâm going to fuck the shit out of you and knot you now.â
âGod, you guys are so cute.â You hear Steve gush beside you and you smile over at him sweetly.
âI love you too, Stevie.â Your eyes donât stay on him for long because Eddie rolls onto his back, pulling you with him so youâre straddling him. He plants his feet on the mattress and grabs onto your ass as he fucks up into you hard and deep.Â
âI love you honey, get that knot.â Steve chuckles and you suddenly feel like heâs too far from you. Your sweet, handsome, dorky doctor.Â
âI wanna suck your cock.â You pout through the moans that are falling from your lips like a song from the way Eddie is fucking you.Â
âAnything for you.â Steve crawls over to you and presses himself up on his knees, planting one foot on the mattress. He grips onto the back of your head and pulls you down to his cock. You open your mouth and Steve doesnât waste any time thrusting into it, hitting the back of your throat and making you gag.Â
âGoddamn, princess, look at you.â Eddie groans as he continues to thrust up into you, using his grip on your ass to bounce you even faster up and down on his cock. âYouâre such a good little omega, taking us both so well.â
âMhm, youâre such a good girl.â Steve moans at the feeling of your lips wrapping around his cock, your tongue running along the vein on the underside of his shaft. His hand palms the back of your head as he starts to fuck your throat. Eddieâs thumb finds your clit and it has your eyes rolling in the back of your head. Steveâs fingers lace through your hair, yanking your head back and his free hand wraps around your throat. âLook at me while Eddie makes you fall apart on his cock, I wanna see the look in your eyes while he takes what belongs to us.â
âGive your alphaâs your cum, cum on my cock, baby.â Eddieâs words are what teeters you over the edge. Your walls practically swallow his cock and it has him cumming right along with you. Eddie growls as his thick cock pulses cum into your wet cunt.Â
âFuck, Iâm gonna cum too.â Steveâs grabs both sides of your head in his hands as he fucks your mouth until his balls twitch and heâs cuming in ropes down your throat as he stares deeply into your eyes. âThatâs it, omega, swallow every drop.âÂ
âShit, yes.â Eddieâs knot pops inside of you causing you to pull off Steveâs cock with a cry. The pain turns into another orgasm, your body going rigid as you fall forward on Eddieâs chest. You lay there, sweaty and panting as you come down from your high. Once your heart rate starts to even out you feel how right everything feels. You can feel your bond with Eddie and Steve both and you finally feel complete. Steve lays down on the bed next to you, looking over at you sweetly while he gently caresses your back. And youâve never felt more at home than you do right now, wrapped in their fresh lemon and warm apple scents.Â
âYou did so good for us, omega.â Eddie sighs contently as he presses a kiss against your sweaty forehead. Your mind feels a little less foggy than before but you know it wonât be long until youâre a knot hungry monster again.Â
âYouâre amazing, honey.â Steve leans over to kiss your lips sweetly. âIâm gonna go to the store and get supplies for the week. Two knots wonât be enough for long.â
âYouâre leaving?â Your brow pinches and you feel a sudden rush of panic hit you.
âJust for like thirty minutes, baby, Iâll be back as soon as you can. Eddie will be here with you. Itâll be good for you guys to have a moment to yourselves.â Steve kisses you again before getting up to get dressed. Eddie smiles up at him, mouthing thank you and Steve shoots him a wink. That makes Eddie blush even though they just made out less than thirty minutes ago. All three of you are definitely looking forward to exploring that more. Steve leans over to kiss your head again before leaving you and Eddie alone.Â
âIâm truly sorry, sweetheart.â Eddie sighs. âIâm so sorry I deprived us of this for so long.â
âYeah you really fucked up on that one.â You chuckle, pushing yourself up so youâre sitting, his knot still nestled inside of you. You smile down at him fondly as you take his face in your hands. âWe have it now though, for the rest of our lives, and thatâs all that matters. Holding onto that pain wonât do us any good.â
âIâm not worthy of you, I love you so fucking much.â Eddie pulls you down so he can kiss you deeply, pouring all his apologies and love into this one kiss that makes your head spin and your pussy clench.Â
âI love you too, Teddie.â You giggle, resting your forehead against his. âIâm glad we covered that, because Iâm really fucking horny again and your knot just went down.â
Eddie chuckles at you throwing his earlier words back at him before throwing you on your back. He leans over you, sending you that smile that you never want to go another day without seeing. âAlright then, letâs feed the knot monster.â
Taglist: @eddiesxangel @eerielamb @moonlightseranade @lesservillain @take-everything-you-can @phantommoondoll @frombeyondthegravez @ali-r3n @sugasweettea @minniture @micheledawn1975 @bellalillyrose @bakusquadobsessed
Dividers by: @anitalenia & @strangergraphics
#eddie munson fanfic#Eddie Munson#eddie munson angst#eddie munson x you#eddie munson x fem reader#eddie munson x fem!reader#alpha!steddie x omega!reader#alpha!eddie munson x omega!reader#alpha!eddie munson#alpha!eddie#rockstar!eddie x reader#rockstar!eddie munson smut#best friend!eddie munson#steve harrington x fem!reader#steve harrington x you#steve harrington fic#steve harrington x reader#steve harrington smut#alpha!steddie#alpha!steve harrington x omega!reader#alpha!steve harrington#doctor!steve harrington#bambii writes#I only read over this all the way through once bc my eyes were gonna explode so if thereâs typos Iâm sorry fr#I also pasted it in the doc three times and I wanted to scream actually:)#consider this my mic drop fic bc Iâm gonna focus on my book for a while now#ily guysssđ€âš#ib: knot all is forgiven by holly Monroe
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i actually can't believe there are people on this website that can read an article where dt talks abt how his family says "i love you" to each other all the time and how that's a strange and wonderful new thing to him but like they ignore this super sweet and touching thing he's saying abt his loved ones and instead they completely laser the fuck in on him going "losing awards sucks" n then they pull out like year old screenshot from her instagram stories where georgia is like "my favorite awards loser omg <3" as evidence that she's an evil manipulative bitch who's abusing him and like it would be really funny if there wasn't a whole clique of people doing it
#trying soooooo hard not to lose my mind. like i dont want to think abt these ppl at all but it does genuinely fuck with me#reading him saying that abt his family really genuinely touched me emotionally for personal reasons i won't elaborate on#so this does make me kind of pissed off for real. heart emoji.#why the fuck can dt joke about killing michael sheen because he's so old and you all keep shipping them together screaming it's true love#but the person he is MARRIED TO cannot even playfully poke fun at him on her social media that he does not see#without it being this ultimate proof she's an evil demon#ohhhhh you know that post thats like i hate it when someone i hate likes the same media as me or something#me with dt and specifically his macbeth. vs the fucking insane misogynists on this website that claim to also be fans of him#david tennant#i do realize i keep using this sideblog to post things i dont want on my main and this includes like#my periodical crashouts about the tinhatters. i am very sorry. i will find a better way to use this blog
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weeping because you don't even have to go to the EU for the tragedy, in frontios Tegan states "the doctor's my responsibility" then in the very next episode she asks him if he's going to commit murder. then she almost commits it herself, trying to open the canister to poison the daleks. is she trying to take just a little of that guilt off his hands? does she find that's the final thing that breaks her, that in the company of the Doctor she has found herself capable of such terrible things in the attempt for good?
And he didn't intend to return to them. He set the setting on the TARDIS to send them back to earth. Five and Tegan so desperately trying to take responsibility for each other, to try and keep the blood off each other's hands and both falling apart under their facades. He leaves her behind again, and she leaves him behind too. god, they're so awful and tragic and all this in a silly wee sci-fi show from the eighties.
#god they make me want to scream#sorry if I'm a bit off on the resurrection of the daleks story i am Incapable of watching it. same way I can't read within 50 pages of#valjean's death i can't watch the story where tegan leaves.#five#tegan#like if i go into the eu WHOOOOOO BOY are there several thousand things i could quote and compare and bawl over
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Just saw another Cas: "I love you." Dean gives info about the world meme and god damn. I know the "I love you" was romantic, and I understood what that meant. it's great that he was finally able to say it, even if it wasn't under the best circumstances, but it just hit me right now, and it hurts. He really did love him, and nothing really happened after that. Just thinking about what could have been is so saddening. Castiel sacrificed everything for Dean. He sacrificed his love and what could have been. Then Dean died a meaningless death.
The life they could have had if a TV network wasn't so scared of men kissing. The possibilities, right there, but still so out of reach.
Neither of them got the ending they deserved, needed. They were wronged.
Dean, living his whole life thinking he's driven by hate, madness, and anger and in the midst of all that, finding Cas. Finding Love. That then to be taken away from him as soon as he realizes that is nothing but sad. Dean had an opportunity to feel loved in a way that transcends friendship and romance altogether, and that was taken away from him in mere seconds.
#to be fair i wrote all of this after seeing a bunch of we could have had balls deep destiel memes#so sorry you had to read my in the feels poorly strung along rant#spn#destiel#supernatural#dean winchester#castiel#everytime i think about them i just go feral#what could have been#they just couldn't be happy huh#if there were letters to describe in which way i was screaming i would write them down#unfortunately they don't#its the care that gets me#they care so much#only word that can describe what i feel about them is#miserable
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I will scream at every non-romantic post I see about these guys. Writers be not afraid. I will love their non-romance fics. I'll blow up your coment section all alone if I have to. I will find you. Artists be not afraid. I will reach tag limit on your artpiece. If I see it at least. And if I don't, I will eventually. Or I'll try. Or @me so I won't fail you.
#i love them#i'd love to talk about them#if you want to talk about them just spawn in my direct messages#i have 0 problem dont be shy#i have done way too much research and headcanons about this 3 guys..#seriously. if you're an artist (draw or write) who thinks that if you post about this 3 guys you will get 0 notes dont worry#you will get mine screaming crying throwing up because i just love this guys. they're not the fandom favorites but they're mine and yours.#trust me#i will not fail.#so yes. come into my dm's whenever you want to ramble about them! i have 0 time to make anything but im more than happy to share!#i NEED so desesperately some non-romantic holm/mickbell fics... but I can't write them... so if I can inspire someone ill be happy#if there's some fic out there non-romantic/sexual about them please send me the link because i need to consume it.#this fandom is no safe for sex-repulsed individuals like myself. nor it is for people who doesnt want to read romance. like me. im doomed.#mickbell tomas#holm kranom#holm#mickbell#sorry for this but i need to talk about them. im very normal i swear#seriously be not afraid to dm me just throwing all your headcanoms or some scene you have in mind about them#im very normal about them and surely so are you. right?#dungeon meshi#dunmeshi#chilchuck#chilchuck tims#delicious in dungeon#im here supporting my fellow non-romance people#[we're 3 but it doesnt matter]
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i have been listening to quite a bit of U2 today and now the age old question of "which member is actually my fave?" has resurfaced
#text#i really like all of them#though i never had a particularly strong Thing for larry (im sorry larry)#larry is the backbone of who they are and i really appreciate him a lot#and i love his attitude#but right now i am kinda going back and forth between edge and adam#i think adam is my current fave because he is just so chill#he has such a natural elegance to him#and he is such a gentleman#he also came up to me after i played on stage with them and was shaking like a leaf the moment adrenalin kicked my butt#and he told me that i did great and reassured me with his gentle aura and we hugged#i just really love the balanced at peace energy he has#edge is the sonic architect of the band!!!!#and i just think he is So Incredibly funny#(and he was also kind by teaching me the chords đ)#bono is just.....#he is A Lot and loving him is like trying to idk stand in the middle of hurricane winds#it can be difficult to hold onto him without needing a bit of a breather every now and then#but he is very loveable and he has his heart in the right place#even if the execution is not always... great#and i have never met someone who could read people so well as he can#and i love how he uses that to just give everyone memorable experiences#such a natural showman and people person i suppose#he can center you out in a crowd of dozens of people screaming for his attention and give you that personal moment#... yeah im having U2 feelings#not in the way that i feel an intense moment of hyperfixation on them brewing#it mostly feels like visiting an old friend
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Joining the inbox love and sending you the warmest hugs sweet pidgy đ

you know, i saved this ask in my inbox and i wasn't quite sure why at the time~ but oh, my dearest crab, i know why now! (= w =) it was to boost my spirits in this low moment when i'm feeling like a real LOSER uuuggggggghhhh~!!!! so thank you! your kindness has lifted my loser spirits!!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 SO MANY HUGS FOR YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#pidgy asks#pidgy doodles#i'm havin a real groan and sigh type evening#not over anything important~ so i can't wallow for too long#but sometimes you just gotta let yourself move through your feels#oof#today i finally got one too many rejection letter for my artwork#i get rejected all the time! it's no big!#but~ like... seven in three months????#oof X 7#gonna take a little time to feel sorry for myself and then just keep on going~ lol#i've been posting here for almost 10 years~ i know i've come a long way#so i'm just gonna have to come a long way more still#imma go eat some squishmallow cereal about it...#YOU AINT GONNA KEEP ME DOWN REJECTION LETTERS!!!!#but you ARE going to make me get into bed early so i can snuggle with my cats - read jayvik fics - and FEEL LIKE A LOSER UGGGG!!!!!#*screams into the soft belly of a squishmallow ferret name VVaffles*
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Watching Curse of Strahdanya, and falling in love with these ships and characters, is like watching the Hadestown musical to me.
In Hadestown, the first thing the narratorâHermesâtells the audience is that this tale is a tragedy. There is no happy ending. And yet, as the show goes on, you forget that, somehow. But not fully. Thereâs still a little voice, lingering in the back of your mind, telling you that itâs always going to end horribly. And if youâre already familiar with the Greek myth, or the musical itself, then you know exactly how itâll end. And yet, part of you still roots for Orpheus. To save Eurydice. To not turn around. To ignore the voices in his ear. To bring her home with him.
But. Thatâs not how the story goes. He always turns around. She always returns to Hadestown. And he always returns alone. And Hermes feels for the audience. He, too, yearns for there to be a day where the story changes, somehow. Of course, it wonât. Thatâs not how the story goes. But every time he tells the tale, some part of him yearns that maybe, just maybe, Orpheus wonât turn around. He would ignore the voices in his ear. He would bring Eurydice home. But he knows this is all in vain, for the tale is that of a tragedy, and itâll always end the same.
Curse of Strahdanya is the same way. All the way to the title of the prologue; âThe Cursed Expeditionâ. From the very beginning, they tell us that this tale is a tragedy. No matter what the characters do, no matter how strong they think they are, it will always end the same way. Their fates are set in stone. They will never leave, never get out. Strahdanya always wins.
And yet, the audience yearns for this telling to be different. Maybe if this character made a different choice, maybe if they convinced this character to stay, maybeâŠmaybeâŠ
But it always ends the same. Itâs a sad tale. Itâs a tragedy. Yet we tell it over and over again, as if maybe our heroes will get a happy ending this time
âTo know how it ends/And still begin to sing it again/As if it might turn out this timeâ
#its a love song. its a sad song. its an old song.#and yet we sing it anyway#legends of avantris#curse of strahdanya#hadestown#idk why I have Hadestown on the brain#I woke up an hour ago and my brain produced this#havenât listened to Hadestown since watching it live a year or so ago#so idk why i suddenly latched onto this#I havenât even finished cos yet technically#but I know enough about the ending to get a sense of how it ends#just from the knowledge of Victoria marrying strahdanya#something I knew going into this#that voice in the back of my mind told me that itâs not going to end happily#but I ignored it. I fell in love with the characters. with Shepnax.#and now Iâm near the end and that voice is screaming in my ear#and I canât ignore it this time#itâs a love song/itâs a tale of a love from long ago#itâs a sad song/we keep singing even so#itâs an old song/itâs an old tale from way back when#and weâre gonna sing it again and again#jade I know youâre reading this#sorry lol
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reading the part where Gandalf (and co.) arrive at Meduseld and the Beowulf parallels that Tolkien is putting down and I am picking up
#OKAY BUT THE (COAST) GUARD TAKING THEM PART OF THE WAY BUT NOT ALL THE WAY#THE COBBLESTONES THEY FOLLOW#THE WEAPONS NOT BEING ALLOWED IN#I READ THat eVERY YEAR#(sorry for screaming)#the two towers#Beowulf#like the vibe. THE VIBE IS THE SAAAAAAME
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Idk why there's disbelief over Mark S/Helly in terms of motivation. Helly is just as capable of cruelty and selfishness as Helena. They are at the core of it, the same person with different memories/experiences. They can be two perspectives worthy of indulging their own dreams and desires and also be the same person. Narratively here especially, this isn't about morality, it's about human nature.
Helly was never cruel, sure, of course. Helly felt like she was the same as the other people in MDR. But Helly has something right now that she never even achieved as Helena. Someone who loves her. Someone who is choosing her. Helly is Winning over Helena here.
Jame Eagen wanders down just to be a freak and reinforces the reality of it. Helly is "More" than Helena, hasn't been worn down by the weight of experience and the world (and their cult and corporate bullshit). She still has, in some way, the innocence of youth and lack of experience with the world. She doesn't have the same fears and burdens or triggers as Helena in her conscious experience. She still has the ability to express her passions and outrage and defend herself. And to love and not feel sorry for it.
Severance gave Helena a chance to exist without the learned perspectives and burdens of the Eagens and she is able to be free with herself and her passions and desires-- whereas Helena was likely drained of any dreams for potential beyond a strictly guided future decades ago.
Of course Helly is feeling a rush of joy and satisfaction over Mark loving her. Mark choosing her. She tried to do the "right thing" by being logical with Mark. "I'm her." Even outside of Lumon, if they bring it all down, there's no hope for an Eagen and an ex-severed employee in reality. In the Real World they will never be together. Mark couldn't love Helena, how could anyone love an Eagen? (Poor Helly really with like, the enemy is within etc, but that's kinda the situation framed by Lumon for everyone by setting the stage with your Innie isn't human kinda rhetoric.) (This was also reinforced by Helena trying to get close to Mark to see if he still had feelings or chemistry with her and finding out they were not going to work outside Lumon.)
What if the equator is a building that could be a continent? Can be their whole world? They're choosing to live Now. Together in the present despite knowing that with their half lives, they could be brought to an end at any moment. It's very willful young love of them. And why wouldn't it be? This is their First Love. They haven't even been "alive" that long or have any memory of romance beyond their current infatuation. They don't know the world or it's places, and maybe that's okay, maybe they can exist in this space so long as they have love and the others.
It's completely human for Helly to accept Mark choosing her. To run to him just to see him for maybe the last time. It's human for Mark S to run to Helly. It's human for poor Gemma, who doesn't even know her fucking husband is severed, to be pounding on the door.
But this is their Final Day to Mark and Helly. Maybe the very end of their world. It's Judgement Day. Of course they'd have them holding hands and running back to the unknown to face the end together. To die together.
There is also zero fucking chance Mark Scout would risk his life and brain continuing reintegration once his wife is back. Mark Scout is going to choose his wife. Mark is choosing Love on both sides here.
All of it is reasonable.
#this is true for all the innie/outie combos like#lets not forget theyre the same person. yes they are also separate and deserve to be respected in their experiences#in my mind theres a post credit scene of Devon dragging Gemma to a car and them driving to a secure location bc I can't live otherwise#unfortunately the severed floor is literally their world. has been all this time. all they know by design.#anyway. selfishness is so normal to the human experience and motivation. survival. love. growth#im going to be thinking about platos cave allegory stuff now actually. ough#anyway its 3am and this is all i can thnnk about#personal q#severance spoilers#read more bc mindless brain ramble got long#i love all the characters in this show I hope hope hope Gemma gets a focus in S3#i actually loved the reintegration bits but narratively it would change some of the themes more at this time#theyd have had to make full reintegration the only way for mark to save gemma to make it happen#i need gemma to get so much therapy and care. lumon better not touch her ever again im really so serious#im going to be emotionally devastated ny Mark turning for months#good news fucking up cold harbor probably means that whatever fuckery Jame had planned for Helena/Helly is probably also fucked#could you imagine tho if we actually get fresh 'severed' personas for them if Lumon abducts them all to a compound somewhere#if s3 starts like Just Another Day in the Office I'll scream#I'm starting to wonder if this whole draining the tempers experiment thing#is about being able to provide them for others as a rejuvenation thing now actually aha just from writing this#i think using Helly Wasnt Cruel to try to contain her character is very infantilizing like theyre not children they're striped of knowledge#and of experience#this is all very is love stored in memory or the soul etc. do the people in the cave want to leave the cave when the shadows on the wall ar#the only representation of reality they've ever known#this show is just like art/literaty analysis of themes its so pretty and tragic and terrible#severance#sorry added for the mutuals who dont need to see my taste in tv on my supposed gaming blog#idk a lot of this season was also helly spreading the concept of division from outie persona stuff which makes sense for her#but then getting to look back at gemma and see maybe an outie as a person etc too like. ough
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thinking about ronan lynch/adam parrish as necro/cav but iâm torn on who would be which because thereâs just so much potential either way, with just the everything about them
#sorry screaming this into the void bc i know one (1) person irl who has read both series#like they both have Abilities which lends to necromancer#parts of their personalities lean adam as necro/ronan as cav#but others would indicate the inverse#i sound like a goddamn college essay#either way the entanglement and devotion are 100% there#yet another reason why griddlehark is a little bit pynch the remix#anywayâŠ.#text#trc#tlt
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FIRST TIME GIVES INEFFABLE HUSBANDS VIBES AND I DONT THINK I CAN HANDLE IT đđđ
#hozier#the hoziest#good omens#ineffable husbands#unreal unearth#im cryinf#idk what to tag im just happy y'all#i was reading it whilst listening to it skshsjhsjshsksjs#MR GAIMAN IM GONNA NEED AN APOLOGY AND ALSO A SEASON 3 VERY SOON#SIRS I DONT THINK ANY OF YOU HAVE THE AUTHORITY TO BE MAKING ME FEEL THIS WAY#PAIR THAT WITH DAVID TENNANT AND MICHAEL SHEENS INCREDIBLE PORTRAYAL OF THE EMOTIONS#I CANFT BREATHE#IDGAF IF NONE OF THIS IS REAL#MY AND EVERYONE ELSES FEELING MAKE IT REAL#DJSJSHSJHS LN SBSKSJJSHSJSKSBSKBSKSJZLSJSBBDJSHSJSJSSKSBKSJSKSIKSHS#I AM SCREAMING SCREECHING AND SQUEALING#one of the many reasons i wanna do more theatre and acting because who tf are these people to be making me feel such raw emotion#from a situation which im not even insinuated to be a part of sihsksjslsjsksn#ITS TOO INTIMATE I FEEL LIKE IM INTRUDING#BUT I FEEL LIKE THE ONE BEING EXPOSED SIMULTANEOUSLY WTF#david tennant#michael sheen#anyways sorry for the excessive tags#i need to calm the fuck down#i should take my meds#and then a nap#or read#or draw#oh and hydrate#fuck you and your tag limits ciao brothers and others
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okay everyone put me on hold I'm gonna need like 5-7 business days to recover from my fav fanfic updating /extremely pos
#MY BLITZYYYYYYYYY AUHGGHGHGHHHHHHHHH#sorry to everyone who has access to my unhinged feral bullshit every time I read these updates#im actually so abnormal about him in every conceivable way#and this fic is perfection in written form you guys have no idea#literally every new chapter is just me falling in love with him all over again I fucking mean it#he's so. auhhghghghghghhhhhhhh#my BELOVED#knowing my bestie utterly hates him and only tolerates his existence bc of me makes this endlessly funny#im sorry im insane. ilysm. it will happen again. sorry<3#screaming crying bouncing off the walls foaming at the mouth#im trying so hard to leave a coherent comment but my brain is just (delighted rat screaming)#RAAAAAAAAHHGHHHHHHGHGHGHGHH#ratkingrambles
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(regency au anon again) thank you so much for the kind and lovely words about what i sent! i was blown away that you liked it! and thanks to everybody who reblogged and commented as well, it was so sweet. i think i will end up posting that au on ao3! i actually wrote some more, so maybe i will wait until i have a semblance of plot before uploading it.
i wrote some of the tanfang backstory and made myself very sad lol. here, let me share my sorrow in a tiny snippet. i don't want you to feel obligated to comment ASAP so i won't keep spamming your inbox, but whatever else i write in this au is all dedicated to your wonderful idea and i hope i can do it justice!! and that i can post it soon.
[It would be so easy to say yes. He ached to say yes. But it was as if that moment in the shop had thrown a revealing light on the past summer of Fangâs friendship with Tan. As if he could finally see what this bond was growing into -- see what his feelings for Tan really were.
You love me, Fang thought, gazing at that beloved face. And I⊠I am my parentsâ son.]
HIIII ANON HIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
first of all, i must apologize for the really late reply!!!! going to the fanmeet last weekend kinda threw me off my (already usually very slow ;;;;;) rhythm and im taking way too long to catch up with everything ;;;;;;;;; i know you said it was okay if i didn't answer right away but still!!!!!! I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW IM SO IN LOVE WITH YOUR WE ARE REGENCY AU AND NOT A MINUTE GOES BY WHERE I DON'T THINK ABOUT IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SPEAKING OF WHICH. THAT SNIPPET ABOUT TANFANG'S BACKSTORY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


You love me, Fang thought, gazing at that beloved face. And I⊠I am my parentsâ son. <<< THROWING UP ALL THE BLOOD AND ORGANS IN MY BODY AND EVERYTHING IN BETWEEN AS WELL OH THE ANGST IS GONNA BE SOOOOO DELICIOUSLY SOUL DESTROYING AND SOUL-DESTROYINGLY DELICIOUS THE DUTY VS LOVE OF IT ALL WILL HAVE ME CLIMBING THE WALLS AND SPINNING COUNTERCLOCKWISE ON THE CEILING ABOUT IT I ALREADY KNOW IT!!!!!!!!!! CAN'T EVEN IMAGINE WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN WHEN FANG ACTUALLY CHOOSES TAN I WILL START LEVITATING
IM SO HAPPY YOU WROTE MORE OF THIS AND THAT YOU'RE PLANNING TO POST IT ON AO3 SO PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE DO LET ME KNOW WHEN YOU DO SO I CAN GIVE IT ALL THE LOVE AND SCREAM ABOUT IT SOME MORE!!!!!!!!!!!
#SORRY IM SIMPLY SO OBSESSED WITH THIS#I WOULD LITERALLY READ 200K WORDS ABOUT IT AND PROBABLY SCREAM AT EVERY LINE CONSIDERING HOW GOOD YOU ARE AT WRITING#but i don't wanna pressure you in any way!!!!!!#im already so happy and grateful for what you gave us i really cannot thank you enough !!!!!!#hope you're still around to see this and im wishing you the most wonderful day!!!!!!! đđđ#we are the series#tanfang#m: ask
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