#this is nothing but a procedural thing
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This time tomorrow I will have been done with having my wisdom tooth out for a couple hours. I wish I could just be anesthetized till then.
#personal#I'm not going to be entirely knocked out just local so I get to just lie there while they get it out#hopefully they'll offer me nitrous oxide anyway but idk#I'm sure it won't be hugely painful the thing I'm most dreading for the procedure itself is *boredom*#40 minutes just lying there reading nothing watching nothing playing nothing doing nothing how'm I gonna survive this?
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i've got a doctor's appointment in the morning and i'm nervous af about it :))))
#and it's *just* an appointment it's nothing to do with my procedures which i am also nervous af about#but i need a doctors approval on whether or not i should be receiving financial aid given how difficult it is for me to get a job#because of the medical bullshittery i go through all the time but it's not something that counts as a disability#and it's not through my usual doctor so i'm gonna have to unhash *everything* to them and get them to understand#and i'm not at all trying to take resources from people who *are* disabled or anything like that#but if they look at all my medical stuff and go 'nah you're not disabled though bye' i'm gonna be in trouble#either way it's going to be an exhausting day where i'll probably realise things about myself i've neglected#personal#me ranting
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Do you ever think about how Ganyu is older than Dvalin? I do. I think about that fact a lot. Venti points this out to the Traveler and the Traveler wonders how old a human version of Dvalin would be.
Traveler, shaking Venti: Did I beat up a kid?
Venti: Ehhhh more of a teenager - young adult?
Traveler: .... Like Diluc or Jean's age?
Venti: Probably around Amber's age...
Traveler: Oh my... I need to tell Diluc and Jean that Dvalin would be younger than them in human time.
Venti, joking: Dvalin is going to throw another temper tantrum at people seeing him as the little baby he is (affectionate)
Traveler walking into Jean’s office: Jean I’ve beaten up a child T-T
Jean: ???????
Traveler: Dvalin is just! A little guy! A little big guy but! He’s a teenager! I can understand the rebellion now augh and I beat him up for it 😔
#traveler tells diluc the same thing and is just met with nothing#’we got rid of poison in him. sometimes medical procedures hurt.’#’also I don’t think he holds it against us. otherwise the city would be in ruins.’#anyway venti going ‘look how big you’ve gotten!!!!’ and Dvalin just huffing in his face#‘I’m not a kid Barbatos’ <- dragon who is really proud of how big he’s gotten#hi steel!
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do i stop this madness by getting a hysterectomy or do i sell my uterus on the black market so i can at least be fairly compensated for what it's put me through
#nothing even happened i'm just being dramatic rn#like i was changing my pad and inspiration for this post struck me directly in the forehead#also a hysterectomy is a procedure to get your uterus removed in case anyone was wondering 🙏🏼#girlblogging#this is what makes us girls#just girly things#this is a girlblog#just girly thoughts#just girly posts#girlhood#i'm just a girl#hyper feminine#girly things#pinterest girl#it girl#dream girl#femcore#femcel#the female gaze#girl blogger#gaslight gatekeep girlboss
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you know sometimes in life. you fail at things so badly that it’s actually just funny. except then you remember that you have a boss who probably isn’t going to find this funny which kind of ruins everything
#i can’t decide whether i even think this is my fault or not#there are things in retrospect that i could have done better but nothing as far as i know was Wrong about the way i actually did them#like at all points in time i followed standard procedure/instructions and advice from other people who have more experience than me at this#but the failure is so bad. like again it’s actually funny the way things just straight up did not work At All even a little bit#anyway i guess now we get to wait and see whether said boss thinks it’s my fault or not. who knows when he will respond to my message.#sitting on this suspense is going to be a great way to spend my weekend.#caseyposting
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Hey, with respect to the phone dna prints:
It's the motorola phone they found near the shooting location. Now, after Karen filed the motion, the prosecution made a list stating every piece of proof that had already been handled to luigi and his team.
The reason why reddit is saying they found his fingerprints on the phone is because in that list that was handed to the defense, it says there were 'swabs from phone found near the crime scene'. While it does not say straight up 'DNA MATCHES LUIGI' it will be unlikely that prosecution had handed a piece of dna testing (TO LUIGI'S ATTORNEYS AND AS A PART OF THE DISCOVERY) that was negative or had nothing to do with him. Because, again, it is a part of the evidence that prosecution is planing to use in the trial. If the DNA was not a match they would have made no mention of it in the OFFICIAL DISCOVERY.
So. It's basically a confirmation that the DNA matched
i have read both the prosecution's reply to KFA's motion and the automatic discovery form and yes, while the automatic discovery form does mention "2 swabs of possible DNA" collected from the "premises" at the "scene of homicide" and while reddit has taken this as confirmation that it implies the DNA/fingerprints collected at the scene of crime matches his, that is not the case.
prosecution has to hand over EVERY bit of evidence they've found/they'll use in court to the defense well before the trial and mention everything they've gathered during investigation in the discovery form, regardless of whether the evidence matches with the defendant or not. it is simply a part of legal procedure. we still have no legal confirmation that any DNA/fingerprint found at the scene of the crime matches with Luigi and to assume as such outright and crash out is honestly kind of ridiculous.
#could it be Luigi's?? yes#could it not be Luigi's?? also yes#could it all have been contaminated so badly that there's serious reasonable doubt about this??? yes#does it matching Luigi beyond a reasonable doubt (if it happens) make us happy?? hell no#should Luigi walk whether or not prosecution can prove he's guilty beyond a reasonable doubt?? yes#should people be crashing out over a normal legal procedure by assuming a discovery form implies guilt?? absolutely not#people should honestly know a bit more about legal procedures before commenting on things like this and causing panic unnecessarily#you know when causing panic is necessary?? times like when the AG made the death penalty announcement#this is nothing but simple procedure and nobody should be bothering about this or panicking at all#this is the exact same thing that happened when the Altoona motel footage came out and it's all so unreasonable and absolutely silly#luigi mangione#free luigi#asks
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Honestly, Sol have been the one and only anchor that keeps me from spiralling in this mad self doubt that we have DID when they have done and said so much for + to me for the past few years.
#I try not to but I do think at times about the terrible fakeclaim experiences we would get#and Sol was the most targeted being said that they're fake and I was only making them up out of my own selfish advantages#and it's just. Man.#🗯#💖#I read these text conversations we have and reflect on our thought exchanges#and it's impossible for me to fake all of these things that we have done and said together and to each other for almost three years#it has to become extremely mentally exhausting and disarranging at some point from faking something as severe as DID for that long#I'm constantly so rough on myself but Sol have always been there for and with me#the eye surgery last Wednesday was such a vast reminder to me that#she's real when he had done nothing but praise and comfort me throughout the procedure#I do sometimes get doubts and anxiety that maybe my DID isn't actually real after all#it is so terrifying. to feel and think that those who had helped and loved you so much weren't truly real this whole time.#but I know Sol would always remind me in words or actions or sensations that for them - they are real as I am#I hate how much hated Sol was 'cause of their sharp and aloof attitude but well can you blame them from the traumas we experience#especially myself that Sol would have to act as my attack-guard dog for my safety and comfort?#anyways. I love Sol so much and I am forever beyond thankful for everything they have done and said to + for me. my beloved sun. ♡
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went and got my brakes done today and now i really just want to crawl back into bed and sleep for about a year
#nothing like getting paid and then just watching the entire thing and then some disappear the same day#in any case i'm glad it's done and now i can drive without worrying about my brakes going out#i'm also hoping i didn't get scammed because something weird happened when i got there#i only mentioned the thing about the breaks but the first guy i talked to was like#'okay we'll get that started after i do the oil change'#and i was like ???#because i think it's only been about a month since my last one#and i definitely didn't say anything about that#i don't know if that's just standard procedure for getting new brakes but i thought that was very weird#he ended up just checking the oil level and sure enough it wast still good and full#but now i'm just sitting here wondering if this wasn't one of those things where it's like#'this dumb bitch doesn't even realize she just needed more brake fluid'#and instead they sold me all new brakes because y'know...money#i dunno#i'd really hope not i've always trusted them and felt like they've been honest with me#but i don't appreciate them trying to slide an extra service in on top of an already big bill like that#especially because oil changes themselves are not exactly cheap#dunno where else i'd go for things in the future since this was the kind of thing my dad helped me with#but i guess i'll figure it out#anyway and in any case it's done#and hopefully so too will be this dogshit week
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I forgot a cable at home so no drawing while I am out of town 😔 but when I get home I'm going to maybe design some centipede horrors??
But man dragonsonas and mascots really are the thing huh
Also if I reply slow to any tags or DMs just know ik they're there I just work long hours and am not on my phone much during work! Replies may lag after tomorrow for some personal stuff happening but I will do my best to respond quickly! ❤️
#i sound unsure bc i am#i have a procedure on thursday and i might be in a helluva lot of pain after#dw nothing serious just a quick thing not a surgery#glow talks#im also helping w a family member in hospital rn#when im back home at least
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I think if your immediate response to something unexpected is to panic and hot potato, then medicine is not for you, especially if the something is a fucking phone call.
#This is about the endo tech that freaked her shit and tried to get my info so a nurse could call me back#Instead of asking if she could take a message#Which is. Basic phone answering behavior?#If you aren't the right person you find out if it's a 'I'll go tell them' or a 'call back later' thing#And this was literally a 'go tell a nurse to mark patient xyz as admitted so their order releases'#Nothing! Nothing a random person off the street couldn't do!#The fact a patient had their whole ass procedure done with 'pre admit' as their status is another worm can#We'll ignore that for now#Anyway: post is about an endo tech but it could be so many many people in the system#I think patients should be allowed to kill these people bc if I had to deal with them while sick#I'd lose my mind
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I'm so tired of double vision!! I'm gonna need my neuro-ophthalmologist appointment to hurry up and get here (I say as if there's anything they can do about it 🙄)
Sorry I'm always complaining about this. It's very frustrating, but typing this out makes me feel a little less alone about it hahaha
#also I'm having double vision in my right eye by itself (in addition to the stuff caused by my wonky left eye)#probably nothing to worry about but i saw this thing on Reddit that said someone having the same issue had to get some cornea procedure????#and that they couldn't see much out of that eye for weeks#(it's probably just me needing a new glasses prescription but what if it's that cornea thing? 😱)
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cw pet injury, pet death
nothing more unnecessary than losing your 3 month old kitten to a tilted window (or your 14yo diabetic cat to hypoglycemia because for some reason you waited another three hours after finding her comatose, cold, and barely breathing in your garage, and merely covered her with a blanket. When she came in, our thermometer refused to give us a reading, she had a heartrate of 40, and a blood glucose of 0.7mmol/l.)
#usually i manage leaving work things at work just fine#but some cases just come home with me uninvited#and idk.#i'm just numb#my therapist once said that the numbness is a natural response#basically the brain protecting itself#because i had witnessed something that should've made me feel a lot of things#but it didn't. there was just nothing at all.#and well. by now i know this won't last#at some point the feeling returns#and lately it's been so much anger#i just don't get it.#what have those animals ever done to us.#aren't we supposed to take care of them? keep them safe?#isn't that what pet ownership is?#you take over the responsibility for another living being#that can't or can only partially take care of itself#then why do so many of them have to pay for their owner's carelessness and mistakes#tbf the owner of that diabetic cat seemingly hadn't received proper instructions from her usual vet#which somehow made it even worse because while i can't expect her to just magically know what to do#i can expect other vets to train people to spot disease-specific common emergencies#that's just standard procedure#don't mind me i'm just tired and disappointed and sad#i'll go and listen to music for a while. always helps
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i know that like. the dream is to just get paid to do whatever you want forever, but on god i want a job where i'm actually kept busy with things that have some sort of procedure and schedule and are a good use of my skills because i am losing my mind sitting here doing nothing
#//juri speaks#it's the imposter syndrome and the knowledge that at any point someone could say ''hey you don't do anything we don't need you''#and then i'm fired and they're hiring part time student workers in my place#but even when i get tasks here they're often like. no one knows how to put this idea into action you figure it out#and there's no deadline and there's no guidance and even things that should have a procedure manual don't have one#i'm just given things that should have been planned for and told ''figure it out we didn't plan for this before we just bought it''#which is very backwards and very stressful and very much not what i like to do#and i am. not heartened that i can find a job that isn't like this#not any good at research either and would fuck up getting things published so i can't go after like half the academic positions that exist#i just. idk man. what am i even doing#other than losing my mind bc i have nothing to do
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Moral Alignment Test

Goro is 18.3% good, tied between chaotic and lawful, making him true neutral.
#justice || akechi#justice || dash games#i thought long and hard about goro's alignment when working on his carrd and i settled on true neutral too#because good evil law chaos are ALL massive themes in his character! so boxing him into just two of those just doesn't feel right#i love that law and chaos are perfectly balanced here that's so cool#he's meant to be playing for the god of control and his mission is to sew chaos and distortion#and on a more personal level he does really believe in like. The Law.#he genuinely thinks following the proper procedures and such is generally the best and safest way to do things for everyone involved#but at the same time fuck rules he does what he wants!#and as for good and evil aaahhh i love the lean here towards good#he wants to be a hero! he wants to help people!! really genuinely he does! and he tries to!#but he also is willing to justify anything he does in pursuit of his 'justice' including a lot of incredibly vile shit#not even in a 'doing evil things for the sake of doing good' type of way he KNOWS what he's doing is just unabashedly bad#but he REFUSES to grapple with it let alone try to reconcile his opposing viewpoints#the cognitive dissonance is so severe that he sees two different versions of himself and that's why he has two personas#anyway. he's so many different things where else can he be placed but in the middle?#he's nothing and everything all at once#so not exactly the traditional idea of 'true neutral' but true neutral nonetheless i think!!!
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sorry ive been so inactive on here lately (and everywhere else tbh), i have a lot going on irl right now and i havent had the motivation to rly work on any art or writing this entire month 😔 but hopefully after things calm down i'll get to draw again 💔
#txt#nothing bad happened just. ive had to be at the vet a lot with one of my cats (shes ok she just had some minor procedures done)#and its been 37-40C every day and my bedroom gets as hot as 33C on the worst days and i just Cannot draw in a sauna#i havent even been turning my laptop on bc i dont want to fry it fhshdd#it has started to cool down now so i can finally!!!! clean my room without dying 😭 and also sit down and draw maybe#also. my mom is at the hospital for a few days (shes getting thyroid surgery) and by christ i loathe living alone#u forget u have psychosis until its nighttime and dark and ur alone and u get paranoid and fearful and cant sleep bc u see things OUGH#i!!! am!!! living!!! a literal!!! fnaf!!!! nightmare!!!! life!!! 😭😭😭#i survived my first night alone tho its gonna be ok#my mom should be home tomorrow :') i hope she recovers fast oof#i did have. two crying instances bc i hate being alone but im over it now the worst is behind me#(yes i know im 25 but i mentally cannot live alone its too dark and quiet and scary and i am Babey.)
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I need everyone to understand that there's no such thing as an "illegal" medical procedure which has patient consent.
There are only governments that are objectively incorrect and overstepping authority without even the proper credentials to do so. They are literally engaging in medical malpractice.
So today I want to talk about puberty blockers for transgender kids, because despite being cisgender, this is a subject I’m actually well-versed in. Specifically, I want to talk about how far backwards things have gone.
This story starts almost 20 years ago, and it’s kind of long, but I think it’s important to give you the full history. At the time, I was working as an administrative assistant for a pediatric endocrinologist in a red state. Not a deep deep red state like Alabama, we had a little bit of a purple trend, but still very much red. (I don’t want to say the state at the risk of doxxing myself.) And I took a phone call from a woman who said, “My son is transgender. Does your doctor do hormone therapy?”
I said, “Good question! Let me find out.”
I went into the back and found the doctor playing Solitaire on his computer and said, “Do you do hormone therapy for transgender kids?” It had literally never come up before. He had opened his practice there in the early 2000s. This was roughly 2006, and the first time someone asked. Without looking up from his game of Solitaire, the doctor said, “I’ve never done it before, but I know how it works, so sure.”
I got back on the phone and told the mom, who was overjoyed, and scheduled an appointment for her son. He was the first transgender child we treated with puberty blockers. But not, by far, the first child we treated with puberty blockers, period. Because puberty blockers are used very commonly for children with precocious puberty (early-onset puberty). I would say about twenty percent of the kids our doctor treated were for precocious puberty and were on puberty blockers. They have been well studied and are widely used, safe, and effective.
Well. It turned out, the doctor I worked for was the only doctor in the state who was willing to do this. And word spread pretty fast in the tight-knit community of ‘parents of transgender children in a red state’. We started seeing more kids. A better drug came out. We saw some kids who were at the age where they were past puberty, and prescribed them estrogen or testosterone. Our doctor became, I’m fairly sure, a small folk hero to this community.
Insurance coverage was a struggle. I remember copying articles and pages out of the Endocrine Society Manual to submit with prior authorization requests for the medications. Insurance coverage was a struggle for a lot of what we did, though. Growth hormone for kids with severe idiopathic short stature. Insulin pumps, which weren’t as common at the time, and then continuous glucose monitoring, when that came out. Insurance struggles were just part and parcel of the job.
I remember vividly when CVS Caremark, a pharmaceutical management company, changed their criteria and included gender dysphoria as a covered diagnosis for puberty blockers. I thought they had put the option on the questionnaire to trigger an automatic denial. But no - it triggered an approval. Medicaid started to cover it. I got so good at getting approvals with my by then tidy packet of articles and documentation that I actually had people in other states calling me to see what I was submitting (the pharmaceutical rep gave them my number because they wanted more people on their drug, which, shady, but sure. He did ask me if it was okay first).
And here’s the key point of this story:
At no point, during any of this, did it ever even occur to any of us that we might have to worry about whether or not what we were doing was legal.
It just never even came up. It was the medically recommended treatment so we did it. And seeing what’s happening in the UK and certain states in America is both terrifying and genuinely shocking to me, as someone who did this for almost fifteen years, without ever even wondering about the legality of it.
The doctor retired some years ago, at which point there were two other doctors in the state who were willing to prescribe the medications for transgender kids. I truly think that he would still be working if nobody else had been willing to take those kids on as patients. He was, by the way, a white cisgender heterosexual Boomer. I remember when he was introduced to the concept of ‘genderfluid’ because one of our patients on HRT wanted to go off. He said ‘that’s so interesting!’ and immediately went to Google to learn more about it.
I watched these kids transform. I saw them come into the office the first time, sometimes anxious and uncertain, sometimes sullen and angry. I saw them come in the subsequent times, once they were on hormone therapy, how they gradually became happy and confident in themselves. I saw the smiles on their faces when I gave them a gender marker letter for the DMV. I heard them cheer when I called to tell them I’d gotten HRT approved by insurance and we were calling in a prescription. It was honestly amazing and I will always consider the work I did in that red state with those kids to be something I am incredibly proud of. I was honored to be a part of it.
When I see all this transgender backlash, it’s horrifying, because it was well on the way to become standard and accepted treatment. Insurances started to cover it. Other doctors were learning to prescribe it. And now … it’s fucking illegal? Like what the actual fuck. We have gone so far backwards that it makes me want to cry. I don’t know how to stop this slide. But I wrote this so people would understand exactly how steep the slide is.
#and medical personnel need to be pushing back.#wow how depressing to see how far society has backslid#also there's a distinct difference between legality and morality and they are two clear and separate things#legality has nothing to do with morality. it has everything to do with societal control#sometimes that's necessary when it's for the greater good#but when it has NOTHING to do with the greater good?? like your medical procedure has ZERO impact to anyone else ever???#then the gov and police and law offices can take a long walk off a short pier about it#you have no obligation to comply to arbitrary rules which violate proper bounds of authority and personal integrity
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