#this is specifically about my closest friends and my partner I'm not asking acquaintances to tell me how much they think I'll like something
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weirdo-with-a-nametag · 1 year ago
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If you're my friend... I think about you a lot.
#mine#most of the day I'm thinking about the people I care about#trying to cheer you up if something's gone wrong#oh you'd like this song I think. wish I could say this to you hope I remember after work. wonder what you're up to#feeling my feelings and thinking my thoughts and putting the words together to tell you about it because I want us both to get to share#and most of this is over text so like it's gonna be different and probablynmore detached for most people#and people are busy and I disappear when I'm busy or not up for talking but#I've been feeling like an afterthought a little#I'm trying to take steps back and not put so much tume and effort into reaching out to people if they're not reciprocating but...#it really doesn't feel good#you're on my mind and I want you around and I want to hear what's up and what you're thinking about and how you're doing#and I guess. i want to be on your mind too. i want to hear that I'm present in your life even when I'm not nect to you.#this is specifically about my closest friends and my partner I'm not asking acquaintances to tell me how much they think I'll like something#but like. hey? you tell me you love me. what does that mean for you?#not as a guilt trip but genuinely I am building my personal version of love and maybe I'm not seeing what you're doing. love languages etc#but I am feeling very alone. and not very loved#I'm not too sure what to do about this. I'll keep trying to talk about it#at some point I have to acknowledge when people aren't listening or can't do what I'm asking though
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theallianceofcelestials · 18 days ago
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Hi I wanted to know if you could do a ETD Drabble of Ruin and Eclipse Meeting their swapped versions
Hello! I'm guessing by swapped versions you mean Ruin as the animatronic and Eclipse as the eldritch horror, but if not just send another ask my way and I'll get to it once I've gotten through the load of asks I still have left TvT
Their morning is turned upside down as the rig they're on shakes heavily, throwing him out of his lover's false metalic arms, and into awaiting tendrils.
"Ruin?"
His lover is staring blankly at the wall, not even looking in Eclipse's direction, even as he puts him to his feet. Standing right now feels embarrassing, one of his legs still smarting from having strained it while helping his lover hunt down the still alive monsters.
"There's something very strange going on"
Yeah, he kind of figured that
"Please wait hear darling, I will be back shortly"
And then he's gone, blinking out of existence like usual. Or well, the part specifically made for him is gone.
"Well this is weird"
He jumps, because that's his fucking voice, snapping his head to look at what really does fucking seem to be him just casually leaning against the doorway. Only, that one is wearing those strange clothes Ruin likes putting on him in his 'dreams'
"I never expected to see myself as an animatronic"
The tendrils around him pulse, some of them raising up threateningly. This strange apparation just raises its hands, looking entirely unbothered.
"You are with my lover, I think it's fair I get to oogle yours a bit"
Oh no, this is bad, is this some sort of joke from Ruin's part? Some sort of weird dream or hallucination or something?
"Even if it's just essentially staring at a weaker version of myself. Can this one talk, or is he mute?"
One of his optics twitch, and he really wishes to punch this mirror. Even if that might just kill him
"Go fuck yourself"
"No thanks, I have a partner for that"
This time his entire body twitches in rage, and this mirror of himself laughs. It's an unfamiliar sound with a familiar voice. He grabs onto the tendril closest to him, happy to have it wrap around him.
"Although, I do have to focus on something else, because mine is a bit-"
The door is thrown open, and there in the doorway is Ruin, but in clothes more similar to his. This one's optics also don't glow as strongly, which clues him in that this one might be an animatronic like himself. One, that's somehow still giving him a very familiar dark look.
"Oh there is two!"
Clearly the amalgam is delighted, looking him up and down with a hungry grin, and the only reason he doesn't back up is the familiar arm joining the tendril in wrapping around him. He presses into his lover's avatar with renewed alarm.
How does an animatronic version of his lover still give him the same feeling? Despite being vastly more powerless?
That Ruin even walks up to this weird other Eclipse to tug him against his side like his own does! Like he's the one in control still!
"Come now friend! Don't pretend you never fantasized about having more than one!"
Oh dear god, this one is just like his own. And this realisation sadly makes him groan audibly, and bring a hand up to rub at his face. It's an action he thinks he sees mirrored back at him by the much more powerful version.
"I will have to admit, Eclipses are quite the charming fellows. Though I never imagined having to share in any of those dreams"
He's leaving after this. He really is going to this time. He won't be a soft-hearted fool
"Neither have I, but hey! The more the merrier!"
The other Eclipse just sighs, allowing himself to be pulled the slightest bit closer by the other amalgamation
"I, for one, am quite pleased to make your acquaintance! I believe we could learn quite a lot from each other"
The matching grin spreading on Ruin's face spells out trouble
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breitzbachbea · 4 years ago
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👨‍👧‍👧 Do you tell people in real life that you write fic?
🌝 Who is one character you haven’t yet written for that you would like to?
/ @fireandiceland (there were so many others I also wanted to send but I settle for these two for now ^^)
Oh Riva, feel free to send more for me to answer tomorrow!
Fanfic Ask Game
👨‍👧‍👧 Do you tell people in real life that you write fic?
Oh yeah! Like, I wouldn't send my grandma my ao3 account, but I talk rather freely about writing as a hobby and say where one can find me if they want to read my stuff. I usually don't talk about what I write more specifically, because talking about fanfic with someone outside a fandom just isn't very interesting to me.
🌝 Who is one character you haven’t yet written for that you would like to?
Let's get one non-Hetalia related thing out, because my entire ao3 profile is either Hetalia, my original characters from my Hetalia AU "Like Father Like Son" (LFLS) or the OCs of my beloved friend Jonah.
I reread Soul Eater last year and read some excellent GiriJasu Fanfics to the point I had an idea for one myself. I even have some dialogue snippets still in my notes app, but sadly, I don't think I'll ever write it :') WIP list for LFLS too long and hyperfixation on Hetalia/my OCs burning too bright.
So back to my regular scheduled bullshit - Hetalia/LFLS
There are a lot of characters I'd like to write. The problem with LFLS is that the worldbuilding always requires every nation to have two right hands for me to consider international relations properly. Means I can't just have a character without their two closest allies, besties, worsties, their dreamteam. I however also keep telling myself NO new OCs, because I already have too many and this AU is wildly out of control already.
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But I have been reading way too much fanfiction that features aph Egypt & been thinking too much about how much more I could do with Turkey's neighbours & old acquaintances, so have my ramblings under the cut anyways:
- I was thinking of a followup for The Amulet of both of them running to other people - Michele in Herakles' case and Mohamed (Egypt) in Sadık's. This was also inspired... well, the root of all of this is honestly me reading too many TurGre fanfics with the Egyptian in it, even some TurGregypt stuff. (Which also means that if I ever write this, I have to fold and make Egyptians. SIIIIIIGH.) ALSO, sidenote about that - Love the idea of Turgypt or Turgregypt in this. I'm so sorry though, because the other thing I fucking loved in the fanfics was Mohamed always being the second fiddle, the only one next to Herakles, but still not there. And he knew it. So I also do wish him that he actually found a more stable, nice partner in here. Presents us with 3/4 possibilities though: 1. His partner is not down to clown whatsoever. Mohamed is off-limits. 2. His partner IS down to clown and foursome shenanigans continue to ensue. (If it worked with SicIre, why stop there.) 3. His partner would be down to clown with ONE of them, but not both. Now, I'm sure Sadık has made enemies enough that it'd be easy to find someone who's give Herakles a thumbs up, but not the Turk. However, it would be so infinitely funnier therefore to find someone who says yes to Sadık but isn't here for Herakles. "Oh yeah, I could go for a hatefuck with Sadık, but I don't know about the Greek."
- Here are some more ideas about potential right hands for both Egypt and Iran/Persia:
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- Recently sent Jani a voice note about how funny it would be if the OLD right hand of Mohamed (who must have already worked for his parents, at least) brought the other, younger one into business ... and they had this dynamic: "I should have left you on that street corner where you were standing." "But you didn't!" (If you don't know this video, do yourself the favour and watch it.)
- Also this post about a potential right hand for aph Iraq. I know nothing about Iraq and would super love to have a good reason to learn more; I would need someone else's aph Iraq OC though, because I'm not making any new aph OCs these days.
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