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dicksuki.
synopsis: seeking out comfort from unofficialbf!katsuki and he says something mean and it's your final straw. + katsuki can't stand seeing you cry.
notes: i will be exclusively referring to mean katsuki as dicksuki from now on

it has been a long, long day. you're running on maybe 3 or 4 hours of sleep, you're on your period, you've been buried under homework, and you're 2 seconds away from a nervous breakdown. so, you did what any girl would do and sought comfort from katsuki. youâre curled into his chest, warm and tired, tucked under the covers in his dorm bed. itâs late. the roomâs quiet. and he just kissed your forehead like he always does. casual, gentle, thoughtless in the way itâs become second nature.
âi love when you do that,â you whisper, voice barely above the hum of his fan.
he hums low in his chest. âdo what?â
âkiss my forehead,â you say, already sounding half-asleep. âit feels like you really love me when you do.â
his heart skips. it stutters, even. but he doesnât show it. instead, he scoffs, because thatâs what he does. dumbass defense mechanism kicking in without permission.
âmaybe i donât,â he mutters, a teasing edge in his voice. âmaybe i just do it to shut you up.â
he smirks. like he thinks heâs being funny. like itâs nothing.
and for a second, he thinks you laugh. or maybe youâre just shifting under the blanket.
but then he feels you go still. not the relaxed kind. not the sleepy kind.
the kind of still that makes his stomach twist.
he glances down, still smirking, until he sees your face.
youâre staring at nothing, eyes wide and watery, lashes clumped from blinking too fast. lips trembling like youâre trying so hard to hold it in but youâre already losing the battle.
and it hits him like a truck.
âwait.â
his smile drops instantly.
âwait. shit. baby.â
it wasn't exactly what he said. sure, it was kind of hurtful, but it was more the accumulation of all of your stressors and he happened to be the final straw. don't crash out over this. it's ok. you donât say anything. you don't trust yourself. you donât move, either, lest some tears fall out with the motion. your chest rises with a shaky breath you try to swallow.
his whole body tenses. âfuck, i didnât mean that. hey, no, no, câmere. look at me.â
heâs cupping your face before you can turn away, thumb brushing your cheek, voice suddenly so soft.
âi was just messinâ with you,â he says, frantic now. âi didnât mean it. of course i love you. fuck, of course i do.â
you blink up at him, eyes glassy. you're so vulnerable and emotional right now. honestly, you'd been sort of insecure about loving katsuki more than he loves you lately, and he confirmed all of your worst fears. after all, you were technically 'just friends.' just because he hangs out with you doesn't mean he loves you. âbut you said-â
âi know what i said,â he cuts in quickly, guilt written all over him. âand it was stupid, okay? i was beinâ a dick like always and i swear i didnât mean it. not even a little.â
your lip wobbles and he practically whines, pulling you against him and hiding his face in your hair.
âgod, donât cry. please don't cry. iâll do anything, iâll kiss your forehead a hundred times, just.. donât think i donât love you. and also stop cryin'. it's killin' me. i love you, sweets.â
you sniff against his collarbone, voice muffled. âyou do?â
he leans back just enough to kiss you. your forehead, your temple, your hair. kiss, kiss, kiss.
âso fuckin' much.â

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#jisu writes!#unofficialbf!katsuki#you have my whole heart#but lowk this is too boyfriendy for unofficial bf like bro kissing is TOO INTIMATE to pretend ur just close friends#bakugo x reader#bakugo fluff#bakugo katsuki#katsuki fluff#katsuki x reader#mha fluff#mha x reader#bnha fluff#bnha x reader#bakugou fluff#bakugou angst#bakugou x reader#bakugo angst#bakugo comfort#bakugou comfort
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Damian wakes up, startled. He doesn't remember what he saw in his dreams, and he is not sure what caused him to feel so anxious, but he knows what to do. The routine is easy and comforting; he just needs to find his brother Jason. So, he goes.
His bare feet against the cold floor is soundless, making no sound, and he keeps rubbing his eyes until he sees one of the doors open. It must be Jason. He always keeps the door of his room open, just in case.
There is a dim light in the room, a small lamp on the desk, where the stakes of paper are stored, and Jason is here, as tall and huge as always, tapping on his feet in an attempt to concentrate, while twirling a pen between his fingers. He is either reading or working on something else: writes down memories, afraid of them slipping away due to the Lazarus Pit hammering in his temples all the time.
Damian yawns and steps closer, tapping on his back.
'Akhi Jason,' he calls hoarsely. The body freezes, almost surprised â he is not supposed to; Jason hears him from the corridor, even if he is the most soundless kid in the whole world. 'I want to sleep.'
He never says he sees nightmares or that he is scared â just that. It always works.
Expect, this time it doesn't.
'What did you say?' Brother asks, his voice sounding so unusually stiff.
'Jason,' he repeats, more irritated this time. 'I said, I want toâ'
When Jason turns around, Damian instinctively staggers back, his eyes widening.
The man in front of him is not Jason.
And for a second, Damian is panicking, until-
Until he doesn't remind himself that he is not home anymore. He is in the Wayne Manor, with his father.
With his father that looks exactly like his brother, only older, without scars, marring his face, and without a white streak that makes him look like a bird.
'Damian,' his father calls, slightly shaken. 'How do you know Jason?'
He swallows down. He is not supposed to tell about his brother. They instructed him not to.
But father has a familiar desperation in his eyes, the same one Jason had, when he was pacing around the room, muttering something incoherent, the cut out from newsletters photos of Bruce Wayne with Tim Drake in his hands, and-
And Damian shrugs.
'He is my brother,' he says, almost too innocently; because if he is going to be clueless about it, then what others will have to tell him? 'He stayed with a grandfather. It is a shame.'
Almost as if he doesn't understand what all of this implies.
'I was sleepy,' he adds. 'And got confused. My apologises, father. I shall return to my bedroom.'
Bruce stares, stares, and stares. And then, rubs his face with his hands, exhausted.
'I'll tuck you in. Let's go,' and a second later, with his voice sounding so familiarly small, just like how Jason's sounded when he first acknowledged him as his brother, he adds: 'Can you tell me more about your brother, Damian?'
And Damian tells him, of course.
He is not surprised to see the result of his work the next week.
#someone once said Damian wasn't impressed by how big and tall his father is because he was growing up with Jason lurking around#and i run with it#i shamelessly love just how much Bruce and Jason can look alike#it is an important tool for angst.#and sometimes for fluff and humour#ALSO Bruce always kept his door open for Jason in the past and Jason did the same for Damian#i was also trying to subtly show that they have the same habits (tapping foot & twirling pens)#and that's why Damian didn't notice anything strange#jason todd#red hood#dcu comics#dc universe#dcu#batman#batfamily#bruce wayne#batfam#damian wayne
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headcanon that farspace colonel!caleb gradually stops dropping the gâs from his words. in his new role, heâs forced to wear an unwavering mask of perfection, of accuracy and infallibilityâthereâs no place for his playful, informal cadence in the fleetâs operations.
and so, as the months go by, he exchanges his signature what are you thinkinâs and where are youâre goinâs for their grammatically correct yet vapid counterparts.Â
when you reunite with him, itâs one of the many things about his transformation that make your heart ache, but youâll never bring it up. you wonât risk crumpling his already fragile selfhood over such a trivial perception.
but the more time you spend together after you reconcile, the more his natural speech pattern peeks through. Â
youâre in the midst of a pillow fight, landing blow after blow on his back, when you hear it: âyou think youâre gettinâ the best of me? i donât think so.â
and youâre so overjoyed by his casual toneâhis transient return to the caleb you once knewâthat you briefly forget what youâre doing, having no time to react before his apple throw pillow smacks you in the face
#can you tell i have an english degree#it was so hard trying to punctuate this#iris writes#love and deepspace#caleb x reader#love and deepspace x reader#love and deepspace caleb#love and deepspace headcanons#lads headcanons#lads x reader#love and deepspace angst#love and deepspace fluff#lads caleb#lads#lnds#caleb#lads fluff
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sakusa knows heâs a bad date.
heâs quiet, timid, doesnât speak much, and asks all the wrong questions at the wrong time.
heâs not very good at eye contact and a lot of the things he wants to say he feels he canât say at all either.
(partially due to the feeling that everything he says when he talks to you ends up embarrassing him, and partially due to the fact that talking to you for long periods of time make him tongue tied).
(not that heâd ever admit that).
despite all that though, he does know the basics when it comes to going on dates:
he buys you flowers (and forgets it by his doorway), he opens the car door for you (and apologizes when it almost hits you as he opens it), and he makes dinner reservations at the restaurant you mentioned to him in passing three days ago (he did a good job with this one).
so yes, him being a bad date is not unbeknownst to him. quite the opposite in fact, itâs not only something he knows about himself, but itâs also something that he thinks about all the time.
or at least, all the time ever since heâs met you.
thatâs how the two of you end up here â the evening of your first (and probably last) date, sitting on a porch step of an empty building, a bloodied handkerchief filled with crushed up snow pressed against sakusaâs left cheek, and a few missing buttons from your favorite winter coat.
sakusa always knew he was a bad date, but he never thought he would be this bad.
the plan had been simple: get you flowers, open the door for you, drive you to the restaurant you liked. sakusa had this game-plan of his memorized ever since you said yes to him four â now five â days ago.
he wrote it on a piece of paper, step by step, and kept it in his wallet sleeve in case he forgets, he repeated it to himself three times in the mirror this afternoon before he left the house to pick you up, and he said it to himself one last time in the car before texting you that heâd arrived.
he memorized it.
and still, he messed it up.
the streets are empty and the evening is quiet.
âsorry ⊠for this.â
his words feel like theyâve been the first to be spoken all night.
on the snowy concrete just below your feet, thereâs a few drops of blood making its presence known loudly against the whiteness of the snow, the drops scatter sporadically, and near it, thereâs a button or two from your coat.
you sit next to sakusa on the cold steps, itâs a quiet night, and itâs not snowing anymore, but the soft bed of the cold flurry it left behind made for a beautiful evening.
you let your head fall slightly on his shoulder, âfor what?â
you can feel him stiffen immediately under your touch, and he coughs, shy, and looks to the side.
it makes you smile a little bit â his efforts of hiding his expressions â itâs not like you can see him anyway with that big makeshift ice-pack covering his face.
âsorry for the bad date.â he clears his throat, more clearly now, a little louder too, but his tone almost sounds disappointed. â⊠and sorry for ruining your coat.â
you lift your head up from his shoulder, frowning, and you turn to face him, âitâs not a bad date.â
he doesnât say anything to that. instead, he keeps his head turned slightly away from you, but his shoulders fall a bit when you move away from him.
âif anything, i should be the one apologizing.â you mutter lowly, âiâm the reason you got hurt.â
sakusa huffs slightly. a second pausing in the air as he refuses to return the look you give him, and finally, he puts down the âice packâ from his cheek, and looks at you.
his cheek is scratched lightly, nothing too deep, just a red mark thatâll probably resolve itself in a few days, but his lower lip though â the culprit of the blood stained snow â is undeniably busted, still bleeding slightly, and making him wince at the sudden loss of pressure.
âdonât say stupid things.â he tells you, and if it makes him sound cold, he swears heâs not trying to be.
he just doesnât know what else there is to say.
the truth is â it is a bad date.
he forgot your flowers, almost hit you with the car door, and now, the two of you are missing your dinner reservation because he got himself injured twenty minutes into the night.
itâs not fair, he thinks. half the things he wants to say to you, he canât. half the things he wants to do, he messes up.
you make him fumble on his words, tongue tied, speechless, literally. you make him write things down on notes so he wonât forget them or practice on bathroom mirrors or worry in his car outside your doorstep.
he is the most capable man in his team, he is the sharpest, the most composed, his teammates and coach all count and look up to him.
but for some reason, one night with you, and it all washes away.
he doesnât know what to say to you, he forgets things, and he falls face first flat on the hard concrete ground twenty minutes into your first date.
donât say stupid things.
âyou really wonât let me take you to the hospital?â you put your hand on his knee, turning even more to your side so you can face him better.
you have half a mind to put your other hand on his injured cheek but you donât want to hurt him more than how he already does.
âitâs not as bad as it looks.â and as he says that, he winces, the gust of wind suddenly hitting his busted lip a testament to his bad luck tonight.
sakusa wants to kick himself, if there ever would be an appropriate time to act cooler than how he actually was, it would definitely not be now.
you donât look so convinced, but sakusa wouldnât know, heâs still only limiting himself to looking at you briefly before shifting his glance to something behind you or beside you or above you.
âhm. and it doesnât hurt?â you cross your arms.
he shakes his head, âno. it doesnât.â (it does.)
you raise a brow, âand you wouldnât happen to be lying to me right now so i donât take you to the emergency room?â
he shakes his head again, âiâm not.â (he is.)
you give him a look.
listen â sakusa already knows that heâs a bad date, but come on! he has been planning on asking you to dinner with him since the first week heâs known you, heâs been worrying about this evening since the second you agreed to it, and heâs been kicking himself in the head ever since the night began.
heâd rather bleed out on this disgustingly dirty porch step than admit that heâs a date so bad he can turn an evening meant for dinner into a night at the emergency room.
he doesnât want you to think that he can be so bad like that. (is it too soon to ask you out for dinner again?)
you still look frustrated at his answers. but at least, heâs looking at you now.
you let out a big sigh, shoulders falling, and suddenly, you clap your hands together loudly as you straighten up.
âthen i have an idea.â you say, and sakusa furrows his brows at the sudden change in the atmosphere.
you give him a prompting grin. âheads or tails.â
and it catches him so off guard, he says aloud, âwhat?â
you dig for a coin in your coat, âiâll flip a coin and if it lands on heads, we go to the emergency room, no arguments, no fusses, no nothing.â
he frowns at that.
âbut.â you tell him, and your grin gets wider as you show him the dime laid out on your palm, âif itâs tails, we go to my apartment, and iâll try to fix you up there.â
his frown falls almost immediately into something else.
one night out with you and heâs already bleeding heavily and injured, and now you wanna take him back to your apartment?
were you trying to kill him?
âheads or tails, omi.â
he blinks at your words. and once again, he finds himself saying aloud, âwhat?â
you shoot him a funny look, your eyebrows slightly raising as your lips curve upward into a crooked smile.
you say, teasing, âif you donât know; heads is the part of the coin with the head of the person showing on it and tails is theââ
sakusa grumbles loudly, cutting you off mid-sentence, making sure you see him roll his eyes at you, and he nudges you slightly with his foot.
he mutters, albeit under his breath, and he tries to hide it, but you can always tell when heâs smiling, âi know what a goddamned head is.â
you shrug, your grin wider now when you see his mood lighten up a bit.
âdo you know what a goddamned tail is?â
sakusa huffs out an amused sigh. the smile on his face a lot more prominent now, and you only wonder slightly if it hurts him when he does it.
his shoulders fall as heâs defeated, âjust take me to the emergency room.â
you let out a short laugh and the night doesnât seem so quiet anymore.
you fall back against his shoulder, âah, omi, are you just saving the opportunity to be invited into my apartment for our next date?â
thereâs a choking sound to be heard in the air.
his face almost feels like itâll erupt into flames by how casually you just said that, a hot pink hue creeping up from his neck to nose all the way to the tips of his ears. he blames it on the cold, and immediately, he presses the âicepackâ back against his cheek.
sakusa stands up suddenly from the porch step, âletâs go now.â
and just like he said, he strides away, faster than what would usually be safe on snow-covered pavement.
âomi, not so fast!â you yell after him, rising from your own seat and following his pace, âyou might fall again and hurt the other side of your face and atsumu will think i beat you up on our first date.â
he walks faster.
âi can go to the hospital myself, please donât follow me.â
âthatâs ridiculous! let me take care of you!â
he trips on his feet slightly as you say that and his heart feels like it wouldâve fell from his mouth had he not caught himself before falling again.
you really were trying to kill him, werenât you?
maybe this date doesnât feel so bad after all.
and, is it too soon if he asks you to come have dinner with him again?

#ragebaiting sakusa as a date idea DING DING#ik my sakusa posts dont get that much views but i cant help it i love writing for this silly man#also guys i fear ive hardwired him into my writing as a whimsical man#he just has whimsy#i have a secret talent where i see whimsy potential on a seemingly whimsy-less man and bring out the whimsy in him#my rambling OVER#I HOPE U LIKED THIS!!!#also sorry for the 9 day wait WOW it wont ever be that bad again i promise#sakusa x reader#x reader#fluff#angst#imagines#haikyuu#haikyuu x reader#hq!!#sakusa kiyoomi x reader#sakusa kiyoomi#headcanons#drabbles#fanfiction#haikyuu x you#sakusa x you#hq x reader#timestamps#oneshots
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Don't wake daddy dad!bucky x mom!reader
synopsis: you've never been able to surprise your husband considering he's an ex trained assassin, but he'll make an exception for you and your daughter on fathers day. not proofread.
wc: 1081
"Mommy when is it gonna be done?" your daughter tugged at the hem of your shirt.
"Shh baby, we don't want to wake daddy." You smiled and whispered to her as you finished plating your husbands food.
Giggles and the smell of breakfast filled Bucky's senses as he woke, eyes fluttering open from the couch that he most likely fell asleep on from being to tired to get to bed after getting in from work last night. He watched his four year old daughter clumsily walk into the living room with a marker and paper in her hand. Placing the paper on the coffee table, she locked eyes with her father and let out a gasp.
"Mommy he's awake!" She ran back to the kitchen shouting.
You looked down at your daughter who had the cutest little pout on her face, you opened your mouth to speak before you felt an arm slither around your waist.
"Mornin' love." Bucky mumbled into your neck, the grogginess apparent in his voice.
You turned to face your husband and gave him a slow kiss on his lips, "You aren't supposed to be awake mister."
"Daddy ruined the surprise." You looked back down to your daughter who was now teary eyed staring up at her father.
You glanced up at your husband who was now looking at you wide eyed before he crouched down to pick your daughter up, "I'm sorry sweetheart, I didn't mean too."
She sniffled in his arms and you watched as he gently wiped away your daughter's tears, Bucky tried to get her to stop crying but nothing was working.
You walked over to the two and placed a hand on your daughter's back as she cried, you slowly placed your head beside hers on Bucky's shoulder, "Don't be upset honey, daddy didn't know."
Bucky could feel his heart twist at his daughter's upset, especially since he's the one who caused it. The moment was too sweet for Bucky to handle, seeing his daughter cry over something so innocent while you consoled her so gently. Becoming a mother came so naturally to you, you were nurturing, loving and so selfless when it came to your family.
Your daughter wouldn't let up about the problem her poor father unknowingly caused, so Bucky decided to try and create a solution.
"How about I go back to sleep, hm? And then you and mommy can finish the surprise?" Your husband suggested in a hushed tone. Gaining not only your attention, but your daughters as well.
Your daughter's head shot up and she nodded with teary eyes. Bucky set her down and walked back to the couch but not before grabbing the hands of your and your daughter, "You and mom gotta tuck me in though, okay?"
"Okay!" Your daughter replied cheerfully, the way her could change so abruptly always surprised you and your husband.
You rolled your eyes playfully at Bucky earning a wink from him, as the three of you walked into the living room. Bucky returned to his original sleeping position and gave you a cocky grin while you placed the blanket over him.
You were just about to walk away before your daughter grabbed onto the hem of your shirt, "Mama what about goodnight kisses? Daddy needs them to sleep!"
"Yeah mama, I want my goodnight kisses." Your husband restated, the man was quite literally beaming while awaiting your kiss.
You giggled and bent down to give Bucky a peck on his forehead, but he swiftly angled his head upwards and your lips landed on his as he gripped your face gently, causing you to squeal slightly before pulling away.
"Okay, Daddy is going to bed now." You picked your daughter up as Bucky shut his eyes and went back to 'sleep'.
You walked back into the kitchen and finished setting up the breakfast tray with your daughter. You carefully walked with the tray in your hands as your daughter held a handmade drawing and a small wrapped rectangular box.
You set the tray down on the coffee table and signaled for your daughter to wake up her father. Bucky pretended to stir in his sleep earning a small chuckle from you.
"Mmm, m' so tired princess. How about you and Mommy join me?" Before either of you could respond, Bucky pulled both of you on top of him and squeezed you both. Your daughter shrieked with excitement before somehow freeing herself from Bucky's grasp,
"Daddy look what I made!!" She revealed the drawing to your husband, it was a picture of you and Bucky holding your daughter's hand along with a scramble of letters that didn't spell out anything, but he wasn't gonna tell that to his little girl. "Look I drew your arm!"
"Oh my. I love it, princess." Saying he loved it was an understatement. Bucky was on the verge of tears, he had been all morning. Bucky never thought in a million years that he would get to experience peace like this. He never thought he would ever deserve to live the domestic life, hell he still doesn't think he deserves it.
"Sweetheart, give daddy the present you got him. " You whispered.
You watched as her tiny fingers handed Bucky the small box. Your daughter watched eagerly as your husband opened the box to reveal a necklace with a small silver rectangular locket, similar to the shape of his dog tags he always wore around his neck.
Bucky's heart almost stopped as he opened the locket, inside was a picture that he had taken of you and your daughter on the beach during his birthday two years ago. The photo was of you holding your daughter in your arms, the two of you smiling in on the sand as the sunset painted the background with beautiful shades of pink, red, and orange.
That was it.
That was Bucky's breaking point, he could no longer hold back the stinging in his eyes. Tears slipped down his cheeks, he wiped them away quickly but not without you seeing.
"Daddy? You don't like it?"
"No no, I love it princess. Thank you." He said while clearing his throat, he pulled the two of you into his lap and smotherd you both with kisses.
"I love you both," He said softly
"I love you too." You pulled him into a kiss before your daughter separated the two of you.
"Ewww."
Bucky snorted out a laugh,
"Let's eat hm? Im starving."
a/n: this is completely self indulgent but idc. also late fathers day post, this was supposed to be posted three days ago oops. anways this is like a test run for me maybe posting a bucky mini fic I've been working on lol.
like, comments, and reblog appreciated!
#fathers day post because I have daddy issues#bucky barnes as a dad#bucky barnes#bucky barnes fic#bucky barns x reader#bucky x you#winter soldier#james buchanan barnes#marvel fanfiction#marvel fandom#marvel#avengers#mcu#marvel mcu#marvel cinematic universe#x reader#fluff#angst#bucky barnes x reader
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IS IT CASUAL NOW?
pairing: vi x fem!reader word count: 14.6k summary: you and vi are both tired of complicated relationships so try the whole friends-with-benefits thing....and maybe forget the whole point of your arrangement in the first place. warning: lesbian situationships (there is so much angst and yearning), brief mention of (internalized) homophobia and struggles with addiction....but mostly cheesy domestic fluff and smut [oral (vi receiving), fingering (both receiving), thigh riding, slight bondage play, switch!vi has my heart] (18+) ! a/n: merry (belated oops) xmas girls and gays <33 i've probably spent way too much time on this but it's my BABY....kinda based on leighton and alicia's plotline in s1 of sex lives of college girls and ofc casual by chappell roan (there are many other chappell references throughout too hehe). also yes i made a mini playlist that consists of the songs that i think reflect this fic's sun, moon, and rising signs....pls enjoy and happy holidays !!!
âȘ: "angel baby" by troye sivan (sun); "pretty girl" by hayley kiyoko (moon); "casual" by chappell roan (rising)


ânot even one week into the new academic year, violet rose atlas, captain of the varsity soccer team, has been suspended from gameplay due to recent unsportsman-like behavior, sentenced to 100 hours of community service, and banned from the local lesbian bar.âÂ
mel removes her eyes from the screen to raise an eyebrow at you. you just shrug and take a sip of your coffee. you glance over at the clock on the wall.Â
11:09am.Â
âto top it all off, sheâs late,â you declare, trying your best to hide the anticipation simmering in your stomach.
âwhatâs your deal, anyways? you totally flirt with her whenever sheâs at the bar. not even we get that good of service,â gert points out. theyâre searching through a stack of cdâs and cassette tapes for something to play.Â
âthat was before.âÂ
you walk over to sit next to gert, taking it upon yourself to choose the music. you settle on jagged little pill; alanis morrissetteâs lush voice is a welcomed addition to your conversation.
âour funding is at risk,â you explain. âitâs like the dean assigned her to us because she knew it would end terribly and the board would have an excuse to finally cut us loose.âÂ
âif they need an excuse, theyâll find one,â gert grumbles.
you shrug. âi just think violet is bad news, which is something iâd prefer we avoid..â
âthe article does say that she punched maddie nolan in the face during an exhibition game against the piltover knights.â
âsee? bad news. literally.â
âwell, i think we lucked out,â sky gushes, though her focus remains on finishing her current project. sheâs crocheting so fast that you only catch glimpses of her sparkly pink fingernails. youâre sure sheâll be done with this blanket before violet shows up. if she even bothers to show up. âthe yellowjackets mightâve lost their captain, but we get to spend quality time with the hottest butch on campus.â
âwhatever,â you sigh, though you donât disagree with that description. you check the clock again â 11:11am â and settle against the worn couch. âsince we have the time â mel, why donât you read our horoscopes? iâm itching to see what the universe has in store for us today.âÂ
âââââ âââ ââââââ
vi spent the better part of last night crying and getting wasted in her bathtub with cheap dye burning into her scalp.Â
she just couldnât stand the memory of caitlyn kirammanâs perfectly manicured nails running through her formerly pink locks as they kissed, tugging on viâs hair to bring her closer â
enough. fucking pull yourself together.Â
caitâs moved on, that much is clear, with someone more like her. someone whose last name is on buildings all around the university of piltoverâs campus.
so far, no amount of bar fights or red cards or late nights in some random girlâs bed seem to mend the heart that caitlyn shattered to pieces, but vi doesnât give up easy.
soon enough, sheâll be back on the field, leading the yellowjackets to victory at nationals; sheâll finish all her classes, graduate with honors and have a great plan for an even greater future; all while having amazing, mind-blowing sex that wonât lead to serious heartbreak.
relationships are overrated, anyways.Â
the first step in this plan: spending 100 hours with a bunch of angry, bra-burning lesbians.
maybe vi will fit right in.
so, vi walks into her community service assignment with a wicked migraine and hands that look like lady macbeth plotted to murder an oil spill, but with her usual confident swagger nonetheless, as conversation echoes down the hallway.
âaccording to your rising, there will be a much needed spark in your romantic life. my guess is a fire sign is gonna sweep you off your feet.â
another voice chimes in, a gentle rumble. âcould that be your sweet jules?âÂ
âiâve never asked about her chart,â an achingly familiar voice replies. it brings back memories of dizzying lights and strong whiskey coursing through her blood, but something else, too. a sky full of stars and too-sweet alcohol on her tongue. âpaula was a fire sign, though, and that blew up in my face.â
âpaula was a walking red flag.â
âyeah, well, apparently redâs my favorite color.â
âmaybe that was just the heartbreak you needed to bring passion back into your life. do you feel that with jules?â
âi donât know â maybe? we havenât had sex yet.âÂ
âpassion isnât just about sex, you know ââ
âgert, i love you, but i cannot handle a sex therapy session right now.â
someone else giggles, bright and bubbly. âhm, i wonder what sign our pink-haired hottie is.âÂ
vi clears her throat to announce her arrival, leaning against the doorway.
everyone turns to look at her then, with varying degrees of shock, and vi feels like sheâs just walked into an after midnight roommate vent session.
she isnât sure what she expected the space to look like, but zaun universityâs womenâs centre is well-lived in, defined by a sort of organized chaos. each wall is covered in posters and collages, multicolored flags and fairy lights; thereâs a shelf in the corner with assorted trinkets and books piled high, a table next to it with baskets of condoms, pads, and tampons and informational pamphlets, and a door in the opposite corner, slightly ajar. a vintage boombox placed on the coffee table plays 90s alt rock, circled by mismatched seating with patterned blankets and brightly colored pillows strewn about.
someone with dark lipstick and an eyebrow piercing is drawing on their converse; a dark brunette wearing glasses is draping a blanket over the arm of a couch; another person is scrolling on their laptop, a gold necklace glittering on their collarbones.Â
viâs attention is stuck on you, though, the origin of the aforementioned familiar voice: the very hot bartender from sapphoâs, where vi happened to be kicked out of not even 72 hours prior.Â
youâre wearing a vintage wonder woman t-shirt tucked into faded blue jeans with a carabiner clipped to a belt loop. the sleeves of your shirt are rolled up, displaying your array of tattoos â viâs already decided that her favorites are joan of arc holding her sword, a pomegranate thatâs been cracked open, and lyrics from bikini killâs ârebel girlâ (which admittedly, vi had to look up when she first saw). itâs everything viâs booze-soaked brain had apparently memorized after many nights of staring at you across the bar counter, licking up whatever honeyed flirtations youâd spill from your lips. vi always noticed your hands, too: the many rings youâve stacked on your fingers, the lavender sprig sprouting from your middle finger and venus symbol etched onto your wrist, the nails that are always clipped short and painted black.Â
one of those nails is tapping anxiously on your coffee mug, which has a picture of hayley kiyoko as lesbian jesus.
âpink-haired hottie, reporting for duty. though, i might need a new nickname.â vi grins; you roll your eyes. âiâm an aries, by the way.â
âgood to know.â the brunette winks not-so-subtly in your direction before walking towards vi and extending a hand, gold bangles clinking together at the motion. âiâm sky, she/her. we had electromagnetic theory together last spring. itâs lovely to officially meet you.â
vi makes a big show of leaning down and kissing skyâs hand.
ânice to meet you, too, sweetheart.â
âsuch a gentleman,â sky giggles and leads vi to the patchwork couch. she curls up like a cat, and vi follows suit â the couch is cloud soft, and vi tries not to sink into the cushions. âiâm our supplies and communications coordinator.â she turns away from vi to look around the room. âokay, thatâs my intro. whoâs next?â
the person with an eyebrow piercing nods at vi, a sort of effortless greeting. âgert, they/them.â they snap the sharpie shut after writing âthe future is intersectionalâ on the tip of their toe. âi curate and design our newsletter, the black rose. iâm also in a band ââ
âthe sirens of zaun. yeah, i recognize you. youâve played a few gigs at sapphoâs.âÂ
vi looks at you pointedly, and you take this as your cue to disappear behind the door, which appears to lead into some sort of office.
gert seems pleased, though. âthen you might also recognize our lead singerâŠ.â
the person with the gold necklace, who vi does, in fact, vaguely recognize but canât quite name, closes their laptop and waves at vi. âiâm mel. pronouns: she/her. i mostly deal with the finances around here. and, from what i understand, youâre already well acquainted with our fearless leader ââ
mel is cut off by the sound of her phone alarm.Â
âshit â itâs already 11:30. our set at campus radio starts soon.â mel gestures at gert. gert picks up the bright red guitar case behind them and secures it around their shoulder as mel packs up her leather satchel.Â
âdamn, i gotta get to class, too. the space-time continuum waits for no one.â sky gets up and gathers her things, too, stuffing yarn into a fruit-printed tote bag. âit was nice meeting you though.â she pats viâs head affectionately before throwing out a loud: âsee ya later, boss!â
mel and gert offer similar farewells, and you shout goodbye from the other room before the three of them are out the door. vi expects you to reappear a few moments later; when you donât, she ventures into the office.
itâs smaller, but just as decorated as the lounge space. thereâs a desk that seems to be more storage than actual use, littered with piles of books and old copies of the black rose. youâre sitting on a fluffy rainbow carpet that looks like every member of sesame street stitched together, writing something in a sticker-covered notebook.Â
âso, violet ââ
âviâs fine,â she tells you. she decides to sit on the floor next to you rather than the zebra striped chaise lounge.
you nod, rip a page out of your notebook, and hand it to vi. thereâs something a bit too intimate about knowing what your handwriting looks like before even knowing your name.Â
âthis is a run down of everything youâll need to know, but real quick: we do feminist film fridays and trivia tuesdays on alternating weeks; our radical reads book club meets once a month, along with our slam poetry group, and we have a bunch of other events in between â workshops, art builds, discussion groups, and so on. sky keeps everything in the centre stocked, and occasionally the rest of us will pitch in when organizing a charity drive. our newsletter publishes the third wednesday of every month â gert puts it together, but we print in pairs since it could be a lot of work for one person. we have team meetings once a week to share updates, make sure weâre all on the same page, stuff like that. any questions?âÂ
âwow, okay. thatâs a lot.â
you smile. âiâm sure youâll be able to keep up, varsity.âÂ
âsoâŠ.where do i fit in?âÂ
âthat depends on you, really,â you tap your glitter gel pen on your notebook, thinking. âlike, iâm assuming youâre not well versed in feminist literature.â
vi puffs out her chest. âbased on what assumptions? iâm not a dumb jock.â
âyeah, i know youâve made the dean list ever since your freshman year.âÂ
vi raises an eyebrow. âkeeping tabs on me, wonder woman?â she teases.Â
you laugh. âdonât flatter yourself. skyâs the one who mentioned it to me. so, unless you mean your very large, unpaid tab at sapphoâs...â
âthe bar i was kicked out of, you mean.â
âwell, yeah, because you ââ you take a deep breath. ânot the point. anyways, we donât have a complete schedule for book club, so you can maybe take the lead on one of our meetings. do you have a favorite author?âÂ
vi smiles at you sheepishly. âahâŠ..you got me there.â
âthought so,â you smirk and vi covers her blush. âif youâre curious, this bridge called my back is a good place to start. oh, and audre lorde is a classic and a personal favoriteâŠ..â you pause when you catch vi staring at you. she wants you to keep talking, to appreciate the way your eyes light up so enthusiastically, but you blink away, and a veil of professionalism falls back onto you. âsorry. anyways, weâre having trivia tomorrow â would you be able to help us out with that?
vi nods. âsure.â
âsweet.â you check your phone. âiâve got a coffee date, so i should get going.â
âwait â you never told me your name, wonder woman.â
âwell, itâs not diana prince,â you quip before finally introducing yourself.Â
ânice to finally put a name to the face.â vi winks at you, standing up. she extends a hand to guide you up. your hand is cold against her skin, your metal rings even colder.
âiâll see you around, varsity.â before youâre out the door, you turn back around. âoh, and vi?â
âyeah?â
âdonât be late.â
âââââ âââ ââââââ
you had stepped away for a quick smoke break â a habit you knew you had to kick â but youâre so fucking drained and itâs only wednesday.Â
you were up all night bickering with your girlfriend. it started with her admitting that she really doesnât want to meet your friends, which transitioned into her asking you to not talk to anyone about her or your relationship, which prompted you to make a (maybe slightly insensitive) comment about how sheâs welcome to stay in the closet but has no right to push you back in.Â
needless to say, you did not get any sleep.
youâre about to walk outside, and finally get a moment of peace, when your phone rings. itâs your sibling, and the fact that theyâre calling instead of texting tells you that this conversation is about to be (A) exhausting, (B) infuriating, or (C) both.
the correct answer is C.
itâs the same story over and over again: your dad drinks too much, your mom is absent. it hadnât been this bad when you were growing up, but you suppose youâd been around to ease the damage, or at least step in and take care of your sibling as needed.Â
âjust â take a deep breath. you can come stay with me for the weekend, okay? itâll be good for you to get away from the chaos for a bitâŠ.weâll go apple picking if the weatherâs nice, maybe start working on your halloween costume â whatever you wanna do.â
âyou know, iâm not five anymore,â they mumble, stifling a small laugh along with some tears. âbutâŠokay. that sounds nice.â
you smile to yourself, shoulder pressing against the door. âitâs a plan then. weâll sort out the details later. and, donât worry about mom and dad â iâll take care of it. love you.âÂ
you hang up and exhale as you finally push the door open, happy to finally get one moment to breathe.
except, just as youâre greeted by a crisp breeze on this beautiful late september evening, youâre also greeted by the sight of vi pressing someone against the brick wall, their legs wrapped around her waist as she kisses their neck.
something ignites in your abdomen, familiar after many nights of seeing vi at the bar, charming her way into another womanâs bed. except, itâs definitely not jealousy, this time.
(okay, maybe it is; but only a bit.)
they spring apart upon hearing the door slam closed. you recognize who viâs with â maya, a sophomore whoâs frequently attended womenâs centre events since last year. sheâs always been friendly with the team, but never this friendly.
âoh my gosh, i am so sorry!â
âyou donât have to apologize,â you tell her sincerely. her cheeks are flushed, and sheâs busy smoothing down her skirt, clearly trying to distance herself from vi, whoâs leaning against the wall nonchalantly. âi just need to talk to violet, so do you mind giving us a sec?â
you wait until maya disappears inside to cross your arms and glare at vi.
âso, itâs violet now, huh?â she teases, wiping red lipstick off her smirk.
âyou were supposed to be helping facilitate this workshop,â you note.Â
âwell, it is a queer sex ed workshop.â vi rolls her eyes. âi was giving maya a hands-on experience.â
you grit your teeth together. âand you just had to do that now? like you just had to go down on that third year during trivia last week?â
âwell, see, i donât have a ton of free time, and since iâm not allowed at the local lesbian barâŠ.â she trails off, looking at you pointedly. âiâve had to resort to multi-tasking.â
âmulti-tasking.â you let an exhausted, bitter laugh slip from your lips. âyouâve showed up late to every single event in the past few weeks, and once youâre there, youâre either on your laptop, getting drunk, or hooking up with someone. tell me, violet, as captain of the yellowjackets â if someone on your team was acting like this, what would you do?â
vi narrows her eyes at you, like she canât believe what youâre asking, and admits, âiâd call them out, tell them to do better.â
âright. and if they kept giving you empty promise after empty promise? youâd have to do something more drastic, even if you didnât want to, yeah?â
no response.
shaking your head, you take out a cigarette. thereâs only silence when you flick the lighter open and light it between your lips. you inhale deeply, letting the smoke enter your lungs, exhale slowly, and decide: âiâm gonna ask the dean to reassign you.â
âfine by me,â vi scoffs, but you swear that something close to disappointment flashes across her face. âclearly, this isnât working out.â
âclearly.â you take another drag of your cigarette, and as vi walks back inside, you canât help but try to get under her skin. youâve had a bad week, between family drama and turbulence in your relationship with jules, and youâre just sick of people not giving a shit. âthe yearâs already started, so i doubt thereâs something available. which means youâll remain on academic probation until spring.â
and, okay â you do get some twisted satisfaction in how that makes vi stop in her tracks. youâre leaning against the wall, and she strides over to stand in front of you, her jaw and fists clenched.
âiâll miss the whole tournament.â
you shrug, and blow smoke in her face. âiâve given you plenty of chances.â
âbut the team needs me ââ
âyou should have thought of that before you fucked up, varsity,â you snap. viâs eyes widen; youâre usually more level-headed. âyouâre cocky, irresponsible â â
âi lost my scholarship,â vi blurts out, prompting you to pause, the cigarette millimeters from your lips.Â
you blink at her, blood still roaring in your ears.
âiâŠdonât know why thatâs relevant.â
vi just sighs, so deeply that you feel it in your bones. you havenât seen this side of her before â no flirtatious smile, no overconfident posture. instead, she slips to the ground, knees pressed to her chest. feeling a bit guilty for pushing her buttons, you slide down next to her. you offer her the cigarette, but she shakes her head.
âiâŠiâm going through a shitty breakup. iâve been lashing out, and i lost my scholarship. i havenât asked my parents for money, because the last thing i want is for them to worry about me. so, i started picking up these odd jobs to make ends meet, and the hours are a bit crazy so between school and practice and â fuck, thereâs also shit going on with my sister that i wonât even get into now, but itâs a lot â and i also need to do this because i let my team down and i need to be there for them, whatever it takes, and iâm just so fucking ââ
âexhausted, yeah.âÂ
you can see more clearly now â the slump in her shoulders, the shadows underneath her eyes; you see her more clearly. you realize that you might have more in common with violet rose atlas than you initially thought.
âso the laptop ââ
âfinishing assignments.â
âthe drinking?â
vi juts her chin out at your smouldering cigarette. âwe all have our vices.â
âand the sex?â
her lips curl into a sheepish grin, and she shrugs. âwe all need to relieve stress.â
you clear your throat, blinking away from her gaze and trying to ignore how you can feel warmth radiating from her body, so close to yours. âright.â
vi runs her hand through her tar-black hair. that should have been your first hint â nothing says lesbian breakup more than terribly dyed hair and questionable decisions.Â
âlook, i know i canât do everything, but i have to, and iâm still trying to figure out how.â
âwellâŠ.as far as excuses go, itâs not the worst,â you admit. âthanks for telling me. i know that couldnât have been easy.â you take a deep breath and get to your feet. âi stand by what i said earlier, though â this isnât working out. you just canât tell us that youâll be helpful and not follow through. it means a lot, to a lot of people, that thereâs a space like this on campus. mel, gert, skyâ they all work so hard to make that happen, and thatâs something i need to protect. iâm sorry.â
âwait.â vi grabs your wrist before you can leave. âiâm sorry. really, i am. i promise to do better.â
âyouâve made that promise before,â you point out. âwhy should i believe this time will be different?â
âbecauseâŠyouâre right. iâve been too caught up in myself, in what i need, in what my team needs. i can see that you really care about your team, though, and i should have respected that. theyâre â youâre â amazing, everything that you do to make people feel safe and heard and loved. iâm sorry for taking that for granted.â
wow. okay.Â
you did not expect that. youâre hoping that vi canât feel your pulse quicken at her words, but youâre glad that sheâs holding on to you, keeping you steady.
âyeah, wellâŠflatteryâs not gonna get you far.â you clear your throat. âbut, youâre obviously going through a lot right now, and it can drive you crazy, feeling like youâre the one who ââ
âhas to keep everything together,â vi finishes, sliding to the ground once more. you follow. âseems like iâm cracking under pressure, this time. fucking everything up.â
âyouâve got a reckless streak.â
âmust be the aries in me,â she laughs, softly. âapparently itâs my Ieast attractive quality. along with my stubbornness and selfishness.â
âwell, i donât think thatâs the whole picture,â you assure her. vi looks at you incredulously. âi wonât lie and say that your actions arenâtâŠ.thoughtless sometimes. youâre more self-centred than selfishââ
âhey!âÂ
âbut you obviously feel some sense of responsibility, for your team, your family, for what you think is right. hell â the reason my boss asked me to kick you out is because you started a bar fight with that frat boy who was insisting he had the right dick to set lesbians straight.â
vi scoffs. âasshole.â
âi was about to throw him out, but you beat me to the punch. literally.â you nudge your shoulder against viâs, and she chuckles. âand, yeah, youâre stubborn, which can be annoying, but it also means that youâd never give up, that youâre willing to keep trying despite the odds, soâŠ.âÂ
âsoâŠ.?â
viâs looking at you with the widest, softest eyes. fuck, you never expected her to be this gentle, so much so that it you want to melt to her every need.Â
âiâm hoping third timeâs the charm, varsity.â
vi smiles, the most sincere one sheâs probably ever given you, and the scar on her lip stretches; for all your talk about responsibility, thereâs a part of you whoâd risk pushing your already tenuous relationship with your girlfriend to its breaking point just so you could kiss vi, guilt-free, just once. maybe you have a bit of a reckless streak, too.
âthanks, wonder woman. you wonât regret it.â
yeah. you kind of already do.
âââââ âââ ââââââ
vi would never admit it, but one reason she fought to keep her community service assignment here is because she wanted to keep seeing you.Â
she likes getting under your skin, seeing those pretty eyes roll whenever she strides in late for a meeting, that kissable jaw clench any time you catch her tangled up with someone else.Â
it almost makes up for all those nights at sapphoâs youâd spent flirting back and forth, some sort of unspoken agreement between you to never go further.
sometimes, itâs just nice to have a crush in your back pocket, to know that theyâll always be there to admire and admire you back while others come and go.
the more time you spend together, though, the more vi realizes that youâre not just a fictional character in her head, in a fantasy she pictures before bed â no, youâre tangible.
vi watches as you bring special tea for gert when their period cramps are particularly painful; she listens to you console mel after another fight with her mother and offer advice to sky when she was hoping to ask out her lab partner. vi notices how you prefer your coffee with a dash of cinnamon; and she learns that you had your first kiss with a girl in your freshman year journalism class, and that your first tattoo was done by the same person. a stick-and-poke star on your ankle.
she can hear your laugh, feel the cool metal of your rings brush against her skin accidentally when youâre squeezing past her in a crowded room, smell your perfume when you hug her goodbye. you have stories and quirks and expectations and opinions that vi subconsciously files away as she gets to know you better.
youâre not just a crush, anymore.Â
youâre a friend.Â
vi likes having you as a friend. really â she does!
youâre a friend who makes viâs heart jump at the sight of your name on her phone. a friend who smirks when vi blushes after you tell her she has the prettiest cheekbones youâve ever seen. a friend who mentions this vibrator that gave you one of the best orgasms youâve ever had, so vi orders the same one and maybe still pictures you before bed, imagining that youâre using it at the same time. except someone else might be next to you.
yeah, viâs pretty sure youâre dating someone, but thatâs something she hasnât gathered enough information on.Â
not that it matters. she wouldnât be interested in anything serious, anyways, after the mindfuck that was her relationship with caitlyn, and the damage sheâs still having to heal from.
though, if that hadnât happened, vi would have never gotten into a fight with maddie nolan, the second striker for the piltover knights, who taunted her during an exhibition game about how caitlyn is so much happier now that she isnât disgracing herself with a filthy zaunite. vi would have never been banned from the first half of the tournament and chewed out by coach sevika for fucking up the yellowjacketsâ chance at nationals.Â
vi would have never been put on academic probation and assigned to 100 hours of community service, either.
she certainly wouldnât have been here, now, in the womenâs centre office close to midnight on a tuesday, folding the most recent issue of the black rose when you walk in.
âoh. hey, v.â you drop down on the zebra-striped couch, your tote bag falling to the ground. âi thought sky was gonna be here tonight.â
vi shakes her head, removing one earbud and letting it dangle from the cord. âsheâs got this huge chem report due tomorrow, had to meet up with viktor to get it done.â
ârightâŠâ you sigh and lie back on the couch, staring up at the ceiling. a few moments pass, and thereâs only your steady breathing. âwhat are you listening to?â
your eyes are closed when vi settles in next to you. itâs a relatively tight fit, but it doesnât seem like either of you particularly care. vi gently places an earbud in your ear.
you snort, opening your eyes. âyou could have just said the cranberries.â
âiâm surprised you recognize them,â vi quips. âitâs not your usual angry girl music.â
âwell, sometimes people surprise you. this is actually one of my favorite songs,â you explain. âitâs in one of my favorite movies, too.â
âyouâve got mail?â
you furrow your brows. âwhen harry met sally.â
vi shakes her head. âno, âdreamsâ is definitely in youâve got mail. but, i agree that when harry met sally is a better movie.â
âyouâve watched nora ephron movies and enjoyed them?â
âwell, sometimes people surprise you,â vi teases. âi can appreciate a good love story as much as the next person.â
you let out a short, airy laugh. you tilt your head and youâre so close to vi that youâre practically exchanging the same breath. your eyes land on her lips for a millisecond, and vi starts to lean in before you sit up abruptly.Â
âi could use some alcohol.â you climb over vi and go to the desk, pull out a half empty bottle of fruit-flavored soju from a drawer. you grab two mugs â the hayley kiyoko one, and another with frida kahlo. you stop short of pouring, looking to vi. she nods.Â
soon enough, youâve got your legs strewn along viâs lap, sipping lychee infused alcohol.Â
âcan i ask you something?â
âanything,â vi answers, squeezing your calf.
âwhyâd you and caitlyn break up?â the question hangs in the air for a second before you add: âif you donât wanna talk about it though, i understand.âÂ
shit. itâs definitely not viâs favorite topic of conversation, butâŠ.
âi think she thought that i was one of the good ones, that regardless of the way i grew up or the blood that coursed through my veins, i would be her perfect little charity case. people would be like: future president kiramman definitely cares about the poor â just look at the broke angry lesbian sheâs turned into her docile wife!âÂ
you suck in a sharp breath. âfuck that.âÂ
âyeah,â vi laughs sadly. âthe worst part is that she wanted me to be vulnerable with her, so i was, because i thought the more i opened up, the more sheâd love me, but, in the endâŠ.i was too messy. i was too much.âÂ
vi hates the lump that starts to build in her throat, the tears that threaten to spill. she cannot cry in front of you â
you grab her hand. your skin is cool against hers, and it eases her quickening heartbeat.
âyouâre not too much, v.â your voice soothes her like honey, trickling down her throat. âit sucks, though, when they ask you to rip your heart out of your chest and get mad at you for bleeding out in front of them.â
âshit, i never thought of it soâŠviscerally, but thatâs exactly what it feels like.â
âwell youâre not a creative writing major,â you quip. âi know it still hurts â trust me, i know â but your heart was never hers if she treated you that badly. you deserve more.âÂ
is it the alcohol messing with her brain, or does it look like you want to kiss her?
fuck.Â
vi clears her throat. âwhyâre you asking?â
you pull your hand away, take a sip of your drink. âjules broke up with me a few days ago.â
youâre single now. good to know.Â
âwhat happened?â
âi caught her kissing someone at a bar. a boy.â you roll your eyes. âmaybe she just wasnât ready, which is fine, but when we had it out, she told me that what we had isnât what romance is supposed to feel or look like, which sucked. especially after being soâŠ.vulnerable with her.â
âyou offered her that bleeding heart of yours, didnât you?âÂ
you click your tongue, pouring some more soju into each mug. âcourse i did, v. and it didnât mean anything in the end. because relationships suck.â
âiâll drink to that.âÂ
you cheers, keeping eye contact.Â
âand you know what?â you take a big, long gulp. âi know that relationships arenât just about sex, but iâve been having to get myself off for months now and sometimes, i just want someone else to ââ
âtake care of you?â
vi sips her drink, watching you mull over her words.
ânot sure if iâd put it like that,â you decide. âi just miss that excitement. when another person wants to discover what makes you feel good, and wanting to learn how to make them feel good, too. i miss having that connection with someone.âÂ
âiâm guessing you didnât have that with jules, then.âÂ
âha! no. and paulaâŠthe girl i dated beforeâŠ.letâs just say, she didnât give a shit whether i felt good, in any sense.â you shift in your seat; vi senses thereâs a story there, but she doesnât push. âhow about future president kiramman â she take care of you?â
vi canât help but laugh. ânah. i mostly took care of her. she sure liked it when i got down on my knees for her.â
you hum.Â
âlucky her.âÂ
you wink at vi, and she chokes on her drink.Â
i would gladly do it for you, if thatâs something you want.
âis that a genuine offer? because, if youâre joking ââ
shit. did vi say that out loud?Â
viâs heart is beating out of her chest, but she sits up straighter to regain some level of composure. she nods.Â
no use in turning back now.
âiâm serious, wonder woman.â
you stare at her. âi really canât have another relationship thatâs just gonna crash and burn.â
âthatâs not what iâm offering. i care about our - our friendship. i care about you.â
you swallow. âi care about you, too.â
âright, and when our friends need help with somethingâŠ.â
âwe help them,â you finish. âso, youâre really just talking about casual sex. right now, on this couch?â
âyes,â vi answers. maybe a bit too quickly. âif thatâs what you want, too.â
âthatâs what i want,â you reply. maybe a bit too quickly, too. âbut none of this one sided bullshit: you do me, i do you.â
vi takes your mug, puts it next to hers on the floor, and repositions your bodies so that sheâs hovering above you, hips set between yours.
âsounds perfect to me.âÂ
you finally, finally kiss and it feels oddlyâŠfamiliar. you taste like lychees and nicotine and cherries, burnt sweetness, and your skin is so fucking soft.
âwait.â you tug on viâs hair and she has to bite back a moan at how fucked out you already look underneath her, all wide-eyed and desperate. âjust so weâre 100% clear: just sex.â
vi nods once. âno strings attached.â
âitâll be casual.âÂ
âweâre not doing the whole relationship thing.â
âpromise?â
vi sticks out her pinky, grinning at you sheepishly. you roll your eyes ever so slightly, but still wrap your pinky around hers.
âpromise.âÂ
so, you take care of each other. no strings attached.
because thatâs what friends are for, right?Â
âââââ âââ ââââââ
v âœ
are u busy rn? got out of my lab early and im boredÂ
wndr wmn â
yeah, im at work
v âœïž
leave early. im BORED and HORNY
wndr wmn â
ofc you areÂ
v âœïž
pls u love itÂ
u know #6 isnât just my jersey number ;))
iâm implying that i will give u 6 consecutive orgasms
wndr wmn â
yeah i got thatÂ
v âœïž
soâŠ.
wndr wmn â
âŠ.
leaving now
âââââ âââ ââââââ
âyou sure about this, v?âÂ
vi hums, looking up at you through hooded eyes. âisnât it every girlâs dream to get tied up by the lasso of truth, wonder woman?â
youâre straddling her, still wearing your red and gold bodysuit underneath blue shorts that youâve decorated with silver stars. your makeshift lasso of truth â really, just some gold rope â sparkles, tying viâs wrists together to the headboard.
the theme of the womenâs centre halloween celebration is always the same â dress up at your favorite female icon â but youâd never seen someone look as good as vi does. she dressed as trinity from the matrix, all tight, black leather and vinyl, showcasing her defined muscles as the gods intended.
now, sheâs left in a sleeveless cropped top and black boyshorts, with her pants and jacket thrown somewhere on your apartment floor.Â
you have a feeling she really liked your costume, too, because she practically begged you to take control tonight.Â
âif it gets too much, our safeword will be ââ
âsappho.â the slight whine of impatience in her voice sends a jolt right to your core.
âperfect.â
you kiss her lips, her jaw, her neck, your lipstick leaving angry red marks. you lodge your bare thigh in between viâs legs, biting your bottom lip when you feel her already warm and wet, when you hear her whimper as you apply more pressure to where she needs you most. you reach into your nightstand for your vibrator and switch it on, teasing viâs nipples through her shirt.Â
vi moans, deep and loud. not even thirty seconds, and sheâs already pulling at the restraints, the headboard creaking.Â
âare you gonna be a good girl for me, violet?â you coo, inching the vibrator lower and lower, feeling her shake underneath you. âbecause weâve got all night, and you better not break my bed.â
âââââ âââ ââââââ
âhey, so â i found these in between one of the couch cushions, thought maybe they might be yours.â
you can only spare a glance at the item mel is holding up â youâre grading freshman papers, focused on this one studentâs thesis about gender fluidity in shakespeareâs twelfth night.
âoh, those are viâs.â
âhm. and just how is it that you know what her underwear looks like?â
you stop writing mid-sentence and look up at mel whoâs giving you a pointed look.Â
you and vi had been the ones to clean up after feminist film friday last week, and one thing led to anotherâŠ.
in your defense: vi had been wearing these low cut jeans that showed off her v-line, and you could tell she didnât have her usual sports bra on because you could see the outlines of her nipple rings through her tight, white tank top. it took everything in you to wait until people cleared out during the credits of the watermelon woman to pin her down and have her whimpering for you.
âi justâŠguessed.â
âright.â mel rolls her eyes. âso, you and violet areâŠ.what? fucking? dating?â
you clear your throat and take a sip of lukewarm coffee.Â
âweâre keeping it casual,â is all you say.
âare you sure thatâs a good idea?â
you just shrug.
âjust â be careful,â mel, always the diplomatic one, eases. she walks towards you, sits on the edge of the desk, and hands you the pair of black briefs. âi know we all teased you about it before, but i donât want to see you get hurt. iâve seen you get your heart broken one too many times.â
âitâs fine, mel,â you assure her, grabbing the piece of fabric and shoving it at the bottom of your bag. youâre visiting their owner after this, anyways. âvi and i are just friends helping each other out.â
mel raises an eyebrow. âwell, you and i have been friends for years and weâve never gotten that close.â
âthatâs different.â
âhow so?â
âi appreciate your concern,â you say, avoiding the question. âbut itâs fine. nice, actually.âÂ
âitâs your life,â mel sighs. âmaybe donât fuck on our couches anymore, though.âÂ
your cheeks heat up. you turn your attention back to the essay in front of you.
ânoted.â
âââââ âââ ââââââ
vi starts showing up at your place after soccer.Â
sheâs allowed back on the field during games now, so she appears with a winning grin, a grass-stained uniform and fresh bruises on her knees. one time, she had the remnants of a bloody nose after a header gone wrong, and you could taste copper when she pressed her lips against yours before she hopped in the shower.
you keep her go-to body wash stocked â bergamot and cedarwood scented old spice â but she always walks out of the bathroom smelling like your mango-vanilla shower gel. sometimes even your coconut shampoo. she slips on one of your oversized graphic tees, drapes a light purple towel around her shoulders to avoid staining your shirt with her cheaply dyed black hair, fading back to pink with each wash. she walks over to the fridge in her soft gray sweatpants rolled at the ankles and cracks open one of the spiced-pear red bulls as you pull ingredients out for dinner. usually something quick and simple, since itâs always a long week and neither of you have capacity for anything more.
vi chops garlic and tells you about her game; you boil water for pasta and tell her about the latest drama between students in your literature class.Â
you pretend you have all the time in the world.
because you both know that viâs got the strap packed in her gym bag, that soon one thing will lead to another and sheâll be fucking you with it until youâre both sweaty and spent and exhausted in the best way possible.Â
youâve established this routine together, agreed upon several unspoken rules: no pillow talk once itâs over; no actually falling asleep in the otherâs bed; no crossing that thin sapphic line between friendship and romance.Â
no breaking that promise.
âââââ âââ ââââââ
wndr wmn
wanna come over? iâm watching bend it like beckham
v âœïž
MY FAVORITE!!
i would love 2
but lucky fell asleep on meÂ
we just finished devouring an xl pepperoni pizzaÂ
wndr wmn
remind me again why your one-eyed golden retriever likes pizza so much?
v âœïž
come on itâs cute
[v âœïž sent an attachment]
wndr wmn
yeah, youâre cute
v âœïž
<3Â
come over here instead?
wndr wmn
omw
âââââ âââ ââââââ
vi whines, and you canât help but roll your eyes.
âcome on â hurry up.â
âyou practically begged for this, v,â you chide.Â
âyeah, but youâre taking too long and your hands are fucking freezing.â
âitâs the irony deficiency, babe,â you quip. ânow, are you gonna be a good girl and let me finish?â
âfine,â vi grumbles. she does stop squirming, though. you hum, pleased.
you certainly didnât miss the way her breath hitches at the nickname. viâs right hand, freshly polished, tightens on your thigh.
youâre not sure why she called you at 1:27am for your help with this, or why she couldnât just do it herself, but youâre sitting on her lap, painting her nails the color of pomegranate juice, a color she had chosen from the options you brought.
sure, you were about to turn in for an early night, but the moment you heard her voice through the phone, you rushed over to her place wearing nothing but your pajamas â plaid boxer shorts and a spiderman shirt that vi wore last time she was at yours, and you havenât washed since.
you stretch time out as much as you can, meticulous in every stroke, but painting her nails doesnât take much longer. you start to move off her lap â itâs probably time for you to leave â but vi grabs your hips, a playful smirk on her lips.
oh, right. thatâs the type of relationship â friendship â you and vi agreed upon.
shit. youâre pretty sure that youâre wearing your days of the week underwear. is it a turn-off that youâve got on a saturday pair on a thursday?
it doesnât really matter, anyways.
instead of initiating a kiss, vi takes the bottle of polish from you, swaps it for black, and gestures for your hand. you blink at her, until you realize what sheâs asking.
âoh! you donât have to ââ
âyou do me, i do you.â vi grins at you. âi thought that was our arrangement.âÂ
you laugh, feeling warmth radiate from your chest.
itâs kind ofâŠ.adorable, the furrow of her brow, the way she curses under her breath when a drop of nail polish falls onto your skin. sheâs surprisingly gentle, too, one of her hands holding yours for support while the other paints.Â
while she focuses on getting the polish onto your nails in even layers, you busy yourself by counting viâs freckles.Â
violet rose atlas has a constellation of freckles sparkling across her cheeks. you hope thereâs enough time in the world for you to memorize every single one.
âââââ âââ ââââââ
v âœïž
do u need more nicotine gum?Â
im at cvs rn
wndr wmn
yeah thatâd be great!!
v âœïž
okÂ
iâll get u the cinnamon one
thatâs the one u like right?
wndr wmn
yep!!!
v âœïž
okay cool
im also gonna get u some of those iron supplements
wndr wmn
my hero đđœ
thank you sm
v âœïž
ofc
âââââ âââ ââââââ
âthat red head was trying to get your number.â
âare you jealous, v?â
vi scoffs, sipping her cherry coke. âof course not. iâm just observant.â
youâd convinced your manager to let vi back into sapphoâs. itâs nice, really, to see her back here again.Â
nice, but different.Â
gone are the days of staring at her from across the room, where she would be charming someone else, and only flirting with you when she came over to get another whiskey for herself and vodka something for her date. instead, she jokes around with mel, sky, and gert if theyâre around, and sometimes brings her teammates in as well to play a game of pool. she usually has one drink, and then switches to something non-alcoholic. sometimes, vi doesnât even come in for a drink; she just stops by to say hi before a team dinner or a study session.
(itâs fine â never once have you gotten an overpriced coffee from the cafe she started working at mid-october, and you probably stop by once a week between errands. thatâs your excuse, anyways.)
so. things are different, but nice.Â
you lean across the sticky counter. âyou want me to get down on my knees for you right now to prove which girl here iâd like to go home with?â
âbabyâŠ.â vi shifts on the bar stool. itâs hard to tell under the dim multicolored lights, but youâre pretty sure sheâs blushing, too.Â
âi think we both know youâd draw a bit too much attention to yourself. especially when i use my tongue to ââ
âmy carâs outside.âÂ
you smirk. âmy breakâs in 15.â
you used to spend your breaks in the alley outside sapphoâs burning through a cigarette. now you find yourself knee-deep in the passenger seat, eating vi out like sheâs the last thing youâll ever taste.Â
âf-fuck,â vi groans.Â
âfeels good, yeah?â you tease her clit with her tongue, sliding two fingers into her easily. you work fast, determined to let her finish before you run out of time.
âso fucking good. iâm gonna ââ
she clenches around your fingers; you lap her up eagerly, let her writhe against your face until sheâs had enough.Â
you sit back on your knees once her hips still, wiping your mouth with the back of your hand. you crane your neck to check the time on the dashboard, when you notice something in the footwell.
âvi! i thought i lost this.â
vi grins at you sheepishly, chest still heaving as you hold up the complete works of audre lorde, a tattered book with a well-worn spine and dog-eared pages.Â
âsorry. i meant to put it back on your nightstand once i was finished.â
you open to where sheâs placed a makeshift bookmark â the ticket from an underground sirens of zaun show youâd both gone to. youâve had this copy since freshman year, the scribble of your handwriting in the margins of practically on every page.
âitâs okay,â you tell her. âyou like it so far?â
âyeah.â she grabs the book from you gently, thumbing through the pages. you wonder if vi registers the curves of her own smile, tender and bashful. âhonestly, iâm not usually a fan of poetry, but itâs really cool how lorde writes about desire between women in such a tangible way, you know? i really liked this one verse in ârecreation:â âtouching you, i catch midnight as moon fires set in my throat.â itâs just so - so beautiful, the idea of something so domestic and mundane being almost magical, because thatâs what itâs really like when ââ
you donât even realize that youâre staring until vi looks up at you and freezes.
âsorry,â she clears her throat, closing the book and setting it aside. âdid i say something wrong?â
you assure vi that she did nothing wrong.Â
you exit her car, the taste of her lingering on your tongue, the feeling of her keeping your body warm on this cold november night.
âââââ âââ ââââââ
wndr wmn
hey
are you in town during break?
vâœïž
having dinner at my dadsâ on friday but otherwise im here
why? u gonna miss me??Â
wndr wmn
lol
im having ppl over for friendsgiving on sunday
if you wanna join
v âœïž
hell yeah
can i bring anything?
wndr wmn
just your pretty face
iâll take care of the rest
turkey, cranberry, sauce, stuffing, sweet potatoes, pumpkin pieâŠ
etc. etc.
v âœïž
damn!!!!
full course meal
wndr wmn
yep
im basically wife material
vâœïž
pls weâre so over gender norms
but yeah
you are
âââââ âââ ââââââ
vi has never been the type to wait by the phone for a girl to text, or to show up at her place after not hearing from her in a while, worried that she might have done something wrong.Â
yet here she is, standing outside your door.
itâs cool, though. completely platonic behavior.
she knocks.Â
thereâs no answer.Â
she knocks again.
nothing.
vi waits another second, leaning her shoulder against the door.
âitâs me, wonder woman,â she tries.Â
hope flutters in her chest as she hears you shuffle, unchain the lock. vi stumbles as you throw the door open, but she recovers quickly to find you: smudged black eyeliner enhancing the shadows underneath your eyes, hair in disarray, clothes disheveled.Â
âiâm not really in the mood for sex.â
vi canât help but laugh, even though your comment feels like a punch to the face.
âwow. figured you would think more of me by now than just some horny teenage boy.â
âlook, vi ââ
vi?Â
since when do you call her that?
âiâm sorry i missed the meeting today. i texted mel ââ
damn, so your phone does work.Â
youâve just been ignoring her calls and texts.
âbut iâm just⊠itâs not a good time, okay? iâll see you around.â
ah.Â
the classic generic excuse and non-committal statement combo.
you start to close the door on her before she even has a chance to get a word in.
the hits just keep coming.Â
thankfully, viâs always been a good fighter.
âwait.â vi places her palm firmly on the door before you can fully shut her out. âiâm just here to check on you.âÂ
your face remains unchanged.
âokay, well, youâve checked on me.âÂ
âyeah, iâve checked on you. you look like shit.â
you glare at her. âwell iâm sorry i didnât have the time to get all prettied up for you. i know that you like me better that way.â
âthatâs not what i ââ vi inhales sharply. sheâs a fighter, but she doesnât want to fight you. âmel dropped the news â about admin officially cutting our funding. i knew how that would affect you, soâŠ.â vi lifts the bag of takeout. âi brought some thai food for us to share. a pomegranate, too, because i know you like seasonal fruit. itâs been a while and honestly, i justâŠ.i just wanted to spend time with you.â
you exhale, your eyes softening.Â
there.Â
a hesitant smile, an invitation to come inside.
there are clothes all over your floor and dishes piled high in the sink. your desk is littered with empty boxes of cereal and cans of an energy drink that normally youâd never touch. the blanket that sky had crocheted for you â lavender and pink checkered â is unfolded on your couch, your laptop half-closed on the coffee table in front next to two stacks of printed essays â ones marked with purple pen, the others untouched. in contrast, your bed is still perfectly made.Â
you take the blanket and wrap it around your shoulders, sitting at the kitchen table and curling into yourself. vi busies herself in cracking open the pomegranate, putting the seeds into the last clean bowl in your cupboard. the palms of her arm wraps are now stained a reddish-purple, but she doesnât care.
vi manages to find two pairs of clean chopsticks for the thai food, and the two of you eat in silence.Â
âsoâŠ.â vi starts, watching you stab a piece of chicken before popping it into your mouth. âyou wanna talk about it, orâŠ.?â
âwhatâs there to talk about?â
âwell, for starters, maybe tell me whatâs been getting you into full hibernation mode? we havenât seen each other in, like, a week.â
âsix days,â you correct, chewing a mouthful of noodles. âlast tuesday, we played pool during my closing shift at sapphoâs. i lost. you made me down two shots of tequila because youâre a menace and you know i hate it.âÂ
âyeah, but i drove you home and tucked you into bed with water and advil for later, so iâm also a gentleman. so, just tell me whatâs been going on. weâll figure it out, yeah?â
âitâs fine,â you grumble.
âclearly, itâs not. just tell me what you need.â
âwhat i need is to not be distracted,â you huff, avoiding eye contact. âi certainly donât need you ââ
âtaking care of you, i know.â vi grabs your hand from across the table. she feels you stiffen on instinct, and then ease into the heat of her skin. âtrust me, i wouldnât be here if i didnât want to be. so â humor me.â
vi squeezes your hand, hoping to reassure you.Â
you sigh. âiâve just â iâve been spiralling trying to figure out how the centre can keep going with, like, half our required budget, trying to see if we can get some external donors and i still need to finalize the venue and equipment rentals for our last open micâŠ.andâŠ.and my sibling called again to tell me that things havenât been great at home, so i want to go down there this weekend to sort everything out, but my car hasnât been startingâŠ.plus iâm behind on grading, and i told my supervisor iâd have a complete draft ready by thursday and iâm not even halfway done, and thatâs the same day weâre having that art build for the climate rally on friday, and iâve been having the worst cramps since this afternoon, and all i wanna do is pass out and sink into my duvet, but i need to keep going ââ
vi squeezes your hand again, this time more firmly. âyou need to slow down.âÂ
âi canât.â you huff. âi have to keep everything from falling apart, and if i donâtâŠ.â
vi shifts to the chair next to yours, still holding your hand.Â
âbut you canât do it all if youâre too exhausted to take care of yourself. from the looks of it, youâve been living off of frosted flakes, red bull, and zero sleep.âÂ
you shrug. âif thatâs what it takes.â
âif thatâs what it takes, then maybe itâs not worth it.â
âdonât say that,â you tell her. âitâs all worth it. i just wish it wasnât soâŠheavy.â
vi nods, because she really, truly understands. she gives you the advice she can see you giving her in another context.
âyou ever think that maybe it wouldnât feel as heavy if youâŠi donât knowâŠwerenât too stubborn to ask for help.â
âthere are things that are my responsibility, violet,â you tell her, slipping your hand away. you reach for the bowl of pomegranate seeds, meticulously picking up one at a time with your chopsticks and crushing it in between your molars. âi canât just pass those off to someone else.âÂ
âfine. but what about other things? like the womenâs centre stuff â weâre a team, right? so weâll figure it out together, divide the labor so youâre not doing everything. and, maybe ask your supervisor for an extension, too? and, well, i donât really need my car this weekend, so youâre welcome to borrow it.â
you pause, narrowing your eyes at her.Â
âyou saidâŠ. âwe.ââ
âwell, yeah. iâm part of the team, arenât i?â
âbut youâll be finished with your hours in a week. thereâs no reason for you to stay.â
âof course there is,â vi whispers, studying your face as it morphs from suspicious to something else, something gentler.Â
her heart is pounding as she waits for you to say something, so vi starts to dig into the pomegranate seeds, the juice surprisingly more sweet than sour. some dribbles out from the corner of her lips, and you reach over to wipe it away with your thumb.
âiâd love for you to stay,â you hum, smiling, and vi feels her chest glow with a brightness it seems only you can bring out. âturns out you give pretty good advice.â
âsoâŠyouâll consider it.â
you shrug again. âmaybe. i am very tempted to take you up on the car thing.â
âall yours, if you want it.â
âare you sure?â
âitâs fine, wonder woman. iâll just carpool to practice â itâs better for the environment, anyways. canât show up to the climate rally as a hypocrite, can i?â she jokes, and you roll your eyes playfully. âand, iâll try to fix your car while youâre away.â
âwow. you are a gentleman.â
âgentleman? baby, iâm husband material.â
you actually laugh.
âi thought we were over gender norms,â you quip. âbut yeah. you are.âÂ
viâs cheeks heat up at your statement. you most definitely notice her blushing because you break out into a toothy grin
âi missed you, v,â you admit. âany other words of wisdom?â
despite your tender smile, you look exhausted. vi just wants to hold you through it all, tell you itâs gonna be okay. instead, she settles for placing a gentle hand on your cheek, running her thumb over the deep shadow underneath your eye.Â
âget some rest, pretty girl.â
a few hours later, you wake up alone.Â
you have a vague memory of warm arms wrapped around you, a heart beating steadier than yours. your sheets smell like old spice, your apartment smells like fresh laundry. you get out of bed and notice that there are no more dishes in your sink, no more cans or containers on any surface. all the clothes youâd been meaning to wash are now carefully folded on your couch.Â
thereâs a bright pink sticky note on your nightstand next to the keys to viâs car.
you talk in your sleep. something about stargazing? maybe we can go when you get back.Â
drive safe. text me if you need anything.
xxx
- v
âââââ âââ ââââââ
zaun yellowjackets vs. piltover knights.Â
two minutes left in overtime.Â
one goal standing in the way of their trophy. one goal to end piltoverâs monopoly over the title of national champions.Â
caitlyn probably told her knights to be extra aggressive â win by any means necessary â so itâs been a long game of dirty plays and intentional fouls.
vi always puts her heart into every single game, but this time â
this time, itâs personal.Â
zaunâs defense works to regain possession and prevent piltoverâs attack. ashe manages to intercept a pass between two knights, and is quick in dribbling the ball until mid-field. she sends it over to vi with a swift kick. viâs quick on her feet, catching piltoverâs defense by surprise, sprinting closer and closer to the goal. she makes it to the penalty box.
this could be the winning point.Â
vi has it, too. sheâs so fucking close, about to fake out the goalie and kick into that hard-to-defend sweet spot â until a sharp, pointy elbow collides with her ribs so abruptly, it knocks the wind out of her lungs. she stumbles forward over the ball, knees skidding onto the grass. whoever it is also steps on viâs cleat for good measure.Â
âfuck!â she looks up to see who it is.
of course. itâs maddie fucking nolan, who doesnât spare so much as a glance as the ref doles out a red card. she nods at caitlyn as she walks off the field, no doubt following her captainâs orders.
her teammates help vi to her feet, and the ref makes sure everyone is in position for the penalty kick.
this could be the winning point. vi just has to ignore caitlynâs icy stare from a few feet away, and the heart threatening to beat out of her chest.Â
vi takes a deep breath.Â
she looks to the stands. among the crowd of screaming fans, zaunites and pilties alike, is viâs family. theyâre cheering.
youâre there too, sitting next to them.Â
everyone is staring at vi, waiting for the whistle, waiting for her to make the shot, but the only person she stares back at is you.
youâve got this, v, you had whispered to her the night before. she couldnât sleep, so she called you. vi wishes she was back there, now â tangled in flannel sheets, lucky snoring at the foot of the bed, gazing up at the glow-in-the-dark stars stuck to her ceiling until she finally fell asleep in your arms.
but, viâs on the field.Â
and this is the winning point.Â
the whistle blows.Â
she makes the shot.
âââââ âââ ââââââ
âi told you i wasnât a jinx!â powder sticks her tongue out at mylo.
sheâs all sweat and dirt and adrenaline, but, fuck, if vi isnât so, incredibly happy and proud of her team, of everything theyâve been through, everything theyâve accomplished.
it almost doesnât feel real.
just like it doesnât feel real, seeing you talk animatedly with her sisterâs boyfriend, laughing along with her siblings, smiling as you watch her dads hug and praise her.
when itâs your turn to do the same, you practically leap into viâs arms, gushing about how amazing she was, how proud you are of her.Â
âthis looks good on you,â vi hums, as you pull away from another hug. her fingers play with the bottom of the jersey, and she bites the inside of her cheek to ground herself in the moment. you, with her family. you, in her jersey. âthinking of joining the yellowjackets?â
âi think iâll leave the soccer to you,â you tell her. âyou were amazing out there. guess i should be calling you wonder woman from now on, huh?â
âwonder woman! thatâs where i remember you from!â vander suddenly exclaims, stepping closer to the pair of you. silco turns around, too. âyou once tried to get into the last drop with a fake id, didnât you? under the name diana prince?â
âshit,â you laugh nervously, eyes flickering between vander and the ground as if youâre once again a teenager caught in the act. âiâŠ.probably did.â
âi kicked you out, told you to go home to themyscira.â
âyeahâŠiâŠ.i remember that.â you nod slowly, furrowing your brows. âexcept, i didnât want to go home that night, so i lingered outside,â you continue. you turn to vi, and your face softens. âwhich was when you ââ
âbrought two glasses of cherry coke and rum,â vi finishes; she sees flashes of that night as you gaze into her eyes. âwe climbed onto the roof and ââ
that was her first kiss. vi never even realized until now, but â
you were her first kiss.
âi canât believe i forgot that.â
âweird, how memory works,â you agree, tilting your head curiously, looking at vi with a newfound interest, like a ghost from your past.
âwell, isnât this a story weâll be sharing on your wedding day!â vander chuckles, ruffling viâs hair.Â
âdonât pressure them, darling,â silco chides, but the smirk growing on his face gives him away. heâs loving this drama. âtheyâre barely 23 â i doubt theyâve discussed marriage.âÂ
âoh, weâre not ââ
âyeah, weâre just ââ
âfriends,â you say at the same time, careful to avoid eye contact.
vi feels like she might burst into flames at the knowing look vander and silco share.
âwell, violet, would your friend like to join us for a celebratory dinner?â silco asks.
so thatâs how youâre sitting between powder and claggor, listening to them talk your ear off about the young innovatorâs competition. viâs sitting across from you, next to ekko, who occasionally pipes in.Â
youâre here, sharing the tradition of a post-game meal with viâs family at the local pizza parlour.Â
caitlyn never even wanted to meet viâs family.
a few pizzas are ordered for the table, and you eat and laugh and sip your soda along with everyone else. you make a flower out of your paper napkin and hand it to isha, whoâs on the other side of powder, and she gives you a toothy grin in return. you answer all the standard questions about your job and major and plans for the future.
âafter graduation, iâm probably gonna take a break, get some work experience,â you explain. âmaybe save up some money for law school a few years down the road.â
âyou wanna be a lawyer, huh? you sure you wanna be friends with a felon, then?â powder asks, blowing bubbles into her soda through her straw.Â
vi coughs, choking on a mushroom.Â
âpowder!âÂ
âwhat! she never told you?â
you shake your head, glancing over at vi who suddenly finds it hard to look you in the eye. your foot has been pressed against hers underneath the table all night; you pull it away now. she takes a big gulp of water; vi looks over at vander and silco for help, but they seem to be caught up in their own conversation.
âoh, damn! â mylo adds, leaning over. âitâs a great story!âÂ
âguys, maybe donât ââ
âbut itâs a great story!â mylo insists. âshows what a badass you are!â
âshe didnât do anything serious, like murder or anything,â powder clarifies. âit was really just her pissing off some enforcers ââ
ârightfully so,â ekko adds.Â
claggor nods. âwe were just kids. they were harassing us for some bullshit, disruption of property or whatever, so vi steps in and things get heated ââ
âit takes three of enforcers to get her handcuffed, but she manages to get a few nasty hits in before they send her off to stillwater ââ
âshe spends three days there ââ
âi thought it was two ââ
âno, it was three ââ
âneedless to say, this isnât the first time vi has been sentenced to community service, but it seems sheâs really enjoying it this time, thanks to you,â powder finishes, winking at you.Â
âwell thatâsâŠ.quite the story,â you finally say, voice steady.Â
âoh! letâs tell her about the time she stole from some enforcers that were hoarding food ââ
as powder continues the story, and you listen intently, itâs hard to read your expression.
are you ashamed of being friends with her? disgusted by her family, her past? regretful that you ever let her touch you, let her into your life?Â
viâs stomach turns when your eyes collide; sheâs been down this road before, and viâs scared that she knows exactly what youâre thinking.
she pushes her chair back and disappears to the bathroom before she has to watch you walk away.
âââââ âââ ââââââ
thereâs a knock on the door.
âsomeoneâs in here,â vi says. she grips the edge of the counter so hard, her knuckles turn white.Â
deep breaths.Â
this isnât the same as before.
this isnât caitlyn, who threw vi out like a piece of trash when something better came along.Â
then again, you never knew this much about viâs past. youâre well within your right to â
thereâs another knock.
âv? itâs meâŠ.i have to get going, but i wanted to check on you before i leave.â
âokay,â vi clips. she looks up at herself in the mirror; she had splashed her face with cold water to calm herself down. a drop falls from her chin. âbye.â
âare you sure youâre okay?â
âiâm fine. see you around.â
you sigh, and vi hears you settle against the doorframe.Â
âviolet, let me in,â you press. âplease?âÂ
âiâm fine. you can leave.â
âokay, well, iâm not leaving until i see that gorgeous face of yours one more time,â you whisper. âi got all dolled up just for you, and all i wanna do is give you a proper goodbyeâŠ.âÂ
well, when you put it like thatâŠ.
vi grabs some paper towel to dry her face and fixes her hair before opening the door for you. you smile knowingly, enter and lock the door behind you.Â
you lean against the door as vi leans against the counter, the marble digging into her lower back.
âokay, iâll start because, frankly, i donât have time to waste,â you state after a few moments of silence. ânothing iâve learned about you tonight has changed how i see you. itâs just confirmed some things.â
âright. like how impulsive and violent and reckless iâve always been,â she lists glumly, unable to look you in the eye.
âmaybe you are all those things,â you pause. âbut, i donât fucking care. i mean, i do, because itâs part of you and i like who you are. i like you.â
your words do wonders to ease the tension throughout viâs body, and she feels like she can actually take a breath.
viâs eyes lock onto yours.
âyou do?â
âi like who you are, every part of it,â you tell her. âwell, i donât like that youâve had to fight your way through an unbelievably fucked up system ever since you were a kid, but the bottom line is that youâre the strongest, most compassionate person i know.â
vi blinks at you.
âfunny, i was just thinking the same thing about you the other day.â
neither of you say anything for a minute or so, letting the sentiment linger in the small space between you. once more, youâre the one to break the ice.
âwell, you know what they say about great mindsâŠ.â you step closer to vi. you take her chin between your thumb and your index finger. "can you guess what iâm thinking now?"Â
vi shakes her head, throat suddenly very dry.
âiâm thinking that iâve wanted to kiss you all night.â
âwhatâs stopped you?â
you grin. âi didnât want to make a fuss in front of your family, but now that weâre aloneâŠ.â
vi doesn't say anything, but instead closes the gap between your lips.
you kiss her, harsh and messy, tongue and teeth, swallowing her moans as your fingers snake down the waistband of her pants. you pull viâs bottom lip with your teeth before moving to her neck, nipping along the outline of her tattoo. you bite down harder on her skin, right at her pulse point.Â
"whatâs that you said earlier ââ a low groan tumbles from viâs lips when you start to suck just above her collarbones. another when your tongue soothes over the sting. âabout a proper goodbyeâŠ?â she tugs your hair so that youâre looking right at her.Â
itâs quite the sight â your lips swollen, chest heaving, eyes curious and lustful.
âanything you want,â you whisper, all breathless.Â
vi hums. she slips a hand underneath the frayed hem of your denim skirt, and you gasp as her nails scrape against your inner thigh.
she likes that youâre here. here for her.
"get on your knees for me, sweetheart.â
she pulls down her pants along with her briefs, as you kneel before her without hesitation.
you drape one of her legs over your shoulder, giving your tongue better access to her cunt. vi grips your hair tighter, bringing you in closer, and you moan, sending vibrations up her body.
"fuck," vi hisses. you add a finger, while your tongue works her clit.Â
you bring her to the edge, stay with her even as her thighs clench around your skull. she expects you to get back on your feet right away, but you stay, adding another finger and sucking her clit. she moans your name.
you pull away slightly. "one more, pretty girl," you promise. your chin glistens with viâs release; you lick your lips as you gaze up at her through thick eyelashes. "can you do that for me?" she nods furiously, and you get back to work.
after letting her ride your tongue and fingers through another orgasm, you kiss her ankle before releasing her leg. vi pulls you up to your feet, sucks the taste of herself off your tongue.
you pull away slightly, heart racing against viâs chest.Â
vi swipes her thumb over the smudged lipstick below your lip. she studies you, admires you, like youâre a fucking work of art that belongs in a gallery, like you didnât just fucked her through two consecutive orgasms in the bathroom at a pizza parlour while wham's "last christmas" plays through shitty speakers.
"take these off." vi tugs at your tights. you do as instructed, slipping off your underwear as well. she pulls you towards her, and lodges a leg in between yours. your bare cunt brushes against her thigh, back and forth as she guides your hips. "i can't believe you got all dressed upâŠ. wearing my jersey, and this pretty little skirt even though itâs so cold outside. all for me?"
vi flexes her thigh muscles, pushing you down faster and harder. you whimper.
"all â all for you.â
vi feels her pussy clench, with the desperation in your voice, the stickiness of your heat against her skin, the smell of the two of you intertwining. your orgasm crashes into you, and vi holds you through it.Â
you kiss her ever so sweetly before removing yourself from her grasp, smoothing down your skirt and looking around for your underwear.
"where are my...."Â
you look over as vi tucks your fuschia thong into the inner pocket of her jacket.
"i'm guessing you'll buy me replacements for christmas."
vi flashes you a shit eating grin before putting on her own underwear. she then pulls up her pants, not wiping your release from her thigh. she likes the idea of walking around with you seeped into her skin.Â
when vi looks over at you, youâre as fully dressed as you can be and busy checking something on your phone. she only sees a flash of your lock screen, but itâs her. a photo of her and lucky playing at the park; thereâs snow, so it had to have been a few days ago.Â
that doesnât mean anything, right? people use photos of their friends for their wallpaper all the time.
âi really have to go,â you sigh. you pull a tube of lipstick from your pocket and step closer to the mirror. âhey â do you think we could switch shirts? not sure i should wear this to my next dinner.â
vi nods and you remove her jersey, revealing a matching fuschia bralette. she wonders whatâs got you all coordinated â who else youâve clearly dressed up for.Â
âso, youâve got a hot date?â vi tries to act casual as she takes off her jacket, pulls off her shirt, and waits for you to answer. you take your time, fixing yourself in the mirror.
âsomething like that,â you finally say with a shy smile.
later, when ishaâs asleep on powderâs lap in the backseat, vi thinks about how your date might have gone, if youâre taking them home to the same bed vi has fucked you in throughout these past few months.
where do you get off, fucking vi in the bathroom during dinner while her parents are at the table, only to leave for another date, wearing viâs shirt, too?
âhey, can i ask you something?â ekko asks from beside her, cutting off the angry monologue in her head.
vi reaches over to turn down the music.
âsure, little man. whatâs up?â
âwhatâs the deal between you and wonder woman?â
vi clears her throat, gripping the steering wheel. âwhat makes you think thereâs a deal?â
âoh, please, we all noticed that hickey on your neck after she visited you in the bathroom.âÂ
the car crawls to a stop as the light turns red, and vi adjusts the collar of her shirt.
âweâre just friends.â
âwell, powder and i were just friends for ages,â ekko points out.
vi doesnât notice that the lightâs turned green until someone behind her honks. she steps on the gas, but the idiot behind her still cuts in front of her.
âasshole,â she grumbles, throwing them a middle finger for good measure. vi glances to her right at ekko, whoâs scribbling something in his sketchbook despite only the streetlamps outside providing light. âso, what made youâŠ.realize that you wanted something more?â
ekko closes his book, smiling to himself.Â
âhonestly? it was kinda a million little things, but what it really comes down to is that sheâs the only person i could spend every second of my life with, and iâd still want more time. and, in my experienceâŠ.itâs better to tell someone how you feel sooner rather than later.â
âor, some people prefer to wait a few weeks,â powder mumbles, stirring awake. ânice try, mister, but no interfering. iâm not losing 20 bucks.â
âwait â youâve bet on my love life?â
ekko smirks. âso it is love.â
vi shrugs, pretends that she doesnât immediately picture you in your kitchen, making her banana pancakes at 2am when she hears the word love.Â
âit doesnât matter.â
because, it really doesnât matter.Â
youâre out with someone else right now.Â
itâs over before it really had a chance to begin.
âââââ âââ ââââââ
cupcakeÂ
Hey, Vi
Just wanted to say good game today
You played brilliantly
Violet
k
cupcake
No need for the attitude
I was just trying to be nice
Violet
my apologies!!!
thank you SO much for recognizing my talent captain kiramman
i feel like iâm actually worth something now!!!
cupcake
Bitterness isnât a good colour on you, darling
Violet
im NOT your darling
cupcake
Iâm aware
I saw you earlier with that girl
Are you together?Â
Violet
idk
are you still with maddie?
cupcake
Actually, we broke up
I was hoping you and I could chat
Violet
whatâs in it for me?
cupcake
The chance to reconnect with an old friend
âââââ âââ ââââââ
you can excuse vi no longer attending the weekly team meeting. she finished her 100 hours around thanksgiving, so technically she didnât need to be there anymore.
maybe you could excuse her ignoring your calls, or leaving your texts on read. itâs finals season, and she did mention picking up a few extra shifts to save up for christmas presents.Â
but you simply canât excuse vi walking into sapphoâs with caitlyn fucking kiramman, ordering drinks from you like youâre absolute strangers.
âwhat the fuck, vi?â you seethe.Â
vi glances at her date. caitlynâs waiting for her back at a table, the glow of her phone screen illuminating her pretty face.
âwhat, should i have ordered something else? not every girl likes cherry coke and rum.âÂ
you glare at her from across the counter, but start preparing their drinks nonetheless.Â
âwhy are you with her?â you throw some ice in a glass, the cubes clinking aggressively against the crystal. âare you back together?â
vi has the audacity to roll her eyes at you. âwhyâd you care?â
you catch yourself before saying something youâll regret, something about liking her more than you definitely should considering the agreement the two of you had made.Â
clearly, vi doesnât feel the same way; itâs not worth spilling your guts to her at your place of work.Â
âbecause weâre friends.â
âyeah, right,â vi scoffs. âyouâre jealous, which you have no right to be because youâre seeing someone, too.â
you accidentally pour a double shot of vodka. you donât really care, and mix the drink anyways.
âwhat the fuck are you talking about?âÂ
âiâm talking about the date you went on the night of my championship game.â
âwhat date?â you slam the glasses in front of vi, so hard that youâre lucky they didnât break.
âoh, donât play dumb.â vi spits your name like itâs poison. âthis whole thing started because you said you didnât want a relationship, when really you just didnât want a relationship with me. you used me until someone better came along. you lied to me.â
her eyes are glazed over, her voice shaking ever so slightly. youâre not sure if youâre more hurt or angry by what sheâs saying, but it cuts deep; you continue as though you arenât bleeding out in front of her.
âi donât want a relationship with anyone and certainly not with you ââ
âexcuse me! are we able to order something?â someone with bright green hair and a septum piercing waves their hand in front of your face.
âyeah, just give us a second ââ
âlook, you and your girlfriend can fight on your own time.â
âsheâs not my girlfriend!â you and vi snap simultaneously.Â
you glare at each other.
vi grabs the glasses from the counter, and walks away.
âââââ âââ ââââââ
it took many brainstorming sessions, many boring conversations with potential donors, and many, many tears, but you managed to secure enough funding to keep the womenâs centre going for the foreseeable future. Â
it was a team effort, of course, so you just want everyone to enjoy this open mic night, the last event of the semester â even though you are weighed down by the absence of a certain someone.
the gallery space on campus that you rented out is both cozy and electric, decorated with fairy lights on the walls, with pillows and blankets on the floor for people to sit and watch performances. thereâs a table with drinks and snacks, a corner for people to make art if theyâre inspired.Â
youâre rearranging the food, watching gert perform an original song when mel slides in next to you, wearing a gorgeous white dress with gold accents.Â
âdo you mind running to the office? weâre out of paint.â
âreally? people donât usually use the paint.â
âwell, it seems to be quite popular tonight.â
âitâs fine. we still have lots of other stuff. they can just collage or something.â
mel shakes her head. âi really think you should go get more paint.â
âmaybe ask sky? i should stay here ââ
âyou could use a break, too,â mel cuts you off, placing a hand on your shoulder. âyouâve been nonstop all day; the rest of us can hold down the fort for a little while.â
you concede, mostly because sheâs right and you donât have the energy to argue.Â
when you get to the office, youâre surprised to find the lights on. even more surprised that someoneâs already there, sitting on the zebra-striped couch.
âvi?â
she jumps slightly when you say her name.
âmel texted me,â she rushes out like sheâs been caught red-handed. âsaid she needed help with something sheâd been planning.âÂ
you frown, until you realize why mel must have sent you here, specifically.Â
you havenât seen vi since that night at sapphoâs; youâd been quite a mess after your shift, ranting to mel on the phone about how sheâd been right and you should have been more careful, how you donât know what you did that ruined whatever you and vi had, and you really donât know what you can do to fix it.
youâre both too stubborn to reach out to the other, so it seems like mel decided to take matters into her own hands.Â
âyeah, i doubt sheâs coming,â you tell vi.Â
âokay,â vi says, but she doesnât move. âi, uh, i was hoping iâd run into you, though.â
âyeah?â you raise an eyebrow at vi, crossing your arms. âneeded another vodka martini for your piltover princess.â
âsheâs not â weâre not together.â
âoh,â you exhale. the animosity you were holding towards her evaporates, but doesnât completely disappear. you watch her, watching you stand by the doorway.Â
there are so many things you want to tell her, but you donât even know where to start. you know that youâve hurt her. she hurt you, too.
but, also:
you miss the cloudy blue-gray of her eyes, the scar on her upper lip.Â
you miss her.
âdo you wanna come sit?â
after being so far away from vi, for what feels like forever, you donât hesitate to take her up on the offer. your knees brush together as you settle next to her on the couch, a jolt of electricity passing through your body at the contact.
âso, i admit that ââ
âvi, you were right ââ
both of you stop your sentences short, chuckling nervously. you each urge the other to continue, and only get caught in a similar mess:
âi fucked up,â vi blurts out.
âi lied to you,â you confess at the same time.
an awkward, unfamiliar silence hangs above you; youâre not sure what to do next.Â
vi takes the leap. she tells you that mel explained everything: that you had to attend a dinner with alumni and potential donors on the same night of her championship game, but you kept it from vi since it was already a big moment for her; that you havenât been on a real date with anyone else since september. vi apologizes for jumping to conclusions and falling back into caitlynâs arms, shutting you out when she should have just talked to you.
youâre the girl who was her first kiss, she says. the girl who lingered in a vague memory, appeared in the fiction of her daydreams, and then suddenly became too real.Â
âi like you. i really fucking like you. and if it has to be as a friend, thatâs fine because i donât want to lose you.â vi takes a shattered breath, blinking back tears. she fiddles with the ring on her index finger, anxiously bouncing her knee. you place your hand there to steady her, and she exhales. âi guess iâm just not sureâŠ.when you said you liked me that night at the restaurantâŠ.is that what you lied about?âÂ
viâs practically doe-eyed, waiting for you to respond.Â
you shake your head.Â
âi lied when i said that i didnât want a relationship with you,â you admit, and the hint of a smile dances across her lips. âi had this major crush on you, you know? every time you came into sapphoâsâŠ.i couldnât help it. and then you showed up here and we became friends, and then we startedâŠ.well, you know the rest.â
âduh. i was there,â vi jokes, easing into her usual, playful self. Â
âi canât do the whole casual thing,â you continue, rubbing circles into her knee with your thumb. âi know we made a promise, but i just canât, not with you. itâs likeâŠin every other relationship iâve been in, i was trying to run out the clock. with you, though, with us, i feel like thereâs never enough time ââ
vi grabs your neck and crashes her mouth onto yours before you can finish your sentence.Â
youâve kissed each other many times, in many different places, in many different ways, but never like this: like youâre both willing to break one promise if it means forging a new one.
âwill you be my girlfriend, violet rose atlas?â you whisper as you pull away, lips brushing against hers. Â
you start to count the freckles on her cheeks as she beams at you, pulls you into her lap.
âi thought youâd never ask.â
#arcane#vi x reader#vi arcane#vi smut#vi#vi fluff#vi angst#vi league of legends#vi fanfic#lesbian#wlw#wlw fanfic#wlw smut#vi arcane smut#vi arcane x reader#arcane smut#arcane x reader#when i tell you this is all i've been thinking about these past few weeks....#like i want to live in this fic fr#im still not sure about the pacing but#just wanted to post it bc i feel like it's reached that point where i should send it out into the world anyways#i hope y'all like it im kinda nervous#i wanna post a holiday-themed fic soon bc 'tis the season so im gonna work on that now...and hopefully have it done b4 the end of the year#also i read somewhere that 2024 is considered the year of the lesbian so let's go lesbians <33#saf writes
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spencer reid who speaks in statistics and spirals. who gets so excited when his mind begins to string facts and patterns together, he doesnât even notice the hours slipping past. who gestures wildly with his hands while talking, voice bouncing softly as he explains a theory, a memory, a moment from his childhoodâuntil he notices youâre quiet. too quiet.
spencer reid who finds you curled up beside him, asleep. and something in his chest tightens. not because heâs angryâhe could never beâbut because some wounded part of him thinks, of course. of course he bored you. of course he talked too much. he shuts his mouth instantly, lips pressed together in a quiet, familiar regret.
spencer reid who gently adjusts the blanket over your shoulders. who brushes a hand over your hair with the softest touch, the kind only someone who adores you would know how to give. he whispers âgoodnightâ even though he wasnât finished. he never really is. the silence that follows is a lullaby heâs learned to live with.
you who wakes up with guilt curling in your stomach like smoke. because you remember the way his eyes dim when he thinks he's too much. you remember how he once told you he learned to count the seconds people stay interested before they drift. and now youâve gone and confirmed itâyou fell asleep.
you who cups his face in your hands and whispers youâre sorry, so sorry. and spencer who looks up at you like he doesnât understand why you're crying. he says it's okay, really, but the way he avoids your gaze tells you it still stings. so you make him sit back down. you ask him to tell you everything from the beginning.
spencer reid who blinks in surprise, then slowly starts again. who watches your eyes this time, tentative and cautious, until your hand finds his and stays. and when you repeat back what you remember, ask questions, lean forward with that soft look only meant for himâhe realizes youâre listening. you always were. you just needed rest.
spencer reid who talks slower now, but with the same love. and you who never interrupts, who makes mental notes of every reference, every name, every thread of thought that lights him up. because to love spencer is to listen. and heâs never been so quiet in his heart before.
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Safe house
Ghoap x f!reader
The safehouse was barebonesâfour walls, a door that didnât close properly, and a single narrow bed shoved against the wall like an afterthought. One thin blanket. No heater. Concrete floors so cold they bit through your boots.
Soap stepped in first, glancing around with a sigh. âRight, well. Guess this place was built for one poor bastard, not three.â
Ghost dropped his gear by the wall with a grunt. âIâll take the floor.â
âHell no,â you said automatically, slinging your pack down. âYouâll freeze.â
âIâm used to it.â
Soap rolled his eyes and gave Ghost a flat look. âYouâve got enough screws loose without adding hypothermia to the list.â
âThen Iâll take the floor,â you offered, already tugging at your jacket zipper. âIâm small enough to crash on my pack.â
Both men gave you the same sharp look.
âNo,â Ghost said, voice final.
âYouâll ache for a week,â Soap added. âWeâre not doing that.â
You all stood there a moment, silent, stubborn. Then Soap looked at the bed again and shrugged.
âWeâre all adults. One bed, three bodies. Head to toe if we have to.â
You arched a brow. âEver tried sleeping with Ghostâs boots near your face?â
Ghost snorted, the faintest smirk in his voice. âIâm not sleeping in my boots, you know.â
Eventually, an agreement was made: all three of you in the bed, boys facing outwardâGhost on one side, Soap on the other, and you safe in the middle. Theyâd flank you, keep you warm, no funny business. Just sleep.
That had been the plan, anyway.
You werenât sure what time it was when you woke upâjust that the moonlight had shifted and the room was bathed in soft silver. You were too warm, wrapped in heat that had nothing to do with the thin blanket.
Soapâs arm was slung lazily over your waist, his hand resting just beneath the hem of your shirt, skin-to-skin and entirely unbothered. His breath tickled the curve of your neck, soft and steady. One of his legs had somehow worked its way between yours, your leg hitched over his.
Behind you, Ghost was molded to your back, chest pressed close, the slow rise and fall of his breath an anchor against your spine. One of his arms wrapped around your middle, the other tucked beneath the pillow you shared. Protective. Possessive. Present.
You shifted slightly, caught between warmth and awareness, and felt Soap's fingers twitch.Ghostâs hand tightened, just a fraction. Like they both felt it too.
Your breath hitched.
It wasnât anything overt. Nothing crude. You were surrounded, caged in heat and strength and quiet tension.
And God, it felt good.
You couldâve pulled back. Shouldâve. But you didnât. You leaned inâdrifting your fingers along Ghostâs forearm, letting your leg press deeper against Soapâs. Neither man spoke, but Soapâs breath caught, quiet and sharp.
Ghost... Ghost exhaled against the back of your neck, slow and deliberate, his face pressing in closer.
You fell asleep again like thatâwrapped in the kind of tension that lulled you rather than startled. Wanting to stay wrapped in this dream a little longer before having to face reality.
âââââââââââââââââââââââââ
The second time you woke, it was slowerâevery inch of your body aware before your mind caught up.
Warmth. Weight. Pressure. Breath against your throat.
Soap had shifted in the night, his head now tucked beneath your chin, resting lightly on your bicep. Your arm had curled around him, cradling him. His hand had drifted lower, fingers curved gently around the dip of your thigh. Your hips pressed snugly to his. Innocent, but barely.
Behind you, Ghost had only pulled you closerâhis hand now splayed along your ribs, thumb rhythmically stroking the soft skin just under your breast.
You stayed still. Testing the moment.
Then you movedâjust a little. A shift, nothing more.
Soap stirred against you, his body pressing closer.
Ghostâs hand stilled⊠then resumed its slow stroke.
Deliberate. Intentional.
âYouâre awake,â came Ghostâs voiceâlow, gravelly. Dangerous.
You swallowed. âDidnât mean to move.â
âDidnât say stop.â
âNo, I didnât.â
Soap chuckled, his voice still thick with sleep and something else. âThink she likes waking up between us.â He arched his neck up and you felt his nose run up your neck, running back down to your collar bone where he nuzzled into you.
Your breath hitched.
âYouâre imagining things,â you mumbled, but your voice betrayed you. Soft. Breathless.
âYou sure about that?â Ghost leaned in closer, his lips brushing the shell of your ear through the mask. âBecause from where Iâm lying, you havenât moved away.â
You didnât respond. Couldnât. You were burning nowâtrapped between them and completely unwilling to escape.
Soap shifted again, his hand trailing down your thigh, thumb brushing the edge of your shorts. âWe wonât do anything you donât want, love,â he murmured.
âBut if you want somethingâŠâ Ghost said, voice dropping to a low, dark promise, ââŠjust say it.â
The silence stretched.
And you wondered how you were going to convince yourself that this was a bad idea.
Part two Here
#personally Iâm obsessed#anybody else?#urgh why canât I have these two men in my bed rn#honestly is unfair#cod#ghost cod#ghost x reader#ghost x y/n#simon ghost riley#simon ghost x reader#simon riley x reader#task force 141#tf 141 headcanons#simon ghost fluff#john soap mactavish#soap cod#soapghost#soap x reader#ghost x soap#soap call of duty#ghoap#ghoap x reader#ghoap fic#ghoap x you#ghoap smut#ghoap angst#johnny mactavish#john mactavish x reader#fluff#subliminalghoest
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Sylus watched as you ran your fingers across the back of the stray you had recently taken in. The small kitten was nothing more than a black ball as it curled in your lap yet he could hear its purring even from his place across the room.
He had nothing against the small animal, he regularly took care of discarded animals himself, it was just that while the cat loved you it must have adored him.
For the past week it could be constantly found with him, padding its way quickly across the floor in an attempt to keep up with his large strides whenever he left the room.
Regularly rubbing against his legs and begging for his attention.
Meowing softly whenever he would fail to acknowledge it or when he would forget and accidentally close the door to his office before it had the chance to enter as well.
Even now it sat content with you only as it kept a watchful eye on him.
It simply had to be around him whenever it could, even when he would scold and scruff it for pawing at Mephisto it would purr in his hold until he would give up and pet it for the next few minutes.
It was quite funny to you, to watch your dear partner have to deal with the small animal, to hear his complaints of already having to deal with one Kitten only for you to bring home another.
Yet he would say these same complaints while gently petting the sleeping cat in his lap.
And then he would wonder why you never believed him when he said he wasnât attached. When in fact he had obviously become rather adjusted to his two kittens roaming around and asking for his attention.
#randomfandomworks#another sylus drabble since you guys loved the other one#some fluff this time to make up for the angst#I also have a Dad!Sylus Drabble in the works so weâll see if I end up posting that#Sylus Drabble: Sylus and His Kittens#sylus x you#sylus qin#sylus fic#sylus x reader#lnds x you#lnds sylus#lnds caleb#lnds rafayel#lnds zayne#lnds xavier#lnds x reader#lnds#love and deepspace#lads caleb#lads zayne#lads xavier#lads rafayel#lads x reader#lads sylus#lads#sylus fluff#lads sylus x reader#lads sylus x you#lnds sylus x reader#sylus
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-ËË àŒ»â surprise encounter đ€ sylus ç§Š âàŒș ËË-

â˰pairing: sylus x reader
â˰summary: Youâve been playing love&deepspace ever since the game came out and it became your comfort place now. You like all of the boys, but you have the highest affinity with sylus, who had your heart in a grasp ever since the beginning. Who wouldâve thought that he shares the sentiment? And after your monthly absence from the game, he decides to pay you a little visit and finally confess to all of it (and maybe kind of try to kidnap you in the process too oho).
â˰ tropes: fluff, angst to fluff, fluff to angst to fluff? fluff to angst to fluff to angst to fluff???? idk angst with happy ending!
â˰word count: no idea, it goes on for days sorry. (7k!!)
â˰warning!: i apologize for any mistakes, i am not a native speaker of english!! if you see any errors you can write me a dm and i will correct them for sure ⥠and i think it gets better later! i canât write for shi, especially the beginnings, and the second part was fueled by my delulu so it is probably much more fun to read đ€
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You liked days like these: quiet days, lazy ones, when you didnât have any errands to run, meetings to attend, or people to please. You could just stay inside for the whole day, reading your favorite books and playing cozy games, spending your time however you wanted. Today was Saturday and you didnât have to go to work until Monday and you decided that you finally deserved to have some rest after the last couple of weeks of almost working yourself to the bone due to the amount of the assingments you had to complete at work. You often had to stay after hours or work from home to complete everything in time. Your work was not usually that challenging, but there were certain times of the year when everyone at your job had their hands full and when it happened, you were almost completely cut off not only from your social, but also personal life. However, you never complained, because you actually liked what you were doing, and even if the occasional hard times were inevitable, your work brought you so much fun and satisfaction.
And today was a good day! You finally finished everything you had to do, so you could go back to your favourite game. You didnât have time to play recently due to the amount of work, up to the point that you didnât even bother to check in to grab some stamina. Usually, love&deepspace was an important part of your day - you logged in there at least twice a day, completed every task thrown your way and had a blast doing so, but these couple of weeks were so hard for you that you almost forgot about it completely. But even if you were too busy, you thought about the boys from time to time, as well as about the events that you were probably missing out on. You really hoped that if some new events had taken place during that time, that they did not involve Sylus, because if you had missed them, you would be slightly devastated.
Sylus was your favorite. Ever since the beginning, there was something about him that caught your attention. You downloaded the game after his announcement and havenât looked back since. You played with other boys as well, but your time with Sylus was always the most memorable. Not only was he extremely attractive in your eyes, as well as the eyes of other players around the world, but you also understood his character, adored his little jokes and mannerisms, and could safely say that he made your life a little more exciting. You knew that it probably sounded lame to someone who didnât play such games, and you were aware that he wasnât real, but you enjoyed yourself regardless. In your real life, you had some experience with men and were pretty popular among them; however, you never felt comfortable enough to form more serious romantic relationships.
Here, with Sylus, you didnât have to worry about such things. You were aware that he was only a game character and maybe that was why you were so honest with him from the very beginning. You knew that he wouldnât judge you, misstreat you or make you miserable - he was created in a way that was supposed to make your playthrough enjoyable so you didnât have to worry about your responses in the messages for him or your real life reactions to everything he said or did. You could just be yourself. And you loved how freeing that felt.
That is why you felt so excited ever since you woke up. Because you knew that today you could finally go back to playing l&d, and you could meet up with your Sylus after so much time apart. You quickly did your chores, spent some time on self-care to slightly relieve the fatigue from the weeks before, you put on your favourite cozy outfit and finally clicked the âenter gameâ button.
And there he was. Sylus was standing in the cafe, wearing his extremally attractive biker outfit and you caught yourself sighing dreamily at the sight of him. You missed him so bad, you missed the little memories you shared and the sound of his voice. You missed playing kitty cards with him, catching plushies together and even looking for that bastard Tobias again and again. You couldnât help but smile brightly at him.
âHi Sylus, you have no idea how happy I am to see you.â You said cheerfully, feeling kind of dumb for it but you couldnât help yourself. You often talked out loud to him during your playtime.
You watched him blink slowly once, then twice, and you started to think that there was something wrong with the server because his response should have already been uttered. But then the look on his face changed. At first, he appeared really shocked and relieved, but then a little frown appeared between his perfect little eyebrows.
âWhere the hell have you been?â He responded quickly and it shocked you. You didnât know that they could swear in the game, but after connecting some dots you figured that it had to be included in the special responses after the player was away for some time.
âAt work mostly, been so busy lately but now Iâm back and ready to defeat some Wanderers!!â You fist bumped the air above you, you couldnât contain your excitement.
You also noticed that his expression stayed the same. He was silent, looking at you through your phone screen with bewilderment, and he looked almost hurt. In an attempt to provide some comfort to him, you swiped your finger gently through his hair and across his cheek. However, when you touched his cheek, he closed his eyes and nuzzled into your finger, which made you widen your eyes in surprise. Was that always a thing? Was he always so responsive to your touch? It had to be a new feature; you didnât remember him being so lively.
âNext time you decide to leave me without a word, I think Iâm going to take more drastic measures, sweetieâ He said while opening his eyes. You couldnât help but notice he did look different than usual. More⊠realistic? Even the way in which he moved his body looked so smooth.
âIf not for Mephisto, I would have worried sick about your safety. You can't do this to me every time you have more work than usual; you have to visit me, even if it's just for a minute. I won't exaggerate when I say that I almost went insane after the first week of your cruel silenceâ And at that you were completely stunned. Should he talk this much? He never talked this much. And how could he know that you had more work than usual? Was that a lucky guess on the studioâs side?
âThatâs so weirdâŠâ You whispered and touched his hand to trigger some kind of reaction that would appear more usual than what was happening right now.
âIs that your way of catching me off guard? If you wanted to hold my hand so badly kitten, then you would have visited me sooner. I will not let myself be distracted by your cute little behaviorâ He raised the hand you touched and crossed his arms at his chest, while continuing to frown. And you were still so, so confused.
âPromise me that you wonât leave me again, I know where to find you now.â You raised your eyebrows and bit your lip gently. You started to feel a little bit out of place, you knew that he was not real, but he sounded kind of scary. His voice was demanding, and the part about him finding you? You shivered involuntarily.
âWhat happened? Cat got your tongue, kitten? Or did you finally understood the selfishness of your actions?â Sylus continued and you opened your mouth in awe. âPromise. Me.â He said slowly, his gaze unnerving. Suddenly you heard a series of loud caws outside on your balcony. The sound made you jump in place, and you dropped your phone on your bed. Was that a freaking crow?? Outside your apartament???
You quickly picked up your phone and cursed softly. You were going insane. You got scared just because the game had an update you did not know about. You almost wanted to laugh at how stupid that was. Almost. Because Sylus walked up to the front of your phone screen and spoke to you again.
âWhy are you hesitating? Are you really planning to leave me again?â You swore you never heard him so hurt.
âNo!â You said before you could think.
âNo?â He answered immediately, which scared the hell out of you. âI am not sure I believe you. And I canât stand it. I canât stand being away from you anymore.â He took two steps back and closed his eyes.
That was when the game crashed. Your phone appeared to be broked too, after the colourful lines appeared on the screen, flickered a couple of times and the whole screen turned black. You threw the device away from you and your heart started beating so fast you could hear the blood pulsing in your ears. You were so confused and genuinely scared. Was there an update that switched the genre of the game to horror? You were stunned.
And then you heard the knock.
You almost jumped out of your slippers. You brought your hand to your heart in order to calm yourself down and you started taking slow, deep breaths. Itâs just a game. Itâs just a game. Besides, how did Sylus, of all people, managed to scare you so badly? You adored that character, and you should know that he was prone not only to exaggeration, but also to intimidating behavior. That was literally one of his characteristics. So you forced yourself to calm down and opened the damn door, because it was probably either a mailman, or one of your friendly neighbors, and here you were making a scene like some kind of a delusional psychopath.
One. Two. Three.
You opened the door, and at first all you could see was a huge cloud of black mist. You closed your eyes in order to keep the mist from clouding your vision and then you felt wind pushing you gently further into your apartament. You heard the door close and the sound of the key turning in the lock. Everything happened so fast. And when you opened your eyes your knees almost buckled.
Sylus.
Sylus was all you could see. He was standing in front of you, in your own apartament, looking so out of place that you wanted to laugh. The first thing that you noticed about him was that he was huge, you couldnât really see past him, and the more you looked at him, the more real he appeared to be. Soft-looking silver hair, rugged skin, that perfect nose and those piercing eyes. They looked into yours now, and at first they seemed to be searching for something, and after one quick second they visibly softened. You could also see how his handsome, oh so handsome mouth started to display his signature little smirk. And that was when you started to tremble.
âW-whaââ You tried to say something, anything but your mouth was not working. You have never been so confused and scared in your entire life. âWhoâW-who areââ He was starting to close the distance between you and that is when the panic finally took over your body. You flinched and went to take a step back, but you slipped on your soft carpet.
Yet you didnât fall. You felt the gentle caress of the mist that managed to caught you before you hit the ground, and it streightened your posture so that now you stood tall in front of the man.
âCareful kitten, I do not think that falling on four feet applies to you.â He spoke out loud for the first time and the voice was so familiar to you. It was the same, deep, husky timbre that you loved to hear, the same voice that made you squeal in happiness, that lulled you to sleep countless of times. You couldnât believe it.
âOh my god, am I dead?â He laughed softly at your reaction and looked at you through his lashes. âThis canât be happening.â
âOh but it is. I knew that I would find my way to you, I just needed time.â He said and tried to close the distance between you, but you didnât let him. Every step forward he took, you took one back. âIt was so hard to find you. But after you disappeared without saying a word I think I got desperate.â Something flashed in his eyes. You recognized it as determination.
He stopped walking when he noticed that you were getting too close to the balcony. He straightened his posture, and you almost released a gasp. He was huge. And he was real. Alive and so, so real, that you had trouble breathing. You were so scared, but at the same time, so happy to see him, that your body didnât know how it should react. You just looked at him, taking him in, trying to assess whether it wasnât your mind playing tricks on you, or if it wasnât some random man breaking into your apartment and your brain had created a new, fantastic defense mechanism. But no, the longer you took him in, the more similarities you managed to notice: the scar in the corner of his eye, his unevenly clipped fingernails, strong but dry hands, olive skin, slim lips, long, slightly furrowed eyebrows. The not-so-hidden gentleness in his gaze as he was taking you in himself.
âItâs really you.â You managed to breathe out.
âYouâre so beautiful.â He answered and his voice was slowly starting to make you feel these familiar butterflies. âSo, so magnificent.â He continued. You felt your cheeks heat up and he seemed to drink that reaction in. âWill you talk to me more? You sound angelic. I did not think that you could sound even better than you did through the phone but I guess you will never fail to surprise me, sweetheart.â He did not move an inch. He just looked at you, and you still didnât know how to react, but you were slowly coming to terms with the fact that it was not a weird dream. He was here and he didnât appear to have bad intentions. At least you wanted to believe that.
âYouâre still trembling. Are you really that scared of me?â He pressed his lips into a line.
âIâm sorry. I just⊠Iâm just not sure what is happening. I had no idea you were⊠real.â He laughed softly at that.
âYou wound me, kitten. Is that your way of unleashing your little claws?â He continued with a small smile on his lips and you couldnât take it. He looked⊠stressed. And you thought that was new for him. You spend so many hours playing with him in l&d but you have never seen him so stressed.
Everything that came out of his mouth was slow and precise, not a word was spoken without a purpose. However you could see by his appearance that he was uncertain.
âOf course Iâm real. And all the time we spent together is real too. Was it so wrong of me to expect that you would be at least a little bit happier to see me?â He was starting to look hurt. But not angry, not displeased. More concerned than anything, and that was when most of your worries started to disappear. He was your Sylus. He really was.
âI am happy to see you. I really am.â You said truthfully, the fear slowly dissolving. âWhat are you doing here? How did it happen?â
âWhen you left me, I was worried to death. I had to come see that you were alright for myself.â He said, not taking his eyes off of you. âI found a path between our worlds, and first I sent Mephisto after you. And that was how I knew you were fine, just busy.â He started explaining slowly and put two fingers at the bridge of his nose. This gesture was so familiar that you felt a slight pang in your chest. âWhich l understand. But you stopped visiting completely and I panicked that I lost you. And that you lost your interest in me. And when you logged in today I guess I just lost control over myself.â
âI had to see you. I had to feel you. I needed to know that you will never leave me like that again. But how could I be so sure if you thought I was not real, sweetie?â His voice carried a hint of a ridicule. He smirked slowly and you allowed yourself to relax. You spend so much time with him on your phone, that you knew when he really needed reassurance. And it was the first time you saw him being so honest about his own feelings.
You decided to step closer to him and his eyes widened slightly. His body tightened because of the sudden change in proximity, and when you gently touched his hand bringing it to your mouth, he appeared to be rendered speechless.
âI would never leave you, Sy. At least not without saying goodbye first. You are my safe space, remember?â You said quietly and smiled at him brightly, reminding him of what you had written in your game bio. And then you brought his knuckles to your lips and placed a soft kiss upon them. His hands were much warmer than you expected them to be. They felt harsh, but gentle.
The next thing you heard was a soft grunt and you felt yourself being suddenly lifted in the air. You yelped and found yourself pressed against his big, solid chest. Sylus hugged your body to his by wrapping both of his arms around your torso, and when he realized that you werenât comfortable, he put one hand under your thighs and brought your body to his by your waist. You let your arms wrap around his neck and squeezed, and he buried his head in the crook of your neck. You heard him inhale your scent and his breath became rigged, as if he could not contain his excitement. You also became familiar with his scent. He smelled so manly and comforting, you could catch some notes of wood and leather, and something surprisingly sweet.
âYou smell divine. Youâre so soft, so warm.â He breathed against your neck and you felt goosebumps spreading throughout your whole body. You were so embarrassed, you felt like you needed to release some tension.
âI did not expect you to be so open with me. Youâre usually the teasing type.â He chucked deeply and put his forehead against yours, while closing his eyes. Your cheeks burned. You couldnât believe it wasnât a dream.
âThere will be a time for teasing you, kitten.â He rubbed his forehead against yours slowly. âRight now let me enjoy you for a bit. I canât believe I finally got to see you.â He squeezed you harder to him. You reciprocated the hug with all you had. You were actually kind of scared that your grip was too hard, but he seemed to bask in it. âCommunicating through that small device was not nearly enough for me. I could always see you and I heard your little responses to everything I was saying. But it took me some time to figure out how to change some things up.â Your eyes went wide at the mention of your reactions, you knew that a lot of times there were beyond embarrassing, but you decided your blush to speak for itself. But what truly caught your attention was how he managed to appear in your home.
âChange things up?? You must have made such a mess, will it really be okay?â The concern in your voice made him look up and find your eyes with his. You were now looking at his beautiful red ones, so full of adoration and determination. You could see that the consequences of his actions did not matter to him at all.
âSweetie, I would gladly burn the world down for you, even if it meant that I could see you just once.â You swallowed audibly and proceeded to shy away from his piercing gaze. You started to feel unworthy of such attention, you couldnât quite grasp what exactly made him care about you to such extend. âFortunately for everyone, the process did not involve starting an intergalactic war.â He smirked slowly, his eyes finding your lips and staying there for much longer than necessary. âYet.â
You chuckled at that and proceeded to bury your fingers in his hair, stroking the strands with care. They were so soft to the touch, they reminded you of silk. He closed his eyes and let you touch him to your heartâs content. Your hand quickly found its way to his forehead, and then to his cheek, stroking the skin delicately. You couldnât believe how someone so handsome could really exist.
âSee something you like, kitten?â He said and nuzzled into your palm, pressing a kiss right there. âYou will have all the time in the world to touch me when we arrive in the N109 Zone.â He seemed so peaceful, so content with himself, but the mention of the N109 Zone stopped you in your tracks. You tensed visibly and he opened his eyes, noticing the change in your posture.
âThe N109 Zone?â You asked puzzled. âAre you taking me away for a weekend?â You took your hand from his face and he used his Evol to bring it back to his cheek. The mist around your fingers felt weird, but not unpleasant.
âFor a weekend? No, no.â He locked his eyes with yours, his head slowly closing the distance between you. He licked his lips and looked at your mouth once again. âI am taking you away for forever.â And before his lips managed to touch yours, you flinched. Your hands quickly pushed him away and the panic returned to your features.
âWhat do you mean by that?â
âI meant what I said. Pack your bags if you believe there is something that I cannot provide for you quickly enough, and we will be off shortly.â He said matter of factly, kind of annoyed by the distance you decided to put between you. âLuke and Kieran have already prepared a room for you, although I think that you will have more than enough space for your belongings in mine.â His eyes brightened with excitement that you unfortunately could not share. Instead, you lightly pushed his torso, making him lower you to the ground grudgingly. His brows were once again furrowed.
âI canât go with you Sylus. At least, not for foreverâ
âYou can. We can stay together for the rest of our lives and no one would have any objections. I took care of everything.â He reached to grab your forearm and stroked it softly with his thumb. He was so sure of everything he was saying that you could feel how much he let himself get lost in his fantasy. It did make you feel wanted, loved even. But no matter how happy you were that he was real, and apparently shared your feelings, you couldnât agree to his plan.
âNo, Sylus. I need to stay here, I have built my whole life in this place.â You could feel how much your words shocked him. He was looking at you so puzzled as if he didnât think that you declining his offer was even an option. âI canât leave everything that I managed to achieve, I really am content with my life, despite how complicated it can be.â You said truthfully. A part of you wanted to go with him, to feel safe and cherished for, for the rest of your life but you knew that was not realistic. You wanted to achieve more, you wanted to have your own life and your own space. You needed to be independent, to feel that you were perfectly capable of caring for yourself and your own needs.
âI do not understand. Donât you want to be with me?â It pained you how quickly he jumped to that conclusion. And you hated the look on his face - it made you feel like you were betraying him.
âI do want to! Oh my godâ I really, really do want to Sylus. I donât think that I can live without spending time with you anymore.â You smiled at him, and took hold of his huge, rugged hand. âBut I canât live with you in the N109 Zone. I canât leave my whole life behind.â And the fact that he wanted to make you do that somewhat scared you. Made you feel distressed.
âI see.â He sounded deep in thought. Then, he broke the eye contact for a second, looked at his hand in your hold and before you could even react, he grabbed your body gently with his Evol and picked you up. Your whole body was above ground and although you felt secured, you looked at him with surprise.
âWhat are you doing?â You wanted to get free from the hold of the mist, but it was impossible with how tight it was. âSylus, you have to let me go.â You tried not to panic, you knew that you werenât in danger. But he looked relentless, unforgiving as if his mind was already set in stone.
âNo. I canât. Not now when I finally got to have you.â He looked up at you, with his eyebrows still furrowed, and you could hear a hint of a growl in his voice. âIf you do not wish to go with me, I guess I would have to take you by force.â
It was then that you felt a sense of panic. You knew him, and you knew that if he wants something, he always gets it. It just did not cross your mind that he would ever go against your own wishes.
âNo. No, no, no, Sylus, please calm down.â He narrowed his eyes and stood motionless before you, his face devoid of almost any emotion. Almost, if not for the desperation shining through his watchful eyes. âYou cannot take me away. At least not for now. But I will do anything you ask me to! You can also stay here for some time, and visit me whenever you want to, I swear, I would be so happy to have you.â You just needed him to listen. You knew that you could change his mind, he always listened to what you had to say, he just needed a little bit of persuasion. Maybe he didnât even think about alternative options?
âAnd I would make you happy in the N109 Zone with me.â You laughed with disbelief. He was completely missing your point. You decided to once again yank your hands from the grasp of his mist, and then hissed with pain when it did not loosen up its hold. âYour struggle is futile, please stop, I do not wish for you to get hurt.â He was annoyed with you and your disobedience. He did not think that you would have any objections, he started loosing his cool.
âYou would never let me get hurt.â You answered, wanting to assure yourself of it as well. You didnât like how commanding he sounded.
âYes.â There was no doubt in his voice. âYes, you know I would stop at nothing to protect you.â His gaze never wavered from yours. He truly thought that what he was doing was for the best. And you just had to let him know how wrong his approach was.
âYes! Yes I do know that! Because I know you, Sy.â You started to sound as if you were pleading. Deep down it scared you, send uncomfortable shivers down your spine. âI know you, and I know that you also know me.â
He placed his hand on his heart.
âAnd I adore every single piece of information. And I still wish to know you much, much better.â You tensed when you noticed that his right eye was starting to glow. You did not know if that was intentional, or just a trick of the light.
âThen you MUST know how much this life means to me. How much I like my stupid job, and how much I love the people that are here for me. My friends, my family.â You noticed that your reasoning started to get to him when he clenched his fists and avoided your eyes for a second. âAnd you have to know how much it would hurt me if you were to take me away from them.â He appeared taken aback. It seemed that his longing for you clouded his judgement, and now he started to notice the faults in his plan.
âBut I cannot stand to be apart from you anymore, sweetie.â In normal circumstances that would be so touching to you. But nothing about this situation was normal, and you guessed you just had to show him how normal looked like.
âYou wonât be. You can visit me anytime you want. Stay for how long you want.â You wanted that too. So bad.
âBut that is not ENOUGH.â It was the first time you heard his raised voice and you started to tremble. His outburst mustâve thrown him off guard too, because he wavered and the grip he had on you loosed. You acted instinctively. You freed yourself from the mist and started to run towards your door. And although he was stunned by your reaction, he quickly teleported so that you ran straight into his chest. His hands grabbed yours in order to protect you from falling due to the impact.
He gently caressed your now slightly red forehead and sighed loudly. You could hear that he was hurt. You cried out from frustration.
âIf you really thought that you could run away from me then you must be a total fool.â He tucked your hair behind your ear and lifted your chin up with his finger. âUsually I like playing cat and mouse with you, but I do not like the fact that you appear genuinely scared of me right now.â He hugged your waist and brought you closer to him, lowering his head at the same time. âAnd that you tried to run away from me when I only want to offer you my protection.â
âIt doesnât sound like protection, it sounds like imprisonment.â You used strong words, but you sounded so small. You did not know what to do with him, you were so scared. âIâm just scared. I tried to run away because you scared me, Sylus.â You sounded desperate for him to understand you. To look past his own clouded vision.
âYou do not have to fear me. I just want what is best for you. For us.â His grip on your waist tightened, and he also proceeded to grab your wrist.
âNo. You only want what is best for you. You are not listening to me. I do care about you Sylus, but I cannot leave this place.â You tried to stand your ground but you two never argued before. It was an unfamiliar ground to you, especially when it was the first time that you had a conversation in person. Everything felt more intense and dangerous when you remembered the extreme measures he was always willing to take to achieve his goals.
âYou can. And I will make you leave.â He almost growled and a cloud of black and red mist surrounded both of you, and that was enough to bring tears into your eyes.
âSylus, no, please, I donât want to. Please, just listen to me, please.â And it was at that moment he started to came into his senses. Your quiet voice and your eyes full of tears made his breathing stop. It was the first time he was seeing you react like this. He hated how broken you sounded. How small. âIâm so scared, Sy, please stop scaring me.â Your voice sounded choked and you could feel that the tears started streaming down your face. Every single one physically hurt him. It was your first meeting and he already made you so miserable. He wanted to scream. âPlease.â You tried once again and it shocked you that it finally worked on him.
He tensed and released you from his grip. The mist also dissipated as he took a step back from you. You could hear him breathing deeply.
âI cannot do this." He sounded panicked. âI did not want to scare you, and I cannot listen to your little broken pleas. They break my heart.â He hidden his face in his hands and curled in himself. He felt as if someone pierced his heart with a knife and twisted it. He could not bring himself to look at your beautiful heartbroken face again. âThey really do. Please, just stop crying. You won.â
You sniffed softly and touched your wet cheeks. You tried to calm yourself down, he finally listened to you.
âIt does not feel so good this time for some reason.â You answered, referring to your Kitty Card battles. You wanted to relieve the tension somehow. You knew that he didnât want to hurt you, you understand that he lives in a different reality where danger awaits everywhere. You could understand why he wanted to have you beside him at all times. But it scared you how insistent he was, how brutal and final. âDo you really understand why I got so scared?â
He nodded helplessly. âI wonât steal you away. Not when I know how much you despise the idea of spending the rest of your time with me.â You noticed how hard he was pressing his hands to his face and you grabbed them in your own. He let you uncover his eyes and you saw how much it hurt him to let you go.
âOh, Sy.â You whispered and hugged his hands to your chest. âYou know thatâs not the reason.â
âStop calling me that. It drives me crazy.â He breathed and met your eyes. âYou drive me crazy. What am I going to do with you? How can I make sure you are safe now?â You took his hands and made him follow you into your bedroom. You sat on your bed and urged him to do the same. This way you could finally talk with him more comfortably.
âSylus, we have to talk about it.â You squeezed his hands and he looked at yours and took notice of how much smaller they were in comparison to his. So fragile, so breakable. He couldnât stand it. His whole body longed to protect you. âI do not despise the idea of spending my time with you. I just canât randomly leave everything I know and love. And this world is different from the one you know, we have our dangers but no one wants my head.â You explained to him slowly. âThere are no Wanderers. No protocores.â He looked conflicted.
âI already know that sweetheart. I do. But when you disappeared for such a long time I couldnât help but think that something bad happened to youâ he gritted through his teeth. âI nearly lost my mind looking for you everywhere. It was terrifying, that thought in my mind and the idea that I would never have another chance to speak with you. To see you.â He touched your forearms and brought you a little closer to him. âAnd when Mephisto found you safe and sound I thought that I never want to feel that fear, that helplessness again. And the only way to do that is to keep you beside me at all times. To guard you with my own body and soul.â He took your hand and rested it on his chest. You could feel the fast and steady rhythm of his heart. You could feel his desperation, his complete devotion. And it almost made you tear up.
âI-Iâm so sorry that I made you worry this much.â He studied your face with intention and you shake your head. âBut I didnât even know that you were real. I really thought it was just a game that made me feel less alone and nowâŠâ You swallowed audibly. âNow I know that everything I built with you during our time together was very much real and Iâm still having trouble to wrap my head around it to be honest.â You smiled at him softly and he nodded with understanding.
âAnd then you came in and wanted to kidnap me to a world much more dangerous than mine where I do not have my close ones andââ
âI did NOT mean for that to be a kidnapping I though that you shared my sentiment, and also wanted to spend some timeââ
âSOME time?? Sylus you wanted me to switch literal worlds and live with you in your freaking villa in the middle of nowhereââ
âI live in an apartment that has a fantastic location, mind you, and you would feel so comfortable inââ
âApartament??? You cannot possibly be a freaking leader of Onychinus and live in an apartment complex, are you being serious with me right now??â
âHave you ever heard of a saying that the darkest place is under the candlestick, kitten? Besides there is no one in the whole N109 Zone that would pose an actual threat to meââ He cut off when he met your eyes full of laughter, and then he heard that beautiful sound. You burst into giggles right in front of him and you touched him by the bicep and brought his forehead to yours. He couldnât help but chuckle too, understanding the absurdity of the situation. Feeling your forehead against his, hearing your adorable chuckles and inhaling your sweet scent made him feel so at peace that he closed his eyes to embrace the moment completely. He couldnât believe that he almost ruined your relationship by being so selfish.
âI missed this. This back and forth with youâ You said and he chucked deeply. âI really am happy to see you, Sy. And I swear that we will be able to talk and spent time with each other more often now. And actually see each other in person.â He nuzzled into your face more and you caught his smirk by the corner of your eye. âWe can stay in touch at all times, so that you wonât have to worry about my safety so much.â
âSo bossy, kitten.â He answered, but the small smile did not leave his face. He couldnât make it go away even if he tried. âForgive me for scaring you earlier. I was not thinking straight. I was just so elated to finally have you in my arms that I let my selfishness get the best of me, and for that Iâm sorry. I did not want to ruin our first meeting, sweetie.â You hugged him by bringing your arms around his chest and he closed his eyes drinking in the proximity. You were too small, too adorable, too attractive for him to take it. Too honest. Too lovable. Made just for him to adore. To protect.
âYou did not ruin anything.â You said into his shirt, hugging him tighter. âI understand you, Sylus. And I like you a little selfish if it means thatâs what brought you to meâ He smiled into your hair and reluctantly let go of your fragile frame. He touched your chin and delicately lifted your face up to face him. His eyes were once again drinking you in, committing every single one of your features to his memory. He sighed contentedly.
âSelfishness was not the reason of my visit.â You could see how his eyes softened and you felt your chest squeeze. You brushed his cheek, loving the way how he seemed to relish in your touch. His eyes wandered to your lips: pink, plump and so inviting. âAdoration was. The complete love and devotion that I have felt for you for quite some time now.â You gasped quietly and opened your lips slightly, which didnât go unnoticed by him.
âSyââ
âAnd I guess a little emotional push was what made me finally find my way to you, my beloved.â He half-whispered, leaned in, and pressed his lips to yours, locking you in a sweet, passionate kiss that went on and on, seeming to deepen with every minute you spent in his embrace.
*Ëâșâ§Í âșË*âąÌ©Ì©Íâ©âąÌ©Ì©Í*Ëâșâ§ÍâșË*
#â˰ mochi writes!#love and deepspace sylus#lnds sylus#sylus qin#sylus#sylus x reader#sylus fluff#sylus angst#l&ds sylus#sylus x you#sylus smut#lads sylus#sylus meeting#sylus real meeting#i was going insane#i think i like my men touch-starved#and desperate#and a liiiitle bit emotionally unstable tbh#pls donât judge#im definitely not a writer#im just a girl with her silly little sylus obsession#eng is not my first language#and thank god for that#i think i have two brains now#and they both think about sylus in an unhealthy amount#welp#love & deepspace#love&deepspace#love&deepspace sylus#sylus x y/n
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childhood bestfriend!kaiser who specifically always demands his managers to reserve a spot for you at every single one of his games.
you always go to support him, with him insisting he needs you there as some sort of âlucky charmâ (he wonât actually admit he thinks those superstitions are bullshit), so imagine his shock when he finds out that your seat is empty on the day of one of the most important games of the seasonâthe game that will decide who gets to compete in the german cup.
itâs ten minutes before the game starts and despite his coachâs pep talk to the team, all kaiser can focus on is your empty seat and the absolute betrayal youâve bestowed upon him, your supposed âbest friend.â
he hasnât realized itânor will he admit it if he ever were to come to such an epiphanyâstubborn as he is, but the reason as to why he does so well in games that youâre present at is because of the fact it gives him more motivation to win and impress you rather than just solely being dependent on the faces of despair from his opponents. a unique sort of euphoria that he gets whenever he can spot you jumping up and down in your seat with his number #10 jersey on, that your praise belongs to him and him only.
so when he steps out on to the field and sees that your seat is still collecting dust, he seethes silently to himself, gritting his teeth, pissed that he even called you his best friend to begin with. because what sort of friend doesnât show up to one of the most important games in germanyâs football?!
heâs still planning to win, of course. heâs michael kaiserâheâs famous for doing so. and he plans to use all his rage that youâve caused to do so, just in spite of you.
because heâs michael kaiser, number ten of bastard mĂŒndchen. he doesnât need your help. he never did.
(see, what he doesnât know is that youâre simply home sick with a cold and that youâre still dressed in his jersey, just also with a sweater and bundles of blankets on top to stay warm, but regardless, youâre still watching and cheering him on from behind the tv screen. youâve sent him some texts and voicemails telling him so, but none have received a reply back yet and you can only imagine what this drama queen has in store for you once he wins the match.)
#kaiser and reader met when they were 8 at readerâs fatherâs bakery#they caught him trying to attempt to steal a bag of bread rolls#and just simply gave them to him under the impression that they were going to give the bread to a classmate for their bday#and gave kaiser a lecture about stealing which he completely ignored#reader kept giving him bread secretly after that#their father knew but simply played along with their lies#might as well have someone take soon to be expired bread anyways#blue lock#bllk#blue lock x reader#michael kaiser x reader#kaiser x reader#michael kaiser x you#kaiser x you#kaiser fluff#kaiser headcanons#kaiser angst#blue lock angst#blue lock oneshots#mini series ; cbf!kaiser
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thinking abt unofficialbf!katsuki who's so soft for you

it was almost impressive how easily bakugo katsuki flipped the switch from raging 'die! die! die!' hothead to... well, this. the grumbly, red-faced mess curled up against you in the quiet of his dorm.
you were lying in his bed, your legs tangled with his under the blanket like it was the most natural thing in the world. which, to be fair, it kind of was. no one could really pinpoint when you and katsuki had become a thing. not even you two. one day you were four years old, standing in a sandbox while he handed you a bright bunch of dandelions and wildflowers and announced that you were his, and somehow it just... stuck?
now, over a decade later, you still found yourself in his bed more often than not, curled into his side, his stupidly strong arm pulling you closer until your face was pressed against the curve of his neck.
he'd grown lots and at the same time not at all since you were kids. physically, his biceps were now the same size as his 4-year-old body. his jawline had gotten much sharper
ââŠyâre warm,â you mumbled sleepily, voice muffled by his skin.
âtch. shut up,â he grumbled, but his hand started rubbing lazy, soothing circles against your back anyway.
you smiled.
he always did that. pretended like your presence was an inconvenience while simultaneously holding you like heâd fall apart if you werenât there. your fingers reached up to card through his messy blond hair, nails gently scraping his scalp in the way you knew made him melt.
sure enough, he let out a sound that was dangerously close to a purr.
ââŠquit that,â he said, sounding exactly zero percent convincing, his whole body melting under your hands. his eyes fluttered shut anyway.
you both lay there in silence for a while, his arms tightened around you, protective and warm. you could almost hear the echoes of your childhood in moments like this. the tickle fights, the hand-holding, the way he used to drag you around like some tiny, furious king with his favorite sidekick. heâd never really stopped. even now, your hand was locked with his under the blankets, his thumb rubbing slow, absentminded circles into your palm.
âkatsuki?â you murmured.
âhm?â
âhi.â
"what?"
"jus' sayin' hi."
âdon't be annoying. i will throw you off this bed.â
âno you wonât. you like cuddling me too much.â
he growled under his breath. no, he wouldn't.
ââŠshut up.â
you didnât. you just nuzzled into his chest, warm and safe and full of something that felt like forever. he let out a tired sigh and held you tighter, like he was trying to memorize the shape of you against him.
you could feel the way his breathing was slowly evening out, signalling he'd be asleep in a minute tops. this was usually the point he'd get stupid affectionate, brain riddled with sleepiness. he probably wasn't even aware of how sappy he'd act, sweet things slipping out without him realizing.
ââŠâm gonna marry you one day,â he mumbled suddenly, barely audible.
you blinked, frozen. that was not just a sweet comment.
ââŠhuh?â
his ears turned bright red.
ânothinâ. go to sleep, dumbass.â
but you didnât miss the way his thumb never stopped rubbing slow, affectionate circles into your hand. or the soft kiss he pressed to the top of your head just before you finally drifted off.
"just friends" my ass.

masterlist if you enjoyed bc unofficialbf!katsuki is the only thing i think abt.
#jisu writes!#unofficialbf!katsuki#you have my whole heart#âjust close! we're not dating!â HE SAID HE WANTED TO MARRY YOU WHILST SLEEPY AND NOT THINKING.#AHHHHHHH#this could very very very much be read as official bf katsuki but i dont love myself enough for that#bakugo x reader#bakugo fluff#bakugo katsuki#katsuki fluff#katsuki x reader#mha fluff#mha x reader#bnha fluff#bnha x reader#bakugou fluff#bakugou angst#bakugou x reader#bakugo angst#bakugo comfort#bakugou comfort
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thinking about tipsy gojoâface flushed, giggly and more ridiculous than usualâwrapping an arm around nanami's shoulder and pointing over at you, who's talking to shoko. "who's that cutie? is she single?" he asks.
nanami rolls his eyes and sighs in annoyance. "that's your wife, idiot."
gojo gasps loudly and dramatically, and he grins so wide that it almost hurts. "no way, really?! wow, lucky me! guys, i have a wife, and she's so pretty!!!" he shouts over the music at the party.
behind him, geto groans and drags a hand down his face. "you are never drinking again."
#today's the 24th and i'm choosing to post gojo fluff instead of gojo angst bc even i don't have the strength for it đđ#posts by rey <3#gojo fluff#satoru gojo x reader#gojo satoru x reader#gojo x female reader#gojo x reader#gojo au#gojo imagine#jjk fluff#jujutsu kaisen fluff#jjk#satoru x reader
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Bubble bath with Sylus.
A little indulgence after yet another tiring day, both clad only in towels as you leaned your back against his broad chest while his arms wrapped loosely around your waist. The soothing warm water engulfing you both under the massive bathtub, the fragrance of the bubbles lingering in the air as Sylus tenderly massaged your aching joints, from your shoulders down to your knees, smiling softly at thought of having to hold you so intimately close like this.
So close, so relaxed and so calm in his arms.
As you glanced over your shoulder to look up at him, a warm smile gracing your lips and the gaze in your eyes -
'She's either rejecting you, scared of you, or... disgusted by you'
- that was once hostile was now filled with pure adoration towards him. A bright loving gaze that made his heart stutter as he watched you scoop up a handful of bubbles before mischievously smudging some on his nose.
"Boop!" Your cheery laughter snapped him out of his daze. The brief flashback of the bittersweet one-sided reunion nearly sent him spiralling into a pit of fear and doubt, but the sound of your joyful voice brought him back to this new reality.
A new reality he vowed to cherish better.
"What a sneaky kitten." Sylus let out a breathy chuckle, his tone teasing yet held a tight-lipped emotions he rather suppress than dwell. "Two can play at that game, sweetie."
In a swift motion, he maneuvered your body around until you were seated on his lap, smirking at your shrieks of surprise before he leaned up to rub his bubbled smudged nose against yours.
"Sylus you-!"
An instantaneous bubble fight was commence, neither both of you back down from playfully smudging soapy bubbles onto each other. The water splashed around the surface of the bathtub, squeals and hearty laughter reverberated in the bathroom.
Such a little indulgence, one Sylus would revel in no matter how childish or silly it was - as long as he's enjoying the moment with you, his dear beloved, he's more than willing to indulge more, together.
#tinaa.blurbs!#sylus fluff#soft sylus#lads sylus#lnds sylus#sylus x reader#sylus x you#sylus x y/n#sylus x mc#love and deepspace#lads fanfic#a little bit of angst and fluff combined ehe#soft domestic sylus#the upcoming new 5* memory got me writing a bubble bath version of a skincare routine lol#let's hope there won't be a multi banner jumpscare before Sylus's bday infold pls have mercy
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OH MY FUCKKK. college roomate!vi is fucking killing meeee. the last one made me literally squeal when i read about vi's vape đ©đ© i am a silly little smoker myself and i was wondering if you'd write something about vi introducing reader to smoking? like one night they're sitting and talking on the couch, maybe watching a movie or something and vi whips out her lost mary (i KNOW thats what she'd smoke) and reader asks kinda out of nowhere to have a hit, and vi laughs a little and then teaches her how to use it (it is an art form), and their faces keep getting closer and closer and they're basically kissing because they're hitting from the same vape, right? RAAAHHHHHH đ©
college roommate!vi cinematic universe not me having to google the brand but yES ur rite she woULD
+18, no sex but vape usage, mdni
"l-like that?"
"yeah, just like that -- breathe in -- hold it -- breathe out --"
you let out a soft groan, the "cherry peach lemonade" flavored smoke slipping from the corners of your lips in streams, vi's eyes flickering down and back up again, her own lips parted, her pupils dark.
"it's -- it's a good flavor," you say, blinking as you hand the vape back to vi, who grins and takes a long hit, leaning back slow, one hand on the vape, the other slung lazily across the sofa back, letting the smoke unfurl from her mouth. you watch, mesmerized as she rounds out her lips and blows out little smoke rings just to make you laugh.
"yeah, it's nice," vi says, her voice soft as she glances back at you, at the way your eyes have gone just a bit hazy. she leans forward, tugging your chin towards her with a thumb and forefinger, a mischievous grin sweeping across her face.
"open your mouth for me, pretty girl."
you do, letting your mouth fall slack as vi takes another long hit and blows the smoke into your mouth. like this, you can feel the cool of the smoke, the warmth of her breath, the strange duality sending tingles shooting down your back, a coil tightening in your gut as you breath in.
your lashes flutter as the high slips through your body, the weightlessness gathering in your loosening muscles.
"i-i've seen people do that before --" you say, grasping for something to fill the strange, ethereal silence, "at parties," you clarify, hoping for... you're not entirely sure what.
vi chuckles, "yeah? it's called shotgunning. it's... a bit gentler than just taking a hit straight from the vape so --"
she pulls you towards her again, this time, you lean in and your lips are so close you can feel the heat of her skin against yours.
you open your mouth without her prompting, and you don't miss the way her pupils dilate at the motion. and just for a second, you can taste your own heartbeat -- the sweet cherry peach lemonade tang of it at the back of your throat -- before vi's blowing another steady stream of smoke into you and you're breathing it in, tasting her -- wondering if her lips would be just as sweet without all the flavored smoke --
"there... think that's enough for you for tonight?" vi asks, pulling back with a grin.
you lick your lips, glancing at the tv screen.
"we've missed like... half the movie."
vi laughs, grabbing for the remote, "yeah well. we were busy. luckily, there's a rewind button."
you keep quiet as she rewinds through the parts of the movie the both of you missed, your mind a berry-tinted haze of half-formed thoughts. you inch closer to her, pressing your thigh to hers, letting your head drop onto her shoulder.
"thanks, vi," you say, your eyes cast towards the tv but not really seeing it at all.
she stills beneath your touch.
"what for, princess?"
you nuzzle your head deeper into her neck, "nothing just... glad you're here."
after a beat, vi curls an arm around your shoulder and gives you a squeeze.
"i'll always be here, princess. whenever you need me. and even if you don't. got it?"
you giggle, closing your eyes and letting the bright neons of the movie play out behind your eyelids like the passing of so many days and nights.
"i'll always need you, vi... even if you think i don't." and your voice is so, slow, honest. so honest that vi feels her chest squeeze. she settles for brushing her lips along the seam of your hair.
"then i guess we're stuck with each other for the long haul, aren't we princess?"
you let out a sleepy little laugh, nodding.
"yeah. guess we are."
#â monsoon season#bf: why... r u looking at vapes? r u going to get one? me: /pinches nosebridge/ no /sighs/ it's... fic research#vi x reader#arcane x reader#vi x you#arcane x you#vi arcane#vi fluff#arcane fluff#vi smut#arcane smut#i ALMOST ended this on an angst note ALMOST and then i rmbred that vi deserves only good things#so i didnt LOL#arcane#lesbian#âš steamy#this also made me want to go out and get a fucking vape so bad#i used to own a HOOKAH RIG YALL one of those tiny ones that you can like do at home IT WAS A NOT A GOOD TIME#i mean it was a great time but FOR MY LUNGS IT WAS NOT A GOOD TIME#college roommate!vi#i did u one better babe im just having vi shotgun smoke into ur mouth#HAHA
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four eyes. | BF x Reader






PAIRINGS: Bob Floyd x Fem!Reader
SYNOPSIS: asking bob to make a mess of himself on your face while you wear his glasses? absolutely.
WORD COUNT: 1.8k
WARNINGS: ahem, SMUT, established relationship, profanity, oral (m!receiving), deepthroating, facial, handjob, cum eating, dirty talk, begging, slightly sub!reader, praise, aftercare and such sweet affection from bobby, not proofread and mdni!!, reader is a minx, brief mention of term âslutâ, size kink, awkward sweetheart w a big dick!bob,
A/N: this is the most filthiest shit Iâve ever written and if you like this ur crazy⊠*reblogs, comments and likes the post*
âWhat are you up to?â he drawls, watching carefully as you crawl over his naked midriff and through the sea of bedsheets. Post-sex endorphins were through the roof right now for Bob, a wave of happy tiredness sweeping over the pilot.
You huff, hand outstretched as you reach for Bob's glasses perched on the bedside table.
âI wanna try these onâ you say to him, balancing yourself as you try to grab the frames. Bob chuckles, a hand coming to rub your ass lovingly.
You bit your lip to fight the feeling of a grin spreading on your face, the feeling of Bob's soft hands tickling you as you playfully pushed him away, all the while he simply beams at you.
The hand supporting yourself on his hard chest slips, causing you to collapse on top of your boyfriend, your naked breasts brushing over his cock and sending a shiver down his spine.
A firm hand comes to still yourself. âCarefulâ he says softly, hands warm.
Bob looks over, grabbing the glasses just as you were about to pick them up, and holding them out of your reach. You protest, trying to get ahold of the frames you loved so much. Bob puts them on, allowing himself to properly see his girl.
âYou donât wanna wear these, they donât look good on anyone. Including me.â he mumbles, adjusting you on top of him.
But you're quick to swipe them off his face, ignoring Bob's laughs when you put the glasses on yourself and straddle his hips. âI like them, theyâre cute,â you tell him.
âWell what dâya know?â Bob utters softly to himself when he sees you, gazing up at his girl wearing the steel rimmed aviators and looking absolutely breathtaking.
âHi there, four eyesâ he chuckles, finding it odd saying a phrase heâs been nicknamed all his childhood. Hell, even Seresin has no problem calling him that to this day.
Bob smiles, strong but soft hands coming to rest on your hips as you sat dangerously close to where his happy trail leads to. Your brows furrowed as you viewed the world through his lenses.
âJesus, Bob, you really are blind!â You uttered, looking down at the blurry man seated against the bedpost.
Bobâs become busy at the moment, pressing pecks to your hardended nipples. He simply nods, pretending heâs listening.
âYou should go to the eye doctor, honeyâ
Bob peaks through, giving you a look. âThatâs where I got themâ
âHm.â
The room is silent, a soft glow of the afternoon sunlight peeking through the white shutters. You feel the corners of Bobâs lips curling into a smile against your skin, a silent worship to your body.
âYouâre so soft.â he murmurs.
âHoney,â you call to your boyfriend.
âHm?â Bob replies absentmindedly, still brushing his face along your chest, hugging you closer.
You tug on his brown locks, pulling his head from your body and looking down at him.
âI wanna try something.â you grinned, a mischievous glint in your eyes mixed with a bottle of excitement. You quickly press a kiss to his lips.
Bob watches as you pull from his grasp, lips forming a small frown from the loss of contact as you shuffled down the bed so you were now kneeling on the floor by the edge.
Bob looks over at you quizzically, wondering what you were up to before you beckon towards him, ushering him to sit at the edge of the bed.
âCome sit, Robertâ you directed, calling him by his birth name to get his attention.
His soft cock limps near his thighs as he adjusts himself, sitting before you in all his naked glory, hair tousled by your hands and a pink blush ghosting his cheeks. His hand comes up to play with your hair, tucking a loose strand behind your ear. You look up in seriousness and confess.
âI want you to cum on these glassesâ
Bob stops all motion, hand still tucked behind your ear. The room falls silent.
âWhat?â
You ignore the bafflement of your crimson cheeked boyfriend, bending down to lick a long stripe up his veiny shaft. A loud moan and harsh tug against your scalp brings you to take him further, almost triggering your gag reflexes. It all happens so fast. Bob mutters incoherently from the sudden gesture, both of you going slightly insane when your nose presses against his pubic bone as tears form near your eyes.
âBaby, hold on a moment, Jesus fuck!â
Youâre worried youâre going to make a mess on the floor from the way your slick almost drips from your pussy.
Youâve been thinking of this fantasy for a while if you were to be honest. Bob pulls you back, gasping for air as a proud feeling settles in your chest. Itâs not everyday you hear Bob cuss like that.
Heâs panting hard, watching as a bit of saliva is smeared on your lips, eyes glossy. Bob sighs in exasperation as you decide to stroke his cock with your hands.
âYou gotta let me speak-â
âPlease, Bobbyâ you beg, pressing kisses to the pink tip and relishing in the way you feel him harden in your hand. A loud groan escapes Bob's throat, feeling sensitive despite having had sex the whole afternoon with you.
âI want you to cum while I have your glasses onâ you told him, kitten licks getting the best of your boyfriend. âLike in those pornosâ you mumble softly, your shy giggles driving Bob insane.
âNobody says pornos anymoreâ he mumbles telling you, swallowing hard when you tug on his cock tighter for not responding.
Bob clears his throat. âYou, um, want me to give you a facial?â He asks softly, holding onto your hand that's stroking his cock.
You nod eagerly.
âA-Are you sure?â He says, worried that taking him like this is gonna wear you out. In all honesty, the boy canât help but grow hard at the thought of cumming all over your innocent face, big eyes covered by his glasses milked by his seed.
You nod, excitement and horniness flowing through your body.
âPlease, honey, I want you to see me paintedâ you sighed, thumb brushing over the thick tip, smearing precum over the slit.
Bob thinks heâs gonna cum just from this angle, but he needs you so badly he tries to regain composure. He bends down to kiss you, tasting himself on your lips and letting your face be held in his soft touch. âLet me know if it's too much babyâ he addresses in concern, the tears on your cheeks worrying him.
You sniffle, nodding your head to assure him. âWant you so bad, Bobby, let me suck youâ
Your last few words are incoherent from the way you let Bobâs big cock stuff your throat, making you gag but desperately hold on. Bob lets go, both hands coming to balance himself on the edge, one gripping the bed sheets.
The sensation is fucking marvellous. You feel so full, loving the way the stretch of your mouth and untouched ache of your pussy turn you cockdrunk on Bob Floydâs dick.
You look up, desperate to see how he's taking you, wanting to see the expression of him getting the daylights sucked out of him.
Lieutenant Bob ruts his hips pathetically, trying so hard not to make a mess of your mouth and hurt you. His head is pulled back, groans falling from his soft lips as he praises you so good.
âThatâs it baby, doing so well for meâ he sighs, now two large hands coming to push you a little further, a groan falling from his lips as you take him fully now.
âGod, I love you!â he cries out loud, an instinctive response coming from your boyfriend as he caresses your hair, tucking a strand behind your ear. You smile, aviator lenses reflecting the light as your lips are wrapped securely around his dick.
âSo pretty, such a pretty girlâ he says under his breath, admiring the way your tits bounce along with every stroke on his cock. You gasp, pulling away as you let your fist do the rest.
âI love you too, Bobbyâ you gasped, looking up to find Bob staring at you intensely, with such a fierce gaze of love, sensuality, and pure awe.
âH-How,â he begins, starting to feel a familiar feeling settle inside him. âHow did I get so lucky with you?â He admits, wanting nothing more but to see his cum painting his glasses youâre wearing. He thinks he might just let you have them. Being able to see is overrated anyways.
âI think Iâm gonna cum, babyâ he lets out, watching as your eyes get eager, adjusting your sore knees so you can get the perfect angle.
âPlease baby, give it to meâ you begged, pussy so sensitive you have to make sure you hold yourself up enough so the cold wooden floors donât brush against your folds.
Watching you rub his dick like that, mouth open and face ready is an image Bob will have ingrained in his mind forever, a hot spurt of milky liquid shooting onto your lips as Bob finally gives you what you wanted.
Incoherent mumbles fill the sweaty bedroom, letting one hand cup his balls as the other makes sure to smear the warm fluid all over your lips, glasses starting to get foggy.
âFucking hellâ Bob cries out, spilling your name from his lips like a sacred mantra.
You hum, a wave of both happiness and satisfaction washing over you as you sit in front of Bobâs glory.
You let the man come down from his high, tasting salt and your boyfriend in your mouth. Before you can even clean yourself up, Bob is ripping off the dirtied glasses framing your face, and grabbing you towards him for a passionate kiss. The action makes you dizzy, your red, sore knees almost buckling under.
Itâs only a while after when he pulls away, grabbing for a box of tissues near the nightstand and pressing a kiss to your cheek. âIâm sorry for the messâ he replies shyly, the image of this tall, naked, handsome, and yet totally awkward giant taking care of you making it all worthwhile.
âItâs okayâ you reply, voice hoarse. You couldnât help but feel happy, even if you didnât cum (Bob would see to it later of course).
You feel him use the tissues to wipe your chin, face, and tits, or really, what was leftover after you sucked it all up like a slut.
âYouâre crazy sometimes, you know that?â Bob mumbles, shaking his head as he smiles at you, his soft touch so rewarding.
You laugh, latching your arms around his neck and letting him hoist you up so easily. His semi-hard cock limps against your stomach, both of you standing up and lips pressing together in another soft kiss.
âThank you for the most mind blowing head of my life.â He jokes.
âThanks for the facialâ you gleam, sucking your fingers with a pop that makes Bob weak, falling back down on the mattress and taking you with him so youâre straddling him again.
Bob reaches for the glasses, getting a tissue so he could wipe them before an idea pops in your head and you stop him.
You put on the glasses again. He looks up.
âBobby, whereâs the Polaroid camera?â
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