#tomyrapist

[mydiaryofgloom]

Im so mad

Im not a good person. But I am not a bad person. Why did you rape me? I trusted you. I loved you. I cared for you. You broke that for a minute of self service. With no remorse, it is only me left with all these emotions now. I am dealing with these alone. I have no one to talk to. I am trapped. How can I hurt others by telling them what happened? How could you hurt me by doing what you did. That is not love. That is fear, hatred, desperation that you violated me with. And now I am alone with my feelings even years later. I still try to wrap my head around what you did. I am so mad. I am so hurt. I did not deserve this. I absofuckinglutely hate you. and I am trying to forgive you at the same time for leaving me with all this despair. 

[goodgirlhideaway-blog]

You might of broken me, but i'm still alive.

goodgirlhideaway

[0nemorelostsoul-blog]

In so many ways my life will never be the same. I will never be calm, and you may never leave my head. Not when I'm walking down the street and see someone who resembles you in the least, not when I'm laying in my bed trying to sleep and your all I can see, and god forbid you leave my thoughts when I want sex. You ruined everything. I desire nothing but to be cradled in my lovers arms, safe and away from all the pain. I will never look at so many things the same as I used to. I will never feel safe again. Fuck you for that.