#too much energy. cannot focus on anything. putting the hyper in hyperfixation

[oplishin]

might have to run outside for 20 minutes until i fix myself

do you ever avoid consuming a piece of media because you know it's going to ruin your plans. because you're going to be too happy

[psychreatrix]

THINGS I NEVER KNEW THAT WERE ADHD

The- first of all being paranoid that my diagnosis is a lie for no particular reason. 

-Spending a lot of mental energy in trying to seem “normal”

- Needing people to always be honest about how they exactly feel because you scared yourself into reading way into people’s body language and overthinking.

-Switching from one tab to other when browsing because you can’t focus on one thing for more than a few minutes.

-Gets bored easily but also needs to be constantly simulated by new things. Hence the excessive shopping. At this point I’m literally buying my way into getting my brain to make dopamine so I can do the things. 

-Making elaborate plans of how to go about my day, never seeing them through because I got distracted scrolling through my phone. 

-Always remembering to do that one thing when I’m supposed to focus on something entirely different. 

-Did I mention being around people is EXHAUSTING?

-Someone repeating the same sentence to you three times and still not being able to understand it.

-switching tasks every 10 seconds

-opening your phone to check the weather but ends up going through my photos, snapchat tumblr twitter and checking when my period is due and then putting my phone away without having actually checked the weather.

-thrives when not forced to live on someone else’s schedule 

-antisocial because I really cannot 

-hyperfixating on reading and forgetting to eat

-some of these things are also self sabotaging behaviours

-only being able to spend hours on end with people who have similar adhd 

-meditation helps because it allows me to have brain sitting still time. 

-running helps because it distracts me from wanting to a break a wall. 

-will indulge in self sabotaging behaviour while being in denial about said self sabotaging behaviour. 

-knowing better but not being to do anything about 

-everything has to be exceptionally clean or my brain cant function

-forgetting your train of thought because you got distracted.

-constantly finding a new thing to be obsessed with.

-not being able to eat certain kinds of food because its too over simulating.

-constantly needing something to look forward to. 

-everything is a priority and everything needs to be done at the same time or nothing is going to work.

-marijuana calms me down.

-needing to masturbate for a dopamine hit so you can function.

-speaking of, having a high sex drive because you’re constantly understimulated. 

-you start damn near yelling when talking about something that makes you excited. 

-having to act out when telling a story because you need convey the story exact as it happened. or having to emphasize things so the opposite person knows how important this is to you.

-wanting to have 7 different aesthetics at the same time.

-angry typing 

-having a big dog is actually calming because hyper dogs keep us on our toes and simulated. They’re also really anxiety relieving. 

-having a different circadian rhythm that makes it hard for me to wake up in the morning but perfectly functional if I wake up around noon and stay up late into the night. 

-being able to do more creative work at night when you’re alone.

-eating sugar because i’m starting to get depressed 

-TikTok is great because it makes information concise and interactive enough to hold my attention. So much so that you can hyperfixated and do it for hours.

-Finding it more comfortable to listen to music in a foreign languages because it catches your attention since you don't understand it.