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[atricksternamedteri]

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[drghostwrite]

Holding onto you… (pt. 2)

Summary: following part one… “let’s have a baby”…Callie and Y/N start their pregnancy journey.

Pairing: Callie Torres x reader

TW: mentions of miscarriage and loss!!

please, please skip this part if it is a trigger for you… the other part will flow semi seamlessly if you can’t read this part.

******************************************************** You stood there frozen, two pink lines staring back at you. “Oh my God, I’m pregnant.” You whispered to yourself in the empty locker room the seeing the test in your hand, you heard a door open and quickly shoved the positive pregnancy test in your pocket.

“Dr. Torres?” A gentle voice taunted with fear whispered.

“Yes?” You turned seeing Jo standing there.

“Your wife… Err… the other Dr. Torres is requesting a consult.”

“oh okay, um…” you grabbed your stethoscope hanging it around your neck, “let’s go.”

“wait I can come?” She asked shocked that you would let her tag in on a surgery instead of doing scut.

“Your my intern aren’t you?”

“yea, but…”

“well I don’t know about everyone else but my goal is to make you a world class surgeon, which means surgeries…” you trailed.

“thank you.” She grinned.

“yea, yea don’t get used to it.” You chuckled seeing her excitement.

a few moments later you found yourself in a reading room looking at the scans on the walls, the only thing pulling you from the trance is Wilson’s pager going off.

“Oh sorry gotta go…”

“your fine.” You said as she scurried out of the room.

“So Dr. Devine, who did you intimidate today?” Callie said teasingly.

“Ugh intimidate you know I hate that people say that.”

“Yea well Ortho Goddess marries Trauma Goddess, they should be intimidated.” She leaned in pulling you close by your hips, placing a quick kiss to your lips with a mischievous grin.

“haha very funny.” You giggled against her lips. “I do have some news for you though…” you said.

“oh? And what is that?”

“here…” you handed her the test that you had shoved in your pocket.

“what is… oh my God, Y/N are you?” She gasped.

“yea.” You shook your head tears coming to your eyes, hugging her.

“your pregnant, we’re gonna have a baby.”

the next few weeks flew by, you were waiting to tell to many people but of course Jo found out bc she walked in on you and Callie talking about it. It didn’t matter much though over the last few weeks she had become like family, the little sister you never had, Meredith and Bailey knew because Callie told them and of course you told Addison. Everyone was so excited for you both, that was until one night.

You were laying in bed, Callie behind you one hand protectively around your stomach as you both slept, you started to stir next to her feeling nauseous. You sat up slow letting your sense come to and that when you felt it wetness on the sheets, your body felt sore and cramps were slowly intensifying as you came to.

“Callie?” You called, letting your eyes adjust, “Hey baby?” You shook her shoulder gently. You reached a hand down feeling between your thighs, that’s when terror set in, you could see the deep crimson staining your finger tips, “Callie, Callie wake up!!” You yelled.

“Y/N what’s going on?!” She shot up, wide awake.

“The baby, Callie, I’m bleeding.”

“no, no…” she quickly got out of bed and helped you, you don’t bother changing as she rushed you to the hospital, cramps turning into contractions, every gasp tearing through your wife. She called Addison and told her to be ready.

she pulled up into the ambulance bay, Kepner and Hunt running out alongside Addison and Arizona who quickly barked orders.

“I want as much O neg as we can get and get me monitors for mom and baby, we’re going right to OB… let’s move people.”

Before you new it you had every monitor you could imagine hooked to you, nurses rushing around the room, “Callie?”

“right, I’m right here.”

“I’m scared, what if?…”

“no… no.” She said trying to calm you down.

A few moments later and everything went quiet, you held your breath waiting for relief to come. Addison came into the room, the door slowly closing behind her.

“What? What’s wrong, what happened?” You asked.

“um… well, it seems that…” she stopped taking a breath and letting a tear fall while trying to compose herself.

“No… No!” You cried out, sobs overtaking your body as you pulled Callie closer.

“I’m so sorry.” Addison let tears fall, how do you tell your best friend that she just lost one of the only things she’s ever wanted.

Callie climbed into the bed with you pulling you to her chest as she let tears fall into your hair, you sobbed into her chest your entire body shaking. Addison quickly left the room, going to inform Webber that you and Callie would both be needing time alone to grieve.

Returning to work weeks later was no different, not many knew about the pregnancy, those that did know were solemn but admired the way that you kept pulling through. Though many could see the open wound that still haunted you, Callie was by your side for all of it, grieving with you and helping you as you processed everything.

though the first time didn’t work you tried again, the second time didn’t take so you tried a third, so far nothing but you were hopeful.

[petite-carcass]

what a difference 2 years and some determination can make!

I unfortunately don't know my current weight atm, but I think the difference is quite obvious!! edit: im 128 lbs!!

my face is showing quite a bit in the before picture, but tbh i think i look so different now that itd be quite surprising if anyone even recognized me, so im kinda okay with leaving my face uncensored. ive still got a long way to go until i reach my ugw, but i wanted to celebrate this victory first!!

it should also be noted that i didn't completely get to this goal weight with @n@ tips. the first huge chunk of my weight loss journey was helped by cutting back calories at a healthy rate and exercising in a healthy manner